If He Had Lived is an Adashi comic that I started in January of 2019. I wanted to depict a world in which nothing was changed except that Adam survived, and he and Shiro had the chance to see each other again. This project has been a big struggle for me, and I’ve finally decided to let it go and not finish it.

Here’s part two (and the final part) of the latter half of the comic I sketched out in January 2019. It’s the original ending, but before I scrapped this project I had another idea to lengthen it and give more time for their relationship to grow. I found I’m not a comic artist, and got burned out before I ever even sketched it. The new ending would have shown Adam risking everything to save Shiro from Sendak, using the black bayard to deliver the final blow. He then would have rushed to Shiro’s side, made sure he was okay, and they would have confessed and shared a kiss, which fades into the last two panels you see here. Part of the reason I never finished it was that I realized the nuance and progression that needed to happen to tell this in a way that wasn’t a haphazard mess would require a lot more drawings than I had the energy for, and I never worked myself up to do it even though I tried lol

Again I apologize that this is all I have for the rest of this comic, just some busted ol crusty sketches with horrible pacing, but hopefully you still enjoy it. Thanks for reading!

Act 1 (finished drawings):

Part 1 (TW: blood, burns)

Part 2 (TW: scars, violence/slapping)

Act 2 (the rest of it):

Part 1

Part 2 (this)