Biggest Curse Ever

The more time passes the more I realized that I was cursed by being a Hispanic who looks Asian with no money. I have seen pretty much any type of men who doesn't look Asian with an attractive Latina or white women. White men, black men, Hispanic men (who don't look Asian) and even Indian men have it much easier with Latinas than men who look Asian. These women are way out of my league due to my race and I have felt sad due to this for years. (crying nearly every day since my teens). A lot of these other men wouldn't need to be rich to be with an attractive Latina while an Asian looking guy with no money would have no chance with them. I have the feeling that these women are never attracted with me and my bad personality doesn't help me either.