Sinéad O’Connor has shared a video on her personal Facebook page where she discusses her ongoing battle with mental illness. In the video, which she posted on August 3, O’Connor begins, “I hope that this video is somehow helpful, not actually to me but the fact I know that I’m only one of millions and millions and millions of people in the world that are just like me.” She continues, “I’m fighting, fighting, fighting, fighting, and fighting—like all the millions and millions that I know I’m one of—to stay alive everyday, which I’m doing because I love the people that are doing this to me. I’m not staying alive for me. If it were me, I’d be gone.”

O’Connor says that she is living alone in a Travelodge motel in New Jersey. According to South Hackensack Police Capt. Robert Kaiser, police made a welfare check but O’Connor was not in the motel room, the Associated Press reports. Kaiser does not believe she is staying there and police are unsure where she lives.

After the video spread online, a new uncredited post appeared on O’Connor’s page. “Hi everybody, I am posting at Sinéad’s request, to let everyone who loves her know she is safe, and she is not suicidal,” it reads. “She is surrounded by love and receiving the best of care. She asked for this to be posted knowing you are concerned for her.”

Last year, in the span of two months, police were twice alerted that O’Connor was suicidal. After the first instance, O’Connor was found unharmed following a missing persons search. Following the second alert, O’Connor called suicide rumors “bullshit.”