And you have friends and family who look at you and don’t understand just why you beat yourself up so much, or why you’re suddenly shy, or study so much and they get annoyed or frustrated because you’re not socialising like you should be. And you become reclusive and depressed and hate yourself because your friends aren’t spending all their time reading and re-reading books and still not getting the material, because they learnt from a young age how to study and perfected it over the years. But you didn’t have that, so now you’re scrambling and rushing and starting from scratch and no one is willing to help you because they think you’re being “dramatic” or “a nerd” but the truth is, you’re trying to remain afloat in this sudden landscape where the water has breached the banks and you suddenly learnt that you can’t swim as well as you could in the shallows of primary education.