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Trading pics & videos of girls, coolcliffe420 kiq.

You: so they're like a commodity now?

Stranger: Apparently.

Stranger: That's what it has come to.

You: sometimes it's hard to like people.

Stranger: The more time I spend online, the more I dislike modern humans in general.

Stranger: How does this trade work?

Stranger: "This is my neighbour, now gimme some"

Stranger: "Okay, that's this girl that sits in front of me in class..here an upskirt"

You: yeesh.

You: I've been under that spell for far too long.

Stranger: Which spell do you mean?

You: the porn one.

You: I've been addicted to porn and masturbation for probably about 5 years now.

You: for a few months now I've been trying to do that.

You: err, quit that.

Stranger: 3 years for me. So glad to break it too.

You: freudian slip.

Stranger: Hahaha!

You: did you do nofap?

You: or did you just quit it on your own?

Stranger: No, I just stopped and started sports to release

Stranger: I stopped sports after porn

Stranger: So it made sense to undo it that way

Stranger: Man, I hate the fapping days

Stranger: I could literally walk on the street, see women and think of cumming on their faces

Stranger: What was wrong with me?

You: yeah, it's the same here.

You: so far I'm on 3 days. I've never gotten past 5.

You: it was pretty scary to realize that I was addicted at first.

You: the whole time before I always looked down on druggies and smokers.

You: I always thought that if they couldn't quit, they were just weak willed.

You: and then after that I realized that I'd fallen into the same trap.

You: it was really mind jarring.

Stranger: I can't tell you how close that is to my experience.

Stranger: I always felt, "drug addiction, no way"

Stranger: I can try it and leave it

Stranger: I just didn't realise, I was always addicted to something else

Stranger: The whole time

Stranger: And the worst part is how close it is to a real addiction

Stranger: You need more and more

Stranger: More degrading, more men, one women....what a mess!

You: yeah, it's pretty fucking crazy.

You: I'd say it's a real addiction. all the same things.

You: but people don't see it that way.

You: I feel sheepish trying to tell anyone because I feel like they wouldn't understand.

You: I told my sister about it and she was all like, "oh but masturbation's perfectly normal at your age. that's okay."

You: but I know it's different.

Stranger: Well, I think women just won't get it

Stranger: They'll either be freaked out by it

Stranger: Or think "yeah, that's cool, no worries"

Stranger: I bet a lot of woman are addicted though

You: yeah, I guess so.

You: I took a step in the right direction, though.

Stranger: Sorry, I meant a lot of men are addicted.

Stranger: Not women.

You: makes a bit more sense, lol.

Stranger: Lol, a lot more sense.

You: I think you were right about adopting new activities to help out overcoming the addiction.

You: I've recently started working out again, and it feels pretty great.

Stranger: That's the kind of thing you need

You: Video games don't help at all, lol.

Stranger: What particularly works charms are hanging out with women

Stranger: That shit is the worst

Stranger: lol

Stranger: Even car video games would lead me to watch porn after

Stranger: Its weird

You: which sucks because I'm addicted to them too.

You: yeah, I was playing some Paladins earlier. basically a poor man's Overwatch

You: not exactly the best game for me because there are some pretty good-looking girls on that game

You: and when I lose, it kind of gets me down because I'm super duper competitive

You: today, I almost broke my 3 day streak after losing

You: but instead of doing that, I just fumed for a few minutes and then deleted all the porn off my computer.

You: it was kind of a weird step.

You: like, I guess it's like when you hydroplane in a car and overcorrect the wheel

You: instead of masturbating to get rid of the feeling, I just deleted all my porn.

You: it was weird.

Stranger: I know that's definitely effective.

Stranger: Basically when I was high or low, I just needed to vent and watch porn.

Stranger: At those times, even deleting my porn collection worked perfect

Stranger: It killed the high / low, and got me thinking of other things

Stranger: I guess that's the whole point about fighting the addiction

You: It was so weird deleting all that.

You: I don't know why, but I got a sense of... porn nostalgia?

You: like I've been fapping to those things forever. felt a little bad deleting them.

You: but I know it's the best thing for me. kind of like leaving an abusive lover I guess.

Stranger: Haha. For some reason, weirdly, I can totally relate to that too.

Stranger: I remember I started off masturbating to topless magazine girls

Stranger: And I still google some of these models due to porn "nostalgia"

Stranger: I'm thinking like, they gave me good fap moments

Stranger: Wonder what they're doing now

Stranger: Wtf...its weird.

You: you probably built up this one-sided relationship when you were fapping to them.

Stranger: Exactly!

Stranger: Damn! I actually imagined more than just fapping to their body

Stranger: Like meeting them on a date, and thanking them for getting me through my teens

Stranger: And maybe even a one night stand with them

You: ...man, we are two peas in a pod, aren't we?

Stranger: And in the end, cumming on their faces! fuck.

Stranger: I guess we are.

You: I do the same thing sometimes. except there's one in particular I really like.

You: she's smart, sexy, and very expressive. that's what I like in women. personality and looks.

