i really don't understand why it feels good to be sad, my life is actually very nice, I'm in a happy position, but sometimes when you have too good around of you something sparks inside your mind and it decides to be sad or just to feel sad.

for all the real sad people out there, nope I'm not real sad but I hope you will feel better one day, like it happened to me at some point of my life but until that moment comes, please, PLEASE don't waste time, what you want right now is feeling a little bit happier but when you will feel happy and you reach the top of that mountain then you discover sadness, but not a bad sadness a good sadness, something you want to feel, so please don't waste your sadness, if you feel sad just try to use it for good; how? i don't know, but I guess that the top of my happiness it's sadness because the real good moments of my life were when I was sad, I never thought I was depressed maybe just a little bit but then something happens, little or big something always happens, when it's a little thing you don't really realize until it's too late and when it's too late you can't do anything about it but just remember.

Sometimes a little good thing is a mistake you did, you just want to go back and fix it but deep in yourself you know that there is nothing to fix, it's material to learn from, but then you compare your old life to your new one and yeah you may feel happier and in a better position and every good thing in the world, but you can't stop being nostalgic, I guess this is life, you need a balance, but at the same time why can't we just go to one extreme to another? at the end the average it's always in the middle, it's like bouncing in an unlimited way and sometimes you stop to think about.. what? what happens if I try to go over the limit? and sometimes it's good but other times it's bad, and the more you push yourself over the limit the more you learn but that experience doesn't come from nothing, nothing it's truly free in this case we have to give a part of ourselves for bad and good things, in a spiritual, physical and mindful way.

Why we do experience stuff? Why do we have this kind of emotions? do we have to cope with it? am I supposed to work with it? does it have a sense at all? I mean the last question it's kind of stupid, I believe that everything has a sense, nothing is really random, is randomness even random? if you are technical you may ask now, “well it depends, what generates this randomness?”, EXACTLY that's the problem, randomness it's supposed to be outside of a system, something that you can't predict, but at the end everything is generated by something and everything is predictable, we may not be able to predict but as long as it's part of a system there is a way to predict that, it's just that we don't know it yet.

I guess that the response it's that after a while you're happy it doesn't feel like you're happy anymore, it feels like normal but your mind wants to feel something and seems like the only thing you can feel when you're happy it's sadness, that's probably a response of too much happiness, but who knows, I don't, but this is my interpretation.

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