Hey everyone :) I am half white, half Chinese girl (White father, Chinese mother) and I hate it. I was born in America, and grew up in Missouri, where 90% of everyone is white. I can only speak English. I look mostly Chinese, maybe a little lighter skin, and wider eyes. Most people have a hard time identifying what my race is so usually I just tell them I'm Chinese.

I don't know anyone else who is Asian at all, and I usually befriend or date white people. I'm not trying to sound racist at all, but those are the only people I know. I swear, I live in the most redneck town in the most redneck state.

I always feel different, and feel bad about myself. Why would anybody want to be my friend? So far in my life I haven't encountered any racism towards me besides the usually straight A or small eyes jokes. I'm afraid one day somebody won't accept me. There will always be one person who hates me just because of how I look. Sometimes I'm disgusted with myself.

How do I stop worrying about this? I can't dye my dark hair lighter, or change my skin tone.

Thank you for reading this, and (hopefully) answering :)

(P.s. I'm only an 8th grader, and 14 years old just in case you needed to know)