It would be dark and depressing, even for someone like Bellwether who is a tragic villain lost in her own dark world of emotions that she thinks nobody could ever understand how hard and devastating her life has been since she was a sheep surrounded by predators wanting to tear her apart or lust after her wool. The guilt, shame, remorse, and sadness become too overwhelming that she is resorting to doing the unspeakable, taking her own life. Unless someone cares enough to stop her from doing that, it might be her only salvation.