YouTuber CopperCab has explained her five month absence was because she was starting hormone treatment in order to transition.

The vlogger, best known for the viral Gingers Do Have Souls clip, posted for the first time using her new identity, Claire.

She admits she "can't put on a mask anymore" and vows "to be myself".

The 23-year-old thanks Caitlyn Jenner who "helped me out a lot" by revealing she was trans last year.

"[But] she has a lot of money and not every trans person is able to look like her because she can afford surgery. I'm not able to afford it and that's OK."

In order to afford surgery, Claire says she's been working at a restaurant for extra cash.

"One reason I never came out before was because I felt like a monster," Claire says to the camera, visibly emotional.

"I'm not going to live another year of my life pretending to be someone else."

But she's expecting to be trolled online for coming out, something she says she's used to.

"I know a lot of you are going to make fun of me, I know a lot of you are going to think that I'm joking, but this is the hardest video I've ever made," she explains.

"I wasn't going to come back but I feel like I'm strong now, more so than I've ever been because I'm learning to accept myself and be more comfortable in my own skin."

Claire says she's making the video for her online friends, revealing she only has one friend offline.

I know a lot of you are going to make fun of me... but this is the hardest video I've ever made CopperCab

"I've always felt different than everyone else around me. I only have one friend offline, everyone else is online [as] they're the only people who I fit in with."

In the post she also reveals she's has "terrible anxiety" as well as "depression problems".

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