Here we go, as most ppl know in the smash community I've somewhat separated myself from competing/streaming.



I promise to all of you that I really still want to.



Most also know I’ve had stomach problems, which might not seem huge but that translated to less of an appetite, no gym, more stress, anxiety, no motivation. Not trying to make this too sappy and long.



About a week and a half ago I had a stream where I had hiccups for like 8 hrs of the day then like 3hrs after midnight. It was so annoying af.



The very next day I started to throw up after anything I’d consume. This happened to me in the past but it was “bile” this time it was some brown stuff that went on from the very morning till night. I had a huge migraine and sweating shaking as it turned into night I got another huge hefty bag and same thing all night. As morning came I woke up so weak, head ache sweating shaking and my sides still hurt from the hiccups like bad.



I went to the bathroom and as I get to the toilet I started to throw up nothing but bright and a ton of it. I went to my room to see what was in the bag I had been throwing up into all night and sure enough almost half the hefty bag was full of blood.



My gf left her work and rushed me to the ER while I was bleeding out in dehydration super pale white. I was there for two days, they gave me a ton of morphine, adavan And at one point even had 6 IV bags on me.



They switched to an individual room where a doc/nurse would check on me every 3 hours. The doc said I was about 5 minutes away from dying if I hadn’t come in at the time I did.



The diagnosis was I had a deep rupture in my pancreas, and a huge ulcer and “fatty liver” from the drinking, causing stress, anxiety and no sleep. I made it through the two surgeries, and blood transfusion (blood type O-) thank god, but wasn’t allowed to drink water or food for 4 days until all the blood that was lingering in my body made its way out.



After 7 days I just got out of the hospital a few hours ago. A little muscular atrophy due to not being able to leave my bed for 7 days or else an alarm would go off, a little loopy but Thankfully alive, with an appetite and grateful.



I just wanna thank my family and friends and fans and smash community was a strange adjustment and should be getting a job soon. Thanks to all my subs and donators on my stream I’ll definitely be extremely grateful seeing it’s so damn expensive. I’ll do my best to stream as much as I can when I gain back a bit more strength.



I always kinda told you guys I felt off and now I know what it is and going to try and make a lifestyle change. I hope to see you guys on stream soon!

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