fahrlight:

Well hello.

It’s time to tell my story, isn’t it? I promised you. How to start? Oh yes, at the beginning. And the beginning already began months ago when a little german hobby-Loki decided to go to the Berlin Thor: the dark world premiere. Living in Berlin means for me to only have to take the train, 5 stations, to the Potsdamer Platz, so I was thinking why not?

Going with Miriam and Pe was the plan, but I did not plan for the evening before where I met Alan Taylor (full story here!) , the director of the movie. And Steven Gätjen, an old friend from away back when I was ten or eleven.

Alan was super nice and I had the chance to talk to him a little and showed him my photos, so he looked forward to see me the next day in costume.

The next morning I woke up early, after a night with no sleep and still fever from the days before - had been sick for four days. I picked up Pe and our cameras, dressed up and we went to the Sony Center. My friends, Elisa, Fabi and Jessi already waited there, as well as the amazing Miriam. The head of security were informed that I was a rather well known Loki-cosplayer, and Author, so he was super nice and very supportive.

Elisa was in contact with a nice press-lady, Nafiesa, from Amsterdam and she promised to try and get our things signed by Tom, when she would interview him in the morning. She took a photo of me in front of the Ritz and went off with my hot toys Loki cape, prints and photos to sign for him.

Meanwhile we went to take our places and watched the guys who decorated the red carped - from hoovering to placing the carpet pieces and picking up leafs.

Boring, boring, boring.

But then the press-lady came back and told me, besides that she managed to get all our thing signed, huzzah, that Tom loved the photo and talked about how detailed and perfect the whole cosplay was. I was mind blown and now it wasn’t boring anymore.

The organisation kinda sucked and we were moved to another side of the row. So I ended up only with Miriam and Pe and two new friends Caro and Jule! They knew the fucking fricking Känguru Chroniken! (you all should!) We waited and the time passed slowly. Razupaltuff!

The evening came and the journalists arrived, crowding the place. Steven came to say hi but had the biggest shock because he had no clue I would show up in costume - “WHA- WOAH! What happened to you since yesterday, you look like Loki!?”

It was sooo funny. Animax arrived too, they interviewed me too that day, called me and waved from the press row and slowly even I realized that it started!

But the biggest shock was for me when a woman from the english TV came to me with her team and said: “Oh, you must be the girl Tom wants to meet today!”

I was so very confused, you have no clue. Tom wanted to meet me? What happened to the world?

Me:”what, you mean if I want to meet Tom?”

She:”No, he wants to meet YOU, he saw your photo this morning and talked with the press about it, how good you looked and said he would like to meet you and he would look for you!”



I pretty much died in that very moment!;___;

She interviewed me then and I managed to get back into character and told her that I was very angry with Tom because he posed about three years as myself (Loki), that imposter, and I would make him kneel and tell him off!

She laughed and said he would surely come later to apologize, so I was pretty stoked by the time the next interviewer came our way, and high as a kite!

I gave about 4-5 Interviews all in all that day and mostly I said nothing but bullshit, but it was all just a big huge rush of emotions for me. I managed well enough to play the Loki part and calm myself with that. And sang to the little girls on the other side of the carpet to cheer them up, because kids and waiting for hours never works well.



And I had fun to troll Fem!Thor and yell insults like “your mother…” and shit in best monkey island-style. It was so funny, we sang all the anime-songs we knew. the fox, Lady Gaga and what not! XD!

I’ve won two tickets in a quiz so I could go and watch the movie!!!! My heart was beating faster already.

Then the stars arrived, Kevin Feige and Alan Taylor and the whole circus started for real. Natalie Portman shortly after. Alan walked along as some point and saw me and was very impressed and we had a wee talk. He is a lovely man, very lovely. He was still not over the fact that I looked for real like I did on the pictures I had shown him the day before, and not like “Dita von Teese”!

Then Chris Hemsworth arrived and the fangirls went from excited to insanely loud! It was hell. Pushing and shoving started. I am very annoyed by noises like that most of the time, not general ones but let’s say SCREAMING. But that day, I have to admit I sometimes allowed myself to…shout.



Alan Taylor arrived, just the same time as Chris, at my spot again and we talked a little, fucking short that time, and he said he wanted to show Chris how amazing I looked and pointed me out to him, “Chris you have to see her, she is stunning!”, and it was so fucking amazing. he took a photo and he said “hey little brother” and shit! ^__^;;



I feel bad that so many girls only came for Tom, Chris is so very nice. And the hero of the movie, I mean he is Thor after all!

Natalie Portman was in a hurry and did not have the time to sign too long, but she signed for all the children waiting for her, and that was indeed very kind!

