Demibi graybiro Remus misses Sirius everyday. He spent so many years not being able to see Sirius’ smile, to hear his laugh, to feel the warmth of their hands pressed together. Remus misses the way Sirius would lay his head down in Remus’ lap, seemingly calm and content, until he’d suddenly transform, and Remus’ lap would be full of wriggling, excited dog.

Demibi graybiro Remus whose time with Sirius was stolen short. Once Sirius did return to his life, their time together was, once again, too short. Remus feels much older than he really is. He’s not sure if losing Sirius hurt more the first time or the second. The first had felt permanent. The second definitely was. Remus is so tired of losing the people he loves.

Demibi graybiro Remus who is terrified of loving Tonks because loving inevitably leads to loss. Not to mention, he never really gave himself time to move past Sirius. Tonks is persistent, though. She sees right through his lies and excuses. She’s seen loss, but she hasn’t experienced what Remus has, and she can’t understand. Not like Sirius could.

It’s when she shows up with some full moon aftercare that Remus breaks down, and admits to Tonks all the real reasons he hasn’t moved forward with her. She’s so compassionate and caring and accepting. She listens without judging. And when Remus has poured his heart out and is beginning to get nervous about how she’ll react, she transforms her appearance. And it’s so perfect that Remus is stunned for a full second before he bursts into laughter.

Demibi graybiro Remus feels better that night than he has in a long time. It’s past time that he admits to himself that he does have feelings for Tonks. When she transforms back into her usual self, and he leans in close, letting her close the gap for their kiss, Tonks can’t deny it any longer either. Laughing like that has let Remus realize that he had his time with Sirius, and that, although definitely tragic, it’s okay that it ended. Remus is happy, sitting here with Tonks, as happy as he was with Sirius by his side, and he knows Sirius would never want to deny him that.

~Hufflepuff Mod