Sup guys.

This is quite a little novel, with some awesome ADHD sidetrack awesome information. Is a lot of good material in here I would read it all.

For those of you who know who I am, no I have not relapsed. In three days or October 30th, I will have been sober from Crystal Meth 10 months (304 days).

I only use meth from the end of September 2018 // December 30th 2018.

Call that a good 3 months. How did I start? I was prescribed Adderall 30 mg a day, 15xr in the morning & 15 ir in the afternoon.

I didn't ask for Adderall. I noticed that my life was degrading to a point where all I did was work I would go home and I would sit on a couch and I'd watch TV go to sleep and repeat. That seems pretty normal right. What if I said that's all I did, what am I missing? Put on pajamas, Wash my clothes, Cook my own meals, take a shower more than once a week. Cut my hair, brush my teeth, attempts to have motivation to even give a s***.

I explain this all to a psychiatric nurse practitioner which is basically a glorified doctor nurse, they are able to prescribe medications the whole vast of them, psychiatric nurse practitioners are mainly for psychological.

These are the doctors you usually get your ADHD medication from. A lot of these clinics require you to go take an ADHD test for you can be certified.

I talked to him for 20 minutes. He said I need Adderall, he started me out on the 30 mg a day routine, you didn't even make me take the test because I was completely honest about what the f*** is going on in my life.

So now I got Adderall. To be honest the first three days that you're on Adderall are probably the best or the most least productive. I consider this due to because of the term hyper focus. Low tolerance creates a lot of punch at once, if you reach a blood chemical limit that's not really in a therapeutic range anymore, you are now hyperfocusing. You ever just like take an Adderall or smoke a bowl of crystal, and just get stuck on your phone or thinking about something or doing something and like maybe an hour or two past by and you're like what the f*** happened. That's called hyper focus. Also when you're in hyperfocus you're usually very euphoric, there's also a chance you could have a tweaking episode because the rush is just way too much which causes an anxiety problem thus causing a panic attack.

Fair warning to everyone that does any type of amphetamine stimulants. If you think you're having a heart attack like your legs are starting to twitch around and flail around or like you feel like something's going through your chest on the inside or like maybe you think you have a blood clot just flowing around in everywhere thinking you're going to die. this is like 80% of panic attack and panic attacks can make you think and feel and be so helpless that you don't even know you're having a panic attack. honestly until somebody actually says you have a panic attack a lot of people live their lives with huge anxiety, Even the definition of a panic attack is just all in the word panic. If you had a fish tank filled with Avast number of fish, if you were to put them in panic mode what's happening. they are going everywhere at a maximum power and it is a f****** whirlwind probably looking inside that aquarium. Chaos.

If you've ever gotten worried and then you felt really hot and then maybe you had to take a shit.... for like you really had to take a shit for all of a sudden you just opened up the whole colon.

this is your body reacting to the amount of dressers that just came through your brain. If something's causing a super stresser, That's when people usually melt down.

I can remember this from when I was in grade school and I freaked out on some teachers they brought me to the special ed room and they threw me in this small ass room with a magnetic power lock on the door. Literally a cool off-road I would go ape s*** in there and then eventually just settle down.

Because of this the new that my anger problems that I originally got put in special at in because I kicked the teacher in the shin because she told me what to do, arrived attack and a panic attack I really kind of the same but obviously rage is more violence dominated.

When they got me out of the room they told me that they were going to call my mom. My mom was a stray day cunt if you pissed her off. My bowles started to ache , my entire body got red hot flush. And I feel like I was going to drop a nuclear bomb in my pants.

so much anxiety so many stressors from trying to think about what my mom would do, I basically almost s*** my pants that is a panic attack. If ever if someone says something that is very critical or precious. And I hear something went wrong, like a business owner and his brand new semi driver just crashed into another semi. His heart's going to drop and anything after that could be a panic attack if he loses his ability to keep control. The panic attack is the loss of control.

When I was on IV meth we walked over this bridge at a local state park that literally was basically a big waterfall dropped your death. When I started walking on it I got wide-angle vision. All I could think about was looking down at how far it was. I went to the hospital right after that because I literally was flaming around in a car I was completely fine during the hike but crossing that bridge and seen my friend really tweak out about it made me tweak out. An IV meth doesn't help either. I literally thought I was going to die. by the time the hospital got to me I was already cool they gave me an Ativan and literally like the psychosis got way worse. imagine going down a dark road on an interstate looking at cars from behind and they would start morphine into the skylight , huge things. my friend thought I was losing it and I was because those f****** cars in front of us that just turned transformer, we're throwing shadow spears at me.

