Allow me to begin by thanking everyone for all of the birthday cards and stuff, I really appreciate it. I've been hanging in there; I've been working out a lot (still look like shit tho) and I've been spending most of my time writing my book. According to my outline it will contain 16 chapters and I've already completed rough drafts of about 6. I let a couple of the guards and one inmate read the 1st chapter and they dug it, I really think that the book will do well. I hope it helps people most of all though. Writing it has been an emotional roller coaster; I'm not sure if it's tougher to relive the bad times, or the good... Anyway, during my first jail sentence I received a book about "lucid dreaming" and I have started up the mental exercises necessary to trigger them once again. I had a couple the other night-- they're so fucking neat! It's like Grand Theft Auto on steroids; I just run up to a hot chick, start making out with her, start fucking her...lol then I hop in a car and drive around like a mad man and hop out and started a brawl with a bunch of dudes-- it's wild. I wonder if it's possible to "master" it, so that you can have them all night, every night? If it is I'd never want to be awake. I read a book once by Stanislov Grof about LSD experiments. In the book he gives a monk LSD and asks him to describe it...he responds with, "it's ok, not as good as meditation though." What type of meditation are they doing? , I wonder if their meditation is similar to lucid dreaming? Are they running around in a crazy dream world all day long? I wanna learn how if so. Jail would be the best place ever in that case; free food, no rent, no nothing...just run around in an awesome fantasy world all day long...Also, something interesting happened recently. I had my lights off (they never turn off all the way, off is a "night light" setting) and I was reading a book and out of me peripheral I noticed a white/blue glow emanating from my thumb against the backdrop of the book-- like a shadow, only light. When I focused on it, it vanishes. I can only see it through peripheral vision, only when the lights are low and only on my hands. Am I seeing my aura? My wife had a friend who was a healer and could see auras...she once told me that she had to kind of cross her eyes or look through her peripheral to see them...anyway, it's weird/neat. I've been reading hella books about quantum physics and the like of it and I'm thinking that those book helped open me up to being able to, or maybe caused me to look for my aura on a subconscious level, maybe? Anyway, I unno. I hope that everyone had a nice Thanksgiving and that you have a good Christmas as well. Until next time.





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