Hey everyone, just wanted to apologize for not posting in a while, been crazy busy with stuff. I can honestly say that this surgery (possibly two), has been on my mind 24/7, and has been stressing me out. This last week or so I seem to have no energy at all, and all I want to do is sleep, sleep, and sleep some more. Doing stuff that’d normally get me super excited and keep me going just isn’t doing it for me. I’ve gone to 3 baseball games in the last week and a half, hung out with friends and family, gone to the movies, etc.

As the days go by, I know this surgery, which will change my life forever, for better or for worse, is right around the corner. The positives keep me hopeful, but the possible negatives also make me depressed at times. I’m normally a level headed guy, and pretty cheerful, so i’m not used to being depressed like I am right now. I don’t tend to let things get me down. I do get frustrated and impatient, but not depressed.

My pre-op tests came back just about normal (some highs and lows in my levels in certain areas, but according to the report, nothing to be concerned about), so I have the green light for the surgery, no more paperwork or testing to be done. On July 24th, 2014, I will go into surgery to have grids and strips placed on my brain for mapping to determine whether or not I am a candidate for a second resection or not. Obviously, I want to be able to have the second resection, as it is my only chance at seizure-freedom, but it’s scary all the same.

I have two doctors appointments tomorrow to take care of, one with my anesthesiologist (over the phone), and one with my neuropsychologist to get the results of the test that I had done back in June. I will update you guys with the results of that exam that was taken! Let me leave you guys off with the quote of the week.

Sincerely,

GWAB

“I don’t want any yes-men around me. I want everybody to tell me the truth even if it costs them their jobs.”

– Samuel Goldwyn (1882 – 1974)