In the summer of 2015, former US Marine and world record weightlifter Matt “Kroc” Kroczaleski was publicly outed as being transgender. The reaction was universal: her sponsors abandoned her, she was disowned by her parents, banned from competing.

This film follows Janae — her chosen name — as she attempts to find her place in society. Initially wanting to strip off the muscle and become a much smaller looking woman, she found herself unable to lose the muscle she once worked so hard to gain. She now describes herself living one day as an alpha male and the next day as a delicate girl.

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Will Janae be able to handle her muscle relapses? Will her she be able to bridge her love of strength and body building with her female identity and finally begin to thrive?

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