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Actress Lauren Ash is opening up about her struggle with polycystic ovary syndrome.

“There were times I would lay in bed and the feelings of despair were so overwhelming, I would debate how I should end my life just to end the pain,” she told Women’s Health in an interview published on Friday.

The actress, 36, explained it was a dermatologist who first told her about the condition in 2015, the same year she started on “Superstore.”

“At the time, I hadn’t even heard of it, much less knew what that meant, but I took her recommendation and went to my ob-gyn … There, my ob-gyn did an internal ultrasound and confirmed the diagnosis. She showed me the monitor and it seemed my ovaries — each one surrounded by countless cysts that made it look like they were wearing pearl necklaces,” she said.

During the visit, Ash also learned she was pre-diabetic and had “the hallmark symptoms” of PCOS. She was instructed to undergo surgery and was prescribed progesterone pills that she believes led to depression.

“I knew that I couldn’t go on this way but was also wildly ashamed of what I had been experiencing,” she said of her suicidal thoughts.

Ash went public with her diagnosis on Twitter last July in response to a discussion about “thin privilege.”

“Love that people are acting like the concept of ‘thin privilege’ is new and that it doesn’t exist. I think the ‘privilege’ word is what people may be finding problematic. But to suggest that people ‘choose’ to be fat is offensive and simply untrue,” she wrote at the time. “As someone who has been told by multiple doctors regarding my #PCOS and weight loss ‘I’m sorry you’re basically just screwed’ I really get my back up about this.”

In a follow-up tweet, she admitted that she put herself through a rigorous diet and exercise regime to be accepted in Hollywood and that with her medication she needs to eat healthily, but will only maintain her weight doing so.

“Prior to developing PCOS, when I was at my thinnest as a young adult (from obsessive exercising and starving myself) I was cast in ‘fat girl’ roles, I had men make comments about me being ‘too chubby’ for them, AND I WAS A SIZE 10,” she wrote.

Today Ash manages her symptoms with supplements, cutting out dairy, undergoing acupuncture and working out. She’s now involved with a nonprofit group and created the Instagram account @PCOSsisterhood.

PCOS affects one in 10 women of childbearing age, according to the US Department of Health and Human Services.

“Every woman with PCOS is different, and no two journeys are alike, but there is one goal we all have in common: We have a voice, we’re not afraid to use it, and it’s time that people start listening,” she said.