"Big Z," he says, slower now, his voice full of emphasis, "He. Don't. Cry. But that day, God made him cry. I think he is the only person to make me cry. So I was crying, and I felt like I went out of this world. And I heard God saying, like me and you talking, I heard God's voice saying, 'Carlos, you are a good person. Your heart, it's good. I like it. You sacrifice a lot of things for other people. You sacrifice yourself for your family. I sent you to the big leagues for a mission, and you haven't done anything that I told you to do. You did the opposite of what I told you. You are in the big leagues to glorify my name. You are in the big leagues to let people know that I exist. I brought you here. It wasn't in your strength, it was mine. And now you are doing things that you are not supposed to do. What are you doing with your life?' He said, 'I like the way that you sacrifice things for other people, but when is it going to be you that is sacrificed. When are you going to be at the table sacrificing for me and die so that I can live in you and you can do the purpose that I send you for?' "