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Making art out of your disability - Inspiration

[Image description: Three photos all showing very messy rooms in an apartment. One is the kitchen, one is the living room, one is the bedroom.

Photographer holding up small paper sign which reads:

“’ADHD related executive dysfunction’

Mixed media, 19/4 2015″]

Process:

19:56 - See the original post. Agree. Get inspired. Get urge to do same thing.

20:12 - Start to follow through on that urge.

20:16 - Almost quit out of frustration/exhaustion of not finding a working pen. Settle for a pencil.

20:21 - Almost quit out of frustration/exhaustion of repeatedly misspelling or writing too large or too small.

20:27 - Finally start taking the actual photos.

20:35 - Almost quit out of shame over the state the apartment.

20:45 - Get distracted.

21:15 - Think about editing the photos. Fail to do so. Repeat every 15 min.

23:13 - Finally edit the photos.

23:27 - Almost quit out of frustration over the inconsistency of the photos.

23:30 - Continue feeling shame over the state of the apartment.

23:36 - Save photos and start to write up this post.

23:45 - Make up most of the timestamps because ADHD messes with your sense of time.

00:12 - Finally finish.

I’m not lazy. I’m not a slob. I don’t like my apartment looking like this. I hate how difficult it is for me to do anything about it. I constantly think about what needs to be done and how nice it would look and how much easier it would be to live here if I tidied and organised things.

But I have limited energy/spoons/ability that I need to focus on things that are more vital. Such as: feeding myself, showering, laundry, working, going to appointments at the hospital or welfare office, not to mention doing my best to maintain my own happiness and motivation, and being there for my friends. There is just not enough left over after all that.