"I couldn't value life until I risked losing something worth more to me than my behavior," the actor explained. "I am f---ing lucky to be here, to be honest. Any near-death experience — if you're lucky enough to f---ing realize that it is one — is going to leave an indelible mark on you. And then you add shame and guilt and fear into that, it's a recipe for awareness if you have the ability to become aware from it. And good things can come back into your life."