This will cause dismay to some people in my life. Most especially my mother, whose unwavering faith in her God I have great respect for. I’m sure to be ostracized from the church in which I have spent countless Sundays in; some members of which I already consider family. But I can’t keep up the hypocrisy of feigning interest during mass, or praying to a god I no longer believe in. It’s unfair to sacrifice the integrity of my own beliefs for others to have their peace of mind. It's been rather lonely, to feel stifled in my own home.