When I was in year 7 you could walk in to any one of my classes and I’d almost guarantee there’d be a pencil case propped open on a desk with two young boys giddily staring inside. They were watching porn.

We had this one video that we sent around like wildfire and if you didn’t have it you were out of the loop. You were uncool. You were falling behind in the race to be a man.

Penrith Panthers playmaker Tyrone May has been stood down while he fights charges of filming and disseminating sexual encounters with two women without their knowledge. Credit:AAP

I watched the video several times; I think it was during English, science and maybe during our recess break. Those details are a bit vague and irrelevant. What I strongly remember is that I was pretty uncomfortable about watching the video. It was a graphic sex scene and at the tender age of 12, I was yet to even kiss a girl.

But like many others, I sat around and pretended to like what we were watching. God forbid one of the other sensing you weren’t that into it. You’d be ridiculed no end for that. We just wanted to fit in.