‘Hold on, I am still alive’ – I Believe – Christina Perri

Life changes us, everything that happens makes us think, feel and see life if a different way than before, the people we meet change us, whether for good or bad, everything that happens is there to teach us something new about ourselves or the world around us.

I’ve learnt a lot in the past 12 months, my life was turned upside down and has continued to give me a rollercoaster ride, I’ve realised I’m stronger than I feel, I think we all just need reminding that it’s ok to have a meltdown that just makes us human, its how we pick ourselves up that matters, I’ve fallen apart so many times but I keep picking myself up.

A good friend of mine lost his closest friend 11 years ago to a car accident – his friend was just 22 years old. He told me the last thing his friend said to him was ‘I love you’, it’s why he signs all his messages whether to girls or guys with xx’s because as he said ‘Life’s too short not to spread a little bit of love’.

It really struck a chord with me, life really is too short.

‘I have felt the pain of losing who you are’ I Believe – Christina Perri

I’ve lost who I am over the past few years, but I don’t want that person back anyway, I’m simply NOT that person anymore, I’ve got to start from scratch, with all the lessons I’ve learnt, You never know what life may hold. I want to look back at my life in 25 years time (at 50 years old) and think, ‘You know what? Life has thrown me some shit, but I’m still here, I’ve fought through all that, those rough times life threw me weren’t good then, but they all helped me in some way to become who I am today’.

It’s all part of life to get a little lost along the way from time to time, otherwise how would we really truly find ourselves?

‘I believe if I knew where I was going, I’d lose my way’ – I Believe – Christina Perri

Depression has had hold of me for half my life, I won’t let it define me I will keep fighting, I will keep finding ways to help me get better, to find my smile properly again, to be able to live my life a little more, I want to make a life not just I can be proud of but my kids to be proud of too.

I need to think of the last 12 months as another chapter in my life, it’s certainly been a challenging one, with high and lows, laughter and tears, smiles and heartache.

It’s all taught me a lot about myself but I think I’m ready to start the next one now.

‘This is not the end of me, this is the beginning’ from I Believe – Christina Perri

I dedicate this post to Robin – You’re helping me see life in a different way, I will love you forever.I promise to make you proud. Xxxx