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Okay, as much as I keep joking about that ‘hourly rate’ thing, part of me can’t help but wonder how much I could’ve made off of Tam so far this week… And now Jasper too.

Nah, I’m just kidding. I really don’t mind… Not only is this all good practice for when I’m a real therapist someday, but I’m helping my brother and my best friend. And I’d do that no matter what.

It’s so much easier to help now that they’re both here. At first, I thought Jasper was totally out of his mind flying all the way here (okay, maybe part of me still thinks that…) but honestly? This might have been the best thing for them.

The past few days have been… well, maybe a little chaotic, for all of us. But definitely cathartic too.

It was a little awkward at first. The first conversation was a pretty rough one… Yelling and tears from both of them. I hated seeing them like that. But as hard as it was to watch, it’s good they got it all out in the open like that.

Because once they did, the next conversation went so much better. And I did the best I could to mediate things and move things along… It was almost fun, in a weird way. I finally got to put some of the stuff I’ve been learning into practice (and figuring out what actually works and what’s total BS. The jury’s still out on ‘I’ statements… But I like them?)

We’ve been breaking up our ‘sessions’ with doing touristy crap and hanging out with my friends too. And I think that’s almost as therapeutic, in a way. It was really nice seeing Tam and Jasper laughing and having fun together again… I missed that. And I know they did too.

I’m really starting to think they can do this. It’ll still take a lot of time and work, but… they’re on the right path now. They really needed that break to figure things out. And now they just need a little help having the right kind of conversations to put all the pieces back together.

I wonder how Gigi would feel about that. Not the break part… We can’t. We’re married. But… what about the help putting things back together again? Obviously what I’ve tried isn’t working… Maybe it’s finally time to get some outside help?

I just think the hardest part will be getting her to admit things are broken enough that they need fixing.

I tried bringing it up earlier tonight, after dinner. Tam and Jasper went back to the hotel for a while so they could talk by themselves, so it was my perfect opportunity. Gigi’s been so busy lately that she hasn’t been around much this week. And when she HAS been around, Tam or Jasper have always been there.

For the first time, it was just the two of us.

And I’d really had the whole therapy thing on my mind, so I kinda tried to bring up how… not-so-great our marriage has been the past few months. I didn’t wanna be accusatory or anything, so I tried to just focus on how I’ve been feeling and stuff… Trying out those ‘I’ statements, I guess.

But even then, she reacted just like I was afraid she would. Less angry than I thought. A lot quieter. But still so freaking adamant that there’s nothing wrong. She started blaming everything on stress from work. Then she just kept apologizing and telling me how much she loves me.

And she didn’t even give me a chance to argue. The next thing I knew, she was all over me, and I… Well, how could I say no? Like I said, it’s the first time we’ve been alone all week.

Luckily we managed to make it to the bedroom before things went too far (Tam still has to sleep on that couch, after all…). And it was really, REALLY good.

Not as kinky as Gigi usually wants it, but still probably the best sex we’ve had in a while.

I’ve gotta be honest though. In the moment, it was amazing. But afterwards it just felt… Kinda empty, I guess. I’m not really sure how else to describe it.

We tried cuddling for a couple minutes, but it didn’t last very long. It was weird. Then Gigi came out here and started chatting with some of her friends on her laptop. So I decided to write some of this stuff down before Tam gets back from the hotel.

And getting all this stuff out of my system definitely helps. But I feel like I really need somebody to talk to about how I’ve been feeling lately. A real person. Not a journal (no offense).

Normally Tam would be my go-to. But now that Jasper’s here, the two of them are busy dealing with enough on their own right now. I don’t wanna bother them with my problems.

Niko and Addy always try to help when there’s shit going on, but they never really seem to ‘get’ it.

There’s one person who always gets it though. And who always listens too, no matter what.

I texted her a little bit ago, and we’re gonna meet up for coffee tomorrow morning so we can talk. Gigi and Tam both love sleeping in… But not me. Guess I’ve always been a morning person. And I know Lola is too. She gets up early to feed Duchess every morning anyway.

So tomorrow should be good, at least. Or off to a good start, anyway? But who knows where it’ll go from there. This week has been one of the strangest weeks I can remember… Between Tam being here, me trying to be his therapist, how weird Gigi’s been, and then Jasper showing up out of the blue…

Well, hopefully things are finally gonna calm down. Tam and Jasper go back to Germany in just three days. It’d be nice to have a day or two of a normal visit with them before they leave.

But I guess that all depends on how their talk went today…

Hopefully they remembered the ‘I’ statements.