TRICK OF THE LIGHT?

This website is dedicated to exploring the question of whether the white light reportedly experienced at death is the BEST option or whether it may be a portal to an eventual reincarnation on Earth. It is an essential and logical question to ponder and not intended in any way to generate fear or paranoia. On this site, I will look not only at near death experiences, but also out of body experiences, pre-birth experiences, psychedelic experiences, alien abductions, meditation experiences, mythology and ancient texts. For example, many other transcendental experiencers, including The Tibetan Book of the Dead, reveal that light is just one of the two polarities of duality and that beyond the light exists a "clear" light of awareness beyond time and space, thought and emotion, a peaceful neutrality. It is indescribable, but is both light and dark or neither light nor dark, a type of so-called void which is a misleading misnomer that evokes the image of emptiness because it is nonduality: simulataneously nothing yet everything. It has been likened to a womb or pre-creation containing all potentiality. Why should we elect to go to an external light or authority figure when, as all disciplines suggest, our astral bodies are made of translucid, liquid light and we are connected to everything? And, more importantly, that we are living a dream and we have the power to manifest any reality through our focused Intention! So why would we want to hand over that Sovereignty to another being? And as quantum physics has shown us, there is an infinite energy present in every quantum zero point. This means that Infinity is within us. All we have to do is focus attention inward. From a larger perspective, the white light is an illusion as everything is a part of us and we are a part of everything. The nature of reality is holographic. It is consciousness, awareness. Consciousness manifests what we perceive to be reality.



I have come to regret the name of the site as it seems to generate anxiety in some people. The name was chosen nearly twenty years ago. If I could do it all over again, I would probably choose another name, maybe TranscendTheLight.com. But I do think it is important to investigate topics such as the nature of reality, consciousness or awareness, light and dark, duality and nonduality, and what purpose life on Earth serves. And that is exactly what I respectfully intend to do on this website. I have come to the realization that the light is probably not really tricking us per se. But, rather, as eternal, infinite Spirits we have chosen to forget our true, divine nature and play a game of hide-and-seek, pretending we are not "god". Knowing everything there is know about everything probably gets "boring" after a while, if there is such a thing as boredom for an eternal spirit. After one has manifested every pleasure imaginable for eons, one might like to be surprised from time to time to really understand and appreciate what we truly are. So to do that, we experience in a limited form what we are not. We are, in a sense, tricking ourselves or allowing ourselves to be tricked because we still want to play the game and are not ready yet to wake up.



To alleviate the boredom and to better know thyself, we have split ourselves into a multitude of emanations who are characters or players in a divine drama or cosmic play. A neverending story. Of course, every interesting story needs drama and conflict which is provided by villains. And like every Hollywood movie contains a major twist in the storyline. Could this even be what the white light represents?

Which is more likely: that we are ignorant, blank souls that were created by a capricious god on a whim and need to learn lessons over countless lifetime in an Earthly classroom, or that we have always been infinite, eternal, divine Spirits that choose to have countless experiences in a vastly wide variety of forms and situations? In the first scenario, wouldn't we have already learned these lessons by now since there is an infinite timeline?



IMPORTANT NOTE: I am just an average guy who's a researcher and philosopher. I don't pretend to know the truth. I. DO. NOT. KNOW. what happens after death. No one does for certain. This is just my speculation and opinions. They very well may be wrong. Each person needs to go within and see what resonates as truth.

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We live in a visual world where people feel the need to be stimulated beyond just the intellect. The images and short clips on this site help serve as a much needed levity to bring balance to soften the gravity of the message. They are examples which taken in their entirety help prove the point of the web site that -- whether conscious or unconscious -- there is a push towards us accepting the white light at death and going into it. Whether consciously or unconscioisly, there are those of influence who help to push this agenda and there are those who are doing their best to expose it. Many of the examples I give are from one who are striving to reveal the truth in order to wake others up. The impetus, I believe, comes from the non-physical realm and encompasses all the images and thoughts that enter our conscious and subconscious minds as we live our daily lives. I am a simple man of meager means and cant afford to absorb the cost of litigation. I have never made a penny off the web site nor do I intend to do so.

The clips are intended to help us understand our place in the universe, why we are here, and what happens when we die. I try to use as many sources as i can to corroborate what i am saying. And I feel it is extremely important to show the actual quote from the original source lest someone thinks I am fabricating it or misinterpreting it. I highly encourage everyone to watch the original sources of the clips for a greater context. They are all highly recommended.

I am just striving to wake people up to the nature of our reality and am suggesting what are possibly better alternatives.

However, if anyone is a coyright owner of an image or clip and feels its use is not in accordance with the spirit of fair use, please contact me at waynejbush@protonmail.com and I will promptly remove the clip. Thank you.

Full List of Interviews. The interviews are actually a better source for my research as I include new findings. **

8/15/2020 -- 'Always Be Prepared' Updated 9/15/2020, including some words from my friend who met a Demiurge during his NDE

Most of my articles have focused on the spiritual side of things, but I'd like to focus more on the physical this time. We are living in unprecedented times, a so-called "new normal", fighting an "invisible enemy". The powers that be have been planning this for quite some time now. They are calling it "the great reset". There is a great deal of civil unrest. The Boy Scouts have a motto. "Always be prepared". It might be a very good idea to prepare oneself so you won't be reliant upon your government and FEMA. There is a decent chance there will be food and water shortages as well as power outages.

Let's go over some essential areas of preparedness, including location, food, water, power, light, health, and security. I will keep updating the page if I find any more useful information.

Read the entire article here: 'Always Be Prepared'

7/16/2020, updated 9/12/2020 with another email response and more useful info on preparedness -- WISHCRAFT: Manifesting Reality in the Afterlife

I have previously written articles on Why I Will Choose NOT to go to the white light when I die and on the so-called void of fullness and pure awareness, the cosmic womb of creation. If one chooses not to go to the white light and is not completely satisfied with the fullness and completeness of the nonduality of the so-called void and wishes to manifest a reality, then how should one go about doing that and what realities are possible?

Please send me what reality or world you would Imagine and Intend for yourself in the afterlife at waynejbush@protonmail.com and I just might add it to the article.

Read the entire article here: WISHCRAFT: Manifesting Reality in the Afterlife

6/03/2020 -- GOOD VIBRATIONS: PUTTING A POSITIVE SPIN ON MUSIC

I'm sure everyone can use a little positivity right about now so here is a new article I wrote on the positive power of music.

"The good vibrations of music have the magic power to lift the spirit and soothe the soul. Music affects the emotions. It can make you happy or sad so it improves the mood and even has the power to heal due to its innumerable effects on the cells of the physical body. It can literally change the cells in your body. Music makes people happier and more productive while reducing stress, anxiety and depression. The heart dances with music and allows for improved breathing. People are more generous and trusting. Studies have shown that music improves memory and attention... "

"... During the pandemic crisis, I have at certain stressful times listened to the uplifting, positive, happy music of bands like The Beach Boys or KC & The Sunshine Band, and immediately felt more calm and better. I guess you could say I was "pickin' up good vibrations". With songs like Good Vibrations and Kokomo, the Beach Boys' music can transport your mind to your happy place, whether a sunny beach in southern California or a remote vacation spot off the Florida Keys or in the Caribbean Islands. My previous articles on music have focused primarily on the more negative aspects of music and how it can program us. In this article, I'd like to focus more on music that is positive, or at least pointing out the negative aspects of the world and how to transcend them.

While there are countless beautiful songs professing love and positivity -- songs like Amazing Grace, All You Need is Love, Happy Xmas (War is Over), The Greatest Love of All, I Will Always Love You, What the World Needs Now Is Love, The Man In the Mirror, Heal The World, We Are the World, etc. -- in this article I am going to look at a few other rock bands whose music I resonated with, either because it was positive, spiritual or exposed the hidden truth."

Read the entire article here: GOOD VIBRATIONS: PUTTING A POSITIVE SPIN ON MUSIC

[NEW 5/01/2020] I no longer feel safe so I have removed my article, Vaccine Nation: Is the 1% Dividing the UNITED States To Set Up a New World Order & Global Reset? No one cared about the article anyway so I am not going to put my life on the line any longer. It received a whopping six views in the first three days of this month which is more than the one view for the article I wrote on how to eliminate voter fraud. I guess my ideas are pretty much worthless to people. Ssems like people would prefer mail in voting. I've taken the politics page down as well. After nearly twenty years of effort, it looks as if I have failed at my attempt to wake people up anyway. No one cares. I think my time here is about up.

NEW 5/01/2020 -- Loosh-a-fear Are-Con-Tick Parasites?

Loosh is a term coined by pioneer out of body experiencer Robert Monroe. The concept of loosh has recently been confirmed by remote viewer Skip Atwater. Skip was recently asked about this in an interview with New Dawn magazine. Tony: "You mentioned seemingly unfriendly entities. Robert Monroe wrote about advanced entities milking human beings for a substance that he called 'Loosh'. Loosh appears to be human emotional energy. This seems to tie in quite well with Gnostic writings where humans are milked for Dew, and Sanskrit writings which depict humans feeding Devas or god forms. How literally should writings like that be taken?"

Also, near death experiencer George Ritchie in his book Return from Tomorrow describes entities who live vicariously through us: "I was staring in amazement as the bright cocoon around the unconscious sailor simply opened up. It parted at the very crown of his head and began peeling away from his head, his shoulders. Instantly, quicker than I've ever seen anyone move, one of the insubstantial beings who had been standing near him at the bar was on top of him. He had been hovering like a thirsty shadow at the sailor's side, greedily following every swallow the young man made. Now he seemed to spring at him like a beast of prey.



"In the next instant to my utter mystification, the springing figure had vanished... One minute I'd distinctly seen two individuals; by the time they had propped the sailor against the wall, there was only one..."

