You know I think I was going about this the wrong way, this blog this life, I always pride my self on telling the truth “Honesty being the best policy”. It never occurred to me that being honest isn’t just what you say when someone asks a question or giving an accurate answer that I get so hung up on. To live honestly is something it requires the individual to bear their soul to another that they care about, it also means not adding false facets onto your personality to make you feel better, more intelligent (in my case).

We all have things that we major on or make minor but I am willing to try to just “be” that word means simply not adding or taking away but just being in that moment. We all know the reasons that we do this you might recognise some of these I know I do. Reasons I can’t just be:

But people will think I am a failure if they knew

If I show them then I will truly be alone

But being me isn’t enough

You see this is the thing-

We all hide

Scared that people won’t like us for who we are because being me just isn’t enough I have to be more but you know what nobody else can be you. We all have a unique signature our personalities and attributes. On the road of life bullying, words passed on by another caused pain and hurt that could not be reconciled and instead of moving on we saw the problem was ourselves thinking that if we added or took away bits of us that we could be stronger.

It’s funny really that I didn’t write this post sooner exactly for the reasons listed above somewhere down the track being me wasn’t enough I despised my vulnerabilities in every way to the point where it made me mentally ill and unstable. At some point I realise that compassion, integrity and trust were not the weaknesses I saw them as and instead could be the building blocks of an honourable person.