a/n: so good to be back writing in first person. i missed you, baby. there is belsa in the beginning, but don't worry too much about smut. second part will be smut :)

warning: talk about denial of orgasm, mention of roleplay, spanking

Chapter 11: The Bird Pt. 1

I wrapped my arms around her, fingers caressing her rose tattoo on her hip, my lips on skin of her neck. She circled her palm gently around my shoulder. It relaxed me. Her scent flowed into nose. Her fingers ran through my hair, and I was ready for her to take me once again. My wrists burned and ache, but that was alright.

The bouquet of rose I'd gotten her had shattered like glass, and every little petal was laid around us. A pair of handcuffs laid beside me. I kissed her neck once more, her ear once more. "Happy two year anniversary," I whispered with love.

Belle grinned. "To you too, Snowflake."

"Would you like to eat something?"

"You."

I smirked. "I'm sorry, perhaps, something else besides me?"

Her fingers entwined with mine. "And what do you suggest we eat? It's late."

"I thought I'd cook." I paused. "Diet?"

She shook her head and let herself sit up. "Dear God, no." She laughed with delight. Oh I could never get used to seeing her laugh like this. I raised my eyebrows in curiosity. "Well, alright. You can make us something… I'm surprised you have the energy." My body lightened with pleasure with her fingers caressing my cheek. So warm… So soft…

I leaned into her empty love. "Anything for my mistress." I kissed her palm, taking it in my hand. Her eyes stayed dark, and I knew she was too stunned… Perhaps, still keeping in character. I got out of bed, and put on the collar shirt that had been thrown on the floor.

My eyebrows scrunched from the crinkles. I swear if this got ripped…

I turned to her, my back facing her. The moon shined so beautifully tonight… Illuminating all that was in her room… Exaggerating all her features so gorgeously. I was in ecstasy. Her eyes sparkled as she watched me and I watched her. "Stay here or come out, I'll make something to eat."

Getting out, I found myself standing in front of the fridge, half naked, my hair tousled messily over my shoulder. It was empty. Well, nearly. I sighed to myself. My stomach was angry, and we hadn't even gotten groceries this week.

"That's a given if she's always over at my home…"

"What's a given?"

I turned immediately to see her close behind me, her arms immediately taking my waist. "Hello." I kissed her lips. "There's… no food."

She shrugged. "There's bacon. You can never go wrong with bacon."

What? "I… thought you were vegan."

Belle scoffed, rolling her eyes. Oh. "Who the hell told you that? Jack? He's always pranking you."

How could I be this stupid. My brother would always do this stuff… especially to those close around him. Perhaps, I really didn't know much about him, after all. I turned to the fridge again and grabbed the pack of bacon sitting almost alone. And eggs. "Sorry, my mistake."

"Have you been thinking that the whole time?" Silence. "Is…that why you've been eating salad to accommodate with 'vegan' me?" My face flushed with embarrassment, but I couldn't let her see it. She was laughing. "Snowflake…. Mm…" She kissed my neck. "You're so cute sometimes."

I sighed, prying her arms away from me and got the pan heated. "I've… been quite out of it lately. Sorry, Belle."

"I've noticed." She leaned against the counter, looking at me directly in the eye with her arms crossed. What did she want? She'd been quite… different lately. Perhaps to get my attention but… I was already hers. She held my chin, tilting me to stay with her. "Sometimes… you get me so stressed out. Have you been concentrating in class?"

"Of course I have."

"You're dropping out, aren't you?"

I smiled slightly and turned to grab the oil and let it drizzle on the heated surface. "I've considered." A pause. "No, I'm not dropping."

"Good. Now what's wrong? Are you getting nightmares again?"

How did she know? "I've been taking my pills."

"You didn't answer my question. You know I worry," she responded, taking my arm and squeezed.

"Really, you shouldn't, babe." I cracked two eggs open.

"I'm worried about your health. What that'll…she'll do to you mentally. You've changed so much, Elsa, have you realized that?" The sizzling of the oil was the only sound that surrounded us… But my own voice could be heard. I could tell her everything was alright, but would she believe that? I contemplated. The least I could do was reassure her.

My hand squeezed hers. "You're a little too protective."

"Elsa, Snowflake… It's what I have to do to help you. You know I love you." She sighed. "What you did for her… I'm proud of you, but what you've been given in return for that… you never deserved it. To be this hurt… mentally, physically, emotionally."

