the thing is i can’t mentally handle passive aggressiveness which is how this person treated me - i had to figure out by pleading with them and apologizing multiple times to figure out why they were upset with me and if it was even me because of the way they talked about it and i only found out because they replied to my ask by making an example of it and they never actually addressed me like i was a person the entire time

then they deleted the ask

obviously they don’t have to forgive me

but i feel like shit because they wouldn’t even acknowledge me even tho i didnt know what was going on and i was trying to figure it out

i get that they don’t have to educate me

but this was about how i was interacting with their blog and i was unaware that i was interacting with their blog in a way they didnt like

and passive aggressiveness just really really upsets me and stresses me out

and i just mentally can’t handle things like this is stayed up until 6 am and missed a late-start class i wanted to get into and now im stressed and depressed

this isn’t their fault obviously but i can’t deal with people on tumblr if they’re going to act like this over such a subtle microaggression

like they were literally mad at me because i called out ableism in a video they found on youtube that they posted with absolutely none of their own commentary and that i was disregarding what they video meant to them on their blog

and i get that they have a right to say “I don’t want comments like this on my post” it’s their blog

but i didn’t know that me commenting on any video or image without their commentary about a group im also part of without textually acknowledging what the video meant to them in the context of their blog was was out of line - they claimed that info on their blog made this clear - but i even checked the reblog guidelines on their blog after i realized they were upset at me to figure out why they were upset with me and i STILL couldn’t figure It out based on the guidelines until they stated it by answering my ask and stating outright what i did wrong

an d yet they acted like i should’ve known better and needed to do shit to “rectify” what I did (what this meant they did not specify)

maybe this is me being a privileged ass but i feel like the way they treated me was actually messed up - i wouldn’t even know i did something wrong or what i did if i didn’t stay up all night and happen to see that ask - and send them messages apologizing and being paranoid that it was me they were talking about

this is the exact type of thing my ocd can’t handle

and while im sorry and in the wrong on one level or another i feel this person is being unreasonable and unfair in the way they treated me about it

but maybe thats me being a privileged asshat and tone policing idk - but it was more the way they went about it not the tone

but anyway i AM going to be more mindful of how i interact with blogs in the future - and i do worry that my privilege makes me feel entitled to things im not and is making this more about me than it should be

so yeah