This interview was not formal in any sense of the word. I happened to know where this former Disney actress would be and the current A-/B+ lister knew I was coming and why I wanted to talk. She named some names, but not others. In addition, some of the names she did give are very small players and I have not had a chance to talk to them, so just give their general job description. This is not an obscure actress. All of you know who she is and she wants to come forward. She wants to speak on the record and on camera but is scared she will no longer have a career. She doesn't want to be known as the person who told everything and but never gets work. She is still super young and wants to earn enough to live on before going public. She did say that if you get a camera in front of her while she is drunk, she might change her mind.



I started out by asking her with her first experiences in show business and if she has ever been molested or assaulted. She gave a very long response. I have done some light editing because she was giving her exact age so I generalized it to make it more difficult to guess.



"I guess I was a tween when I first started. That was actually a pretty good experience as I look back at it now. It was a good role and I really thought that was the kind of work I was going to do my whole career. Even though it was a good experience, I remember that men and women had to share some dressing rooms because the cast was so large. I had two or three changes of clothes and I definitely got some stares that made me uncomfortable, but men had been staring at me for years so it was something I was used to. I shouldn't have been used to it, but I was. There were a lot of women in corsets in the production and I think the men were more focused on them. I was so excited just to be acting and getting paid that I didn't really notice much of anything else outside my limited view of the world."



"I really thought after that production that I would get lots of work and that agents and managers would be fawning over me. It never occurred to my tween brain that probably no one of any significance had seen it. My hopes for private jets and screaming fans was going to have to wait."



"During the time immediately after that production I went out on a lot of auditions. I was lucky to have my mom with me for most of them. Honestly, if I have one piece of advice to parents who want to be managers to their kids is that you need to be there. If you are not there, shit is going to happen to your kids they will never get over. It's one thing to go out of town and your kids have a party with their friends. Think about if you go out of town and the people that come over are a bunch of adults who are going to pass around your kid like a party favor and take pictures of the whole thing."



"I know I didn't get a lot of roles because my mom was there. Some other kid would go in and their parent wouldn't be there. That girl would be forced to strip to her underwear and they would take a bunch of Polaroids and have her pose in a bunch of positions. They would do this for literally hundreds of girls each week. I know they did it to boys too, but I never really saw that, just heard it from friends."



"When they would see I had my mom with me, they would have me come in and read a few lines and say thanks and that was it. Two or three minutes tops. The other girls would be in for 20-30 minutes and come out looking worked over."



"Call backs were always in a private office rather than in a public office. I once had a callback for a commercial. There was this guy there who worked for the company who was selling the product. It was for some chewing gum. He was seated behind his desk and couldn't stand up because his pants were on the floor and he was stroking himself while talking to me. He asked me if I wanted to see and I said no and I ran out of that f**king place. Meanwhile there were a bunch of girls there in the waiting room and I knew one of them would say yes. The pressure even when I was a tween was to say yes. These girls are the income for their parents. Even if the parents don't say touch the man's d**k, the girl knows they are the income for the family. What kind of parents quit their jobs and have some 11 year old girl be their sole source of income."



"Oh, and even though I didn't go around the corner to see that guy's d**k, I have been told point blank that if I didn't touch a d**k, I was not going to get a job. In fact, that is how I got my big break. I got cast on a show and didn't have to do anything with anyone. They just liked me. The reason I didn't have to do anything is because I was a little older then. I was in my mid-teens. They were afraid I would fight back. They did molest and force at least two of my younger co-stars to blow a producer and told each of them separately that whoever could get the guy to orgasm first would get the job and the other would be sent home. These girls were like 13 or 14. The sad f**king thing is this was not the first time they had to audition like this. Oh, and all the while some a-hole is filming them too so he can tell his jerkoff friends that he is the casting couch king. I guarantee that if you go to some teen show producer's house or his cloud or whatever, there are hundreds of hours of him with tweens and teens."



"Anyway, my show was going well and I knew it was going well and I knew they loved me and they wanted to do bigger things. Instead, they brought me in and said they were going to fire me and bring in someone more cooperative. Next thing I know, I am losing my virginity to a sweaty old fat face f**k producer on his office couch while crying the whole time and vowing to get revenge. The fat f**k."



"I got my promotion and show though. I can't even talk about the show without seeing this guy. I should never have agreed. I don't think I even said yes, I just kind of gave in and he was all over me. It took about 2 minutes and I hated my life for six months after that. I shut down. I started drinking a bit and then a lot and blamed myself. The thing is I was going through some rough s**t in my life right then and my mom couldn't be around like she had been. She was rarely around through no fault of her own and it was up to me to fight my own battles and I just wasn't ready. The first season of that show was them trying to get me into the skimpiest of clothes and to go without bras and was just a pawing and grope fest. I was a f**king piece of meat."



"The girls that would come in for an episode or two or a walk on role had it the worst. They hadn't "made" it yet so had to prove themselves. The producers had a Halloween bucket. Instead of candy though it had condoms. They would grab one and say they were going trick or treating. The one mandate from above was there could not be any pregnancies. None. That Halloween bucket was filled every month and it was a big bucket. That shows you how much they were f**king other people. A hit show and the producers were way more concerned with raping a 16 year old than the show."



Part Two on Monday













