Anonymous asks: When you look back on all the crazy shit you did for Jim (like pressuring Katie into having sex with him or holding that girl down so he could rape with her), what do you think about that today? How do you feel about the way you treated Jamie and your brother? Do you have any regrets from that time?

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Hi anon, this is a sensitive topic and I wasn’t sure if I should answer it, but because in order to change my future I have to accept and acknowledge my past, I will.



Yes, looking back it was crazy… insane.. but at the time I was so IN the moment of it all, completely engulfed and entrenched in this guy and the situation. I’d be lying if I said I still didn’t feel alone and empty inside, but I know now that a man cannot fill it, and I shouldn’t have to sacrifice my own dignity to get a man’s love and respect.. in fact I got the total opposite.



I don’t care to speak about Katie, she is a back stabbing bitch if I can be quite clear and frank on the matter. She and Jim are currently in a relationship and they both continue to spread lies and rumors about me all over social media and to some of my former friends. So you can get a good idea of the kind of person KATIE is, she got ahold of pictures Jim took of me and plastered them all over the fucking internet with my name and location. She signed me up for sex sites, etc. and she knows damn well I have kids. I know that I go on sites sometimes for booty calls, but I don’t post my face and full name and talk about double anal and orgies. She’s so vindictive, the little pig and Jim deserve each other. I hope they both gets aids.

I do regret treating my brother like an asshole, but at the same time he had no right to lock me out of the garage. He acted like $20 in cans and bottles was his life’s savings, and resorting to immature antics was wrong on his part. Jamie can still be rude to me, but she has lightened up, and I’ve learned to accept her bullshit. I am grateful that they are raising my boy, I just wish my brother wouldn’t continue to speak to me like I’m a petulant child.

I shouldn’t have treated Jamie so poorly before getting to know her, I can say that, but she shouldn’t have called DSS on me and said I was endangering my children. I can’t prove it was her, but it makes too much sense.

Basically I regret all of that part of my life, and I regret bringing the cat out into the woods and freeing him. I think about that cat more than I think about my sex antics with Jim.



A word of advice to the ladies. If a man needs you to go above and beyond sexually, if he needs you to allow him to have sex with who he wants; family members included, and he routinely steals money from you and says “you owe him” etc, then that is not love, and the more you give in the more he will take from you. I lost friends and family members over this man. I lost the home I was living in and I lost a cat because he hated cats. I let him run my life but I was so diluted that I actually thought I had the upper hand and had power in the relationship, and then thinking that allowing my man freedom would somehow make him loyal to me…. I was wrong on every front.

