Is it insensitive and inappropriate to be blunt here, and say that in retrospect this awful news isn't surprising -- because Oscar was raw and immature and largely incapable of having the kind of more evolved judgment that may have prevented this? That's no excuse for what Taveras did. But his immaturity was always something of a red flag, long before this tragedy.

And is it wrong to think that Oscar is dead, Edilia is dead, nothing can bring them back, and this can't possibly be sadder than it already is ... so quit talking about this. Just let them rest in peace.

Truthfully, I'm feeling a combination of all of these things.

I'm ticked ... frustrated ... sad.

I'm thinking ... dammit, Oscar, you let a lot of people down.

I'm thinking ... dammit, Oscar, you caused others so much pain.

I'm thinking ... dammit, have fun but call a cab or hire a driver.

I'm thinking ... she was only 18, Oscar. And now she's gone.