Finally, an out of body experiencer with hundreds of OBEs wrote me about the new energy that is coming now, "It's presence is distorting and bringing chaos to a what would otherwise be a harmonious world. But in the past it was hidden. Now it seems to be more obvious. This naked power grab we've seen in the last month. It's trying to crackdown so it can try to hold onto its power. Because the new energy that is hitting the earth is challenging it. And eventually will replace it. When that happens the whole system will fall because it's energetic foundation will have been eroded and eventually replaced...."

He also wrote, "The new energy is getting stronger and stronger. I got a sense of what the world will be like once this system is gone. It's going to be completely different. The old energy is chaos, conflict, fear, etc. The new energy is harmony and peace. I've never experienced anything like it. Not even during OBEs. And that's saying something. Comparing the new energy to the old is like comparing night and day. So I would say eventually all the problems that you see in the world are just going to be gone because this new energy doesn't support that. It also doesn't support division which they use to divide and rule the population All of that is going to go out the window. It could get chaotic between now and then. Because the system is trying to hold onto it's power. But it's basically a sand castle built next to the ocean and it's being battered by the waves. Eventually it will crumble and collapse. And the world will be much better off. The new world is going to be total paradise compared to the old one. It might even give some of the heaven like afterlife worlds I've been to a run for their money. And that is saying something. So it's something to look forward to..."

Read the full article here: Loosh-a-fear Are-Con-Tick Parasites?

NEW 4/21/2020, UPDATED 6/18/2020 -- A NEW VOTING SYSTEM, AMERICA'S NEXT PRESIDENT and "The 1%"

Idea #1: I've done the math on this. The top richest 1% of Americans own 38.6% of America's wealth. The top 5% own 65.1%. The richest 10% of households now represent 70% of all U.S. wealth! The top 1% owns 30% of America. The top 1% as of Q4 2019 owned $36.8 trillion. The top 1% owns an average of $10.5 million.

There are 130 million households so if you taxed the top 1% a one time tax of 30% (which the rest of us have to pay) that would be $85,000 per household. That could probably pay for a very modest condo in a poor part of the country. And those taxed would still own on average $7.5 million.

Idea #2: We could have a television show similar to America's Got Talent or American Idol called America's Next President to find the best candidate for our president. They would be from and for the American people, the average common man!

Idea #3: We CAN eliminate voter fraud and verify the winner of the election. We should record, stream and archive all voting ballots online for the presidential election, but keep the individual voters anonymous, of course, but the vote should be a matter of public record for all to see. We could achieve this by voting in groups of 50 and then send the winner of each group to another group of 50, and so on. Two levels would represent 2500 people. Three levels would represent 125,000. Four levels would represent 6,250,000. (That would cover all counties except for one, I believe, which could have one extra level or be divided into three sections.)

NOTE: I am just an average concerned citizen who is tired of the secrecy, lies and deception in our voting system. This is only meant to be an initial guideline or groundwork to work from and improve upon, not a final plan.

PROS: Eliminates voter fraud and renders it virtually impossible to steal an election by rigged black box computer systems, computer hacking, corrupt counters, hanging chads and votes attributed to dead people etc. so it guarantees we get in office the person(s) we voted for!!!!

CONS: Might not be possible with current social distancing mandates... might require 2 days vs one day: one for voting and one for results.

1. All voter meetings are recorded, streamed and archived via youTube or similar platform for all to verify and review for accuracy at any time. People vote as usual, but on paper ballots. There is never more than 51-61 people at a given time. Actually, less than 51 per group would likely be the norm. Voting takes 5-10 minutes. Ballots are gathered. Then the votes are read off one by one with the voter id announced. Votes are tallied in real time and shown on a large screen for all to see. If 30 seconds per ballot then it would take 25 minutes to go through. If 1 minute per ballot, then 51 minutes max. Winners for that local voter group are shown/announced. Actually, only one voting session needs to be done across the nation. Groups of 51 could even be determined by a time slot that each voter could opt for ahead of time so that voting could still be staggered across the day for voter convenience. The tallying of the next levels up could all be done completely online and the following day, if desired. No real need to drive across town to subsequent locations.

Each voter is given an anonymous voter ID number. No one will know who voted for who other than the person who voted, but all voters will be able to witness the live announcement of each ballot within their group level in order to verify and maintain accountability and integrity of the system. Votes are counted by exponential groups of 51 within each county. The largest county in the USA is Los Angeles County with 9.8 million people. The rest of the top five are Cook County (Chicago) with 5.2 million, Harris (Houston) with 4.1 million, Maricopa (Phoenix) at 3.8 million and San Diego County at 3.1 million. Orange County, California is the only other one with 3 million. If each group of 51 people met at school gymnasiums and church auditoriums, then you would have the following progression:

1st level = up to 51 people meet at 9 a.m. ... ideally, all would meet at the same time, ballots are passed out and voting is done within 5-10 minutes and results are announced ballot by ballot to everyone and recorded and tallied on a large overhead screen that everyone can see (also streamed and archived on youtube for future verification)



2nd level = 51 people representing up to 2601 people (51 x 51) meeting at another designated school or church at 11 a.m. with same procedure as 1st level... each representative reports the winner from their 1st level group



3rd level = 51 people representing up to 132,651 people (51 x 51 x 51) .... at this point could be televised locally on the news or streamed live via the internet at 1 p.m. with same procedure as 2nd level... each representative reports the winner from their 2nd level group



4th level = 51 people representing up to 6,765,201 people (51 x 51 x 51 x 51) at 3 p.m... with same procedure as 3rd level... each representative reports the winner from their 3rd level group

5th level = each county is given a percentage of the state's total number of electoral votes and this could tallied and shown live on television at 5 p.m.

Each county would need to determine its ideal meeting arrangements in terms of numbers of groups meeting and how many per group.

Click here to read the entire proposal and other ideas:



A NEW VOTING SYSTEM, AMERICA'S NEXT PRESIDENT AND "THE 1%"

NEW 4/14/2020 -- The thirteenth episode of the 2011 New Zealand television series I Survived... Beyond and Back featured the near death experiences of several people. All were interesting, but the one with Shelley was yet another confirmation that life is a game that perhaps involves light beings and aliens. I had quoted Shelley before on the website and in an interview or two, but I wasn't aware of the source for the quote until now and it was just the first part of her quote.



Here is the complete text and a few short clips with a brief analysis:

Shelley said, "One minute you're here and the next minute, you're somewhere else. They took me to a room in the sky. And I say 'they' because there was six of them there. There was three beings on the left and three beings on the right. They were dressed in heavy robes. They probably were eight feet high. And I was very much aware that this was not angels and it wasn't the Mother Mary and it wasn't Jesus. These were extraterrestrial beings." There are at least 2 or 3 dozen near death experiences on NDERF.org which mention aliens. Although it is only one percent or so of the total cases, they still may be of major significance. There are at least 2 or 3 dozen near death experiences on NDERF.org which mention aliens. Although it is only one percent or so of the total cases, they still may be of major significance.

translucent liquid light. She continued, "These were extraterrestrial beings. And they took me to a room in the sky. [text on screen: "Shelley's car has flipped off a flooded road into a lake. She and her four year-old son Evan have drowned."] The first man or being pulled his hand out of the robe. The skin looked like it was mercury in glass. It was liquid. And his fingers -- our fingers are like this long -- well, his fingers were like this long. [Shelley illustrates how the fingers were longer than ours.] So the first thing they told me was, 'We are harmony makers and chaos creators. And we're both essential to your experience.' I asked why one person got one experience and another person got another experience. And they said that 'You will get the experience that will most bring you comfort'. So I'm like, 'Cool.' " Shelley's testimony is consistent with other NDE literature that describes astral beings as. She continued, "These were extraterrestrial beings. And they took me to a room in the sky. [text on screen: "Shelley's car has flipped off a flooded road into a lake. She and her four year-old son Evan have drowned."] The first man or being pulled his hand out of the robe. The skin looked like it wasAnd his fingers -- our fingers are like this long -- well, his fingers were like this long. [Shelley illustrates how the fingers were longer than ours.] So the first thing they told me was,' I asked why one person got one experience and another person got another experience. And they said that 'You will get the experience that will most bring you comfort'. So I'm like, 'Cool.' " This is similar to the near death experience of a man I interviewed who on his way back to earth was stopped and confronted by a demiurge. He said this being intervenes in our affairs to maintain a ratio of two-thirds light to darkness. It is also reminiscent of the KJV verse from Isaiah (45:7), "I form the light and create darkness: I make peace and create evil: I the Lord do all these things." On this web site are many references to the false god the Gnostics referred to as demiurge and his ruler minions called archons. This is similar to the near death experience of a man I interviewed who on his way back to earth was stopped and confronted by a demiurge. He said this being intervenes in our affairs to maintain a ratio of two-thirds light to darkness. It is also reminiscent of the KJV verse from Isaiah (45:7), "I form the light: I make peace: I the Lord do all these things." On this web site are many references to the false god the Gnostics referred to as demiurge and his ruler minions called archons.

Shelley goes on to tell how the beings can create the darkness or evil in this game. "On the table was a die. This long finger picked up the die and it did this. (Shelley demonstrates a rolling motion.) And as the die rolled across the table, the land mass that was in the middle changed and it was no longer the Pangaea. It was Nova Scotia, and in particular, there was my road and there I was driving up the road. So I was like, 'Thats my car!' And this being that made the roll -- it took this long finger and it reached it down on the table and went 'ping!' and flicked my car off the road into the lake. "

This is similar to the man I interviewed. His car went off the road as he was driving in a rainstorm and then later encountered a demiurge on his way back to Earth. He was stopped by this being somewhere near the moon.

