Recently on OKA, I was messaged this by another member…



“I wanted to let you know that while I was reading your introduction, I heard "Gabriel” echo in my head. But I didn’t want to say anything in case I was wrong and it may have interrupted your journey of self discovery. After reading your reply on the Gabriel topic, I felt I should say something about it. […] That’s all I really know is that I feel a strong resonance with the essence of Gabriel within you.“



I should mention that even before recognizing myself as potentially Angelkin, Gabriel was my favorite Archangel, despite considering myself non-religious. (My mother can attest to that - I have explained to her at length my strong affinity for Gabriel.) Having someone I do not even know recognize this connection so intensely had a powerful, positive effect on me, and I truly believe this could be one of the most important keys to my continued awakening.



Who is Gabriel to me? I can’t be entirely sure - I have no memories to work with, only intense emotions. If I concentrate on the thought of Gabriel, I feel a strong, mutual love, beyond love to the point where the word seems insignificant. It encompasses all types of love - those of a sibling, teacher, guardian, lover, friend, parent. (I use parent loosely, as I’m sure that’s meant to be reserved for the Creator I’m still not sure I’m prepared to obey.)



I am imagining you balking at the word ‘lover’ in that list - What do you mean, StainedGlassSeraph? Are you saying that you are Gabriel’s lover? Are you so arrogant?



The answer is no, not exactly. To put it in those human terms is actually disturbing to me. The idea of physical intimacy itself does not appeal to me and never has, and that is certainly not what I am talking about. I obviously am not an ultimate source of truth, as I know only what I feel, but based on this sense I have gathered, what one would consider "lovemaking” (ugh, even using that term loosely to describe this makes me sick - it really is nothing at all like the human version, so please please forgive my use of the term) is rather more a fusion of souls than anything else. Even that’s not really the correct way to put it - I’m tempted to say there isn’t a way to say it in English. You really have to understand what I mean in order to understand what I mean.



I’ve heard it said that angels are polyamorous, and at first I did not agree with this, but having felt the aforementioned feeling, (It was almost a memory, but not quite?) and considering this information, I would say yes, definitely, polyamory makes sense. So to answer your question that you did not ask, no, I am not Gabriel’s “lover”, but rather, we are both within a complex yet simple interlacing of many “lovers,” again, using the term very loosely. It’s difficult to type what you mean when there aren’t words for it.



I have more to say on the subject of Gabriel, but it can wait for another time.