It’s been 4 months since my last blog post, and honestly, more has changed in these last 4 months than in the whole year before that probably.

I’m sure many of us have heard adults in our lives as we were growing up saying things like “life works in wonderous ways” and it wasn’t really until fairly recently that I actually began to believe this.

I met a guy on the Internet. I know I know. But this really isn’t as it sounds.

This guy is called Adam. And this guy is basically the turning point in my life.

Let me start from the beginning. One ordinary day, I’m online, and I see an advert for this new app called “fling”. The advert says you can make friends all over the world – it’s like a version of snapchat that sends your snapchat to 50 random people all over the world. The app seemed pretty popular, and I found that the picture I took landed in all kinds of crazy places. Australia, China, New Zealand, Germany to name a few, and also… Canada.

For anyone who doesn’t know, I am a born Canadian. I started out life in Salmon Arm before being brought to England as a baby. I won’t get into the why’s and how’s as it’s rather complicated, but that’s what happened. Some of my family, including my Dad and 2 older sisters, live in Canada.

So anyway, there I am looking through these replies. And I open this one from Canada, and I see this handsome face with “Hi Estelle, how are you?” Written underneath it. Intrigued, I reply.. And I know this is a cliché saying, but the rest really is history. From that day to this we didn’t stop talking. We developed this crazy friendship and bond just over this app and then iMessage and the phone. We had a connection that could be felt even though we’d never met. And, get this, he lives a short drive from where my family live. What are the chances!? There came a point, however, where silly Estelle began to feel a little overwhelmed and tried to cut it off. This led to Adam declaring his love for me, and booking a last minute flight to England saying “I have to at least have the chance to meet you”.

I was beyond shocked. I told myself I couldn’t meet him (after all, who does that? He might be crazy?) but I decided that I would go to meet him, and I am so glad I did. That day, my life changed forever.

We fell for each other.

Fast forward a short while, and a trip to Canada for me and a surprise trip to England from Adam, and I am packing up everything I own to start a new life in Canada.

I realise it sounds crazy. If I were you I’d think it was. If you’d have told me a year ago that I would be doing this I would have laughed. Never, I would have thought. But here I am.

This last year has been a bumpy one for me. Many changes and lots of soul searching has led me to where I am right now. A year ago, I thought I was nothing. I thought I’d never find happiness. But one thing I have learned, is that taking a chance may be the best thing you ever do. Because life does work in crazy, fantastic, wonderful ways.

It feels now like I could really be someone. I feel positive, and free. Are all my demons gone? Absolutely not. But I have grown in so many ways that they don’t seem so big and powerful anymore.

I’m taking control of my life, and my God does it feel good.

As I write this, I have butterflies in my stomach thinking about what is to come. I never thought that I could feel this way.

Adam was/is my salvation. But I guess I should give myself at least some credit, as this journey was far from easy.

This is the beginning of forever, and the rest of my life.

I’ll try to write more about my adventure and pursuit of my dreams and happiness as it all unfolds. It’s nice to look back over this.

Until next time.. (I’ll probably be in Canada!)

Estelle x