I rarely am on my phone when I am socializing with other people, however I could easily identify internet as my addiction.



I have this like love/hate relationship with it. Like internet is filled with informations and it is one of the drove of globalization. I can't get enough of that. As I can pass endless hours reading articles of wikipedia/newspapers or looking at artworks, I can pass endless hours watching&re-watching videos or browsing some idiotic sutff. And it's driving me crazy because I know it's a problem for me (being in excess). Mostly because it affects in particuliar my productivity.



This summer I realized that when, with my family, we went on vacation in the mountains. We were hiking on the day but, when coming back at the house we were renting, I didn't have "something to do" because we didn't have wifi...

Strangely, I found myself drawing and drawing whenever I had free time at the house. I had so much thoughts while hiking, so much to write down, so much to draw, so much to express (just by looking at the artworks I did, it shows: like one about growing ideas and another one about pursuing my dream). And all that creativity explosed just because I was cut from my addiction.

It was a surprise as much as it wasn't one. I think I just never mesured the extent of my addiction to internet before that.



I quickly found out that addiction was hard to deal with because even if I had the best intention after my days away from internet I couldn't be as much productive as I had been. It's frustrating because I'm angry after myself (when I don't want to be, love yourself, don't despite yourself grr) but my improvements on the matter are slow and not always efficient. Plus having a personnality prone to procrastination is not helping at all.



At least I know I need to find my balance (acknowledging the problem is a good step no?). Like you said " so unnerving to see high-schoolers whither potential away". It's the same thing but directed toward myself. Maybe society is playing a role by pressuring us to be hyper productive and it affects me... It's hard to tell where some lines stand.