There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I wish every day that this wasn't real and that i would get to hear that laugh of yours one more time. I'm not ready for you to be gone. I'm not ready to not have you here with me anymore. It's so hard knowing that there is a piece of me missing that I won't ever get back. I hope you are peaceful where you are and I pray that I get to see you again some day. I know you are with me but life just isn't the same without you. There are so many memories we had left to make, so many stories we had to write. I hold onto every ounce of you that I was left with but that will never be enough. I miss you so much and i love you. That's all i could do now, until we meet again...

Billy Ryan

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