Master has again kept me Owned, collard & locked yet completely unlocked…We have arrived where we were many months ago yet its now and we’re so much stronger….

We talk often and frequently like we used to and it unlocks me completely! I’m not sure whats actually changed except his own attitude, life or view… Something has made him return to me and for that I am very Thankful….

I find him mentioning my blog, this blog more often… maybe because its an unknown, although I did provide him with its location before I suspect he wants to see it yet doesn’t feel like requesting it and i don’t care to share….I will if i have too yet…not yet not now…

Yes that pic is me and one of my daily locks i find comfort in wearing. I don’t always wear black but i always wear my amazing blue eyes!

We talked recently about my feelings around this woman I’m speaking to in his area. I was finally able to admit why i am so harsh on her, its because she is close to him…He could “trade” me in…Its not her its the circumstances…See that’s how I lost the man whom i was convinced was the love of my life “Army Man” He decided it was far easier to be with his fuck buddy whom i knew about than try to build a life with me. We were too complicated and trust me it brought little solace when he called and said he was sorry and wasn’t happy but the convenience worked for them…In fact that those just ripped my heart out more…Its okay I know this is a land mine for my heart strings and now Master knows…He pointed out he wasn’t trading me in nor replacing me..In fact he has done but be loyal to me…That being said I admitted him my fears and told him i was trying to work through and he told me the moment we “her and I” became friends he knew why and that it would happen but had been waiting quietly until i admitted it to myself and him…He explained his thoughts and doesn’t desire me to force anything nor be uncomfortable…He only asked me to be nice and if it didn’t work then move on…He said he would prefer to spread kindness and love vs negative emotions and he is right..I can be kind…

It’s okay Master for I now know i know she might be there but she isn’t and will not ever be me, that i know! The talks are like concrete being poured in our foundation and they lock me to him deeper…Yes he manages to unlock my soul and yet somehow keep me locked to him despite the ocean between are feet…

If you desires to be my friend, my lover, my anything than you must talk to me…The key to my soul is communication at its sweetest, rawest and most honest brutal forms…

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