welp I wasn’t going to post another status after some complications. I’m putting it down to this blog and a few mystery “do-gooders”. thanks to someone showing me you could publish things after the fact…. I have done just that. I was going to post one prior to my demise but I was scared i would get caught out and it would be foiled.

I have actually enjoyed my time writing here in this inane blog thing of mine. I found it quite therapeutic even if I barely made any sense nor did I post often. most of the time everything i’ve posted has been in a very manic state and putting clear thoughts down has been hard.

ive just finished taping the car up and im about drive up to my spot and do my thing. the picture below is my method of choice and what i got sent from a member of a certain forum.

I’ve removed parts because I don’t want to encourage suicide for anyone else but if someone is keen enough to go through with it im sure they will do some research. this method is painless you just have to do a bit of prep work. Personally Ive bought a large bucket and im using a piece of timber to mix the bucket as I worried the acid would eat through plastic spoons and i would be unable to mix it enough to cause the reaction.

i may even post some morbid photos of my car to go on my passengers seat when i get up there, i maynot. It depends if I see people around i may just want to get it started so i don’t get busted. only time will tell. most likely if you don’t see any by the time you read this there won’t be any.

i have no real idea what else to say because i think for the first time Im not worried or thinking about much other than the end. its kind of a peaceful yet final thought. hopefully once i die i dont “continue” and it will allllll end.

also to everyone that thinks their life sucks and is struggling day2day, just end it. i think wallowing day to day in self pitty is no way anybody should live and it’s a large reason i have made the move.

this will be the final ever update by myself and this mediocre blog.

peace

ps. if the person who got my original bag confiscated reads this… fuck you, you failed in preventing shit other than putting me in another hospital stay. eat shit & diaf.