Another rule thumb. Amphetamine induced sleep deprivation which ends stacking up with how many days you have missed in any given sleep cycle.

Fun fact: one day of miss sleep will equal 3 days of sleep deprivation, it takes 3 days to return to normal for every one day missed.

Now you're probably thinking holy s*** I stay up way more than 3 days. Or maybe your body wants to go to sleep after day 3 cuz day 3 is pretty hard right?

If you only sleep 12 hours, Wake up and binge for another 3 days. You are stacking multipliers on top of each other.

All of a sudden Shadow people are coming around much more, and this could be because of how many stacking sleep deprivation days you got going on, and how much amphetamines you actually consuming if you consume a lot of amphetamines you can also trip out without sleep deprivation.

Shadow people hallucinations hearing stuff or hard tweaking, this is called psychosis. a proper word would be amphetamine induced psychosis by acute onset of amphetamine induced sleep deprivation.

I know it's a lot.

So what does this mean?

Psychosis especially under the conditions listed above, are more similar to the mental disorder schizophrenia. no you're not going to stay schizophrenic You're going to have to go to sleep and your mind will start repairing itself. Do be warm though you do have a possible chance of becoming schizophrenic due to several different factors including jeans and pre-disposition mental disorders or even mental disorders that don't have any symptoms but the use of meth may cause these mental disorders to Spike.

2 weeks later into the Adderall, (holy s*** how did we just go back to that??)

The information above is for the movies or the window shoppers on Reddit. I would rather people know what really happens before they go on speedway and end up accepting five people yelling at this person to do a boof. What if he puts too much in there and dies, what if he doesn't know any of this is going to happen possibly, and he completely loses it.

researchers your friend if you become addicted to meth or whatever reason brought you to ever try it, when your spun, after you have fun whatever you consider fun during the intense euphoria stage of methamphetamine, use the rest to research, you'll find a lot of stuff that might help you you can wash cuts off meth real easy with a trip to Walmart, you can learn all the different ways and all the different route of administrations or ROA's, and you'll feel more confident about what you are doing to your body and you'll be able to do it much safely.

*Do not I repeat do not use a flower scale or a scale that is not rated to ,000. This is a milligram scale very fine weight measuring, pick it up for 30 $40 on Amazon. You want to make sure that it's .000"

Milligram scales are great because they can sense smaller particles like dust or sand or maybe all the extra shards you just want to sprinkle on to The measuring cup.

Cocaine, meth, MDMA or Rock Molly, for any type of substance that you are going to want a milligram specification. If you use a 00 or 0 flower scale most of the time especially you dealers you are giving too much away.

First time I ever met my meth plug I sold him my milligram scale, why? Because I don't want to get shorted because he's not wean it right, and I showed him he gave me too much because the flower scale just gave it a random number because it can't read all those small particles laying on top of each other.

Thereforeshowed his plugs and therefore and therefore. I learned this because I was a moderator on England's largest harm reduction safety group for drugs. This was called sesh safety.

It was a lot of Molly, a lot of X, a lot of party or rave drugs like gamma hydroxy butera (GHB, Georgia homeboy, liquid ecstasy, or as the public knows it the 'date rip drug')

Believe it or not the date rape drug has recreational properties. Obviously besides the whole lake roofie rape thing.

So if you take a stimulant and you start peeking what are you doing at the peak You're peeking over the creSt. This is very euphoric.

GHB, brings you down, way down, very close to ketamine type down since ketamine is a horse tranquilizer.

If you ride the fine line from being in a g-hole (knocked out can't move for hours, this is how people rape people) , the euphoria is just as amazing, it's been told that it is equivalent to ecstasy but as a downer.

there's plenty of other drugs I just wanted to put GHB on this list because that was the most interesting type of drug that I've ever came across because it's so controversial because it's used for people who rape people. This drug is actually most popular in the rave scene. Only problem I have with it is that if you drink too much of this stuff you could die, if someone doesn't know what the breakdown of the liquid does GHBs in a clear liquid, if you don't know exactly how much GHB is in that solution, you can either underdose someone or overdose someone and overdose will be just like an opioid OD, maybe not exactly like but it will bring you too low that it will stop everything.