You: like, I remember this one pornstar. great tits, everything. beautiful face. but she was so dull and lifeless.

You: I couldn't get into that.

Stranger: Haha. Yeah, we start living a life with them.

You: I think it's kind of good, in a way. shows that I'm not completely shallow lol.

Stranger: You are fairly intellectual.

Stranger: That probably explains the depth of your addiction.

Stranger: I guess if I or you were just watching some naked bodies it wouldn't matter

Stranger: But the fantasy around it grows deeper with every video

Stranger: And makes it worse

You: yeah. I remember starting off with stripping videos. then it moved to lesbian sex, then POV. eventually it progressed to sleep-molesting and then step-incest.

You: I stopped after that.

You: I felt so sick with myself.

Stranger: You quit at the right time.

Stranger: I don't even want to know what comes next in porn.

You: Me either, buddy. I'm glad I stopped.

You: Well, started to stop, anyway. I'm only on 3 days at this point.

You: but it's better than still being stuck in a rut, you know what I'm saying?

Stranger: Definitely.

Stranger: Some progress is better than a porn stash.

You: yeah. and now I don't have to worry about anyone going through my stuff and finding my shit.

Stranger: Haha! That's a huge bonus!

You: whew, definitely.

You: I felt a little bad because I spent some good money on a couple of porn games I had installed.

You: but the way I see it, when I quit this addiction, that's money I'll have saved in the future.

You: I remember seriously considering subscriptions to porn MMOs and premium sites.

Stranger: God. Investing in it, would be a step to never coming back

Stranger: Glad you didn't do that.

Stranger: I always stuck to the freer ones, maybe that helped me quit early.

You: I don't know why I ever paid for anything. I know a really good site with 1080p, 60fps free porn.

You: I guess I wanted to see some truly virtual girls do it. Idk. I guess I figured if I like video games and girls, combine the two, boom.

You: that was stupid of me.

Stranger: Hahaha!

Stranger: You have to involve yourself somehow

Stranger: For me it was trying to meet women online with weird fetishe

Stranger: *fetishes

Stranger: Man! I'm just glad it's all over. For me it is.

You: Yeah. For me, I think I'll make it.

Stranger: Good luck to you bro.

Stranger: I can see your the type of guy who can.

You: I'm in it for the long haul, haha.

Stranger: Lol. There's no other way I guess.

You: I've read that most people are fully recovered after 90 days.

You: But I'm wondering if after then, I'd ever want to do it again for fear of coming back to the same cycle.

You: Just like how ex-alcoholics don't drink, and ex-smokers don't smoke.

Stranger: I've quit once before for over 4 months

Stranger: Then it came back, cause I'm having a hard time in life

Stranger: And drinking heavily isn't my thing

Stranger: And I had already quit smoking

Stranger: Other than that, generally a month or two in, its pretty easy again

Stranger: You'll even start looking at women differently, which is pretty great

You: Yeah, I noticed that on a five day streak. I was just conscientiously looking at them as normal people.

You: Then I relapsed and it was back to fuckdolls again.

Stranger: Haha! Fuckdolls,cumbuckets and other weird ideas.

Stranger: But yeah, you'll make it

Stranger: Maybe a month at a time

Stranger: And then soon its gone.

You: I'll be glad for that day. Knowing that I'm fully free.

You: Who knows, maybe I'll let up on video games too.

You: I spend way too much time doing that as well.

You: Like this weekend, I had an essay to write and a project to do.

You: I did the essay the other night. No sleep.

You: I gotta do the project when I get home from school tomorrow.

You: And I could have done that all this weekend, but what did I do? Video games.

You: And it was a 3-day weekend at that. yeesh.

Stranger: That shit is addictive as fuck.

Stranger: i don't even know why I kept playing them

Stranger: At some point it was ego

Stranger: Like I was in this shit for real

Stranger: And losing here says something about me in real life

Stranger: What the fuck kind of shit is that.

You: Man, that's so me.

You: I think that's a little bit me now actually, which is scary.

You: GTA is the worst for that.

You: if I keep dying in Online, I get salty as fuck.

You: I don't rage like in those hilarious videos. I just shout and start lifting a pair of dumbells I keep by my desk.

You: much better way to resolve the problem than breaking shit, and it's amazing what anger can do for your reps.

You: still, I don't intend to keep doing that either. just raging alone is shameful.

Stranger: Totally. I can't believe how this whole masculine shit felt so good.

Stranger: And then it felt some odd caricature

Stranger: What a goddamn waste of mind and testosterone!

You: yeah, no kidding!

Stranger: Bro, I gotta leave for university.

Stranger: Sorry to bail out like this, its been great talking

You: aww, that blows. You're cool to talk to. and yeah, I think this convo's been real enlightening.

You: you have a good day, alright?

Stranger: I will :)

Stranger: You too bro.

Stranger: It's been a real pleasure talking to you.

Stranger: Satisfying to share that.

You: Yeah, you too man.

You: Seeya round!

Stranger: See ya!