Since people keep asking me if there's any regret, let's do a recap of 2018:

Since people keep asking me if there's any regret, let's do a recap of 2018. It's going to be deep, personal, and full of details!



By the end of 2017 POILK and GranPkt left to Dignitas and Tricked. I personally felt disappointed and worried because it was difficult to scout for both ranged and support role and we had a really good showing as Zealots during 2017.



Anyway, the message is not to talk about 2017, but to talk about this year and adventure.

We started 2018 with picking up both Cris (which was playing in Diamond Skin) and adrd. Adrd had to change place and we didn't get enough practice and we lost during week 1 to the teams to which we should've not lost by that moment. I got really upset and even though I was working on my behavior - I ended up not doing too well.



As Zealots our plan was to qualify to MSB but we somehow made it to qualify to Western Clash. Then we rode a huge momentum horse because after having a bootcamp (organized by me, with Muppet's and adrd's help!) we felt ready to get top 4 as a maximum goal. After a really shaky day one (and a lot of noise in our room which didn't let me sleep for much) I decided to just have fun and "not give a f.ck" and ended up having the most intense and amazing run over in my life. Crowd was amazing and supportive and I did enjoy a every single moment of the bo7 finals vs Dignitas, leading this to the last teamfight. Even after that - when I was told that I got MVP for this event I was completely speechless and couldn't concentrate for the next couple of days.



Do I regret anything until that moment? Not really.



We came back to the regular play and didn't end up with too good performance but some "Zealots magic" happened during the playoffs and we fought over MSB spot like proud Alliance warriors. We lost a series to Method with a 3-2 result and eventually after MSB adrd told us that he's leaving for Method, so I also was told goodbye by my team.



Do I regret anything until that moment? Not really. I know I sometimes was too harsh with my criticism, sometimes I behaved like a bad teammate, but I didn't really have deep intention to make someone miserable. I just sometimes suck at being a human and I have to deal with it and work over it.



As I ended up with only 2 choices for Phase 2 I decided to give it a shot and play this phase with team Leftovers. I knew they were all good mechanical players but they lacked the strategical stuff which I learned from adrd (by example - how to use vision/waveclear as your biggest ally etc, I don't really wanna go into details). I tried to pass my knowledge as much as I could to the team and we ended up as a strong force in Europe. We qualified for Western Clash - got another 2nd place. We came back strong and riding on another momentum horse, which got us into Blizzcon. What happened on Blizzcon - happens. I would really like to write what was the reason over this performance, but I don't know myself. Maybe bootcamp would've helped, maybe something else would've helped - nobody knows. We are not too happy with the results, but there's no regret in what happened.



In the meantime I started streaming and thanks to initial help from AlexTheProG hosts I managed to have a really good contact with my fans! I love streaming, but taking it in chill way. I believe it's something I will plan on doing while I will end my career as a competitive player because I enjoy every single moment of streaming (maybe not HL :))



I would love to say big Thank You to:

1. Whole Zealots 2018 roster:

Shad, for being an amazing teammate, and even during arguments to always finding a way to reunite after.

Zarmony, for being a teammate for a 2nd year (with some breaks in between), which usually had a distance for my behavior, and also for having amazing synergy on the frontlane, especially during 2k18!

adrd, for becoming a sensei and spending a lot of time outside of the game talking about food, or game and strategies/heroes!

Cris, for handling my trolling during your HL games, and for not getting too upset over how many times I was pointing out your mistakes in not the most civilized way.

Muppet, for always being here and listening to my needs. For sometimes being my translator between the team and my thoughts and of course the LAN support!





2. Whole Leftovers roster:

Bl3kitny, for being a teammate (X time in over my whole career) which shared a lot of responsibilities in game with me, and being open minded about mistakes for 24/7.

Potiboss, for always being calm and productive in your comments! One of the most consistent offlaner in EU, which is way underrated by many teams.

Linked, for always being the funny guy, even if sometimes his focus on practice was not the most optimal,

Deeyabe, for always delivering mechanically on "Your heroes" and putting your heart into Phase 2!



3. You - fans. Without you I would probably be just a random player which sometimes does good in tournaments!



At the same time I would love to apologise to whoever I did hurt, while being in high emotions. I know there's still a long way for me to move on.



I did prove that not only I am not an International Choker - I am a valuable teammate.

I did prove that I do not need XYZ (that was the opinion before) to win games, and I am not considered as a trash like I used to be.

I did prove that everyone can be a top tier player, with a good leadership, work ethic and discipline!



I am really happy of what I accomplished this year and I'm looking forward for 2019! I don't even know what's gonna happen there, but only time will tell!

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