So yeah I've been doing harm reduction since 2016, and it's all based on personal experience. I know absolutely nothing about opioids or most downers, but I will say this:

You can either go up up up, and crash land (stimulants)

Or you can play the game of "how low can you go?".................... Probably 6 ft under. I came up with that u/TripTeamSix because I have personally seen what alcohol opioids and benzopines(Xanax) have done to some of my close friends.

this is super controversial and you guys post what you think in the comments this is going to be the biggest one that I want answered that's not a part of the subject as the subject is as farther down. But if you go through that quote I have, it's saying that you can go up and up and up and then you got nowhere else to go but down. And no parachute. Crashland. It's horrible, but it's all mental withdrawal because methamphetamine and most stimulants change the brain chemistry and start using hormones that are usually not pumped out that fast and when returned to a sober state, all of those hormones usually bottom out and then you're stuck in what's called the void, The void is a dark endless pit of despair and unhappiness. No ambitions no rewards no motivation just the void. it's come to say that 80% of deaths related to methamphetamine are suicide. What I just said explains all that you are in a world of hurt mentally and you do not want to exist anymore. I did IV meth and I was putting 1,000 mg a day into my arm, The come down from that was insane on day three I jumped out of a moving car.

Opioids, physical withdrawal. meaning that if you become heavily addicted or dependent which is a completely different scale above addiction that the user has almost no control over, because if he stops he dies.

Methamphetamine and other stimulants actually have dependents too. When you're addicted to something past level that it turns into your dependent on it which means you cannot survive or function normally without it. Again if you are mentally dependent on your stimulant, best word of advice is go to a detox because they will give you the benzopines that will stop you from giving a s*** that you're entire surroundings are going up in flames and rounding into hell.

Opioids, physical withdrawal, can kill you

Stimulants, mental withdrawal, you can kill you.

Benzopines, physical and mental, The seizures will kill you from withdrawal. ---that is not fun I would rather be on physical withdrawal than to have to deal with a week in the hospital while they're trying to prevent your brain from turning into nothing from all the seizures that you might have.

Alcohol booze, it's legal in the United States, we all know how bad that can be and just for you know the world's most dangerous drug list goes like this for its top five:

1. Alcohol specifically ethanol. Most dangerous drug in the entire world, the addiction properties and the ability to go almost anywhere down a road or town or city you might see a billboard you might see a bar you might go into the gas station and see some 3-2 or hell f****** 10% wherever the hell they sell that in a gas station. This is based on harm to user, so how much harm are you doing to yourself & and social economics harm to others. so this entire top five is based on how much you hurt yourself how much you hurt others and the social economics between it all. Multiple universities or specialist came up with a few different charts that really ended up the same specially if they had social economics built into them harm to use or harm to others.

Alcohol- harm to users, if you only count the physical harm that you could cause yourself while trashed, also think about your reputation or your life if you went to jail for doing something completely stupid on ethanol, which also has NO(it has therapeutic properties but that doesn't count in the medical world for boose) , it has no medicinal recreational use whatsoever in the eyes of health. Ethanol straight poison, You're getting impaired because it is poisoning your body, it is not good for you, it is never good for you. usually it is combined with carbohydrates which if you did not know this alcohol changes your body's mitochondria it's power source and kind of f**** with it a little bit. does any time you're drinking and you guys know you probably like those pizzas or whatever while trash or you know go get taco Bell, because the mitochondria gets little messed up in the cells everything is stored to fat and it's usually visceral fat, vistaril fat is fat on top of organs which is not good at all. You ever heard a fatty liver?

2. Heroin. I mean you guys probably thought this was number one but you just got to think about it a little bit, everybody know someone who drinks or I hope they do because that is one silver community (sorry rosebud reservation in South Dakota, stay strong). Heroin is an opioid, and it has a severe catastrophic deadly harm to user. I mean if you think of heroin you kind of think of people just overdosing with needles in their arm right!?. That's playing that game how low can you go, and a lot of people go 6 ft under. If you are under the influence of an opioid, and whoever's with you starts to notice that you're starting to OD, do this for your life, maybe find your local clinic or help clinic or even where they give out those free needles. Grab narcan. Narcan Will reverse the opioids affect and prevent the person from dying or at least try. Vicodin Percocets oxys hydrocodone fentanyl heroin. Anything that's opioid based if you use it please have narcan on you and a trip sitter.

