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11:20 pm - Classes are over! That can only mean one thing...

It's time for ANONCON FALL 2010!



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From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 07:50 am (UTC) (Link) I'm eating an overripe persimmon and I'm not enjoying it. :/ Why did I wait so long for it to ripen??? Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 07:52 am (UTC) (Link) I've been waiting for this all semester. Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 08:08 am (UTC) (Link) i just cried really hard over the fact that i think im getting two b's this semester. i hate myself so much. FUCk. Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 09:08 am (UTC) (Link) I would clean dorm bathrooms for a week for B's in my two MCB classes this semester. Expand) Reply ) ( Parent ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 08:33 am (UTC) (Link) I love close to campus (at home), am graduated, unemployed, and hung up on people that are still there. SO PITIFUL. Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 08:37 am (UTC) (Link) thank fucking god it's anoncon time. Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 08:47 am (UTC) (Link) I'm in love with my ex. in the time we were dating, she grew to be my best friend. I broke it off for no real good reason. shortly after (maybe not so short, a month or two) I realized my mistake, but it was too late. We're still friends, but she won't give me another chance. She's being pretty active in the dating scene, and has what you could more or less call a "friend" that she "hangs out" with every once in a while. We still spend a lot of time together and she knows I still want to be with her. I think she feels guilty when she tells me that she's going to hang out with him, but it's not like that'll stop her from doing it.



I realize that if I keep acting like I'm still her boyfriend without her having to give me anything in return she'll keep looking for a new boyfriend, but I can't get myself to leave. I'm scared that if I'm not there, she'll spend her time with someone else instead. Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 5th, 2010 12:47 am (UTC) (Link) man the fuck up. get her back or get over her.

good luck :) Expand) Reply ) ( Parent ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 09:00 am (UTC) (Link) Oh god, how I wished there was summer anoncon.



I'm a GSI. During summer session I developped a crush on one of my students. I've taught plenty before -- I've had hundreds of students. And I've been vaguely attracted to plenty of them. But it had never real before. Nothing I'd even idly consider acting on. But this time seemed less ephemeral. It felt like there was mutual interest. At the very least, there was an unusual level of friendliness. And with an oddly personal timbre; Even my most enthusiastic students in the past, the kind who drop by my office months long after the course say hi, strike a businesslike tone. Plenty of other little examples stick in my mind, each individually innocuous, but cumultatively feeling like something. (I have vivid memories of every detail, but I don't trust them too much.)



During the class, I didn't really mentally acknowledge all this, even to myself. It'd feel mad sketchy to do anything then, nevermind surely against some rules. Between the end of summer session and the start of fall classes, I visited friends and family. Usually such trips are relaxing and regenerative. But on this trip I was distracted by my crush, which was making me restive and quickly turning into an obsession. It felt adolescent, being consumed with this sort of fixation. Perhaps I also feel bewildered by how to handle it -- I haven't crushed this hard in years. By the end of the trip I had sort of resolved that I needed to do something.



I'm not good at taking initiative in these sorts of situations. So it took me a few weeks, and several abortive "accidental" run-ins, before worked up the courage to say anything to her. And when I did, it consisted of an awkward half phone call and a too-confessional letter. She turned me down. Via an email consisting of "Hey, I'm not interested. I'm sorry. -[name]"



I took it pretty hard. I did my best walked away, cold. It seemed like the only thing to do. When you've figured out how to "accidentally" run into someone, it's not to hard to not accidentally run into them too. Before my emotional self had internalized what happened, My thinking self had the foresight to plan a lot of socializing for the next week or two. Had I spent too much of that time by myself I would have gone crazy. But for several weeks, I was despondent. I had a breakdown one saturday morning when I called a friend and had him come over and socialize, lest I just sit around and let my demons consume me.



I've done my best to move on, to focus on other things. But it's still down there somewhere. It resurfaces now and then. The internet makes being obsessive far too easy, not that I need much help. And I overthink everything, consumed by that useless uncertainty -- was there no interest I badly misread the situation? Or was it all just too weird? Or some other possibility? I go in circles. It feels like a chinese finger trap -- the hard I pull, the tighter I'm stuck.



I'm not sure why I'm posting this. Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 09:06 am (UTC) (Link) it's okay. tell yourself it was just attraction. did you even know the person that well? did they, you?

not a rejection to really over think at all, in my opinion. not trying to be harsh. I'm the post above, so believe you me, I know about wanting something you can't have. Reply ) ( Parent ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 09:08 am (UTC) (Link) the anoncon chat is broken! :( Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 09:57 am (UTC) (Link) i can't believe it is the end of the semester and the end of 2010 Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 10:25 am (UTC) (Link) My good friend, impaired by a good amount of booze, hit on me/massively felt me up at a party last year. Since then, our relationship has deteriorated significantly. We used to talk all the time.



Dear friend, are you in like/love with me? Because here's a secret: when it was raining, I lied about not having an umbrella because I wanted you to share yours with me. So I might be a little in like/love with you too. But most of all, I miss you. Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 11:05 am (UTC) (Link) when i was looking for jobs back in january (i graduated in May), this one company's HR asked me what my GPA was. I didn't remember. so i told them (in more polite terms) to fuck off.



The HR dood emailed me a week later and was like "we would like to continue to the next step of the interview process" and invited me for an onsite. but by then i already landed a job with another company (i have years of experience coding javascript on my own)



The moral of the story is that grown-ups don't talk to other grown-ups about their GPA. Don't let anyone disrespect you like that. The key isn't getting a high GPA, it's having a marketable skill. Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 6th, 2010 03:24 am (UTC) polite terms? (Link) could I get a tip on an interview-friendly way to say that?

thanks! Reply ) ( Parent ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 11:05 am (UTC) (Link) Graduated two years ago. Finally gainfully employed (if $12 bucks an hour as somebody's assistant qualifies as gainfully....which, sadly, in 2010 I think it does!)....





Is it weird that I still post on anoncon?



...ah, the good ole college days...miss them much, I do....yoda out Reply ) ( Thread

From: (Anonymous) Date: December 4th, 2010 11:10 am (UTC) (Link) my penis goes soft as soon as i put on a condom. shit. Reply ) ( Thread