I posted on here awhile ago but deleted the post to remake with more insight.

Hey, I'm TripTeamSix, Insane Meth Addict turned Harm Reduction Specialist in the Stim world.

How hard is it to quit meth ? Pretty damn hard. Your mind has to be in the right zone.

My Story:

September: Got my Adderall script , non-abuser for two weeks.

Then I went to a house party , drank almost a 1.75l of captain to the face . Blacked out and woke up in a Chinese buffet two towns down. Yeah I drove blacked out, props for not killing anything .

Once I realized where I was and was confused how I got there. I paid my bill and ran out to the truck. Feeling very very very hot.

On my.pasaanger seat, were two empty bottles of my Adderall. Yep. While blacked out I swollowed 450mg of ADDERALL both IR and XR.

That's what probably sobered me up. But my organs and skin and eyes were burning . I was in so much pain. 450mg on a 30mg/day tolerance. I was OD'in.

Instead of hospital, I got some water and drove my truck around the town for 7 hours straight loosing my shit .

2 days later my doctor bumps me up to 60mg/day and give me 2 new bottles !

I take 1 , nothing, take 2 , nothing. I started popping them till I felt it. Then I did. Big euphoria. But then after that I was just chasing a high.

By the start of October I went through 4 scripts of ADDERALL extra in two weeks. Thousands of MG's.

I thought I could stop. Nope. I wasn't addticed I was chemically dependant on addy for my dopeamine levels. I crashed soooo hard . I wanted to kill myself , no other option . Then someone told me about meth, and they had a plug.

I went for it tried to keep it save .030mg a day. Oral only

Two weeks later I started smoking .

Week later my plug asked if I wanted to try Injecting, blitz out of my mind I said yes. He mixes the shots , and shot me with 300mg. 300 fucking mg .

I hugged a pillow for an hour .... Almost OD'ed it felt like.

Then I came down and felt Hungry? That's new , that night I felt sleepy . Wtf is happening.

My plug shot me up with so much that my tolerance went skyward . So much I could eat and sleep again.

But smoking didn't do shit, oral didn't do shit.

The needle was the only option.

I OD'ed 5 times from Oct to Jan

I have a tattoo for one of them.

I started researching on how to be safe, wash my meth, bought the right scale.

Then early December happened . The love of my life left me. I was 4 days sober for her and quitting for her. It was the day before my birthday too.

Something happened , Day 4 withdrawal, no love , no happy , no pleasure, just wanted to end it.

I loaded 1.3g into a 3ml syringe and tried to kill myself . The plunger was to loose and I instantly blew out my vein and ruptured it. Blood and meth all over the place.

I ran to my roommates room, found there gun, loaded it, cocked it. Then put it to my head and fired it. I heard the hammer drop, but it didn't go off, I fainted Instantly.

My roommate didn't trust me with a working gun in the house so they took out the firing pin.

After that day I started to increase and increase and increase my dosage to try and feel and forget.

The whole month of December I was injecting 2000mg every day into my veins . .3-.4 shots. Every 6 or so hours, maybe less than 6 hrs.

At the end of December even with bigger shots , my mind was fucking with me. I'd shoot , super euphoria, super awesome . But then it would get killed by the fact I have no friends , no lover , no one to talk to. Porn became "what's the point" in my mind because who would love a junkie .

On December 30th I took my last shot, giving up on meth because no matter how hard I tried , I couldn't be happy.

I locked myself in a basement for a weekend.

Day 4- my roommate brought me to the hospital because I wasn't loosing it and freaking out, thyebgave me a Ativan and sent me on my way.

After leaving the hospital I freaked out , no benzo could stop this. I jumped out of a car going 20-30. And made a run for it. I finally came down and they picked me up . I asked to go-to the doctors .

I asked the doctor for 3 Medications: Wellbutrin, Naltrexone, and Topiramate. They also gave me Trazadone for sleep.

Ball into my arms every 1.5 days , all months long , and said "fuck it". White knuckled the hardest comdown of all.

I haven't drank since that night in September, booze did this to me, help fuck up my life. I wasn't a big drinker.

Chemical Dependance is a horrible thing. But I survived . You can survive .

IF I CAN DO IT YOU CAN.

I am 93 days sober from Methamphetamine, no cravings, no desire.

I am 190 days sober from Booze. Yeah my life changes 190 days ago.

3 months - Meth

6 months - Booze

I went harder that most ever will, and stopped the most insane way anyone would like to try.

No Treatment, No Therapy. Just fucking Willpower.

My Soberiety Clocks :

3 months I used meth , and I went all the way to the top.

Make me proud and think about a change . Please post your recovery stories below

Comments are welcome if you think I'm crazy.

Sober feels so good 💙💙💙