Brickedit Wed 10-Apr-19 19:16:15

Okay maybe 'in love' is a strong turn of phase. I don't have another frame of reference for my emotions. It's more than friends but I don't get 'fanny gallops' as they say round here. My stomach drops when I see him and I feel like I want to die.



I caught his eye the other day and my instinctive reaction was to feel like I was going to throw up.



Maybe it's just the guilt. I'm not just going to break up withy partner, I have to be 100% sure. I don't want to break up with my partner for someone else either.



I love my partner a lot.



The angst is because I love my partner and before this dude turned up, I thought people that fell.in love with other people were scum to put it bluntly. I was brought up in a very religious household.



But now, this is my first long term relationship and I think I've been very naive about the scope of human emotions and maybe the possibility of me being fully monogamous. I don't know.



About the guy, I am very confused as to whether he's attracted to me or not because it would be very very at odds with his words. He expresses a lot of emotions about his partner. He confides in me about her and the relationship. He told me he was going to propose to her and did.



I really do not want to speculate about his relationship so I don't know the ins and outs.



This is completely at odds with his overally familiar behaviour with me.



I'm aware that I could probably never trust him if we ever did get together. So really I'm screwed either way.

I would like to talk to him about it and tell him how so I can ask.him politely to stay away from me but if he doesn't feel the same way it will be sooo much fucking drama.



Not really isn't the best time.