It doesn’t fit anymore

He broke off with me and his reason was:

“It doesn’t fit anymore”

Two weeks after he said I’d be the most important person in his life and i would be so important for him… we were a couple for 1 year and I don’t believe him, I know he’s still loving me, my first love… the most hurting thing is that I know his reason was a lie and he was just to cowardly to say that he’s too busy and our relationship is a too high expenditure, the truth.. We just saw each other once a week or every two weeks and sometimes we didn’t see the otherone for 3 weeks out of the distance, yeah it was hard sometimes i cried a lot, missed him so much, but I loved him and he was still in love with me. The weekend before was amazing we had so much fun. I just don’t understand why he left and how he could just throw us away.. He was the only boy I’ve ever loved and it was so hard to lose him.. but now I know that he made a big mistake and when he is going to realize he has lost me I will be gone and maybe have someone who loves me even though it’s difficult to see each other by my side…I had a great time with him and I’m missing the time but now it’s just a beautiful memory I will remember sometimes.. I know I’m a good girl a great person, he gave me this feeling.. He broke up 3 weeks ago but it feels like months… I accepted his decision and I met someone two days ago.. I think he’s interested in me and I’m going to take it slow, however I’m locking forwards with a good feeling and backwards with a little smile remembering all the great moments we had.. I will always remember him and think the first love is something special in life.. Julius thanks for the great time we had and I wished you wouldn’t have broken up like you did, then it hurts more if the person you love lies to you instead of saying the real reason of course it’s gonna hurt to lose the person you love but then you know why and you can try to understand it.. and phrases like we had a great time, but also the greatest time ends one day are bullshit and i know that it wasn’t you who said it..

However just wanted to say goodbye and it’s easier to let us go like this.. maybe we will meet another time.. any day.. you’re great and I know that you’re needing someone else than me who fits better in your situation if life.. it’s hard to understand that it can’t be me even if you love me but it’s it’s ok for me right now.. I’m able to say goodbye even though it still hurts that much to let you go…let you go out of my life and also out of my heart or to make your space in my heart smaller so there’s going to be a place for someone else.. I think we’re still fitting but or life situations aren’t..

goodbye my love I’m so thankful that you gave me those unforgettable and unbelievable moments…