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please note "Worse" in the subject or body of your donation. Focus on the Tedium You put a top on pink lemonade

and the hope is gone

and then you watch it pop off

Now you slip on pink lemonade

and the faith is lost

and you back's all wet

all pink all wet all pink

Shit pizza shit food shit life Well today is just a stop-gap for tomorrow

I was holding out, I was hoping.

But all the truths are etched in broken bones,

When you focus on the tedium. Hot for the Halo I had a dream I was a liar

and when I woke up it was true,

And in the haunted morning daylight

There was nothing left of you. And I was hot for the halo,

Hot, hot, for the halo. I was dreaming of the sun,

while we were peering through the trees.

When we descended into fog

There was nothing down beneath. And I was losing,

I'm always losing out.

I was losing you. And I was hot for the halo,

Hot, hot for the halo. My Buddy Valentine Ham-fist man

with the crushed can hand

are you bleeding man?

Did you see which way he ran

Jumped right in the back of my tan Ford van And you hang out

You hang out with your friends again

On the crushed can cigarette couch

The worn out couch with the holes in it Where did you go?

The preacher preached pretty

on the way to the city now you're alone

smoking a Kool on the side of the road

You blow an "O" and a little bit out your nose

you know these aren't the only smoke tricks I know

I got twenty I got plenty we're giving shows At the hang out

When you hang out with your friends again

On the crushed can cigarette couch

The worn out couch with the holes in it Second Glimmer The first time we made out was underneath the Giddings bridge

Faces slurping and smacking hands tentative grabs the retreating

We move like two dancers who can't see each other

Like two musicians who can't hear what the other is playing And I think we invented awkward

at least that's how it seemed to me

Just trying to fit our faces together You got some dirt on your back let me brush it off

Let's hold sweating hands for the next block

You see them pointing and laughing just let it roll right off Fed By the Eater I got wasted on orange juice at 8 years old and it bit me in the back

I got the worst hangover

I got high on chocolate-covered espresso beans at 12 or 13

I got the worst headache

I got addicted to My Little Pony at 8 or 9 and it took up all my money and time Well the last hope almost lost it

when a gangster's ghost took him but

belief can turn a man into a monolith.

And if you'd believe in me,

I could drive a spike right into the world.

We came,

and we saw,

but we couldn't see what was next.

It took up all my money and time. Swamp With Potential Yeah I ducked behind a trashcan

when I saw you coming,

I didn't have the words and I knew I couldn't stomach

the way your eyes gather shape in mine

without the words that I needed to say to you. What you're looking for you won't find in me,

There's no sense of love

or human poetry,

Just a blackened fist of ashes in the corner of a trashcan

that I'm ducking behind. I'm always saying something stupid,

like "I'm not John Berryman, I'm stupid"

or "I'm not Solzhenitsyn, I am stupid,"

and it's a waste of time.

Because it's stupid

to fetch for something fake but fairly striking

the world cut out their eyes

replaced with dollar signs,

sizer than sizeway lines,

and we're mired in slant rhymes. And so we say

that there's nothing to say.

All the silence and the horror sidle up along the boredom

with their stupid rhymes.

Why can't we say

what we're meaning to say?

Oh, I swamp with potential

and I know I'll find the words I need to say to you. Yeah I swamp with potential

but I'm always just singing these stupid fucking rhymes. Mary-Anne Mary-Anne kisses are catch-as-catch-can

and I don't think we can do the things that you wanted to

'cause now I'm working nights and me and the manager we're getting pretty tight

I'm trying to get that raise that I promised you

3am in the kitchen door you called me a liar

I know I never did it before but I really did sleep on his porch all night

I had a few beers and I got a little too uptight people do it all the time

Mary-Anne I'll take you out again as soon as I can

But dinner and a movie might not be exactly how we planned

Because the money I had in line I guess it kind of ran out

I hope you don't mind a rental and some take-out

Do you think that it would be fine just this one time? 2am on the kitchen floor you called me a lover

I know we never did it before it was a perfect end to a perfect night

I had a few beers and you were looking pretty alright let's do it one more time San Francisco Go on and tell them all you know

about me:

that I was sad, and loose, and wild,

but never free. Because the past, it grabs you by the throat

and it holds you down and it takes you hope,

and it leaves you.

Except it never leaves you. So I'm moving to San Francisco,

I'm gonna come up from out of the night.

I'm moving to San Francisco,

and in the bottled glass apartment haze

I will see the light. I was lost

before I got found.

And when they found me I was drunk,

and snapped in half,

and lying on the ground.

I was through,

through and through,

nothing new,

nothing new. I was looking for a chord to strike,

but the notes they wouldn't come out right.

They were all wrong. So I'm moving to San Francisco,

I've got to come up from out of the night.

I'm moving to San Francisco,

and through the water reflections on the wall,

I will see the light. Major Payne I keep a bottle of liquid pain

beside the bed in case the rain isn't gloomy enough

I want to feel it in my guts man tearing them up

from the inside out tearing them apart so I can pass out I keep a bottle of headache pills

beside the bed in case the pain is just too much

I want to feel it in my bones man breaking them up

From the inside out breaking them apart so I don't have to go out If you are what you say you are,

how could you seem what you seem to be?

And if you are what you say you are,

how could you seem how you seem to me?

