Buku Abi—R. Kelly’s estranged daughter with ex-wife Andrea Kelly—has disavowed her father in an Instagram story posted today. In the statement, which was viewed by Pitchfork, Abi (born Joann Kelly) addresses her hesitance to speak about the many abuse allegations that have been made against Kelly. Her mother Andrea Kelly was among the many women who accused R. Kelly of abuse in the new Lifetime documentary series “Surviving R. Kelly.”

“To the people that feel I should be speaking up/against everything that is going on right now, I just want you all to understand that devastated is an understatement for all that I feel currently,” Abi wrote. “I do apologize if my silence to all that is happening comes off as careless. That is my last intention. I pray for all the families & women who have been affected by my father’s actions. Trust, I have been deeply affected by all of this.” She then addressed everyone who demanded that she speak up against her father.

Reminders of how terrible my father is, and how we should be speaking up against him, rude comments about my family, fabricating me, my siblings, & our mother’s ‘part,’ etc., does not help my family (me, my sister, my brother, and my mother) in our healing process. Nor does it allow a safe space for other victims who are scared to speak up. The same monster you all confronting me about is my father. I am well aware of who and what he is. I grew up in that house. My choice to not speak on him and what he does is for my peace of mind. My emotional state. And for MY healing. I have to do & move in a manner that is best for me.

Since “Surviving R. Kelly” first aired, several musicians who previously collaborated with Kelly have spoken out against the artist, including Chance the Rapper, Lady Gaga, and Phoenix. The series also motivated Cook County State’s Attorney Kim Foxx in Chicago to encourage any survivors and witnesses with information about Kelly to contact her office in order to initiate an investigation.

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