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Now that I think back writing this, I was not myself, surely. I was blaming myself then but do I blame myself now? It became so intense to bear I felt like I was dying slowly amidst my friends. My body felt horrifyingly weak, standing was a challenge and thinking was a chore because it all projected towards destructive overthinking, how do I get out of this? Had I mentioned by then that I was having difficulty breathing?



I remembered the first week of May, the day Adm1n and I went to the gym and in the car right after the singularity wave vision my body felt wrecked and in paralyzing pain and Adm1n could see the panic in my eyes. There is no comparing both days. As a child that day at the gym, I met eyes with a Watcher, and broke the fourth wall. As a man later, I was cast out to be an observer and felt the pain that kills a man inside. I prayed to God and praying I did. I knew I was with God and there was no denying that I should praise God, and I praised God. Rock was offline for most of the time but by the end, boy was I so glad to see him online past his usual schedule. "It's not what you think" He said. Not what I think? Am I not feeling pain, is this not an attack? "we were just in the presence of the Company of heaven.