NOT a day passes when Allyson McConnell doesn't mourn the young sons she drowned in the bath.

Speaking for the first time of her overwhelming torment and grief, she denied being a bad mother and also refused to rule out the possibility of having more children.

Ms McConnell was released from a Canadian jail and deported to Australia on April 10 after serving just 10 months of a six-year sentence for the manslaughter of Connor, 2, and Jayden, 10 months.

Her husband Curtis McConnell found his two sons floating in the bathtub three days later with his former wife's wedding ring sitting on the toilet seat of their Alberta home, in 2010.

But last week, as she helped her elderly mother tend the garden of their home in Gosford on the Central Coast, Ms McConnell, 34, claimed she was also a victim.

"There have been a lot of things written about me being a bad mother," she said.

"I wasn't a bad mother, I was actually a very loving mother. But you never hear about that.

"At the moment I'm just trying to get over what has happened. It's been as upsetting for me as much as everyone else involved. I think about them every single day."

Asked if she would like more children in the future, Ms McConnell said: "I wouldn't say no."

Ms McConnell's love affair began like a fairytale. She left Australia in early 2006 and met Canadian Curtis McConnell while working at a ski resort in British Columbia later that year.

The newlyweds moved to Alberta and they had had two sons. But a trial heard how the McConnell's marriage had broken down in 2009 and Mr McConnell moved out of the family home, filing for divorce.

A judge then ordered Ms McConnell could not take her sons back to Australia.

After pleading guilty to manslaughter, the court found she was suffering psychological issues and there was reasonable doubt she had the specific intent to kill Connor and Jayden. After the murders the court heard she tried to commit suicide by jumping off a bridge. With credits for time served, she spent only 10 months in the psychiatric ward of Alberta Hospital before being released.

But Canadian authorities are outraged at the leniency shown. With Alberta Justice Minister Jonathan Denis and prosecutors lodging appeals against her sentence and vowing to seek her extradition if they are successful, Ms McConnell is reluctant to talk in detail about the case. Her estranged husband said his family was "ashamed" of Canada's legal system.

Ms McConnell's mother Helen Meager has steadfastly supported McConnell and flew to Canada when she was released to escort her home. She said her daughter had a long road ahead of her.

"I don't think people realise this has had a serious effect on her too," Ms Meager said.

"She's not well and we still have the appeal to get through. Right now we want to get her better, and settled."