When I started this blog, I mulled over the topic of feeling sexy with an ostomy. It was one of my biggest fears going into the surgery. And now 4 months later, it is one of my biggest challenges. I’m not different than anyone else. I stand in front of the mirror making all kinds of twisted faces, wondering if this makes me look fat. But the other thing that goes though my mind is if someone could see my bag. Most of the time it is nice and flat when I’m getting ready in the morning, but I have to take into account what it will be like as it fills up. I wear looser clothing most of the time, so to not call attention to my tummy when I cant make it to a restroom right away. I’m very open about my ostomy but I’m in no way shouting it out in the grocery store. I want to be just like everyone else. And most days I feel like I am. I’m sure how I’m feeling will pass and I will love every inch of it, but today ill just have to try a little harder.

After I had my surgery. I went though a body image problem. When I looked into the mirror all I saw was the bag. I didn’t want it to define me. So I decided that I was going to do a photo shoot to remind myself, I still got it.

So in honor of my first world ostomy day. I am putting my photos to the public eye and showing I am not afraid to be sexy!!

Sorry if the photos have water marks, I never got the originals back from the photographer