I am writing this to my subs, friends and everyone who is or was supporting me. I owe u an explanation and apologies. I want to admit I did fuck up, I did horrible thing but I want to let you know that not everything I did is a lie. Why am I doing this? Because I care about you. It's not just words. I always considered you my friends. It was more than just a stream subscription.And I hope you could feel the same as me. Yesterday I confessed to my online friend. Today I confessed to another one friend who is sub too and now probably everyone will know about it. I didn't know how to do it with everyone and much earlier cuz it went so far. You know, when you are deep into some shit u made up and u can not get out of it. U can call me a liar, pussy, fake but I want to tell you with all my heart I was not fake with you all the time. I did shit and you can not imagine how hard it is to admit, to even think about it. How hard it is to write to ppl I care in a scare they won't understand you. won't forgive, won't even care. I do it no matter how scared and ashamed I am right now just because I believe it is right thing to do to all of you and you deserve to hear it from me. I posted fake pics (not all of them). yeah. U have many questions probably why I did so and so on. I still can't find an asnwer for this too, since why would I do this even thos I was posting my real selfies on snapchat to u all, but on insta there were fakes.I have no excuses, I have no explanations.Not bc I am hiding it, but bc I can not simply answer to myself why did I need this shit. It started long ago and went so far I didn't know how to find a way out. Some may call me insane, sick person, some - liar cunt.