3. Crack cocaine. You ever heard the term crack is whack? It's because it is whack, especially when you compare it to other stimulants that are up on this list. Crack cocaine is smokable cocaine. Cocaine is known for very powerful effects God like feelings, and whatever else Google wants to tell you cuz I'm not googling it ha. Downside of cocaine along with crack cocaine, is the duration of the pleasurable effects. Snort some cocaine, which is called insufflation, where the substance lays on your nasal veins, a Network of veins that run inside your nose, and bypasses a critical step in what I would like to call the filtration and absorption of this substance. Right to the bloodstream. Crack cocaine is usually smoked which means it's inhalation for its ROA or route of the admininistration. It's through the lungs. The most potent besides intravenous injection or IV, is through the lungs, it has the worst duration out of all our ways as it hits fast and also dissipates fast. So just imagine you smoke some crack, and all of a sudden it stops working and you want to smoke some more crack maybe like 20 minutes later maybe 10 minutes later. oh then you start to see why this is bad because now you're spending all your money because crack don't last worth s***, thus causing the user to have very erratic very dangerous tendencies, as I would call this fiegning. This is where a addict will do anything for the substance you are literally you want it and you will do anything it takes to get it. That is not a good mental attribute. Crosses on the side of maniac basically psychopathic cuz you will do anything for more. Including kill someone a rob someone. Which why the harm to user is about average for what you would think, considering cocaine and crack cocaine is very cardiotoxic which means puts a lot of toxins on the heart a lot of stress bad stuff. The Honda others is more than the harm they users, everybody thinks that meth heads are going to steal your s*** or kill you or any of that but we're going to get to that later. I'm saying it's not the meth heads it's the crackheads. Crack is whack that's all I'm saying, if you smoke crack, please explain of how the withdrawal especially because it's a cute withdrawal meaning that it's happening right then and there there is no really big down or coming down. It's too unstable of a drug being that it's the most powerful besides injecting but the least duration out of all.

4. Here it is. Methamphetamine HCL. Which stands for methamphetamine hydrochloride, which literally just means that methamphetamine was turned into a salt, because a lot of medications are unstable unless they're in salt formulation.

Harm to user: mental illness, heart problems, depression and suicide. The harm to user is excessive, you playing around with your organs, playing around with your brain your central nervous system speed that doesn't have a governor if you overspend your central nervous system you will die and it will be painful because stimulant overdoses usually cause your blood vessels to start closing up and if they clamp shut for whatever reason, that is a horrible pain trust me I have went through it your entire body feels like it's getting stabbed. Next would be seizures and then convulsions and then death. Main warning please Read this: there is no cure for most stimulant overdoses, it's really hard to stop your central nervous system from melting down. Yes they could give you IV benzopines the slower everything down, that could also cause a huge fight between up and down and it could stop your heart which is also super dangerous. I've had very close calls with methamphetamine, I call them overdoses, some people call them over amping. But most people think of overdoses as death, well you're either going to live or you're going to die. Seriously. so just remember that if you want to go higher you want to get more fun just remember you can't go too high. Fun fact amphetamines and methamphetamine and dextrophetamine which is adderall, have a very big LD 50, which is a rating on how much it took tequila rat and then put it into human variables. you will probably die before you reach LD-50 and this is most because of cuts or fillers. Methamphetamine can get cut or might not be methamphetamine it could be a iso meth which really can kill you really easy, and pills like Adderall what the pill is made out of That's a lot of random chemicals that are just a lot of filler. All that going through your liver can cause some bad problems. But let's see you get some pure methamphetamine or amphetamine paste, you would probably have something happen to you either an organ couldn't handle it or something before you actually hit that LD-50, but we're saying that I'm just going to use us to OG stims for an example, u/TripTeamSix & u/OhDeerLordMan

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Have taken some pretty thick IV injections that contained 400 mg (.4) to 700 mg (.7). I actually met someone while picking up when I was using, that loaded.85 and continuously shot it, meaning no turn a kit no flash and it's in your heart and you're going crazy, just slowly push the plunger in and just see how long you can go and he went and tire thing and he didn't die. That is a lot a lot, of methamphetamine.