"The first man or being pulled his hand out of the robe. The skin looked like it was mercury in glass." [text on screen: "Shelley and her four year-old son Evan have drowned after their car flipped into a lake. Shelley's lifeless body has been pulled from the water and a passer-by is performing CPR. Her son is still trapped underwater."] "And now I'm with these big beings with these heavy monks' robes over their heads. And they said, 'We are harmony makers and chaos creators'. The being on the end of the table, the one that flicked the car, leaned this way and as it did, the robe fell away and I could see half of the face. And it was just the most serene, beautiful face. It was liquid metal. It was mercury in a tube. Now, he was a chaos creator. And then the three down the left who are harmony makers took a turn without rolling the die. It just happened like a click. And then each hand physically went whoosh, whoosh, whoosh, but the chaos creator said, 'I am bored with this'. And he swept his hand -- the map changed -- and he swept his hand and a volcano erupted in the southern corner of the board." [text on screen: "Shelley has been dead for 20 minutes. Shelley's rescuer Paddy is still in the icy water looking for other victims."]

"And they've got me in another ambulance. But my blood pressure, my whole body, is ready to explode. And I'm losing it. I'm screaming, 'I killed my baby! I killed my baby! Oh, my god!' ".... See how the rigged event was used to cause Shelley to panic and suffer? These beings feed off these emotions. The other three beings then tell her to have faith. "The three down the left, they said, 'Now's the time to have faith, child. We're sending you back. We're giving you the instructions on how to save your son. You must have faith now.' And I was gone."

So sometimes it seems our lives are but a real life reality television show for the entertainment of extraterrestrials at our expense. A drama with plot, conflict, suffering and a climactic resolution. These aliens almost seemed to be engaged in a game of good cop-bad cop. Duality at play.

Another near death experiencer in the episode, Jake, said: "It was pitch dark and there were like a robotic war episode going on. It felt like maybe they were fighting over my soul." [text on screen: 'Jake has died from a massive heart attack in the ER.']

The show ends on a more positive note as Shelley relates what is almost a universal feature of near death experiences: spiritual transformation and no longer having a fear of death. "I guess my whole life is spiritual. I'm uninterested in day to day things. I don't care about clothes. I don't care about makeup. I don't care about jewelry. But I'm happy now. And I live absolutely fearless knowing that there's just another experience on this other side. The transition when I leave this world and go to the next world is nothing more than a transition."

These types of near death experiences are very rare so I don't intend to leave the impression that this is the norm. But, even though they are rare, they may provide a rare glimpse into just what may be happening here on earth and on the other side.

NEW 3/20/2020 -- I think it is very important to maintain as much of a balanced and moderate perspective as possible during this time of difficulty. While I realize people will be staying abreast of the daily news, I want to stress the importance of staying positive throughout this. Be sure to tap into your creativity. Play happy music. (Pink Floyd, Rush and Yes are my jams.... but.... Call me an old fogie, but during this time I will keep my spirits up by relaxing and mellowing out with fun, happy positive music like THE BEACH BOYS, John Denver, Bob Marley, America, Bread, Jim Croce, Earth, Wind & Fire, The Beatles, Boston, The Eagles, KC & The Sunshine Band, Olivia Newton-John, The Carpenters, Yiruma, and classical music like Mozart and Tchaikovsky, etc.) Create works of art. Write. Dance. Read books on spirituality and philosphy, or even fantasy and science-fiction. Whatever makes you happiest. Do yoga. Meditate! as that will reduce the stress and you help keep you more centered. Build up as healthy an immune system as you can as that will be what fights off a virus.

It is important to spend this time going within yourself and finding your true nature of being. For me, I will be meditating on my heart center and the clear light of awareness and constantly reminding myself that when I die, I will recognize the clear light of the void, my true nature. It is nonduality and beyond space and time, beyond thought and emotion. It is neutrality as it is nothingness and yet everything. Or if the idea of a so-called void doesn't appeal to you, if you wish, you can imagine an all positive realm as your destination. We are only limited by our beLIEf systems and what we have been told is not possible. Perhaps for the imagination, consciousness and awareness, anything and everything is possible, we just need to choose that and "believe" with all our will power.

NEW 3/19/2020 -- I can relate to many Gnostic and Tibetan Buddhist teachings, but I don't consider myself to be of any religion. I think not having confidence in religion, politics, conspiracy theories etc is a true sign of intelligence and wisdom. Belief systems are traps or prisons for the mind and identifying yourself with a label -- whether religious or political -- means you are a follower and not a free thinker. Some of my thoughts may overlap other philosophies, but ultimately I have unqiue prespectives of my own and am constantly re-evaluating everything as I come across new information. I don't identify with labels and do not label myself as right or left, or conservative or liberal. I can usually see both sides of any perspective and would likely be somewhere in the middle.

My position is always one of peace. I think there are better ways to solve situations than anger. I read somehwere that George Noory of Coast to Coat A.M. will be conducting a collective thought intention experiment to heal the situation. If anyone has any information on the date, please let me know. Art Bell did quite a few experiments on Intention. With his audience of millions, they were able to manifest rainfall in areas that were in a drought with no prediction of rain in the forecast. It would rain within hours. The mind is truly amazing especially with many people collectively do it at the same time. Prayer works the same way. Lynne McTaggart (The Intention Experiment, The Field) and Gregg Braden (The Divine Matrix) have talked about the subject extensively and I highly recommend their research.

NEW 3/18/2020 -- Here is an article I was working on before all the coronavirus stuff went down. I apologize for the portions of repetition. I was not finished editing. It still needs some work, but with the way everything has been happening so fast, we may lose internet or electricity. I am a peaceful person and do not advocate physical violence in any way... and I feel fine.

Here is the article: Why I Will Choose Not to Go to the Light. It was going to be an important piece for me and maybe I will be able to eventually finish it one day. For a good summary of where I will choose to go, please see my previous article: THE FINE GAME OF NIL: The So-Called Void of Non-Duality and Pure Awareness -- The Cosmic Womb of Creation

By the way, my web site is set for automatic renewal on May 5 and everything should already be set to seamlessly transition, but if something were to happen, then maybe someone could keep it afloat on JustHost. I will try to send the text of articles to someone for posterity's sake. Be on the look out for some of my material in the New Agora magazine, either online or in print.



So.... "Good morning, and in case I don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and good night!"

NEW 3/17/2020 -- I received this text from my good friend who met a demiurge during his near death experience. I asked him if he thinks this may be the time of darkness that he talked about in our interview and what he thinks we should do during the quarantine.



He wrote, "I am not afraid. My darkness is not something I want to hang onto anyway. If I die, then I might have an opportunity to escape the matrix. If I live, I know leaving grudges behind and singing a joyful song from the heart will separate me from those running to save their own lives.

"Having food, water, herbs and medicine enough to prevent us from taking it from others seems reasonable. But if someone is willing to kill me for mine, then my decision to kill them could cut me off from admission into a changed, better world that is to come that I saw in my NDE. It is better to starve than to kill.

"Who knows how I will really react, but having a no killing of people or pets to survive seems to be a big factor in how things will go for us. There will be those filled with light and joy and those filled with terror.

"What we choose matters. Choosing kindness is its own reward just as choosing terror will also have its reward. We can choose terror and live another day in terror or choose kindness and move on to better playgrounds in other worlds or even to a better world on this planet. Each of us will do what we do."

I don't necessarily think this is the time of darkness that he talked about, but it is good to keep in mind for those of us here in America who have yet to face the quarantine and for any future challenges that might lie ahead.

NEW 3/16/2020 -- A friend of mine wrote this to me:"The mind is very tricky because we are going to create the situations we are imagining and that we believe in.... the heart is the entry door to the Matrix, and the heart is also fighting the brain + stomach (= ego); this is why the Neem and all the anti-parasitic treatments are the perfect allies for the heart because they are killing parasites interfering with the heart’s will and neurons; because the heart also is a brain (it has neurons). The main Matrix’s exit is the heart. So, fears are created to make us “project ourselves outside of ourselves” (if you follow us and our bad English). So those projected fears become nearly all the time our reality. We believe in them so badly. The only way to find peace again when we feel stress is to simply put your hand on your heart and to calm yourself by listening to your own heart bit; and especially the second bit where you can almost feel that you are “vacuumed” inside your heart. And if you train yourself every time you feel stress (by stopping everything you do and putting your hand on your heart), after a few seconds mental calm comes back, and it is the heart’s neurons that are taking over. A it is one lost battle for the ego. And it is a stronger and stronger connection each time with your heart’s neurons. The only thing to do during those times is to concentrate your thoughts on the inside (when stress is present). Because it is our own worms making us worry. The Exit from the Matrix is an individual process. Be convinced that everything will go well. We are on the same train for the Exit. We are very different from others. And we will succeed.



"No falling into any panic for all of us. We know, and when the right time comes, even if it is sooner than later, than we will stop eating. WE DON’T HAVE THE CHOICE BUT TO STAY VERY POSITIVE -- IF NOT WE ARE COMING BACK (sorry, he wanted me to put it in capital letters ☺ ). The more you will « make function » your heart’s neurons, the more you will be confident, optimistic and detached from the scenario."

The heart being the center of the true nature of our being is reiterated again and again in Tibetan Buddhist texts. In Precious Treasury of the Way of Abiding, Longchenpa wrote, ""From the standpoint of enlightenment, the heart essence from which everything arises, there is no duality, and any attempt to quantify things would be endless. Buddhas, ordinary beings, and the universe of appearances and possibilities are evident, yet do not waver from the single nature of phenomena, just as it is. Everything is connected in oneness-the perfection of phenomena. This is the supreme quality of awakened mind. When anything manifests, cut through all conventional exaggeration. All outer phenomena are to be known as the inherent radiance of the nature of mind, empty and nondual, while inner phenomena are nothing other than awareness as such. Within the nature of phenomena, nonexistent as one or many, the realization of a single basic space is revealed to be the key point of awareness."

"With no dualistic perception, in that very moment there is abiding in the heart essence, ultimately meaningful and fundamentally unconditioned."

