State of my YouTube channel

Figured I should make a proper blog about it rather than some hard to understand tweets.



I apologize for the lack of videos this past month. I used to pride myself in my strict upload schedule but lately it just hasn't been the same for me frankly. I haven't been inspired to make videos, it feels extremely forced, and I'm just not sure what to make that would keep moving forward and not stuck in the same place (growth).



I'm the type of person who focuses on moving forward and aspiring for better, so seeing the disappointment in my latest videos in performance, specifically growth,, despite working harde and smarter, has simply made me focus in other aspects of my life in which I've found more success and reward and in the end I feel like my mind is simply somewhere else right now as a result. Which is not bad. I feel I'm doing fantastic in other areas now.



It's just...Not sure what to think of my YouTube channel anymore, I've worked too hard to stop, but it feels like a mindless grind that's stuck in a spot that I can't get it out of, I'd like to see more, way more out of it, but despite all my attempts, it's made me feel it's not that I'm not trying hard enough, but I'm approaching it wrong. Maybe I'm expecting too much, or maybe I just don't know what I'm really doing.



Just not sure what to do with it. If you are a fan of my content, I apologise. But know it's in my thoughts and that I'm trying to find a new angle. I just want things to be much better and I want to work towards that. I don't like getting stuck, but I'll solve it. Somehow.

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