About Haku. TW : Rape

I have decided to come forth with something that has been tormenting me for the past 3 weeks. As some of you may know, I dated Haku for over a year and our relationship ended in January due to complications. We decided to meet up on February 23rd because he wanted to pick up his stuff that was still at my house and to go out for lunch. It was fine as we had decided to continue hanging out as friends and so we had some more closure. We picked up cakes for his mum’s birthday. I invited him to my house since his dad was having coffee with a friend and wasn’t ready to drive him home yet, so I offered to put the cakes in the fridge and we could play games on my Switch or PC while we waited. Everything was okay till we entered my room, then he closed the door behind him and kissed me while I was taking off my jacket. He forced himself on me, pinned me to the bed, then proceed to ask that we have sex. I said no to him multiple times while mentioning that I was also on my period, but he said he didn’t care about the latter and continued to kiss me. After awhile of telling him no and him not listening and continuing to sexually violate me, I ended up giving up and saying “okay,” as I was already in shock/fear from being pinned to the bed. We had sex against my wishes. Right after, when I told him I didn’t like it and that I was regretful, he said sorry. I told him that he should go and made him leave my house. It took 10 minutes for what happened to kick in, and I had a panic attack. I broke down and couldn’t stop shaking violently and disassociated for the rest of the night.



A couple days later, I talked to him about what had happened as I was still in shock. In our conversation, he admitted that he should’ve stopped the first time I said no. Though he apologized, it did not feel genuine as he only apologized for my reaction/said sorry that I felt bad, instead of taking responsibility for what he did to me.



I have decided to go public with this incident, as a bunch of others have brought to light how much harassment they have received from him, and because I don’t want anyone to go through the same thing I have. I still care for Haku and believe he can change, but for now I want him to realize what happened scarred me and was traumatic, and I want him to pursue help to work on things on his own end.



In the replies under this post, I have posted screenshots of our conversation and my conversation with a friend moments after it had happened.

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