SO IT WAS 1996 I ASSUME

MY FIRST YEAR ON TV

AS A DAYTIME TALK SHOW HOST

A GIRL MERV

I WAS HONORED –

SO OFTEN IT WAS TAXING

I HAD PARKER

MORE BABIES WERE ON THE WAY

I LONGED TO BE HOME

AND SHUT OUT THE MAKE UP

THE SPOTLIGHT

THE NOISE

THIS WAS A WOMENS EVENT

NORA WAS THERE –

I CAUGHT HER EYE

WAITED FOR HER LAUGH ALONE

I MADE A JOKE

ABOUT HOW HORRIBLE

THE SOUND SYSTEM WAS

HOW WE NEEDED TO FIX IT

EMBARRASSING

AS WOMEN IN TV

2 HAVE NO AUDIO

WHATSOEVER

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SO JOYS HOMOPHOBIC BLOGS

MENTIONED ME

ON OCCASSION

IN CRUEL WAYS

SOME ASSUMED

GUESSED – SURMISED

IT WAS ANTI GAY

HER SAYING “NO ONE LOVES ROSIE”

AND OTHER CRAP

FAT COMMENTS TOO

FEW CAN RESIST

OINK OINK

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I AM NEW TO JOY REID

ABOUT 6 MONTHS AGO

I STARTED WATCHING AM JOY

AFTER SEEING HER SUB FOR MADDOW

I DIDNT KNOW MUCH ABOUT HER

SHE WAS SMART

AND QUICK AND FAIR AND FEMALE

A SISTERFRIEND I WAS SURE

IN MY MIND I AM PALS WITH RACHEL

WE DOUBLE DATE

IN MY MIND

SPEND TIME AN THE CAPE HANGING OUT

NEVER MET EITHER ONE

RACHEL OR JOY

BUT I FEEL LIKE

I KNOW THEM

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SOMEHOW KATHY GRIFFIN

KNOWS JOY REID

HOW

I AM NOT SURE

SHE TEXTS ME

CALL HER

SHE IS COOL

SHE IS SORRY

WE TALK

SHE TELLS ME

WE MET ONCE

IN 1996

SHE WAS AN INTERN

I WAS GETTING AN AWARD

WITH NORA DEAD CENTER

SMILING

I SHOWED UP WITH MY PUBLICIST LOIS SMITH

JOY WAS ASSIGNED TO ME

AND APPARENTLY

I WAS HORRIBLE TO HER

I AM TAKEN ABACK

RIGHT AWAY

WHEN SHE SAYS THIS

AS SHE IS A BLACK YOUNG WOMAN

ITS NOT IN MY DNA

I OVER COMPENSATE

I SEE THE STRUGGLE

I CONNECT

SHE LEFT OUT DETAILS

BUT I HURT HER

HEART AND SOUL

AND SHE HELD A GRUDGE TIL 2011?

SO SHE SAYS

AND I THINK OK

GOOD – IT WASNT HOMOPHOBIA

NOT ANTI GAY

JUST ANTI ME

PERSONAL AND SPECIFIC

I DID HER WRONG

SHE REACTED WITH UNKIND POSTS

5 YEARS LATER

SHE WAS STILL RECOVERING

FROM THE DAMAGE I INFLICTED

ME – COMPLETELY UNAWARE

I APOLOGIZE

CAUSE WHATEVER SHE SAW

THOUGHT FELT ASSUMED

– SHE WAS WOUNDED BY IT

WE STUMBLE THROUGH

A QUIET CONVERSATION

I WONDER HOW SHE GOT FROM THOSE BLOGS

TO HERE AND NOW

FIERCE SMART UNFLAPPABLE

REPRESENTING

MADDOW BUD

“CANT GET THERE FROM HERE”

PEPPERIDGE FARM REMEMBERS

SO DOES THE WEB

HIT SEND

AND ITS YOURS FOREVER

A TATTOO OF U

IN PIXELS

NO DO OVER

NO OOOPS

IF U FUCK UP

FESS UP

DO ONE INTERVIEW

MADDOW MAYBE

LIVE – LAY IT ALL OUT

TURN EVERY STONE

THEN COME WHAT MAY

I BELIEVE SHE WILL STAY

AND CONTINUE TO OWN ALL SHE IS

A WARRIOR FOR DEMOCRACY

I WILL FOREVER WONDER

WHAT I COULD HAVE DONE

TO HURT HER SO

I AM TRULY SORRY