October 25th, 2009 10:35 am

emacouture ARRRRGGG

i'm on and off anorexia like a period!

somtimjes i just forget!

how could i be so unfaithfull!?

i weighed myself today 8 stone!

my BOYFRIEND is 8 stone!

i WISH i had diabetes.

then i'd be thin and lovely like my boyfriend

and my ex boyfriend





......life sucks.



going to the cinema today

should be okay

i don't eat at the cinema

but then boyfriends coming round for dinner

i'll try to keep under 500 cals

it says on losertown.com

that if i eat under 1000 cals a day

and do a little bit of excercise i should be

48.89 kg by 31/10/2008

45.69 by 07/11/2008



& thats quite a lot of calories

& a little excercise

so i need to just watch it



But that means i must be a fat pig allready :(



weight : 112 lbs

GW 1 31/10 : 105 lbs

GW 2 10/11 : 97 lbs

GW 3 20/11 : 90 lbs





vote this 5 lmao

I can't sing. I was bored.





:(





cheer me up? i'm on and off anorexia like a period!somtimjes i just forget!how could i be so unfaithfull!?i weighed myself today 8 stone!my BOYFRIEND is 8 stone!i WISH i had diabetes.then i'd be thin and lovely like my boyfriendand my ex boyfriend......life sucks.going to the cinema todayshould be okayi don't eat at the cinemabut then boyfriends coming round for dinneri'll try to keep under 500 calsit says on losertown.comthat if i eat under 1000 cals a dayand do a little bit of excercise i should be48.89 kg by 31/10/200845.69 by 07/11/2008& thats quite a lot of calories& a little excerciseso i need to just watch itBut that means i must be a fat pig allready :(weight : 112 lbsGW 1 31/10 : 105 lbsGW 2 10/11 : 97 lbsGW 3 20/11 : 90 lbsvote this 5 lmao http://www.carphonewarehouse-xfactor.com/#/judge_song/p=141666/ I can't sing. I was bored.:(cheer me up? 01:30 pm

me_just :) hey

so yday I weighed.. Im down to 125 pounds (8 stone 13 pounds)

then, ofcourse, I just had to binge, it started of as like a well done bite, then it just carried on and on, I had to purge... I went to far

I thought I would have gained, but luckily I weighed myself this morning and im still 125!! :D

thats me down 3 pounds in a week.. ugh I worked so much harder than that but aw well, its better than nothing and I cant remember the last time I was in the 8 stone range. IDK



today, it a new day, ive had around 150 cals so far, need to study as ive got tests this week,

x 02:03 pm

altaira_isawife day 5! Current Location: bed Current Mood: determined Current Music: five finger death punch= never enough so it's day five of my fast. no move ment on the scale since day 4 meh. why why why? maybe it's because i had those pieces of sugar gum? and i'm drinking water like crazy too. hmmm? frustrating. today i think i'm pretty hungry but i'm not giving in, not when i'm this far. :D it's hard though. 02:47 pm

latina_19 (no subject) how much weight do you think someone can lose in 7 days with nothing but liquids? personal experiences would help. Thanks guys ;) xoxoxo 02:52 pm

anonibubble (no subject)

Lately I've gained...3 pounds. How you may ask? To be honest, I don't know. My caloric intake has been less than usual & my period passed. I popped a pill though, maybe my tubes are backed up..? tmi, i know. But whatever.

Back to 102. Ain't that wonderful? Nope. I feel like a fat worthless slob. Even though I want to cry so badly, I'm not. My mind says "I know you wanna". My body says "...what the fucking ever. You can lose it, you're not weak."

I don't get me.

But school has been hard for me. I'm not sure if it's extreme stress or sleep deprivation, but I have 3 makeup assignments that I have to do & 1 that have to get started on, but my mind is so entirely focused on meal planning & exercise that I'm just...slacking.

I'm officially fried. Not high- I hate smoking. But my brain is totally wasted. I think I might actually collapse & fall asleep right here, right now. Current Mood: sleepy sleepy Current Music: Altaria- Crucifix So here goes the spillage:Lately I've gained...3 pounds. How you may ask? To be honest, I don't know. My caloric intake has been less than usual & my period passed. I popped a pill though, maybe my tubes are backed up..? tmi, i know. But whatever.Back to 102. Ain't that wonderful? Nope. I feel like a fat worthless slob. Even though I want to cry so badly, I'm not. My mind says "I know you wanna". My body says "...what the fucking ever. You can lose it, you're not weak."I don't get me.But school has been hard for me. I'm not sure if it's extreme stress or sleep deprivation, but I have 3 makeup assignments that I have to do & 1 that have to get started on, but my mind is so entirely focused on meal planning & exercise that I'm just...slacking.I'm officially fried. Not high- I hate smoking. But my brain is totally wasted. I think I might actually collapse & fall asleep right here, right now. 03:22 pm

bitterescape Metabolism? So, finally, after being the same weight for DAYS, I finally lost 2.5lbs again today. Right now I'm VERY afraid my metabolism would shut down. I lost 12.3 lbs over 9 days but stayed the same for 4 days until today?! What do you guys think of a "planned" binge meal once a week? My school serves fresh Chinese wok food that I'm really into. I calculated that it would be between 330 and 470 kcal per portion, depending on what I take.

