Lately I have been thinking about the luck I had with my brain, I re-evaluated the years I spent being anti-social, the rejections I made towards girls, and the rejections I had due to low SMV/wrong targets. After years of experience, after reading and searching for non-negable truths, after confirming most of my dubts, I can finally make an honest analysis of my past, and most important I can manage my present time without being sad because the society told me a bunch of BS, and because most of the people around judged me with their stupid-standards/glasses.

I am happy because I can use most of my time for myself, I can choose isolation without feeling guilty or a creep, my anxiety has dropped almost to 0, my new attitude of 0 f~~~s given feels awesome.

At the same time, I feel the burden of living a lie. The society is based upon lies, many of them, and you will have to embrace some in order to fit in it, I guess most of you men know the scam about how our financial system works(totally outside of any law), and how many motherf~~~ers out there are getting an enormous amount of money by doing almost nothing, and producing/discovering/improving NOTHING.

But I can deal with lies, motherf~~~ers, women etc. what is hard for me has become boredom, and the problem is that being social will expose you to an enormous amount of boring people. Most of them are open books, some are easy liars, there are some signals(once confirmed as real) which says a lot about a person. I always like to say what I think. But how can you do that in our society? people live a dream, people live a lie, people HATE THE TRUTH. I used to hate the truth aswell, so I know how it feels, mind that once you open your eyes you cannot go back.

It is hard to find good company, that is one of the main problems, I realized that I isolated myself because I could simply not find interesting people, even the ones who were a question mark in my head are now easy explanable, mostly women tho. I miss having redpill friends, because I am tired of bluepilled and all that categories that frankly are good for a 5 minutes laugh and nothing more.

Being smart improves your life, but at the same time it is not easy to go full monk. I used many things to “sap” my brain and go zombie mode(mainly for my past, and difficulties to bare with the truth), now that I strive to be full aware of myself and what is around me, I realize that I have to lower the downsides of the gifts that I have, and maximize the good that can come from my efforts.

I am happy to be on this webstie with you men, here I can write what I think, here I can be me without censorship.

F~~~ the masks that we have to wear.