Anonymous asked: Adronis spoke allot about the orion wars. Not as in depth and focused as you are ofcourse, but it is interesting. Why are you drawn to do this. Do you enjoy the story or just the process of sharing the story?

Originally it was just something I did when I was bored as a child, then the habit stuck around with me. Later on I came to value it because it was one of the few consistent things I’d had in my life since childhood. It was a story with years of plot and character and attachment to it, and it gave my mind something to do when I was bored. I never even dreamed of sharing it with anyone up until four or five years ago when I had the relatively anonymity of the internet to do so. Unfortunately I feel like I started to focus on making content to share more than the story itself, and in telling it so many times I started to dull my memories. I killed off the main character, Orion, not long after I started sharing the story. Then, about a year ago, I had a plotline in the story in which he was “resurrected” using ancient technology. Not only did I break the rules of my own world, but I ended up with four people competing for the role of main character. And I’ve gotten a little bit weary of the story, so I stopped imagining it quite as much. I’m not sure if this is me finally “growing up,” so to speak, or just running out of places to go with the story, or being too frustrated with the mistakes I made in the plot, but I haven’t done much with it in quite a few months now. I’ve taken breaks from it before, but I’m not sure if I will go back to it this time. I will say that when I “imagined” one of these great battles I’d been building up to for months, I was staying on a college campus where I was volunteering, and dedicated an entire chill summer evening to wandering around the campus imagining this whole scene. Months, even years, had led up to this, and I must have spent hours walking, until it was dark and I returned to my room. It was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life, to get so lost in something so absorbing to me. The world is almost a canvas for how I imagine this story, and it seems to fall away a bit, almost like when you are seeing a good movie in the theater that really draws you in. I experienced this a couple more times, it is one of the happiest feelings I have felt, a story I can really truly engage with emotionally because it is my own. Feeling my passion for it slip away was frustrating, I have tried to move on and hope maybe I will return to it one day.



I guess to answer your question in short, being a master of this story, wanting to know what will happen next (but not really knowing myself) drew me to it. Just wanting to inhabit the world I created, the real world enhancing my imagination by being a sort of framework of imagery to use, drew me to it. The characters I created and felt so close to over the years, drew me to it. I enjoyed imagining the story for years without drawing or writing anything for it. Sharing it took a little of the magic away but it was nice to do. I think in the end it was a mix of strange self-consciousness, and mistakes I made with the plot, that caused me to lose interest. If I could go back, I think I would have kept it to myself.

I hope that answers your question. But I also felt the need to explain my absence, in case someone still looks at this blog.

(I’ve never seen the Orion Wars but I’m reading a bit about them now. Looks interesting. Thanks for showing them to me).