I’ve been thinking about this series a lot as of late.

Let me make something clear: I want to do this. I want to make this series. There was some soul searching a few months ago about if I actually wanted to continue this- I have come to the conclusion that I do.

But wow, I can’t shake the feeling that what I’m doing is an embarrassment. Something for people to laugh at, instead of with.

I was able to look at my series through a lens of someone who had never seen it before for the first time. In other words, if I was hypothetically a person that had never heard of Reviving Bionicle before and I saw the series, do you know what I would think?

“This is ridiculously awful.”

It’s normal for artists to hate their art, but the absolute shame I felt about this series stopped me dead in my tracks. I finished the RB 4 act 2 trailer in hopes that it would possibly put these feelings away. It didn’t. The self-consciousness continued.

There is no difference between this series and something a 12 year old would cobble together with their crappy camcorder. There is nothing that makes this series special. It’s like going to work and finding out that this entire time, I’ve been in my underwear.

With all due respect for the BIONICLE community, there is some not-good stuff out there that the community has made. I lump this series in with that content. If Reviving Bionicle only got 10, 100, or even 1000 views I would quietly end the series here, and I would be pretty sad about it.

But against all odds it seems that the one thing that keeps it away from the bad stuff is its viewer-base. The amount of comments and messages I get from people who legitimately love this series, think it’s good and want more blows me away every time I get it. How the literal hell do so many people like this?

I’m not a good writer. I’m painfully mediocre. A friend told me that, and they’re right. But so many people commend the writing specifically. I wish I knew what they saw in this series.

So, in conclusion, I will continue Reviving Bionicle. I want to, and I mean it. I’ve just never felt more deflated. If you all weren’t here, it would be over. But you all see something that I don’t.

Thank you for that.