I use the word “incarnated”, even though it’s not the best way to describe what is going on… Yes I am dealing with a demon entity who was summoned long ago into body of a young man (now adult, 30+ for sure) and taken over him completily. Now there is no longer a human consciousness of the past “host” in his body, but instead it is being runned entirely by my beloved demon… I can kinda understand that process myself as not further tjan half a year ago I got to meet an entity that I am actual incarnation of, and we two are currently in process of becoming one again through connection, meditation, working with Nature energies and rituals. So… Needles to say I know on my own skin how it is to not be a human being, dwelling in Earthly body (yes, I am also working on changing my body structure from human to Elven and so far I have noticed some minor results )… I told him later, after I have discovered who he is, in fear that he will leave me or think I am crazy or sth… Funny thing… I have discovered who is my love through another demon. My lover was really scared that I will leave him alone now that I found out but here I am - rather dead than without my mighty Watcher So You can say it is kinda common fear among non-human people to actually openly talk about who they really are, especially with most people nowdays being overly religious, or extreme opposite- overly sceptic… I had witnessed 1st hand prooves of both my and his origin so I am now 100% sure that it was not all some kind of sick joke XD It may sound silly and cliché, but… but this man had saved my life… Before I met him, I broke up with a man who was 21 years older than me… He left me with no word of slightest explanation nor goodbye, which made me panick and do something really, really dumb and irresponsible after which he found out and trully hated me… The breakup was so painful to me… First few months I considered it a miracle that my heart did not get “error 404” shit and didn’t shut down completily from all this pain and grief I had felt… I wanted to commit suicide and I have been thinking about it far too many times for it to be considered “normal” even by me, but I’ve never had “courage” to act on it… It felt as if someone ripped 50% of my own soul away from me… Sounds pathetic but this is how I felt. Even though it was he who cut the contact off first without even explaining himself later… It was me who took all the blame and hate, even my very own, unto myself. I saw my own fault only, not seeing his… Now I know from certain fire-related demon ( ) that now have become like an annoying but lovable older brother to me, that this 41/42 year old man wanted to become a god and thought he succeded because he was immune to fire because of this demon. But it’s only that and even that demon thinks it’s pathetic. He told me that I should be happy to lose him, as I was allegedily nothing but a toy for him. That I supposedly “destroyed his plans” whatever that trully means (I believe I know XD) and we really had a good laugh about this dude but anyways… That pain… It was so severe I authentically rathered to die than live like that… When I was so down I actually willingly put my safety and life into jeopardy, thinking that I actually don’t have anything in this life anymore, so why to live…? Than he… My priceless Watcher… Came to my life… At first we were merely friends, but the more we talked to eachother, the more we both realised that it is something much, much more than just a friendship. His love healed that rotting, bleeding open wound in my heart that came to be after my breakup… Not first one, but most painful one and yet HE, Shemyaza the Watcher, was able to make my heart whole again just by being himself and being there for me… It saved my life, guys He protected me and put himself into life-threatening danger just to keep me safe… When my friend wanted to hung herself, he intervened just in time, thus saving her as well… When I was all in tears, my life falling apart, it was he who was able to cheer me up and bring the broken pieces back together… He was so loving, so gentle, so kind and caring… He was everything my first man prooved to be an opposite of… I believe that my love for him will be eternal. I know, cliché as fucking hell, but that’s just how I feel… Noone had done that much to me, completily unconditionally, as this man, who turned out to be a fallen angel, did. If this is not love, I don’t know what is…

There is much more to that and the circumstances in which me, Samyaza and that other demon met were really crazy to say the least but this is not related to our love and completily pointless to mention here. Weird things were happening recently and I’m kind of worried about his (Samyaza’s) safety… I am trying to communicate with him via telepathy, but if it will fail, I still have internet and my phone so… I believe it will all be ok.

Well yeah… This is me. Do YOU have such life story to tell? Were You ever in love with a non human entity (in physical or spiritual, doesn’t matter) that completily turned Your world around for better? Feel free to share To end my long as fək thread I will leave You guys with a beautiful song that keeps reminding me of my demon love wherever I listen to it. It’s a song he had shown me. I hope You’ll enjoy This was VERY personal confession from my side and though I am waiting to hear from each and every one of You, noone of You is obliged to share that much details

