With fear sticking in my head I could not paint and get into the flow. I like to paint thinking about anything just focusing on what I do. Beeing into a flow I am unaware of what ever is happening around me. I may not be entirely happy with the outcome, but that is the point, or not? To try an do it a better next time.

Well, I am not a professional artist, so I do not encounter "brutal competitions". I also see artwork done by others as huge inspiration, temptation (yes not challenge) to try something new - which in turn leads to skimming through art on DA.