(Draft) Re:New email, huh?

Blake Belladonna (BlakeBelladonna92)

to Yang Xiao Long | (Last edit was 1 minute ago)

So many things I could just strangle you! I can't even begin my hands are shaking...

Oh you're mad at Ruby not talking? You talked to her for the first time in months through ME! You left her behind, now you're mad she's not jumping at the bit when you feel like offering some scraps. How about you pick up the fucking phone? Ruby's trying to be strong without you around, but all that matters is you huh?

Lost puppy? I didn't ask you to be! I tried to keep you away. I tried so hard. Everyone always ends up so fucked up. I can't even tell if I'm the one making people that way. I'm just always the one crying alone.

You know what pisses me off the most? Saying shit like "This is my life" like you live in a bubble like you're the only one effected by you! You took your father's money and went to college didn't you? Did you think he owed you that? Or your car, you don't think maybe Ruby could have used one, you know her mother's? You wanted to move in with me so bad so what? You could leave me a year later with rent I can't cover at your fucking convenience? What would the point be to letting you in more? You took a place in everyone's hearts and festered there. We all loved you. You made yourself important to us, tried to break every barrier we put up, promising you wouldn't hurt us. But that's while we were convenient. You only want us on your terms. When we get in your way, well then it's time for your favorite line, "I just need to be free."

This is why I don't want to love you.

No matter what I say, you'll use freedom as your justification for using everyone up around you. Some people are worth more than adventures, but what do I expect. You're your mother's daughter.

I know it, because I do it too and I'm tired of hurting people. My legs can't run anymore. So what if I lose a bit of myself being normal? So what if my dream dies? Do you really think a hack like me could have actually made it? The world's not a fairy tale Yang and... Doesn't even matter. None of this matters. This whole email doesn't fucking matter.

Blake Belladonna

(458) 555-7929

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