9:54 – I am about to take my second micro dose before going to school. This time I am going to try only 0.5 grams, and I am possibly going to take another 0.25 grams a bit later in the day to see how it will prolong the effects. I have put them in small capsules each weighing 0.25g, and that will be my method of ingestion for today. After taking them I will be leaving to go catch the bus, and be off on my way to school.

10:21 – just got to the bus stop a few minutes ago, seems like my bus is late again as always. I have lots of respect for the work that has gone into organizing a service like public transport and understand how easily the timing of something like that can be thrown off, however it is kind of annoying. Started off having a good morning, but it has slowly been going downhill due to my mother involving herself with the computer that I’m building for my brother, further complicating an already complicated issue. She knows very little about computers and blames a faulty hard drive on me “breaking the computer”. Nonetheless, the parts were warrantied and the computer should be built by tonight. (End 10:25)

10:32 – I’m on the bus now and beginning to feel the initial minor nausea. I should make it clear that this isn’t a strong nausea, in fact you can barely feel it. It mostly just feels like you are on an earth where there is 0.98x gravity. I’m started to relax more and the stress of this morning is diminishing.

10:37 – these morning bus rides always make me think of my girlfriend for some reason. Miss that gal.

10:41 – I should also mention that I ate a piece of toast with avocado and hot sauce on it. The avocado was nearing the end of its life, however I see no reason for it to have been bad as there was no mold or anything growing on or in it. What is ingested before, during and after the dose is important to keep track of, as that will play a role in how the substance will take effect, just like any other medication.

10:50 – it’s getting pretty cold here. I believe it is slightly below, or just at freezing temperatures. I did wear quite a few layers that should keep me warm, but I typically have incredibly poor circulation, in my hands especially. I feel like my body is circulating its blood properly right now though, as my hands aren’t cold at all. This could be the fact that I’m on a bus, but usually they would still be cold. Any time I have dosed myself, I find that I have increased circulation, and that my body feels quite limber.

10:55 – My hair is still wet and it’s pretty cold right now. Wishing I hadn’t lost my toque.

10:58 – I also forgot my water bottle in class on Wednesday and I’m pretty sure it’s gone now. I’m going to go check when I get to school, but it’s always a good idea to have some form of hydration with you. I have been listening to II by unknown mortal orchestra on the bus today, and I feel like that was a mistake. I just switched it to drafts and lost tracks again. In my opinion if you want to have a beautiful day, you have to start by putting your own beauty in it. And for me, this album is beautiful.

11:02 – Humans are such bizarre creatures. Our societal definition of beauty has come so far from who we are as people, and turned into such a consumerist, monetarily driven monopoly that people become detached from who they are as a person.

11:06 – long distance relationships are difficult. Committing yourself to another person like that takes a lot of effort. I’m fortunate that mine has been going well and I think that’s thanks to both parties are fully on board and with it, but whether or not it’s decided between the couple to stay monogamous or not during the time away from each other, it’s something very interesting. Anything done for another person, or with another person in mind, is beautiful. Humans are animals of incredibly complex thought and reasoning. We are capable of psychologically damaging other people and animals, and we are capable of physically damaging them as well. But when a human as an individual decides to do something that we hope will positively impact another individual, that’s what I call beautiful. And I’m realizing that’s why I decided to stay in my relationship, because I feel like she is constantly doing those beautiful things that she hopes will make my life a little better. A foundation for a healthy relationship. And I hope I am able to reciprocate that.

12:26 – My friend sat in on my German lecture with me which was pretty cool. He was hoping to get in the class still, but it’s pretty late in the semester and he wasn’t able to. That class is very interactive, and I find while micro dosing I prefer to stay to myself a bit more in class, but it is still fully manageable, if not even a bit more fun.

12:59 – I’m in my stats class, realizing how incredible it is that we can train ourselves to do some pretty complex arithmetic in our heads. And not only that, but we can create things like computers to do it for us. I’m getting excited for my data structures and algorithms lecture after this.

1:09 – I feel like this was a better dose. I’m having less of a “trip” with the same amount of focus. Neither time did I hallucinate, however the effects were definitely more intense last time, yet I don’t seem to be lacking any of the clarity or focus. If anything it’s actually more astute.

1:26 – Drinking out of water fountains is less than ideal, but due to me not having a water bottle currently I can’t imagine that being my worst choice. For example, I could be pouring high fructose corn syrup into my body by drinking a cola, or possibly even worse, buying a plastic, “disposable” water bottle. Why do we use and consider a non compostable material like plastic, disposable? We are treating our planet like it’s disposable. Not okay guys, and I’m guilty myself. I’m also just thankful that I have a constant, free supply of water. Very thankful I live in Canada right now.

3:22 – Been talking about old children’s movies with my friend Jordan. I had watched the Lion King a few days ago and it made me realize how in depth some of the issues they cover are and how elegantly they cover them. He brought up the anime series Avatar which led to the topics of nihilism and existentialism coming up, and he mentioned something really interesting. Basically what he was saying was that nihilism is just a pessimistic version of existentialism. I will definitely be watching more Disney movies.

3:35 – The effects are for sure completely gone now. They most likely have been for an hour or two. The difference between today and a regular day I think is mainly that I don’t feel tired like I usually would. Most days at this point after having taken in this much knowledge, I would be exhausted. If anything, I’m feeling awake and refreshed.

4:00 – I think my journals will end here for today. I’ve realized that I should be doing a small post day reflective write up sort of in conclusion of how things are going. Will be doing that and uploading these all tomorrow hopefully. If you see them, I must have done it already…

4:30 – At the end of class, a girl that I have never seen before walked up to me and gave me my water bottle that I had left behind on Wednesday. These are those beautiful things that humans do that I was talking about earlier. I never got your name and didn’t get to talk to you, but thank you. It may just seem like returning a water bottle to you, but it is a lot more than that to me. Plus it saved me like $18 so that’s sweet. This is a small example of how when people work as a collective, it’s not difficult to instill happiness into someone else’s life.

5:05 – I know I said I was done for the day, but I just went to meet a friend at a coffee shop. I sat down at 4:58 and was thinking of getting a scone and tea when she got there. Turns out they were closing at 5, and one of the baristas walked up to me, told me he was sorry but that they were closing, and offered me a free scone. Just thought I’d share my luck today.