Sports Kyunghyang via NaverIt's so hard for me right now. I haven't slept since Saturday and I struggle with keeping food down. I'm too scared to go out because of how people will perceive me. My friends have been calling out of worry but I'm scared of even that so I haven't been picking up.I'm right here, aren't I? I even saw an article saying I made a bunch of money in Korea and I'm running away to Korea with it. I read that article crying tears. I did not make a bunch of money and I never left either. If I was going to leave so easily, I would not have struggled to stay here for 13 years.I don't have an agency. I didn't know how to express my side of the story or where to. Thinking about it now, I realize I should've reacted as fast as possible but it's too late. I didn't think the scandal would turn out like this. I heard there are over 8,000 articles about me on the internet right now. One new article still being released every moment...I thought at first that I could remain silent and that everything on the internet would disappear eventually but one-sided stories kept getting repeated and exaggerations and false accusations were being made. The people who write those may not know but each one of those posts are so painful to my family. I was once a victim of fraud in Korea but I never asked for legal help with it. I never imagined that I'd be asking for legal help with a scandal like this. I visited one on the 2nd and asked for help regarding defamation and the spread of false rumors.There are so many posts of hate and criticism on the boards that it's hard to even scroll down. My breath stops and I feel like I'm going to go crazy as I read them. Some get deleted and I just couldn't bring myself to finish reading all of them.I lived in Turkey before transferring to Hanyang University in my late teens 13 years ago for a foreign exchange program. I graduated in Korea and thought about going back to Turkey but I loved Korea so much that I decided to stay here. I got married in April 2011 in Turkey and once again in September in Korea. It wasn't easy getting married and there were a lot of obstacles.I don't have a daughter but I do have a 19 month old son. I think people assumed I had a daughter because of a picture my wife took with a friend's daughter at our Turkish wedding.She's someone I knew two years before I got married. We met in 2009 through messages on Cyworld. She said she was a Korean living in Japan. I swear on the fact that I never met her once. I've never even see her face to face. We exchanged texts several times a year.It was my mistake for speaking to her so comfortably and joking around since I knew her before I got married. After I began going on TV, we got back in contact through Kakao Talk. I said broadcast was fun and she asked if I was married. I said I was and she said she wished me a happy life, which I thanked her for. The last capture of the Kakao Talk prints going around on the internet have this part but it's currently deleted.There are some that are exaggerated and one-sided as well as fabricated stories. People I've never met face to face before are attacking me. I just wanted to be nice to the people around me since I'm a foreigner and Koreans think nicely of Turkish people. I tried to be nice to everyone I met. I heard one woman even claim that I beat her? How could I beat her? I don't know why the media continues to report stories that have unconfirmed facts. When did I run away to Turkey? Sure anyone can write irresponsible posts on the internet but it's the media's responsibility to at least wait to deliver the right information. Honestly speaking, I wondered if I just killed myself if everyone would at least feel sorry for me. It's so painful for me right now. CF companies are flagging me down and all of my programs have been put to a halt.I don't know why they've been deleted but they've already been spread all over the internet. I just want to hide in a hole in the ground.When the scandal blew up a couple of days ago, I decided to confront my wife. My in-laws were home that day as well. I told them everything and they were surprised. My wife is too scared to even look at the internet or the TV right now.What could I say to her other than that I'm sorry? I asked her if she could stay at our home in Turkey for a week to remove her from this environment and protect our family... I told her, "I'm sorry about this situation but please stay by me. From this moment on, I'll forever be good to you and protect you. If you have anything you want to say, don't hide it and give it to me straight." She said back, "You're having a harder time than me right now."1. [+18,408, -2,078] If none of this is true, then he can just sue the women making these claims.2. [+17,193, -3,142] All he's doing is talking in circles and beating around the bush with no clear explanation3. [+11,085, -1,770] Doesn't change the fact that he talked about naked bodies with other girls while married and asked for their addresses so he could help them sleep... I'm sure only seeing a portion of his Kakao Talk conversations isn't the full picture but the facts are undeniable.4. [+12,711, -3,534] He still isn't coming clean about anything. All he keeps talking about is how miserable he is and how his family's suffering. He's so selfish. Nevermind the woman who lives in Japan, there are two other women who claimed to be his lovers and he never mentioned them at all. I feel so, so, so bad for his Korean wife for meeting this strange foreigner...5. [+10,280, -1,526] He sure did a nice job avoiding all of the answers he needed to give6. [+2,624, -257] An SBS expert already said results of the voice test came out 99% positive to be him... He doesn't even clarify anything in his interview, all he talks about is how hard he has it. Just leave for Turkey already.7. [+2,545, -196] He keeps repeating how hard it is for him without actually saying he never did any of that stuff8. [+2,452, -185] No clear explanation here...1. [+741, -49] He's so well versed in Korean culture. He already knows that selling your emotions by talking about how hard it is for you is the ticket. But he should've learned properly... because it doesn't work in a society that considers affairs a sin of society.2. [+702, -47] His wife's a saint3. [+643, -40] Not once did he ever give a clear answer on whether he had affairs or not ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ If all of the claims are false, then he wouldn't even need this long of an interview talking about his feelings. He can just say it's a lie and that he's preparing his lawsuit and that is that.4. [+79, -3] There are several women involved in this and he claims he was in contact but no physical contact... but there are pictures of him with the women... Since he says he was indeed in contact with them, that makes the Kakao Talk conversations true and some of the stuff he said in those conversations totally point towards an affair ㅋㅋ5. [+73, -5] This sounds totally like what his lawyer would've told him to say