Convinced that reality is mostly a network of “mental illness” passed on by generations of trauma & abuse & this is more totalitarian & distributed than MKULTRA & is not a conspiracy but a fact of life— & that Jesus is the perfect scapegoat of the abuse cycle who figured it out.

In any network of abuse, the scapegoat is chosen for being the only one capable of revealing the foundational lie that justifies the narrative & protects the network of abusers. In a sense, to be scapegoated is to be chosen by God. He has a sense of humor.

It’s actually a curse to succeed or be protected by the network of abuse because it means you spend a longer time embedding your sense of self into the narrative of abuse— & at some point it will turn on you. It always does.