A New York City police officer charged in a plot to kidnap, rape, cook and eat women wrote in February that he was planning to get “some girl meat” for Thanksgiving, prosecutors revealed in court on Tuesday.

“It’s a long way off but I am getting the plan in motion now,” the officer, Gilberto Valle, was quoted as saying.

During the hearing, in Federal District Court in Manhattan, a judge refused to grant the officer bail, saying his conduct had been “depraved, bizarre, aberrational” and entirely unexplained, “particularly for someone who is a law enforcement officer.”

Officer Valle was arrested last month in a case that has been seen as one of the most disturbing and unusual involving a police officer.