Resolve

She looks at me and asks

When will it stop

Will it ever stop

When will it end

I look away and say

I don’t know

I do not know

I wish I knew

But how can I know

When they with their papers

So proudly displayed

On their walls have,

Themselves,

No answers

When

they

have

No answers

Perpetual

Frustration

Stripping

Away

Reflection

no answers

Insidious how the thoughts

Take away the mind

Pull apart identity

Send the self to spend

A time in exile

We watch and wait

And wait and watch

And serve

and serve

In times severe

and Serve the Severe

That’s why we are we

And why we are here

Together

Searching

Searching for

Answers that do not come

I have no answers for you

But really how could I know

How could I possibly know

And so I say

I just don’t know

Even though that

Acknowledgement

Makes me wonder

Whether I have betrayed

Something sacred

Whether I have betrayed You

No answers

I watch you smile

I watch you frown

I watch you wait for another round

Of pills

Of pain

And pain and pills

And sleep

That comes to claim you

In my waking hours

Wiling away the time

While I await more time

With you

And sleep

Time to worry for you

About you

To you

And you

Fretting over me

Are you fretting

Over me

Are you

You?

Today?

As we were yesterday?

(Where we were

When we were

We)

No Answers

I am here

Here for today

As yesterday

And tomorrow

Living in the present

Past the future of

Another day

Any other day

The same

My heart breaking to watch

Your heart mind body breaking

Breaking apart

Your wings breaking

Broken

Leaving you in this

Inadequate cage

This too damn small cage

No way to fly

No way to flee

Your wings

Like my words

broken

No answers

Experiencing with you

Each experiment

For which you never volunteered

Never given the choice

To choose

Choices made by some other

Biological

Sociological

Psychological

Factors

Fates

Curse the fates

What then shall we do

Trouble deaf heaven

With our bootless cries

Futile gestures

Of foregone eras

Perpetual frustration

no answers

I look at her and say

I miss you

She looks at me and says

I miss me too

I look down at the floor

Considering

There’s nothing else to say

We both know it’s true

It is true

So very true

… please take mine

so yours can open

too …

-Dakin 4/6/16