EternaLEnVy Profile Joined February 2009 Canada 203 Posts Last Edited: 2014-04-22 20:47:50 #1 Couldn't really think of an appropriate title for this piece, oh well. At first I wanted to dedicate a full piece about "feelings" when playing to win in DotA (team pressure, fan pressure, hype, confidence, etc.), but Dh Bucharest told me not to. This blog will instead focus on two things: envy chinese fanboy story time, and DotA 2 as a competitive game.



EnVy Story Time (a lot longer than I thought):



I'll start off with something embarassing, at one point I was a Luminous fanboy (before I started DotA 2, I watched ALL his videos.) This was during DotA 1, HoN, till right before the summer of 2012. I remember watching him cast TPL while doing my physics lab at 4:00 am. At this point I was still searching for a DotA 2 key. Luminous focused primarily on Chinese DotA at one point, because that was the best DotA. I ported a bunch of strategies from DotA 1 to HoN, such as the Enigma offlane. I was the youngest on my HoN team and was always made fun of for wanting to copy DotA 1 strategies. At one point AMXZaku was like "I bet you would ask Burning for an autograph if we met him at a Lan" and I said "of course" where he responded "how embarassing" (fuck you Zaku). Though I don't really care about autographs anymore, I probably wouldn't even ask Yanaginagi for an autograph if I had the chance.



Anyway, I've always supported Chinese DotA since even before HoN, I was probably a fan boy for over 5 years, and even till today, I believe that they are the best. However, I want to note that this has nothing to do with them being Chinese or from China. I actually don't give a fuck about those things. As a person I don't take pride in nationalism or race or w/e. Things like being a Canadian, chinese, male, or w/e has extremely little meaning to me (not zero though ;D). Though you might get some points if you like certain Anime/Manga/Characters/Music.



If you've frequented my stream, I've always made strong claims about China, like how they would crush everyone at TI2 (Fucking NaVi though), and how I was worried that DotA 2 will become dominanted by China for all of eternity like Korean SC1. Though the first few times I heavily criticized China was the TI3 year. I felt like their farming patterns was extremely inefficient and their lack of respect for western trends (FUCK WISP) will haunt them. Before G-League, I argued with my stream that Alliance won't drop a single game and take the tournament or they would stomp in the early stages, then China will learn and stomp them back. Anyways, this was basically the only time I've ever really flamed Chinese DotA. Though I'll say one more thing now, I have absolutely no idea why they refuse (and I literally mean refuse) to use the RTZ block.



Anyway theres too much shit to go over if I keep going through a time line, I'm just gonna skip MLG/WPC and shit. I will mention that my Clinkz was developed through first studying Burning and Weaver as well.



My entire team before I became a standin wanted DK/IG to be first/2nd place just so it would be more cool to play agianst them at WPC. When at my best, I always cheer for the best team to win so its more fun to play against them, though sometimes I'm a huge pussy and i just want an easy win.



Anyway I become a completely different person at lans. Before DH/MLG/SLTV I was hella emo during my flights. At DH we replaced Kizzles/Black w/ Loda/Akke and TBH at that point in time I believed Kizzles/Black were stronger players, and Kizzles was a good friend of mine. At MLG, Bone-chan didn't get his Visa, fucking Marco Fernadez, and other shit. And at SLTV I just got brutally destroyed by NaVi at D2CL finals. Anyway in all 3 of these lans, I told my team we won this tournament on the first day with absolute confidence. I was so delusional that at DH I talked like this "when we win DH" instead of "if we win DH." And at MLG even after we were 0-6 I was like "ok 6-6 tomorrow win tournament w/e, today never happened." And basically the same thing happened at SLTV.



It has nothing to do with disrespecting my opponents, I don't even think me or my team is better than them half the time. I just fucking REFUSE to imagine myself losing. When I take walks in the morning or showers or w/e. I don't imagine myself at TI getting fucking -7th-8th place and going YAY im in the prize money! Nor do I imagine myself getting 3rd or even 2nd place. The only thing I ever imagine is getting first place. I'm not a robot though, after you lose a rough game it can be hard to get the flow going again. At SLTV I played pretty well g1 and overall did fine g2 as well. EG on the other hand although they didn't choke they were definitely worried and upset about their play. That's why I told RTZ on skype that we lost G1 to DK at MLG as well then typed 2-1 MLG in all chat. I didn't have any ill intentions towards DK, I didn't do it to taunt them either, I did it so we could laugh off our lost, pump ourselves up and keep playing. It wasn't my first time doing that either, i've frequently done this in many BOs, I did it at Monster invitational when it was 2-1 against us against EG, and I do it online as well sometimes. It just so happens that its pre draft and casters never catch that on screen and it was caught this time.



EG was pretty upset after the 2-0 by DK, they are a bunch of fiends so they go around reading Reddit/NADOTA/JD/LIquid/Twitter and see all the flames and hype for DK. It's like DK already won TI4, not just SL. I use to never fiend, but i've changed for the worse, fucking BULBA/RTZ. Anyway, beating DK at SL meant being the best in the world, it meant a lot and I wasn't willing to just give up on ourselves just because everyone else already did. If everyone already thinks were fuck then we might as well use it as fuel. That's why I tweeted that DK was gonna get 2nd place. Yes its BM and Rude but so what? I know in sports manga the enemy team always goes in with full confidence and the main characters kinda do the same thing. Even if they end up losing who gives a fuck, at least they gave it there all. I fucking hate it when people start thinking about their score, and what reddit is flaming them about, and just try to minimize their embarrassment (it happens to me as well). If were gonna lose, then I'll say the most clowny embarasssing shit on twitter so everythings already out there. I already know what I'm gonna get flamed about so theres no use thinking about it. We can just focus on winning.



I admit what I said on twitter was BM but there's no way it was that bad. Demon flamed the hell out of me after DH but I i still respected him as a player. I cheered for Alliance to win TI3 even after I got booted. I don't hold stupid grudges for no reason, and I don't disrespect DK. The only time I was truly BM was when I told LoH to stfu in lobby. When I win a LAN match I don't grin like a dumbass while shaking the loser's hands. When I lose I shake the winner's hands and tell them congratulations with a smile before breaking down. I basically just do manga shit so fuck off.



I don't regret a single thing I did at SLTV when it comes to professionalism. I did what I had to do to win (but I FUCKING LOST). I originally was just gonna write like 2 short paragraphs clearing up my misunderstandings with DK but it ended up being story time. W/e stories always clear things up even more as long as people are willing to read them anyway. I was originally gonna write about something else but I'll do that after my rox.kis games or something. byebye no time for shoutouts MATCH 1MINUTE. Progamer Hell in my head