Wetting in May 2020

May 1, 2020: Sometime before 4 AM I was dreaming about being up in a tree in a forest. I was musing about some kind of optical projection of an additional trunk next to the trunk of the tree I was in. I became aware of urinating. I didn’t interfere but just let it happen. I was vaguely aware of wearing a diaper and of the possibility it might leak, but I didn’t clench or shift position to prevent leaking. I gradually woke up and realized that I should blog about another involuntary wetting. At some point I thought about my protection, a medium blue NorthShore Supreme diaper with a large NorthShore booster pad. This is the 1st night in May and the 52nd night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 2, 2020: Last night I went to bed undiapered for the first time this year to see whether I would wake up to use the toilet. I’d wet involuntarily for the past eight nights, so the odds were good that I’d wet the bed. And I DID! At 2:59 AM I woke up wetting while lying on my tummy. I felt hot wetness on my abdomen as my bladder emptied itself into my black boxer briefs. My relaxation turned quickly to alarm as I realized I wasn’t diapered. I stopped wetting, rolled onto my back, and felt the damage with my hand. My pajamas were damp at my right front and hip. I briefly felt the 3’x5’ washable waterproof pad that I’d put on my bed before sleeping, but didn’t find a wet spot. I went into the bathroom and took off my pajamas bottoms. My black boxer briefs had a large wet spot. My undershirt and pajama top were also damp. I was thrilled to know that I’d really wet the bed, or at least my underwear and pajamas. This is the 2nd night in May, the 53rd night in 2020, and the 9th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily.

I took off my wet clothes and put on my usual blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad, another black boxer brief, a white undershirt, and some old blue pajamas. I went back into my bedroom and felt around on my bed pad until I found a very wet spot. I put the bed pad into a laundry basket and got back into bed. Time to go back to sleep.

May 3, 2020: About 3:00 AM I woke up wetting the bed. I felt myself wetting but this time I didn’t try to stop the flow but let my body do its thing. I felt the heat of of my fresh piss spread between my legs. I was lying on my back, so the damage began in the crotch of my boxer briefs and then went to my pajamas and bed pad. I may have fallen asleep briefly. I grabbed my phone and texted a few people about what had just happened. The bed pad and my pajamas were already cooling. Just now an urge to urinate that had been building for a couple of minutes finally reached the point that I wet again, this time while I was fully conscious. I stayed relaxed and let it happen. The hot wetness felt good as it coursed between my butt cheeks and into my clothes. I’m staying relaxed as I write, and so I just wet for the third time. I’m not going to put on a diaper for the rest of the night, just to see what happens. This is the 3rd night in May, the 54th night in 2020, and the 10th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily and the 2nd straight night that I’ve wet the bed undiapered.

May 4, 2020: During the night I was aware of urinating, but I quickly went back to sleep. I don’t remember needing to pee or deciding to pee. Wetting my NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad like this seems to be the most common way I wet in bed at night. This is the 4th night in May, the 55th night in 2020, and the 11th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 5, 2020: At approximately 2:15 AM tonight I realized I was wetting. Fortunately, after my experiences over the weekend, I was wearing a blue NorthShore Supreme and a booster pad, so I stayed relaxed and wet without making a puddle in my bed. As I lay there musing, I wet three more times as my internal urinary sphincter relaxed and allowed my bladder to drain past my external urinary sphincter, which I had been keeping relaxed. This is the 5th night in May, the 56th night in 2020, and the 12th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 6, 2020: Earlier in the night I woke up needing to pee and decided to wet my blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and large booster pad. I was disappointed, thinking that my accidental bedwetting streak was over. However, at 2:58 AM tonight I woke up as I was wetting again. I reached for my phone and began to blog. As I typed, I noticed that I was wetting again. This is the 6th night in May, the 57th night in 2020, and the 13th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 7, 2020: My diaper is full but my memory of wetting is empty, so I must have wet entirely in my sleep last night, which is unusual for me. Looks like I’m a true bedwetter again! This is the 7th night in May, the 58th night in 2020, and the 14th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily. And now fresh pee is trickling unbidden and freely into my blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad, which I’ll wear until it threatens to leak today.

May 8, 2020: About 3:45 tonight I realized I was urinating. As I woke up I didn’t clench my external urinary sphincter but stayed relaxed and continued wetting my blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad. While lying here in bed blogging about the experience, I occasionally feel more pee dribbling into my padding. This is the 8th night in May, the 59th night in 2020, and the 15th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 9, 2020: I woke up in the middle of a dream a little after 3 AM last night. I say “in the middle” because I seemed to go into and out of the dream, both dreaming and musing about the dream. At several points I realized I was wetting, but I just let it happen without interference. I wasn’t even aware that I was wearing my usual blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad. This is the 9th night in May, the 60th night in 2020, and the 16th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily, equaling the record number of nights of involuntary wetting that I set in 2019.

May 10, 2020: Usually I wake up wetting around 2 or 3 AM, but this morning I didn’t wake up until almost 5 AM, with my bladder signaling that it needed to empty itself. I held my pee, wondering whether my 16-night sleep wetting streak was ending. My pee urgency abated and I drifted back to sleep briefly, then woke up again. To be sure that I had wet in my sleep, I slid my hand into my blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and felt the booster pad. It was definitely damp, so I wandered into my home office to weigh it. My postal scale displayed 1 pound, 3.0 ounces. A dry Supreme and booster pad weighs 8.2 ounces, so for sure I had wet in my sleep earlier in the night. This is the 10th night in May, the 61st night in 2020, and the 17th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily, breaking the record number of nights of involuntary wetting that I set in 2019.

