Again

[A4A]

by /u/Eves-garden

I was over you.

I had tucked you away

in a corner of my memory,

in the cool, dark place

where old friends and

adolescent crushes

linger

in nostalgic dreams

like benevolent ghosts

I had learned to think of you

with warmth

not heat

with affection

not breathless,

giddy desire

if I even thought of you

at all

And even though

I sometimes missed

the way my pulse

would leap

and flutter

beneath my

tingling skin

the way my breath

would catch

The way one warm

whisper against

the shell of my ear

would quake through me

like a sweet orgasmic

ripple of need…

I was glad to be free

But now

now….

I see you again

and the flutter

in my chest

silences my breath

I feel your hand

as it slips over mine

and I wonder how

I lived so long without

this touch

I hear your voice

and it's like

coming home

I should say no

and you should say no

but when your mouth

finds mine

and your arms pull me in

I am nothing but need

and heat and

desperate

liquid desire

My hands fumble

to find your bare skin

my fingers tear

at buttons and fabric

to get to you

to feel you again

to possess you

for a moment

for an hour

for a lifetime

for however long

I can have you

just to taste you again

just to sink to my knees

and worship you

Just to feel your

heat on my tongue

and your pleasure

in my mouth

and hear your cries

as I bring you

again and again

to that place

our place

where we neither of us

are free…

Where I am over you

and you are over me

and we crumple the sheets

and scatter the blankets

rolling and tumbling

thrusting and taking

biting the pillow

gripping the headboard

panting as we fuck

with our eyes as surely

as with our bodies

our skin slick with sweat

our limbs entwined

our mouths meeting

again and again

until that cool, dark place

where our memories have lived

alights again

and is consumed

a star burst of pleasure

and pain and

explosive desire

until we collapse

and through panted breaths

and slow smiles

our wise eyes

tell each other

in ways no words

ever could

that we will never be free

and will always

always

be back here