Nine months ago, when the New York Giants ended the Odell Beckham Jr. saga by trading the star wideout to the Cleveland Browns, the immediate reaction from Beckham wasn’t joy or sadness. It wasn’t even relief.

Instead, it was shock.

Beckham was headed to play with longtime friend Jarvis Landry, for a Browns team that was loading up like never before. His phone was blowing up with calls and messages from future teammates who were celebrating the trade, creating a silver lining to not being dealt to other landing spots that he coveted like the San Francisco 49ers or Los Angeles Rams, according to multiple sources close to Beckham who have spoken with Yahoo Sports about the wideout.

But even the carrot of playing alongside Landry and for a team that coveted him didn’t override Beckham’s initial wave of emotion, a complex set of feelings that he shared with those closest to him, including a mixture of uncertainty about the remixed coaching staff in Cleveland, his unceremonious departure from the Giants, and his own self-induced pressure to get his career back onto the track that defined his first three seasons in the NFL.

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“I think he was in disbelief when it first went down,” a source close to Beckham said Sunday night. “I mean, I think he was just pretty much stunned it happened and he’s been dealing with that adjustment and other things ever since. He’s a very emotional person I think there is just a lot going on in his head when it comes to where he’s at with his career.”

According to sources close to the wideout, there are three issues creating an intersection of drama with Beckham now:

He’s physically hurt, which he confirmed Sunday.

He’s frustrated that he’s not playing at the elite standard that he thinks he’s capable of, a fact that he’s alluded to several times this season.

And perhaps most importantly, he’s still unsure about his fit with the Browns, including his relationship with the coaching staff and his role in the offense. Beckham hasn’t admitted this publicly, but it’s a known and growing frustration inside his camp.

As a second source framed it: “He’s lost. … Fame got to him, he made bad choices [and] now he has to redeem himself. And the road to redemption isn’t an easy one when you have an ego.”

Two sources close to Beckham also confirmed a Sunday report from Fox Sports’ Jay Glazer that the wideout has told players and coaches to “come get me” during gameday interactions. Specifically, one source told Yahoo Sports that Beckham made the comments to players during “at least” one game in October. The source declined to specify the opponent, but it’s noteworthy that Cleveland’s October slate featured games against the 49ers and New England Patriots — two teams that aggressively shopped for wideouts at the trade deadline. The 49ers ultimately landed Emmanuel Sanders from the Denver Broncos, while the Patriots acquired Mohamed Sanu from the Atlanta Falcons.

One other notable detail: The sources said Beckham holds 49ers coach Kyle Shanahan in high esteem and has also developed a friendship with San Francisco quarterback Jimmy Garoppolo.

“He talks to Jimmy on and off the field,” one source said. “They have a friendship that is more than just saying hello before or after [a game]. There’s a lot of mutual respect there as football players and people — which is important [to Beckham].”

What any of this means for Beckham’s future is a whole other matter. He has an opinionated circle of friends and family that surrounds him. Some still speak in hopeful tones about him potentially ending up with the Dallas Cowboys, which would put him in close proximity to his parents. Others continue to pine for a road that ends with the New Orleans Saints, the hometown favorite for many of Beckham’s family and friends who have surrounded him since he was born in Louisiana.

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