Constructions of mood change: Menopause or bipolar disorder?

The majority of women described experiencing mood changes around the time of menopause within the context of their bipolar disorder. Typically, women noted “bipolar symptoms” as occurring more often than before menopause “I’d probably have to say it’s been more frequent”, more severe “my lows are much lower”, and occurring in shorter and more intense bursts “more intense but not as long-lasting”. Several women spoke of a sensation of “...more rapid cycling through menopause”, with others noting mixed mood and more hypo/manic thoughts: "the feeling of my thoughts starting to race". The nature of mood change was always described as being negative, with many women reporting "not being able to cope, self-loathing", “regular thoughts of suicide” and “negative self-talk”. These accounts suggest that women constructed the experience of mood changes during this time of life through the lens of their existing framework of bipolar experience, rather than the lens of menopause, positioning themselves as ‘bipolar’ rather than ‘menopausal’.

Some women reported experiencing new types of bipolar symptoms during menopause, which were described as frightening: “that's a really, really scary thing”. For example, one participant said,

The type of depression that I suffer from is a very sad depression. I’m one of the uncontrolled weepy people….. but this is, there’s a urgency that comes with this [depression] that it’s almost like it doesn’t even come from me it’s like somebody behind me pushing me along. You know when you’re kids and then you’re holding hands, you hold hands and you’re running and you run downstairs or something like that and sometimes it’s scary, sometimes because it’s too fast you don’t know whether your feet can keep up and you could fall. That’s how it feels like, somebody else is either pushing or pulling me along and that’s too fast for me (Alyson).

The appearance of more severe mood symptoms during menopause was described as creating a destabilising effect and contributing to a sense of a loss of control, as described by Patty: “The anxiety is harder because the more anxious you get, the more anxious you get. And that it feeds itself. And you don’t really see an out for that”. For some women, the impact of the symptoms was so severe that it was experienced as incapacitating: "I can have an hour where I just have to lay on the lounge which, to be honest, is what I’m doing now".

Some women reported more feelings of anger and irritability that occurred without a specific trigger, which was different from how they had previously constructed their bipolar disorder and thus was seen as being different. For example, two women commented: "I just felt really angry at everybody" and “I just have this rage building up in me all the time”. For many women, these seemed to occur "in just in a split second" and with little warning “like Jekyll and Hyde”. The women positioned these mood changes, and by implication themselves, as uncharacteristic and reported subsequent difficulties within family relationships, with co-workers, or in the local community. As Marsha said:

I could go from placid, a placid person, to just this overwhelming anger in either, in just in a split second and it seemed to be the strangest things that were doing it. It just like little things that you’d normally brush off and I couldn’t brush them off and I kept saying to my husband ‘I have to go home, I can’t be here, I can’t be around people, I’ve got to go home’. I found that really difficult.

For many women, mood changes were described as having an impact on work and functioning, making day-to-day tasks, such as shopping, difficult to accomplish: “I drove there and I was in such a state I burst into tears, and it was total anxiety, shaking, and I had to turn around and come back without going to the shops.” The bipolar woman living through menopause was therefore positioned as unstable.

Menopause was positioned as the cause of the mood disturbance for some women \: “That only started [rapid cycling] when I started menopause; I never had that before.” However, other women’s accounts demonstrated a lack of clarity around whether change in mood was positioned as due to menopause or to bipolar disorder. In some of these accounts, the mood changes were attributed to bipolar disorder, as one participant said, “that’s probably associated with my bipolar.” However other women reported being unsure about how to make sense of their experiences. As Emily said in her interview: “I know since I've started menopause my symptoms seemed different, but whether that's a progression in the bipolar or whether that – the menopause affecting it, I'm not really sure”.

Carly also noted that her experience of bipolar depression was difficult to define, given that she was unclear as to her menopause status: “I’m not sure how far into menopausal I am or whether I’m just going through a rough trot with the depression – I don’t know”.

And Alyson spoke more generally of this life period, rather than mood symptoms specifically, “So I don't know, so this last eighteen months has had a monumental impact on my daily life but I can’t tell you with any degree of certainty whether any of the menopause symptoms have contributed to that”. In these accounts, women did not construct mood change as due to menopause or bipolar disorder, but rather adopted an ambivalent position in relation to the cause of their mood changes.

