Asia Argento has revealed her struggle with grief in the wake of her boyfriend Anthony Bourdain's suicide.

The Italian actress, who is spending time with friends in Berlin after Bourdain's remains were cremated in France, posted a note on her Instagram story which first read 'I'm a f**king mess inside'.

The sentence was crossed out and underneath were the words 'I'm fine'.

Argento, who had been dating the celebrity chef since 2016 and whom she called 'my love, my rock, my protector,' has been seeking comfort from her grief in her friends, music and even in God.

She shared a post of a prayer in Spanish, asking for God's guidance.

Asia Argento posted a note on her Instagram story which first read 'I'm a f**king mess inside'

The Italian actress is spending time with friends in Berlin in the wake of her boyfriend Anthony Bourdain's (pictured with her in April) suicide

Argento also shared a picture of herself, posing with a friend, which she captioned 'Berlin Sisterhood', while a short video clip, taken in a dark car, appeared to show Rose McGowan.

The 42-year-old mother-of-two has also been turning to music to help her make sense of the tragic loss.

This morning she posted that she was listening to David Bowie's Lazarus which includes lyrics such as; 'Look up here, I'm in heaven. I've got scars that can't be seen.'

Earlier, she shared a post showing she was listening to Judee Sill's 1971 breakup song 'Jesus Was a Cross Maker.' Sill also died by suicide, aged 35, in 1979.

The actress also shared a picture of her back, where the word 'saved' superimposed on the photo.

Chef, writer and television host Bourdain was found hanged in his French hotel room, where he was filming another episode of Parts Unknown on June 8.

Argento also shared a picture of herself, posing with a friend, which she captioned 'Berlin Sisterhood as well as a post of a prayer in Spanish, asking for God's guidance

A short video clip, taken in a dark car, appeared to show Rose McGowan (right)

His remains have since been cremated and his ashes are expected to be flown back to the United States on Friday, a source claimed to People Magazine.

Days after Bourdain's death, Argento shared her grief on social media, calling him an inspiration and herself 'beyond devastated'.

'Anthony gave all of himself in everything that he did. His brilliant, fearless spirit touched and inspired so many, and his generosity knew no bounds. He was my love, my rock, my protector. I am beyond devastated. My thoughts are with his family. I would ask that you respect their privacy and mine,' Argento wrote.

On Sunday, his mother Gladys told Page Six the family were awaiting approval from the French Government to return Bourdain's body to America, and were expecting it to take a few days.

The Parts Unknown host, 61, was found dead in his room at the Le Chambard hotel in France on Friday after hanging himself.

Friend Eric Ripert, who had been helping the father-of-one make an upcoming episode of his show, was the one to make the grim discovery.

Anthony Bourdain has reportedly been cremated in France just days after he died by suicide

Bourdain and actress Asia Argento began dating a year after meeting in 2016

He went to Bourdain's hotel room after he did not attend dinner or breakfast, which they were scheduled to eat together, where he found his friend had hanged himself.

Christian de Rocquigny, the prosecutor of Colmar in France's eastern Alsace region, said on Saturday there did not appear to be much planning ahead of Bourdain's suicide.

Asia also shared a cryptic photo of her back with the word 'saved' superimposed on it

'There is no element that makes us suspect that someone came into the room at any moment,' he said, adding a medical expert had concluded that there were no signs of violence on Bourdain's body.

Rocquigny said toxicology tests were being carried out on Bourdain's body, including urine tests, to see if he took any medications or other drugs, in an effort to help his family understand if anything led him to kill himself.

Bourdain's funeral will be organised by his ex-wife, Ottavia, as she is still legally his next of kin, his mother Gladys has claimed.

'Although they're separated, she'll be in charge of whatever happens,' she said on Sunday.

'We haven't talked for a couple days. I'm sure she's as broken up as I am.'

Ottavia was seen heading inside her New York home on Wednesday night, dressed casually in activewear and wearing sunglasses.

The jiu-jitsu fanatic, and mother to Bourdain's only child, shared a photograph of the couples' 11-year-old daughter Ariana on stage in a pair of knee-high studded boots on Monday.

'Our little girl had her concert today,' she wrote in the emotional caption.

