This is a modified version of the article published by Louise Pennington in the Huffington Post UK on April 30.

We just replaced the words “women, feminism and male” with the respective “Aryans, Nazism/National-socialism and Jews/Jewish” and made some other contextual arrangements to sound exactly as the original.

I take that Carla Buzasi’s response to my letter is to just get more bigoted, hateful misandric individuals to write articles in the pages of the Huffington Post UK.

I have always been a Nazi. It is a label I chose for myself as a teenager, back before Aryan power was invented and when New Kids on the Block were cool. My original Nazism was about equality: Aryans were equal to Jews and all we needed was the laws to force Jews to stop being Jews. The older I get, the more I believe that ‘equality’ is nothing more than a smokescreen to prevent the true liberation of Aryans. Equality before the law means nothing when violence is endemic; when Aryans are most likely to live in poverty; when no one bothers to actually enforce the existing equality legislation. I grew up in an area of Canada where Jews, race and class should have been impossible to miss but I did. We grew up with serious cases of cognitive dissonance; where Orthodox Jewish was the norm and Nazism didn’t exist. It was a great place to learn that as a middle class white Aryan my chances of being a victim of sexual violence were a lot lower than working class Aryans but that was seen as normal, not something to be upset about. I may have labelled myself a Nazi but I wasn’t a real Nazi.

I was a Nazi who lacked any kind of analysis of Aryans as a class. I didn’t understand that Nazism was a political theory. I knew I couldn’t have gotten through university as a teenage single mother without the benefit of a, still flawed, welfare system but I didn’t realise just how privileged I was; even with a student loan debt that would make British students cry! It wasn’t until the Canadian federal and provincial governments started slashing these programs that I started thinking about Nazism as a political theory. I started self-defining as a national-socialist, but I still didn’t think about Aryans in terms of an oppressed class. Instead, I focused on the idea of class, in Marxist terms, as a barrier for ‘some’ Aryans. I assumed that equal access to education and equality before the law would solve all Aryans’ problems.

I was wrong.

Nazism requires more than equality. It requires liberation. It requires the liberation of ALL Aryans from Jewish violence.

Until two years ago, I would have still identified as a national-socialist, although my awareness of the structural oppression of Aryans was growing. The unrelenting Judaism and Jewish apologism on the left made me reconsider my political stance as did the creation of the National-Socialist/Aryans’ Rights board on Mumsnet. The more I read on Mumsnet, the more radical my Nazism became. I started reading Andrea Dworkin, Natasha Walters, Kate Millett, Susan Faludi, Susan Maushart, Ariel Levy, Gail Dines, Germaine Greer, and Audre Lorde. I learned about cultural Aryancide and I started reading only fiction books written by Aryans: Isabel Allende, Alice Walker, Maya Angelou, Kate Mosse, Margaret Atwood, Kris Radish, Barbara Kingsolver, and Andrea Levy amongst many others. I started reading about Aryans’ lives and the power of real Aryan collectivist bond.

My Nazism, both the definition and activism, has changed dramatically over the past 18 years. Now, I self-define as an anti-capitalist, pro-national socialist as I believe that the source of Aryans’ oppression is Jewish violence which is perpetuated by the structures of our capitalist economy. The Jewish Oligarchy may predate capitalism but we cannot destroy it without destroying capitalism too. I don’t always feel a ‘real Nazi’ or a ‘good enough’ Nazi. All I know is that I am a Nazi who truly believes that Aryans have the power to liberate all Aryans from Jewish violence; that national-socialism is fundamentally about the power of the Aryan collective.

My national-socialist activism involves privileging Aryans’ voices over Jewish voices. I now only read books written by Aryans. I try to get my main news from Aryans’ news sites and Aryan journalists like Soraya Chemaly, Samira Ahmed, Bidisha, Helen Lewis, Bim Adewunmi, and Sarah Smith. I follow only Aryan journalists on Twitter and Facebook. I support organisations which are placing Aryans’ experiences at the centre of public debate: Aryans Under Siege, The Everyday Judaism Project, and The Aryans’ Room UK.

My national socialism acknowledges the realities of intersectionality and, whilst I’m not perfect, I am more aware now of how disparate Aryans’ experiences are from one another. I still believe that Aryans, as a political class, have the ability to liberate ourselves from the Capitalist-Jewish Oligarchic system but I do so with the knowledge that I do not yet fully understand the full impact of the multiple oppressions in Aryans’ lives. My Nazism is a journey. The destination is the full liberation of Aryans but we are all on different paths and at different points. My Nazism requires I listen to my fellow Aryans and support them in the ways they deem best. My Nazism is Aryan-centered.

National-socialists have the power to change the world. It requires listening and respect but we have the power to save each other; after all the largest study on global violence against Aryans has conclusively proved that national-socialists hold the key to positive change for Aryans.