Ok so I just took a fresman sociobiology class. And I learned that Asian males have what would be called "beta male" characteristics. Less aggressive and violent, communitarian based, intelligent and weak. Basically the worst combination for sexual selection in America. Reading the darwinist blog onestdv, a commentator even suggested that loser white males should marry asian females, and their daughters would look hot, but they should abort male sons, theyd do crummy in the sexual marketplace.



Its not like my mom immigrated from a 3rd world hell hole. she comes from an "Asian tiger" nation. So if I had been born there I might have slightly less income, but more social comfort.



As for me I'm completely immersed in western culture. I only know whites from my dad side, can't read Asian language, have barely any contact with my mom's family in Asia. And just culturally am pretty much a typical white-guy in an Asians body. Which I think makes my perception worse than if I was just an Asian-American.



I used to blame the white guys for having yellow fever and stuff. But according to science, its the asian females who deserve the blame, since males of all races try to mate with all races. Its the females who in every single race but east asian, chose their own over others. I have nothing against interracial marriages in the abstract. I just think that in the specific circumstances of American culture, asian females who mate with whites, hurt all asian men. Now maybe its ok for them to put individual interest over race. But the thing is their Eurasian male sons, like me, have to suffer the consequences. So its not some abstract racial myth, but their own offspring. Maybe their right and eurasian couples should just abort the males like me. How dare my mom or dad ever lecture me on anything, when they have no idea what its like to be an Asian male in America. They don't have my experience so what right to they have to advise? I feel like an African born to a white slave owner or a Jew born to a Roman conquerer. My very birth marks my own defeat.



Advice?



I think Urbandictionary defines my type pretty well:



Hapas male often have trouble when they become teenagers. In fact, asian women that married white men did so because they preferred white men and even though there is nothing wrong with it, it still creates a problem because an hapa male is still an asian male in our society, especially in the eyes of white people.



Growing up as a hapa male, you understand that your mother is like those asian american women going for white men and your dad, well, a white man having a yellow fever. Therefore, being a hapa male is often being a contradiction in the sense that you are exactly what your parents were against: an asian men.



White man with yellow fever: I love asian women and I'm glad there are asian women like your mother that like better us white men than you asian men.



Hapa male: I guess you're right