In honor of finals week, here is one of the last psycho emails from Yolanda

Date: Sat, May 29, 2010 at 1:32 AM

Subject: Honestly to God, this is why I acted like a bitch to you, because you were DENYING ME TO THE PUBLIC AND FUCKING ME BEHIND CLOSED DOORS YOU TWO FACED MOTHER FUCKER!!!! I FUCKEN HATE YOU!!







Then with time I fell in love with you because of your actions, because no matter what you wouldn’t leave me and I felt that was LOYALTY.

Then there was that side of me that kept hoping you would like me one day and maybe even love me, and you did eventually admit to liking me but that was it.

But seriously, we could’ve had a normal happy relationship but you, YES YOU WERE THE ONE WHO FUCKED IT ALL UP BY BEING IN DENIAL, BY “FRONTING” BY TELLING EVERYONE YOU DID NOT LIKE ME. Yes you were the one who messed it all up. You were the one, because none of this drama and controlling issues would’ve ever happened if you would’ve just said “yes I like you, and do you want to be my girlfriend” but you chose not to do that, you chose to be miserable and tell everyone and act like it everyday.

What I hate about that the most is WHY THE FUCK??!!! WHY?? You should’ve said to me, I don’t like you and I’m leaving. That is all, and I would’ve said, that sucks. I wouldn’t have insisted because I didn’t even know you back then. But nope instead you stayed and made both of our lives and our friend’s lives miserable because everyone who knew us had to watch us go through all this drama.

Everyone said we were together, that you were my boyfriend but YOU SAID YOU WERE NOT!! Thanks a lot. I am seriously the most idiotic person I’ve ever met. I am seriously stupid for staying with a guy like you who played GAMES WITH MY HEAD!!! If you didn’t like me you should’ve left, no questions asked, you did not have to stay, no one can force you. You could’ve dated another girl, or something, I clearly said I would not be with you if you were seeing someone else.

I hate that you did this to me. That you acted like a boyfriend but told everyone we were nothing but behind closed doors you enjoyed me giving you head that made your head spin and your toes curl, and behind closed doors you enjoyed sticking your hard dick in my vagina, but in front of the WORLD, you DID NOT LIKE ME!! nope you had to be available just in case any girl was interested in you.

I hate you for being a little player, I was wrong about you, you were not the good guy, you were the bad guy hiding in a good guy by appearance. You pretended to be the “good guy” but in reality you were just playing games with my head. This whole time, if you didn’t like me then you should’ve left me immediately. Why harbor the feelings longer, why allow us to get to the next step and kiss and have sex.

I am seriously disappointed in my decisions, I should’ve never been with a guy like you who acted and told the world he did not like me. I am so stupid, but I will never do this again. I am so glad you are finally out of my life and now I will meet someone way better than you who will truly love me and want to be with me.

I hate the fact that you always denied me and acted like you hated me in front of everyone, I feel so stupid.

But you were the one that looked worse because if you really didn’t want anything to do with me then why the fuck were you there by my side? You looked like the player and liar who told everyone we were nothing. Everyone knew we had something going on, or else we wouldn’t spend so much time together but you went and told people that we had nothing and you just looked like a liar and someone who is trying to be a player. You denied me so many times.

For your information, if a girl is having sex with a guy, they are SOMETHING, nothing is literally NOTHING. Imagine this, if you meet a girl and she has a “friend” and you notice they hang out a lot and you ask her.. “Is that your boyfriend?” and she says: “No, I don’t like him, we are not together, we are nothing” then next thing you know, you see them having sex in their car and you hear that they spend all afternoon together in his house and they have sex and he goes down on her during school hours in the library and they make out in between classes and hold hands sometimes. Then you walk up to the girl again and ask her “Hey are you and that guy going out, are you guys something?” and again she says: “No we are friends, nothing else.” At this point either she is a fucking liar, and bitch or she fucks around with all her friends and she calls it nothing. Either way you can see my point, that unless she is doing that with every single person that she calls a “friend” then what she has with that guy is “ SOMETHING !!! ” So this story is the same with you and me except you are that girl, who says we are nothing. Get it?

You not only made me look bad because you are DENYING ME, but you make yourself looks stupid and like you are trying to hide your relationship to leave an open door for someone else. I feel so humiliated for staying with you.

Now I see that the reason this didn’t work out was not because of me but rather because I was just acting up because of the fact that you kept denying our relationship to everyone including your parents. I am so done. I am so done with all this bullshit, all this denying all this crap. I don’t know why I stayed and I truly regret it with all my heart.

honestly to God. I never liked you to begin with, I just wanted you as a friend. You were the one who kept being there everywhere I was at, you were the one that talked to me a lot and you were the one that began hanging out with me a lot. Maybe it was because you needed me to help you out with your essays, or because you had plans of asking me to have sex with you, or maybe you were bored. I don’t know, but the only reason I liked you was because you were always there for me.