"Ineffability is shown to be the heart essence of what is ultimately meaningful: In the awakened nature of mind, which can be neither affirmed nor denied,

timeless awareness without dualistic perception abides as a matter of course. In naked awareness, involving no causality, abides the unique sphere that is neither positive nor negative. In unobstructed awareness, without limit or center, the wholly positive enlightened intent of dharmakaya abides as a matter of course. In enlightenment-self-knowing awareness, the heart essence of ineffability- the totally pure and nonreferential intent of victorious ones is clearly evident. The very essence of awareness, which is empty yet lucid and can be neither affirmed nor denied, is beyond the dualism of outer object and inner subject. It is itself free of cause and effect, whether positive or negative; there are no karmic consequences or habitual patterns."

"Because the nature of mind is spontaneously present, the fundamental ground, the heart essence, is encompassed within·awakened mind. "

"Since everything is wholly positive-there is nothing that is not positive- the basic space of the vajra heart essence is the spontaneous presence of everything."

"In awareness, the ultimate heart essence of enlightenment, there is no holding to extreme views, but rather freedom from bias based on characteristics... In enlightened intent there is no occurrence of or involvement with hope or fear, and so there is uninterrupted openness, regardless of what arises. In this naturally arising, unbiased, and unrestricted state- what simply is- there is never a chance of being caught within the cage of reification."

"Openness is revealed to be unbiased, free of dualistic perception. This awakened mind that embraces all phenomena, moreover, is without extreme or bias and is subsumed within supreme openness.... The seal of awakened mind, beyond which no one goes, is timelessly applied through supreme and wholly positive spaciousness, is embraced by the enlightened intent of the guru, protector of beings and spiritual master, and is itself sealed as the ever-awakened state, the vajra heart essence... The decisive experience of openness is the ultimate heart essence... There is no division between inner phenomena arising and being free..."

"Natural openness is the infinite dimension of space. In the ultimate heart essence, with no extreme or bias, there is no framework of view, empowerment, mandala, mantra repetition, levels, paths, samaya, training, or progress. Rather, there is expansive openness in supreme spaciousness."

"Although happiness and suffering manifest, they are within the heart essence of enlightenment, not wavering from a single, naturally occurring timeless awareness."

"The Tantra of Heaped Jewels states: Given ineffable emptiness, the source of phenomena, there is abiding in timelessness within the natural basic space of the supreme secret... The original awakened state in all its timeless immediacy- supreme timeless awareness that does not abide in any specific way- is such that from the very beginning of the ground of being, its mode is one of timeless abiding without deliberate settling. People who reify this as a specific state will come to reify enlightenment- the heart essence of this secret of all buddhas. It is certain that original purity, the natural state of rest, is enlightenment-the heart essence, dharmakaya."



My Buddhist friend sent me yet another great summary of ways to achieve liberation after death, or at least avoid reincarnations and be reborn in the realms of pure forms according to the Mahamudra Tibetian tradition, from Kalu Rinpoche's Luminous Mind: The Way of the Buddha: [at the moment of death:] "When the two principles reabsorb in the heart, the consciousness loses its faculty of knowing. This is the experience of black luminosity, similar to a midnight blue or a dark night. In an ordinary being, the mind sinks into total darkness. At this moment the seven kinds of thought connected with mental dullness or stupidity cease. Any spectacle that might arise in the mind will no longer be considered good or bad. This whole process of dissolution, from the beginning up to the experience of black luminosity, is called the bardo of the moment of death."

"At the end of the dissolution, the clear light, or mind's basic nature, is revealed. All beings have an experience of the clear light, but the ordinary being does not recognize it. But even if it is extremely fleeting and goes unrecognized, this experience of the clear light occurs to every being. On the other hand, if a person has recognized the true nature of mind within his or her lifetime-that is, has realized mahamudra, the mind can recognize the fundamental clear light at this final moment of the bardo of death and, to whatever degree this recognition is stable, can remain absorbed in it. For such a yogi, the daughter clear light, which was experienced during his or her lifetime, and the fundamental mother clear light unite."

NEW 3/15/2020 -- A near death experiencer told me, "At the very beginning of the year, I told everyone that this will be the year of great change unlike anything you have ever seen before... Everything is about to change starting 2020... Things no one has ever seen before will happen. If we make the right choices it could be a beautiful better future. This is the greatest time in the history of all humanity.... I am not worried. Change happens. It’s how we decide to deal with it that matters most."

He explained to me that "garlic and hot sauce is key. It may not work for all immune systems, but it helps go through the flu easier. You can have heavy garlic toast for lunch and spicy cauliflower for dinner." He also emphatically stated to tell loved ones "who smoke daily to immediately stop and switch to the patch as soon as possible. If they have cardiovascular disease due to smoking and are age 40 or older, their living chances without medical respiration will be very hard."

NEW 3/13/2020 -- I plan to sharing what I have with anybody who is in dire need. I think it would be selfish to hoard. Please do not succumb to fear.

My friend who had a near death experience and met a demiurge wrote this to someone telling him there are no spirit beings:

"Everything has a spirit or spirits. They are orbs of mostly gray, but some are brilliant light or white. Psychopaths are rare human spirit orbs that have no light at all in them. Each spirit orb has an influence and feeds surrounding orbs its energy, equivalent to mixing paint buckets. Each orb spirit has nearly invisible mechanical gears (think 'amoeba') that influence their host body (human/corporation/school/church/animal/tree/rock/ car/ broom/ etc... ).

"Everything has an orb of influence that feeds and feeds off of the other orbs. The orbs tend toward absorbing more light than dark (around 2/3 light). While rare, there are more bright light orbs (think auras) than there are solid dark orbs. You know or have met some bright human or perhaps animal whose aura was so bright it made you smile or whose dark energy dragged you down. They do feed and are fed by one another.

"You can see Light or Darkness in people, animals, plants, inanimate objects. But if you believe or not, it doesn’t matter -- If you are kind, compassionate or filled with joy, your light will feed others light. If you are cruel and lack compassion or joy, you will influence others with your darkness. Just because spirits are not physical does not make them nonexistent."

I wonder if concepts or emotions that we call fear, drama, conflict, panic, depression, sadness, lust, greed, anger, hatred, etc are actually spirits (call them demons, archons, shadows, parasites, whatever) but they are spirits just as love, kindness, compassion, peace, joy etc are actual spirits. That must be the case I would think. And you can choose to entertain each of these spirits or not, or allow them to manifest/dwell within your being and grow (or dissipate). And, in reality, based on his description of our "souls" and spirits looking like amoeba with gears, some spirits may just be parasitic in nature.

I am not saying it is only political rhetoric to increase government control. The power of Intention and belief is huge, but I think we need to take this seriously and be prepared.

It can be difficult to be filled with joy especially while Rome is burning all around you (global pandemic). But we must reserve time in our day for activities like meditation or creative aspects like art, music, singing, dancing, writing, taking walks in nature, having a laugh with friends, and helping others.

We have to achieve pure detachment at the end on the events we are going to witness if we want to get out of this matrix. Have peace, calm, understanding of the game, not to get surprised, to remain calm at all cost, and to be ready to "depart" if and when the right time comes, if it comes to that.

NEW 3/10/2020 -- A word on coronavirus.

Besides isolation and washing your hands frequently, the best prevention in my opinion is boosting your immune system which can be done by taking lots of Vitamin D3, Vitamin C, Lion's Mane mushroom capsules, and getting sunlight. Also by eating green vegetables and purple foods that are high in antioxidants. You could also make your own hot sauce with cayenne pepper and garlic.

NEW 3/05/2020 -- I appeared on Judith Kwoba's Nightflight show on Feb 18, 2020. We went in-depth into my article on the archontic parasites and I went over the highlights of the article (literally). The show was a little under two hours. Here is the link for the show: From Archaeon to Archon

You can see article with the most important parts that I highlighted here: From Parasites to Paradise.

NEW 2/12/2020 -- I chatted with R. Wayne Steiger on his live one-hour show. Here's the a link to the show which he entitled Seeing Through the Fugue.



We talked about the coronavirus, parasites and viruses, the god of the Old Testament, the Sumerian tablets, the music industry, Hollywood, the white light of the near death experiences and the so-called void. We will be chatting again on his radio show soon.

1/04/2020

Send me Pre-Birth Experiences, Near Death Experiences, Meditation Experiences, Experiences in the Void, etc.

The synchronicity that exists in my life sometimes is pretty uncanny. I was discussing our human predicament with Marc Gray and a couple of researchers. I wrote, "I do agree there is SOMETHING wrong, (at least from our tiny human perspective)... I think the experiences you guys have had with dreams and being in the void etc are more of what we need to unravel this mystery. I wish there were a web site like nderf.org that had thousands of these type experiences. There is oberf.org which contains pre-birth experiences, OBEs, and "everything else", but it is too limited at this point in time."

Within a couple hours of writing that SOMETHING is wrong and we need more accounts and experiences from pre-birth and the void, etc, I received TWO emails with stories. I don't hardly ever get any at all. And notice how in the first email, she put the word "something" in quotation marks and I had capitalized it.



Email one:



"Hi Wayne,

Hope that all is well. So, I am simply wanting you to know that I have read your information--for many years. I totally believe that "something" is going on here within this life experience.

I have one early memory: I remember rather a full consciousness viewing my surroundings from a baby's body. It felt as though I was inside a "china doll" looking outward. The big memory/feeling though...was one of complete despair. I am 60 years old now, and still recall the feeling of defeat, trickery and disillusionment at "once again" being here. I felt as though I had been tricked into being here. I felt this as I watched a scene (which turned out to be exactly where I was as a baby-my crib at a window) of a woman pulling water out of a well. I felt such despair at being here...I then felt as though a shade was drawn upon me, and I do not recall much more from my early childhood. I have however, thanks be to omnipotence, always remembered this event.

I have nothing to ask of you, and nothing more to share except this story.