"That's okay."

She frowned. "Look at me in the eye and say that again."

I did what I was told. "I'll forgive that."

There was that heavy silence… the way she looked at me, so pitiful and sad… I wondered if I'd made the wrong decision. Again. And again, hurting the one I cared so deeply about. She'd let go of my arm, tears coating her eyes.

"Belle…"

She shook her head, no. I shut my mouth before I could say anything else horrible.

"Sometimes… Elsa, I wonder how blind you've gotten each day… how blind you've become with the thought of her, that you can't even see how much I love you."

Life is different now.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. Tick…

I could hear nothing else, but the sound of my own beating heart, and the clock distracting me from the eerie darkness in the living room. I could see nothing else, but the night sky beyond the glass wall behind me, and the shadows that loomed over me. I could feel nothing else, but a numbing sensation-one that was pleasantly warm that washed over my body. I could taste nothing else, but the taste of her.

I felt peculiarly curious… intrigued, and nothing could satisfy me other than what-who was beyond that hall in front of me. Who was behind that door to our bedroom.

My heart jumped from my chest. And I was bare from any clothes… nothing keeping my delicate flowers covered. I was kneeling down on the ground, for god knows how long. Jesus, I could feel myself getting hot just by over this.

My eyes moved to the ground, placed with a piece of paper.

Strip. Get on your knees. Put that collar on, and stay there until I've come out.

Don't touch. Just feel.

I missed you.

-Elsa

So it was playtime.

And life… had never been this intense ever.

I tightened my fists together, the ring sparkling in front of my sight. I was tempted to get up, as I felt my feet aching for some release for any feelings. But I wouldn't. I couldn't hear anything from the end of the hall, where our bedroom was… but I guess, she wanted me to feel this feeling of anticipation. Oh, was it exhilarating.

The floor had been littered with cash… not sure what she wanted of me, but I had an idea.

I gulped, She'd been doing this quite a lot, recently-making me act like her pet… her very own cat. Oh, but was I not? Not that I was going to complain.

As time passed, I've… grown fond of this idea. And our activities together had gone… somewhat in a different direction.

Elsa was bold, more commanding than ever. But in the end, she'd always been caring.

Click.

My head perked up at the sound.

Her blue eyes glowed, her shirt only loosely buttoned up with her chest peeking out. She had a glass of whiskey in her hand. Oh, what had she been doing behind that door…? I don't want to know.

Elsa leaned against the side of the doorway, nodding to the cash trailing in front of me. "Pick them up, will you?" Her sultry voice left me shivering and obeying. I stayed on the ground, nervously.

Her head tilted. "Don't make me repeat what I've just said. Would you like to be on thin ice this quickly in the night?"

I gulped and began crawling to wherever they were placed. It was hard to see through the dark, but once I've realized there were no more cash, her blue eyes were gone. By now, there were at least two thousand dollars in my hands.

Of course she would throw money like this. I couldn't believe I still wasn't used to this kind of lifestyle… the way she would spoil me, and make me feel like the only woman in the world. Make me feel like hers.

My face felt flushed when I crawled into her office, and she was just sitting behind her desk… watching me. Drinking me in as if I could make her feel this numbness… the warmth in her chest.

I was knelt before her, watching and anticipating every move she made. Oh, she really was trying to test my patiences.

Her eyes were cold, looking into mine. I haven't felt this intimidated for this long…

I felt utterly ridiculous with this collar around my neck and a leash trailing down in front of me. She leaned in and wrapped her hands around the leather string. She pulled, urging me closer to her. I gasped, but I knew I wasn't allowed to disobey.

Elsa's hand palmed my chin, grasping my soul in her hand. I glanced briefly into her eyes… and it was so lustful, so impossibly wanting. The closeness between us made me hold my breath, my heart quickening with every little touch of her finger on my skin. Could I really be this easily seduced?

Well, she is my wife after all.

A very beautiful, control freak of a wife, I reminded myself.

"I have around two thousand dollars in your hand," she whispered… and closer we'd gotten. Her lips brushed against mine. So tenderly, and temptingly… Oh she was teasing me! "You're a good girl…" She brushed her fingers through my hair slowly, letting them fall around my shoulder. My body was growing hot from her touch… perhaps, just her voice and her words were the one that had me spiraling with delight. "Stay like that… and perhaps that will your reward."

