So lately, if I haven’t fed off blood in a long enough time I start to of course feel a lot of negetive side-effects. But one of the most damaging I think is I start to question my vampirism more and more. Which makes no sense, since you’d think I’d notice it MORE at this point, and I do, but I just for whatever reason keep telling myself when I haven’t fed stuff like,“No. You are making this all up. It’s all in your head. You are insane. You aren’t vampiric. You are just an idiot."



Which leads me to not feeding even LONGER, making my symptoms even worse. It’s hard to talk me into feeding if I haven’t fed in a long time. Even though I am suffering intensely.

SO! My hopefully solution to this problem is I will be making a diary, will most likely use this since I use this as a record of pretty much everything. My dreams, my diary, my ritual work, everything in one place, searchable and share-able. Anyway, the diary will consist of my feedings, and how I feel afte them. Because usually after I finally get talked into feeding by either my own brain or my friends, after feeding I feel a lot better and I no longer question my vampirism really. So the diary will probably be me trying to convince my unfed self, to feed. Posts that I will make myself go read over and over again if I am questioning myself. Hopefully this will help.

I just wanted to warn my followers before I started posting that. Haha.