I get up early in the morning these days, and try to get my cup of coffee down as I skim through the sound bites of news on Facebook, the less than forth coming mainstream media, and the fringe news sites that have sprung up all over the internet. It is pretty dismal as I scan for information. Thank God for my "One Day at a Time" books that align me peacefully, the prayer for the day and the moment of silence for meditation. Today it told me I need find laughter and joy.

The other day I was listening to my fave podcast, Caravan to Midnight, John B's voice alone comforts me. He was talking about an interview he had done, that he was not sure he would air. He talked about the intensity of the interview. He asked the question I wonder myself about people, "Do we really want to know?" When it comes to dark or shocking information, do we really want to know?

Do we really want to know about our politicians? During the 2012 election interviewers found people on both sides, that could not even answer the most basic questions about candidates, yet they were very opinionated, passionate even. This was true even on college campuses. The same is true about issuses. What is happening around Fukishima? What happened in Benghazi, Fast and Furious, the IRS scandal, the trade of our American for 5 , there are more, but you get my inference. They are world wide, and President to President.

Yet as people we are willing to accept the mainstream media's versions, turn off the T.V. and go about our business, grateful they figured it out. Those who don't are accused of being a 'right wing or left wing wacko". They are told they are 'conspiracy theorists'. We don't want to entertain they may have some truths in their accounts, because it would mean we would have to face some real truths about ourselves and our lives.

As some one in recovery, I have been forced to face many personal issues and flaws. It has only made me a better person. That is after I am shocked to my core that I really possess that horrible flaw, and have behaved in a way that would embarrass Charlie Sheen. It has made me better in the long run.

I too have been shocked by learning information around my leaders, or my world that makes me frightened or uncomfortable. Is Fukishima pumping out radio active water into the sea? IRS targeted conservative groups? I am sure this and much more is true. I try to gain as much information as my heart and brain can handle at any onetime. I do want John B. to air this interview, in fact I can't wait. Sometimes though I don't want to know, "I can't handle the truth", as Jack Nicholson would say.

Sometimes I want to just watch Mad Men, all seasons, while I flip mindlessly through The Star,or In Style magazine and sit. Then I get a good nights sleep, and I am ready to "know" again for a while. What about You?