Nicola Gobbo, the gregarious, larger-than-life figure at the centre of the Lawyer X scandal, has lost her once voracious appetites and withdrawn into a nihilistic state of depression, pain and anger towards Victoria Police.

Psychiatric and psychological reports released by the Royal Commission into Police Informants on Monday reveal the defence barrister who once enjoyed the company of hard bitten cops and notorious crooks is living in social isolation, having lost her taste for food, her passion for sex and all sense of self worth.

Nicola Gobbo Credit:Angela Wylie

According to the results of a questionnaire used by physicians to treat depressive patients, Ms Gobbo is devoid of energy and interests and believes her future is hopeless and will only get worse. Diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety and debilitating nerve pain, she has trouble sleeping, cannot concentrate, cries daily and lives in a state of fear.

In her questionnaire responses, Ms Gobbo accepts no responsibility for her predicament, saying she doesn’t feel “particularly guilty’’ but that she feels she is being punished.