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Don't let bitcoin overtake your soul December 19, 2015, 03:28:53 PM

Last edit: December 19, 2015, 04:02:59 PM by PublicP2poolNode #1 It all started for me back in April of 2014.



The following year my girlfriend and I had broken up for a few months because I had become so obsessed with reading about bitcoin and was being neglectful to her needs.



I had promised her that I wouldn't constantly be on my phone reading all the news related to bitcoin and watching the price fluctuations and on July 16th 2014 I asked her to marry me.



I kept my promises to her for a while. Until April 2015 when my miners that I used for solo mining actually found a block.



It was my first time finding one after over a year of trying and seeing 25 coins in my wallet worth almost $6,000.00 was so exhilarating and I felt like I was on cloud 9



I told my fiance about it and for the first time she was happy i had gotten involved into mining bitcoin.



I made a promise never to touch them until we we ready to retire.



A few days later I purchased 1 bitcoin and rented some hashpower and tried my luck at solo mining again.



Before I had spent even 1/4 of that bitcoin I found another block.



Woo hoo! This is easy I told myself.



Of course I told her about it and again she was very pleased.



This time I promised I would only use five coins to try and solo mine another block.



Well I lost the five.



Then more, then more and more and more until I had lost it all.



I couldn't tell her what I had done, couldn't admit that I had turned into a compulsive gambler and threw it all away.



So what did I decide to do?



I took out a home equity loan and borrowed $30,000.00 so I could purchase about 75 coins at the time.



I just knewI had figured out a system and with that many coins I would be able to get back what I had lost and repay my home equity loan.



So from April 2015 until mid December 2015 I tried every method I could come up with to try and outsmart the system.



At times I would spend an average of 1 bitcoin per day assuming it would take me no longer than 25 days to find a block and if I found one earlier then that then obviously I had come out ahead and I would pick a different address to solo mine to. It had to work, how couldn't it. At other times I would rent enough hashpower that I should have found a block within 12 hours.



Well it was quiet a roller coaster. From April of 2015 until mid December of 2015 I would estimate I found at least ten blocks probably more.



But I never could get back to where i started. I would get to the point where I was about to lose it all then I'd find a block.



Then I'd use that one to try and find more. When I was about to lose it all again, I'd find another one.



This process of losing almost everything and then gaining back a little, rinse wash and repeat continued for 8 months.



It was the most stressful time of my life.



All I could think about was getting back what I had lost so I wouldn't have to tell my fiance what I had done.



She felt neglected because I was always swiping my phone to see my new "best share" and to see how close I was to finding another block and a dark cloud followed me everywhere I went.



My negativity and despair showed on my face and she didn't understand why because I couldn't be honest about what I was doing because I was so ashamed.



Every day she would complain how I was always on my phone and not paying any attention to her, and I wanted so bad to just get back what I had lost and give her the attention she wanted and needed.



Long story short. She left me and I lost it all.



The moral of my story is dont let bitcoin take ahold of you like it did me, relationships are what matter and once you lose them you can't get them back.



She's already moved on and found a man that is giving her the attention she needs and I'm lonely, broken hearted and in more debt than I've ever been in, in my life.



