Level Up







I wrote myself a note in my senior year of high school that my teacher would mail to us 5 years later. The first sentence out of my mouth was “If you’re not playing pro paintball, slap yourself.” When I was 17 years old, I had a serious dream. I chased it like my life depended on it. That letter got mailed back to me and I had already been playing pro for 2 years. I had serious hustle back then. Now I don’t. I didn’t even have it the last 5 years.



I think EVERYONE is loaded with ****ing excuses, myself included. It’s time for me to change that. It’s time for me to call myself out. I will be a top 5 player this year. X-factor will win a Series Championship. I could sit here and say, “maybe not this year, but maybe next year…” **** that, this year. If I don’t accomplish that this year, I failed. I failed miserably.



If I want to accomplish that, I need to wake up every morning thinking that. I need to remind myself of that every day, because if I don’t, it won’t happen. I need to remind myself of that every ****ing minute, because every minute I have that I can apply to my game, I need to. If I think I can go out and go through the motions this year at practice and my ‘off’ days and that my talent will carry me to this goal, it won’t. I have to live and breathe it. I have to throw every ounce of my soul at it.



Why the hell would I do this?



There is no reason to do **** you hate. None at all. Find what you want to accomplish, and ****ing do it. Search deep, really think about it and find that one ****ing thing. When you find it, do it. Grind. Grind harder than anyone else around you. Grind harder than me.



If you want to take my spot, you’re gonna have to grind harder than me. You’re gonna have to call yourself out. You’re gonna have to love what you do and love that grind.



Do I have angst? Of course I do. I just called myself out. I already pissed enough people off, now I need to hustle more than I ever have. I’m ****ing old, I’m slow, blah blah blah, all excuses. Life is a hustle, and the people you envy and despise, well they just hustled harder than you. I wonder how many of my HS friends opened that letter and were disappointed with what they had done? This is a new letter to myself.



I’m constantly seeing the same question over and over, “what can I do to be better at paintball?” or some variation of it. If you want this, if you want to play pro. Work. That’s how you get it. You have to put it all on line. Period. You don’t like the way that sounds. **** it, cause that’s the truth and you’re just not grinding. It’s waking up the day before you die and knowing you shoved all your chips in. Since we were born we’ve always been holding a dead hand. We are going to die, now it’s up to you to pull off the biggest bluff and make death call you. And when you flip over those cards and it’s all over, you know you gave life everything you possibly could whether it’s paintball, your occupation, or raising your kids.



Some kid decided to call me out and argue with me on my last post. His goal was to make 6 figures. If that’s your end game goal, **** you, that’s weak buster ****. I would’ve had respect for him if it was 7 figures and he wanted to buy a private jet.



If you don’t want to play professional paintball, find what you want to do and ****ing do it. You got one life, don’t ****ing waste it on mediocre goals. Time to level up and grind your ****ing face off. Another sociopathic and psychotic rant from George as seen on BKiPaintball.I wrote myself a note in my senior year of high school that my teacher would mail to us 5 years later. The first sentence out of my mouth was “If you’re not playing pro paintball, slap yourself.” When I was 17 years old, I had a serious dream. I chased it like my life depended on it. That letter got mailed back to me and I had already been playing pro for 2 years. I had serious hustle back then. Now I don’t. I didn’t even have it the last 5 years.I think EVERYONE is loaded with ****ing excuses, myself included. It’s time for me to change that. It’s time for me to call myself out. I will be a top 5 player this year. X-factor will win a Series Championship. I could sit here and say, “maybe not this year, but maybe next year…” **** that, this year. If I don’t accomplish that this year, I failed. I failed miserably.If I want to accomplish that, I need to wake up every morning thinking that. I need to remind myself of that every day, because if I don’t, it won’t happen. I need to remind myself of that every ****ing minute, because every minute I have that I can apply to my game, I need to. If I think I can go out and go through the motions this year at practice and my ‘off’ days and that my talent will carry me to this goal, it won’t. I have to live and breathe it. I have to throw every ounce of my soul at it.Why the hell would I do this?There is no reason to do **** you hate. None at all. Find what you want to accomplish, and ****ing do it. Search deep, really think about it and find that one ****ing thing. When you find it, do it. Grind. Grind harder than anyone else around you. Grind harder than me.If you want to take my spot, you’re gonna have to grind harder than me. You’re gonna have to call yourself out. You’re gonna have to love what you do and love that grind.Do I have angst? Of course I do. I just called myself out. I already pissed enough people off, now I need to hustle more than I ever have. I’m ****ing old, I’m slow, blah blah blah, all excuses. Life is a hustle, and the people you envy and despise, well they just hustled harder than you. I wonder how many of my HS friends opened that letter and were disappointed with what they had done? This is a new letter to myself.I’m constantly seeing the same question over and over, “what can I do to be better at paintball?” or some variation of it. If you want this, if you want to play pro. Work. That’s how you get it. You have to put it all on line. Period. You don’t like the way that sounds. **** it, cause that’s the truth and you’re just not grinding. It’s waking up the day before you die and knowing you shoved all your chips in. Since we were born we’ve always been holding a dead hand. We are going to die, now it’s up to you to pull off the biggest bluff and make death call you. And when you flip over those cards and it’s all over, you know you gave life everything you possibly could whether it’s paintball, your occupation, or raising your kids.Some kid decided to call me out and argue with me on my last post. His goal was to make 6 figures. If that’s your end game goal, **** you, that’s weak buster ****. I would’ve had respect for him if it was 7 figures and he wanted to buy a private jet.If you don’t want to play professional paintball, find what you want to do and ****ing do it. You got one life, don’t ****ing waste it on mediocre goals. Time to level up and grind your ****ing face off.

George Ocean

BKi_ Paintball

San Antonio X-Factor

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