Dear Diary,

Today, I went to a beach not too far from home. I was walking alongside the crystal clear waters. The atmosphere was amazing. The sun was about to set. I happened to come across a bed rock where I could look out to the sea. Ah the sound of the waves really gets to me, I love it. I sat by the edge, glancing, as usual I am mesmerised by the work of His hand.

It was this very moment I took the opportunity to pray, to be grateful for everything He had created and done for me. I bowed my head down, shut my eyes, placed my hands upon my face.

I thanked God for all He had done for me. I praised Him for His work. I asked that His will would be done in my life.

“Do you love me?” … A voice was heard. I responded.

“Yes”

Again, I heard.. “Do you love me?”

“Yes, Lord, I do!”

“Do you love me?” .. It was said a third time. But this time I didn’t respond. Rather, a flash of images went through my head. The times I neglected Him, the times I had forgotten about Him, the times I put people, entertainment, and the world before Him.

It made me question myself. Do I love Him?

When did I put Him first? Why am I not putting Him first when He has always put me first? Why do I neglect Him when He truly loves and adores me? He came to save my life, suffered and died for me?! Not once did He ever forget about me on the road to Calvary, so why do I forget Him everyday?

It was that very moment I realised how much I truly loved Christ.

“Forgive me, Lord. I love you.”

– Me.