It’s official: We have found the most uncomfortable and terrible rap-related video of the year so far. As the story goes, some dude helped his pastor make a “rap” song and music video back in the ’90s. And thanks to YouTube and his surely dusty VHS collection, we can now watch the “Rappin’ For Jesus” clip that is … well, equally awful and hilarious. The dropping of the n-bomb makes this so unbelievably cringe-worthy it’s not even funny, but you’re bound to laugh at some of this—it’s too absurd not to.

Update: I just did some digging and found out that this is apparently “fake,” as in everyone involved was in on the joke. Welp.