NORTH HAVERHILL, N.H. — Jennifer Phelps is on a mission to find the truth behind her son’s death, as his friend stands accused of aiding in his suicide.

“You never think you’re going to bury your kids — ever,” Phelps said, fighting back tears. “I just want the truth. I want the truth of what really happened. Michael deserves that.”

Parker Hogan, a 19-year-old from New Hampshire, is charged with causing or aiding in his roommate Michael Buskey’s suicide and three counts of falsifying evidence.

Hogan allegedly brought a shotgun, notebook and pen to the scene and instructed Buskey how to hold the gun at the correct angle in order to hit his brain, police said in court documents.

Buskey was found dead of a gunshot wound in the woods near his Plymouth apartment on May 8. Police determined his death to be a suicide.

“There’s way too many holes in this story. … I just don’t believe he’s telling the truth,” Phelps said. “It just doesn’t sound like Michael. It doesn’t seem like something he would do.”

Hogan was arraigned on Tuesday and pleaded not guilty. His public defender, Renee Sargent, declined to comment for this story.

Bail was set at $5,000 and Hogan is scheduled to appear in court in July.

According to a chilling affidavit by Plymouth police Detective Sgt. Aimee Moller, Hogan told police how he helped plan Buskey’s suicide.

The pair first took a gun from another roommate and later in the evening went into the woods near their Plymouth apartment where they made a fire, and with five alcohol nips, practiced ways for Buskey to shoot himself, the affidavit states.

Later that night, the report adds, Buskey looked at him and said “It’s that time, Parker.”

After Hogan left the fire, police said he told them he could hear music playing until he heard the sound of the gun.

Busky’s mother said music was his passion. “Music soothed him, I think, in a lot of ways,” Phelps said.

Hogan told police that he and Buskey often talked about suicide, both having attempted it separately in the past.

Hogan told police, “I would pull the trigger if he needed me to,” but said that never happened.

Phelps said she didn’t know about any previous suicide attempt, and the few times he ever mentioned suicide it was not in a serious context.

She has since made it her mission to raise suicide awareness and advocate for other children to have better access to mental health services.

“I want him to have a voice. I also want something to be done to give teenagers a chance up here,” she said.

“Somebody needs to stand up and say, ‘Enough is enough.’ Let’s change this,” Phelps said.

Many local mental health clinics aren’t within driving distance, Phelps said, making it difficult for teens to get there. In her mind, these services might prevent another tragedy.

“Michael would have never done this on his own,” she said. “I hope (Hogan) goes to jail. … I think he deserves the maximum sentence for what he did. It shouldn’t have happened.”