A little over a week from now, a movie will premiere that is reported to be taking the box office by storm. People will spend their money to watch grotesque pornography, in a movie theater with hundreds of other movie goers sitting right next to them.

As one magazine contributor said,

“We Americans get really angry when oil companies spill toxic fuel in our oceans; yet we applaud when Hollywood dumps a tanker of poisonous garbage like Fifty Shades of Grey on our country—with no offer to clean up the damage. We should be outraged!” (J. Lee Grady, CharismaMagazine, 2015)

The pornographic book, Fifty Shades of Grey, and it’s sequels have grossed millions in profit sales, and now our husbands, wives, grandparents, daughters, sons, grandchildren, friends, students…will be treated to the movie.

It was announced this week that they have dropped the rating from NC-17 (No Children Under 17) to R (Children under 17 must be accompanied by an adult), for those parents who don’t think twice about taking their children to watch a man violently and sexually abuse his girlfriend. I have heard a couple of people justify it, by saying, “The girlfriend participated willingly!” -Well that just makes it all better, doesn’t it? (dripping with sarcasm)

I’m as angry as I can be!!

You want to know why? Because according to The National Center for Victims of Crime, it is reported that 1 in 5 girls and 1 in 20 boys have been sexually abused. Who are they being abused by? Most often by men and women who are involved with or addicted to pornography.

I’m angry, because I’m one of those girls.

The first 14 years of my life, I was sexually abused repeatedly by a man who was addicted to and engrossed in pornography. He read it, watched it, participated in it, and then by force, used me.

I’ve spent the last 28 years of my life, learning how to live with scars. I’ve been learning about forgiveness and redemption through Christ. More recently, God has been telling my story & I’ve been speaking my silence. I’m learning to live free.

Psalm 101: 3 says,

“I will not look with approval on anything that is vile. I hate what faithless people do; I will have no part in it.”

It’s a no-brainer for me!!

I will not read one single page of Fifty Shades of Grey. I will not step foot into a theater to watch the movie, and when it is released on DVD, it will not enter our home.

I leave it to God to judge the wicked, but I will have no part in it.

This morning, I felt nudged in this direction.

I can’t stop people from watching this movie. I truly believe that we will see a down-fall over time. In a few years, or even less, we will begin to hear stories about how children, wives, girlfriends where victimized after someone in their life watched this movie. What will we do then?



There is an organization called Speak Your Silence who is raising awareness and removing the stigma associated with survivors of sexual abuse. By selling orange thread, and using it to sew a zig-zag stitch on an item of clothing, they are getting the word out that there is help and we are not alone! All proceeds (every penny) goes to fund counseling for survivors. Please, please look them up. Buy a kit….better yet, take the amount of money that someone will spend on a movie ticket ($10-$15) and purchase Stitch Kits. Pass them around and ask people to participate in raising awareness and meeting a need.