Even though the world around us is going through a very scary and troubled time, God has shown hisself to me and given me an incredible peace that I’d love to share with you. In John 8:12 the Bible says

“I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won’t have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.”

Trusting The Lord

During this time of darkness God revealed his love to me. I started spending time in his word and in promises of love and mercy. I began to reflect on the person I had become leading up to this time. God showed me that over the course of my life I have driven on my own judgements and desires instead of trusting him and allowing him to take the wheel and guide my life where he wanted me to go. This resulted in a lot of unnecessary stress and hurt that I could have avoided. In Proverbs 3:5-7 it says

“Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Don’t be impressed with your own wisdom. Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil. Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones.”

Forgive As God Has Forgiven You

God has also made me aware of all of the anger and resentment I have had bottled up in my heart. Over the years I have had a lot of people who have hurt me and done me wrong. Even though I allowed a lot of that to happen because I didn’t find myself worthy, I held on to the hatred towards these individuals instead of reflecting on where I went wrong by allowing it to happen. Had I turned to God and trusted his plan I wouldn’t have ended up in many of these toxic relationships. Because I chose my own path I experienced hurt inflicted by others, held that hurt inside which lead to even more pain, and caused me to sin because I felt negative feelings towards the people involved. Ephesians 4:31-32 says

“Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.”

After God revealed my heart to me I realized that I have to let this go, hate the sin but not the sinner. I have to forgive them because God forgave me and only then will I experience a beautiful peace. So for those whom I have held so much hurt towards, I honestly from the bottom of my heart forgive you. And to those whom I have hurt, I am truly very sorry.

Seeking Him In Everything You Do

From this day forward I want to allow God to lead me where he wants my life to go, having no more anxiety over the “what ifs”. I rarely sought after God when it came to relationships, jobs, and life choices. Due to that I experienced very toxic relationships that altered my self esteem, leaving me feeling unworthy and unlovable. I went down a career path that was no longer serving me and causing extreme anxiety because I wasn’t trusting God to lead me, therefore I felt stuck and that I wasn’t good enough for anything else. Instead of turning to God for help when I was at my lowest I turned to worldly vices that harmed my health in general. God has a plan for us all and we have to trust him and pray for him to guide us towards that plan. In Jeremiah 29:11 it says

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

You Are Never Too Damaged For God’s Love

It doesn’t matter what you’ve done nor the consequences you are experiencing, God still sees you as his child and he loves you! This is so comforting to me because if I’m being honest, I am one very damaged individual. Even though I carry many scars, God still sees me as his beautiful daughter and loves me unconditionally, and guess what? He sees you that way too. Isn’t it so wonderful to feel so wanted and loved by the highest power in the universe? He loves you so much even though you are a sinner, he was willing to give his only son to save your soul. That is true love. In Ephesians 2:4-5 it says

“But God is so rich in mercy, and he loved us so much, that even though we were dead because of our sins, he gave us life when he raised Christ from the dead. It is only by God’s grace that you have been saved!”

I hope this post helps someone out there who has been feeling the way I have felt. I pray that God gives you clarity, trust in him, and peace. Even though we are going through a hard time in life always remember what it says in Matthew 6:25-27

““That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?”