Thank you for all that you do, and all that you share. Yours is the first site that I have found that somewhat explains my experience.

Best,"



Email Two:



"Happy New Year WayIn

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Just one other thought about spirit travel upon immediate violent death.

Two personal experiences:

1. One of my best friends was killed in Vietnam along with three others on patrol when one of them stepped on a land mine.

When visiting with his mother sometime after the funeral she said that he communicated with her right after it happened telling her he was dead, ok and not to worry. She told me his communication spirit to her mind happened before the two US Army Servicemen came to give her official Notification which would have been the first time she should become aware of his death.

2. An ex coworker's nephew told me of his NDE when he was declared dead and body bagged by police/paramedics. He was about to go to the light when his dead father pulled him back before he went into the tunnel towards the light. He then went back in his body and made movements that alerted the paramedics to open the body bag and attend to him, thus reviving him enough to make it to the hospital where he was for a few months with multiple surgeries.

Hope all is well.

Max

imum Thanks for your work!!!"

It's interesting that I received two emails with experiences within a couple hours of putting that Intention out there. In order to unravel this mystery of the human condition, we need to more openly share our personal experiences relating to the Void, pre-birth, near-death, meditation, hypnotic regressions, DMT experiences, etc. Where were we before we came to earth? Why did we come here? For entertainment? To know thyself? To explore all the available possibilities? Did we choose to do so or were we somehow tricked or forced to come here? If so, by whom? For what purpose? How can we free ourselves? What happens when we die? Where do we go? Are we in control? Do we have complete free will and total sovereignty? So please, send any experiences you have had where you got a glimpse a reality outside the matrix. You can send them to me at waynejbush @ protonmail . com

UPDATE 2/23/2020 Since posting this request for experiences about a month and a half ago, I have only received a few. But this one is a gem:

"I felt called to share with you an experience I had. My stomach is actually doing flips right now because it’s an extremely deeply personal experience...

When I was a kid, I used to astral project in my sleep on a regular basis. But I had no idea what it even was that I was doing or that there was even a name for it. I had no one to share it with and when I would try, I would get told that I simply had a wild imagination. But then why was I able to recall details of the places o visited then? I went just about everywhere a kid would want to ever go, but for me it was much more about the flying than the visiting.

One day, when I was around 8, I don’t recall exactly how I wound up on the moon, but there I was. As I stood and looked around, I had this feeling that the moon is not a natural part of the solar system and that whatever it is, it isn’t what people think it is. I looked down at the earth. It was then that I experienced what I guess could be called a “download”: this flood of knowledge came to me all at once about just what our reason for life on earth, and how everything could be solved, it was the secret of all secrets. I was amazed and got super excited, thinking that I have just been given the literal key to everything, that it could help everyone so I just HAVE to get back. Just then, I got grabbed from behind by the shoulders and I felt some object get put on me, some energy device I have no idea what. This was all taking place behind my back, I don’t even know who or what grabbed me. As the device engaged, I could feel what I just learned get stripped from me. The only way I could describe it is...do you remember that stupid toy with the funny face with the iron filings and the magnetic wand? The device felt like the magnetic wand and my memories the iron filings. I struggled and fought, but it was no use. I could feel it all get stripped from me and there was nothing I could do about it. I felt like whatever grabbed me thought of me like I was no better than what we think of cockroaches. Then, I don’t know really how this next part makes sense: I was put into this thing that looked like those vacuum tube chutes that you see at banks, but this was vertical. And I was shot back down to earth. I remember hugging myself and sobbing on the way down. It felt WORSE than rape. I know how some rape victims console themselves by saying “he had my body, but he can never have (x) part of me.” No, apparently that’s available for violating, too. Since then, I have never been able to successfully astral project again. I have not only had the same frustratingly stubborn issues in failure to launch, but that it seems no one...and I mean NO ONE, has any clue as to what the issue is let alone how to solve it. Even the so-called experts. Now, if I even get lucky to leave the body, I feel myself reach a point to where it feels like I’m at the end of a tether, I feel a hard “yank” and I get reeled back in no matter what I do. I have tried just about everything, nothing has worked."

Here is a good example of how our Intention can manifest reality from the so-called "void":

"Here is a meditation story for you:

It was summer in Wisconsin and was 11 years old. One afternoon, I decided to do a meditation that involved manipulating my breathing in order to radically lower my heart rate (I think my target was 36 bpm.)

I don’t recall if I was inspired by something I read or if this was another one of my creative experiments aimed at increasing awareness. For example, around this time, I spent an entire afternoon wandering around my family’s two-story farmhouse and the yard with cotton balls and a blindfold over my eyes. I also remember being around the age of five and meditating in full lotus position at my favorite aunt’s house. I got startled out of my meditation when she came into the room, screaming at me: "What the f*ck are you doing? Get up! This is so creepy!” She was clearly freaked out. I think that because I adored her so much, I stopped meditation practices for a while.

Anyway, at some point in my breathing experiment, I felt my consciousness leave my body entirely. The “place” I went to was deep black nothingness — at least for a few moments. I kept focusing on my breath, but I started to get concerned, like I might “lose my mind,” that’s what “I” thought could happen. In order to “ground” my “self” (which I must have equated with my mind), I began adding single-digit numbers. So, imagine that I added 2+2=4. Then, to my utter amazement, the digit sum projected into the blackness as a real, living being in the shape of the number 4. The number appeared a bit cartoonish because it was bright yellow with orange spots and had rounded edges, but it was fully three-dimensional. Actually, it moved and breathed, again, much like an animation but it was definitely alive.

I tried to maintain courage in the face of the possibility that I would totally flip out and not be able to get back into my body, and I added two more numbers: 3+4=7. Same thing happened with the number 7 projecting out into the void, except it was a different color. I think it was bright orange with purple spots that were shaped differently than the spots on 4. It’s like they had their own energy signatures. I remember the numbers 2, 4, and 7. Then I think I stopped, perhaps because I didn’t know what to do with the numbers as they slowly danced around in the abject darkness. I didn’t think, hey, maybe I should talk to them, or anything like that. I was pretty stunned to be “watching” three living, breathing numbers.

Eventually, I brought my consciousness into my body in an unremarkable and gentle way. I never did that experiment again."

And here is another one:

"Hey what's up? I just ran into the demiurge. I had this weird dream. About some chick who was locked up because she would become homicidal if she slept with anyone. Unsurprisingly she got out. And went on a rampage. So I ran back in time like the flash at super speed to stop her before she did anymore damage. Then I was outside talking to some people at night. And I thought she was coming. So I took off flying. This is when it became an OBE. I flew straight up. I tried to wake myself up but couldn't so I just kept flying up. Then I woke up. And I could sense the demiurge in the room with me. I knew that it had concocted that scenario. I'm not sure what it hoped to gain though. This thing is unlike any other entity I've run into. And considering how many entities I've run into that's saying something. It is literal energetic chaos. It's some kind of self aware distortion. It can look human but it's really a disease. My guess is it feeds on energy that is just as distorted as it is. It's minions have been busy trying to memory wipe me in dreams and OBEs this week. They tried to memory wipe me a few days ago and I was tired of it. So I tuned out of the memory wipe so it had no effect on me. They tried three times to memory wipe me but couldn't because I kept tuning out of them. Then I had three OBEs yesterday. All three to a house I used to live in. The first two nothing interesting happened. In the third OBE my parents were there and someone that I kind of know was there. I tried to talk to her but she didn't say much. Then I told her that after death I won't go back to the physical world. Then my mom's voice changed. It got freaky almost demonic. And she said you are going back to the physical world. I told her no and that she couldn't make me. Then I woke up. So for whatever reason these entities really hate me. And now their boss is after me. I've run into greys, reptilians, and now the demiurge itself. As I said the demiurge is unlike anything I have ever seen. And I've seen a lot. But I'll defeat him just as I've defeated his minions. So apparently most of what the gnostics said was true. I'll have to do some research and see if I can learn more about the demiurge. That way I'll be ready for it next time I run into it...

I'm sure it was him. I can sense entities even when they are invisible or in disguise. Also I've run into him before and he looked like an old man with white hair and a white beard. The architect in the matrix is based off him. I remember what his energy was like so I was able to identify him when I ran into him again. I've been able to sense greys and reptillians even they were in disguise. So I'm pretty confident it was the demiurge.

Also whatever he is he is one of the most unique entities I've ever encountered. And I've encountered a lot of them. It's like he is literally energetic chaos. Honestly I'm not surprised he showed up. His minions have been harassing me a lot. They've tried dozens of times to memory wipe me this week. I even ran into an entity in a dream last night that had a handheld version of the white light. Of course I wasn't foolish enough to look at it. So these entities have been trying to mess with me for years. And have been pretty much ineffective. It's no wonder their boss decided to make an appearance so to speak."

That is a very interesting report. The way I tend to think of the demiurge is that he is the creator of this universe and the duality we live in, which includes both positive and negative. So I would describe him as being bipolar. The Gnostics said he was blind and ignorant...ignorant of that fact that he is not god. And that he is delusional. He would delight in striking fear into humans since he did smite them with pestilence and flood. The Gnostics said the god of the Old Testament, Yahweh, was the demiurge. But he would probably enjoy being loved, praised and worshiped as well as feeding off fear. My friend who had an NDE and thinks he met the Demiurge on the way back to Earth said he strives for a 2/3 light to dark ratio.

When it is in its negative mode (as the devil basically), It does probably like chaos since it can use chaos and fear to drive humans to the light-side or "God" to worship.

Distortion or energetic chaos does make sense. My friend described him as being a filter of the light. So maybe it takes the pure energy and distorts some of it so that we have both ying and yang here. The "god" part of the bipolar personality restores order from the chaos that the negative part of the bipolar personality creates. The motto of the illuminati: ordo ab chaos, order out of chaos.

