the main have no remorse at all for in essence murdering someone by draining them to that degree, like not even a 2nd thought about the guy that tried to save her, and then she drained someone she called her friend so she must have been a complete sociopath from the get go, i can understand getting high on becoming smarter but taking 5 points from everyone she walks pass and draining 100+ from a person are very different ventures but since it was a commission i don't know how much of that was by personal choice.







like i can get sadism, but this one i can't actually say had much of that, sadism is usually about finding glee from being in a position of power over someone or getting away with something you know is "wrong" both can give you a kick if you're that kind of person. this protagonist just does not care.





my personal favorites stories require 3 things, bad things happen to someone who "deserve" it, consequences are permanent and finally i want introspection or adaption.





like in this story Alyssa is she the same person she were before draining all their memories?, memories are what makes us the people we are so her personality could be totally warped by draining the first person she left for dead, but we saw nothing of what effects draining have on her personality if any, how do the memories feel?, are they intrusive or does it feel like they've always been there?





i like when powers warp people too, but then i have to know how it warps them and why, this story don't give how the actual memories affect her a second glance, since yea people breaking themselves with their own power is also something i enjoy, getting hubris by getting power swiftly and not knowing all the consequences of wielding it, for example if she petted a cat would she gain the experiences of a cat, and feel uncomfortable in her own body due to not feeling "right" any more since she do remember walking on all 4's. but i can understand not having time to develop this area too much it was a short story after all.







but as i said those are personal preferences, otherwise if we go outside my personal wants what i felt as i read this story was that the pace felt odd with the first part feeling very slow as she loiters around getting her power and then the pace goes from leisurely to free fall as she becomes a woman with a mission, it feels like the story gave a bit too much time on how she got her power with too little time of her actually using and exploring it.