Harm to others: the smallest out of any of them on the chart, you ever notice that a muscle meth head is actually withdrawing and tweaking like actual tweek, tweek.. they're pretty closed off, sometimes isolated, and want to keep themselves and not cause any type of drama that's going to ruin how they're feeling. This is where I said everybody thinks that meth heads are these horrible people, we're honestly the people that probably are the most functional yet capable and kind-hearted or loving of the top five hardest drugs in the world. I'm not saying that your mess dealer won't rob you, I'm not saying a dude that's been up for 17 days and thinks you're a dragon and stabs you isn't going to hurt you. But stable addicts or stable users, tend to not want to cause any fuss.

5. Yeah, IDC about 5, honestly I couldn't remember what was number five so yeah everyone take a laugh hahaha all right.

Now for the question. Relapse for those who have entered the realm of recovery, and I am pacifically talking about stimulants, mostly methamphetamine to be exact.

Everybody knows that heroin and meth and booze are very common hardcore drugs that most users cannot get away from. Heroin being the most epic, and alcohol being the most hardest to resist.

What kind of support do you have or would you like in a recovery situation?

Supported relapse:

I'm putting this number one because this is what everyone should have. I was once told by multiple different people that relapse is a part of recovery. When you're in recovery the people around you and the continuing lifestyle or surroundings need to be improper place otherwise it's doomed to fail. Supported relapse has structure and usually you can get these easily then trying to find your own with treatment centers and sober house living.

Your family, support you and all they care about is your well-being and your health. They're there to support you when you relapse, your job is to get right back on that bus, Don't go out for a week binge and end up getting stuck in a hardcore diction again that you've just tried so hard to get out of. This family thing is really the definition between supported relapse and non-supported relapse.

Basically someone's got you someone you can talk to someone you don't have to be afraid to talk to. binges and extended relapse or addiction relapse or even dependency relapse where you go all the way back to the top, are mainly because of your support system, can you talk to someone or are they going to get mad or disown you.

Non-supported relapse:

This is one of the tougher ones that some people choose and this is another one that people are forced into. Non-supported relapse is you are kind of supporting yourself through this epic journey that usually requires treatment and some type of behavioral treatment for you can learn new things instead of just thinking about the substance. I am 10 months sober and I am non-supportive release, I went cold turkey too. That is some hard shit. hardship because I injected meth and my usage or quantity was outrageously insane. Harder you go the harder you fall.

Non-supported relapse has one very bad factor about it, is the fact of your support system or people you love. Some people think addiction as a choice and if you're going to make that choice they no longer want you in their life. What's that kind of sound like? You don't have a choice. You either stay clean or suffer the consequences. You f****** you could lose your parents, lose your girlfriend, who's your entire life again because you slipped up once. Remember I said earlier that relapse is apart of recovery. Someone in non-supported relapse cannot talk to anyone, they will never know until they do it and lose everything of what a relapse feels like. A lot of people who relapse kind of sell it on themselves. Eventually especially people in non-supportive relapse, we'll go back to their old ways because they're environment doesn't have any structure doesn't have rules and they are left the ponder with themselves not being able to talk to anyone and eventually relapsing and losing everything when the meth had next door his parents are taking care of them and they're telling them that they're proud and that's amazing not, "if you were ever do it again I could not be in your life" ,,,,,"if I catch you doing this in my house or ever again anywhere I will disown you as my son!".

I'm in bad factors, actually the worst factors, I have the most likely chance to relapse out of the manufacturers you can calculate into this. My family they expect me to never relapse and stay strong if I don't I run the risk of losing them getting disowned getting kicked out. Like my roommate said that if I were to ever just try it again or you know relapse that she could no longer be in my life and I would have to go.

This causes very big stressors on the person in recovery. They have so much on their plate, they have to try with all their might to not relapse, and also try to be happy when you're going through PAWS, or post acute withdrawal syndrome, which can last up to 2 years. You want post acute withdrawal syndrome is like? Everything Lost it spark. And being 10 months sober I still can't find the spark in anything. I cannot find fun in most things I used to find fun. I really don't want to do anything because nothing seems interesting nothing seems rewarding. You have to force yourself to keep going. and if you do not have a support system that you can talk to or rely on or even you feel like you're going to relapse and you want to call someone imagine calling, a sister or a father, and they are non-supporting of relapse, they might get mad at you, they might tweak out themselves and call the cops for you don't relapse and you could just go to jail for possession of a Class II scheduled substance. (Yes, class II, meaning that it has some type of purpose for medicinal effect or something that makes it not completely worthless and no need to ever have this substance ever, schedule one substances have no use whatsoever and being in possession of something that literally has no use towards the government's eyes is the worst offense of possession also depending on how much you have. )

You got to think outside the box, I want up in a hospital forced in by the cops because I vented to my sister one time during a panic attack and I can honestly say I will never open up about how I'm actually feeling or how life is after meth to anyone of importance because I'm just going to scare them to the point where they're going to try to force me into treatment again or get me help or therapy or something like that.

