This story is part of the Healthyish Guide to Being Alone, a series of tips, recipes, and stories about how to be alone when we’re together and together when we’re alone.

There's secret single behavior (SSBs, if you will), and then there's secret single cooking—the kind of "meals" you make only when you know that no one is around to judge you. And while the BA Instagram feed might be filled with creamy pasta finding its best light, the truth is that in these socially distant times, we, like you, are home alone and secret single cooking like never before. And believe us when we tell you: It's not always pretty.

"Weird" and "cheese" were two themes that came up over and over when we asked our co-workers what they make when they have a solo night—or a solo life—with no one to impress but themselves. One day, we'll get back to those elaborate dinner parties. But for now, we're leaning all the way in to secret single cooking—one random-leftovers-quesadilla at a time.