nishimikan:

external link [rape warning, body shaming warning, shitty fucking person warning tbh] another one of ren’s exes came forward with her story and my heart goes out to her—my experiences with ren were largely similar, but i won’t extend… too far on my own experiences, at least on this post. the victim did give me permission to post this with her name intact. again this is absolutely unacceptable and i’m glad people are coming forward more and more.

I wanted to get the chance to say my bit about Ren. There, of course, needs to be a massive trigger warning for the things that are going to be below the cut. I also apologize if this isn’t the most well written post. I am too pissed to care.

Let me start by saying that Ren is an absolute scumbag. I have wanted to say this publicly for a long, long time, but could not until recently because I didn’t want to cause any trouble for the victims. Then recently people started coming out about things they have done and I got permission to say what I wanted to. I actually had to wait a few days to do it though because I was literally too mad to type anything about it for a while.

I personally know some details of at least two of his victims. One not well, but the other is a person who is very close to me. I know very well what Ren did to her because pushi_puli is my sister and I see the effects of it every day.

As horrifying as the stuff she describes in the post I am reblogging is, it only barely begins to convey how terribly they treated her. I know that may seem hard to believe, but it’s true. I know because she still lives with how it affected her every single day of her life. Even four years later. Hell, there are things I had to take out of this post because pushi thought people would think she was making it up.

Do you know what it’s like to see someone you love break down sobbing, wanting to die because of the shit someone else has done to them? Telling you that they were basically someone’s pet for two years? Describing to you how they were raped not once, but multiple times because Ren wouldn’t take no for an answer?

She still feels guilty eating because they would constantly tell her how she was fat and looks terrible. I don’t even mean eating extra food, I mean she feels guilty eating the amount a human being needs to survive. Ren convinced her she was worthless so that she would do whatever they wanted. This included, as I said before, having sex whether she wanted to or not.

Oh, but Ren’s going to therapy for their “problems?” First of all I think this is bull fucking shit. Ren didn’t do these things because they couldn’t help it. Ren did these things because Ren wanted to. They did whatever they wanted to pushi for two years and have done the same to god knows how many others in the four years after. Using this as an excuse for their behavior is just belittling the fact that my sister has to go to therapy because of what they did to her. She has to go to therapy because she still thinks she doesn’t deserve to live after she was “damaged.”

This has got to be one of the most painful things to talk about but I have had to physically stop my own sister from killing herself. Because of Ren. Because of the memories of being with that douchebag. I can’t really think of a worse thing one human being can do to another than the things Ren did to her. I don’t even think I’ve covered it all, just the things I can think of off the top of my head at that moment.

To anyone who is still defending Ren at this point: STOP. Ren is a terrible fucking person. I don’t care what you have to say, it’s true. Just because they have been nice to you does not forgive what they have done to others.