Last week, Ducky dropped a new song on Deadbeats called “A Place To Rest.” Today, she’s just shared the chaotic, colorful, and deeply meaningful video to the single.

Ducky explains all the various symbolism and meanings to the scenes in the video in an exclusive with Billboard Dance, but she breaks it down: “The song is really about learning about my patterns with relationships through recovery,” Ducky says, “kind of uncovering these painful recurring themes that show up time and again, and using this ex I fixated on whenever something ended as like, the vessel for that.”

While each of the scenes looks like the mind of someone whose ADHD is going unchecked, nothing is without purpose and meaning. Check out the music video for “A Place To Rest” below.