In 1995, artist Bryan Lewis Saunders decided he would paint a self-portrait every single day for the rest of his life. He’s up to about 10,000 so far – and more than 50 of them are based on different drug experiences. The results are fascinating, and sometimes beautiful. The Guardian said this:

Bryan is an artist. For the past 17 years he’s been sitting in this room – or somewhere like it – drawing a self-portrait or two every day. “I’ve done 8,700,” he says. “Every day is different. Like snowflakes and DNA and fingerprints, no two are the same.”

The thing is, 50 of these 8,700 self-portraits have lately become very famous – celebrated all over the world, with millions of Google hits and a forthcoming exhibition alongside Damien Hirst at the influential Maison Rouge gallery in Paris. They’re the 50 he drew while he was on drugs. Each was created under the influence of a different substance, from marijuana and cocaine through lighter fluid and “bath salts” – “They’re what everybody says are causing people to eat each other’s faces” – to prescription pills with names like Cephalexin and Risperdal. In fact, most of the 50 were prescription pharmaceuticals. “That’s the popular thing today,” Bryan says. He says he hates drugs but feels obliged to try new ones, “just for the drawing”

The exhibition at Paris’ Maison Rouge took place last year. He also recent had an exhibition of his work in Washington, DC, at the Catalyst Projects gallery.

From Alternet:

Bryan Lewis Saunders likes to take drugs, both legal and illegal, and then draw pictures of himself. The results are strikingly different from drug to drug, and they vary from beautiful to grotesque, abstract and just plain bizarre.

An artist in his mid-40s from Virginia, now living in Tennessee, Saunders has completed more than 9,930 self-portraits to date (though not all under the influence of a drug).

He said he explored tragedy and social problems for a couple years, then switched to exploring sleep, pain and personality assessment—then drugs. He’s most interested in the “things that are still a mystery to us all,” he said in an email.

In 2012 Saunders told Wired magazine he’d decided to do a self-portrait every day for the rest of his life so that he “could die knowing that I tried to experience as much as possible when I was alive.”

“All day every day, images and feelings of the world come into me and it’s inescapable,” he wrote to Wired. “So I thought if I did a self-portrait every day for the rest of my life, with no rules, the world and I could be more linked to my nervous system.”

On his website, in an explanation of the “Drugs” portraits, Saunders writes:

“After experiencing drastic changes in my environment, I looked for other experiences that might profoundly affect my perception of self.”

He devised an experiment in which every day he took a different drug and drew himself under the influence.

“Within weeks I became lethargic and suffered mild brain damage. I am still conducting this experiment but over greater lapses of time. I only take drugs that are given to me.”

Saunders said in an email that, lately it’s rare that he creates a new “drugs” portrait.

“I don’t like all of these synthetic [drugs] they keep creating,” he said. “It is rare that I’m offered something new to me nowadays.”

From Fastcocreate.com:

“Self-portraiture is biased in its very nature,” says Saunders. “The more informed the bias the more interesting the image is, usually. Memories, thoughts, feelings, beliefs, behaviors are all but impossible to separate from the making of a self-portrait. If I was to attempt to render the same exact image on each different substance in essence denying what the drug means to me personally, the only thing I would be expressing were the degrees in which my motor skills, or visual processes were effected thus entirely undermining the purpose of doing a self-portrait in the first place.”

Here are 51 drug-fuelled paintings from his series Self Portraits Under the Influence of Love and Other Drugs

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Abilify / Xanax / Ativan (dosage unknown in hospital)

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90mg Abilify (after 3 months usage 3x maximum dose)

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1 sm Glass of “real” Absinth (not the fake crap)

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10mg Adderall

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10mg Ambien

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Bath Salts

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15mg Buspar (snorted)

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4 Butalbitals (doseage unknown)

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Butane Honey Oil

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250mg Cephalexin (painted w/ watercolor pencil, water and cephalexin)

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1/2 gram Cocaine

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Computer Duster (2 squirts)

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2 bottles of Cough Syrup

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1 “Bump” of Crystalmeth

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4mg Dilaudid

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1 shot of Dilaudid / 3 shots of Morphine (In the ER with kidney stones)

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DMT (during and after)

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60mg Geodon

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Hash

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Heroin (Snorted)

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Huffing Gas (during and right after)

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Huffing Lighter Fluid (during and right after)

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7.5mg Hydrocodone / 7.5mg Oxycodone / 3mg Xanax

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3mg Klonopin

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10mg Lortab

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Marijuana (Kine Bud)

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G13 Marijuana

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Morphine IV (doseage unknown)

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Psilocybin Mushrooms (2 caps onset)

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2mg Nicotine Gum (after quitting smoking for 2 months)

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Nitrous Oxide

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Nitrous Oxide / Valium I.V. (doseage unknown in hospital)

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PCP

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7.5mg Percocet

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2 Pot Brownies

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1 Glass of Pruno

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Marijuana Resin

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4mg Risperdol

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Ritilin (doseage unknown-snorted)

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Salvia Divinorum (right before but mostly right after)

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100mg Seroquel

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100mg Tramadol

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100mg Trazadone

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20mg Valium

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Valium I.V. (doseage unknown in hospital)

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Valium IV, (Albuterol, Saline & Oxygen mixture)

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2mg Xanax

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50mg Zoloft (after 2 weeks)

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10mg Zyprexa (after 2 weeks in hospital)

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Ativan / Haloperidol (doseage unknown in hospital)

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