So, yeah I’m not going to be talking about anything nice in this meta, so this is fair warning, but it’s kind of hard to talk about anything pleasant. I would like to disclaim that I don’t agree with anything that happened in this chapter I’m just trying to explain it. I censored the pictures I used only text boxes but the things I talk about are still serious things that happen in the chapter

In this chapter their was a chapter in which we got a look into Mutsuki’s past, which reveals that he was both physically and sexually abused by his father. However, I’m not going to dive into that because it personally makes me sick to my stomach and I’m tearing up just thinking about it. I am however going to talk about the line that he told Mutsuki

(Sorry, if this looks bad but I got rid of anything that might trigger someone.)

This seems like an odd thing to say considering the fact that tadpoles can only live in freshwater. That is what makes this so dark, because if you put in an adult frog into salt water for even an hour it will die and it will suffer the whole time. This is because a frog already has a lot of salt in them, the salt water would literally poison them because it would dry them out. (There is a special type of frog that can survive in water, but I will take about that later.) So, his father is basically telling him to go die, because he disrespected him. But, Mutsuki didn’t see it as that he saw it as an escape

However, why was Mutsuki compared to a tadpole, well I have a good answer for that; you don’t know a tadpoles gender. It’s impossible to know unless you cut one open and look inside. So what caused this to happen this encounter, was most likely do to Mutsuki saying something about wanting to be male, but his father did not like it. So, he called him a tadpole something that has no gender. Then his father accuses him of disrespecting him, and because Mutsuki father is a psychopath, he calls Mutsuki wanting to be a male disrespectful, because simple biology and genetic tells us the semen is what determines a babies gender, so to his father it was him that made Mutsuki female at birth. Then he used his physical strength and his own manipulation to show him that he was physically female, by doing the worst thing possible, he sexually assaulted him.

Yet, when his parents were killed by ghouls, he got the opportunity to adapt into something that could kill him which is a man, like the salt water to the frog.

Mutsuki was finally able to live the way he wanted, and decided to become the thing that traumatized him the most a man. Which might be a lot off topic, but I respect that instead of being scared with men all the time, he is able to have healthy relationships with some like Shirazu, Urie, Haise, among many others, which is good considering how in the cross dressing chapter he showed to still fear men.

Thus brings me to the point about the one frog that can survive in salt water, and that is the Fejervarya raja,

otherwise known as the crab eating frog. This frog in found in Southeast Asia, and I hope I don’t sound racist by saying this but he looks like that is where he is descended from. This outer skin is really tough and can actually stay in salt water for a lot longer then a regular frog. Also, they are really good at adapting to situations like Mutsuki Another thing is that a certain part of the crab eating frog is actually a delicacy, which is it’s legs which is coincidentally the part that Torso, or Fucking creep that needs to die as I call him cut off of Mutsuki

Yet, I think that being called a tadpole that should go back to the salt water is actually a good sign, because it shows that Mutsuki is tough enough to survive. And did you see that look he gave Torso

That is the face of someone who is tired but to me someone who hasn’t given up yet

Mutsuki might be saying this now, but little does he know that their are people coming to save him. This isn’t his destiny and I think that Mutsuki is going through this, as terrible as it is, to learn that their are people who care about him, and that his so called “destiny” is a cycle that could be broken. Because Mutsuki isn’t helpless he was caught off trying to help Hogi, and now he is stuck in the trauma of his past as it is playing in his present. Anyone would be crippled with that kind of situation

I have hope in Mutsuki and I have faith that he will overcome this.