Hey if you happen to read this I want you to know that I think about you all the time and that I like you a lot. It's gonna be horrible not seeing you every day. You're like the only person that I can talk to without feeling weird about what I'm saying haha. You're beautiful and really nice and I'm really glad that I met you. You're an amazing person, and everything about you is just perfect. I'm still confused as to whether or not you actually wanted to ask me out, but if you did, I don't see why. I'm really boring and I'm not interesting at all, compared to you.

I think I'm just gonna go on this whenever I'm bored and this is better than laying down and thinking about you, imo.

I make up scenarios about us all the time haha. It's weird, but they give me like false hope which is fun at times. They're so unrealistic though, they usually involve me protecting you or something and then us going out lmao. You're probably not even gonna read this but whatever, this is fun to do. Do you remember when I asked you about lucid dreaming or whatever? Well, lucid dreams are dreams in which you're aware that you're dreaming, and you can do a bunch of stuff that you can't really do in real life, like fly or whatever. One of the reasons that I want to learn how to lucid dream is because I'd probably just dream about us going out lol. Wow I'm gonna write a lot of random things here, it'll be weird if you read this. Most of my dreams are about you, and they usually involve us hugging haha. I'm really bored right now :/. I'm such a boring person, how do you talk to me? I missed you a lot when I was on vacation. Do you remember the notebook you gave me? It smells like you, so I'm gonna keep it and smell it to remember you lOL. I'm so stoopid for ignoring you earlier. You're pretty much the only person I care about, and not talking to you made me feel horrible :p. I don't even remember why I ignored you or whatever, I guess I was just trying to make it easier to not see you after school ends. I don't remember if I said this before, but if you do end up reading this, can you tell me if you really did like me/wanted to ask me out? I'm just wondering. Ew this is really weird and I don't want you to read it now haha. Oh and sorry for occasionally asking to see your cats, it's just that school's gonna end soon, and I just want to spend as much time with you as possible. I'm writing all of this stuff and you're probably not gonna read it haha, and you probably don't like me but eh this is mildly interesting. Oh why did you let me like swallow your hand? Lawl on the bus of the trip thing, you allowed me to like lick your hand and put it in my mouth. How am I gonna have friends in high school? Lol i''m weirdd. You've made me sad several times, just felt like sharing :p. Like you only talk to me whenever you need something, but I can't really blame you for doing that, it's my fault cuz I should start conversations or whatever, but I'm a really boring person. Do you remember when we used to talk on Skype for like 5 hours each day? That was fun.

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Yay Korn. Oh Summer's gonna be really boring. I'm not gonna do anything at all haha. I used to play Runescape a lot, it was so boring tho. Eh I guess it's kay tho cuz it was the only thing I could run at the time. I'm really bored atm. There was a lady here earlier and I had to poop so it was awkward cuz like what if she was listening to me poop? Weird. Oh I still have the folder of your WoW pictures. Do you remember when I said that you should play WoW with that British guy that you told me to add on Skype? I thought his picture was a picture of something from WoW haha. If you don't end up reading this before school ends, I'll probably send this to you during Summer I guess.

Aw I closed the Gmail tab but I thought of more stuff to write. I bought you a game haha, it was Alan Wake, but the thought of giving it to you made me feel weird, so I gave it to Boris instead, but he hasn't played it yet :/. I have the pictures of you saying that you like me saved on my phone c:. I remember when you said that you like sniping, I also enjoying sniping. Lol you probably dont know what the next few sentences are about :P. I'm just gonna put this in here, but it'll probably be weird if you don't know what I'm talking about. I used to trickshot, and I was in a lot of teams. I sold my Xbox tho, and trickshotting on PC is too much work to learn. You should really look into Reddit sometime, actually, you probably wouldn't be able to do a lot of stuff on it cuz of how busy you are, but you can look at the Gifs on it or something. You have cool cats. Oh you should get someone to get you The Last of Us, it looks kewl. This email's probably keylogged from my laptop, so it'll be really awkward if someone reads this haha. Ohh you said that if I had asked you out, you would've said yes, Asad told me that I should've asked you out, but I was sure that you didn't like me at all. Just felt like sharing. Gawd setting up new emails is fat. Like the recent activity said that I went on this email yesterday or whatever, even though I'm sure that I didn't. I've been typing random things for like an hour now :l. I hope you read this and feel weird hahaha.

This was actually supposed to be where i write stuff about how I feel haha, so I think I'll start writing about other things now. It's been really fun talking to you over the years, you're the only person that I can talk to without feeling like I'm being judged :P. I'm pretty sure that that's why we were able to have really long conversation. Whenever I'm not doing something I think of you lol. So like 90% of the time, I think about you. I usually think about all of the times that I've messed up or whatever. Like do you remember when we had the Halloween dance or whatever this year? You like took my arm and tried to get me to do something with you or whatever, but I like walked away. That was stoopid, I shouldve done whatever you wanted me to do haha. Honestly, I never thought that you'd talk to me when I first started talking to you. Theres this video of me talking over a video of a thing from like 2 years ago, I sounded funny haha. I'm boredd you should go on Skype some day so I can send you this. I hope you're feeling betterr. I was gonna tell you all of this stoof in person but eh this is easier. Hmm im bored so ill tell you what happened this year

The year started and I still liked you from last year. I did the regular things, like talking to you and stoof. Like two weeks before Hurricane Sandy, I kind of gave up on you and I started to think that I liked Skylar, while I still thought about you daily. We talked for a bit and I tried to make it look like I liked her. I dont remember exactly what happened, but we stopped talking pretty much because she thought that I didn't like her, and that I liked you. I was trying to get over you, so I tried to convince her that I didn't like you, but just ended up with us not talking. Lol that was written horribly. During December, I started talking to Mitchell a lot, and we talked about you for most of the time. He said that I should stop talking to you, which I did, for about two weeks, and then you told me that you wanted us to be talking. So like two months after that, I went on vacation & I missed you a lot. I came back, and Boris told me that he liked you, which made me mildly upset, but I was pretty sure that you didn't like him. Like two weeks later, I was starting to think that you did like him, so I didn't talk to him as much as I did earlier. I then stopped talking to you, but after about a week of not talking to you, I started talking to you again. This went on for like 4 months and that's pretty much it. Lol that was really bad but I'm bored so.

Sometimes, I think about how I'll stop caring less about you or whatever. By this, I mean that I try to like convince myself that I'll..

[6/26/2013 1:44:11 PM] Vlad: oh thats not it lol

[6/26/2013 1:44:20 PM] Vlad: Sometimes, I think about how I'll stop caring less about you or whatever. By this, I mean that I try to like convince myself that I'll stop thinking about you and so much of the stupid things that I think too much about. Basically, I try to convince myself to care less about you, but I always go back to caring a lot about you and what you think of me, etc. I should stop writing stoof cuz you're probably not even gonna read this haha.

You probably don't even know that I like you a lot cuz I never talk to you. I really do want to talk to you more but I can never find anything to talk about. I still really enjoy talking to you when we do talk.