That would make my total intake max. 800kcal for that day.



Does it help taking "real" lunch once a week to keep metabolism going?

What do you guys do to keep it up and working?



HW: 156

LW: 101

CW: 143

GW: 140, 130, 120

UGW: 110 So, finally, after being the same weight for DAYS, I finally lost 2.5lbs again today. Right now I'm VERY afraid my metabolism would shut down. I lost 12.3 lbs over 9 days but stayed the same for 4 days until today?! What do you guys think of a "planned" binge meal once a week? My school serves fresh Chinese wok food that I'm really into. I calculated that it would be between 330 and 470 kcal per portion, depending on what I take.That would make my total intake max. 800kcal for that day.Does it help taking "real" lunch once a week to keep metabolism going?What do you guys do to keep it up and working?HW: 156LW: 101CW: 143GW: 140, 130, 120UGW: 110 04:25 pm

haileytxx (no subject)

So, im having a huge dilema, which is causeing me to be reallly depressed and just, I dont even know just giving up. I tried to gain a little weight back when i was at my smallest because my family threatend me with the hospital. And then I got stuck in a binge and gained pretty much all my weight back. I still have my eating disorder, but can not get out of this stupid eating style of eating alotttt. and its makeing me keep gainging weight. I felt SOO good when I was thin. I got amazing grades, was super condifent and just happy with myself. Has anyone gone through this, and know how to get back to your habbits? cause im am having a majorrr difficult time and just want my life back. I dont go out anymore cause I feel fat and discusting and depressed. I hate everything latly.. hight; 5' 0.5 cw: 110-120, HW: 125, LW: 75, GW1: 105, GW2: 95, GW3: 85, UGW: 80 xo, your all beautiful 04:59 pm

vivaciouswitch (no subject) So yesterday I planned on a fast but I felt like I was going to faint around 3pm. I had work at 430 and I did not want that to happen at work. No no no no no.

So I had 400 cals yesterday and didn't eat after 4pm.

It could have been worse.

Today I'm going to fast. I need to go get some Clear bottles. Its this fizzy water with amazing fruity taste but there is literally nothing in it. No sugar, carbs, calories. Nothing. Genius.

I'm afraid to see what the scale says this morning.

Here I go ...

Cw:122.2!

That's a new low! Yay!

I've officially lost 10 pounds this month. I was teetering on 130-132 for soooo long. And I just needed some motivation. Yay I'm so stoked!! So yesterday I planned on a fast but I felt like I was going to faint around 3pm. I had work at 430 and I did not want that to happen at work. No no no no no.So I had 400 cals yesterday and didn't eat after 4pm.It could have been worse.Today I'm going to fast. I need to go get some Clear bottles. Its this fizzy water with amazing fruity taste but there is literally nothing in it. No sugar, carbs, calories. Nothing. Genius.I'm afraid to see what the scale says this morning.Here I go ...Cw:122.2!That's a new low! Yay!I've officially lost 10 pounds this month. I was teetering on 130-132 for soooo long. And I just needed some motivation. Yay I'm so stoked!! 07:09 pm

evelynmay New Beginning Hello everyone.

I've been here before but it's been years.



Here's whats up. I'm very unhappy with my weight, have NEVER been successful at loosing any, and I'm 20 now and think it's about time I crack down and meet my goals.



I am 5'6.5

CW: 147

HW 148

GW 133



I am at 143 to 144 almost all of the time, school has just been swamping me down and I have been stressed and lazy and eating bad and not having time to work out. Not to mention all the drinking for my birthday earlier this month, and all the drinking in general.. I'm in college.



So the biggest problem here is that I'm a vegetarian. I should probably just see a nutritionist for real help in creating a diet plan, but do any of you have any advice on what and when to eat while being a vegetarian in order to loose weight? Help would be greatly, greatly appreciated.



I'm going to come up with rewards for reaching my goals later tonight after I finish some more studying. I have my eye on a few Victoria's Secret bras... I love bras! Anyway, good to see you all again.. I guess :/

Hope everyone is healthy and achieving their goals!



09:16 pm

culoslap (no subject) Via text messages.



Me: Hey walking, talking dictionary definition of all that is beautiful.

Her: Lol. How are you?

M: Good had a crazy day yesterday. At the mall now. But enough about me I want to know how the beauty that is you is doing.

H: I'm ok. Just woke up from a nap...lol. Shot another story at the state fair yesterday and now I've got to study for my english midterm tomorrow.

