Something that I’ve got into the habit of so fondly, I’m actually procrastinating to do that. And to help add to the theme, I’ve ended up publishing this post several hours late (whether that was by accident or on purpose, I’ll let you decide). While I’ve managed to get through this most of my life, I’ve finally felt the true force of it impact on me. Especially now as it one and a half months to my AS level exams, the most important exams of the year, and I haven’t done the slightest bit of revision. Just what the hell am I going to do?

Well, I can say that I’m stressing, and hopefully no one will think I’m overreacting. It’s coming close to a very decisive moment in my life, and I’ve pretty much set myself up to fail. For those of you who are saying “I know what you mean, Roidh, I’ve only revised five hours every day! I’m so going to fail!” Get lost, we don’t need you!

Revision is probably the most inexplicably difficult things to do. Yeah, climbing a mountain or lifting a bus is pretty difficult, but at least I could’ve said that before hand. Revision, however, is so difficult, and I haven’t got the faintest idea why. Is it because it consists of going through stuff I’ve already been through? Is it because our designated ‘revision time’ is actually our spare time that we used to use for relaxing that we’ve had to sacrifice? Or maybe, just maybe, it is something that is just simply and plainly boring? I can agree to the later, but how does that work?

I chose the subjects I did because they were fun and I enjoyed them. I wanted to do them! Suddenly, I don’t want to do them! It’s not because I’ve changed my mind, or that’s it’s just getting too difficult, it’s just… I don’t really feel like reading up on it again.

I think it’s because that most things we have an interest for, we read once and then let it settle in our minds, and through that we get our enjoyment. When it comes to information for exams, this stuff has to become a reflex. I have to be able to say it, and lots of it, without a moment’s notice, without hesitating or rereading or even thinking about it.

Fortunately, we had mock exams, as you well may know, to tell me just how bad I’m going to fail. I’ve had a history of being misleading to mock exams. For my GCSE’s (which some of you may or may not know about; just Wikipedia it and it might explain it better), I managed to get straight C’s and D’s for all nine of my exams for the mocks. But for the final exams, I got two A’s, five B’s and two C’s, which isn’t bad effort, I think. I’m not going to be modest, I impressed myself there!

While I’m hoping something like this will happen again, I’m trying my best not to rely on it. All it takes is determination and perseverance and a dash of pixy dust to pass these exams. I’ll let you know about developments. And good luck to other candidates! You need it!

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