Oh I don't need it.

But this was fun, and I'd gladly play along.

She stood up, hand wrapped around the-my leash. I began follow her towards the bed-finding a blindfold laid smackdab in the middle. The mattress sank slightly as she sat down, legs crossed… Gods, if only she wasn't wearing those pants. "Up." She patted on her lap.

I stood, and fell onto her lap, my arms wrapped around her neck. She looked exquisite and so damn excited for some reason. I was always hoping that she'd break her character-yes, sometimes that'd nearly happen-but being the stone cold woman she was, I doubted she'd smile at a time like this. I was vaguely aware of her lips brushing against the skin of my chest.

Her eyes were just too distracting sometimes. I gasped aloud, finding her fingers sending electric shocks down my back with ease. Everything she did, was out of gentleness and care. Her hands suddenly grasped onto my ass.

Rough too. I had to keep that in mind. Unbeknownst to my body-sometimes, I couldn't even figure it out-I began rocking against her lap, my breath staggering for more. I chewed on my lip and I knew she was observing me. Who could ignore those deep blue orbs?

Her lips were soft against my skin… slowly making tough love for me… spoiling my body with every little kisses running up my chest and to my neck. She hummed. I let my eyes fall close, my head against hers. Ah the wintermint scent that embraced her…

My ears grew hot with desire and I felt as if my release was going to come sooner than I thought. No pun intended.

Her nails clawed on my ass, but I'd given no care for it. She was going to say something… Oh, something so…

"You are going to get on all fours, facing the wall. Don't let me hear a word from you until I say otherwise. Moans are encouraged." Wait for it. "I'm going to fuck you until you break… touch you in places where you're going to be tempted to come… and you won't. Understood? Nod."

I groaned at the image of what she could do to me and my body. I nodded.

She let me go-not before giving me a hard smack on my ass. Still in the state of confusion and arousal, I put myself on all fours in the middle of the bed.

"How do you feel…?" she questioned. Darkness surrounded me as she put the blindfold around my head. My heart was pumping, but finding her body laid against mine… it relaxed me. I knew she'd take good care of me.

I bit my lips together, and I hadn't realized how hurriedly I was breathing. I felt her hand cradle my cheek. "Relax…" she whispered. "Talk to me…"

I let out a breath. "I-I feel…" She kissed my shoulder. I felt a slight tug around my neck. Jesus… she must've been pulling on the leash quite tightly. My fists tightened on the blanket, my back arching to feel her palm along my abdomen.

"Tell me, babe…" Oh… babe…

"I feel like I'm in heaven…" I shuddered, goosebumps running down my skin. It was such a rush.

I heard her chuckle lowly in my ear.

"Does it now?" Oh no.

Her warmth disappeared in a blink of an eye from me, leaving me struggling with myself from the cold and the darkness that surrounded my sight. Somehow, I was completely terrified… not because of what she'd do to me… but because she might disappear. "E-Elsa-"

"I'm here…" A finger trailed down my spine, prompting a series of groans from my lips. It was so light… so teasingly, but I wanted more of that sensation. Oh, and she'd give more, no doubt. I quieted down.

Her fingers palmed at my ass, and I was expecting her to give me some sort of punishment. But no pain had occur, as if she was leaving me anticipated… leaving me wanting for her to give me something hard-

I gasped as I felt a hard tug around my collar, tilting my head up. "Did you miss me…?" she whispered. Her fingers ran down my thigh, and I was grasping and gasping to every little touch. I whimpered, feeling her hot breath against my ear. "Babe… I've missed you… so much."

My head was clouded with her touch, and her words didn't even register into me. I nearly let out a scream, finding her palm caressing my hot sex… dripping with arousal. Oh, what could I say? She'd done so many things to me.

"Don't come, Misses Snow… I can feel it." Fuck, it's that talk again!

I bit my lips, holding back everything I could from screaming into pleasure. Her hands were everywhere on my body, and I had never felt this heated before. I gripped onto the blanket hard.

Elsa was breathing against me… and I knew her eyes were stripping me from my innocence as she stared right into my soul. Her body leant against my back. Dear God, I wanted to touch her… I wanted all of her.

