Rearranging Furniture



You wanted the couch to stay against the

wall but I wanted to move it to the other

side of the room and when you walked

away from me and I ran after you all the

way down the stairs only wrapped in my

blanket I tripped over the couch and by

the time I had stumbled all the

way down the stairs you were gone



gone

gone so I moved the

couch to the other side right

under the slanted ceiling so I had to duck every

time that I stood up but it didn’t matter because you were

gone

gone even though you said that you

loved me.



And then you were back and you said that you

liked where I moved the couch as well as where I moved the

bed that we shared and I didn’t want your approval but I

had it and that was okay because you were

back and you wanted to be there with

me but only for

a little while



because then you were gone

gone but this time I didn’t chase

after you I didn’t want to since you told

me to stab myself in the stomach and

said horrible other things that

I didn’t want to hear ever from any

one but especially

not from you.



I waited to move the furniture because I

had a feeling you would be

back had a feeling I would let you come

back and I was right I was right I was

right I was

not that it matters because you shouldn’t have come

back because every time you come back to

me in my room in my space I have to

rearrange the furniture when you leave again so if you

stop coming back I can put everything in

place but please don’t leave again I don’t

mind not feeling at home in my own home when you’re

here with me please don’t go not

again and then you were gone



but others came and

went and you were gone so I rearranged all the

furniture and finally made it feel like a home until I

moved

moved home then back here into my new

apartment and it didn’t feel like a

home not yet but it was getting there and I was getting there and I even got a

cat and then you

were there you

came back and I

had to stop rearranging the furniture without you because you came



back and my

cat had another seizure last

night and I didn’t know what to

do so I handed you a chair and I

don’t remember why I handed it to you but I

like where you put the chair.