The very definition of a recap is, for all intents and purposes, to spoil a show/movie/book for those who haven’t yet gotten around to experiencing the media for themselves.

Many of us knew what we were in for with last night’s Outlander season finale, but in truth there was no way to really be prepared. In a rare and wonderful occurrence all the Rat Queens descended on the Mosholu hub to be strong for each other and share the trauma we were all about to experience. We, of course, live tweeted our feels in order to share them with the world…ok really it was because we were afraid we would explode if we didn’t release them to as many people as possible, but you still get to benefit from our pain.

All jokes aside, this was an extremely intense and difficult episode to watch. The rape of Jamie’s body and mind is not something the creators of the show took lightly. They took great care to make sure it was real and true and not the least bit exploitive nor gratuitous. We need to get through the horror to see the beauty at the end. This episode was all about love, sacrifice, survival, and the things we can live through if we have someone there in the dark to guide us back to the light…oh and cows, don’t forget about the cows.