The hiimmarymary Series



It's very rare to come across anything as unique and thought provoking as the hiimmarymary series. It succeeds exceptionally well at being a horror, but what makes it stand out apart from other horror series on Youtube is how it uses horror elements and mosnters to symbolize the inner demons that the main character Mary struggles to overcome, such as depression, self-loathing, anxiety, guilt, and her own misconceptions about herself, which many people can relate to.





Hiimmarymary isn't afraid to use its narrative to discuss the very real struggles many people face silently inside their own minds unbeknownst to others. This entire reality that Mary is trapped in is what I and many others would probably describe as hell that she finds herself unable to escape from. How she got into this nightmarish reality remains a mystery, but it'll be interesting to see where the series goes and ends with its mental health themes.









The Monsters in hiimmarymary Series





I highly recommend others to go watch the

hiimmarymary

series for themselves before reading this, but if you're already caught up to speed with the series, I want to illustrate some of the common interpretations that each monster in the series may represent.

















When the series first kicks off, the first monster we are introduced to is the Veiled Lady. Out of all the monsters, the Veiled Lady torments Mary the most and is the only monster that talks to her, telling her how worthless she is, which seems to suggest that this monster represents Mary's struggles with depression and self-loathing. There are many opportunities within the series where the Veiled Lady can kill Mary, but it instead of killing her, she relentlessly terrorizes Mary and revels in her despair and fear.













The next monster in the series that is introduced is Beauty, which doesn't talk to Mary but laughs at her whenever she looks into a mirror. The fact she wears a perfect beauty mask and only appears when Mary is looking in the mirror seems to symbolize Mary's own insecurities about her physical appearance. Beauty seems to also represent what Mary wishes she looked like; her ideal version of beauty, but later in the series, Beauty is shown not to be beautiful, but in fact is twisted, ugly, and terrifying.













The Shadow also subjects Mary to fear, but more specifically it appears when Mary is feeling some type of shame, guilt, or regret. In the episode Sleep Walker , the message "I messed up" appears over and over again while the Shadow looms in the background to really iterate the shame, guilt, and regret she feels deep down. When she sees the Shadow, or it looms over her, it signals to us that the bad things Mary has done keep following her around, like a shadow. Even when she tries to sleep, her regret of past mistakes leave her feeling listless and unable to sleep.









The Darkness as it's called doesn't appear as often as the other monsters we've seen on the series, but what it represents is pretty insidious. Whenever the Darkness is around, it makes the other monsters in the series more terrifying and aggressive. And the message "I'm a monster" appears in the episode DO NOT TOUCH when her hand is entangled in the Darkness, which I believe symbolizes the darkest thoughts and emotions that Mary represses. Mary herself is responsible for the fact these monsters exist at all, and she ultimately is the one that gives these monsters power over her. While others have interpreted the Darkness differently and their interpretations are interesting as well, this is what I have interpreted the Darkness to represent.













And finally, last but not least we have the Woman in White. Compared to the other monsters in the series, she doesn't act with hostility towards Mary. Unlike the other monsters, the Woman in White only has appeared what is called the Garden, which is the grassy landscape outside the house. Most of the series takes place in the house, but there are some episodes that take place outside, which is treated as an escape. While it is not entirely certain what the Garden represents, others have hinted that it is Mary's idealized version of how she wants her life to be. It could also be her heaven or her escape from the darkest parts of her mind which the house and the monsters seem to represent. In the episode

, the Woman in White distorts the environment when she reveals her eyes to Mary, which brings in to question whether the outside is as safe and serene as Mary makes it out to be. Whether Mary is in the house or in the Garden, danger lurks everywhere and there is true escape from the darkest recesses of her mind.





Go Watch hiimmarymary





I strongly encourage anyone to give this YouTube series a chance. The episodes are only a few minutes long so a huge investment from viewers is not required. Not only is this series unique, but it presents a meaningful narrative you'll be hard pressed to find anywhere else, especially on YouTube. More content creators like hiimmarymary need more recognition for the way it brings up sensitive issues like mental health and especially depression. YouTubers like this need all the exposure they can get and hopefully others will see the merits of watching this series.

Film Theory

also analyzes this series which should speak to how creative this content is.













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