You cant change the past. You also can’t change the future you will now face from the choices you've made. You have no idea what you’ve done. The kind of pain that you’ve caused is unlike any other pain in the world. You’ve betrayed someone who trusted you. Shattered the heart of someone who loved you. Chose a stranger over someone you were already married to. Made a father leave his home and children. Threw away a person who valued you for a fantasy. What you’ve done has caused so much damaged and pain to another person on so many different levels. That kind of pain that is caused will always find it’s way back to the source that created it. Karma has no prejudice and only seeks to re pay what’s been given. You can’t change that and what you’re feeling now is just the beginning.



Your soul will become saturated in the dark energy that was spawned from the pain of your selfish choice. The longer you continue to do the same things that created it...the longer your suffering will be. You’ll remain in that place, in life and death, until you end the source and begin to make right the wrong you’ve done.



Some people have compared the feeling of a spouse’s betrayal and all that comes with the experience to the death of a loved one...it’s not. It’s much worse than death. Death isn’t personal. It’s not a choice someone makes instead of being with you. It affects everyone that love them not just a specific person. Death is certain...final. There’s a natural process to dealing with death. Accept it happened, mourn it and move on. You don’t constantly suffer from thoughts like the corpse is taking your kids and planning to spend Christmas with their affair partner like a family. Meaning there’s a definitive end you're working towards...not living with constant and crushing reminders because your tied to this person through your children you now have to share!



Death is swift. Having your heart mutilated, your mind shattered, your confidence and self worth diminished, being humiliated and treated like you are worthless, and having the only family and life you’ve ever known taken from you and burned to the ground all so you can live out a fabricated fantasy that you just can’t live without....is pain that can’t be described.



Whatever reasons you had for making the choices you made...Whatever justifications you concocted to enable you to do them...Whatever issues you had in your marriage that you used to blame your spouse for why you did it...are all excuses! Excuses for you to have what you’ve told yourself you deserve. Excuses that you used to mask and cover up the fact that inside, you truly believe that you, yourself are a worthless person and not good enough or deserving. Unfortunately for you, your actions reflect what you truly are inside and there’s nothing in this world that can cover up blemish that disgusting and repulsive...it can only be removed!



Fun fact...True love doesn't destroy other people’s lives in order to have it. So If your secretly building a new relationship while you’re still in the old one...that’s a pretty good indication that it’s not love hard at work and that you’re building on a weak foundation made of lies and deceit. It’s a matter of time and it will come in unexpected ways but, Karma will come and when it does it will huff...and puff...and blow every bit of your entitled happiness to the ground.



You’re on your own now...go save yourself!