I must first say that after reading your other questions (some resolved and some still open) that you are definetely dealing with several issues. Your wide range of topics concern me.

You state in other places of your disbelief in The Bible and Christianity and even say you agree with the atheists. Another concern after reading those is the genuinity of this question.

If you are telling the truth and this dream really happened as you have said, I believe that I have the answer for you according to The Word of God.

First, our Heavenly Father has a Father's heart in that He wants a intimate and a passionate relationship with His Kids. He loves us so very much.

St. John 15th chapter talks about that He is the True Vine and we are the branches. If we abide in Him (affectionately, passionately, and intimately), then He will abide in us.

I want to imply that Jesus really is calling you to Himself in a affectionate, intimate, and passionate relationship with Him. We are to be In Him and He will be in us. Almost sounds like intercourse, doesn't it? It's better than intercourse as we know it. There is a place in the spirit that we can live everyday like this. It's a sensual experience and you can feel the most awesomest presence of The Almighty God who created all the heavens and the earth and everything that is within them. It's much better that the highest high, much better than the most intense earthly sexual climatic orgasm. I mean, who are we that a God of His Magnitude would allow us to enjoy such?...but He does because He loves us and desires that we love Him and move toward His direction. It all starts with our decision to do so. He has already done all He can do for us except He will not make us decide to accept Him. It's your choice and if you wanna continue to deny Him (Jesus), then as you deny Him before men He says in The Word that He will deny you before The Father.

I believe the dream to be real and Jesus is calling you to love on Him, taste Him and see that He is good, to touch Him and embrace Him so that He can you as well. To experience the love of our Father in heaven, we have to go through Jesus for He is The Truth, The Light, and The Way.

Man, you are troubled and it's never going to get any better for you until you first make a valuable decision to pursue that kind of relationship with Him. He knows all about you, your deepest thoughts, all your desires, and your secrets too. But several people have ministered some good words to you, It's time to pay attention and change course.

You were not born homosexual. God does not create homosexuals...homosexuality is taught not inherited. A airplane pilot is not born already knowing how to fly a plane, he is taught to do that. You say you have read your Bible several times....when are you going to start believing that Bible because you know the Bible does not teach that garbage.

When you were molested, there is a transferrence of demonic oppressing spirits that takes place. Thats why that many rape victims and many who suffer molestation are oppressed and depressed. Many wind up as alchoholics and dopers, many in jail...it's just so unbearable to deal with. I'm not implying that you are demon possessed, but those kind of spirits have been assigned to oppress you.

Those situations can be broken but you have to be sincere and truly want to be rid of them in your life. I suggest that you call this ministry toll free number at 1-800-600-7395 and be sincere and honest with the person on the other end. These are people who are sincere, knowledgeable of The Word, who prays the prayer of faith as a lifestyle. These spirits can be broken from you and you can be free of these things, but you have to make the decision and make the call. Ask them to follow up often with you, give them permission to do so and they will. If you'll take their lead, your life will start to change very quickly. I hope this helps. PEACE!!!