Like the 20 men who backed out of a recent study over the side effects caused by the injected male contraceptive, I too regret my participation in the search for the ideal birth control.

Two months ago I had the contraceptive implant inserted into my left arm; I’ve not felt like myself since. I’ve been assured that my body will adjust – but the side effects are unbearable.

“Just bear with it and give yourself a couple of months for your body to level out,” the nurse advised me when I first called to explain that a month after having the implant inserted I had developed serious mood swings. I took the nurse’s advice but when I cried hysterically one morning, just moments before leaving for work, for no apparent reason, I knew something was wrong. Since then my temperament fluctuates constantly and I’m becoming fixated on dark thoughts.

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If I’m not crying, I’ll definitely be bleeding. Determined to ruin every single pair of pants I own by managing to catch me off guard, spotting is the other major side effect I’ve faced since having the implant inserted. It’s expected that the menstrual cycle will change when on hormonal contraception but it should level out after a few months – two months in, I’m still waiting for it to stabilise.

I waved goodbye to any remaining self-esteem too. Soon after having the implant inserted my libido diminished and my confidence has been left in tatters. There’s one side effect you won’t find on any contraceptive packaging: Inadequacy. I’ve been with my boyfriend for four years and couldn’t be happier and although he’s wonderfully supportive I know all my side effects are having a huge effect on him too.

“We’ll only try to persuade you to keep it,” the doctor admitted to me when I decided enough was enough earlier on this week and spoke to her about having it removed. Instead of listening to my concerns the doctor defended the implant when I asked for it to be removed: Only after a full consultation would I be able to have the implant removed. For the doctor an unwanted pregnancy is of more concern than my own wellbeing. Shouldn’t this be my decision to make?