Mindful.

Full mind.

Neither.

Both.

I'm always jumping back and forth.

One minute I'm mindful.

The next I'm a mind full of stuff.

Silly stuff.

Stuff I like.

Stuff I don't.

Judging here and there.

Likes.

Then I recognize my mind full of stuff.

And try to move back to mindful.

How?

Look at that tree.

Listen to that waterfall.

Feel my lungs filling with cool air.

Smell the cedar.

Before mindful -- full mind.

During mindful -- noticing my full mind and letting it be.

Letting it be exactly how it is and exactly how it isn't.

After mindful -- full mind.

Keep noticing.