Dear Future Husband, October 13, 2016

I didn’t know it was possible to love someone that I’ve never met, to feel such a concern for a person without even knowing their name, or having seen their face. I didn’t think I could pray for the strength and welfare of somebody without knowing anything about their current situation in life, or the trials they were going through. I didn’t think it was possible. And it shouldn’t be possible. But I’ve loved you for years, and I love you more each and every day. And I pray. I pray for your health. I pray for your happiness. I pray for your worthiness. I pray for the life that we’re going to have together. I’ve thought about it a lot you know, our life together that is. And while I don’t know what our kids will be named, or where we’ll live, or when even we’ll meet, I know what our life will be like. You and I, we’ll be a team; the greatest team we can be, because it won’t just be the two of us. You and I, the children we raise, the leaders of the Church, our Savior, and our Heavenly Father, we’re all a team. And although it’ll take practice and compromise, we’ll do our best to work like a team.

It’ll be a good life, the one that we share. Of course, there will be ups and downs. We’re bound to argue and make mistakes. But in the end, we’ll forgive each other. We’ll learn from those mistakes, and we’ll carry on. We’ll teach our kids to love the gospel by showing them how much we love the gospel. When we’re stressed, we’ll go to the park and have a picnic as a family. The phones will be put away, and we’ll try to remember what matters most. On bad days we’ll get in the car and go for a drive, rolling the windows down and singing at the top of our lungs. We’ll explore new places, and go on new adventures. And at the end of the day, we’ll lie down, and I’ll be thinking about how much I love you.

I love you for the blessing of the Priesthood that you’ll worthily bring into our home. I love you for the covenants that we will make together in the House of God. I love you for the father that you’ll be, and for how much you’ll cherish our little family. I love you because I know that you’ll love me. I love you because I know that you’ll love God more than me.

I pray for you daily. I pray for our children daily. And I pray for myself daily. I hope that I can be a good wife. I want to be able to love and strengthen you in every way. I want to be able to make you happy. I want us to be able to grow in the gospel together. I want to be worthy of your love always, and I’m striving to be. I pray that I’ll be worthy to be a mother in Zion. I hope I can be all that I need to be, for you, for our children, and for God. And I’m scared, because I don’t want to let you down. I don’t want to let our kids down. And I don’t want to let God down. And so I pray. I pray to be the very best me that I can be. And I pray that you can be your very best self too. I pray that our children will be strong in the gospel, and that we can do everything in our power to help them choose the right. I pray for our eternity, our future life.

You and I, we’re intertwined. Although I don’t know who you are yet, your decisions affect our life together. My decisions affect our life together. And that’s alright with me. Because I want that constant reminder that this isn’t just about me. Everything I say and do is about us. It’s about the future generations that we’ll raise up. It’s not about now. It’s about eternity. Am I becoming who you will need me to be? Is my focus completely on the Celestial up ahead, or am I getting sidetracked with the Telestial along the way?

I’m trying, my love. And I’ll keep trying. You’re in my thoughts and prayers tonight and always.

Love,