This is how it works. Life brings years and years of absolutely normal days and then some absolutely abnormal days when you sit back and reminisce about all those years.

You are getting old daily. People are getting old along with you. The world’s equation is changing constantly. You add people and a couple get subtracted from your life. An old x comes back to give you heartpangs greater than or equal to all the current variables in your equation. The next day, it just looses a leg, becomes a common y and you do not give shit. A few people multiply and add a constant to their life to your utter joy. Some equations that you share with people remain constant no matter how much time passes. Some people just get lost in the calculation. Some people start figuring out more prominently in your life with the new angles you have just built. Some go 360 and come back. Some just end up on a parallel path, never to cross with yours ever again. Sometimes there are triangles that you don’t want. Sometimes there are circles you love getting lost into.

The problem is, the equation is pretty hard to master. For starters, it changes every second. You figure out a prominent “therefore” and the next moment, a single dot has switched places and it becomes a “because”. Bang! the meaning of life just changed. You think your life might be good if you spend it with the power of N but someone just tells you that N is just an assumption, it doesn’t exists in real life.

I am impatient to let god unravel the mysteries for me. I think I might even be a control freak and I might fight god for the remote, even if it is just to watch How I met your Mother.