12/24/2019

Email about the U.K. Education System and the White Light of the Near Death Experience

I recently received an email from a friend in the U.K. He writes,



"Just thought I'd fill you in on an interesting little fact. My daughter, who is 11 came home from school the other day and told me they had a lesson that day about death and also reincarnation. The lesson was actually promoting going to the light, can you believe it!? My eldest son (16) then chimed in that he had the same lesson when he was at school. Not sure how old he was, i'll ask him later, but the fact that they have both been given the same lesson and that both lessons included youtube videos, proves that this is part of the education curriculum, as opposed to one teacher's agenda.



There was mention of The scientific version which states there is nothing. Heaven and Hell got a few more minutes of time and the NDE video got the most time. The video was about the experiences of an woman who was involved in a car crash (at a race meeting??) when she was young and whom then had another NDE at an older age when she was having a leg operation. She met god and was asked if she wanted to stay or return back to earth. The woman chose to come back down because her children were young.



I'm being a little bit more cynical about all of this to be honest, for me it's that they are promoting going to the light to children at this moment in time.



Very surprising why they are mentioning it in the blinkin education curriculum. There is nothing about the state run education system in this country that is geared towards assisting or developing the children....sausage meat pink Floyd style. So why the conditioning now? I see no reason not to believe Steve Richards when he says that we are coming to the end of a 144000 year cycle in fact I see more and more evidence to suggest that something really deep is happening on this plane-t, whether it's 'global' catastrophes with fires, volcanoes, extreme weather etc, mental health and suicides going through the roof or the cascade of drugs both legal and illegal being pushed onto society at rates never ever seen before.



Therefore the state educations timing of teaching kids as young as 11 to go to the light imo is literally hoodwinking as many as possible to come back to this prison planet for the start of the next conjunction. You know if ever I see something trending, or becoming fashionable or being put out there by mainstream media or the likes it's always worth digging a bit and asking questions, invariably there is a dodgy angle to it everytime."

Wow, that is quite amazing! I have not heard of this before.

Amazing that they are treating NDEs as reliable and not just hallucinations. Maybe it's a step in the right direction that they are giving credibility to NDEs. 99 per cent of those who go to the light are considered positive. They should also mention negative or hellish ndes and those of the void, but I wouldn't expect them to say not to go to the light at this point in time. I'm surprised NDEs are even getting mentioned at all.



I added some content to the Conqueror Worm article, mostly from a couple BBC shows called First Life and Our Secret Universe: The Hidden Liife of the Cell.



Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, Happy Buddha, Happy Winter Solstice, Happy Holidays, Season's Greetings and a Festivus for the rest of us.

12/12/2019

AS THE CONQUEROR WORM TURNS: FROM ARCHAEON TO ARCHON, FROM PARASITES TO PARADISE

Read the article here:

The Gnostics wrote about archons that parasite our energy. The Chief archon they called the demiurge. He steals our light-power. But in the end he will fail and we shall be triumphant. The truth is that this is all a game we are playing with ourselves. Infinite Awareness has fabricated a multi-player virtual reality game for its own amusement, curiosity or edification. None of it is permanent. It is in a sense just an elaborate, persistent illusion or dream. It is a divine drama, a cosmic play.

The Chief Archon is a delusional false god of this world, a sort of mind and energy parasite. He was depicted as a serpent with the head of a lion, and is sometimes depicted as a worm. Could it be that these titan ancient astronauts came from other dimensions or outer space to seed life here on Earth? Some scientists believe in panspermia and that a virus or microorganisms from outer space seeded and contaminated life here whether from a meterorite or comet. Some scientists believe we crawled out of the ocean and evolved from wriggling worm-like sea creatures. Whether or not that is true, we do in a sense evolve from a worm-like sperm in our mother's womb to eventually become humans. As humans, we have trillions of microorganisms living within our bodies, sometimes as parasites and some in a friendly, symbiotic relationship. Some humans even have intestinal worms. There are things we can take to ameliorate the situation, such as wormwood. When we die, our bodies are devoured by worms. Some near death experiencers travel through a tunnel or wormhole to go into a loving white light, but many are told they must return to earth, in most cases against their will. In mythology, the ouroboros is a serpent or worm that devours its own tail in a circle.

The word 'worm' originally meant 'serpent', dragon, snake'. Was the eating of the fruit a way for a parasite to enter our gut and change the way we think? A literal worm hole. And what better way to infiltrate and influence us -- undetected as microscopic microbes living inside our bodies. They have managed, with stealth, to be invisible to the naked eye for millennia.

Some speculate the viruses actually preceded cellular life as we know it today. What is the full extent of viruses' impact on the evolution of humans and other mammals? Could giant viruses be the origin of life on earth? There are studies where viruses are revealed to be a major driver of human evolution. Other papers argue life did not originate on the planet Earth. "Viruses are one of the dominant life-forms in the oceans and are really driving ocean ecosystems. They have infiltrated every living species in the world, and we are no exception. Each person has a plethora of viruses in them. They have at least four viruses, everyone. Viruses infect each and every one of us, but somehow life continues. Viruses don't really want to kill us, if you see what I mean. It's not much advantage to them if they're replicating in us and suddenly we fall over the table. You know? They can't transmit onto someone else. Every virus has to strike a fine evolutionary balance between being able to replicate successfully and multiplying so much it destroys its host. They're living in a symbiosis of being able to still replicate without destroying their host, because it really doesn't make any sense to kill the home that you need to make more of yourself. What is their role in shaping life on Earth? We may actually be here to support the replication of viruses. "

"In the 1970s scientists discovered a third category of life that was entirely new to science. They called it archaea, meaning 'the ancient ones'. Many scientists believe archaea are the earliest form of life, older even than bacteria. An archaeon is microscopic, looks a bit like a jellyfish, and survives in a place that would kill every other known animal species. They are riddled with viruses. Viruses might have provided the raw material for the development of cellular life and helped drive its diversification into the varied organisms that fill every corner of the planet. Viruslike elements spurred several of the most important stages in the emergence of life: the evolution of DNA, the formation of the first cells, and life's split into three domains—Archaea, bacteria, and eukaryotes."

A protein called “activity regulated cytoskeletal” protein or Arc is essential for memory. “If you take the Arc gene out of mice they don’t remember anything... Arc proteins behave like viruses, “infecting” cells just like real viruses do... Arc is really the intermediate between the environment and the wiring of the brain... Arc seems to have made the jump from virus to animal more than once. The researchers found that Arc genes in humans and other four-limbed creatures seem to be closely related to one another. The Arc genes in fruit flies and worms, however, seem to have arrived separately.. The next step for this research... how Arc arrived in the genome, and exactly what information it's passing between our cells today." Is it just coincidence that the gene is called Arc when the Gnostics called the false rulers 'archons'?

"Most of the cells in your body are not your own, nor are they even human. They are bacterial. Humans are made up of more microbes than human cells." Richard Dawkins writes in The Selfish Gene, "Recently it has been plausibly argued that mitochondria are, in origin, symbiotic bacteria who joined forces with our type of cell very early in evolution... Viruses may be genes who have broken loose from 'colonies' such as ourselves. Viruses consist of pure DNA (or a related self-replicating molecule) surrounded by a protein jacket. They are all parasitic... If the parasitic DNA travels in sperms and eggs, it perhaps forms the 'paradoxical' surplus of DNA." Mitochondria were parasites and may have entered our cells though a parasitic bacterium that used a tail to swim and could survive with almost no oxygen. We share 70% of our genes with a slimy marine worm called an acorn worm. Humanity may have evolved from wriggling sea creatures.

vermis, noun Latin vermis: worm. anatomy A narrow, worm-like structure found in animal brains between the hemispheres of the cerebellum; it is the site of termination of the spinocerebellar pathways that carry subconscious proprioception.

Do the Archons Control Us Through Viruses? It's crazy how much viruses have shaped and continue to drive our evolution, thinking and behavior. The viruses are driving our evolution, the whole nine yards it seems. We have co-evolved with them. They are a part of us. With the discovery that viruses may have preceded and formed human life as well as driven our evolution, and seemingly continues to do so in a symbiotic relationship, one must wonder are viruses helping us or controlling us? 98.5 percent of our DNA is so-called junk DNA which, as of now, has not been known to serve any useful purpose. Knowing that DNA contains instructions, could it be possible that DNA codons (code-on) contain the computer code for our life scripts? And any changes to that script gets updated through viruses?

There is no denying we live every day washing our bodies with soap and water to keep them free from disease. We also rinse off and cook our food. We need to dust to keep our environment clean from germs. We even give our computers anti-virus systems so they'll be bug free. From archaeon to archon. From egg to ego. From cell to self. From gamete to gamer. The gamer enters the game. This all begs the question: can we go from parasites to paradise?

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9/20/2019 -- I appeared on Adam Crabb's show, "The Crazz Files". Here's the a link to the show on YouTube which Adam entitled The Way Through with Wayne Bush



We chatted for a little over an hour about topics relevant to my research. I prepared some brief notes just in case, but didn't use them. The show went well and he wants to have me back on again next month so I'm looking forward to that.

9/02/2019

TOMMY: A ROCK MOVIE ABOUT ENLIGHTENMENT & SALVATION VIA SENSORY DEPRIVATION, ISOLATION & DARKNESS





Watch clips from the movie here: Clips



I hadn't really planned on writing an article this month, but after my darkness retreat I remembered the movie Tommy centered on enlightenment and salvation while touching upon the theme of isolation through sensory deprivation and darkness. So I rewatched the movie again and threw a quick piece together. Most of the first half of the movie is pretty awful and contains some sick and twisted scenes as Tommy is being abused by his parents and extended family. But once the mirror is smashed (representing Tommy's ego?) and Tommy becomes enlightened, the movie is very interesting.

