MassLive does not identify victims of sexual assault. Sarah asked that we use her first name only for this story, and agreed to the publication of her relationship to her assaulter.

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If there is one thing on which the court system and Sarah can agree about her rape, it is the profound harm it inflicted on her and her family.

In sentencing notes, Franklin-Hampshire Counties Juvenile Court Judge Judith Phillips described the assault as a "heavy burden." In a victim impact statement, Sarah went further, describing nine years of childhood lost, a family sundered, suicidal thoughts, frequent nightmares and omnipresent fear.

"I suffered from the abuse for at least nine years of what should have been a normal life for me," Sarah, who is now 16, wrote. "Do not only give him two years when it's not close to equivalent to how many years of my childhood was stolen from me."

But Ryan Crochetiere, 19, who pleaded guilty to serially sexually assaulting Sarah for a year when he was 14 and she was 11, will not get two years. He will spend no time in a jail cell, and have a chance to waive his sex offender registration, after Phillips accepted his plea deal for four years of probation.

The sentence has outraged Sarah and her mother, who in a phone interview said her daughter had been "revictimized" by a court system she accused of prioritizing the wellbeing of a rapist over his victim.

"I feel like the system is working for him and not working for her," her mother said. "It's not just about her. It's about the next girl behind her that the system is failing."

Crochetiere's plea was accepted one day after former East Longmeadow High School star athlete David Becker was sentenced to two years of probation for sexually assaulting two unconscious classmates. That sentence sparked outrage across the country, and led to a petition for the removal of the judge in Becker's case.

Crochetiere's charges -- rape and abuse of a child under the age of 16, indecent assault on a victim under the age of 14, and committing an unnatural act on a minor under the age of 16 - cover a year of assaults in 2010 and 2011, during which he admitted to repeatedly molesting Sarah.

And the circumstances are different from Becker's case -- most notably that he was charged in the juvenile court system, which the Northwestern District Attorney's Office said prioritizes accountability and rehabilitation for defendants.

But, Sarah and her mother say, the sentence is not the only problem with Crochetiere's case. Sarah's mother, in a pre-sentencing impact statement, wrote that the abuse stretched on for years, with the most recent attack when he was an upperclassman in high school.

Crochetiere was only charged with and convicted of a year of assaults when he was 14. It is not clear from court filings why no charges arose from the other assaults alleged in the impact statement. Crochetiere's defense attorney Elizabeth LaFrance declined to comment for this story.

The stress from the court case led to emotional breakdowns in school; the trauma from the assault has left Sarah afraid to leave her home. And with Crochetiere's plea, coming forward has not been worth it, she said.

"He's still out there," Sarah said. "The whole purpose of doing it was to make sure he wouldn't do it again."

The Northwestern District Attorney's Office had recommended a suspended sentence with no jail time, but want Crochetiere to have to register as a sex offender. DA spokeswoman Mary Carey said that while the DA's office could not comment on the specific case, the office's sentencing recommendations are influenced by a range of circumstances, including a defendant's age at the time of the assault, the input of the victim and evaluations of the defendant response to treatment.

"In this matter, the victim had great courage in coming forward to hold the juvenile offender accountable," Carey said. "The guiding principle of our juvenile justice system is that our young people, with accountability and rehabilitation, can atone for the crimes they've committed and be redeemed in the eyes of society."

The Northwestern DA's Office "vigorously prosecutes sexual assault cases," Carey said, and plans to oppose Crochetiere's waiver for registering as a sex offender.

Sarah's mother and father lived separately, and for years her childhood had a steady pattern: Weekdays spent with her mother, and weekends at her father's home in Belchertown.

Crochetiere, the son of Sarah's father's girlfriend, was also there during her weekend visits. There was a shortage of sleeping space, so they stayed in the same room. Then, when she was 8 years old, the abuse began, Sarah's mother said in her impact statement.

"Crochetiere admits to committing some acts on the victim between Nov. 14, 2010 and Nov. 14, 2011, when he was age 14 and the victim was age 11," prosecutors wrote in a court motion before Crochetiere pleaded guilty.

Though prosecutors charged Crocehtiere with a year of assaults, the impact statement described the abuse as a years-long ordeal. She told no one from age 8 until 2014, when she told a therapist that she had been repeatedly raped between the ages of 8 and 12. The breaking point was another attack in 2014, the impact statement said -- when Crochetiere was 17 years old, and for which he was not convicted.

The assaults severely affected Sarah's mental health, she said. She became depressed in 6th grade, and by 7th grade was physically self-harming. She entered therapy, and was voluntarily committed twice when she was in 8th grade.

"She finally came forward a couple of years ago after attempting suicide," Sarah's mother said.

Sarah went to the police, and Crochetiere, by then an high school upperclassman, was charged with rape and abuse of a child under the age of 16, indecent assault and unnatural acts with a minor.

Though the charges were for attacks he committed when he was 14, he was indicted by a grand jury as a "youthful offender" - an intermediate category between juvenile and adult charges, that allows for more severe penalties and made Crochetiere's case public record.

Sarah's mother said she had met multiple times with Northwestern District Attorney David Sullivan, who assured them they were advocating for Sarah's best interests. Sarah told Assistant District Attorney Yvonne Pesce that she wanted to see Crochetiere behind bars.

"I told her he's wasted almost nine years of my life," Sarah said. "I wanted him to serve nine or eight years."

But prosecutors continued to recommend a suspended sentence, which would keep Crochetiere out of prison if he abided by probation terms including a stay away order, a prohibition on the use of pornography, continued therapy and a requirement to stay away from minors under 16.

"They told me that he was a very good candidate for rehabilitation," Sarah's mother said.

Some prison time appeared to be in the cards, after Crochetiere agreed to plead guilty to a year of assaults on July 13. Judge James Collins then surprised both the prosecution and the defense, rejecting both sentencing recommendations and giving him two years in jail.

But Crochetiere withdrew his plea, and on Aug. 16 a new judge, Judith Phillips, sentenced him to a two year suspended sentence with four years of probation and assigned him a Feb. 2017 hearing to potentially waive his sex offender registration. He is required to continue therapy and write Sarah a letter of apology.

Sarah has stopped going to work, she said. The resolution of the case, and the order that Crochetiere stay away from her, have not alleviated her fears.

"Since the plea and since everything happened, I very rarely leave my house," she said.