This is where I’m at: I don’t get the point of non-committal fellowship, or, I guess, just church in general.

I want a community where everybody is invested in our wholeness as a body, and invested in one another’s wholeness. A community where it is apparent that we are willing to die for one another and for Christ’s good news. A community that is willing to be prophetic, to look foolish, to take leaps of faith, in obedience to Christ, and out of love for others. A community that lives to embody generosity, healing, reconciliation, and hospitality.

I fell in love with Jesus because his hunger for justice, his desire for liberation, his love for each person, led him to the cross. He was completely surrendered to the Spirit and the movement of Love. That’s the kind of love I want to live into, and it’s one I committed to live with others when I put my faith in Jesus.

Where do I find this? Not in the church—not as we know it, at least.

I know it’s not all romantic. I know community is hard. I know how annoying we all can be, including myself. But I know how it can be worth it. And I know Jesus commands a lot more from his disciples than be decently acquainted with each other and maybe get brunch together every so often after church.

I need people to confess my sins to, I need people to impart wisdom and spiritual gifts into my life, I need people to prophesy over me, I need people to pray for me, I need people to discern with, I need people to publicly prophesy and protest with, I need people to follow Jesus.

I want that Holy Ghost think-thank, that school of love, that Jesus Army.

I think it’s pretty obvious that this is the Church’s time to shine forth a prophetic witness, to reveal a new way, a better way, the Kin-dom of God. The world doesn’t simply need more theology or ministries. The world needs a people who are willing to abandon anything and everything for love, willing to make dramatic changes in their lives, in faith, in trusting the Lord, for the sake of prophesying, for the sake of witnessing to love. We need to present a totally different order, especially now. Especially now.

I’ve been saying all of this for years, and I may sound naive, maybe overly idealistic, but I met Jesus and I know following him is a big deal. It means we have to follow him, fully, to the cross, and into a resurrection we can barely comprehend. To do this, we need a people. I’ve been wandering for years, and have grown close to hopeless, but have found some hope in this growing, developing Christian Left. I don’t know what it means to participate in this project, this movement, but I’m ready to do whatever it takes to believe and live and proclaim the Good News, and it seems like these militant disciples are, too.