"I know what you want, babe…" she whispered. Goosebumps filled my skin, and I arched my back to reach for her.

"Mm…" I finally sighed, loving the way she caressed my sex… desiring more of how her fingers worked. Timidly, I thrusted against her. Her breath was tickling my ear-I haven't heard her breathe this heavily before.

"Tell me… what do you want to do?" She kissed my neck. I grinned, leaning into her warmth. Oh, if only I could see her. Oh, what she does to me…

"W-Weren't you…" She entwined her fingers between mine. I held it tightly. "You were the one who planned all this…"

I could feel her smile against my skin. "Well, I just thought it'd be proper to ask my wife what she wants…"

I trembled. "I've already gotten what I've always wanted." There was this silence for a moment, but I knew it was a comforting silence. I'd hope she would be blushing. Oh, but I doubt it. Elsa, a cold, unbothered, and respected woman, wouldn't let my words get to her-

A gasp fell from my lips when I felt her finger caressing my sensitive bud softly, and rather quickly. I was in heaven…

"Don't. Come," she demanded. She grasped tightly on the leash, tugging me harshly once. It was a warning.

… quickly becoming hell, seems like. I groaned with displeasure-completely unsure if I was voicing it with pleasure. Her body was soft against mine, heatedly feeling me with her love and soul…

"Do you hear me?"

I could just imagine how she was looking at me. "Yes…"

Round and round, she continued to make slow strides around my clit. Inwardly, I begged her to go faster… to take me hard.

"Mmm… Elsa…" I groaned, laying my head against the pillow. I could feel her body sliding down. Oh, this was fine… so very fine.

Suddenly, I earned a playful smack on my bottom. I giggled in delight… this was nothing unusual.

"Elsa?" she questioned, her fingers halting to a stop. My heart dropped, as if it'd gotten iced from the coldness of her voice. It pounded, sinking with intimidation. "I haven't heard you call me that for a long time… I'm surprised you've forgotten that in here… I'm your…"

"Mistress."

"That's right."

Silence. Goodness, I hoped she wouldn't punish me this hard. Last time, I'd been denied several times. Oh, but it was a satisfying punishment in the very end.

Her hand caressed my thigh, and the other still gathering the fluid from my sacred flower. "Stay here."

My body tensed as she left me with the coldness that surrounded me. She silently got off the bed, and I could hear shuffling behind me. What was she doing…? I shouldn't question it. Everything she'd done was either to be expected… or unexpected.

Just as she went away, she came back. I finally found relief with her finger trailing down my back. Perhaps, I really shouldn't be. Just think… what has she done to you?

Something clicked and suddenly, I could hear buzzing… could feel it as she pressed it down my back. Oh, I knew it! I gulped, my heart quickening with every little touch that left me shuddering and twitching.

"Relax."

I couldn't relax with that thing so near to my arousal. And there it was, the little bullet vibrator sending me twitching into the heavens as she pushed it inside me. I gasped, grasping onto the world as if it'd send me spiraling out of my body. And she'd wrapped her arms around my waist, kisses brushing up the small of my back.

"Remember what I've said…?" she whispered. Her palm rested on my breast, thumb caressing my sensitive front, her other taking my chin between her fingers.

I thrusted against her body, her warmth blending lovingly with mine . "Y-Yes!" I took her hand that was against my breast, and squeezed. "Mistress… Yes…"

She kissed the back of my neck, and slowly the little toy was inside me. I shivered in delight, skin tingling from the pleasure. I let out a shuddering moan, but I continued to bite down the rest of it down. I wanted her to make me scream… to make her demand for my screams.

Her thumb was softly pressed against my clit, circling where I didn't need her to be. "I know you, Misses Snow," she whispered, prompting another soft groan to answer her. "I know what you're doing…" Oh, she does!

SMACK!

I gasped loudly at the hard print that she'd made on my ass. "But you are still not allowed to come… not until I tell you to." Her finger was finally circling hard on my clit-and I was completely unsure whether this was a good idea or not. She'd made this so insufferable!

"O-Oh God… Ah… Hnn…" I wouldn't be surprised if my lips are bleeding. I could feel the wetness running down my twitching thighs, and I could barely keep myself up on all fours. My body was tense, growing hotter than this desire. "P-Please…" I begged.

