Posting this here because r/globaloffensive mods misunderstand the post's intentions. This post is not an attempt to get my VAC removed but merely to turn a new leaf.



This is a wall of text. I'll try to do a TL;DR but you'd be missing out a lot.



For starters this is not the first time I've apologized but would be the first time I've done so on HLTV as I feel I owe this community in particular an apology. So here we go:





1. I did not cheat in league matches back in 1.6 (apology to hiko here)



Before that gets brought back up I was clean in actual leagues such as CAL, CEVO and ESL back then, but due to the questionable teams (and back in the day IRC clubs), I was lumped with (I was a young kid back there and wasn't as experienced back then to tell who was clean and who wasn't 100%) I got a pretty nasty reputation early on. i.e., I have one good round in a match and in the past, as a part of a dispute, the argument "hes in _bM_ a known 'cheating club'". I also was kind of immature and a bit outspoken on forums such as GotFrag back in the day and while what some of the things. When I was 15, I looked up to hiko's former teammates, pondfiller and weymo and my friend randomly made a team called SLP (which was the exact name as hiko's team, SLP). The team was called Stacked Like Pringles, hiko's team stood for Stacked Like Pancakes, and there was some misunderstandings between me and hiko where I said "I was on SLP", and while back then it was just a playful joke/homage to hiko and his teammates that I respected, I can see , looking back at it now I can see why he got upset about it. So I'm sorry hiko for the "SLP thing".



2. I went to LAN in 2009 and was happy with how I did individually at a local LAN against some oldschool CEVO-p pugs considering the pug I met with I met at the day of the LAN and had no strats and no communication going.



This is a clip of me on LAN when I just turned 18 and was able to start going to LANs:



[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCClByt-UIA[/YOUTUBE]



-------- Where things went wrong just before CS:GO ---------



3. So just before CS:GO I got banned from ESEA for a long time. Not for a cheating related reason. The ban was put in place by BiGG under "Malicious activity" after I had an argument with what constituted as baiting on T-side of nuke prior to RWS (when people still played for FPR). After the argument I got banned for 30 or so years? Much later on down the road I tried apologizing and just got re-banned for 60+ years. The account can be found here:



https://play.esea.net/users/941314?tab=history



4. Because of this I would play the remainder of 1.6's lifespan in ESL against Euros (with a 150-200 ping handi), doing exceptionally well in their built in MM system back then. A movie of me playing on the ESL MM service can be found here. I did not cheat, therefore I received no cheating ban ever:



[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fHsHbG-txUg[/YOUTUBE]



This is also me playing ESEA (legit) before my "malicious activity" ban:



[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nFmMRy2fSg8[/YOUTUBE]



-------- When CS:GO came out, and where it all went wrong --------



5. So CS:GO comes out. I play the first year or so of it legit, meanwhile constantly trying to find out how I could get unbanned from ESEA and be able to play and compete again (since imo, my ban was unjustified in it's length especially considering I would later go on to apologize several times just to get denied). This was around the time I was making guides and such.



6. Around the time of the bitcoin scandal ESEA had I realised that a competitor service was a very long way off. And it became more and more apparent BiGG would never unban me which would disallow me from ever having the chance to compete in the game again. It was around this time Leetway/ALTpug tried to compete but ultimately ended failing in the end (as most ESEA competitors usually do, except for FACEIT).



7. So I had to ask myself how I was going to continue in the game. I was banned for essentially a lifetime ban from the only league in NA that was relevant at the time. Apologizing didn't seem to work. It wasn't even for cheating. And people were (around this time) questioning if I was legit because my early murky past in 1.6 was resurfacing and people like hiko still despised me for the "SLP thing". So I started making frag movies like I did for 1.6. Except this time I made the mistake of constantly using hacks if I deemed I wasn't pumping out creative enough frags/content alongside the guides I was making. If I didn't have that much time in a week, I would cheat a few MM games just to get footage faster and try to pump out regular content. Are all of my videos cheated? No. Are most of them cheated? No. And a lot of videos you'd swear are cheating actually aren't. I made the mistake of cheating, just for the sake of consistency and getting the clips out more regularly to try to keep videos coming for the YouTube channel.



