“I… I don’t really know where to start. I guess I’ve always liked drugs well I liked what they allowed me to do at least… the key word beingbecause lately, they haven’t been doing what they used to But, being able to change how I think and feel at any given time. I always compared it to being able to paint with different colors. Shades and tones that the average person doesn’t have access to. Colors that don’t exist in the real world. I used to think it was like having super powers. I mean they let me shut my brain off if I wanted to. I could turn around and amp myself up to 100 of I wanted to all in the matter of a couple hours and… I’ve always liked that. I’ve been clean for… shit I don’t even know a couple of days maybe. I’m just looking for something else. I want to be able to do the things that real people do and I thought maybe, I could learn how to do some of those things here.”