But I could have cared less because Steven and his team came to me and I was gifted with VIP tickets for the Premiere! (Now I had four tickets and could take Miriam, her bf and Pe with me. It was sooo good - I would have hated to leave them behind;__;!)



Michael, the head of security came by and told me that now soon Mr. Hiddleston would arrive and after that we, the ones with the VIP tickets, had to go inside so they would close the rows again and we won’t miss the speeches in the cinema. I was so close to loose my cool because my legs and feet hurt after all the hours and it was cold and it had rained a little and my hair was a mess and I had to pee and…it was fucking exhausting. But I told myself it would soon be over.



But I was just overall: I DON’T WANT TO, I WANNA GO HOME! WHAT’S THE FUCKING USE OF THIS? I AM AN AUTHOR, I SHOULD BE HOME WRITING MY BOOKS!

Screaming started from afar and we knew it could only be…yeah, Tom Hiddleston.

TOM HIDDLESTON, okay?

The actor I would put without thinking twice on top of the list of my favorite actors at the moment (only topped by Heath Ledger, RIP ;_;). Somebody I respect deeply and admire for about 7 years now, since BBCs Wallander.

Later I’ve found out that he ran up and down to sign for as many people as he could manage. He is such a babe, he really is.

But it was already getting late and his publicist Luke Windsor was already worried about the time. So they rushed to the row opposite of me and Tom signed as fast as he could.

He was so close to go inside and I was so fucking tired and did not want to scream or shout because I know he hates that, and so do I, but I did not had because Luke stopped him and told him to turn around and pointed at me - like the lady from the press said earlier, he was looking for me. They fucking KNEW!!!;____;

And he fucking turned and saw me and the biggest fucking amazing smile appeared on his face and he walked over to me, grinning, arms open. I swear I dunno how I kept my cool and told him I was sorry but he had to kneel before he could hug me.

Video ONE, video TWO



AND HE DID. He fucking did, so gracefully, it was magical. Arms open, head bowed, waiting for me to allow him to rise. (grinning all the while!)

(credit to the maker of the gifs!)

I did and we hugged and then we took photos, one that wasn’t that epic and one to confuse everybody with the same Loki-face (his idea! XD)!

It was the best moment ever, I am telling you, it was so damn damn fucking amazing!

But the night wasn’t over YET!



The security let us inside and we finally had the chance to sit down, after hours of pure pain. Sitting never felt so good before!

Before the movie the cast returned for a short speech and Steven hosted it again introducing Kevin, Alan, Tom, Chris aaaannd…Natalie.

Chris gave me a wink and Tom a smile and Alan nodded to me. It was so cool, Kevin held a speech and Tom sang Danke Schön and then Alan said something too and somehow he looked into my direction again and raised his glass and toasted to me and then he came over and suddenly he kneeled down and I was so SHOCKED.

I could not think anymore and he made me stand up and said to everyone in the cinema that I was the most stunning Loki cosplay ever and then it was too much and I FUCKING KNEELED DOWN and everybody laughed and applauded and I nearly had a heart attack. (or he first kneeled and then made me stand up, I have no clue, it was one way or the other!;____;)

I have no idea what the actors did because I was so fucking confused, but I can only guess that they laughed too.

I mean that man kneeled down to me. First Tom and now Alan, the mastermind behind so many amazing TV series, and now Thor: the dark world. That man is one of my heros, because Game of Thrones and all!



What was going ON!?



We took a photo together again, this time in costume and he hugged me good bye and ran after the others. It was so fucking surreal.

The movie went by in a blur, maybe because I could not see that much cuz we had the seats in the front row and it was too close and too 3D and too badly dubbed for my taste. But the movie was really really really good and I loved every second of it. Even my most hated character, Jane, was useful and I liked her a lot.

Only Odin outdid himself with WTF DADDY-moments.

After the movie I had another interview with O2World about how I liked the movie and the evening and that was great too, but I was too tired. just too too tired. Then a photoshooting with the press and then we went outside where ANIMAX still waited for me to finish the interview we had earlier. But before that we did some pose on the red carpet again.

After all that we said good bye to Miriam and her lovely bf and now it was time to sit down and eat for the first time of the day.

I could eat nothing. I’ve ordered like a big salad and fries, but I could not eat them, I was shaking so badly.

In the end we took a taxi and my sis picked me up at the station and I talked for hour about how amazing the day had been, without realizing that it wasn’t a dream, it really happened. It happened to me.

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I want to thank the people who made this day so amazing:

Pe, Miriam, Elisa, Nafiesa, Jessi, Fabi, Caro, Jule, Michl, Steven and last but not least Alan and Tom - AND Luke.

You guys gave me so much and I O U!