The movie Tommy was based upon the 1969 album and rock opera, Tommy, by the iconic rock band, The Who. Tommy is a 1975 Columbia Pictures movie about the spiritual journey of a disabled boy and his liberation from darkness into light via sensory deprivation. It stars the members of the band, The Who. Lead singer Roger Daltrey plays the lead role of Tommy. The movie also includes roles played by other famous rock stars, including Elton John, Eric Clapton and Tina Turner. The movie also features actress Ann Marget as Tommy's mother and actor Jack Nicholson as a doctor.

The sun and moon are prominent symbols in the movie Tommy. The opening and ending frames feature the setting and rising of the sun, respectively. Tommy's mother, played by Ann Margret, is constantly shown with Venus and lunar symbolism. For example, one scene shows her in an all white room, in a white sequined dress and covered in white furs, Venus in Furs. Like Aphrodite, she is sitting in front of an eight-pointed mirror. There is a half-chair symbolizing the moon and Venus on a half shell. The mirror resembles what is known as a moongate. There is even a Venus de Milo statue.

Tommy yearns to see himself by constantly looking into a mirror, but only sees his reflection, not his true self. He ostensibly attains salvation from suffering through darkness and sensory deprivation. But ultimately he is liberated when his mother throws him through a mirror which smashes the mirror. But was he really liberated since he became a new messiah and started his own religion? His family became greedy and made a lot of money off fleecing the sheep. At first his disciples worshiped Tommy as a messiah but it wasn't until they grew discontent following a religion with an external authority that he began to enlighten and liberate others by teaching his intuitive method of looking within using sensory deprivation techniques. He showed them how to intuitively play the game of pinball, a metaphor for life, by giving them earplugs, shades (sunglasses) and corks for their mouths.

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TOMMY: A ROCK MUSICAL ABOUT ENLIGHTENMENT & SALVATION VIA SENSORY DEPRIVATION, ISOLATION, & DARKNESS

Update on Darkness Meditation Retreat

I participated in a self-imposed, do-it-yourself 8-10 day darkness retreat. I did not travel to Thailand or Guatemala. I tried to do it from my own home using a "Mindfold" blindfold that shuts out all light. However, in retrospect, I would not recommend using a blindfold.

From the book Darkness Technology: Darkness Techniques for Enlightenment by Mantak Chia: "All spiritual traditions have used Darkness Techniques in the pursuit of enlightenment. In Europe, the dark room often appeared in underground form as a network of tunnels, in Egypt as the Pyramids, in Rome as the catacombs, and by the Essenes, near the Dead Sea in Israel, as caves. In the Taoist tradition caves have been used throughout the ages for higher level practices. In the Tao, the cave, the Immortal Mountain, the Wu San, represents the Perfect Inner Alchemy Chamber. Meditating and fasting in the cave is the final journey of spiritual work. The caves are the Earth Mother and its energy lines. Like the hollow bones, caves contain the earliest information of life stored inside the Earth. Caves contain the vital essence of the Earth Power. The Tao says: ‘When you go into the dark and this becomes total, the Darkness soon turns into light.’ In the Darkness, our mind and soul begin to wander freely in the vast realms of psychic and spiritual experience. When you enter this primordial state or force you are reunited with the true self and divinity within. You literally ‘conduct’ the universal energy. You may see into the past and future, understand the true meaning of existence, and begin to understand the order of things. You return to the womb, the cocoon of our material structure and Nature’s original Darkness. Complete darkness profoundly changes the sensory sensibilities of the body/brain. We are deprived of all visual reference. Sounds begin to fall away as we lose contact with the external world and turn the senses inward. The effect of darkness is to shut down major cortical centers in the brain, depressing mental and cognitive functions in the higher brain centers. Emotional and feeling states are enhanced, especially the sense of smell and the finer senses of psychic perception. Dreams become more lucid, and the dream state manifests in our conscious awareness. Eventually, we awaken within ourselves the awareness of the Source, the spirit, the soul. We descend into the void, into the darkness of deep, inner space. The light appears..."

As for the darkness experiment I was just curious to know what it would be like to be in darkness to prepare myself for what it might be like initially at death. Even though you aren't doing anything, the meditation can be pretty demanding. It's encouraged to be without electronics and to be off the grid without electrosmog, but I don't want to spend that kind of money and thought just being in the dark would release the chemicals. I had to regroup after a day so I could prepare better for it. I did several things to make the time more comfortable for me and easier. Even though I had an alarm set for once a day so I could know what day it was, I wanted to know what time it was so I set up my cell phone so I could audibly ask. It helped to know.

I also tried using the mask with my eyes open during the day which I came to regret. My eye sockets began to ache some. Also I was listening to youTube talks like John Cleese reading The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying and Richard Gere reading The Tibetan Book of the Dead. The concentration of listening gave me a headache.So I made a playlist of light-hearted music and music I enjoyed. I tried listening to a classical music station, but got a bit bored from it after a while.I had to stop again because one of my eyes started hurting -- probably from the strain of trying to see in the dark (and maybe because it wasn't getting enough oxygen?). So I took another time off. Once I decided to keep my eyes closed it helped a lot. The mask was a bit heavy resting on my nose so I started using a $1 black bandana or black shirt over my eyes, alternating. In retrospect, I think it would have been worth the effort to use some black plastic sheeting or light-blocking curtain to cover the windows so that no cover for the eyes would be necessary. One could use a bathroom (a walk-in closet has no ventilation and can get hot), but it's a tight fit and not too comfortable even with a mattress. i did have a few very vivid dreams. In one of them I saw a bright light and thought I had messed up, but then realized I was dreaming and still had my eyes covered. I'm not sure I would recommend the practice. I wasn't able to go more than 2-3 days at a time. I might try it sometime later when my eyes have rested up. But it is not something to take lightly.

More from the book by Mantak Chia:

"The Darkness enables the body and mind to undergo a series of profound transformations. The ‘states of consciousness’ appear correlated with the organic synthesis and accumulation of psychedelic chemicals in the brain, especially melatonin (Days 1 to 3), pinoline (Days 3 to 5), 5-MeO-DMT (Days 6 to 8), and DMT (Days 9 to 12). The pharmacology of these states is as follows.

" ‘Melatonin Stage’ (Day 1 to 3) Complete isolation from external light causes the pineal gland to flood the brain with the neurotransmitter melatonin (average 2 to 5mg/day), manifesting initially as the need for sleep and rest. The eyes recuperate from the over-stimulation of the visual world, releasing the grip of mental concerns, plans, agendas, and letting the energies settle. Melatonin is essential for maintaining the hibernation state, which facilitates the emergence of spiritual consciousness. The person retains a child-like biological condition where melatonin is conserved and recycled, not wasted in biological continuation. When this substance works together with the yellow marrow in the bone, the reddish firing reaction will activate a gentle interaction between the sacred water and the light. The sacred waters are the inner fluids that are responsible for producing bone marrow and other bodily fluids. The waters run not only in the center of the bones, but also in the spinal connections between the Crown and Perineum Points.



" ‘Pinoline Stage’ (Day 3 to 5) After about three days, when melatonin concentration reaches sufficient levels (15 to 20 mg) the body then begins to produce the superconductor pinoline, whereby a greater fluidity of thought and healing of the body starts to occur. Pinoline induces cell replication (mitosis) and intercalates with DNA molecules. The ‘pinoline stage’ is normally activated only in the womb, in lucid dreaming, or in near death experiences. Within this state we can metaprogram the brain to the Unity of Self, heightening awareness of the pathways with which we filter reality. At this stage, the nervous system becomes aware of itself. We become aware of the hologram of the external world that we create constantly in our head.



"When the pinoline is triggered you activate your clairsentient and clairaudient powers. You may see light and visions, hear music, and gain phenomenal insight. A decoding of the DNA then begins to take place. Cosmic particles are attracted to us and decoded in the form of sound, light, knowledge and realization. The particles, which have the same cell structures as humans (and from which the Tao believes you evolved), are attracted to you magnetically. The body has approximately six trillion cells, which correspond to the universe ‘without’. Each of these cells can be seen as a computer with unlimited power and potential. Each cell can become a super conductor, able to receive information from space. You are able to decode this universal information carried from outer space, which may be as old as nothingness itself. When you enter this primordial state or force you are reunited with the true self and divinity within. You literally ‘conduct’ the universal energy. You may see into the past and future, understand the true meaning of existence, and begin to understand the order of things. You return to the womb, the cocoon of our material structure and Nature’s original Darkness.

" ‘5-MeO-DMT Stage’ (Day 6 to 8) At this stage the pineal gland starts to produce the neuro-hormone 5-MeO-DMT (aka ‘akashon’). This psychoactive tryptamine is highly luminescent and also extremely phosphorescent due to the amount of phosphene that it transmits onto the visual cortex. 5-MeO-DMT switches on 40% more of the cerebral cortex and awakens the nervous system to become aware of itself; ‘beingness’ results. Hence,the possibility of metaprogramming the nervous system’s bio-computer - activating healing and conflict message assortment of the nervous system. 5-MeO-DMT is the empathogenic neurotransmitter that expands the emotional body between ‘infinity and zero’. It gives rise to telepathy in the emotional and intuitive bodies. It engages the awakening of the ‘Flower of Life’, the spine, which begins to glow in a state of beingness and peace. 5-Meo-DMT discharges the Darkness from the Darkness. A bright light is activated and one experiences a born-again mentality."

I'm not sure how much of this is true. Much of it may be exaggerated and intended to encourage tourism to their garden getaway, but it sounds like an interesting and hopefully worthwhile experiment to conduct on my own from home.

NEW: 8/10/2019 -- I did another interview with Judith Kwoba on her show Nightflight. We discussed my latest article, The Fine Game of Nil: The So-called Void of Non-Duality and Pure Awareness -- The Cosmic Womb of Creation . Here is a link to the YouTube webcast of the show: The Fine Game of NIL. These were the highlighted notes I prepared for the show, but never had to use since we were enagaged in discussion: SHOW NOTES.

