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Why did you make this film?

I always wanted to tell the story of what happened to us, and I initially thought of writing a book. Even though I worked in television prior to the kidnapping, I didn't just want to tell the story retrospectively with reconstruction sequences and thought it was better suited to print. But I soon gave up on the book, as the process of writing was bringing on night terrors and I felt very panicked all the time. It was only when Antonio contacted and reminded me that we'd spoken about making documentaries in the mountains, that the idea of making a film came up again. There was now a present day narrative of finding out what had happened since the kidnapping to everyone involved. As a film maker I felt this was a more interesting story to tell and could be woven into the past tense retelling of the actual kidnapping.

At the beginning, your partner and family seem very ambivalent about the project. Your partner was especially concerned that you would become a different person if you went back. Has it changed you?

It has changed me but for the better. I now have no questions about the kidnapping. Everything has been answered. Once Antonio got in touch with me, I knew I would have to meet him and now I have. I was perhaps naive in thinking how important going back was for closure, but it has been the most life-changing project I've ever worked on. It was so much more than making a film, it was about putting the past to rest and moving forward and making the film just allowed me to do that.

When you went back to Colombia, did you feel like you were in danger? Is travel a different experience for you nowadays?

I was so caught up in preparations for going back that I didn't consider the danger. It was only when I landed in Medellin that it dawned on me where I was and what could happen. The helicopter flight into the jungle was terrifying, as we slowly flew towards the Lost City, my heart was racing. Though I was probably more scared about what it meant to be back, than of being kidnapped again, though it did cross my mind and I could just picture the headlines back home "Idiot Director Walks Back Into Danger". Nobody would have had any sympathy if we'd been taken again, I realised that. But we put every precaution in place, we had to do that for our families sake as well as out own.

I still travel and I still go to interesting places. These days thought I am more aware of where I am travelling to and the situation there. We need to educate ourselves about our holiday destinations and not just lie on a beach oblivious to the country's politics and history.