Sometimes we come across feelings that we tend to enjoy or experience without realizing the true meaning of the subject. Our curiosity towards the unknown feeling emerges until we find an answer towards the given challenge. Then slowly as the power of curiosity increases, we come to certain things or some random people come into our life for a short period. They knowingly or unknowingly put you into situations and departs with a deep message of hope. This post is about how friends live on in my memory after they had gone.

Entering the system

I first came across an unknown song from my college hostel during the days of discoveries. Being a fresher, I was caught up with that particular song from a seniors room. During our initial days at college, all fresher’s in the hostel were not allowed to mingle much with our seniors but always gave our respect to their terms and conditions when time came. Finding the origin of the song was a huge task for me. I used to wait patiently and memorize the lines of the track when it starts to flow from the corridor. Apparently, the curiosity towards finding the song and the first line of the song resembled the situation I was in. ‘Helo is there anybody in there’ initiated me to the world of Pink Floyd through the track ‘comfortably numb’. Watching the video of the song made me no sense at the first place. But I continue to bloom with Pink Floyd songs without understanding the meaning of their lyrics.

The shining sun

As a year went by, I became a privileged senior and had the pleasure of being inducted in a friends circle of my immediate seniors. There, I became close to a person called Jake (name changed). Jake was a shy, smart and a helpful guy who once told me in my first year that ‘you should learn to tell a lie’ because I used to stumble upon finding a good lie when seniors asked me questions. Jake had a best friend called Yakob (name changed), an enthusiastic guy who was very active in sports and cultural activities. Yakob sometimes looks like a creature from a lost world when he comes and spends time with us. Later, I came to understand that Yakob had his choice of freedom into different categories of drugs which he enjoyed having it alone or within his friend’s circle. As three good years went down the lane, it was time for my seniors to wrap up their stories behind and go forth with their future.

Lost in thought and lost in time

It was during my final year, I heard that Jake and Yakob had come to college for some reasons. Yakob was clean for months but coming back to college, his old world started to invade him with a thunder. Jake was totally against it but to him, Yakob was his world and unwillingly he had to agree to Yakob’s decision. It was a Friday afternoon in the hostel room, I saw Yakob exactly like Bob Geldof, as portrayed in the starting of ‘comfortably numb’ music video, relaxing on a wooden chair with his head slightly bend towards the right. Yakob was heavily breathing with eyes closed. Out of curiosity, I asked one of the guys what was going on with him, to that they replied ‘oh, it’s natural’.

Prisoner in own world

Yakob was proclaimed dead at the hospital on June 22nd, 2007 due to an overdose of drug intake. It was a black Friday for my college hostel with high confusions and tensions among friends, students, and the management. During the complicated scenes at the hostel, I saw Jake leaving the gates with his head glued to the earth in a form guilt and regret. That was the last time I saw him. It’s been a decade now and the identity of Jake is a mystery among us. Now, when I hear the song ‘comfortably numb’, it brings back the memories of Yakob on how he was taken as a hostage by himself in a world of lost creatures. As a matter of fact, the music and the video of ‘comfortably numb’ had explained the meaning of the subject through the life of Yakob.

Towards hope and freedom

Now, as the world grows with new versions of synthetic drugs and ‘blue whale‘ challenges among teenagers, the process of coming back to life would be a hard task once ‘it‘ had entered the system. The disappearance of Jake had made my feelings go down at times but influenced me in sharing stories to teenagers on how to keep healthy friendships and after effects on taking dark dangerous instruments. Sometimes, I do believe that I will have the privilege in meeting Jake once again as a brother and make myself free from this mysterious feeling of numbness forever. Till then the search continues…

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