“Nevertheless I have this against you, that you have left your first love. Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent and do the first works, or else I will come to you quickly and remove your lampstand from its place—unless you repent.” Revelation 2:4-5 (NKJV)

And this is where I currently find myself; not consumed with my First Love as I once was. I can clearly recall delighting in the secret place I had with Him; the joy, contentment, passion, and longing that came with not only seeking Him but finding Him. He was my “More Than Enough”. It was from that place, from that position of my heart that everything in my life flowed. It was a standard and way of life that took my breath away.

What happened?!? (Said in an incredulous tone because I know better than to let my heart stray in this way.)

From that sweet, secret niche to this muddled place of confusion has been a slow progression. I can’t put my finger on when or where it began or how it continued so long without me recognizing the condition of my heart…and therefore the state of my life. Without the empowerment and satisfaction that comes from walking fully in that Love, much of my life feels like a tangled web. I have given my heart and affection to places, people, and noble responsibilities. As a result, I often struggle to recognize who I am.

God’s call to me has not changed. “My lover said to me, Rise up, my darling! Come away with me, my fair one!” Song of Solomon 2:10 (NLT)