STICKY: 5/10/2019 -- I was interviewed again by Judith Kwoba. Topics of discussions were: 1. How We Know That We Don't Want To Come Back Here, 2. The Fooling via Religions and all the Various Deities and 3. Leaving the Matrix Game. Here is the link to the show on YouTube: NIGHT FLIGHT ... Here are some notes I prepared for the show: SHOW NOTES.

STICKY: 3/09/2019 -- I appeared on Judith Kwoba's show Nightflight which is broadcast from Germany. I shared my screen and took viewers on a journey of most of my web site. I also covered some of my latest research into the connection between the nature god of the forest Pan (who some associate with the Devil) and his connection to the pied piper and the wind song of the call of the siren which has been mentioned in popular books, movies and music.

Here is the link to the podcast: Archons & The False Light Agenda

STICKY : 12/15/2018 -- I shared important, critical new research with Adam Crabb on his Podcast, "The Crazz Files".

Here is the link to the podcast: NDEs in the Void & The Clear Light of Awareness

The main topic was NDEs in the Void & The "Clear Light" of Awareness. If we choose not to go to the white light, then where should we go? What should we do?

Here is the link to the podcast notes for the show: Podcast Notes **

7/31/2019

THE FINE GAME OF NIL: The So-Called Void of Non-Duality and Pure Awareness -- The Cosmic Womb of Creation

THE FINE GAME OF NIL: The So-Called Void of Non-Duality and Pure Awareness -- The Cosmic Womb of Creation

This is the most important article I have written since I started this web site a short time after the turn of the millennium. People constantly ask if we don't go to the light, then should we just stay in the darkness? It is important to understand that Light and Dark are dualistic terms. You can't have one without the other. In fact, pure, unreflected light is actually perceived as darkness. For any action there is an equal and opposite reaction. So if one decides to go to the "loving", "good" "light", then how long can one stay there before the inevitable oscillation or opposite reaction must occur? And does an opposite realm of relative dimness or darkness have to exist in order to maintain this "positive" light? Is a hell-like realm of darkness necessary where beings suffer? Welcome to earth. Near death experiencers routinely report being forced to come back to earth against their free will on an undisclosed "mission" they have yet to fulfill and, therefore, it is "not yet their time". Most are sent back against their will or coaxed into doing so. Some say they were given a choice, but how do we know they wouldn't have been forced to come back had they chosen to stay? In this world when someone is forced to do something against their will, it is a crime. If we take money against their will, it is stealing or robbery. If we take sex against their will, it is rape. If we take a life against their will, it is murder. But somehow this being of light gets a free pass as being loving? Love is also a verb, an action. We should look at the actions. There are cases where the light beings impersonate religious figures. There was one case where the near death spirit had to ask "Are you really the Virgin Mary?" before it showed it's "true" idenitity. Some would call this lying or being deceptive.



Is there a viable alternative to going to the white light? Yes, there is. There are actually many viable alternatives. Between the two poles of a bar magnet -- positive and negative -- lies a "neutral point" or "null zone", a center where the charge is neutral, balanced. This is the knowledge of the "null edge". Many near death experiencers have also reported being in a realm that they described as a "void". But the word "void" is a misleading misnomer because this so-called void is actually everything at the same time. It is non-duality. It is outside of time and space. Beyond good and evil. It is impossible to put into words.

IMPORTANT NOTE: I realize that publishing any information contrary to the white light scenario that near death experiencers report can, in some cases, lead to people reacting in a fearful manner. This is not my intention at all. There is no reason to be afraid. Sometimes I wish I had not used the word 'tricked' in my web site domain name. We are really just tricking ourselves while we play this game of hide and seek with ourselves. So I am just saying there may be an even better option available than going to the white light which may still be part of this game of duality and polarity. It doesn't hurt to have as much information as possible to help in that choice. Even if I am right, going to the light in a typical worst-case scenario would mean, after an indefinite period of feeling blissful love, reincarnating on Earth again and again until one awakens and is liberated. Many religions such as Hinduism, Buddhism, and Gnosticism already teach the need for liberation from the cycle of the illusions of this world. And, if I am wrong, one can always go to the light if one wishes to do so. However, I don't think that is necessary -- we have the light within us. No need to look outward for external authority figures. When one "seeks" 'truth' or 'God', one is, by definition, manifesting an illusory division between yourself and that which you "seek".

In this article I provide exemplary excerpts from over a couple dozen near death experiences in the so-called void as what may be possible if one does not react in a fearful manner, and also a link to a larger repository of near death experiences in the void -- nearly two hundred, including some 'negative' experiences -- which I also included in the notes of my December, 2018 interview with Adam Crabb. I also look at how the so-called Void is described in many ancient texts as existing before the creation of the universe and matter and is also described by quantum physicists as the Zero Point Field. The article has sections on NDEs; John Lear; Whitley Strieber; Sumerian texts; the Egyptian ogdoad; Hindu texts; The Bible; the Kabbalah; Gnosticism; Esoteric teachings and secret societies; Taoism; Buddhism; Philosophy; Science/Quantum physics; Psychology; OBEs; and exercises on how to recognize the clear light of pure awareness so you won't be fooled by the illusions of external projections at death.

Some quotes from NDEs in the Void:

"the Void is less than nothing, yet more than everything that is! The Void is absolute zero; chaos forming all possibilities. It is Absolute Consciousness... pre-creation, before the Big Bang."



"it didn't have an environment, no sense of light, no sense of sound... 'pure neutrality'...It wasn't into the light, it wasn't into the darkness"



"vast void that was both dark and light. It was silent and still, strange but peaceful"



"I noticed how everything came to be. There was nothing in the void. All of a sudden, the light was created from the void... I became everything and everyone. "



"EVERYTHING was ''known'' to me, but that there was NOTHING at all. It was like being a part of absolutely everything at once,... A glimpse into both everything and nothing"



"I entered the void-darkness-abyss. It was everything, yet nothing. It felt as if it were raw un-manifested energy... I felt in balance between the two."



" if forever were to be an instant or a thousand years was immaterial and irrelevant. I felt, 'Abide with me, here, now, for I am at peace, and we are one'."



"... no Time, and existence is purely Being...When I die, if this is what I will feel for all eternity, I await it."



"void. It was neither dark nor light...just nothingness... No thoughts. No Emotions. Within me was complete emptiness; I seemed to be completely free."



"I dared not think about anything because that would have meant that I would have manifested out of total awareness and bliss. Being in this state was beyond bliss, you want to stay there and not do anything to disturb it."



"I found myself in a black void completely at peace... no pain, no worries, no sense of self, it was fantastic... "



"highly conscious in a dark void, but I was not afraid... apparently the Buddhists call this the Bardo."



"pitch-black void, with me glowing softly within it. I felt complete relief, love, warmth, security, acceptance...I was able to surrender to this darkness without fear. "



" It amazes me that a dark space, void of people, and being all alone, was the most beautiful loving experience I could ever have... "



"It was a void, darkness but yet I felt it contained all light at the same time.. I was where I belonged, where I came from. It was perfect."



"Upon realizing the truth contained in the 'Tibetan Book of the Dead' (which I had not read before having my NDE) I adopted the doctrine of Vajrayana Buddhism, swore a bodhisattvas vow, and dedicated my life to the benefit of All. This is because the experience I had matched the description of the passing through the bardo of death described in the 'Tibetan Book of the Dead'."



"Everything seemed to be coming or existing from the same complete source that I seemed to be a part of now. "



"completion. It was perfecting the harmony in which I was part of now. It was as if my being had become a vacuum, opening up, allowing everything that ever was, or was to ever be, inside... I was complete; I was what I believe was the highest existence of peace that could ever be, for my mind was silent and I was simply being, and nothing more. I was a part of everything that ever was and with that I had no expectations nor thought, I was existing within everything and had no form or shape, just a complete perfect state of being."



"Calm, peaceful knowing. I was happier there in the void than I'd ever been on this planet. There was assurance, wonder, and almost a bliss. "



"I didn't exist, actually. I was aware that I existed only as a thought.. it was neither black nor light; it was perhaps a void... I was not afraid; everything was peaceful beyond understanding."



"Darkness is just a word to describe the “void” (of possibility, lack of limitation, complete wholeness)....“natural wholeness” or “sky-like essence"



"it was neutral. It felt like I was there a very long time: or, in a timeless type of way. It felt like I'd always been here and would always be here... it seemed I was in there (seemed I was dead) for forever. It's like I could have been in that void for eons and eons and eons. "



"All I could see was darkness with a void of light, so it was like black and white, except the white was strangely illuminated."



"darkness that wasn't darkness, a void that wasn't a void but was everything and everywhere all at once... most amazing, profound, deep experience"



"I felt unity with everyone and everything... it was the most beautiful thing that could have ever happened to me - the happiest day of my entire existence... I felt were pure joy, ecstasy and bliss "



"The darkness was so heavy it was like tar, like a void, complete lack of creativity; the Great Nothing in Never Ending Story, a space of indifference."



"a void, or place that was neither light nor dark, of no dimension, or infinite dimension and form....no-dimension."

"Keen understanding that I was "in" what the Buddhist call The Void. A no place where there is no such thing as time."

"... in that space between a physical body that had already been left behind in another dimension and a void, which I perceived as a black empty space... now free from the illusion, returned to where I have always belonged: to the huge Ocean of Luminous Consciousness whom we call God."



White light NDE: "I asked if God was the light, and the answer was: 'No, God is not the light. The light is what happens when God breathes.' "

Sumerian: "Learn to see beyond appearances, my firstborn, to reach out for the True Essency, learn to reach out to the Source where yourself came from, the Union of all Opposites, The Holy Complementarity that was lost.' "

Hindu: "Brahman is Life, Brahman is Joy, Brahman is the Void. Joy, verily that is the same as the Void, The Void, verily that is the same as Joy."

Bible: "In the beginning 'Elohim' created the heaven and earth. And the earth was without form,