I'm back online, niggaz Read the title! whooo!! im back online, but only for an hour a day but w/e! yay!!!!!!!!! I was gonna go to school today hang out with those "hot babes" but i overslept by about umm... 3 hours, lol. im sawy. i actually kind of wanted to go. I also wanted to ride the bus but... grr... i hate my sleeping habits... *tear* ah well, i got to lay around all day doing nothing which saddens me because i was looking forward to getting out of this house, away from these people for a while. hmm not much left to say.... Posted at 09:12 pm by ComaWhite

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GRRR my mom won't let me use the computer anymore. I think she broke it. w/e. im blogging in integrated tech, by the way, and there isn't much to write about. Darrick isn't here so im all alone. Also, im pretty sure im gonna throw up. so, yeah i just wanted to explain why i won't be blogging as much anymore. goooood im so sick Posted at 11:45 am by ComaWhite

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hmmm.. lol, my latest blogs haven't even been all that bad and everyone still knows how sucky my life is... oh well... no since in hiding it... i have to go shopping again today. :( my mom wants me to get prep clothes. im not allowed to wear black anymore. :( god.... what am going to do??? well, SOMETHING drastic has to be done soon. idk...



<----sexy!! from Queen Of The Damned... coolest movie ever! Yay vampires! Posted at 11:20 am by ComaWhite

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T.S.I.F!!!!!!!! Well. I am very near ready to kill darrick and eat his corpse. Yes, I am THAT angry. AHHH! hes pissed off, so i tried to comfort him and he just screamed at me and told me to call Sandy for him and tell her to call him (idk why). So i did, and i didn't mind doing that anyway, cause sandy is a very nice person who is deserving of my time. ANYWAYS: i like someone and i like them very very much. and i am not about to tell you who they are. I love him. I know i tell everyone i love them, and i really do mean it because you people are cool. but i really...idk..... nvm. He doesn't like me to my knowledge, so... w/e.

but i also like 2 or 3 OTHER guys. god im such a freaking whore. lol. but one of them doesn't count cause he REALLY doesn't like me. hmm. its time to update the little side section of my blog :-\ Posted at 07:31 pm by ComaWhite

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my sims are gay I went shopping today. I got an Eric Draven (the crow guy) shirt and a marilyn monroe (thats right Marilyn MONROE, lol) that one is too small, so..yeah. i also got a bracelet that says "twisted" and some jeans. oh and the HIM Razorblade Romance cd, which is AMAZINGLY GREAT. :D oh, and about the title, well...my sims are gay. lol. so far i have 1 lesbian couple and 1 gay one. its quite..odd. lol. It's getting too hot for me. God, i miss winter already. i still haven't fixed my comment thing...





~~LATER~~

**I meant the TEMPERATURE was getting too hot. not the gay Sims Posted at 09:17 pm by ComaWhite

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i hate titles hmmm. Celia picked me up around 2 today. She was in a hurry, so i literally RAN in jordans house, hugged him, kissed darrick and ran back out the door. his dad looked at me like i was crazy. i was scared he wasn't gonna let me in. oh...what else should i write? im OBSESSED with tainted love. like, i listened to it every second i wasn't in the car.... BEST FUCKING SONG EVER!



Tainted Love

Sometimes I feel I've got to

Run away

I've got to

Get away

From the pain you drive in the heart of me

The love we share

Seems to go nowhere

I've lost my light

For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night Once I ran to you (I ran)

Now I run from you

This tainted love you've given

I give you all a boy could give you

Take my tears and that's not nearly all

Tainted love

(Ooh) Tainted love Now I know I've got to

Run away

I've got to

Get away

You don't really want anymore from me

To make things right

You need someone to hold you tight

And you think love is to pray

But I'm sorry I don't pray that way Once I ran to you (I ran)

Now I run from you

This tainted love you've given

I give you all a boy could give you

Take my tears and that's not nearly all

Tainted love

(Ooh) Tainted love Don't touch me please

I cannot stand the way you tease

I love you though you hurt me so

But now I'm gonna pack my things and go

Touch me baby, tainted love

Touch me baby, tainted love

Touch me baby, tainted love

Touch me baby, tainted love Once I ran to you (I ran)

Now I run from you

This tainted love you've given

I give you all a boy could give you

Take my tears and that's not nearly all

Tainted love

(Ooh) Tainted love

(Ooh) Tainted love

(Ooh) Tainted love Posted at 08:52 pm by ComaWhite

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AHHHHHHHH i sware to god im about to go over the edge i cant fucking take anymore of my mother calling me not good enough. i can not take it! what so wrong with me??? am i THAT horrible looking? AM I? Am i so ugly that every bit of me needs to be altered?!?? wtf? because up until a little while ago i thought i looked ok. but then my mother goes on a big fucking power trip and decides that im ugly and the more she says it the more i believe it. am i good enough? because it seems like everyone has left me and im so alone. i don't feel needed or wanted in the world anymore. i haen't always been like this. just 2 weeks ago i was happy...not ecstatic but still happy. im sick of smiling when all i want to do is break down in tears.

Jordan,

im sorry if i've angered you. but you know i love you. how could i not? i don't care if you hate me forever, i still love you. its impossible not to. your still as much a part of my life as you always have been. and i hope your girlfriend forgives you for whatever it was that you did to her, because i don't think i've ever heard you talk like that about a girl before...and...idk. i just wish the best for you.im sorry.



Save yourself (me),

Tara









Posted at 08:10 pm by ComaWhite

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Save yourself (me),Tara





Untitled in case you don't read the comments, yeah, that last post was intended for you. and im sorry. not that you cared in the first place....



moving on...

My mother has decided to let me go to sandy's house tommorow (remember im writing this at 1 o'clock in the morning) on the condition that i wear no black. sooo...yay. and i watched the Village. it sucked SOO much. everyone told me it did, but (much like The Grudge) i had to find out for myself. and it did suck. the only reason im blogging is because i won't be able to tommorow and i don't want to miss a day, lol. im becoming obsessive. i wish i had a little icon thing to put at the end of this entry. goodbye people. i love you all. *hug* Posted at 12:52 am by ComaWhite

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Cyclops List of things my mother wants me to do: 1.get blond highlights

2.wear jeans and "sexy little tops"

3.get a tan

4.be Hallee (my brother's daughter for those of you who don't know)

5.be everyone else

6. be completely artifical

7. get all the guys to look at me List of things I want to do: 1. dye my hair dark

2.wear all black

3. get a lip ring

4. be original. (to some degree i guess. no one's COMPLETELY orginal)

5. be-friend all the guys. i don't know if anyone's ever noticed this but i have very few girl friends.



So here i am again. in tears becuse of that BITCH. she tells me to have self-concidence and then won't let me do what WOULD give me self-confidence. im not fake. fuck her. fuck everyone who wants me to conform.

I WILL NOT DIE Posted at 06:00 pm by ComaWhite

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Rather good day... not much has really happened today... i got my hoodie back from Wesley, thank god. oh, and i bit beener's nipple for 2$. I'm trying to raise money for a) the nirvana box set (more expensive, but i want it more.) or b) the My Chemical Romance cd (cheaper, but not as important) jordan rode the bus this morning, and he had me listening to techno. Theres something about when someone's really enthusiastic (sp?) about something (as jordan was about techno) that makes you just as enthusiastic about it. So now, im listening to all this techno and its cool. really, oddly cool. i can't really think of anything to search for on WinMX to get good techno though... i mean whos a good techno artist? (if thats even what they're fucking called) so, got any suggestions?







Posted at 07:25 pm by ComaWhite

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