sometipsygnostalgic:

i like how vriska got so humiliated in the epilogue…. i always dreamed, before homestuck ended, that terezi would fly off to kick her ass and drag her back to earth kicking and screaming, denying her the joy of finishing off LE…

turns out, fate had the same plan for vriska. it even had another better vriska, delegating our incarnation to (vriska). then once her ego is demolished and shes in Hell Land, (vriska) takes a moment to think about the person she left behind. and her dorky descendant can see right through her. and oh my god. she admits that she loved terezi and i am fucking screaming at andrew hussie and terezi and vriska never get to read each other’s messages in the recorded canon but vriska gets to read the crap terezi sent john so she must know how she feels about her, as if she even NEEDED to read terezi’s messages to understand that. i also wondered if vriska thought she was just a shit moirail. which it turns out she did. so she went off one on the ghost (vriska) for being a better, weaker person. . and couldnt put this into words until she sat down and really THOUGHT about why she did what she did., even terezi had issues describing what exactly her thing with vriska was. terezi finally acknowledged that when they were kids they had a blackrom deal going on, but it’s not as simply defined as blackrom and she doesn’t want to go black with vriska again… but she still wants to find vriska so bad……

oh my god… flashbacks to a6a6i5 “abusive vrisrezi” discourse…. we had no idea how to navigate around the ship…

heavy vrisrezi analysis here:

terezi’s thoughts are telling her negative things all the time, the worst case scenarios for what the people around her think. terezi is absolutely unforgiving on herself. her standards for herself are so tremendously high that she cannot possibly hope to reach them.

….this separates her from vriska… and in hindsight, dirk…. who have a completely DIFFERENT set of standards for themselves, that Terezi is capable of effortlessly smashing if she cared about the same crap. Being a complete hardass and dominating the narrative canon? Terezi passively turned homestuck into a love story about her relationship with Vriska. Terezi wrote instructions for who was at the time the most powerful character in the comic to go back and literally rewrite history to her favour. Terezi stabbed herself in the heart, ripped out the blade, headbutted john until he would go back on her instructions to F1X TH1S, drew a chalk outline for herself and fucking died in it. Post Retcon Terezi is the only non-Godteir troll in the comic to use her powers, and her abilities are both useful in battle (Collide) as well as the most influential to the narrative as a whole out of anybody’s godtier capabilities. She is written all over the story. She’s even won John’s heart because of how overwhelmed he is by the sheer effortless relevance surrounding her character. Terezi Pyrope can see a clear boundary between her own thoughts - as chaotic as they are - and the thoughts that others are injecting into her head, allowing her to read the narration itself and call out Dirk for being transphobic, additionally slamming him for making strong assumptions for what is going on in her mind.

Terezi, of course, knows that all of the above is a load of garbage and what she really wants more than anything is the ability to be emotionally stable, and to quieten down the nagging doubts that constantly plague her mind. This is not going to happen. It will probably take a decade or so of learning to love yourself to stop these thoughts from being so overwhelming, and the first step of that would be for her to try to accept change into her life, which she is struggling with very hard. Even in the end of homestuck, even in the epilogue, Terezi can’t let go of the past. The issue is probably that she’s been looking for impossible quick fixes this whole time. Can you imagine Vriska getting over herself overnight and being stable forever? No. Won’t happen here either.

My interpretation of pale vrisrezi: One such thought that plagues her is that she’s allowed Vriska to get too close, she feels she’s exposed her weaknesses to her, and that has made Vriska lose interest in her. Terezi thinks Vriska took a lot of pity on her, as an old friend, and then became distracted by more exciting things such as 8eing a great hero and putting an end to Lord English himself. Having the person she cared about most in the world abandon her for being too weak led to Terezi having a meltdown, resulting in Remem8er. And as we know from Remem8er this led to her getting soooooo excited about what sort of future she could have with Vriska that she went into Purgatorio to try to get her back.

I think Terezi’s emotional reaction in Meat 31+ comes from all those negative thoughts of the worst case scenario. She’s wrestling with the idea that Vriska is dead, but doesn’t see happy-go-lucky, fakity fakity fake Earth C as a viable place to return to. Terezi’s frozen by indecision. She stays like this until she’s on death’s door and when John talks to her, begging her to go home, she has emotional whiplash and feels victimized by what Vriska did, abandoning her after a couple sweeps to go DIE fighting Lord English. So she straight away rebounds onto new best friend John and announces she’s giving up on Vriska “like she just said she’d given up on God”…. and then John dies, and Terezi is Completely Fucking Lost. Abandoning Earth at the first opportunity for a new adventure that may or may not involve rescuscitating her friend….. but at some point she’s going to check her trollian messages and get a big surprise….

………..RIGHT… Back onto Vriska…. I think you’re kind of right. There MIGHT have been an element of Vriska seeing Terezi as weak, but I feel - especially after finishing Candy - like Vriska saw herself as a danger to Terezi’s feelings and wanted her to live her best life on Earth C. Vriska was never able to fully comprehend her emotions about this, but she admitted as such she bullied the crap out of a nicer version of herself for being better girlfriend material LMAO. And it’s shocking, because I suspected when I first read the conversation that this is why she went off on one at (Vriska). I mean, she yells at (Vriska) for shit she herself did???? Vriska has no self preservation whatsoever and probably didn’t spare a single thought for how her own death would hurt Terezi. She didn’t do this during the Coin Flip, she wasn’t going to do it before running off to fight LE. She probably thought Terezi would get over it.

It’s such a big step for Vriska at the end of Candy to finally THINK about their relationship and all the confused feelings, what it might really mean. It touches my heart to see Vriska grow, and…. start to feel content with her unremarkable position in the universe. Of all the character developments in the epilogue, this is the one that means the most to me, especially with how Vriska ended in Act 7 - appearing vindicated in her spotlight stealing bitchiness.

god i have no clue how to describe this ship quadrant wise. It’s such a clusterfuck of mixed feelings.

@legislacerator i have missed writing so much about vrisrezi…