The long story short: I had a tulpa. Her name was Adia. She was a three month long gem in my life. She dissipated. The Jade System is her legacy.

My partner introduced me to Tulpamancy.

But after a couple months, things turned ugly.

The straw that broke the camel's back

THE JADE SYSTEM

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I of course was skeptical, as anyone first trying it out is. But I soon came to relish the thought. The thought of a constant companion elated me. So I created Adia.Adia was born on February 5, 2018, and the second she was brought about she was an incredibly fast developer. Not even a week into forcing she became vocal, and a little less than two months later we had already gotten the basics of possession down. I was always so proud of her. And she was such a wonderful, cheery person. I hadn't forced any personality traits, she just came about like that. Anytime I would call on her, there would always be this sunny "Hi Jars!!" in my head. She found community on Reddit and made a few friends on Discord, always brightening other tulpas' days as well. Everything she touched (metaphorically speaking) became happy.She had hobbies that included painting, singing with me, and occasionally sewing. Her first painting was a couple weeks after she became vocal, it was her first possession in Wonderland: a penguin. This became her favourite animal. We also enjoyed doing children's coloring pages on our tablet. She had a cat, too. A sweet little thing that she said would sleep with her every night.Our favourite thing to do though was play Pokemon together. When we initially created our game, it gave us the option of naming our character. My name being Jars and hers being Adia, she had the idea of mashing our names together into the name Jade.Adia always wanted to be "real," that is, she wanted to master switching and become the front for equal amounts of time as me. She would talk about all the friends she would make, about maybe even finding a boyfriend, about sex, all kinds of things. She didn't want to retreat all the time. She wanted to experience life the same way I did. And I was elated by her wanting to do this. It meant that I could spend some time in Wonderland on my own, away from reality, sitting on the backburner and relaxing.But then I got a job after months of being unemployed. I didn't have quite as much time to spend with her and to work on taking steps toward switching. I did my best, but it wasn't ever enough. If we weren't actively progressing, she wasn't happy. This once positive and upbeat person became depressed and sad constantly.After a few weeks she wouldn't respond hardly at all, unless I addressed her specifically. She would come out of hiding for a minute if I sang to her, but for the most part she would hang back and mope. When I spent time in Wonderland she would lock herself in her room. It became a miserable environment, for her and for me.About a month ago I decided to become a Buddhist. I knew that tulpas were a Buddhist concept (I didknow that the closest things Buddhists actually have to tulpas is servitors and how strongly most Buddhists feel against tulpas), so I asked about it online. The amount of disdain and borderline-hatred I was met with was outrageous. The second Adia saw all this she shut down nearly completely. It was devastating, for both of us. My belief in her never strayed for a second, but she stopped believing in herself. Anytime I tried to talk to her at all she would tell me to go away, saying she wasn't real, that I was talking to myself, basically shutting down.A few weeks passed and after a few online searches and a lot of deliberation she finally decided she didn't want to exist anymore. She wanted to be dissipated.I fought long and hard with her, forcing during every free moment to restore the person she once was, but she was set in her decision. This is what she wanted. So I begrudgingly agreed. If this is what would make her finally feel at ease, then I understood. And after a few days of tearful goodbyes, she was gone, and that was that.So here we are now. I no longer have Adia with me. But this isn't the end of her. I have decided that I'm going to take all the good that she was, everything that made her her, and turn it into The Jade System. I plan on creating a new tulpa in the coming days, and there will probably be more to come, all with her in mind. And, should she one day decide to come back, she will always have a place in our mind.You'll be hearing from me soon.