Ever since we were little kids, Tam’s always been one of the only people who can make anything better. It doesn’t matter how shitty things are… He always finds a way.

And sometimes he doesn’t even have to do anything. Sometimes just being there is enough.

As he would say, it’s like having him around gives me a +2 morale bonus or something. And I’ve always wondered how the hell he does it. Is it because he’s my best friend? Or because he’s just… Tam? Maybe both.

All I know is that with all the shit going on lately, I really, really needed to see him again.

And I know he needed me too.

His flight just got in yesterday morning, so we haven’t really gotten to do much yet. Once we got back from lunch yesterday, he basically passed out on our couch til dinner. And I can’t really blame him — jetlag’s a total bitch.

We went for a walk after though, and that’s when we were finally able to really talk.

Gigi stayed at home to work on editing her article, and the beach was basically deserted. March is a pretty crappy time for tourists around here, and most of the other students don’t usually stick around for Spring Break, I guess.

Anyway, the privacy helped a lot, I think. It was probably one of the most serious talks me and Tam have ever had. But it was awesome.

He got me to tell him a little bit about how things have been going with Gigi lately. And then I got him going about Jasper for a while.

It sounds like there were a lot of things he’d really been wanting to get off his chest about everything that happened. He just never felt like he could say them til now.

But I think that’s a good sign. He’s finally ready to talk. He wants to try. And that’s half the battle right there… I know from experience.

The hardest part is making sure the other person is ready to talk too. And if they aren’t, well… You’re pretty much stuck.

Unfortunately, I know that from experience too.

Lucky for Tam though, it sounds like Jasper’s just as ready as he is. This morning, Tam told me our talk last night helped him pass his Will save… So he decided to give Jasper a call.

They talked for a long time. And I tried not to eavesdrop TOO much, but it sounded pretty promising. They didn’t yell or anything, at least. It all seemed pretty calm. And Tam promised he’d call again in a couple days.

I know Tam wishes he could talk to Jasper in person instead, but I’m glad he’s not waiting. Because that’s another sucky thing I know from experience — the longer you wait, the harder it is to actually suck it up say what you need to say.

And if Tam’s ready to talk now, then why wait? I’m sure they’ll talk in person once he gets back home too. And hopefully he’ll remember all the stuff we talked about while he was here.

Not that we’re JUST talking about all that heavy crap. As much as I like teasing him, I’m not really his therapist. And this visit can’t be a total downer, right?

Plus, like I told Tam, there’s no way he could afford my hourly rate… Ha! (Okay, I know that’s super freaking lame. But at least Tam laughed?)

Anyway, minus that phone call this morning, we barely even talked about about any of the serious crap today. We were too busy hanging out with my friends.

I totally lucked out on that one. Like I said before, most people don’t usually stick around here during Spring Break.

I guess Addy technically went home, but her parents live less than two hours away, so she promised she’d come back a couple times this week to hang out with Tam. Niko lives here year-round anyway, so I knew he wouldn’t be going anywhere. And Lola just decided that she and Duchess were gonna stick around here this week. I was so excited when she told me.

It just would’ve felt kinda lonely around here without her, I think. It wouldn’t be the same. Plus I’d been totally dying for her and Tam to finally meet in person. And today, they did. He met everybody.

And they got along even better than I thought they would. He and Niko were quizzing each other on a bunch of video game trivia. Addy showed him pictures of all the Marvel action figures she’s collected over the years. And he and Lola were going on and on about cosplay makeup… It was awesome.

Gigi was pretty busy with work stuff, so she wasn’t with us for most of the day. And as much as I hate to admit it, I actually…

Ugh. I don’t even think I can write it without feeling like a total dick. But you know how she can be sometimes, right? (Okay, duh. Of course you do. You’re me!)

Anyway, she still met up with us at the restaurant for dinner afterwards. And honestly? I was really surprised. She was a little quieter than usual, I guess. But it seemed like she was having fun. And she didn’t even mind when I invited everybody back to our place after. I was so worried she’d complain about it or something. But she didn’t.

God, it sounds so awful when I talk about her like that, doesn’t it? Like she’s some little kid who was on her best behavior. I don’t mean it like that… She just gets in these moods sometimes. And I was worried it would happen again tonight.

But it was really nice, actually. She was cute and funny and super sweet to everybody. And I love it when she’s like that.

Everything just felt so happy and fun and normal… Why can’t it be like that all the time?

Ugh, I dunno. Maybe I’m making this all out to be worse than it really is. It’s hard. I always end up second guessing myself about this crap. It’s like I don’t even know what to think anymore.

Helping to fix relationships is gonna be my career someday. So I should know how to deal with this. I should know what’s going on with my own marriage. I should know how to get Gigi to talk to me. I should be able to find a way to make everything better.

So why can’t I?

Ugh. I’ve gotta cut this shit out. I promised myself I wasn’t gonna let myself get all worked up about this crap while Tam’s here. And it’s not like I have a real reason to anyway. I’m worrying over nothing.

These past couple of days have been awesome. My best friend came all the way here to visit me. I’m helping him work things out with Jasper. He’s getting along really well with all my friends. And Gigi’s been back to her old self too.

Everything’s going really, really great for me right now.

I guess I’m just hoping that for once, it’ll stay that way.