THE nurse who committed suicide after the royal hoax phone call left a note telling the two DJs behind the prank they were responsible for her death.

In one of three apparent suicide notes, Jacintha Saldanha, 46, expressed her anger at 2Day FM presenters Mel Greig and Michael Christian, blaming them for her death.

Ms Saldanha was found hanged at London's King Edward VII's Hospital where the Duchess of Cambridge was being treated for severe morning sickness.

"God knows what went on in her mind," her sister-in-law, Zeena, said in India yesterday. "Maybe she thought she had been made such a fool. We didn't even know about the prank call."

Her mother, Carmine, is devastated by Ms Saldanha's death.

"I can't sleep, I just want Jacintha," she weeps as relatives sit by, helpless in their grief. "What can I do?"

The Mail on Sunday reports one DJ phoned the hospital within an hour of the call and told Ms Saldanha they had played a prank that would be broadcast.

The revelation she had been duped is believed to have left the nurse, who had no media experience, feeling confused and agitated.

Ms Saldanha's body arrived in her Mangalore hometown. She will be buried in Shirva.

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