Anonymous asked:

Tell us about Vesper.

jamesmotherfuckingbond replied:

Ah, hallo. Q here.

Vesper is… a touchy subject for James. He doesn’t even talk to me about her much.

Anyways, I had to go get him a new computer this afternoon because he threw his old one into the wall and smashed it.

Vesper was important to James, in ways I never will be. I’m alright with that. But he closes up about her as well. I think she was one of the first people he’d ever worked with that saw him more and more as a person, and less and less as a means to an end.

Usually, in our line of work, it’s the opposite. I’ve seen people when he goes on missions that start out seeing him as a person, but as he goes through the motions of a job, killing people, making quick, hard decisions and continuing on like he does, I think they dissociate him with being a human being. They can’t comprehend that someone can be capable of breaking someone’s neck and suffocating another person on the floor in a quick, brutal fight, and then get up, tend to themselves, and step back out into a public place with a smile on their face like nothing’s wrong.

And yeah. It’s rather frightening. Even I’ll admit that I was scared shitless when he killed someone in front of me for the first time. It’s different hearing about it, or seeing it on a fuzzy video feed.

James loses sympathy a lot more often than he ever gains any, and for that reason, I think, Vesper was special.

I’ve read the files. When she started working with him, she considered him to be a piece in the grand scheme, like she was. They were both there to do a job; they were simply extensions of their employers.

And from the small, infinitesimal amount of things he’s said about her to me, mostly gathered up from little snippets he lets out when he’s not quite all together and thinking, I think that she reciprocated his actions when he treated her like a person. He became human to her, and he loved her dearly for that. Even though she did, in the end, lie to him about a lot of things, I think she really loved him too. I like to think so, anyway. I mean, he still goes to the Royale-les-Eaux every year at the same time. He never says why, but it’s always at the same time, and it’s where she’s buried. What does that say?

I also like to think that one day, I’ll mean as much to James. We’re getting there, I think, and I love him to absolute pieces, but he has a lot of trouble opening up to me about things.

Sorry. Hope this helps sate your curiosity. One day he might open up more about her, but for now, Vesper is his only.