For some history It takes me about 12 hours to make a recap. 2 hours to weed through the recap submission thread, 1 hour to shoot it, another hour to download all the videos, and easily 8 hours to edit it. I stay up late, I miss events with friends, I rush, I worry, and some weeks it is a super pain. In the end it is normally worth it.

I am going to be honest. The comments on the latest recap really hurt. If you are not aware the comment section wasn’t so good this week.

A lot of people think that I added too much of myself into the recap.

The recap has internal rules I use when scripting. I started these before I was part of mindcrack so people wouldn’t think I was playing favorites. The vanilla server news is close to chronological order. Basicly I will look at upload day but not upload time. Every mindcrack video is included, the only exceptions are streams because condensing hours of a stream into any summary, downloading the whole stream, and converting it is difficult. I only cover new series in the miscellaneous section, or recurring series that the creator has changed the “season” number on. Basicly from the start I wanted something that I couldn’t have any editorial control over. I didn’t want people saying that I only covered Etho’s videos and never Baj’s, so i made it that EVERY vanilla video got in.

I assumed that people knew this, and when I joined the server people would understand that I still wouldn’t be playing favorites. I uploaded more than anyone else this week so I was in the recap more than any other person.

I think that the reception pained me exceptionally bad this week because of other circumstances as well. I went to Austin this past week and things were hectic. I was recording with a setup that was frustrating. The new computer, the lack of time, and a lack of ideas made this last week of content some of the most embarrassing content I have made. I wasn’t proud of my work this week.

That takes me to the people commenting about me filling in a hole. It was not the best content, it was also taken out of context (I thought that would be funny).Even if the content wasn’t good I also feel like that is because I am a small youtuber. This is probably unhealthy, but what if guude filled in a hole? It seems like people wouldn’t be as mad.

I am not sure what to do, Part of me wants to say I will never do the recap again. ‘If they can’t handle it then they won’t get it.’ Another part of me feel like it is just ignorance. Or maybe it is because I am a small youtuber. Finally maybe I will feel like next week will be a better week for me. (no holes) I am not sure. I feel really defeated and I hope time heals it.

Also Special shout out to BrillOBuffalo. I get that you like the recaps, you have let me know on comments and twitter. But the recap is volunteer work. When I am with my family in Austin I will not spend the 12 hours it takes away from my family time. About the intro, It took me a week to make the last intro and I don’t have time to make another. If it bothers you so much, make me a better one yourself and I will use it.