8 Years of osu! (And Good Bye osu!)

I joined 8 years ago osu! on this day, October 18th.

I'm about to quit this game as i said a few months ago after i got denied from BNG. So i'll drop some memories.



Parts :

- 1 : Memories

- 2 : Why i leave osu

- 3 : About my Opinions

- 4 : Good bye.





1 - Memories :



When i started

I discovered osu! by searching for Touhou songs on the web, and i found some videos of touhou songs played on osu!, and i was like "oh great this game looks cool", so i joined osu. I almost downloaded all touhou maps from before 2011 when i joined. It was also the times when bad apple was the most played map, and when i always played this map in multiplayer.



1 year passed, and one day i had the idea to start mapping in 2012 and "contribute" to the community with my creations, i was pretty noob, and i learned mapping from nobody, just from myself. I was really impressed by BMS songs, and i discovered Xhroria and mapped this song, which isn't my real first map, but well, my first real mapset. I started socializing with people from the mapping community, and i've become close friends with rezoons, Umi, and also dialgadu77 mostly known as Sayaka- or Kurokotei (bms artist), Krah and some other ppl like Arrival, Kin etc. They were all part of the mapping community. We were at that time, the new french mapping generation from 2013.

rezoons helped me to find my first BAT (blissfulyoshi), and i will be always thankful for that, sadly he has been restricted a long time ago, and never came back. I'm also thankful to some people from "Quality appreciation team" (QAT xd) which was a modding queue in 2013, some people like 11t, Jenny... really helped me to push forward my first map, i won't also forget jonathanlfj who ranked it.



I joined Beatmap appreciation team (BAT) in August 2014, which has become BNG less than a year later. We were told that we entered in a newer system that would introduce modding v2 (which is the current modding system now). These were also the times of mapping dramas that will remain memorable haha. And also times when people were debating about mapping quality. I left BNG in 2016 and took a long break from osu! in 2017 and came back in late 2018 to rank joint struggle, that gave me motivation to rank 5 more maps in 2019. And i think it's time to retire after ranking 20 maps in total. (21 if you count sayaka's Aragami set which has std diffs from me).



I was also part of some tournament staff, but the most important one was probably OWC2015 as map selector with Skystar and ToGlette. These times were also fun because we were told to boycott some mappers or maps, as der führer wanted, and now i realize how stupid it was lol.



Well i can write more, really, but it's less important than what i just wrote. 2013-2015 were the times i enjoyed this game the most, in mapping and playing (my best rank is #622). I've made a lot of friends, sadly most of them have quitted or been inactive, but i won't forget their names and the fun times we had. I won't ever forget forget Big Fans Group :3







2 - Why i leave osu



I've got bored simply, i don't enjoy playing current stuff because they look like farming stuff (i don't enjoy farming stuff now) that are unnecessarily difficult with inexistent concept excepting making the map difficult or easy pp for the sake of being relevant. There are some cool stuff that i like to be honest like rsi stuff, because i'm speed player apparently. There was a time i was playing for rank and i had motivation and time to play everything that would help me to keep my 3 digit rank in 2015. Tournaments also helped me to kept motivated to play (like La Provençale a few months ago), but i don't feel motivated to play during many days for the sake of being "prepared" for tournaments.



The reason that made me come back in 2018 is mainly mapping, i had a feel that i didn't achieve something memorable that would satisfy myself, so i decided to map Freedom Dive Metal Dimensions that is my hardest ranked map, and i achieved my main goal by ranking it. But finally my motivation dropped after i ranked my last map (NINI) which is also the best map from myself in my opinion. This map is just a tribute to my friends that are gone, the map is inspired from their mapping philosophies. Most of my friends have gone, i guess it's my turn now.







3 - About my opinions



Apparently people see me as toxic person or a crying kid that acts like "everything changed, it's all your fault, fuck that". Simply because i'm taking to the wrong people that are not from the same "era" as me. Most of them didn't know how old times were, so it's natural that they disagree with what i say about mapping and community overall. That's also a reason why i leave this game, the older generation is gone, i should've gone with it at the same time. I don't want to change my mind about this game, because i don't enjoy it anymore as i used to in 2015. I really want to state that i'm not the kind of person that becomes toxic for no reason, i'm a really kind person as long as you remain cool to me. I'm not hypocrite, if i have an opinion about you or something, i tell you directly.

Some groups of influential people with stupid egos meme'd me. So you guys have won, i leave the game you're happy now :D. I can't imagine how pathetic you are by turning a whole community against a single person that tries to ignore it since the beginning. Most of these people are just dogs following their "master". Talking about persons being manipulated, it seems you are part of them.





4 - Good bye



Well, when i started osu! i was just a high school student, and now i'm graduated from uni since 2017 and I have a job and i'm happy with my current life. Osu! was my main hobby after my studies so i can say it was part of my teenage life and i won't regret anything and never forget each good moment i enjoyed with my friends. Well it's time to turn the page, I'll try to still get in touch with my closest friends. And i'll still be looking at stuff on twitter.

This isn't really a farewell, each story has an end, and it is my end, i'm now being Inactive.



Good bye and thank you for reading o/







P.S : BFC J'OUBLIE PAS LA PROVENCALE LA FRANCE SERA ENCORE A NOUS !



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