Maxed out my last credit card tonight on the final bottle of rum and pack of cigarettes. Typing this on my phone as my power has been shut off to my shit hole bachelour apartment (late rent etc..). Broke a hole in the ceiling and found a framing member strong enough to hold my fat pathetic ass, tied off a thick extension cord and made a noose on the other end, stool placed underneath I will be zip tying my hands behind my back before kicking the stool out to forgo and second thoughts or weakness. I'm taking this cock sucker into the abyss on my terms, for better or worse. Good bye and good luck brothers in loneliness.