I had surgery last year in March – My mom wished me a Happy Penisversary!

I love her 🙂

I’m continuing to develop sensation in my penis, but there is still a long way to go. If I tug on the hairs that grew back I can feel it – more and more the sensations are blending into each other and it feels less and less like it’s coming from my leg or my old parts and more like it’s coming from my penis itself.

I am still only at stage 1, so no urethral hookup, no scrotoplasty, and no glansplasty. I will be documenting my progress through tricare once I get that started, but I am dealing with so many things in life right now that I just don’t have the energy to push through that red tape.

I am unable to use it to penetrate at this point. I believe I could have more success if I experimented more, but I can’t lie – it’s very demoralizing to be so inept that I have a hard time getting myself into the mindset to experiment.

Each time I do I pretty much just feel defeated and not sure I’ll ever be able to enjoy penetration. I know that this is defeatist thinking and that once I get the erectile device that will be different. But I’m nowhere near getting that completed so it’s a lot emotionally.

In the meantime I continue to work on Spouti and I have made a cool upgrade!

I took my size 16 catheter and I hooked it up to my Spouti and now I can pee through my penis!

It’s kind of great really – I need to do some more experimenting to know for sure that it will be a good fit, bit so far it’s working amazingly well and I am extremely satisfied. Currently I have the catheter running through the tip, but the tube is restrictive of the flow so I will be shortening the tubing so it runs about halfway up the shaft. I think this will work to help me keep my urethra clean as well as increase the flow.

It will also allow me to really see what my “spray” will look like once I get my actual hookup which really gives me something to look forward to!

I will likely take a video at some point and upload that here 🙂

http://www.myspouti.com