You shout it out,

But I can’t hear a word you say

I’m talking loud not saying much



I smooth my hair down and walk out of my room. I look around the halls and take a deep breath, shoving my fear down until it dissipates. I can’t stink of anything but confidence. I can’t give them the satisfaction. I let my anger rise just enough to give me the attitude I usually carry.

I’m criticized

But all your bullets ricochet

Shoot me down, but I get up

I push open the main doors and step out into the courtyard. I see no guards on the ramparts, I never do. At least, not when I look for them. I hear snickering in the trees and peer through the shadows. I may not be an actual vampire like they are, but I have enough of it in my blood to allow for good night vision.

I’m bulletproof, nothing to loose

Fire away, fire away

Victor, Elijah, Sidney, and Mellandra stand beneath the branches of the Dead Tree. They’re watching me. I make my way to them to satisfy the king and queen’s want for me to spend time with Victor.

Ricochet, you take your aim

Fire away, fire away

“You look more like your damned mother every day.” Sidney sneers.

“Careful Sidney,” Victor says, “Or she might think she’s finally going to turn into one of us.”

You shoot me down but I won’t fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won’t fall

I am titanium

Laughter breaks out among the group. I look to Elijah, taking in his cold eyes. Hate boils in me. Hate at his family for taking him from me and killing the friend he once was, hate at him for letting them kill what good he had in him, and hate at my family for leaving me to these creatures and wanting me dead.

Cut me down

But it’s you who have further to fall

Ghost town and haunted love

“You’re all despicable. You and my family. I hate you all.” I hiss.

“Ohh, she’s got fire in her Victor.” Mellandra says.

“Yea, I’m sure she’ll be more fun in bed than you.” He smirks.

Raise your voice, sticks and stone may break my bones

I’m talking loud not saying much

Mellandra shoots me a nasty glare. I cringe at the thought of lying with Victor and push it from my mind. Elijah’s visage tightens for a moment I almost don’t notice it, but then a sneer covers his face. Victor steps up to me and pulls me roughly into a kiss. I shove him away and step back.

I’m bulletproof, nothing to loose

Fire away, fire away

Ricochet, you take your aim

Fire away, fire away



“One day, you’ll all fear me.” I whisper through clenched teeth.

The group laughs and I turn from them, hurrying across the courtyard.

“That’s right, go run and hide with the dead.” Mellandra yells after me.

Shoot me down, but I won’t fall

I am titanium

I slip behind the large boulder and rush down the stairs. The night breeze gives way to stale air that hangs heavy with age old death. I breathe it in, welcoming it. My footsteps echo quietly as I walk across the altar room to the dead end.

Shoot me down but I won’t fall

I am titanium

I am titanium

I press my palm against the wall and let it creak open. As I step through it closes behind me. I keep quiet, knowing I can still be heard. I press my palm against the second wall and it opens up. It’s only once the second wall shuts behind me that I take a breath and let myself fall to the floor.

Stone-hard, machine gun

Firing at those who run

Shivers over take me and I wipe my mouth. I hated Victor. I hated his possessive nature and fucked up attitude. I hate Mellandra and Sidney for their sneering faces and comments. But most of all, I hated Elijah. A sob threatens to tear through me but I hold it in. Even if they can’t hear me in here I will not cry over them.

Stone-hard as bulletproof glass

I push my weakness down and my body up. After taking a deep breath to stabilize myself, I walk over to the alchemy station and open the tome. Whispers fill my mind, comforting me. I close my eyes and let the voices drown out my thoughts.

“Open yourself.” They whisper.

“Find your center.”

“You are strong. Learn the Way.”

Shoot me down but I won’t fall

I am titanium

I pick up the wand and let my anger trickle into it. I envision Victor’s sneering face in front of me and give the wand a wave like the whispers told me to. At first, like most times, nothing happens. I wave it again and this time, light sputters from the end of it.

You shoot me down but I won’t fall

I am titanium

I let out a yelp of excitement and focus harder on the magic within me, letting it flow into the ivory wand in my hand. This time, magic shoots out, multicolored and hot. I feel the heat brush against my face and singe the air, burning up the oxygen. I laugh, I had it. I can do this.

You shoot me down but I won’t fall

I am titanium

After practicing more with the wand I set it down and turn to the alchemy station. I scan the potions I’ve already made on the shelves against the wall. There was nothing too strong up there yet, just basic things. A couple more years of studying alchemy and my magic though, and I’d be a force to fear.

You shoot me down but I won’t fall

I am titanium

I am titanium

I smirk and walk over to the alchemy station, opening the tome. The pages fall open to a potion I haven’t learned yet. Time to get started on perfecting this serum. I dig through the bottles of ingredients in the barrels across the room and grab what was required before turning back and getting to work. They will fear me.

Song is Jasmine Thompson’s cover of Titanium 🙂