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Ehh Might As Well Since The Others Are

Let me start off by saying that 2015 was an incredibly tough year for me, by far the worst year of my life. At the end of 2014 my mother got into car accident where there was little to no chance of survival. She was driving on the highway and an 18-wheeler truck rammed into her back. I was in school and i got a text message saying my mother was in the hospital. But it turns out she was perfectly fine, or so we thought. Throughout all of 2015 my mother has been in an immense amount of pain and she literally couldn't do anything. She couldn't go to work and our income was basically halved. My dad was paying all the bills, mortgage etc... So towards the end of 2015 the pain got a lot worse, it required surgery to fix, and there was nothing I could do about it. I was in school 8 hours of the day and i was after school for practice for another 3 so i was literally never home. So my father took it upon himself to make me feel like shit in every way possible. He would say things like i don't do anything for her, I'm going to end up like my brother etc... Coming home to things like this takes a big toll on you but i understood where his frustration was coming from. Nevertheless, i ended up hating myself and my very existence. As the date of the surgery approached i found out that the surgery she was having was extremely dangerous. So basically i said fuck it, life hates me so i hate life. I was set in stone on killing myself but this VERY COMMUNITY HELPED ME THROUGH IT. I received so many kind words from people i didn't even know and it changed my view on everything. I love you all so much its crazy. My mothers surgery went 100% flawless and I couldn't be happier at this point in time. I thank you all so much <3!!!!!





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Maximusmaxy: I literally joined your stream some random day and played a couple games with you. Through these games you saw something in my that i didn't see in myself and you offered me a chance to join Kappa. Kappa became my family, you guys took me in and made me family. I owe it all to you man. You helped build the foundations of the player i am today.



Tybo: After joining Kappa i reached platinum. Literally my first ever game in platinum was against you and you absolutely thrashed me. I thought i was the best because "Hah Bitch im Platinum" and i was completely wrong. I joined your stream and just watched. I couldn't help but to admire your skill it was crazy. I aspired to be better than you one day and i still do. You were my first ever 2v2 partner and it taught me so much



Amer: You were literally my first ever teacher. You showed me the OG ways of Roland and i was completely changed as a player. You taught me how to read movements, how to attack, and all the fundamentals of brawlhalla.



Stardust: After my departure from Kappa i remember constantly asking you if i could be in Jv4. Your response "No your bad, get good and you can join." From there i asked if you could help me get better and you said yes. At that point i knew i fucked up. Stardust you use to cheese me so fucking hard i hated it but it made me grow and it was like damn i didn't even know i got better. You offered me a chance to join Jv3 and then I along with every1 else in Jv3 moved into Jv4. There is no possible way i could thank you enough for taking me in and training me as your protege.



Eggsoup: I remember queuing against you one day and you told me i would be a great player. I was determined to become a great player after those words. The next time i would talk to you other than small interactions in twitch chat would be the time right before i joined Jv4. You taught me how you use katars little by little through these session you became one of my best friends. At one point i remember asking you everyday to join ts. Every time i would speak to you we would always have a hilarious interaction. There would be constant laughter and constant shenanigans. One time i found myself playing in Jv4.EU 2v2 tournament with you off of 1 hour of practice and we placed top 4. Even though we didn't win we made it we beat a top tier Eu team and taking a map off of Lanz and Zelo. That was literally the best tournament i competed in because we weren't in it to win it, we did it for the fun and we had so much of it. You are one of the greatest friends i have ever had and i wouldn't really want it any other way.



Exo: I remember reading what you said about me in twitch chat during the kappa vs mu crew battle. You said i was a great player and i shrugged it off because i was like who the fuck is exo. Come to find out your the best player in the world i was shook in my boots. Knowledge of a player of your caliber made me push myself to greater heights. Then one day you joined Jv4 and i was like of shit exo is in my clan. After that i stopped playing for a little bit and i find out Jv4 isnt a thing anymore. I didn't know what to think so i forced myself to try and become the best player so i could destroy you and BOO. After that i found myself joining BOO and it was like woah wtf. You picked me up when i found myself alone again and i thank you for it.



Stevenator: I literally hated you so much but at the same time i didn't. Your raw skill is just fucking incredible. Your just so fucking good bro. Back in our kappa days i saw you as my rival. You beat me in Wednesday Brawls and then i beat you right back in Kappa Kup. We would always just go back and forth. Then you ascended to Super Saiyan and you don't know how to return to normal. We have literally been in every clan together and I'm grateful for that. Your an amazing friend.



Foda: Watching you win countless tourney back to back mdae me become your biggest fan boy. I changed my main from roland to nai just from watching you. You never really recognized me so i devoted myself to become good enough so you would recognize me as a player. I can still barely believe im in the same clan as you its like a dream come true. You stopped playing nai after she was nerfed to shit and it was like I have to live up to your nai legacy and win atleast 1 major tournament as nai. I still have yet to live up to it but i will become the best player in the world and win a tournament.



Ornamus: I only met you this month but your one of the happiest people i know. You never let anything affect you negatively. You constantly challenge my nai throne and you always beat me but you always refer to me as the better player. You have never said your better than me you always say im better and i dont get it. Nevertheless you are an amazing person and im glad we met.



Zee: Fucking Idiot...... Nah im jk lmao. Me You and Magma are the csgo dream team we have to bring it back one day. I literally spent so much time with you alone you also have become one of my best friends. I wanted you to be my 2v2 partner over egg but you and egg were the dream team and you cant break up the dream team. I wish you would get on more now a days but the little i do get to talk to you we always have fun.



Aurum: Gahdamn our time together in Jv4 was the best lmao. I literally wouldn't trade it for the world. You were my first legitimate 2v2 partner. We competed in like 2 2v2 tourneys together and we placed top 8 in both. We exchanged phone numbers so we could coordinate times where we could get on and practice. I would always make fun of you because you couldnt beat me in ladder at one point and you would always bm me it was super funny. Im kind of sad we went our separate ways but im happy you found success in down your path.



Pugsy: I hated you too lol. I always thought of you as a cocky little piece of shit so i would always bm you when you would beat me in ladder. Our record before the reset was like 2-27 and i fucking hated it. As i got to know you, you are literally one of the coolest people to be around. Idk how i go from hating you to begging you to be my 2v2 partner it really funny if you think about it. Our interaction usually end up with us screaming and laughing our head off. I regret all the times i was bm toward you and im really sorry. But if i had to do it again to end up where we are today i would.



Magmabob: Damn dude we have a bunch of unspoken history. We were in Kappa together, Jv4 and now BOO. You are literally the coolest quiet guy i know. Normally the quiet ones are the weird ones but your cool as fuck bro. Everything we did together it was always fun though. We would sometimes play 2v2's together and it one of the big learning experience to me. Even when we played CS together we always seemed to have fun even though i put you in my backpack and carried you to MG<3.



LanZ(ik you hate it <3): When i first met you i found you pretty awkward but then i got to know you and your actually pretty cool. You told me that you were a fanboy of me and it was like wtf i had fans. I love making fun of your accent it is pretty hilarious. From the time we met to the legend of purple tiger man we have always had fun together no matter what.



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Im looking forward to spending time with you all in 2016. I love you all soooo fucking much and i love this entire community. Time to end this though its approaching 9500 characters. SEE YOU ALL IN 2016!!!!!!!!!



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