Should I be mad at my white dad, asian mom for contributing to the emasculation of Asian males, that I suffer

Ok look I don't want to bash my parents personally. I don't think my dad is an Asiaphile or my mom is a sell-out. But as much as Americans hate to admit it, life is not about individuals. Not when you have statistics.

Look personally I don't even find Asian females attractive. So its not about that. But when you have 50% of Asian females dating white guys, what does that say about Asian males?

So weren't my parents being selfish? I mean is love everything? Didn't they think about all the challenges I'd have to face as an Asian looking male? I mean I have no adult Asian male to relate to. How can a white dad or Asian mom understand what an Asian male faces?

I mean my very birth is an embodiment of humiliation. My very existence. I'm referred to as an infection, the Pollution, and thats true. And no actions I take in my life can escape that.

My whole life was defined by race. As a little boy when I had more Euro features I tried to constantly remind everyone I was .5 white. After puberty I looked fully Asian. Don't AFs realize that they carry the Asian gene they are running from? In fact when AMs mate with WFs the kids look much more Euro than WM-AF. Can you see the irony in that? Its like out of Oedipus.

So what is the solution? To be ultra-machismo to bully, abuse, and degrade white girls? To be honest I kind of feel sorry for girls in our society, they go through a lot of humiliations. But they don't have it worse than Asian men. SO maybe that is what I should have done. IDK its too late now.

But its all my parents fault. They cursed me with my very birth. How can I redeem Asian manhood, when being born cut it off?

Well it is precisely when one thinks of oneself as purely an individual but is treated based on race, that one becomes conscious that one is NOT just an individual.

I’m basically a white boy trapped in an Asian body. My mom has almost no relatives in the USA, and I never even learned her language. So all my relatives are white americans. But being a white guy in the inside I expected to be treated like one on the outside. And so it is precisely the white side of me, that makes me so conscious of race. And so from one extreme of trying to be entirely white, I accepted the other extreme, that Americans are always going to see me as fully Asian.

When you have 1/2 the Asian female population dating whites, and almost no I/R for Asian men. I think it becomes impossible to just say awww its love. Just look at some of the ugly, ugly comments right here at SWPL, and it becomes clear there is alot more than “love”.

So without attacking my parents as people, I hate them as statistics, and I hate them for forcing me to be a physical living embodiment of WM/AF. When I’ve cut to be reminded about having my ball cut off, simply be existing! That is too much of a burden to put on your flesh and blood. If you just don’t give a damn then abort your male sons.

There seem to be a lot of WM/AF here, so I ask YOU does this mean anything to YOU? Does the fact that your sons will look mostly Asian male, and be considered fully Asian by society, and suffer from the racism that YOU exploited and benefited from. I mean does that mean anything to you at all? I mean its a 50-50 chance. And this son is going to be YOURS, your flesh and blood. Do you really want to put him through what YOU have put other Asian males through?

And look I understand where AF are coming from. When I was a boy I used to show off my white dad the same way you show off your white boyfriends. But if fatherhood can’t wipe whiteness off on you, marriage certainly can’t.