Sometimes I well up with emotional pain.

I feel lost and broken like nothing will ever be the same.

Nothing ever has been in life this far for me, but sometimes I feel as if I am lost at sea. I suppose I can say I have always been able to breathe. That centering action has been so good to me, except when I give tone to wind, and I end up saying what I don’t mean.

Like a violent wind from far beneath the earth, from hell it would seem.

Or poetry, but that never manifests first as spoken word but thought. Chemical unbalance balancing word upon word on page lines that appear to be strait, a word or a claim of sexual identity.

Flowing mane I was growing for humanity is gone along with a little vanity, I am less confident without my curling locks. Hard knocks hard knocks hard knocks. Life is full of shock life is full of love too. I love you , but not myself, I am too detached to love all that I experience about myself. I love parts of me, and others do to, but to be loved entirely, that’s something to work to.

Look through the sidewalks and pretty shiny cars, we are ruining the energy to ascend to stars, we are what we are, we are what we are.

From a far away planet the earth looks so small, and when in its protective sphere we are all to vulnerable.

That vulnerability like an insurance contract for the rest of life, since violence begets violence the stronger you are the harder you will be destroyed . Freud oh that fool of Victorian beliefs , would he find it ironic that so many Femanazi’s study psychology?

Biology determining so many, chemistry to create ways to manipulate your experience of this cloud world, like depression isn’t symptom of societal decay. It ok, it’s totally ok, everyone picks their poison every single day.

The answer isn’t more it is less, it is the bearing of it all, and the exposed forgiven from sin, not from god but from within. If the world will turn with us or without what then.

We must complete each other and not compete to win, because winning doesn’t equal having the most or being clean from sin. It means being present and compassionate from the time you begin. If we can’t pass that lesson on and have it stick to our kin, then oh what then…