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You are on my mind 24/7

To my Lover, not a day goes by that I don’t think about you. You’re often on my mind and I can’t help but wonder how different life would be if you were still with me. To my lover, I miss our talks. I mis you being here with all of us.

What Could Have Been

It’s impossible not to think about what could have been. For us together. Our dreams were so similar. And I really thought we would grow old together. It breaks my heart to think about how young you were. We were. Wild and reckless and so very much in love.

I think about the things we could be doing together, and all of the special moments now and the new memories we could be creating. What would we be doing, I wonder? Who would we have become, both separately and as a team.

Emotionally you are still with me. I cannot convince my heart that you have left my side.

To my lover, I call for you in my sleep and it shocks me. And saddens me. And so I try to keep it together. But I cannot help but carry a heavy heart and I don’t know if I’ll ever really heal.

I live my life each morning to the next. I wake up, I remember. Then I make coffee and get dressed. All the while thinking of your sweet smile that used to wake me up in the mornings. And when you would kiss my forehead…

The truth is, I don’t want to let go. Not now, not ever. And I don’t want the memory of us to fade. Because with you was when I felt most alive and most excited for tomorrow and now, I cannot get that motivation alone. I don’t know how and I don’t want to replace you.

I cannot accept this reality. I refuse to accept that you are gone.

I cling to memories of our love to hold back time. The fear that time will wash away my memories of you scares me so much. So I refuse to acknowledge the love lost. Blatantly. And stubborn, like a little girl I refuse what life has thrown at me.

You are watching us, I know you are

I know you are watching me and protecting me and all of those who loved you.

You are in my heart and everywhere I go. You can’t leave me because I won’t allow it. And I will find a way to honor you on this earth. I promise you. To my lover, eternally.