The women identified specific aspects of menopause that they associated with changes in mood. For example, physical symptoms of menopause were reported to have had an impact on symptoms of bipolar disorder for many interviewees, contributing to a sense of a loss of control over bipolar disorder during this time. In this example, the body was constructed as menopausal, whilst the mind, bipolar. As Annie described:

But when your body is doing its own thing and your brain is doing its own thing and you’re trying to get your brain into gear, and it’s like my brain is not under my control and my body is not under my control – well, who the hell am I and what am I doing and what am I – what’s going on? Everything doing its own sort of thing regardless of what you want.

Physical symptoms tended to be positioned as ‘menopause’ whilst psychological symptoms tended to be positioned as ‘bipolar disorder’ in the women’s accounts. Both the body (menopause) and the brain (bipolar disorder) were positioned as in control, serving to place the women in a passive position in relation to both menopause and bipolar disorder.

These accounts demonstrate that there was no clear framework within which women could make sense of mood change during menopause, and as a result, women oscillated between constructing symptoms as due to menopause or bipolar disorder. This may have implications for treatment seeking and choices regarding symptom management for women.

A time of transition: Life events, bipolar disorder and menopause

Many women in the sample described significant life events and menopause coming together, in combination shaping their construction and experience of their usual bipolar disorder symptoms. For many, life events were described as having a greater impact than menopause or bipolar disorder on their experience of mood during this time of life. For example, Lane talked about multiple life events that coincided with menopause, saying,

Well, that’s a difficult one because I’ve gone through so much and I’ve come through where – see, I lost my mother about 18 months ago. And what had happened was I had actually taken six months – or I’ve resigned from my job, taken six months off to go down to Melbourne to be with my parents, with my husband’s blessing. And I only got there, Saturday night, Tuesday morning the first ambulance was called for Mum and she – we lost her a month later. And she was my father’s carer ‘cause he was a polio victim. And so, I stayed on to look after him and then of course we had to find a nursing home and sell the 58-year-old house and get rid of the contents and of course I was down in Melbourne and that’s when the marriage started to sort of fall apart, I think. So I think, perhaps, that was just like a snowball, really (Lane).

In this account, the multiple life events were positioned as leading to what Lane described as: “Just when I basically sat down and thought about everything that’s going on at once and just get to where I just can’t cope with it all. And I just go into a panic attack”. The magnitude and “snowball” nature of these significant stressors, including parental illness, geographical relocation, job loss and marital breakdown, was positioned as accounting for their greater impact on Lane’s experience of “panic”, rather than menopause or bipolar disorder alone.

Other women described specific life events that were positioned as causing bipolar mood episodes. For example, Olivia described the impact of her marriage breakdown, saying that the stress caused by the relationship ending led to being hospitalised for psychosis because of the impact that it had on her sleep:

And that I found out one weekend that there was actually another woman and I guess I should have known all along and that weekend I just completely lost it… I didn’t sleep that night, I had been taking a Avanza that my GP (General Practitioner) had prescribed. A small amount so that, so I could sleep and I was sleeping really well which had been good but that Friday I didn’t sleep when I found out and then by Saturday I was actually becoming paranoid, delusional…...By the Monday I had – yeah, I was completely <laughs> and then they took me into the emergency department of the private hospital and I was admitted that night.

Oliva also described the process of coming through the other side of this experience: "I had to change my life. I had to actually start doing things that were important to me". She further talked about feeling more at peace after menopause: "I think probably I’ve been the calmest I’ve ever been in my life over the last three years..." and as she described: "I was quite happy to travel in other developing countries in Africa on my own. I had no concern for that. I could calmly make decisions about my life and how it was going". Here, menopause was constructed as a positive life change transition, irrespective of the negative mood that may have occurred during the transition period itself.

Jayce also spoke of the positive “cultural” associations of entering menopause as an Indigenous Australian woman: “I mean, one of the cultural things about menopause is, it is seen as a stage of eldership in the indigenous communities, so I have better relationships with my younger people because I have that status.” Menopause was constructed in this account as being representative of a valued and meaningful phase of life, rather than heralding a set of symptoms to be managed.

For these women, mid-life was positioned as a time of life changes, irrespective of their diagnosis of bipolar disorder or their mood changes. This differentiated menopause from being constructed within a biomedical discourse as a solely a biological period of life, to being constructed as a time of social and personal change.

