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A gay 20-year-old killed himself after facing a life of torment where he should have been safe.

For Jack Ellis, thanking everyone who had made his tough life meaningful was essential.

So he made a list of more than 100 names, each followed by the words, "I love you."

Then, in March 2014, he took the decision to end his life.

Jack even apologised to his sister in his final letter, who he knew would be on holiday when his dead body and suicide note were found.

Two years on, Jack’s devastated sister Rebecca Weeks still struggles to understand his death.

She watched her gentle, caring brother endure years of bullying and believes he would still be alive today if he had received the right help.

“Jack felt he couldn’t go on and endure what he was going through any more – but his story could help stop this happening to anyone else”, Rebecca told the Mirror, explaining why she wants to share the most heartrending details of this tragedy.

“I know this is what he wants.”

By any measure, Jack Ellis had more than his fair share of problems during his short life.

The family’s home life was sometimes difficult and by the time Jack was two, his father had died of lung cancer.

Then there was Jack's battle with his own health.

The teenager needed regular insulin injections for diabetes and struggled to cope with his autism.

It was this condition that led to him being tormented mercilessly by his peers, and struggling for years to feel accepted.

Jack persevered, taking comfort in his family and friends and his favourite hobby as a train enthusiast.

He loved trains and joined a number of societies where he could meet people who shared his interests.

But as he grew older and began to also identify as a gay man, the bullies also used his sexuality to make him feel ostracised.

By 2013, Jack's mum Helen decided he was not coping at home and it was decided he should move into a supported housing project in Weston-super-Mare.

The project is run by private company Curo but is funded by the taxpayer.

"Jack had tried to take his own life a few times before moving there," his sister told Mirror Online.

“He really struggled living at home, so when we found a place that could provide care for him, we were hopeful that things would turn around.”

But tragically the family’s hopes were soon shattered.

After just a few weeks of living at the complex, Jack had plummeted into the depths of despair and was describing the place that was meant to be his safe haven as a "torture chamber."

He was tormented for being gay. Residents called him a pervert who was trying to ‘convert’ them and he claimed to have been physically assaulted.

Then there were the after hours ‘guests’. Jack told his family that when staff had left for the day, younger residents would invite adults to their rooms to take drugs. One of these visitors allegedly threatened to stab him. It's not clear whether these alleged incidents were reported to his key worker or the council.

The council's adult safeguarding review does not detail that this was reported to them and Curo, and concludes there were "no warning signs" that he would take his own life.

But by March 2014, Jack had come to a decision.

He planned his last day meticulously, attending a gay pride forum in North Somerset before returning home for the final time.

His 12 page suicide note – which Rebecca calls his 'farewell letter' - is an utterly devastating account of the life he found so unbearable.

"They didn’t laugh at my jokes, my personality, my energy, my skits,” he wrote, detailing his struggle to fit in.

"They laughed at my life, my sexuality, my fears, my worries, my inability to let go, my love for people, my sadness, my looks."

He described the place where he had spent his last months as a “torture chamber".

Jack made about 150 mentions of things he loved in his letter - including 130 people and about 20 things including skittles and trains. He also detailed his plans for returning home to kill himself.

“I don’t want to be here anymore," he wrote. "I hope it works. I hope you will all respect my decision."

Sadly, for Jack's family his suicide attempt was successful and he was found dead on March 8.

Alongside the many mentions of people he says he loved deeply - describing sister Rebecca as a "cool punk" who "crossed with me into my adult life and offered support, love, attention, care and empathy all under one roof" - Jack detailed the people who had also wronged him.

These include two who had physically assaulted him and a man who he alleges groomed and sexually abused him while he was very young.

“You’re all going to hate me after you have read this s**t. Sorry,” he wrote, addressing his family.

Rebecca was away when he committed suicide and he apologised to her too. "I ruined my sister’s holiday. I'm sorry, Becky," he wrote.

An inquest at Flax Bourton Coroners Court recorded a narrative verdict following his death. Jack’s GP Dr Cordelia Feuchtwang told the hearing that he was “always a risk to himself”.

But she also said: “I think on some levels we have all failed him.”

Rebecca and Jack’s family agree with this statement and two years on they are still desperate for answers. They believe that Curo was particularly at fault.

"I remember being so positive after meeting the people at Curo,” Rebecca said. "But I knew that things must have been really bad when he told me after living there for a while that he wanted to move back in with mum. The failings were avoidable.”

The family believe that Jack had also made an earlier suicide attempt while living in Curo’s accommodation. Curo declined to comment on whether they were informed about this.

The company were not asked to put a representative forward for Jack's inquest.

In a case review of Jack's death, North Somerset Council - which contracts Curo to provide supporting housing to the vulnerable in its community - did not ask Jack's family members to provide evidence, or include them in the investigation.

His family were also not shown the results of the case review.

Curo declined to comment when approached by Mirror Online.

North Somerset Council said in a statement: "Jack’s death was a tragic event and our sympathies remain with his family.

The council said a full review had been carried out, and sessions held to ensure improvements identified would be made.

If you are having suicidal thoughts, Samaritans can help. You can call them on 116 123 or visit their website here.