May 11, 2020: At 2:12 AM I I woke up wetting. This is the 11th night in May, the 62nd night in 2020, and the 18th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 12, 2020: Thinking back over the night just ended, I find one episode of involuntary wetting. I remember waking up and immediately beginning to wet. My pee came unbidden, soaking into my blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad. This is the 12th night in May, the 63rd night in 2020, and the 19th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 13, 2020: Several times during this night I woke up needing to pee and decided to do it. I was afraid my involuntary wetting streak was ending. Finally, at 5:22, I woke up and wet automatically. My blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad are now wet and swollen between my legs. This is the 13th night in May, the 64th night in 2020, and the 20th consecutive night that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 15, 2020: My streak on consecutive nights wetting involuntarily ended last night, but a new streak has begun. At 1:36 AM I woke up wetting but reflexively stopped the flow. When I realized it was okay to wet, I relaxed and peed a little more. This is the 14th night in May and the 65th night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 16, 2020: it’s 12:00 midnight and I woke up just as a lovely warm wetness spread across my privates. I stayed relaxed and didn’t interfere with my bladder’s doing its thing. My blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad thirstily wicked my fresh urine away. This is the 15th night in May and the 66th night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 18, 2030: When I finished wetting tonight, I peeked at my bedside clock, which read 12:57. I had thought as I was wetting that I was doing so by choice. However, my choice was which of three icons to click on the screen of my laptop. As I clicked on the icons, I could feel myself wetting my diaper and pad. As I further regained consciousness, I realized that the icons were imaginary and that I had been sleep wetting. This is the 16th night in May and the 67th night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 19, 2020: About 12:45 tonight I woke up needing to pee. As I lay in bed in my NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad, wondering whether to wet it or not, I began to urinate. It just happened without my deciding to do it. A similar thing happened just now, at 4:45, but this time I was more alert when i started to pee. This is the 17th night in May and the 68th night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 20, 2020: As I was dreaming about buying tomatoes at a farmers market, I suddenly felt myself begin to urinate. I stayed relaxed and let it happen. I wasn’t worried about wetting the bed but I wasn’t aware I was wearing a blue NorthShore Supreme with a booster pad. As I was waking up and thinking about blogging about the experience, I wet again. Because of the dreaming I decided that this was the 18th night in May and the 69th night in 2020 that I’d wet involuntarily.

May 21, 2020: I remember being aware of wetting a couple of times during the night. I didn’t decide to wet — it just happened and I didn’t interfere. Last night was the 19th night in May and the 70th night in 2020 that I’d wet involuntarily.

May 22, 2020: Last night I went to sleep in a dry blu NorthShore Supreme diaper without a booster pad. Just before midnight I woke up enough to realize that I was wetting. I let it happen without interference. For a few minutes I lay in bed thinking that I should blog about the experience, but instead I went back to sleep. Later during the night I again woke up, wet without deciding to, and went back to sleep without blogging. This was the 20th night in May and the 71st night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 23, 2020: Last night I decided to see whether I could stop wetting involuntarily by drinking only enough water to wash down my pills. I also put on my usual blue NorthShore Supreme diaper but without a booster pad. About 2 AM I woke up enough to realize that I had begun to wet, I stopped the flow and felt inside my diaper (dry?), and went back to sleep.when I woke up this morning I was relaxed and began to wet again without thinking of checking my diaper for wetness first. This was the 21st night in May and the 72nd night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 24, 2020: Once again I minimized the amount of water I drank before bed, but earlier in the evening I did drink half a bottle of wine, maybe 300 ml. The result was that sometime during the night I wet my blue NorthShore Supreme diaper. I was awake enough to be aware of wetting. This time I didn’t clench but let it happen. This was the 22nd night in May and the 73rd night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 25, 2020: Before going to bed I usually drink 20 ounces of water, but last night I drank just enough to wash down some pills. I put on a blue NorthShore Supreme without a booster pad, since I didn’t expect to keep my wet diaper on for for very long the next day. I went to sleep dry and woke up about 5 AM this morning needing to pee. Usually I wake up wetting earlier in the night, so I suspected I might have wet in my sleep. I slid my right hand inside my diaper, which felt just a little damp. My hand smelled just a little like pee. My urge to pee had disappeared, so I got up and went into my study, took off my diaper, and weighed it on my postal scale: 12.6 ounces. A dry Supreme without a booster pad weighs 6.6 ounces, so I had released 6 ounces of urine while I slept. I put my diaper back on and pulled my black boxer briefs and tight gray pajamas back up. When my pee urgency returned, I relaxed and wet my diaper. I went back to bed and began this blog entry. This was the 23rd night in May, the 74th night in 2020, and the 8th straight night that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 27, 2020: This is the 24th night in May and the 75th night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily. At least I think it is. Why else would I have woken up at 12:40 AM in a wet blue NorthShore Supreme diaper without a clear memory of deciding to wet it?

May 29, 2020: During the night I had several dreams that I still remember snippets of. I also remember at least one time when I wet my blue NorthShore Supreme diaper in a kind of dream state. This is the 25th night in May and the 76th night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 30, 2020: My diaper is wet and swollen, and I didn’t need to pee when I woke up this morning, so I must have wet in my sleep again. This is the 26th night in May and the 77th night in 2020 that I’ve wet involuntarily.

May 31, 2020: Twice so far during the night (it’s 4:10) I’ve been dreaming when I’ve suddenly begun to wet my blue NorthShore Supreme diaper and booster pad. I’ve stayed relaxed each time and just let it happen. This is the 27th night in May, the 78th night in 2020, and the 3rd straight night that I’ve wet involuntarily. This is by far the most involuntary wetting I’ve experienced in a single month since I was a child. At last I feel like a real bedwetter again. How thrilling, not to be in control of my own body, but safely!