So, I’m still struggling with my kin identity. Most of the sense that I’ve had, between my physical feelings, my astral experience and my dreams, had lead me towards seeing myself as, most likely, demonkin. But I’m not one hundred percent sure it feels right, partially just because, for all my love of dark things and wickedness and dark beauty and *rampant list of dirty dirty sex stuff*, I’m very double-sided, because I also have a friendly and outgoing side that’s pretty sweet.

I’m not stereotyping demonkin at all (how could I, I’ve yet to really get to talk to any), it’s just that I don’t know if I’d fit in. I feel like a misfit, and I think that’s a deep part of my true self as well, that I’ve always been outcast.

I’ve had it suggested that all my confusion and mingled feelings and experiences might indicate I’m multi-kin, which is an intriguing idea, even if I don’t fully understand how that works. Sigh.

Again, I’m just kind of venting and whining. Don’t mind me. I just have to let it out every now and then. Le sigh.