Romanian Playboy model Loredana Chivu recently spoke out about the moment she found her father’s body after he committed suicide following the release of her nude photos.

According to the Daily Mail, Loredana Chivu first appeared in the Romanian edition of Playboy when she was 18-years-old. The playboy bunny notes that she had a very close relationship with her father until the release of her nude photos. Chivu told the publication that she thought her father would “get over it” but he didn’t.

Chivu says her father was upset after she posed nude for Playboy and distanced himself from the rest of the family and the world.

“I never expected he would do something like kill himself. When he found out what I had done he cut himself off from the world and tried to isolate me as well from the rest of the family.”

Chivu said following the falling out with her father, she tried to make amends. However, the relationship would never be the same. In fact, it would be Chivu that would find her father’s lifeless body following a suicide that many said came out of nowhere. The playboy model’s father did not leave a suicide note, but those around him said he seemed happy, aside from the upset over Loredana’s nude photos, up until his death.

The New York Daily News reports that Loredana says that she is still haunted by that moment, when she found her father had hung himself. She is haunted further, she says, by the fact that she may have caused her father to take his own life.

“I never recovered from the shock of finding him. He had not left a suicide note, and everybody said that up to the end he seemed cheerful, and it was a complete mystery as to why he would do something like this.”

However, Loredana says she noticed a drastic difference in her father following the release of her Playboy photos. In fact, the father and daughter used to speak daily until the photographs were released. Following the release of Loredana’s Playboy shoot, her father suddently stopeed speaking with her. She says the loss of her father is “too painful” to speak about most of the time.