She squeezed my breast hard. "You know very well of the consequence… you don't want that to happen again, don't you?"

What if I do?

My body felt tight, but I wasn't going to allow myself to feel this release I'd yearned for. Oh, I wouldn't want her to have the pleasure to torture me. Oh, it'd please her, alright. And the thought was suddenly unnerving.

"G-Gods…" I cried, letting my body fall against the mattress. She followed, kisses peppering down my back… What the hell is she doing? Her hands followed suit, kisses… trailing between my thighs. Oh my imagination was running wild.

My scalp prickled with anticipation. The light pecks continued… teasing me, almost worshiping my whole slowly. I sighed into my arms as I lifted them up my head. It'd been a habit, and a habit that I willingly continued to do.

She wrapped her fingers around my ass, and I could no longer continue this little play. I moaned loudly-louder, fuck! "O-Oh, Jesus C-Christ-" Quickly, I reached back and grasp on her hair… running my fingers through her fringes.

Her lips were on my clit, sucking without mercy. I could almost feel my eyes roll back from the intensity. "Oh please… E-Elsa…!"

I could feel her playing with the little bullet toy that rested inside of me. How much further is she going to take this?! I couldn't handle it… but she was making me thirst for more. My mouth gaped open, and my body arched against her mouth.

It was… too, too good. Nearly overwhelming.

I'd realized I was holding my breath. With a gasp, I took all the air that I could take in. Her tongue was wondrous-sometimes, I wondered how she could do this. Chills ran down my back. Ah, shit!

She'd smack me again.

I was vaguely aware of what she'd said. Not to come… not to come… I couldn't believe how impossibly long she was going to make me wait! But I was delighted. Her fingers bit into my skin, tongue soothing this pain… the little toy making this feel incredibly exhilarating. I was on cloud nine and in complete hell.

"F-Fuck, baby… ahh…" I cried aloud. "PLEASE! M-Mistress!" I was so incredibly close. I wouldn't be surprised if I faint.

"Come."

Just hearing that word had sent relief over my body and soul. I was screaming, through the teeth clenching release, surrendering… exploding from this soul draining orgasm. I could feel the blankets below me getting wet, and her hand holding my own as if to keep me down from this high. My body twitched with blissfulness, and my wife continued to prolong my orgasm.

She continued to kiss me down there, tongue gathering all she could get. She hummed, and I knew she was satisfied.

I sink down to the mattress. The feeling had numbed and warmed me. I don't ever want to move from this spot. Ever.

The buzzing had stopped. Had she pulled out the bullet? I was almost glad that was over… not that I didn't like it…

She laid close to me now, her arms cradling my waist. "Thank you, babe…" She kissed my neck, unbothered by the sweat.

I closed my eyes for a brief second. "I should be thanking you. Do I get to keep the cash?"

Her giggles sounded. I could never get used to how gleeful she'd sound when she was happy. "We shouldn't need to thank each other…" She wiped a stranded hair behind my ear. "We're married now. And yes, you are more than welcome to keep it."

Gods, was I spoiled.

"Hmm…" I hummed, fingers entwining with hers. I kissed her knuckles. Her ring glittered through the night. "You should take your clothes off."

"I'll be showering in a bit. Come here." I tilted my neck up as she took the collar off.

"More of a reason to take them off, Mrs. Snow… Mistress."

She kissed my hair, taking my body in her arms and cradled me like a baby. "More of a reason for you to come take it with me."

My eyes flew open. "That's… a great idea?"

"Question or a statement?"

I shrugged. I really didn't give two shits. Neither would she, I knew. I turned to my side, looking into her blue eyes. "Doesn't matter. I still have some news to tell you… that I was supposed to tell you before this."

Her eyebrows raised. "Good news, or bad news?"

"Good news, of course."

Smiling her usual soft, small, reserved smile, she laid her arm around my shoulder, my head on her chest. "Do tell." Gods, right now, my heart was pounding… even louder than what I could hear from her chest. Oh, what could I say?

Perhaps, I really was this nervous and excited. I smiled instantly. "I'm… pregnant."

Dead silence for a minute.

And slowly, she pushed me away from her to look at me right in the eyes. Oh no.

"You're… what?"

a/n: i... i can't help but feel bad for belle.

yes there is a part 2 :0 goes with the song, my dudes.