I wanted to sum up a last couple of days, week. A little update to what's going on.



I've had a bad medical condition at the beginning of march and my performance at IEM Katowice was very disappointing. At the event that meant probably the most to me in my career, my life maybe, I didn't perform to my nor my fans expectations. It was very painful. I've been slowly recovering after the illness and my play was getting better day by day even though I didn't feel too well. Got myself into the finals of TING even though I barely could sit in front of a computer. That was really surprising and lucky for me. At the end of march I went to visit my family for an easter break and after I came back the new ladder season started with the new mappool. After a few games I saw my level of play drop significantly, I was very disappointed of myself after each game no matter if won or lost. I thought to myself that not too long ago I was quite satisfied with my play and now it's unacceptably bad, what happend? The new maps definitely had an impact on that. New strategies, new kind of maps, different people I play against. But that wasn't all. My multitasking, decision making, my hands, it was all just... bad. At that time I thought to myself that I need to get that rust off of me and get on the level yet again. That's when the ladder qualifier happens and it did force to play more than I usually do (maybe I should play even more than I do anyway). During the ladder qualifier I was the most frustrated about my play in my life. I never rage in game or in my apartment. During that time my game was so terrible, that I slowly started to become the person I NEVER wanted to be. Most of the time when I lost I wouldn't GG, even to my teammates and I am deeply sorry about that to everyone, because they did play a good game and deserved the win. I was quitely cursing under my own nose from time to time when I lost games and dropped out of top16 when the time was coming to an end. The frustration gets to us all and I realised that it can happen to me too, I am not immune. That did make me feel sad but I did try to collect myself as much as I could and kept trying, kept playing to improve. Now I think my level had gone up significantly thanks to the help of my Team Liquid teammates and to the good amount of games in the recent days. There's so much more I need to do to become even better, but I am definitely on my way to the top if I keep practising as I do now.



In conclusion of this post. I don't really know the meaning of it. I just wanted to give some of my thoughts about the game and how much it means to me to be in a position that I am currently. I have so much more aspiration than where I am. I do want to be still in the top. Before Legacy of the Void came out I promised to be the best foreigner and I will keep that promise. I will keep improving. I will have my up and downs, but I will rise and I will be worthy your support and cheering. Time to climb to the top.



TL;DR: I was very bad, improved but got on a small break that reduced my skill significantly. Now I am back on track with aspiration to be even better and keep on improving. Please cheer for me as I need your support to know that what I am doing actually matters.

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