I know you were with me today I could feel it..

Why do I keep trying to find pieces of you in every person I like and then disappointed to not find the whole of you…

Why don’t I just accept when you make your presence made felt to me and accept that you are loving me as unconditionally as is ever possible …

It’s not so easy you see for a person who likes to see it to believe it that a power so big yet so invisible exists and is with me always.

And only the power of belief, which isn’t my strongest qualities can make me feel your presence felt truly.

Cause when I just accept that I sit on your palm with no worry in the world, everything you ever wanted for me comes to me cause you are all that is love.

And I always try to find them in the pieces of manifestations you make for me versus believing in the real manifester.

Why don’t I just believe in you when I am not able to believe in me.

That you have always had me in the palm of your hand but it’s only when I believe then I can see it so clearly…

The stories you have written the webs you have weaved to make everything I ever wanted to come to me …

Never in the way I asked cause what’s the fun in that and we are not the best story tellers compared to the mastermind as yours …

But always in the way I needed cause journey is our real destination what we really asked for is all on the path and not in the end…

Every step of it as you show me adds someone or something to me breaks me rebuilds me

As I am told with our cracks filled with gold …

Yes it’s for the thrill of it all but I keep still looking for the whole of you when it’s always there right with me in the gold between my cracks

Reference –

1. Gold joinery – Japanese tradition

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kintsugi