Coping with mood change: Treatment choices during menopause

All of women in the sample adopted a biomedical discourse in understanding their bipolar disorder, and were currently taking medication for bipolar disorder, or under management of medical practitioners regarding their symptom management. A biomedical construction of mood changes also provided the framework by which some women chose to engage in treatment for changes in mood during menopause. For the women who positioned menopause as being the cause of symptoms, or being physical in nature, medication such as hormonal-based treatments was sought. For example, Lane reported that she experienced significant sleep disturbances as a result of hot flushes which led her to seek out menopause treatment:

So, the only thing that really worked for me was the HRT. And I tried natural stuff, I’ve tried the progesterone cream that sort of toned them down a bit but still I had the sleeping and the hot flushes still. So HRT has been the only relief and normality of life that I could get with it.

For her, the conceptualisation of menopause as creating a set of specific features or symptoms (hot flushes) that had an impact on her mood led to treatment seeking for menopause to manage the impact of this on bipolar disorder symptoms.

For those women who understood menopause as being secondary to their bipolar disorder, either due to menopause being constructed as ‘natural’ or non-causative, adjustment of psychotropic medication for bipolar symptoms, and psychiatric consultation, was often sought. For example, as noted by Emily:

Since, sort of, this menopause has started, I found my medication wasn’t effective as much, and so they tried increasing it but it didn’t make any difference, and they thought, “Well, let’s try a different anti–depressant,” and so I got switched over to that, and lots of blood tests and things like that. So they obviously – I felt that my symptoms were becoming exaggerated than they were, and they played around with my, sort of, medication to settle it out. And I think I’m now sort of back with the – where I was before menopause.

Here Emily constructs menopause as the cause of changes in her bipolar mood symptoms, with her goal being to return her mood to that which she understood as usual for her. Here the menopause was positioned as having an unusual effect, and within a medical framework this needed to be corrected with medication.

There were some women in the sample who constructed their menopause as a natural life event. As noted by Camilla:

I call it reverse puberty. And instead as far as I am concerned it’s a natural normal progression, and you don’t give kids medication for puberty, so why do you give women medication to get them through menopause. That’s my opinion, anyway.

However psychiatric symptoms were seen as separate from this “natural progression”, and thus, treatment was sought within a medical framework: “I did have to get Valium for a while because I would just be normal and then I would just get this rising panic, even just sitting and watching TV, and I just get this overwhelming panic.” This suggests that some women construct the ‘body’ as being separate from the ‘mind’, with the mind being associated with bipolar disorder, and the body with “natural” menopause. The construction of mood changes as menopausal, or due to life events, also had an influence on women’s evaluation of the outcomes of treatment. As described by Kim:

So, how much is the HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) and the menopause ending and things stabilising here and me repairing things with my husband, which bit we can pull out of that as being the HRT, I’d be kind of reluctant to say.

This ambivalence may again reflect that some women in the sample could not separate out causes of mood changes from menopause or bipolar disorder. It may further suggest that some women experienced this phase in a more holistic sense, without clear delineations being obvious between bipolar disorder, stressful life events, menopause and treatment effects. It was also noted by Kim, who was also not on any existing medication for bipolar disorder before menopause, also sought out treatment through alternative therapies, namely traditional Chinese medicine, acupuncture and psychological therapy after trialling HRT:

Because it’s [bipolar disorder] always been relatively low grade and I’m not on medication. I did go on some hormone replacement therapy at one point, which actually did help with sleeping more than anything else which was really helpful. So I tend to use more – I have almost always have had a psychologist and then manage it through that – through the general practice. And for a long time I was taking Chinese herbs, menopause Chinese herbs which – and I also use things like acupuncture to great effect that’s been really helpful along the way.

Here Kim noted that her approach for mood change during this phase menopause was based on her pre-existing management techniques, adding and extending on these in line with her beliefs about self-management and her previous success. This may also indicate that women’s treatment approaches and views of treatment success may change throughout the menopause transition.

In addition to women making decisions about treatment based on their understanding of their mood changes, some also discussed their treatment decisions in relation to other concerns that they had about their bodies during menopause, such as weight gain that can occur as part of the side effects of medications. As Annie stated:

So, I’ve had to go on tablets that made me put on weight quite quickly, put up a whole dress size as well as – and so, when you you’re sort of menopausal, I think, oh, god, I’m gonna – going to put on weight and change shape from that as well….and that’s taken me some time to wrap my head around and get to the point where I felt – well, better to be sane in an extra dress size, than thin and crazy.

Here, although Annie expressed concern about her changing body, she presented the view that her mental health was more important than being “thin”. This may reflect her acceptance of the physical changes if it meant that her mood was more settled, despite being unhappy with the body changes that may have occurred as a result.