The Lost Primarch



OH MY GOD I JUST REALIZED THE BAND OF THE HAWK IS IN HELL

I apologize for the late reply.To answer the question. Well, for most who accept the sacrifice their desperation is usually alleviated by the fact they've been given vast power and the ability to turn themselves into a monstrous, demonic form. Exactly WHAT this form looks like and what abilities it has usually differs substantially from apostle to apostle. Some can sprout wings and fly away, others secrete poisonous dust into the air, others can breath fire while others move with shadows themselves, some are insanely fast, others are strong enough to tear a person in half with their bare hands. What all of them share though, is they are VERY hard to kill. Even the weakest apostle takes quite a bit to kill. It's for this reason that they are able to solve the problem that they were facing that made them cross the despair event horizon in the first place: So, been left to rot in a prison? Doesn't matter, I'm a demon and I'll break my way out. Completely scant broke and your home is being taken? I'm a demon, try to take it from me and i'll eat you. Homeland being put to the torch by invaders? I'm a demon, I'll tear you all apart.For references on some apostles. Warning first image is a bit NSFWApostles can still turn back into a humanoid form to blend in, although they will still look a bit…wrong or have a few minor traits of their apostle forms.How they deal with the guilt of sacrificing their loved ones though. Well, that differs from apostle to apostle. There have been some that repressed it and it ends up coming right back up to the surface at a specific point, some go mad. Others, quite simply, just accept it and move on to accept that they are monsters who rape, kill and devour. Others are a bit more noble, seeking to kill only those that can fight back. etc etc.The process for the sacrifice would go a bit like this: The person is desperate and giving in to despair while someone or something (or multiple someone or somethings) that they care about is nearby, they and the sacrifices are transported before the godhand, the godhand offer the choice to sacrifice them for power, the person accepts and their loved one/s are branded with the brand of sacrifice by the godhand, the one making the sacrifice is transformed into an apostle and granted a demonic form, the loved ones are killed by demons summoned by the godhand (Or the one transformed does the deed themselves). It would be after the brand is put on their skin by the powers of the godhand that the someone of power (or Skull Knight) would literally break into the dimension of the godhand and break Petunia out. Petunia then has to spend every night with at-least one eye open for ghosts that want to kill/rape/eat/etc her because of her brand.Admittedly, we've only seen the Skull Knight interrupt a sacrifice and save some of the sacrifices once and it was only during a very important sacrifice that would transform the person in question to become a member of the godhand. How does becoming a godhand member differ? Four ways: 1. The Behelit they receive is different from the others. 2. They have to be someone of renown or power and also must have ambition 3. The sacrifice needed to become a member of the godhand is much MUCH larger, and isn't just someone they care about. Requiring, say, an entire kingdom that a person has or even an entire army that they command. And 4. A godhand member is only chosen once every 216 years.Really though, to better understand the process and mechanics you're probably better of watching the original berserk 1997 anime series and then the third berserk movie. Or, watch the three movies if watching over 20 episodes isn't really your thing/time is an issue but…the movies kind of diluted a lot of the character development and skipped some subplots that the anime had. I'd recommend even further to read the manga, but there is a lot of volumes that make up the first two arcs (The ones that explain this stuff) and if you just wanted the quick explanation the 90's anime series and the third berserk film to get up to pace quicker (The third movie I recommend both because it's damned good, and also because the original anime was more or less discontinued so they didn't add skull knight and a few other things that were necessary to continue the story). Don't jump in with the new 2016 series, it isn't exactly the best and it already assumes you're completely up to date on the original arcs.What? No! I'm TOTALLY not trying to sucker you into reading the manga or anything! That'd just be silly!Yep…it doesn't get any easier knowing that, trust me.