“I was fortunate to be put on a study of a ‘protease inhibitor.’ … It had nothing to do with connections or money," he told Rose. "They were looking for guinea pigs. They were looking for people who weren’t doing well. … I was told that they didn’t know what the consequences would be, that it was a new drug and a powerful drug and it might cause me harm, and they had no idea what might be in store. I wanted to do it very badly because I saw myself going downhill and I thought any chance that I can take at life was just fine with me.”