At times it feels like winning the lottery has ruined my life. I thought it would make my life ten times better but it’s made it ten times worse.

I wish I had no money most days. I say to myself, ‘My life would be so much easier if I hadn’t won’. People look at me and think, ‘I wish I had her lifestyle, I wish I had her money’.

But they don’t realise the extent of my stress. I have material things but apart from that my life is empty. What is my purpose in life?

There’s no one in the same boat as me, no-one who really understands.