M: Ya I imagine mid terms are looming. Do you like the state fair?

H: Ya the state fair is pretty fun. I like cotton candy :)

M: Have you gone for fun instead of going for journalism?

H: Lol. No not this year. Want to go?

M: With you?! Hell yes I do!

Lol. Ok. How about next saturday?

Will you be free?

I'm planning ahead. So yea I'll be free.

I feel so honored... Thank you. Are you going to bring friends or just you and I?

Um idk what do you want to do?

Some of my friends expressed interest but haven't asked yet. I can just make it you and I if the lady likes.

The lady approves... lol

Approves of what? Just you and I?

Yup

I like that idea as well. Do you like the crazy g-force manipulating, stomach in the stratosphere, mach 5 rides? Cuz I don't. At least not at the fair.

Um definitely not... lol. I like more chill rides?

Like minded you and I :) um are you finished ready Water for Elephants?

Yea I read it awhile ago. Want to borrow it?

Yes lol I'll finishi Hearts in Atlantis by saturday and I hate being without a book to read. I haven't been to the fair in years I'm excited now.

Lol. It'll be fun :)

Will you wear your glasses that day?

Sure thing :)

That's hot :] Am I to pick you up from your domicile or are we to meet up?

Um where do you live? I don't want to make you drive all the way here...

I'll drive to the older edges of the universe for a nice lady as yourself. A gentleman always makes it convenient for the lady. Whatever is good for you.

Lol. Ok. yea if you don't mind... picking me up would be nice...

I'll make sure to wash and detail my car because a lady should never ride in a dirty carriage :)

:) Via text messages.Me: Hey walking, talking dictionary definition of all that is beautiful.Her: Lol. How are you?M: Good had a crazy day yesterday. At the mall now. But enough about me I want to know how the beauty that is you is doing.H: I'm ok. Just woke up from a nap...lol. Shot another story at the state fair yesterday and now I've got to study for my english midterm tomorrow.M: Ya I imagine mid terms are looming. Do you like the state fair?H: Ya the state fair is pretty fun. I like cotton candy :)M: Have you gone for fun instead of going for journalism?H: Lol. No not this year. Want to go?M: With you?! Hell yes I do!Lol. Ok. How about next saturday?Will you be free?I'm planning ahead. So yea I'll be free.I feel so honored... Thank you. Are you going to bring friends or just you and I?Um idk what do you want to do?Some of my friends expressed interest but haven't asked yet. I can just make it you and I if the lady likes.The lady approves... lolApproves of what? Just you and I?YupI like that idea as well. Do you like the crazy g-force manipulating, stomach in the stratosphere, mach 5 rides? Cuz I don't. At least not at the fair.Um definitely not... lol. I like more chill rides?Like minded you and I :) um are you finished ready Water for Elephants?Yea I read it awhile ago. Want to borrow it?Yes lol I'll finishi Hearts in Atlantis by saturday and I hate being without a book to read. I haven't been to the fair in years I'm excited now.Lol. It'll be fun :)Will you wear your glasses that day?Sure thing :)That's hot :] Am I to pick you up from your domicile or are we to meet up?Um where do you live? I don't want to make you drive all the way here...I'll drive to the older edges of the universe for a nice lady as yourself. A gentleman always makes it convenient for the lady. Whatever is good for you.Lol. Ok. yea if you don't mind... picking me up would be nice...I'll make sure to wash and detail my car because a lady should never ride in a dirty carriage :):) 10:13 pm

texasgirl77379 (no subject)



hello hope everone is doing well!!! my diet starts monday which is tomorroww. if you could stop by and message me to keep me on track. encouragable messages would be awesomee!! love you all IM GOING TO LOSE 20 POUNDSS NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN FEELSSSS!!! 10:22 pm

whispernothings (no subject) So I am back again. Off and on. Lose weight gain weight. So recently in the past few weeks I put on 4 or 5 pounds. I can't take it anymore. My boyfriend seems to have hard time being intrested in my body. He says it is silly I worry of such things. But I do. It's all I do. Starting Tuesday I am starting a new plan. But I have to wait tell then. The good news is something is making it EXTREMLY painful to swallow anything including salvia. So I am just been eating apple sauce (1/2 cup is 50 cals) and hot tea. God it hurts though:(( I wish I could make things right, and this is only way I know how. Because I can some how make me.... a better me.



So I am back again. Off and on. Lose weight gain weight. So recently in the past few weeks I put on 4 or 5 pounds. I can't take it anymore. My boyfriend seems to have hard time being intrested in my body. He says it is silly I worry of such things. But I do. It's all I do. Starting Tuesday I am starting a new plan. But I have to wait tell then. The good news is something is making it EXTREMLY painful to swallow anything including salvia. So I am just been eating apple sauce (1/2 cup is 50 cals) and hot tea. God it hurts though:(( I wish I could make things right, and this is only way I know how. Because I can some how make me.... a better me.