After taking a break from music, Ellie Goulding is back with hit new track “Close to Me” featuring Diplo and Swae Lee. The British songstress stopped by On Air With Ryan Seacrest on Friday, November 16, and revealed that she’s ready to drop her fourth studio album, and that it features one of her favorite — and “saddest” — songs she’s ever written.

“The song that I’d love to release sometime soon is probably the saddest song I’ve ever written in my life,” Goulding dished to Seacrest. “And people already say ‘I cry listening to certain songs’ … and I’m like, ‘Oh God, what’s going to happen with this one then?’ Because this is like sad, sad.”

Goulding, whose last album Delirium came out in 2015, explained that she oddly ends up recording these tear-jerker songs while in a happy place.