The very first time I heard Bernie Sanders speak, I knew who he was

knew the energy he was representing

knew that he was being fed from the same wellspring of evolving consciousness by which so many of us have been being fed lately on this planet.

This wellspring offers the energy of community

fellowship

kinship

unity

wellness.

It offers the energy of equality

equanimity

truth

justice.

It offers the energy of love.

In a civilization that values profit about all else

this energy becomes revolutionary

but it is not by nature.

By nature, this energy is evolutionary.

There is only so long that we can continue to stumble blindly upon the Earth

eating her up faster than she can feed us

and creating so much suffering for ourselves, our kin in the community of life, and our future generations.

So it is not only unsurprising,

but also necessary

and expected

that as we approach this inevitable turning point as a species

voices carrying this energy would rise louder than ever before.

Bernie is a prophet.

Many of us are ready for a leader like him.

Many of us have been praying for leadership like his.

But we find ourselves on a cusp in human collective consciousness

and if we really get present

and feel, intuitively, not mentally, the energy of the planet

and the energy of humanity

and the energy of this country

we will likely feel that the tipping point in this change

beyond which we no longer need war

beyond which we no longer need poverty

beyond which we no longer need violence and control

this tipping point has not fully been crossed by the whole of our people.

We are, right now, standing in the crossroads.

What impatient creatures we can be!

And rightfully so, as the very lives and freedom of our brothers and sisters and children are at stake.

When we get a glimpse of where we are going

we want to be there immediately.

But are we here?

Are we present for the path from past to future?

Are we NOW?

For it is from this very place that we are able to be the most potent agents of change.

I advocated and believed deeply in the presidency of Bernie Sanders.

And yet, it has become clear that this is not what the energy of the planet is calling forth at this time.

Not yet.

Today, it is calling forth something else.

Through this election process, my rage and disdain has been provoked by and directed towards Hillary Clinton, probably even more so than Donald Trump, who has been far easier for me to simply dismiss

and I have seen the same in so many of my brothers and sisters.

We all carry a deep, underlying rage for the patriarchy, this imperialist, capitalist, mysoginist, racist captivity we have been inflicting upon ourselves for 1000s of years as a species

and we all carry a disdain for those in the public sphere that appear to embody or represent it.

Many of us have come to expect and even accept seeing this in men

but seeing all of this represented in a woman-bodied human reveals this rage and disdain in a way far more provocative than seeing it represented in male-bodied leaders ever has before.

When a woman

a daughter of the same patriarchy of which we have all been born at this point

stands and reflects these energies

we hate her even more deeply than we do the men we’ve come to expect it from.

I am guilty of this.

And I am sorry.

Hillary Clinton, I am sorry.

Women, I am sorry.

To all my sisters and brothers, I am sorry.

It is now time for us to take altitude

to zoom out and see the larger picture.

What is coming to pass on this planet beneath the surface is the tipping of the scales and the rebalancing of the masculine and feminine energies which have been severely out of balance for millennia.

What is coming to pass is that a woman is going to step into the apex of power of this civilization.

And in the symbolic, archetypal dimension

this step is an unbelievably transformative, powerful, and revolutionary moment.

This is a medicinal moment for humanity.

This statement is not an ignoring of Hillary Clinton’s sins or ignorances or dangerous choices or allegiances

nor is it a free pass for her to lead without continued immense pressure from those of us she leads to make choices that honor life, peace, people, and planet

but even with all of her shadows out in the light

Hillary Clinton is holding within her body right now an apex of the return of the Feminine

a center point of the tipping of the scales back into balance on planet Earth.

We have been praying for this moment

for Her return

the return of Woman to her rightful place in the leadership council of our people.

We have been seeing this prayer being answered in all realms of our society as women have stepped into more and more roles of power

as women leaders in something like 22 nations have stepped into the helm

as countless mothers, sisters, and grandmothers have heeded the call from the Earth and stood up.

Many of us have raised a prayer and called for a grandmother to come and rebalance the scales here, too.

Well my family, she has arrived.

Love her or hate her, a grandmother has arrived and is actually positioned to lead this nation.

How have we received her?

She didn’t show up with an angelic grace

she didn’t show up carrying a lamb

she didn’t show up pure as snow

she didn’t even show up coming around the mountain riding 6 white horses.

And if she did, would she have made it this close to the gate?

No.

She showed up with blood on her hands

She showed up with battle scars

with mistakes made

with lies told

with promises broken.

But

she did show up.

And we have been turning our backs to her.

We have been scolding her.

We have been shaming her

threatening her

abusing her.

We have been hating her.

The Goddess has many forms.

Woman has many forms.

She has walked through 1000s of years of oppression and dominion and warfare

and she has not come out unscathed.

Not by a longshot.

But she was carried through nonetheless

and she is standing on our door

and now is our time

our opportunity

to welcome her in

with love

and warmth

and celebration.

And with Forgiveness.

For we, too, all have blood on our hands.

And it is only with forgiveness present that she has the opportunity to heal

and it is only with forgiveness present that we have the opportunity to heal

and together go forth and create a new world.

I forgive you Hillary Clinton.

I forgive you grandmother

I forgive you Woman.

I forgive you Man.

I forgive your unwellness

I forgive mine

What a time to be alive on Earth.

We have much to grieve, much to celebrate, and much work to do.

May we continue to walk behind a prayer for peace, harmony, truth, justice, and love to reign.

I’m with her.

*Author’s note, added three months after original post, on the eve of the 2016 election:

To think that a woman preaching “peace, people, and planet” could ascend to the presidency of a military-industrialist corporate-oligarchy so steeped in patriarchy that no woman has held the position in its 200+ year history, before a woman that is speculated to have played just as dirty as the men and played by the secret rules of getting ahead in the system, seems truly absurd and deliriously impatient. And when the future female presidents, who actually are openly aligned with peace, people, and planet inevitable arrive, they will surely know they would not have had a chance to walk through the gates unless Hillary Clinton, or some woman just like her, had spent a lifetime being absolutely vilified and hated for being a woman reaching for the highest position in the world, and succeeding. Evidence that no woman could get even remotely this close to the Oval Office without doing every single shady thing Hillary has possibly done in her career is that she is the only woman to have gotten even remotely this close. I am wholeheartedly excited that she will win the election tomorrow, not because I have some delusion that she is going to do all the work for us of defeating the corporate, military stranglehold that our nation suffers from, or elevate our indigenous kin and brothers and sisters of color out of their systemic oppression and into their rightful place in our national family and leadership, but because it is time for women to start leading this nation, and we must start where we are, and where we are is with Hillary Clinton. May she be the first in a long, glorious string of women presidents we elect that will slowly but surely redirect our sick nation into a future of true peace, sustainability, wellness, and freedom.

May peace reign on Earth.

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