'She was amazing. So strong and brave. She wore the boots you bought her. I hope you are having a good trip, wherever you are.'

Argento (center right) spent Wednesday with actress and close friend Rose McGowan (left) and two other women

She shared pictures of herself listening to Jesus Was a Cross Maker, a song performed by a woman who committed suicide at the age of 35, on the same day her boyfriend was reportedly cremated

Ms Bourdain said she 'never would have dreamed' her son would commit suicide, though she knew he was in a bad place mentally in the days leading up to his death.

His mother told The New York Times Ripert had contacted her and said Bourdain had been 'in a dark mood these past couple of days', but she said she still never saw his suicide coming.

'He had everything,' she said. 'Success beyond his wildest dreams. Money beyond his wildest dreams.'

But the celebrity chef opened up about his history of destructive behavior, including regular thoughts of suicide following the destruction of his marriage, in his 2011 book Medium Raw.

After his first marriage to wife Nancy Putkoski ended in 2005, Bourdain recalled being 'aimless and regularly suicidal'.

During a stint in the Caribbean, he wrote of getting 'the kind of drunk where you've got to put a hand over one eye to see straight' and would 'peel out' in his 4x4 for nightly trips to the brothels.

Bourdain had also previously been open about his past struggles with drugs and spoke of being a recovering heroin addict.

Bourdain's estranged wife Ottavia (pictured) was seen heading into her New York apartment on Wednesday night

Busia has only recently broken her silence following Bourdain's death, and will be the one to organize his funeral

In addition to the celebrity chef's feats in the culinary world, he was also hailed for being one of the loudest male voices in the #MeToo movement.

Argento has accused Harvey Weinstein of rape.

Bourdain's funeral will be organized by his estranged second wife Ottavia Busia Bourdain (pictured together in 2015)

In an essay written after fellow chef Mario Batali was accused of sexual assault, Bourdain wrote that 'one must pick a side ... I stand unhesitatingly and unwaveringly with the women.'

Argento wrote on Twitter on Friday that Bourdain 'was my love, my rock, my protector.'

It emerged this week that friends of the celebrity chef had begun to become concerned with his infatuation with Argento shortly before his death.

'He would have done anything for her, and that was a little red flag for some of his friends,' a source told People. 'Like, he was crazy in love with her, crazy being the keyword.'

Bourdain's longtime publicist for Parts Unknown, Karen Reynolds, told People that he seemed 'giddy' and was uncharacteristically communicative in the days in the run up to his suicide.

Reynolds said he appeared to be delighted with his latest episode, filmed in Hong Kong and directed by Argento.

'He was so happy. I didn't talk to him this week but all I know was he was so happy last week. I mean giddy,' she said.

'He was texting me and emailing me which he doesn't normally do about publicity for episodes but he was like, 'This is a high water mark, this is the best thing I've ever done.' He was so excited to be working with Christopher Doyle. I saw nothing that would indicate what happened. Like, why this would happen?

'We're just floored. A complete shock.'

The friend of Bourdain's told People that, while they knew he was overworked and struggling with the breakdown of his marriage, no one had any idea he'd been suicidal.

Shining star: On Monday, Ottavia posted a photo of their 11-year-old daughter Ariana performing at a concert to Instagram (pictured), wearing the boots gifted to her by Bourdain

Bourdain, a father-of-one, was loud voice in the #MeToo campaign and was in a relationship with actress Asia Argento, who has leveled sexual assault claims towards Harvey Weinstein

'None in our circle of friends knew he was struggling in any life-or-death way. Honestly, I don't think anyone knew. I don't think Eric [Ripert] knew the depths of his pain,' he said.

'The shock of Tony's death is almost as profound as the pain. Even his closest friends are still waiting for some mystery to be uncovered,' they added.

'We knew his nerves were shattered a little; his marriage had fallen apart, he was way, way overworked and overdriven, but unstable. No one had a clue.'

Three days before Bourdain was found hanged in his French hotel room, where he'd been filming the latest episode of Parts Unknown, Argento had been photographed with journalist Hugo Clement in Rome.

The pair were photographed hugging, holding hands and smiling as they strolled through the Italian capital.

They were later seen dancing together and sharing a close embrace in an Italian bar. The photos have since been taken down by the photographer in question.

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