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*Sighs* :

I'm collecting bad news lately regarding health, money, work and so many other little thing that I'm kind of feeling like I'm crumbling under a mountain of rocks.

Yet, the worst was my appointment with the neurologist specialist in migraines I saw October 9th, after 7 months of wait..

She had a bad news for me, explaining to me that those crisis lasting several days will only get worse over time. Reason being that I'm under painkiller grade III (Morphine) and the more I will take those, the more other painkillers will be less effective.

The solution is pretty terrible to me: I have to stop any painkiller of grade II or III (which mean I cannot return to Tramadol as it's a grade II), taking those maximum 10 days a month.

I'm already lowering the dose of Morphine since a few months, the goal always having being to switch back to Tramadol, but I already know how painful is my back when I'm not under pain killer.

As bonus, because of French laws, I cannot see my physio for 2 months and I don't know how I can physically manage the pain without anything to soothe it, or just one pill every 3 days. At the same time, I did a 7 days migraine crisis, resistant to medication and I wish this pain to nobody else.

I'm at loss, I don't know what to do..