Letter from Agnieszka

Hello! My name is Agnieszka. I’m 25 years old. In 2015 I went on missions to Lithuania. I was on my way but I was still thinking whether it was a good or bad decision. I was still considering myself not good enough to go. Not praying enough, a bit too disappointed with life circumstances. All the other girls in the group were much younger, eager to act and creating the joyful atmosphere. Each of us was asked to do some duty in service for all – I was made responsible for the prayers (didn’t really know why). When I was already on the spot, especially while walking from one house to another, visiting families I noticed, that people there really trusted us. Trusting God. Usually quite poor, but calm and modest, happy with what they’ve got. So looking at them and at the girls from my group I drew the conclusion that we really did some good. Lots of work and prayer created some specific emotions. At first it all seemed a great burden, then there was a breaking point and we started to notice a real joy and realize how small were our own troubles. But this journey will be unforgettable because of something else. Coming there I felt really lonely. And though I was praying a lot I still felt the darkening loneliness even more. One day I was at adoration in the parish at Ejszyszki and was praying hard and asking God to let me see that I was loved. I knew He loved me but still couldn’t see it. Nothing changed. We went back to our rooms and went to sleep. But in the middle of the night I felt a strong light. I thought someone lit the lights. But I was really surprised to see with my own eyes when I opened them, that the room was still completely dark. A bit overwhelmed I sat on my bed with closed eyes and started to feel a great warmth filling my chest and felt this special light inside my heart. It wasn’t just a normal touch. It was as if all the real joy, intensive happiness that I have felt through all my life was changed into pure energy and a river of love. The strongest love ever. I have heard “I love you”. I just couldn’t believe it happened so I begged that feeling didn’t disappear. It lasted a long time, until my soul was full to the brim. Since then all my life has changed. I am now full of peace in my life. I can recommend to everyone these missions with the Legionaries of Christ and Regnum Christi.