So this is it. You’re reading my last note. The final thing I’ve left for you in this world. I have to say that I’m surprised; I would have never thought that you could bring yourself to read this after my death. But here you are, reading my final words. You’re expecting something, aren’t you? I suppose you’d like my note to tell you something, make you feel better, or bring some closure to what may have happened.

I’m afraid that closure isn’t something you’ll find here. I’m sorry, so damn sorry. There are things between us that you and I know that I simply can’t explain. If you were expecting me to clear these things up, then I’m afraid I can’t do that. However, I won’t end this note without giving you anything, my dear. I’ll tell you what it is I’ve learned by being with you.

I lived as a lonely person, as you know. Lonely, but vaguely optimistic. The day I met you was the day that my optimism finally payed off. What I saw in you was something strange to me that I was shocked. I was stunned to my very core to see someone so beautiful. I know you probably don’t believe me when I call you beautiful but it’s true. I bet you’d tell me otherwise, but the truth is you’re beautiful.

Being around your beauty was a whole new experience for me. It wasn’t just your body, but your mind was full of things I had never thought of before, things I had never even unintentionally daydreamed about. The way you spoke caught my attention. Your voice, no matter how mundane you think it is, is one of the most beautiful things I’ve heard.

This voice taught me quite a few things about life, and how to live it. The things in life that we all seek can be found in others along with ourselves. It is one of life’s greatest virtues to laugh, to think, and to love. With these things, we can dance and sing. We can enjoy and savor. With these things, we can be together, in thought and in memory, and in both life and death.

I will always be with you, even after this final goodbye. So I ask you to smile like I did when we talked. I ask you to laugh like I did when I was with you. I want you to love yourself as much as I loved you. Go dance and sing without me. Go enjoy whatever it is you want to enjoy, and savor those things while they last. Be happy and as long as you are, I will always be with you.

The only thing that I will miss is being with you. But perhaps, with enough patience, I’ll finally be able to hold you again.

Until then, this is goodbye.