My ultimate fantasy….a gangbang with 5 men! Why 5 men I was asked by a guy I chatted with online? I have 3 holes and 2 hands, it just makes sense to me! I have lots of fantasies they are kept to myself with the exception of my hubby and the men I chat with online or speak to on the phone. I can’t share my fantasies, because within my circle of family and friends I would be seen as a whore.

I am anonymous and choose to remain so for two main reasons. Reason one, is job security, our local agreements on moral and ethical issues can be tricky. I believe one day I will ‘come out’ (no offense intended) and the world will know who I truly am. In regards to this world I wish to open up to and my second reason for secrecy is family & friends.

In my first blog I commented on a quote. “Treat me like a lady, fuck me like a whore”. I stated: ‘I feel like to many people have this notion that the two can’t be separated, that you are either one or the other. Why can’t one person have two sides to them. We are complex humans with so many dimensions. Why do people always need to place us in a box and label it. I am both, a Lady and a Whore!’. I bring up this particular quote because it’s simply another version of the great struggle I’ve lived with all my life; ‘the good girl vs the whore’. As stated, I have always thought myself to be both. However, image and pressure from society doesn’t seem to agree for the most part with my thought and this leaves me struggling on a regular basis with my own identity. At times I feel like I live a double life. Can we be both the ‘good girl’/’lady’ and the ‘whore’ or are we designed to constrict ourselves to one label? My belief is we could be both and my wish is to break free of the chains of our society that lets us believe we cannot.

PLEASE NOTE MY SELF-HOSTED WEBSITE IS NOW ONLINE AT WWW.SENSUALLITTLENYMPH.COM