First let me introduce very briefly about who I am:

-engineering

returning this winter

+social anxiety and bipolar,

historic day of 6.10.2016

NoFap

PMO

NoFap

Men's Sperms

vital energy

reset my counter

PMO

NoFap

quit smoking

PMO

Pros /

Cons

NoFap

Pros: Productivity, No BrainFog, More Stamina, More Energy Flow, Confidence, Dreams, Vision, Absolute positivity, Life becomes meaningful, No Emptiness, Full of something, Regain Appetite for food, hobbies, social interaction, etc. Cure against Depression, anxiety. Wake up better, Feel less lethargic. Highly motivated, Motivation More attention from people, i.e. opposite gender because you are confident, better man, best version of yourself. Cure against ED as well, Stop fantasizing about girls, stop checking out girls on the street.

Cons: You will have a

roller coaster ride

. You will have

shitty days

and

amazing days

and sometimes

neutral days

. **You will No longer be subject to the free rewards system of PMO . If you want to go back to PMO and get that 3 second orgasm in turn for your life, please, exit out of this thread. (I hope no one actually does though, obviously).

PROS

CONS

bullet points

NoFap

best version

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition."

"Are you the best version of yourself today?"

WILL

NoFap

Motivation

energy

NoFap

crucial

Time FLIES

Numb Days.

NoFap

dreams, hobbies, passions

smoking, drinking, playing video games, Netflix-ing

sh*t days

(Personally, I have had like almost a third~fourth of the 120+ days be like sh*t.)

Pros

Cons

Success

NoFap

NoFap

start reading the Bible

NoFap

Proverbs

wisdom

discretion

SAVERS.

Start Working Out

1~2 miles.

This is a Life Changer

Become Change.

"I’ve been having weird, scary dreams lately."



First off there was that dream where I was at my house in WonJu and my mom and I had to go somewhere downtown, I drove her there and she got out to get something from the city halls. Beside the city hall building, there was a river with its waters very calm. But all of a sudden, the waters started to flood over to the city halls, and I shouted my mom to get inside the car. But she couldn’t make it and so I had to leave her to go home.



I was in shock once I had arrived home. I couldn't believe that I had left my mother to most likely die. For a few hours I stood by the door, unable to really do anything. Thoughts about my mother screaming in anguish and pain in the midst of the flood seemed to torture me until I heard the door knob turn. For a second, I hoped that It’d be my mother, but it wasn’t, it couldn’t be. She's dead. I called my mother on her phone and no one picked up, and more importantly, there seemed to be no ringing sounds over the door. I got up and locked the door as fast as I could. The person on the other side seemed infuriated that I locked the door and I could hear brief sounds of anguish and frustration. For a split second, chills went through my spines because I could have let an unknown stranger inside the house, possibly to kill me. With my heart pounding, secretly secreting doses of adrenaline, I texted my brother to see where he was. A few moments later, my phone vibrated and he said he was still at work.



Goddamn..



I couldn't move. I wanted to scream out of my lungs but I couldn't say a word. Not a single screech of my voice seemed to make it through my strictly closed mouth. I guess I stayed like that for a few hours, not knowing if the stranger had left or not. After a few hours, I got a call from a number that I didn't know. I picked up hoping to hear the one voice in this world that would make everything okay again.



"Hello, Michael is that you?"



I let out a sigh of relief that seemed to alleviate all my anxiety symptoms and breathing disorders. Thank God..



She told me that she was hit by a flood but that she woke up inside the city halls, But she couldn’t get home because of the flood. She asked if I could go and help. I said that I'd be there in a second, that she just wait for me. I got on my shoes, not even realizing how hungry I must have been, and opened the door to run down the stairs to the parking lot.



But my body froze instantly as I met a stranger standing in front of the door, still. He was wearing a dark raincoat, and had a black hat on. My heart stopped pumping. Then I guess the dream ended.

dreams will get more vivid

16, 17

day 21

simply wasting my time

I realized that I could be doing more things

I now realized that I want more of these powerful days.

NoFap

NoCig

NoWid

NoAlc

SAVERS

SAVERS

SAVERS

SAVERS

Accountability Sheet

Google Sheets

Social Media.

Deleted facebook, SNS, instagram, and every other forms of Social media apps from my phone

(I will now count days by increments of 10.)

NoFap

Motivation, Inspiration, and knowledge

PMO.

Dream Journal

These Dreams are so vivid that I can remember every single detail the moment I wake up.

I feel so great

Seoul

I feel like I am living by





"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition."

I feel great

productive

I have set my personal goals.

My Personal Goals.

The Accountability Sheet

depression

Brainfog

exercise

run/sit ups/plank/push ups

Feelings of hopelessness and distraught.

stressed

Minimalism

NoFap

travel

I feel great.

NoFap

Side effects - withdrawal symptoms are there but very minimal

A

me

ri

ca

Ko

rea

Depression

getting a good life routine

Amazing. Truly amazing

depressed

Accountability Sheet.

7~8th week

good journey

monotone life

It feels very frustrating.

I don't get too excited

I don't get depressed that easily.

crazy

NoFap.

Monotone.

Word of God.

tues /

fri

Go to library at 3

come back at 6

I feel like 2 weeks pass by so quickly now.

become great.

Friends, Pleasure and Instant achievement,

Family, Growth, and long-time achievement.

lawyer . doctor.

(My tone sounds dull & monotone because I've been writing this thread for about 4 hours now.)

Day 70

Day 120+

I got extremely depressed and I relapsed

self-loathing

Porn.

extremely depressed

Now I am on Day 5 again

difficult

very monotone, quiet, long and lonely.

Okay, it feels like you are doing the same shit every day. But then you are expecting a different outcome somehow, or that you may be going insane.



Alright! That was it, my experience with 120+ . It wasn't much, but it was

something

. I feel like I explained it as if it was mostly days that consisted of

dullness along with monotony.

I just wanted to write an

honest journal

. But it really did feel like that for some reason. I guess I just stopped interacting with the wrong people in my life and that possibly made it seem a bit dull. But anyways it was the best

life changing experience

that I have had.

depression

major symptoms

6~7 years

Suicidal Thoughts daily, No hope in life, complaining about life, Fuck life, smoke and drink every day,

#BackWhenIwasCool.

The Past Me: Smoke half a pack of cigarettes a day. PMO every couple of days. Drink Alcohol, Intake Marijuana every couple of weeks. Play Video Games 8 hours a day maybe. Eat Junk Food. Confused about Identity. Feel lost. Of course I was depressed.

But now that I have successfully implemented NoFap, Minimalism Plus God leading me,

The New Me: Intimate Relationship with God(Or at least try to every day or so). No PMO, NoFap. No Alcohol/Cigarettes/Marijuana. Less Video Games. Play Video Games as a reward for spending the say wisely and productively. Eat food regularly. Regular Sleep Cycle. Minimalism. No SNS/ Social Media/ News/ "Junk Feed". Feel better in terms of identity ->More confident, More wise ->Discretion (Not hanging out with friends that only waste time).

panic attacks

whenever I feel vulnerable

'Good Life'

Depression

Anxiety

Dreams

Passion

Futuristic things,

write/read