In regards to streaming and speedrunning:

Hey. Sorry for the essay. Just have a lot to say.



So you might have noticed that my streams have been very short, sometimes ending abruptly, and that I haven't been the happiest person. Well, to be honest, I really just don't like streaming anymore. I have been sticking with it mainly because I'm partnered and I have gained a fanbase over the time I've been active, but I'm basically forcing myself to do it, and have been for months.



Why do I keep doing it? Well, to be honest I don't really have many hobbies outside of streaming. Sometimes, I can be pretty stubborn and not want to branch out and try new things and/or stop doing something in particular, which is a personality trait that holds me back. As a result, I drive myself to unhappiness, and it shows. I have tried very hard to salvage my interest in streaming, but I don't think I can put up this fight any longer.



Along with being stubborn, I also get anxious. I feel bad because my channel has grown a lot, and I don't want to throw it away. I also don't want to disappoint my viewers who appreciate me streaming and like to watch me. Let it be known that I appreciate my viewers and what they have done for me. I know it tends to seem otherwise, but I DO value all the support you guys have provided me, very much so. You're wonderful people, and without you, I wouldn't have been around. So thank you very much for everything, I mean that. Although it's hard, I need to start looking out for myself and stop holding myself back. I hope you understand.



As for Banjo, I do enjoy it still. I don't feel the urge to play it nearly as much as I used to, but I know that I still like to play. Therefore, I will do so off stream. I won't be playing it that much, but if I happen to beat my time I'll upload it to YouTube and perhaps stream the recording. As for speedrunning, I've been trying to find the motivation to learn new games for the longest time. Obviously, I haven't found it. So, I won't be speedrunning anything else (sorry for breaking the promise fifitybobz). Also, when I get into something, I usually feel the need to get as good as I can at it, and I really don't want to invest the time and energy into doing so again.



So yeah, that's about it. As of now, I will be on an indefinite hiatus. I may appear every now and then if I really feel like it, but for the most part I will no longer be around. Again, thank you to my viewers for everything. Maybe one day I will return, but until then...



Hey viewers, I hope you can see this message now that the chat has died down. I wanted to say congrats! I know you can do a little bitter but I always want to tip my hat off to you. Through thick and thin I will still be here to always support you. I know times are hard, but you always come back with a good attitude. I wish you the very best on your next runs, and hope you get an even better score. I will continue to be here and find new strats as always. Great job Stiv. I am rooting for you always! You should be proud.



-Stiv



Oh, and I made the commitment to be at AGDQ, so I'll be there...don't worry about that.











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