I have found the reason why most of my projects end up falling straight on their face – It takes time to learn new skills, and achieve goals. Not just days but weeks, months, years. At times you will have to apply effort with no goal in sight. So it is important to learn how to be happy without your goals, in a sense you are doing your goals to grow as a person not to make your self feel better. So I used to start 5 habits at the same time and try to do all them every day, it worked for the first week but then I started getting lazy. So now instead of doing something crazy like that, I focus on 1 single habit and improve it slightly each day. For example, I use to wake up at 10am on the weekends, but every day I have been going to bed 5 minutes earlier and waking up 5 minutes earlier. Now after a few weeks I am getting up at 7am for work so easily, my body has fully adjusted to waking up at that time.

The weirdest part is that you must not care so much about your goal, just forget it exists and improve each day and slowly the goal just happens. However, if you focus too much on the goal, it gets into your head too much. What I mean, is you will not want to achieve a task all the time, meaning if you rely on that motivation, your willpower will disappear. The fact is life won’t be much different if you don’t work on what is important to you. You only start to feel the effects after a long time.

Update

The sun is resplendent, it filled me up and inspired me to start writing more. The winter slump is over, time for summer! I’m picking up the keyboard and writing a lot more now, my main goal is to improve my writing skills, and explore new ideas. Over the last few months, I have been quite lethargic, unable to do more than the minimum required of me. I have been through an emotional rollercoaster, I am starting to stabilize. But spring has kicked some life into me. I have control over my sleep, and I am sleeping like a baby. My next project is to work on is mindfulness meditation, I want to make sure my sleep is amazing and stays amazing so I won’t work on that until the summer when I have more free time. I will have my first exam in 2 months, so I’m really excited about that.