LESSON 69 My grievances hide the light of the world in me.

1. 1No one can look upon what your grievances conceal. 2Because your grievances are hiding the light of the world in you, every­one stands in darkness, and you beside him. 3But as the veil of your grievances is lifted, you are released with him. 4Share your salvation now with him who stood beside you when you were in hell. 5He is your brother in the light of the world that saves you both.

2. 1Today let us make another real attempt to reach the light in you. 2Before we undertake this in our more extended practice period, let us devote several minutes to thinking about what we are trying to do. 3We are literally attempting to get in touch with the salvation of the world. 4We are trying to see past the veil of darkness that keeps it concealed. 5We are trying to let the veil be lifted, and to see the tears of God’s Son disappear in the sunlight.

3. 1Let us begin our longer practice period today with the full real­ization that this is so, and with real determination to reach what is dearer to us than all else. 2Salvation is our only need. 3There is no other purpose here, and no other function to fulfill. 4Learning salvation is our only goal. 5Let us end the ancient search today by finding the light in us, and holding it up for everyone who searches with us to look upon and rejoice.

4. 1Very quietly now, with your eyes closed, try to let go of all the content that generally occupies your consciousness. 2Think of your mind as a vast circle, surrounded by a layer of heavy, dark clouds. 3You can see only the clouds because you seem to be standing outside the circle and quite apart from it.

5. 1From where you stand, you can see no reason to believe there is a brilliant light hidden by the clouds. 2The clouds seem to be the only reality. 3They seem to be all there is to see. 4Therefore, you do not attempt to go through them and past them, which is the only way in which you would be really convinced of their lack of substance. 5We will make this attempt today.

6. 1After you have thought about the importance of what you are trying to do for yourself and the world, try to settle down in perfect stillness, remembering only how much you want to reach the light in you today,—now! 2Determine to go past the clouds. 3Reach out and touch them in your mind. 4Brush them aside with your hand; feel them resting on your cheeks and forehead and eyelids as you go through them. 5Go on; clouds cannot stop you.

7. 1If you are doing the exercises properly, you will begin to feel a sense of being lifted up and carried ahead. 2Your little effort and small determination call on the power of the universe to help you, and God Himself will raise you from darkness into light. 3You are in accord with His Will. 4You cannot fail because your will is His.

8. 1Have confidence in your Father today, and be certain that He has heard you and answered you. 2You may not recognize His answer yet, but you can indeed be sure that it is given you and you will yet receive it. 3Try, as you attempt to go through the clouds to the light, to hold this confidence in your mind. 4Try to remember that you are at last joining your will to God’s. 5Try to keep the thought clearly in mind that what you undertake with God must succeed. 6Then let the power of God work in you and through you, that His Will and yours be done.

9. 1In the shorter practice periods, which you will want to do as often as possible in view of the importance of today’s idea to you and your happiness, remind yourself that your grievances are hiding the light of the world from your awareness. 2Remind yourself also that you are not searching for it alone, and that you do know where to look for it. 3Say, then:

4My grievances hide the light of the world in me. 5I cannot see what I have hidden. 6Yet I want to let it be revealed to me, for my salvation and the salvation of the world.

7Also, be sure to tell yourself:

8If I hold this grievance the light of the world will be hidden from me,

if you are tempted to hold anything against anyone today.