Some incidents quite often lead us to a state which makes us sit quietly, acquire a new perspective, clear our thoughts and make a written note of it. This idea of putting pen to paper might help us to gaze upon our own reflection. You start to realize that the heap of disorganized thoughts partially responsible for your mental blindness should be weeded out with discipline. With this blog I hope to seek inspiration and rekindle the fire within me which was started a while back to improve my mental as well as my physical being.

One can also say that writing is just another way of being mindful. When you are writing for a purpose, you are constantly under the thinking process of how you can be more clear and precise in the message you want to convey. This automatically takes care of the negative bias of which your brain is very much used to.

Untangling the wires

The first step to mindfulness starts with a little discipline. But its easier said than done.

When the alarm goes off in the morning, its sound is clearly heard. This is the point where a battle starts between you v/s you. The resolution to wake up early last night clashes with the warm, cozy and innocent bed of yours. You ultimately end up sleeping and then later, you are the one cursing yourself.

The one who resolves to wake up is our mind and the one who wants to sleep, is the brain. The mind is the programmer, the brain is the software, you are the computer and your actions are the output. Your mind needs to code the brain to behave accordingly. The stronger the code, more effectively the brain responds.

Your brain knows that you have resolved to lose weight, but it still makes you eat those french fries. It knows that smoking is harmful, but it still makes you suck on those fumes. It knows that the assignment is due tomorrow, but it still makes you watch one last episode of Game of Thrones. Such a state of brain can be said to be Tangled. Every single thought that passes through our brain influences this entanglement. Mindfulness is all about untangling these messed up wires.

The Purpose

So a while ago after a long period of struggle I finally got my brain to structure itself and a routine was established of waking up daily at 5:00 am and practice mindfulness. Little did I know that this structure was a house of cards prepared to collapse even by a gentle breeze.

5 minutes of focussed meditation on the first day, gradually progressed to a whopping 45 minutes at the end of third week. I maintained this streak for a while, feeling good about myself but “the hearts of men are easily corrupted”. A mild fever kicked in wherein I found it hard to wake up. The fever was not that high but my brain owing to its staunch and beloved wiring convinced my mind to take a break. This break of one day extended itself and before I could realize I found myself in a Relapse.

The old lifestyle was revived and I resorted back to everything I was trying to get rid of. A bad feeling was surging in the background but in the forefront I didn’t care. My mind gave in to the battle and the brain had entirely taken over. I couldn’t help realizing how funny is the functioning of our brain. The monk mind had transformed into a hobo mind and again it seemed directionless. Maybe this is what they call as the Autopilot mode.

Not being a regular writer it has taken a long time for me to compose this piece of writing. In the mean time the thinking process has pulled me out of the Autopilot mode and once again the practice of mindfulness has started. I guess the purpose of this blog has served rightfully so far.

I actually have a lot to share about the journey I have embarked upon coz this has been one hell of a ride. In the process I have devised various formulas and methods which are tried and tested but not recommended to all!!!

Already fired up for the next post!!!