I’m in my twenties. I’m a virgin and have never even thought of being with a man. Not because I’m a prude or because I’m “saving myself,” but because I literally can not imagine myself in a sexual situation. At all. Any fantasies I have are always with the “perfect” body and it sucks. I can’t phantom anyone being attracted to my bloated fat body, even though I know that it’s possible. The idea of me being intimate with someone makes me sick to my stomach because the idea of my body in the nude makes me sick to my stomach, and it sucks. I’ve been taught to find my body so unattractive that I can’t even enjoy my body or imagine someone else enjoying my body. Almost all media is devoid of a normal, sexual relationship with fat bodies that isn’t a fetish and it really sucks…