Look who's walking and chewing gum at the same time.

Did you guys run yourself dry with the thoughts? Did you have the headaches? What about your crown chakra? Did it slip up and become unbalanced while you were focusing on your growth and projects and throwing yourself into friendly family banters BUT only just by so much.

You weren't saying much about what was happening upstairs. It started to feel harder to manage at points. You extended a lot of your time to family, friends, projects, jobs, and by the time you got home, there was a rinse and repeat.

Hmm.

Yes, you guys are smart, you know things...

Lots of things, but what I feel was being delayed was passing by issues that were half internal and external of you.

There was some escapism through smoking or drinking here or there.

Escapism comes in many forms however..

Becoming overly superior or feeling better than or like you are too much to handle for someone is a sense of superiority as well.

Shocker?!

Chakra imbalance.

It had to be checked. You have to sometimes feel and show pain to heal.

Cool it, Macho Man.

Cause you knew you were doing it. Granted, it was under control to a certain extent because there was something passionate involved, so loved, but there was this confusing element, I feel.

Almost like you didn't know how to admit that you were confused. Past traumas came and flowed in and out, and you figured you understood them, but then it would always be... wait.

What if I am wrong after all? What if I haven't been the most empathetic, what if I'm overextending? What if I've been keeping people at arm's reach? How do I get this together but without imposing my issues of confusion on people because...

They're people.

They can't handle this like the way I have been. The lone wolf, but how do I express this correctly?

I feel it.

Look at society. We love to inform everyone about what's going on in the social stance and the things that matter, but what is this element of misunderstanding? (I'm saying "we" as I am an Aqua midheaven and we are also in the Age of Aquarius.)

That heavy Taurus energy gave us all those existential thoughts, but then it felt like, "Is this all a test? Am I running myself dry with too much knowledge and self awareness?"

Feeling like your head could explode from all the information and then suddenly you became dirt conscious...

When I say this, I mean you started to recognize little specs of your interior that were still un-scrubbed and non-discussed.

Plan around how to escape that mindset.

No one should ever sit in an energy they are suffocated for long, you plan an escape.

That heavy energy of being too heady because you felt the waves of Gemini season coming in was so intense and there were some moments where you became so absorbed that you felt like you were losing your mind but yet , you accepted that.

Love.

Odd, right? With that came an element of confusion, almost like you got a glimpse into watery energy and pulled away, took notes, got a glimpse of how much the earthbound energies flow and intercept around you and starting to feel like... wait a second.

This is me. This resonates. But I always knew it was me. Why was I so confused then? What was I around that caused this mild sense of delirium. Was it myself? Was it a force? We take it there and sometimes we can take it too far.

Yikes...

Our face when someone says something that's even close to being ignorant and unconscious. Just smile, they will get it sooner or later. No point in extending too much of ourselves, we already set the bar pretty good

Your theme song for June: "My Lovin" by En Vogue

Realistically, we can't predict if we are gonna be with someone forever, we can't make assumptions about what people do because of their actions, it's deeper than that. I know that's something you must understand in order for you to feel comfortable in Gemini season because you may just hear all these ridiculous conversations going on around you, talking about things that disinterest you.

Humble now, Aqua.

I know you want people to just wake the fuck up, but that is no longer your job. Sit back, watch, entertain it, just smile and wave, boys, everyone's catching up to your ethic.

Enjoy your fucking summer.

Plot twist...

It's all in your head...

Love,

Tractor