Fall and Rise

The road to the System Open twists and turns down the mountain, beset on all sides by landslides and wasps. Trying to create another four ship Imperial list post update that can contend with the Rebels has met with failure. Actually got salty playing my mate because I wasn’t pumping out enough damage. I was ready to give up on my beloved ship in favour of some better options. Now there’s been a few things going on in the background:

Firstly, my extended family of X-Wingers that stretch across the island have been yelling at each other over difference of opinions over a number of subjects. Not nice seeing your Mum and Dad get loud is it? It’s mostly died down now but it will have us a little on edge and when the next controversy rolls in you better believe it’s gonna hit the fan again.

Second. I haven’t been performing as well as I’d like. I started off as a scrub but built up my skill over a long period of time to the point that I can hold my own against the pros. It’s not enough, it never can be. I see myself slowly turning into a win at all costs player and I’m really not about that life.

Third. IBuyWargames, a store I’d frequent to do battle with Zombie/ Firestorm/ 186th Squadron, has shut down. As did a little hobby store in Coventry. With the sheer number of events springing up all over the country the overall attendance has dropped across the board, putting a number of store owners in the unfortunate position of dipping into their own pockets to foot the bill.

Lastly, towards the end of the long winter months thing’s about to get fucky. I’m no stranger to sub optimal mental health. Had it for so long I’ve learnt to predict and react to it and for the past few years I have been in control. But oh lawd did the dial go up to 11. Anyone with problems relating to the mind will tell you, it gets weird this time of year.

“A culture’s teachings, and most importantly, the nature of its people, achieve definition in conflict. They find themselves… or find themselves lacking.” -Kreia

So it’s been a bit doom and gloom for everybody. In my experience that’s the best time to bounce back.