8. I realize now that the decision I made was horribly wrong, even considering the fact that the entire reason I started was related to my lifetime ESEA ban which was NOT related to cheating. If I had not been banned from ESEA for so many years before CS:GO I would have had something to strive for other than just perpetual MM games and making highlight videos. I know a lot of you will see it as an excuse, but I can tell you (as can PostmaN a good friend of mine who played in the ESL with me back in 1.6), that had I never been banned from ESEA long before CS:GO, that I never would have gone down the path I did and been practicing in ESEA all this time, hoping to one day make it competitively like everyone else who's been really devoted to the game.



9. However I am still incredibly sorry for what I did. I know that I'll never be allowed to play in a Valve major, and ESEA will probably never unban me (especially not now after all thats happened in CS:GO after the initial ban).



10. As for the manual VAC ban scenario, as far as I understand, it actually was manual. Overwatch bans do not turn into VAC bans ever. Untrusted bans do. Make no mistake I, did eventually begin to cheat on my main account, but I have no idea what game I got Overwatched for. I can have the same rounds I would have without cheating, just not as consistently. You'd be surprised just how many of my CSGO videos are legit. But I'll just assume that it was for cheating and apologize in advance, even if that's not the case.



11. I'm never going to cheat again. And I am more than willing to help any leagues or LANs (without pay) with anti-cheat endeavors in the future.



12. The reason I'm never going to cheat again is because of this:



[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X1pbrHVRobs[/YOUTUBE]



LG inspired me. They moved from home to live in another continent full-time to pursue CS. And to see it pay off for them really touched me and I couldn't be happier for them. The amount of respect I have for this team even rivals the respect I had for the original compLexity from 1.6 (w/ Warden). I never want to be on the dark side again. I only want, wholesome, beautiful CS. The same CS I loved in 1.6



13. I know I've burnt bridges and I know how the community feels about second chances (ie. steel, swag, etc.). I know Valve will never remove my VAC ban. But I'm not here to seek second chances. I came here to simply be honest and inform you all you will never have to worry about cheating from me again.



14. I did NOT cheat in FACEIT. Every frag you see in my FACEIT movie is legit. I was banned for their policy about VAC bans on other accounts. FACEIT has a policy about having VAC bans from what I've heard. You can't play on FACEIT if you have a VAC. After I made a frag movie of me on FACEIT it got attention and I was banned via their policy of my past mistake. However elsewhere on their site they said if your VAC ban in CS:GO is on another account, and older than 2 years, you can play on FACEIT again. Apparently neteX said otherwise but thats what I was told in an e-mail from support from FACEIT so I don't know what the deal with FACEIT as it stands. I'd love to be able to play FACEIT over MM but I never will know unless someone directly speaks about my case I guess. For the record as of now, the VAC ban is 517 days old. It will be 2 years old in June of 2016. I doubt I'll ever be allowed to compete in the FPL sadly, but I still enjoyed their daily tournaments and winning those.



15. In 2016 I plan on making a team for CEVO and if it does well potentially plan on attending the Fragadelphia LAN if we are unable to qualify for the CEVO LAN finals. I've gotten a lot of death threats but I'll be attending anyway so long as Sasquatch doesn't change his mind and ban me/my team from the LAN before attending as did the previous CSGO LAN I tried to attend did. (The Tampabay Esports LAN). For the record I would not have cheated at the LAN. I have no interest in ever cheating at a LAN or an actual match of any kind. I love the team vs team dynamic of CS and would never cheat in an actual match of any kind. I love real CS far too much to ever do that (hence why I never cheated in actual CAL/CEVO/ESL matches in 1.6 either).



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16. (TLDR TL;DR) I'm sorry. I fucked up. I regret it more than most of you will ever care to know. But I hope to show in 2016 (unless Spangler deems me not worthy of CEVO) that I am a capable player even against the big names once I put in the hard work I put in back in 1.6. Anyone who watches my stream knows I've spent hours and hours in LAN/listen servers just finding every little nuance in the map/game I can and develop strategies with the hopes it'll come into play into real CS like my hard work did in 1.6 (actual matches). I'm sorry and see you guys around.



17. / bonus: I have no idea why LOLYOU hates me. I never cheated while I was playing with him. But for whatever I did to him, I apologize as well.



And sorry for the wall of text as well. I just of needed to do this, and didn't really look back over any of this. Just kind of said it all as it came to mind.



Happy holidays. :]