From an interview with former porn actress Jersey Jaxin

Interviewer: “I hear you left porn. What is going on?”

Jersey Jaxin: Just part of the industry. The way that they treat us like we’re pieces of meat, that we don’t have a mind, and [that] our bodies are everybody’s, and we have no soul.

Interviewer: “Well, did something happen that you just finally said, ‘That’s it, I’m done.’?”

Jersey Jaxin: It’s been ongoing but someone that I thought was my friend, that I’ve known before I was even with that [porn] agency, chose money over me and then they tried to get my fiancé to leave me by offering him double pay and badmouthing both of us, and I completely had it. I can’t deal with it anymore. I want to have my life, I want to have my soul, and be able to know that I have a full heart, and that everything in my relationship is only me and him.

Interviewer: “Wow, so I know that I had met you a couple of months ago over MySpace and then I came to your place to hear your story and you told me some pretty scary things about the porn industry. Why don’t you share with people who are listening [information on] some of the abuses that you experienced in porn?”

Jersey Jaxin: Porn abuses, it’s so much. Guys punching you in the face, you have semen — there can be twenty, thirty guys — all over your face, in your eyes. You get ripped, your insides can literally come out of you* (note: she could likely be referencing anal prolapses and vaginal prolapses, which has reportedly occurred as a result of porn performing*), I mean, it’s never-ending. You’re a piece of meat and you’re viewed as an object not a human with a spirit.

Interviewer: “Wow, um - …”

Jersey Jaxin: People don’t care. People get into drugs …, whether it’s prescription [indiscernible] … because they can’t deal with … the way that they’re being treated.

Interviewer: “Yeah, I know the drugs are real prevalent. Why don’t you talk about, like, what percentage of porn actors do you think use drugs?”

Jersey Jaxin: 75% of people and it’s constantly rising. [They] have to numb themselves in this industry, …, and they do drugs illegally and legally. There’s specific doctors in this industry that if you go in for a common cold they will give you whether it’s Vicodin, Viagra, … it doesn’t matter what it is, they give you anything that you want because all they care about is money. You are a number. Most of the people numb themselves from the depression and the abuse because, I mean, you’re bruised, you have black eyes, you’re ripped, you’re torn, you have your insides coming out of you because: it’s not pretty and foo-foo on set. You get hurt!

Interviewer: “What are some of the drugs you see that are used in the industry?”

Jersey Jaxin: Uh, there’s a lot of -, the main thing that’s going around right now besides prescription drugs is methamphetamine, like personal meds, and cocaine, and heroin. Those are the worst ones that are going [around] right now and people are so addicted to them. And it’s one of the hard things to get off, I mean, and you have to numb yourself to go on the set! It’s just, the more you work the more you have to numb yourself the more you become addicted to where your personal life is nothing but drugs and so: Your whole life just then becomes porn.

Interviewer: “Oh-my-gosh, um. Were you involved in any kind of drug use?”

Jersey Jaxin: I was a drinker. I drank a lot of alcohol. That’s my problem. … I became a big drinker and vodka was my drug, vodka was my numbing source.

Interviewer: “So what, you just bring it on set with you and drink it, like, in the bathroom, in the backyard?”

Jersey Jaxin: Before set, after set, and if it was a set where the people didn’t care, sometimes they’d already have it there sitting for me waiting.

Interviewer: “And I heard that also pornographers provide drugs. I know they provided them for me when I was in. Do they also provide them to the girls too?”

Jersey Jaxin: Yes, some of ‘em do. People know that I didn’t do the drugs. So they wouldn’t offer me anything except, like weed, and I would still say ‘No’ to that, but they do [provide drugs], some of them do, sit there and do it in front of you. And I used to have a problem with cocaine that I overcame. And it’s hard when they’re pushing it in front of you trying to say, ‘Here. Come on. Do this, do this!’

Interviewer: “Wow, um, talk about some of the degradation that women have to go through. Like, for me, I want people to know that women do not enjoy making porn because it is pretty much impossible because of all the “cutting”* [editing*] we have to do in freezing positions that we have to do for like [photo] stills, and adjust[ing] lighting and cameras. Talk about that.”

Jersey Jaxin: Porn is not all foo-foo. I mean, you might see a forty-five minute set that took us thirteen hours because they stop [filming], the guys have issues, or we’re ripped, we’re tired, we’re sore, we’re bleeding, we’re cut up, we have guy’s semen all over our faces from numerous guys and in our hair that it’s stuck to us, and we can’t wash up ‘cause they want to take pictures. They want to stop, and transition, and take pictures, so you have this stuff inside of you, all over you, in your eyes, in your mouth, and they’re telling you ‘Hold it.’

Interviewer: “Terrible. And what I tell people is what you’re watching is a very well edited version of a lot of degradation that we went through. A lot of hard work. They’re just seeing the edit[ed] part that looks like it’s all straight-flowing sex, but it’s impossible because we’re constantly stopping all the time for one reason or another.”