When I first decided to enter the realm of fandom life, I had no idea what to expect. I had seen the passion that others had poured into their own personal obsessions and said, “eh,why not?” And I made the best/worst decision of my life. I fell in love with Doctor Who.

Actually, that’s a lie. I fell in love with The Doctor and Rose. They are, in a word, fantastic! The Doctor just fell out of the sky and whisked her away, off to adventures she never even dreamed of. Why? She was never sure and neither was he. They just sort of looked each other up and down and went with the gut instinct to run together. That’s all they needed.

Then, what started as companionship grew into something more. As they traveled, things between them changed. They started to stand a bit closer, talk a bit nicer. Slowly, so slowly, that there wasn’t a specific moment it happened, they fell in love. A sort of silent love. They raced across time and space in a never ending adventure. Just them, flirting with danger (and each other) because they had time. All the time in the world.

But then their time ran out.

In one fell swoop, their forever ended.

When I first watched “Doomsday,” I was overwhelmed by what the loss of Rose meant to The Doctor. In the blink of an eye, the person he held most dear to him was lost. And while I cried for his loss of her, I never thought of her losing him.

Rose Tyler, a completely ordinary girl, went on the adventure of a lifetime with an impossible man. She flew through the universe, saw the greatest and worst of every world, and fell in love with the greatest man that ever lived. But then it ended. Not in death or tragedy. That ending she was prepared for. Her adventure ended in a normal life.

After everything she had done, everything she had seen, Rose Tyler was doomed to a mundane existence. No adventure, no more running. Just work, eat, and sleep. After EVERYTHING, she just had to go back to normal life. And it killed her. The man she loved, the man she had torn apart the universe for, was gone and she was cursed to live a perfectly normal life knowing everything that she would be missing.

The Doctor lost her.

She lost her life.