April 15th, 2014

The vial of blood lay before me—one step remains before the revival of the Dark Lord, the Goblin King, Sauron, George Lucas, Red Skull, and Tom—or Jerry; never was sure who the “bad guy” was in that situation.



We tend to cower in fear at the mythic overtakings of those who creep in the dark, because we’re supposed to be scared of what goes bump in the night. But in India, Lord Shiva is known as the Great Destroyer, and he is succeeded by the greater wrath of the goddess Kali, wearing her victim’s skulls around her neck and stomping upon Shiva like a rag doll. Simply, her antics make Grand Theft Auto look like a kindergarden finger-painting class.



Not only do these gods represent death, destruction, darkness, and the shadows, but the process of change, transformation, and purge. They are worshipped and respected—some devote their entire lives to Kali, or She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. And they do not resemble the Death Eaters of Potter-lore, but blissful, ecstatic, chaste devotees of God.



The full moon transits through Libra, across a retrograding Mars, creating a total lunar eclipse to the effect of turning the moon “blood red.” So, if you wanted to hypothetically revive any dark lords, now would be a good time.



Tensions will rise—the cardinal energy of the moon is heightened by the grand cross strengthening in Aries, Cancer, Libra, and Capricorn. I have since doubled my circuit training, personal workouts and yoga classes in an effort to bleed myself to exhaustion, because, something will burn, and it might as well be the calories.



These next few weeks will set the pace for the rest of your year. As mentioned in earlier posts, the cardinal movement will either fill you with the extraordinary amount of energy required to get your shit done, or build up inside of you like a stagnant tumor until it, or you, bursts. My advice to you: start bursting ahead of time. Push yourself to the extreme. Get yourself an enema. Play a violent videogame and really kick some ass.



Destruction has its place—anyone can look out the window these days and list a dozen reasons as to how we’re destroying ourselves, the planet, and our culture. It’s not the biggest deal.



Whitewashed Jedi live by the Muppetine wisdom, “Do or do not. There is no try.” Speaking to the grayer creed, you’re damn right there is try.



We live through cycles of personal destruction on a day-to-day basis. Ever find yourself in front of the same conflict, over and over, even though you “learned the lesson,” sending you into a pit of extraordinary depression? When you think, how could I possibly emerge from this, my life sucks, and nothing will ever work out, and I might as well give up. And even when you pick yourself back up, life doesn’t feel that much better.



Growth can be extremely subtle, often completely invisible to our perception. We live in the moment, in the center of the storm, and it takes a bird’s eye, expansive view to understand the totality of one’s story, or chapter.



No matter how long you watch a tree, it’s impossible to see it grow. Eventually, you may have new states to compare the old ones to, but the actual growth is so minuscule, and so patient, that it is quite impossible to perceive.



We learn from the failure to succeed. So we try again, and we fail, again and again and again, until we don’t. You will fail countless times, and you must continue to try, and you start over, again, and it feels like forever, but each time you learn something that makes you approach the situation differently. And, you fail again. And again, you approach your life with a subtle shift. You can fail as many times as you want, but you only need to win once to beat the game.



Gamers don’t fight the super secret hidden awesome boss monster once, and then say, “Well, I guess I’m not good enough.” They die, and learn the patterns. Then, they approach the super secret hidden awesome boss monster again. And they die, again and again. Maybe they go level up somewhere else, and come back. Eventually, they win.



Embrace the dark, destructive nature of life. Trust in your ability to grow, get better, and transform, without having to see it to believe it. You’re changing, trust me–we all are. When the lights go out, everyone wants someone to cuddle, even Lord Voldemort.









