Re:Catching up

Blakey (BlakeBelladonna92)

to me | 11:31 AM (8 hours ago)

If you're not feeling well don't kill yourself on the road (if I'm allowed to say that?) Stop by the Riteaid or CVS if you see them a lot of them have walk in clinics. Really. The road might seem long and unparalleled, but it's a concrete difference. Every step closer is a step done with, taking a break won't make the miles any longer. I'm not in any danger right now okay?

I kind of feel bad admitting this, but I'm happy the call of the wild in you is a touch satisfied. I'm very self concious about you wanting to leave again, or about me holding you down. If we do things from here on out I want it done clean and right. I don't want us apologizing to each other for existing the rest of our lives. It's a good time to close things though, you've got a rich list of stories, you got your answers, you even got a branch to the other half of your family.

I think now's as good as anytime to end it, so try not to be dragged down by too much of the homeward bound blues.

I've never imagined the great lakes would seem like a beach, but I guess it would be right? Endless water as far as you can see. Is it sandy like cali or rocky like here? Or something totally different I imagine. Like a never ending crater lake.

Maybe we'll see one day. A trip doesn't have to be the end of the world I guess. Couldn't be like what you just did, I can't do what you did, we both know that, but I have some money. We can talk when you get here. Maybe before I find a new job.

We have a lot to talk about.

Writing? Oddly enough yes. Part of my therapy is a creative nonfiction workshop. The doctor, Oobleck, was surprised by my eloquence. I'd share some of it, but in honesty, it's a lot about you or about my abuse. We're suppose to write knowing no one besides us will read it. I promise i'm not being cruel.

But that's not all I'm writing. The rain has been coming down hard lately so I can't sit by my tree, instead I'm jotting down poems. Got the idea listening to chopin's Raindrops, I know I'm a nerd, and I thought about how he used the A-flat key and tried to make the raindrop poem follow that, like recurring single word structure between standard couplets. Nothing perfect yet, but it's been interesting. I can't even remember the last time I got to sit by the window, listen to the rain and think only about how to play with words.

Maybe when you get here you can pick your favorite draft of the concept? Menagerie might have a space for me on the next issue if it's worth a damn and don't mind begging Velv.

It's quiet here, almost a shame I'm leaving soon. I mean I've skipped the shitty parts of this place, it's no wonderland. Underfunded, unsettling at times, not as clean as you'd want, but it's a bubble separated from the world. I get to run away for a little while before they kick me out.

Don't worry, I'll be in Portland long before you.

Blake Belladonna

(458) 555-7929

Sent From: Salem Oregon

Re:Catching up

Yang (Fireballin17)

to Blakey | 4:54 PM (3 hours ago)

Somethings not right. I cant sleep, been staring at the roof of my station wagon for like 4 hours now. My stomachs killing me. And now im sweating, too. I think its got to be a fever, but i dont feel hot. Weird, right?

What was i thinking coming out here blake? No plan, no nothing. Just another stupid impulse. I almost lost everything, and now im hurting too much to even get my useless ass home.

I think im really sick. Defeated by the fucking stomach flu.

Im sorry for all the shit i keep putting you through. I promise ill make it home, as soon as i can.

I love you.

If my heart was a compass you'd be north

Sent from: Ottawa Illinois

Re:Catching up

Blakey (BlakeBelladonna92)

to me | 8:08 PM (5 minutes ago)

Yang, find out where the hospital is and go to the ER right now. I can send you money if you need it, but you don't have the means in your car to handle a stomach flu. Do you have heat? You're not freezing in there are you? Do you have any other symptoms?

If you don't have a fever… just get back to me once you're at the ER.

Blake Belladonna

(458) 555-7929

Sent From: Salem Oregon

AN: Hey it's Elfen here, my side of the replies are going to slow down unfortunately as you may have noticed. This semester's on the rough side so I just don't have the time I expected. I'll keep trying to do weekly work though!

Fawkes chiming in. As you may have noticed, Yang's email was reprinted in this chapter to keep things from being too confusing. It is entirely unaltered from the way it is printed in the previous chapter, just put where it would be in Yang's inbox.