I’m not depressed, I promise.

“two person standing on full your destiny pavement artwork” by Danica Tanjutco on Unsplash

Recently I have been doing a lot of thinking. Life is just passing by me. All I am is just a pedestrian to this “Life” thing. What is Life? Well, I don’t feel like discussing that subject matter at this point intime.

Instead, also as a reminder to myself, I first want to attempt to list down 20 things. These things are what I like, what I want to do, and my other interests. I don’t know my purpose in life, and I don’t know how to find this elusive purpose. Before I turn 30, I want to be able to find my calling instead of just wondering around cluelessly.

I don’t know if this list will help me, but I think this is better than doing nothing at all.

I will open up and write about some of these things some time in the future in future posts.

My family My close friends My girlfriend Little kids in general My Nintendo Switch Well, video games in general Listening to music Space exploration Waffles and ice cream Traveling and exploring other countries Photography Growing my personal finance Starting a business Witness groundbreaking advancements in technology Chocolate Watching anime (Dragon Ball, anyone?) Run a marathon Learn sign language Learn to speak in Arabic Own and play the drum set

Okay, to be honest, this is much more difficult than I thought it would be. I got stuck at number 13.

Anyway, looking back at the list above, items towards the end are mostly things that I wanted to own or wanted to do since I was young. Owning a drum set, learning sign language and speaking in Arabic is what I wanted to do since I was a teenager. I especially wanted to learn sign language. I remember the moment that made me want to learn it. It was when I saw a cute little girl communicating with her mother with her hands and facial expressions. I was intrigued. It was very fascinating to me.

Nothing in this list seem to be my “purpose” in life. I know for a fact that I am not alive in this world just to watch anime or witness technology advancements. So what is my purpose in life? Hopefully, by going through this list one by one heading towards the end of the year will give me the answer to this question.

I’ll be sure to revisit this list from time to time. Maybe I should attempt to expand this list to 50 things before the start of the new year. Or maybe, I should start listing my bucket list in black and white.

Yeah, maybe I should do that.