During an administrative trial at Police Headquarters in lower Manhattan, Lt. Rasheena Huffman admitted to using racial language because she didn’t know they were offensive. Huffman, a black NYPD lieutenant, is facing departmental charges for creating a hostile environment against those below her, reports the New York Daily News. She is accused of using racist terms like “high yellow,” and “ch**ky eyes.”

“I did not know they were derogatory,” Huffman said during her trial according to the New York Daily News. “Growing up, you would look at a child’s eyes and you would say, ‘She has those cute, ch**ky eyes.”

Huffman added, “I was just told that, to Asian people, it’s derogatory. People are adding things to what I said to make me sound crazy or unprofessional.”

One officer, Vanessa Weinbel, who is a white officer, said that Huffman made her “extremely uncomfortable” for her relationship with a black man.

Weinbel said that Huffman told her that black men liked her because she looked like a “Kardashian chick.”

Additionally, Weinbel said that Huffman told her that if the two had kids the mixed children would be “confused” and “messed up.” Weinbel issued a complaint to higher-ups but claimed they did nothing. She has a pending 15 million lawsuit against the police.

Rasheena Huffman admitted to using racially charged terms but said that she was just joking.

“I never meant it as harassment,” Huffman said. “It was always in a joking way.”

Huffman said the media was making her out to be some monster.

“They put it in the newspaper in regards to the accusations, saying that I had said these comments of things I never said,” Huffman said. “People in my daughter’s school saw it. My neighbors saw it.

“They’re making me out to be a monster of a lieutenant when I”m not.”

An attorney from the NYPD department’s advocate office, Penny Bluford-Garrett found it odd that Huffman didn’t know the terms were offensive. She recommended that Huffman go to sensitivity training and give up 30 vacation days.