i didnt want to look at the package because i was thinking too hard. i couldn't decide what to believe about eridan and dave and the fire and on top of that i couldn't believe that dave was in the hospital because he got stabbed! and that gamzee is the one who stabed him! i just couln't believe it!

i decided to take a shower to distract my mind from all the drama. i got naked and i turned on the water. i got in the shower and stood up and let the wamrth comfort me. it made my back feel great and i iddn't even mind that my mascara was coming off (i dont wear makeup except from just a little mascara and sometimes lipstick if it is a special occasion) because it felt so good an d made me relaxed like i wa sdrifting off into dream land.

i started to think about dave and eridan and gamzee

"NO" i yelled at myself "MAKE THE THOUGHTS GO AWAY STACIA. you do not deserve this you deserve to forget about it for a little bit of time and you can let yourself just relax!" i sat at the bottom of the shower and let the water pour out of me lie rain

i was so overwhelmed by everything. the one person i thought was my friend stabbed one my potential boyfriend! and both of my potential boyfriends might have started a fire for no reason! what if dave dies? what if dies dies before i can even know the real truth? was eridan being real and honest with me?

i was so overwhelmed and started sobbing n the shower while i cleanred myself and hugged my knees and rocked back and forth.

i gave up washing my hair and went over to the bathroom mirror with my hair wet and my mascara running down my face, i was so infuriated and so overhwlemed. i didnt know what to do and i couldnt even believe it.

how do i even live like this? should i even be alive? was i better off on earth? do i even like sburb?

i couldnt stand it. i couldnt even deal with any of it. i was screaming and crying and twirling around the bathroom. i grabbed the sink and then i dumped my bag into the sink. i was thinking the most terrible thoughts because i was so overwhelmed and depressed and i crabbed my pair of scissors. i put them in my hand and started screaming and i violently cut my hair and let it all drop to the floor.

i couldnt see anything through the fog from the shoer which was still running. i went over to the shower and turned it off and when i turned around there was a message in the mirror!

i then flung myself onto my bed and cried for hours before i fell asleep.

when 3i fell asleep and started to dream and in my dream there was a dark hole i couldnt get out of. i heard people laughing evilly but i couldnt figure out ho.

when i woke up it was sunday morning and there was a knock on my door and it smelled like pancakes.

i opened the door and it was tavros! he was holding 17 pancakes on a plate with syrip and butter and blueberreis.

"h-hih-hi stacia!" he said smiling

"come in" i said

i sat on my bed and he sat next to me "there are for you" he said about the pncakes.

"thanks" i said but i didnt mean it

"wats wrong" he asked

"im afraid you poisoned these" i said

"w-w-w-wh-"

"get out" i said and he left because he is a coward

i was afraid he poisoned them because he is dating gamzee who is apparently evil now. i didnt know if i could trust tavros because gamzee stabbed dave which meant he was a bad person and tavros was dating him.

i left the pancakes and decided to go for a walk.