Been reflecting on this past year and what has appalled me, versus what has made me laugh and say, “ha, my job is ridiculous.” And how the line between gratuitous/crude and full-blown misogyny has become more distinct.

Porn DVD titles and descriptions are far from poetic. Take for instance, a title I’m in: “Fresh and Easy 2: … Let them suck your cock nice and deep or spread their legs good and wide…these juicy young sluts have the eager beavers you’re looking for!" …very…base? Objectifying for sure…and phrased as such because bros and sexually-frustrated middle aged men will want to watch it. (Kinda shows how sophisticated they assume the public’s taste to be.) The gay titles are the same deal. "Black Twink Addiction-” “A young fresh tight ass is the greatest thing you are sure to love. They’re sweet and tasty and just made to fuck.” So all the performers are objectified, and the public is assumed to be primitive sex trolls, so everyone in this theoretical loses a bunch of dignity. Oh well, it’s business and guilty pleasure. I’m ok with it - it pays my bills.

(Lesbian titles tend to be much more delicate and tasteful)

Then there are other goins-on in the industry that make my jaw drop and my vagina dry up. When typical language on set is “You sluts are just pieces of meat with holes in it. Now get over here and worship Master’s cock.” Yeah. That. Total male supremacy. It’s particularly unnerving when a company makes these types of scenes the main dig on their site, and even pushes it into the public, with fetish parties with only female subs, and public humiliation scenes (again, with only female subs) that are shot at fucking Beauty Bar and treated really nonchalantly so the public things….“hmm….well, I GUESS I could be comfortable with this…” This kind of thing isn’t made to appeal to primitive (but harmless) sex trolls - it appeals to slimey poisonous subhumans who hate women and want to subjugate them into sex slaves. I’m convinced of this because the slimy poisonous subhumans have talked to me (or rather, tried to order me around) on live stream and I have refused again and again to do shows for people who view myself and my species this way.

I’ve only had one company make me feel misogynized - it’s a blessing after all that I didn’t get more involved with them than I did.

So, after just over a year in hardcore, this is what I’ve been reflecting on. I’ve seen exampes of pretty porn, (Crash Pad, Girlfriends Films), nasty but harmless porn (most of it), and a few dark corners I won’t return to.