I've being feeling lost. Not that kind of lost, but just lost with this blog. I've been losing myself in the numbers of it all and I feel like in doing so I'm losing what this blog is really for. I want to be this huge influence and touch everyone's souls but I am starting to think that I need to go back to the root of this blog, back to me.

This isn't about the number of reads, followers, or anything like that. This is me, this is about me. I'm not going to sit here and give you some miracle diet, or lifestyle change that you can make. I'm here to just talk; to speak the truth of my life through my own eyes.



I have a hole in my chest right now. It's been slowly growing for the past week. I didn't notice it at first but it slowly grew bigger, turning into this black hole that is swallowing me up. Is it depression? Is it a Bipolar mood swing? Honestly, I don't know. I don't have that answer for you or for myself. All I know are the emotions t…