If you don't have a proper support system, for someone you can talk to or vent to, or even someone that just makes you feel better on the inside and understand that your life is completely f***** at the moment. A wife or girlfriend that understands that you're not going to be the same and you got to keep on working towards it. Your main goal is to not relapse, but you're ultimate goal is your health and safety. Meaning if you stop meth and start eating Chinese buffets non-stop every week everyday. That's just trading in addiction for another addiction and that diction will kill you just as fast.

Currently I am sober for all the variables, meaning my family disowning me my girlfriend/roommate (don't ask), has been supporting me through my entire recovery all the way up until I got a job and now I'm helping with the household. I lose respect trust from everyone by relapsing, they probably would be so upset that they wouldn't be able to help me or give a crap because it'd be so mad because I did something that I should never do again. I lost most of my friends on math because they didn't agree with it I'm sure most of you guys are starting to lose them have lost them or you may new ones hopefully they're good ones but usually we lose the good ones right? Unfortunately for me I found meth on a dating website that I will not discuss, but it was suggested by a person on speedway, technically that is sourcing, subsourcing, whatever you want to call it. it would be illegal in red it size to tell someone to go get a substance off of a certain place.

The bonus point of this is that most of my friends maybe did Molly rarely, acid, but they were mainly drinkers. Nobody did math or heroin or crack, no the drinkers did really like cocaine. also cocaine is just as addicting as methamphetamine, it is also more dangerous than methamphetamine to you it's cardiotoxic nature and the LD50 being low enough that you can overdose on cocaine way faster than methamphetamine. Please be careful with cocaine it is not some fluffy little doesn't matter thing. I have known people in real life that went through such a struggle bus to get clean off of cocaine they would go to the clubs three times a week all on the weekends or cocaine get drunk through it all over again. Cocaine is fun for people but it is just as wack as crack. The duration is short. If you snorted a line of meth you'd be going for hours it's just more efficient and when you have more efficiency you have less chances for irritation or the need to keep on redosing to keep the same effect. Like crack cocaine, it only takes a little bit which I actually don't know how long but, I can imagine someone just starting out smoking crack, Loving it, can't get enough of it, literally can't get enough of it because the dude ran out, well now I'm out of money, what are you going to do next? Suck a dick for a bowl full?

I have no friends that do methamphetamine, The people I bought it from where at least 35 mi away in jam packed metro. I couldn't remember the house if I tried. when I got sober I removed and deleted and got rid of anything that would allow me an access or portal back into that life. some people have friends that do this and that's how they got into it and their family might do it or their whole town is just riddled with it. That's how alcohol is so hard because if it's just all around you it's so hard to say no.

Personally, I am very undecided on if I would tell someone to quit or not anymore. Part of me is so blank and hulled out, that I know that I am a better person or methamphetamine, like I took two showers a day, I brush my teeth everyday, I took care of my skin, I hydrated, I took care of my body hair for my lotion for my skin doesn't dry up and I don't get sores or I start picking it things, Yes that's right it is not gay to manscape, technically and this blew me off when I was watching so videos on YouTube but it was consistent, deodorant or antiperspirant was not made to be put on to your hairs it was made we put on the skin so technically and three different videos with three different men telling other dudes to just shut up and shave their armpits or at least buzz them short, you will find a drastic difference on how long that stuff lasts and how less messy it is because the hair is in everywhere.

