But the investigation showed Hall emailed the juvenile," I am sorry I lost you last night. I do hope you rested well and that you felt better than hating our situation like in your last email. Still I understand... I love you my dear." He sent another email saying," I just focus on the things that keep me and our dream alive. Seeing you... dreaming of the next time, and reminiscing about the last time. These things make me sad too but they help me cope until we are just together. Always, I (sic) live you. Good night my dear.