So. Im kind of really sick in the head. Im not going to make a point about what I have, but I want to talk about symptoms I have when I experience transphobia, and maybe others can talk about their mental health too?

The main thing is anger. I get very very angry when I get invalidated. This can be anything from "no, you cant borrow my phone" to "transgenders are gross/perverts/morally wrong/ect". Ive been going to DBT for almost 2 years, and my anger still isnt better. I get more angry depending on the situation, too. I'm worried ill do something stupid and hurt myself or another person in an act of anger after something transphobic is said to me.

Once, I met a terf at a LGBT space. I had to leave because of how violent my thoughts were becoming. Not proud, but also couldn't control it.

After anger, comes anxiety and depression. The "what if this is just a delusion" thoughts. Or, "what if they're right?", "what if ill never pass", "what if everyone is staring at me because I look GNC" . It gets so bad that I cant leave bed for weeks. I cant shower because I cant look at my body. You know the drill. I already have depression and a type of anxiety, but whenever I experience transphobia, it gets really bad.

If I dont deal with transphobia for a while, I competely forget about my troubles. Its almost like its situational-based dysphoria.