Justin Bieber held a private listening party for his new album in Los Angeles on Thursday (January 25) and the event let attendees in on his recent struggles.

After being introduced by Def Jam chairman Paul Rosenberg and longtime manager/SB Projects honcho Scooter Braun, the comeback kid, 25, took the mic to deliver a candid speech, admitting he doesn't think he should be alive after a "super challenging" period of his life. “I feel like God’s brought me out of a really dark place," he told the audience, as noted by Billboard. He also shared gratitude for Braun, tearing up while addressing his manager. "You walked with me through a lot of sh*t," he said, adding, "I need to get it together!"

While no release date was announced for the follow-up to 2015's Purpose, the iHeartRadio Music Awards performer did admit that "Canadian treasure" Shawn Mendes is not on the LP and pointed out which of the songs that his wife, Hailey Baldwin, enjoyed the most. The project reportedly focuses on the healing powers of love and marriage, and sees Bieber return to the R&B/pop sonics of his 2013 project, Journals.

Expect more from the Biebster when his YouTube docuseries, Seasons, arrives on the social media platform on January 27.