Continuing on from part one and I was still thinking about what happened with Gordon. I thought about what happened and came to the conclusion that it might have been the extra hormones surging through my body as I was pregnant which I had read before from other women. The other thing was that Vik and I hadn’t been intimate since the early stages of the pregnancy. After those early stages Vik had become very conscious of having sex whilst pregnant. We touched on the subject once and he said we should waiting until I had given birth as he didn’t want anything to harm the baby. He also mentioned that considering his low sperm count we were lucky to be in this position as other couples would have been struggling still. I was in two minds, part of me agreed with him especially with the low sperm count issue but I had been reading articles online and most if not all said having sex whilst pregnant was healthy. Nonetheless I respected Vik’s decision and came to the thinking that we could make up for lost time after.

A day after the encounter with Gordon however I felt that extra surge of friskiness come through me which I put down to the encounter, being pregnant and not having sex for months. I tried to initiate sexual activity with Vik when we were in bed that night and talk about it. However he felt we should just wait until the baby was born which now was beginning to frustrate me more. I tried to talk about it further with him and how I was feeling but he decided to turn over and go sleep. I felt rejected, I could understand he was being extra careful however he wouldn’t even give me a cuddle or anything to insist all would be ok. I turned over for sleep too and after a few minutes I began to think about the encounter with Gordon until I drifted off to sleep.

The next few days I began to think about Gordon more. Although I would not normally be attracted to him in a sexual way, he made me feel wanted and paid attention to me. Something was changing with my mind-set. I had always been conservative towards sex, loyal with Vik being my second sexual partner. My first encounter having sex was with my first real boyfriend at university. I wouldn’t say I was the most adventures towards sex but felt sex was important in keeping a relationship healthy. Vik and I had a good sex life before I fell pregnant but I was feeling rejected and somewhat lonely by Vik’s conservatism. Gordon had texted me a few days after the encounter asking how I was and again apologizing. I said it was okay and everything was fine. He was still showing interest in me which kept me thinking about him. After much thinking and debating in my mind I decided that I was going to pay Gordon a second visit at the library.