puresebastian:

Things in Bucky’s life were settled: he had his own place, his routine, he had freaking couch cushions. He was organising, remembering things and processing all the shit he had been forced to do (I remember them all). Then Steve came around and stirred up all the dust, all the feelings that Bucky didn’t want to deal with yet (I don’t know, I’m sorry, but you’re lying). Steve’s forced to take the safe space Bucky’d created, and he is forced to corrupt it (it always ends in a fight), from then on Bucky is trying to get away, get back to a safe space. After Zemo, when he realizes that maybe he isn’t safe, he fights on, for Steve and all but gives up on himself. and that fucking kills me because after all this time, all the violence and horror, Bucky doesn’t want payback, he literally just wants to be safe.

See and this is why, amongst many reasons., I think people ID with Bucky as a survivor.



He isn’t going for justice because he knows he’s not going to get it, and even if he might it’d cost him too much to try. He doesn’t go for vengeance because who’s gonna look at his record and think THAT guy deserves vengeance after all the shit HE’S done? All he wants is to be safe. He constructs his environment as best he can so threats are minimised, he works on himself to get his life back and feel safe within the small world he’s created. Because really how much more can he hope for? Who’ll actually protect him? So he makes space for himself and keeps his head down and just tries desperately not to be victimised again.



And then they come for him. Again. So he runs. That’s why he fights, he fights to get away, he fights to be safe, he RUNS because he doesn’t want to be a victim again. Because they blame HIM for what was done to him.



That’s why people identify with Bucky as a survivor. It’s explicitly coded into his story and characterisation: he’s been a victim, he tries to make himself safe, it’s not enough, he’s blamed, he runs. Who’s gonna go to bat for a guy like him? (Steve.)

(Source: cptndorito, via crvggio)