Do you ever smoke out of your meth pipe, straight outta bubble, and your face starts to get a random red rash? Or maybe you're getting red rashes and small spots around your face? When you smoke meth out of a bubble with no type of filter attachment, can't you feel the little mini shards just layered up against your teeth? I highly encourage people to go buy themselves a shit bong. You buy it a bong preferably with perks or some type of attachment that you can break up that air bubble, and they sell attachments at most tobacco stores otherwise you can go online and buy an attachment for a bond that turns it into a bubble at the bubble attachment. Fun thing is that Meth is water soluble, which means if you ever need a transport that pipe or the attachment pipe, Wash it really good with water rinse it rinse it make sure you wipe it down everything's good because once water touches residue of methamphetamine it instantly just soaks right into the water enough rinses it's squeaky clean. For the pipe itself if the water is not getting it use a torch and very nicely heat up the bubble ball and burn off all the excess then wash with water and you will have crystal clear bubble again.

Hydrate hydrate hydrate. Yes everyone tells you to drink water you should I'm not going to tell you to drink water you do whatever you want just don't die okay? What I mean by hydrate is hydrate your skin, The whole reason people get meth sores or they feel the bugs or their face breaks out and their teeth rot, is because again methamphetamine is water soluble, meaning that it can move wherever the water system can move if it's in your body. Methamphetamine is processed and filtered through the liver if went through the stomach, another fun fact anything that goes in your stomach most go through the liver which slows everything down so if you take a short of meth and pop it or parachute it just swallow it, you will end up with an Adderall XR that lasts 14 hours like Vyvanse that is just way strong. most people don't ever think about eating it because it tastes like crap and it might upset your stomach a little bit but. A tiny little shard of meth with a low Adderall tolerance will God if you could not abuse it it's technically the most effective treatment for ADHD narcolepsy and major depressive disorder because major depressive disorder or MDD is mostly caused by a lack of serotonin and methamphetamine actually Spike's serotonin enough to be able to alleviate depression that was caused by bottomed out or low hormone levels of serotonin. Dextroamphetamine, which is what Vyvanse turns into, 75% of Adderall is, and what 100% dextrin is. Dextroamphetamine, Will increase serotonin but not at the level that methamphetamine will.

What's the difference between dextroamphetamine & methamphetamine?

Dextroamphetamine is what's in most ADHD medication. Besides Ritalin because that is methylphenidate and a different type of stimulant, anyone that ever comes across concerta or Ritalin or anything that's basically methylphenidate based, please note that methylphenidate is extremely extremely tolerance based for dosage. Starting out a methylphenidate they will start you out at the safest lowest dose possible. Because even taking a max strength Ritalin that someone that's been taking it for years or whatever. Will kill you or at least land you in the hospital. Remember cocaine is really hard on your heart and it is easier to overdose on than methamphetamine. Methylphenidate or Ritalin is even more dangerous than cocaine because it's LD 50 is way lower than both thus you do not want to give someone your Ritalin pills or something along the sorts that has a zero tolerance You're going to want to give them the least for they can build the tolerance and work their way up.

Methamphetamine. Well obviously it has meth and the other one has dex. What does that mean, honestly I have no clue what dextro actually does on like a scientific scale. But it is definitely not legal meth. North the same chemical as methamphetamine. The molecules book almost like like one has an extra branch and it looks like the same shape, just because they look like doesn't mean the act alike. If you ever hear someone say Adderall is legal meth.

I want you to bring up this:

Methamphetamine has the methyl group with the amphetamine group. The methyl group allows it to pass through the blood-brain barrier allowing it to almost double or triple the effects of dextro but with less substance.

So meth is really potent dextrose but works completely different. Dextro or Adderall or whatever Don't have the same feeling though as meth. It's just not as seductive as how passing through the blood-brain barrier makes everything trillions times better.

Legal meth: it is called Desoxyn. That's it's brand name, like Adderall is a brand name. What is Desoxyn? Methamphetamine hydrochloride 5 mg tablets instant release.

Yeah. Methamphetamine HCL 5 mg tabs IR.

methamphetamine HCL is the exactly same structure and compound as crystal meth.

So will call this pharma-meth.

Again methamphetamine is a schedule 2 controlled substance. which means it has a purpose and is not completely useless in the federal eyes.

methamphetamine is the number one treatment for ADHD narcolepsy and MDD major depressive disorder.

Why?

It is very smooth compared to Adderall which it has 25% L-amp. Or levoamphetamine .

Technically dextroamphetamine, or brand name Dextrine. Is a lot cleaner and smoother because it's 100% dextrophetamine.

The most smooth and the most effective is methamphetamine.

