Hey guys, first twitlong in my life !

Extrem long twit, 'thoughts of a casual random pro player'



Retrospective of 2016

First of all, I want to thank Breez, Schwimpi, Ethernal, Splendour and Natus Vincere for giving me the opportunity to play in the competitive scene even if I was just an amateur player without any knowledge, really guys, I wouldn't be here writting this in China right now, and I wouldn't live my dream, for this, you all have my honest respect. Special thanks to Kimi.



Where should I start ? I guess the most memorable experience was Road to Blizzcon when we won the whole event without dropping a single map, and for most of us, the first time playing on stage, I remember this feeling in the last serie "Guys, imagine if we win without losing, such a dream aight ? But It won't happen..". Guess what.

I can't describe the feeling of winning, it's like, you don't think about anything else, everything you went 'thru doesn't matter anymore, even the hardest, it's just.. happiness.

I got addicted. And I was always running after this feeling since then.

I guess it might be irrelevant for you guys, but I won't hide in this tweet and I will be completely open with my feelings.

I had a girlfriend that I loved so much that you couldn't imagine, and I wasn't enjoying as much as I would my professionnal career because I wanted, and needed to be with her every single little free second, I guess my teamates can relate to this, we won so many regionals, but I've never celebrated with them because yeah, I was just going up in my room to chat with her, everything was so complicated.

At some point, it began to be a choice between my career and her.

I had to make some sacrifice, and little by little, and painfuly, we broke up.

It's kinda recent. But you know what ? Life is still going.



At this point, I had nothing else than my career, so I worked more and I began to be full serious or maybe too extrem, my expectations raised so much that I become different, I started to call out people way more than normaly, I started to tilt every repeatable little mistake from the others, little by little, I started to become lazy because I had the feeling of "Why would I work if the others are not even respecting me by playing bad and doing sh*ts?"

For all of these, I'm apologizing openly to all the players I worked with.



Even from an exterior point of view, you could have seen the difference, I wasn't posting anymore, I wasn't doing Vlogs anymore, I had no fun anymore, I just wanted to win tournament, that's all.

Talking about GCWC, I was more than burnout by SO MANY REASONS, I really, really, needed a rest, and stepback about my career and my personal life, I needed to have a break, but we couldn't, I still tried to do my best, but didn't perform as much as I would, and the fact that I'm here writting this is a sign of completely burnout, because yeah, this event didn't help me at all and is more killing me than everything else.

It reaches the point where I don't even know what to do for next year.



Final words : We did no matter what a good year. GG to everyone, Alex, Wubby, I got both of you in my heart, you guys are amazing, keep up the good work.

ps : Meph, I could be rude sometimes, but I love you and thank you for every thing.



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