>Hapas on this board: Are you happy and proud of what you are, or do you resent your parents for creating you?

I resent the way I was raised more than I resent being created.I grew up in a house that was lonely as fuck, my parents never looked at each other, never talked to each other, never slept in the same bed, and never told one another that they loved each other. I was left to fuck off in a shitty school, I was in G.A.T.E. and honors classes, took piano and violin lessons, and had shitty friends that basically only pretended to be my friends, and I put up with it because I was lonely as fuck. my parents told me they loved me enough, but I just never believed them since they never said they loved eachother. also I got the impression that my dad didn't really want me, he was old as fuck, 50 years older than me while my mom was 40ish years older, my dad had a fully grown family, and his kids are a good 30 years older than in in their 50s now (am 25) my parents were poorly equipped to raise me, nor could they understand understand what kind of horrors go into american schools along with the social engineering. all what my dad did was sit on his fat ass and do shit on his computer while trying to raise me about 10-20 times in his life (died when I was 13) and all what my mom did was sit on her fat ass and watch garbage on the TV which honestly makes me wish I broke every single electronic in the house. I would like to say my life would have been better had i been raised in a christian school but even then thats iffy considering what my studies encompass now.in the long run now that I'm mature and have fixed my soul I am grateful for all the crap that I've been through. without the path that I am on I would have never found the Gnostic Gospels, nor have been able to understand them.