Whoa! Last month sure was a ride.



So. Things have definitely changed… or maybe I have changed? I can’t believe I was so blind to Mom’s issues. Things got really bad. But when we went back home, she seemed… changed. It feels surreal to look back now.

I talked to her about my dreams, and she was wondering if some kami was involved. (A monk, perhaps? haha) Dad says it’s funny I inherited her wild imagination, somehow. Is that even possible? Anyway, he does visit us now and then, so I’m grateful for that.

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Mom and I talked about me leaving senior high school. It was a really tough decision, but it’s probably for the best. My mind is always wandering, I really don’t think I’m fit for university. Failing last year almost mentally killed me. I’ll take some time to figure out what to do next.

Maybe I’ll look for a part-time job in the meantime? Though they say there’s an economic crisis going on this year, I hope it’s not too bad… For now, we’re spending most of our time together.

I wish I could say it’s like a vacation, but something feels off. She looks at me like something has fundamentally changed - like it was meant to change. Is this what it’s like to grow up?

I know nobody reads my blog, I just wanted to have at least one last entry after the previous one, before I close this thing. It’s the end of an era. I won’t neglect my reality - it is what it is, even if I decide to ignore it. I have no choice but to face who I am. I can’t just turn into anybody else, so if I want to be a better person, I’ll have to better myself.

I’m ready to follow my purpose. I just need to figure out what it is.

One thing is for sure, I shouldn’t become a writer (laugh)

Good night, world