it dont feel too bad all the time. in school there was plenty of external motivation, this past year for me there was not much pressure at all. but now i remember god damn its so fuckin hard to just rough it out all by my self.

i reeeeeally gotta say this shit now cuz like. fuck dude. my course lookin kinda crazy. like actually pretty legit pretty scary they expect us to know so much. and yea i do know quite a lot but its expected that everyone does so like holy shit its probably gonna build up like crazy. fuck. yeah. and life shit too. everyone goes thru but. yeah. yeah me just being me makes me just miss you