So I recently discovered that my best friends, not very nice, not very attractive and not my type, brother fancies me.

We are both smart, considered incredible smart in fact and we do get on quite well most the time, only when I’m focused on the conversation, because I can’t stand him when I think about him as a person, he’s a sexist, violent and incredible unpleasant man but I try my best because she is like a sister to me (his sister).

There is a part of me, deep down that is just saying, why not, he’s the best you’ll ever get, no self respecting person would date you.

I’m pansexual and you’d think that would open up more alley ways but it doesn’t feel like it does, it really doesn’t.

Part of me wants to give up trying to find someone because I’m fat and ugly and why would anybody nice date me.