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Testifying by video-link from another room in the courthouse, the 27-year-old complainant said as she was being sexually assaulted while intoxicated by two men at the College Street Bar, she felt like her “head and body were not co-operating,” though she wanted to leave.

She said she had never felt like that before.

“It was horrifying … I couldn’t do anything,” she said.

In her head it felt like she was getting out of the bar but instead she could feel being penetrated, she said.

“It doesn’t feel real, like a dream,” she said.

She said she did not consent to any sexual activity that night with either man.

Enzo DeJesus Carrasco, 34, and Gavin MacMillan, 44, have both pleaded not guilty to charges of gang sexual assault and drugging with intent to overpower. DeJesus Carrasco pleaded not guilty to two additional charges of sexual assault. All the charges are linked to the one complainant. The jury has heard MacMillan was the bar owner and DeJesus Carrasco the manager.

The Crown has shown the jury security footage from cameras inside the bar, from 7:30 p.m. on Dec. 14, 2016 when the complainant arrived at the bar to 6 a.m. on Dec. 15, 2016 when she leaves with DeJesus Carrasco. The Crown alleges the video shows the two men violently and repeatedly sexually assaulting the complainant together and separately over several hours as she was extremely intoxicated and going in and out of consciousness. The Crown alleges DeJesus Carrasco later sexually assaulted the complainant again at his apartment after they left the bar in the morning.

At issue is whether the complainant consented and whether she had the capacity to consent due to intoxication. Her identity is under a publication ban.

The complainant, who was 24 at the time and did not live in Toronto, testified that she had a “hazy” memory of what happened in the bar that night “like falling asleep and waking up over and over again.”

As she testified she appeared exhausted and spoke in a flat, sometimes halting tone, often pausing as she tried to describe what she could remember.

From what she does recall she said “it felt like (DeJesus Carrasco and MacMillan) had done this before. They were very organized … one person would put me in one spot and one person would be in front … they had a whole system, that’s what it felt like.”

She said she’d gone to the bar to meet a friend who was doing a bartender course there. While the course was going on, DeJesus Carrasco made her two fruity cocktails which she drank, she said. She said she didn’t watch him make the second one, and that after she drank it she started to feel “iffy.”

“It felt like I was getting really drunk,” she said.

She said it began to feel like “you are looking through a fishbowl and it’s all weird and wavy and you think I might be getting sick … I started getting dizzy.”

She recalled having a shot of Jameson whiskey with DeJesus Carrasco but could not recall any other drinks.

She said that she couldn’t recall exactly when her friend left. She recalled telling DeJesus Carrasco and MacMillan that she wanted to go and see a friend who was at Oasis, a sex club. She said she wasn’t going to go in but just say hi to her friend outside.

She said DeJesus Carrasco and MacMillan told her they wanted to go to Oasis and they should take a cab or drive over together. She does not remember actually ever going to Oasis. She also could not remember where she went during a period where the security video appears to show her leaving the bar with DeJesus Carrasco and returning with him about 40 minutes later.

She said she had some memory of being in a basement storage room at the bar during the night. She remembered the “horrible” floor. “It was really bumpy cement and it was crushing my knees,” she said. “And it hurt really, really bad and I just wanted to get off of it.”

But she couldn’t, she said, because MacMillan forced her to stay on her knees and kept pushing her head onto his penis.

“It felt like hours,” she said. “It felt like we were down there forever”

She said she recalled voluntarily doing two lines of cocaine, but that it felt very different from the two other times in her life she’d taken cocaine. She said she thought it could have been cut with something other than cocaine.

“I felt very very, very dizzy and very sick,” she said of how she felt after having the cocaine. “The drink didn’t make me sick it just made it kind of like I drank a lot of drinks. This made me feel very sick and like I blacked out.”

She also recalled seeing DeJesus Carrasco sitting in a chair “being very creepy and watching a lot and touching himself.”

She said she remembered them repeatedly taking off her clothes as she tried to get dressed to leave, and that they tossed her clothes around the bar. She said she remembered being unable to find her things and her phone.

She said she recalled the curtains at windows of the bar’s main level being open and watching cars go by, the snow and people walking by.

She remembered thinking: “how are you not stopping this?”

When the Crown prosecutor Rick Nathanson asked her what she remembers happening at this point, she said she couldn’t recall. She just remembered “horrible pain” in her vaginal area and her jaw.

After viewing a video clip from around 10:19 p.m., which appears to show DeJesus Carrasco pulling down her pants and touching her, she said she had no memory of that happening.

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“I don’t like the way I look … the way I was moving,” she said of how she appeared on the video. “I look very inebriated. I don’t look normal. It makes me feel very uneasy.”

During another clip which starts about 10:53 p.m. and appears to show the complainant staggering back into the bar and collapsing into a chair, she said it looked like she passed out.

Nathanson showed the complainant brief moments of video through the night, sometimes warning her beforehand that they might be difficult for her to watch.

MacMillan’s lawyer Sean Robichaud objected.

“I am objecting to (the Crown’s) statements providing opinions whether or not this is difficult for her to watch. Our position obviously is very different and, if true, it should not be difficult for her to watch,” he said.

“Wonderful,” Superior Court Justice Michael Dambrot said, and then told the Crown: “You can make those comments if feel they are necessary.”

The complainant said she could not remember most of what the clips showed, though she did remember DeJesus Carrasco sitting in a large office chair. She said she had a different memory of the way that room looked compared to the video.

She remembered looking at her phone around 5 a.m., seeing the time and panicking because the friend she was staying with would have likely locked the door and she didn’t know how she would get in.

She said her state of awareness had improved a little by this point.

“Things were still very hazy but I kind of knew what was going on,” she said.

Even then, she couldn’t remember getting dressed and still felt very sick, dizzy and unable to walk straight.

She said she recalled MacMillan leaving the bar in the morning.

According to the video, she and DeJesus Carraso leave the bar shortly before 6 a.m.

She testified she remembered DeJesus Carrasco saying he’d get her a taxi home. She doesn’t recall getting into the taxi but remembers being in one and giving the driver the address of the friend she was staying with. She said she couldn’t even hold her head up.

Then, she said, DeJesus Carrasco got into the cab and gave the driver his address.

She said when they got to the building she didn’t know where she was. DeJesus Carrasco took her arm and pulled her out of the cab, she said. She said she wanted to walk away and up the street but he wouldn’t let her. They went into his home and she said she remembers that he asked her to be quiet. She said he guided her to his room, though her memory is blurry and she felt “so exhausted and weak and tired.” She recalls that at some point he said something like “you didn’t give me enough at the bar.”

She said he raped her in the room.

“I had no idea what to do and when it happened again, I just, like my body kind of shut down. I ended up passing out,” she said.

When she woke up DeJesus Carrasco was sleeping. She couldn’t recall what if any clothes she had on but said some of her clothes were on the floor.

When she got outside it was light out. Her phone was almost dead, she remembered. She can’t recall how she got back to her friend’s place, but she did get there.

The trial continues.