In 2014, Holland and I learned new things about our cherished Mormon heritage that were confusing and disturbing.

We thought we knew the history of our Church, but we discovered controversial events that the Church misrepresented or omitted altogether.

We thought we knew the doctrine of our Church, but we uncovered official teachings far different from what we learned growing up, and different from what I taught to thousands as a missionary, occasionally refuting “anti-Mormon lies” with pure testimony.

The Church has now confirmed that some of these “anti-Mormon lies” are true.

These contradictions led to a difficult question: what if the Church is not what it claims to be? After months of painful soul searching and research, we realized we need space from the Church in order to sort truth from error.

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In this Church that honors personal agency so strongly, that was restored by a young man who asked questions and sought answers, we respect those who honestly search for truth.

We are asking questions and seeking answers. We are honestly searching for truth. Will you help us?

This is the first in a series of stories about our ongoing spiritual journey. We need your help in our search for answers and truth. Join the conversation here on Medium, privately or publicly. Comment on our Facebook posts. Send us an email. Let us know what you think.

We want to be corrected where we are wrong. More than anything, we want the truth.

Thank you for helping Holland and I with these difficult questions of faith. Through these posts and our discussions, I hope we can “understand one another” and be “edified and rejoice together” (Doctrine and Covenants 50:22).