Just to recap: In 2009, Chris Brown beat Rihanna’s face to a bloody pulp. Though for that crime, he was sentenced to community service, which, it has now come to light, he fraudulently bailed on, he commemorated the incident by tattooing it to his neck. Shortly thereafter he threw a bare-chested temper tantrum on Good Morning America. Over the summer, he got in a scuffle with Drake, reportedly concerning Rihanna, in a New York City night club. Meanwhile, he failed a drug test, violating the terms of his probation. On Halloween 2012, he and his posse dressed as Arab terrorists. In November, he started a sexist Twitter war with a female comedian. Last week, he assaulted Frank Ocean in a parking lot, and someone in his camp used a homophobic slur and threatened to kill the singer. Then, he compared himself to Jesus. And, at least lately, he’s been able to find solace from all this in the arms of Rihanna, the woman who started this ugly news cycle by getting her face in the way of his fists. But this man still deserves your respect, because this man says so.

In a rant posted to his now-private Instagram account, Brown says enough is enough with the media backlash. MTV News has the screen shot, which we’ve transcribed (in its creatively punctuated glory) below.

This is why this guy led our 2012 Hall of Shame.

“I love ya’ll but ya’ll getting repetitive telling me to go relax no im not gonna relax im makin an album right now… and yall tell me not to pay attention to it how can I not when its on my radio,tv and everything else…Even if I did relax I wouldn’t stop hearing about it.. yall are everything to me yall know this but telling me to ignore it is like telling me to walk around with a blindfold and stick ear plugs in my ear… Im wise I can handle the hate but enough is enough you!! Yes it bothers me but its not my main focus! My music is… and when I speak on it .. its because I want people to know how I feel.. Yes they talked about Jesus… but “him” I am not him, not even close!!! Im a human being and I honestly think I deserve respect im sick of being accused… Im Tired yall just don’t understand I’ve been going through this shit since I was 19 years old.. you cant sit here and tell me to calm down, when am I gonna get a positive outcome out of anything I do? when can I get that feed back? Im TIRED do you read me im tired!!!!!! Im not gonna sit here and play victim, Im just tired of this shit… I pray every day and night for a new outcome… and just when everything seems to be going good some new shit happens.. A day in my shoes is a day in hell, believe it or not! Y’all don’t wanna be in my predicament … Before yall say im weak remember what ive been through.. My soul cries for positivity Im not broken I am STRONG….”