Never in my life have I been given such a gift. I do not have the word to fully articulate what it means to have such an act of kindness bestowed on me by a total stranger. This lovely act of kindness came all the way from Richmond BC, I must say when my gift shipped I was excited, and the fact that it was coming from letter mail made me all the more curious. I am not much for the frivolous things in life, I would have been happy with a card full of simply well wishes, holiday cheer and a keychain but this is not what Santa sent or had in mind.

When I filled out my SS profile, I made note to tell Santa that I was diagnosed with PTSD in the last year. I made note of this not because I was expecting pity or charity, but because it effects everything I do. I can't do things like go to themeparks anymore, concerts etc I can't enjoy myself even going to a simple pub can be an outright struggle for me.

My Santa sent me a beautiful card, with inspiring words which I will not post but I will cherish them forever. Because when you are going through hell as they say, the most comforting and most loving thing to hear in the world is simply that someone understands, even if not exactly but simply empathizes. These words alone in a card would have been enough gift for me, but it seems they weren't enough for Santa.

Attached to this card sending wishes of positive thoughts, and hope was $150 dollars, with a simple explanation that my Santa thought that I could use some financial help instead of a frivolous item. I am still sitting here as I type this with a card sitting in my lap with this wonderful, amazing gift and weeping uncontrollably.

I can't remember the last time I allowed myself to cry, to feel anything but yet here I am. So all I can say is THANK YOU. Not just for this precious gift, but most of all for your kind words of understanding, and more than that thank you for breaking this wall I have so carefully built over the last year, and reminding me that when I am in my boat, stuck in the rough seas of life and I am sure that I am simply going to drift away and drown...that I am not alone. These thoughts alone, help people like me not become a statistic.

SO THANK YOU. I wish there were words beyond that to say, I will be sure to pay your kindness forward for a very very long time.