(Newser) – Here's more evidence—if anyone needed it—why having 14 kids might not be such a great idea. Octomom Nadya Suleman has gone completely 'round the bend, revealing she "hates babies," calling her older children "animals," and confessing that she often considers suicide. “I hate babies, they disgust me,” she tells In Touch magazine. “My older six are animals, getting more and more out of control, because I have no time to properly discipline them.” The single mom complains she's flat broke and that her life is a constant struggle.

“I have no money to pay for the children’s school, food, or the mortgage," she reveals, according to the Daily Mail. "The only way I can cope is to lock myself in the bathroom and cry. Sometimes I sit there for hours and even eat my lunch sitting on the toilet floor—anything to get peace and quiet. Some days I have thoughts about killing myself. I cannot cope.” She adds: “ Obviously I love them, but I absolutely wish I had not had them.” (Read more Nadya Suleman stories.)

