So my recent near-death experience has served to strengthen some of my ideas into beliefs. At least for now.

I’m a lucifierian, a pagan and a christian. I find these beliefs completely compatible and could expand on the reasons another time. I also like existentialism and buddhist philosophy.

The therian and otherkin stuff are not beliefs. It’s my nature and just is. I’ve known about my therian nature since my teen years and am reasonably comfortable with it. Otherkin stuff is fairly new and freaks me out. It almost got me killed. I wish there was an “off” switch for it.

I have never had any history of mental illness. I have experienced shifts in the past. The shifts have been fairly peaceful, controllable and pleasant. But the last couple of weeks have been scary. Someone I trust said what I had was a “shamanistic experience”. Others say it was brought on by a neglect of food and sleep. Whatevers.

I may need to contact more otherkin people to discuss coping mechanisms. I don’t want to end up in hospital again.