awww i woke up and do my little rituals of getting up, getting my stuff, getting situated for awakeness in bed. review some pages. see my haters are back trying to justify themselves. redefining what might lead someone to feel stalked or triggered. you’re pretty abusive if you think you can redefine those things. especially since no one bothers you at all cause you’re so safe and proper no one cares. if someone is going through 20 pages of my blog and they are someone i know has said hates me, finds me abusive and wants me off the net, i will feel upset, uncomfortable and maybe even triggered. i’m not understand why that’s wrong. people who go through your blog after making fake blogs about how horrible you are shouldn’t be in your space. and since they say they are against doxxing, chances are they are looking for information to doxx you. all i’m saying on the topic today and for the next month.

everyone who runs a page is allowed to have boundaries. if someone has reported to dislike, hate or feel unsafe by you, say you are dangerous, but they spend hours on your page, browsing, collecting and going through, that is an element of internet stalking. they are going through posts to find information that can be used to gather more information.

but even if they aren’t, you aren’t relevant, why are you going through their page unless you want to be relevant again? you don’t like them, they suck. move on and sit in your corner. the fact that you’re going through archives and pages just means your trying to get back into their site. you know this person has a statcounter, a way of tracking, you WANT to make them feel uneasy, unsafe and stalked, even if textbook definition wise, that’s not whats happening.

as i said, only post here for awhile on this topic, but others cannot dictate what boundaries and triggers others have. i’m finding it really offensive a lot of people who dislike people who use anti-black discourse are now reframing what triggers are, how people are triggered and the employing of triggering. knowing a lot of these people do deal with every day mental health things. when these same people say they want you off the net, to pay for perspectives, to bleed and pay for being a Black perceived woman who is trans* and queer (and they are not), you have every right to say hey you being in my space makes me uncomfortable or even triggered because you are the type of person who justifies my death, murder and abuse.

these are people who are making powerless people powerful. this is very similar tactics to all hate campaigns of murder and death. to make the powerless a powerful entity that needs to be crushed. and by dictating the psychological boundaries in which you are allowed to be pained by that.

if you’ve been told off by a Black trans queer person, lol, thats not abuse. especially when you’re cis. the respectable Black folk would like to dictate that their cisness, their sometimes heteroness is sacred. to have different ideas of that, to have different ideas of blackness, is supposedly to abuse and oppress them. all power dynamics go out the window.

when i see people repeatedly say those w/o power are being misogynistic, racist or ableist all while they are the ones who have no power to even enact those systems, you are fishing. you have no right to dictate what a trigger is or is not because you don’t even know what racism is. not something Black people have the power to enact, that’s for damn sure.

i’m in a decent place right now and even w. stalkers/shady people on my shit, i am at a place where i feel somewhat safe. i live with someone who can kill people with their bare hands if someone tried it. i have 5 cats and they’re awesome. my friends love me and i love them. they’d be concerned if anything were to happen or i were to disappear for a bit. however, all of us don’t have that. some of these people know this. and they use that to try and justify/continue their actions.

as this is my last post on the topic here, i’m going to end by saying i’m going to be much more proactive about this. doing some work last night, i know how much bigger than just online spaces this runs. so now i will be taking a proactive stance in protection and maybe even in changing the game. i feel good knowing what i know, who i know, what i want and my boundaries. yezzir. so yea, despite me hating the redefining and the making racism something someone powerless people can enact, i’m feeling good being in full knowledge of the type of people involved in this. =D