Future and stuff

Hey guys. Just wanted to update you on how things are going for me.

So after winning Contenders and achieving unsatisfactory results in both Gauntlet and OWWC, I have got a total of 4 hours of tryouts for 1 OWL team. I'm not really complaining, I just want aspiring players to understand what playing in europe can give them and I'm a bit salty that people won't even give me a chance.



I used to think that maybe teams don't want to trial me last year and this year because I'm russian and they don't want to deal with visas, maybe it's because I haven't achieved enough, maybe it's because I don't speak too people and try to build contacts that much, maybe it's because of the way I say things, maybe 24 is too old. Maybe some of it is paritally true, but harsh reality is - I'm just not good enough. I just wonder how am I so blind and couldn't see it while all these teams just can without even tryouts.



I've been playing this game for 3 years now, 2 of them full time and to be fair I improved quite a lot this year, mainly thanks to League Viewer (learnt a lot from watching ChoiHyoBin and Fury).

However, I feel like I could be better. I have never really had a good coach that would work with me. I really like Ilka, Cwoosh and Izzy as people but they never helped me improve while working for teams I played in (too be fair, Ilka coulnd't do much for us since he joined an established team already). The only real help I got was from working with Almostpanda for like a week or so who helped me become more versatile in goats meta which ended up helping me land in HSL and get a solid start with them during regular season. I feel like maybe if I played in a team in better region with a coaching stuff maaaaaaaaaybe I would improve enough to become OWL ready or something. Or maybe I could be the coach that could help some other guy improve. The thing is, I tried playing other games during breaks but I never really liked anything quite as much as I like OW. Even through goats and double shield, I would still rather compete in this game than anythere else. It's illogical and absolutely insane

but I'm still going to play (or maybe coach if I get an opportunity) and compete in OW next year. Right now I don't enjoy anything in life other than competition and improving from day to day in something I like, so OW it is.



That being said, I know I won't be in OWL this year because most teams are all done and I don't think anyone is doing tryouts or want me to participate in it. My goal shifts to landing in a NA Academy or just NA Contenders team as I believe that NA region is stronger right now and there are more possibilities in NA. I would like to play in Korea as well but it's impossible as I don't know any Korean and I think they will never consider an outsider. In the end of the day, I just want to compete and win against the strongest or the second best thing I guess. If i get no offers even from NA Contenders teams then I guess I will just play EU hoping to get lucky one day.



Sooooooo yeah, I will still play ranked during offseason to keep myself in shape (rn it seems like i will be finishing top 5ish in EU this season) while waiting for tryout offers.

Basically, still LFT NA/KR/EU Contenders+ as Offtank or Assistant/Strategic/Player growth/Anyothernameforaguywhowilldohisbesttohelp Coach.



P.S. Felt like a place where I should thank every mate from HSL: Mustard, fischer (I think he doesn't like 1st letter caps), Henning, Ascoft, Zaprey, Ding, Izzy and every HSL staff member; as well as everyone who worked with team Russia: Engh, SDBurn, Sofi, NLaaeR, MayN, Tonic, Outbreak, Ilka and Mistakes for being absolute best people and making this half a year or so very special for me.







TL:DR: Still LFT, am going to continue playing or coaching in OW depending on opportunities. Want to get better.





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