It seems that no one sticks up for me or supports what I want to be. Half nude to nude modeling is honestly a shock when you hear that your niece is doing it, or your daughter, or grandchild. You raised them from when they were babies, saw them take their first steps and you were there for all of the My Little Pony birthdays. Now all of a sudden they want to strip down in front of strange men and take pictures?? I get it. I get the shock. It’s awful to see your relative want to expose themselves and any loving family member would try to steer them in any other direction in fear that it’s some gateway into porn. I even get that guys will look at me a certain way and probably not see the artsy side of it as much as the side where they believe I’m half naked because they think I’m easy and I just like showing off my nude and exposed body. I feel like no one agrees with my life choices, but I also believe they don’t fully understand.

I’m not one to take time out of my life to explain myself to people, so this means that this has become important to me.

To the family members who hate seeing me like this, I am sincerely sorry. I am sorry I find it beautiful to be exposed and vulnerable and to be able to convey certain emotions through a picture. I am sorry I don’t wear enough clothes to cover myself up during photo shoots, but that defeats the purpose for the most part. If you think I’m really just that much closer to porn, I’m really not. Go ahead and breathe now. Not now, nor will I ever EVER do that. That completely takes the whole artsy aspect out of it. The whole reason I’m getting naked, is not to get guys off. It’s to share a sensitive side or another part of myself that I don’t always get to be.

Now guys, you need to get your shit straight. I know that you save or look at my pictures with “less than pure” thoughts or whatever and I am not mad at you for that. Art is supposed to make you feel something. Now to what degree of something my pictures make you feel, is none of my business and please don’t feel obligated to tell me. Passed posting these pictures, you will not get any messages back from me if you try to dig for more. I have nothing more I want to give you. Not my number, not a date, not any sexual conversation of any sort. (And come on, that’s honestly absurd anyways because sexting was like cool in what? Middle school? MAYBE high school? Yeah that was back when everyone’s hormones were all over the place and that was a disgusting time for everyone) I’m not going to ask you how my pictures make you feel or if you like them or not, because I don’t care. I didn’t take them for you. I took them for me. They make me feel good about myself. I’m aware they convey the idea that I don’t respect myself. I am sorry you are that stupid.(A little side note on self respect: Self respect- (n.) pride and confidence in oneself; a feeling that one is behaving with honor and dignity. Taking these pictures doesn’t make me feel dirty and it doesn’t make me feel like I’m doing something shameful. I feel confidence in my abilities to convey feelings through posture and expressions. I believe I can go far in modeling, even though in reality I may not. The type of modeling I do is non-erotic meaning I’m not spreading my legs for the camera and playing with myself. It’s sensual and with that being said, I don’t feel my dignity has been compromised.)

If you are a guy and you think I’m easy because I expose myself so openly and sensually, that’s your first and most certainly your last mistake. I’m very good at finding which guys genuinely are interested in getting to know me and which ones are trying to get laid. I’m really not that fucking stupid. I can actually differentiate between a guy who’s a fucking pig who will tell me whatever I want to hear to get laid and a guy that is sincere. There are ways to figure that out without me even having to meet you.

If you’re a guy interested in dating me and you hate the pictures I post, don’t even bother. I won’t stop for you because it’s my career choice. I say this before every relationship and every relationship, the guy starts off okay with it and then it becomes a problem.

To my future boyfriend(s):

Understand everything I’m about to lay out before you. Before I even had my first half nudie shoot, guys would still comment on my pictures and message me. Accept that. It just happens and I’m not going to just be a bitch to those guys because they are essentially my fans. I’m self promoting most of my abilities and work so yes, guys are going to see what I do and like it and give me compliments. Yes other guys are going to see most of my body in a sensual way, but let me ask you this: you’re okay with watching porn and jacking off to another girl getting railed, but when you think guys do that to my work, it’s all of a sudden not okay? I’m A.) not getting railed out by a guy and B.) not even flashing my vagina to anyone because I do find that tasteless and C.) that’s not even the reason I’m doing modeling.

-If you think all those guys on the internet get to enjoy my naked body over a picture just the same as you get to enjoy it in real life, you’re not giving me enough credit. I’m almost 100% positive that a picture, even though it’s worth a thousand words, is not even close in comparison to experiencing it first hand.

-If you think I use my modeling as a way to find guys to date, YOU ARE DEFINITELY not giving me enough credit. I mean, I’m aware some girls need to sexualize everything in order to be appealing, but I don’t see myself as one of those girls. It’s not that I don’t think I have anything else to offer. I’m passionate about it but if you think that’s all I have to offer, you were probably too dumb for me anyways. I find that the majority of my posts are either topics of debate or something I found funny on the inter-webs. And if after all of this you still want me to not post my pictures, you better turn your happy ass back around and get out of my life. I have picked guys over many things in my life because I was sure they wouldn’t leave me and they would make me happy and as it turns out, men are fucking liars. My career, not so much. So if you give me the ultimatum and are going to force me into choosing between you two, you can feel secure in knowing that you aren’t going to be picked.





Other topics for future Significant Others to comprehend:

-If you think I’m okay with you liking other girls’ pictures like mine, fucking no. If you’re not going to be my number one fan and you want to be everyone else’s– be single. For the love of God, do not make me feel like I am competing with these girls because I won’t. I’m your girlfriend, I shouldn’t have to compete anymore. And if you want to give other girls support for their tits out and have a problem with my tits out here’s where you went wrong: Their tits are not your fucking girlfriend’s tits. It’s not okay for you to express any sort of support or interest in another girl’s body when you have a girlfriend. FUCKING EVER. I know you will find other girls attractive, but please NEVER express that to me or anywhere. Keep that in your head. You will make me feel insignificant and not good enough for you and I hope it’s worth shattering my self esteem. Also, I clearly expressed at the beginning of our relationship what you should expect so you wouldn’t be blind sided and feel like you got yourself into something you couldn’t handle. If your feelings ever change, fine, I’m not going to convince you to rethink yourself. But just leave, don’t fucking break me in the process because that kind of damage that makes you feel worthless, isn’t an issue that can easily be fixed. I actually don’t know if it’s something that can be fixed by the person who makes you feel that way. But do yourself a favor and just don’t put yourself in that position.





For everyone:

I am not taking these pictures for “likes”. “Like” I fucking care. It’s great that people actually think this because the average likes I receive are like 50. MAYBE. That’s a very generous average I just gave myself haha. And it’s not like people think you’re any less beautiful because they see my picture. Just. Stop.

I also know that some of my pictures aren’t “professionally” done. I actually like taking these pictures. If I stop working on trying to get better at it, the next time I do schedule a photo shoot, the photos are going to turn out the same as my first photo shoot: awkward and nervous. It’s cool that you can spot the difference between an 8 MP iPhone camera and a legitimate Nikon photo though. That’s some real detective skills you possess there pal.



If there’s anymore confusion on why I do what I do, let me clear it up.