(tw: self-harm. bdsm)

Lucky eyed Gabriel taking a luxurious drag on her cigarette; smoke curled out her mouth in a lazy filigree. the kitchen was dimly lit, filmy with years of bad habits. it was late afternoon, and only the gentle whir of appliances filled Gabriel’s apartment. Lucky knew better than to reach across and touch Gabriel. she dog-stared. she may as well have been tied to the chair.

Gabriel was beautiful, but she hardly believed it. it gave her this air of… fragility? self-consciousness? Lucky couldn’t pin down what it was, only that it added immensely to her sexiness. Gabriel’s face was bordered by the strong straight lines of her jaw and nose. round high cheekbones and sensuously full lips, large hazel-green eyes contrasted these lines wonderfully.

Gabriel hated her hard chin, strict jaw, long nose. no matter that they looked so noble. she didn’t look like anyone else on the t.v. or the magazines or movies. she wanted that world and was denied it. Lucky’s hooded eyes followed the jets of smoke as they left Gabriel’s mouth. Lucky licked her lips. she was aware of Gabriel’s essence swirling through the acrid smoke. she couldn’t stop watching her every move.

a creature of fire. a shadow; an antithesis of her namesake. the grace was there, but not the kindness. nor the humility.

then, casually as anything, Gabriel put the cherry of the cigarette out on her inner bicep. it made a low hiss, and there was the faintest smell to it. Gabriel’s face barely flinched while she put it out, her big eyes half-glazed as they observed Lucky, who cringed but had the nerve not to move or make a sound. she failed to disguise her feelings, however.

“isn’t it horrible?” Gabriel purred, “how you don’t know whether to stop me or kiss me.” she relit the cigarette and continued to smoke it.

Lucky’s wrists shook in the hand-cuffs. it wasn’t physical restraint she needed, but emotional. she bit her raw lower lip, kept her eyes relaxed, as nonchalant as possible. silence was not expected, but demanded. Lucky waited patiently for her chance.

“what am i going to do with you, my sick little puppy. lovesick. don’t bother with loving me, baby. it’s a waste of time.” Gabriel exhaled. "i should keep you on a muzzle. so you can’t sing me those pretty words. you weave words like a cage to keep me in.“ the crackle of her inhale echoed in the room. "but i won’t be your parrot or nightingale. i’m a hawk, baby. i need to fly. any animal you want; i refuse to be tamed."

Gabriel stood up and paced around the kitchen table. "but i do love it when you whine and howl. i should gag you and beat you, for all the defiance i see in your big beautiful eyes.” the look Gabriel gave Lucky was a mixture of disdain and fondness.

part of this was an act; Gabriel was a mercurial girl, laughing and dervishing through the world. that was how they had met; Gabriel had slammed into Lucky at a local show that Lucky was running. when the wisp of a woman hit Lucky full in the chest, Lucky had almost fallen over with the force of it. when Lucky looked down, this red-headed imp had the gall to look up and grin angelically, then leap into Lucky’s arms and kiss her square on the lips.

Gabriel prefered to be seen as care-free, playful. but there was an ugly, dark rage in her, from something old. it was Lucky who came to draw out the poison, loving to bear these angry fits.

“mmmm, but you do look delightful.” Gabriel sauntered right to Lucky’s face and blew smoke at her. Lucky coughed, and Gabriel punched her hard on the left arm, laughing. "bad boy! you don’t make a peep unless i let you.“ then she straddled Lucky and kissed her chin.

Gabriel was tiny compared to Lucky, who was almost six feet tall and built like a lumberjack, albeit with a woman’s ass and breasts. Gabriel squirmed around, maximizing her effect on Lucky as she got herself good and comfortable.

bracing her palms on LUcky’s shoulders, she leaned forward and in her huskiest lowest voice baited her. "touch me. feel how wet i am, how much i want you.” it hit Lucky’s eardrums just right, causing her back to reflexively arch and a groan to leak through the back of her throat.

Gabriel sat up and took a final drag on her cigarette, then put it out on her other bicep. Lucky’s body went rigid, but with the desire to stop her or kiss her… Gabriel was right, it was horrible. the little girl like pain. but she also liked control. and she had it in spades; the only indication that she hurt was a faint hiss and the flare of her nostrils.

Gabriel sighed and resettled against Lucky’s chest. her nails ran through Lucky’s shaggy hair, down her neck. Lucky couldn’t help but moan, trying not to quiver underneath her. Gabriel’s fingers combed through the thick brown hair before balling up at the back of Lucky’s head and viciously yanking it back. Lucky’s gasp was followed by a mean bite to her neck; then Gabriel lapped at the broken flesh, her tongue travelling up to an ear lobe.

“say you want me.”

Lucky’s mind went blank; she was past thought. "i… i want you"

Gabriel’s teeth sank down on the tender lobe. "make me believe you. beg.“

"Gabriel, puh… please. mmmm….” Lucky squirmed. she was having a hard time saying anything, breathing. "Gabriel… i want you so bad. Gabriel, please…“ it was like prayer: fervent, to a distant angel who may or may not listen.

Gabriel bit down on Lucky’s neck again.

"Gabriel, oh god…”

“there is no god, Lucky. there’s only me.”

Lucky was discernibly wriggling in her bonds, trying to press closer to Gabriel in any way. Gabriel responded by scrambling off Lucky with a laugh and punching her again. she circled behind Lucky and undid the handcuffs; but before Lucky could utilize her freedom, she was dragged by the hair to the couch and thrown down. even as she tried to sit up Gabriel straddled her again and pinned her down.

“do as i say, and maybe you’ll cum.”

Lucky whimpered but stilled immediately.

“don’t move.”

Gabriel rolled to the side, and from the periphery Lucky saw her take her pants off. she started to turn to watch when Gabriel gave her a warning slap on the face.

“close your eyes.”

Lucky begrudgingly obeyed. her ears rang with the strain of listening for any clue as to what Gabriel was doing. her mind wheeled in on itself so that when a great weight settled on either side of her head, she was startled. then there was a wave of heat against her face.

“suck.