Because if someone's taking 120 mg of Adderall a day because their doctor just doesn't know what to do, and they're having really bad side effects from taking so much of this type of amphetamine. Could be losing hair, skin looking horrible, maybe get migraine headaches or the filler that is holding the substance together in the pill, your allergic to it?!

The FDA The food and drug association, approved methamphetamine HCL for the treatment of ADHD narcolepsy and MDD, with a therapeutic maximum dose of 30 mg.

Methamphetamine can be used from 1mg to 30mg in the FDA's eyes for therapeutic dose anything over will not be therapeutic.

how many of you weigh out how much you putting into your bubble or how much you crushing? 30 mg compared to 120 mg of Adderall. All of the patients that went through the studies or have actually obtained legal meth, have seen improvement from the side effects and the quality of life living. they're usually happy or too because of the serotonin upscale that is associated with methamphetamine. If taken and not abused this is the best treatment for ADHD narcolepsy and major depressive disorder. Remember MDD or major depressive disorder is only associated with the treatment with methamphetamine, Adderall or dextrophetamine, is not approved for the treatment of this depressive disorder.

Really this was only posed to be about if the people who support you would support you through a relapse or if they would make your life even worse.

If you're going to quit or have quits and have hesitant parents or support friends or anyone, were you think you might lose them if you relapse. Google and research this stuff and the facts and pitch it to them. You are more likely to fail if you think that you don't have any way to express how you're feeling or if you're afraid to even say that you're having cravings and it's really hard for you right now because you don't want them to get all worried and then wonder if you're high all the time.

for anyone that hasn't quit meth yet or is just started and they're starting to see the consequences. One thing you can't change is your peers minds and trust issues.

If you decide to quit or you want public or you got caught, I can guarantee if you are drunk and your eyes dilate because of the impairment, or it's dark out and your eyes people out, or maybe you just ran a mile and you're out of breath and you're talking about it on the phone and your sister or dad or mom literally ask you the most self offensive question that you'll end up hating or getting mad at them for, is when they ask you in their own picky ass way, are you sober are you clean?

I literally hate it. I want to smack the s*** out of anyone who asked me that. It's the one thing that makes me feel like I can finally give up this life and pass if I move. Like honestly like your family gets affected by it they're not going to trust you anymore you have a beer at Thanksgiving or glass of wine and your family that knows about as a whoa whoa whoa!!

Remember this, or actually remember all of these nice little quick notes that might give you inspiration:

Relapse is a part of recovery, it might happen it might not be now it could be 50 years from now.

Sometimes you're not supposed to be friends with people forever, things change people change, are they holding you down, furthering you from blossoming?

Yes I kind of stole some of this from Hopsin Ill mind 8 😬.

Here's a good way to look at starting or continuing or after relapse way to think about going back into recovery and what recovery is all about.

"Against all odds with all opportunities. It's either Day One or One Day, you decide"

That works for beginning recovery, maintaining recovery, and fixing a relapse.

The most important thing I'm going to tell you guys about recovery, He's a thing everybody beats himself up about.

When you relapse you're going to feel like shit, Golden s*** most likely, but still s*** and you're going to be depressed at yourself and ashamed.

People like to say that all that time was for nothing. It was not just for nothing, if you want 140 days , five years , 17 years. You keep counting once you get back sober, it doesn't matter of the length that you stayed clean the continuous length. But every single day you have to make a choice, and those days that you're counting our counting towards your tally of how many days did you say I'm stronger than this drug, how many days did you save from your life, how many days are you keeping yourself out of prison from getting in trouble.

And always remember, no one knows what the f*** you're going through if they don't know. Even the people that had ex-boyfriends or ex-girlfriends that were meth heads.

What we go through, what we have to overcome, The struggles that last years, The itch in the back your head, The look of a certain substance, when that one co-worker makes that Meth joke, and you secretly hate them for it.

We are the strong ones, never gets over for someone else,do what it takes use that brain power you get when you're high unless if you're staying up for days, figure out a plan. Figure out if you're willing to save your life or throw it away. There's no wrong answer, there's no right answer, everyone can go f*** the f*** off because they don't know what the f*** we're going through. That guy that had a bad day at the office because his fish wasn't cooked well enough at the restaurant or some s***, you might be working on a factory floor being yelled at by your supervisor for not going fast enough, well the whole time you're thinking "Man I just want to get high, Man I can't do that!"

Thanks

JUST. KEEP. SWIMMING.