I think that most of the times I feel afraid of the world, it is because there are men in it.

Men who want to hurt women; men who don’t want to hurt women but do not realise that they are doing so anyway; men who don’t want to hurt women, but do not care when they do, because whatever they want from the situation is intrinsically more important to them.

Men who you can tell are bad just by looking at them or listening to what they say; men who you instinctively feel could be bad, but you second-guess yourself because you want to believe and trust that they are good; men who you would never guess are bad in any way- whose badness doesn’t show for years, and when it does it is near-invisible to anybody else.

Men who make you feel threatened when they don’t get their own way; men who lash out and shift the focus when they don’t get their own way; men who spin every word when they don’t get their own way; men who act like children and make you their mother figure when they don’t get their own way; men who control you to get their own way, men who take what they want anyway when they don’t get their own way.

Men who do not listen to women’s words the same way they listen to other men’s; men who turn you invisible unless they want to fuck you; men who only want to be your friend because they want to fuck you; men who call you ‘intellectually dishonest’ for using emotion and context to argue a point; men who back you into corners physically, emotionally, verbally.

Men who call you 'crazy’; 'hormonal’; 'irrational’; 'emotional’, men who will not allow your anger to be recognised as a valid emotional response, or your sadness, your distrust.

Men who make you feel the most loved, safe, and cared for after they have abused you.

Men who make you question your reality by telling you with conviction that it is wrong.

Men who take away your sense of independence and self by controlling your every move, and by telling you a better way to do every little thing you’ve taught yourself.

Men who dissolve your self esteem by belittling and insulting you, and calling you names.

Men who tell you that your reasonable emotional reactions are abusive, and infringe on their rights to do whatever they want to do.

Men who do not stop whatever they are doing to you when you ask.

Men who look you in the eyes and lie to you every day to protect their double lives.

I am so tired of absorbing all of this.