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the windows are open

the morons keep the curtains closed

its called

r e l i g i o n

the windows are open

the morons keep the curtains closed

its called

p h i l o s o p h y

the windows are open

the morons keep the curtains closed

strawberry pink

sunset

a strawberry pink

sunset

ed. with apologies to an eleven year old juliet mclachlan who wrote strawberry strawberry the sunset the sunset

zen talks about freedom, but what is the freedom ?

over-regard

people bind themselves in anfor the words of others and nonsense notions like practice and time wasting stupidities like ceremonies and "being in the moment"

that is not free but a sysiphean paradigm

mountains are never not mountains and streams and lakes never not streams and lakes

the fools bury themselves in meditation missing the point

what sears my soul is not the usual, they have just taken the beautiful trees out of a second cark park in town, makes one cry, the coarse unfeelingess of the world

the first was a huge gum about five years ago that the rosellas used to roost in

the second was a lovely nook with a fir and natives completely oblitertared by the car park being extended

“ my name is manapo, manapo bhikkhu and i am

what a waste of a celibate life to create that sort of schizophrenia and psychosis

sort of an amalgam of lsd, a drunken reverie, lithium and a pyschotic

no wonder the comments are turned off

,

in effectits just the usual "waiting at the end of time" by the damaged

drugs, religion, good works, they all pass by "the secret" as of no interest

i really thinkby jason is better than andy warhol, which actually is not hard given the degree of crap by andy

i made a suggestion for some blood around the mouth of the female head and even fangs and also bruising for the male in thisand it was interesting to see how jason has used the idea

hiswithout the blood is really quite a different artwork, i think that shows talent, that he can create such different pieces in terms of effect with a few changes

i like art, but i don’t think the same way as artists and of course i have no experience in making art

i’m not saying collabrative involvement doesn’t work for art and writing, for instance some of my poems are "replies" to work by other writers

but i think there’s something very solipsist about the process

soft the mist lies

comforting and yielding

making the paddocks a hidden mysterious world

soft the mist lies

conforming and shielding

making the paddocks a hidden mysterious world

what’s life ?

its not long

more trauma than you can throw a stick at

a glimpse of joy

supposedly the sums add

undoubtedly

the unbelievableness of dealing with people who live behind a glass wall in your interaction with them

some people can appear sane who are actually quite insane

some people can appear sane that are actually quite insane

there’s two stages to competence

first you learn from the more competent

then you learn to correct the incompetent

there’s a wide gap between these, so many skip the first and assume the role of correcter in the second

the net

spread wider than the world

spreads one so thin

it hurts

in "the spiritual search" that there is no wrong road or right road, or even a road is typical of drug users rationalisation, since there is no wrong or right then it doesn’t matter what you do, ie taking drugs is ok

god preserve me from these highly motivated arseholes

shanahan and baars"the frame problem" as addressed by "global workspace theory"

"framing" is the ability to splice information from cognitively dissimilar domains and this is something "conciousness" achieves

old patterns

repeat and repeat

i never believed them

and now i believe them even less

but still they occur

the gravity of death

it pulls you down into it

suicide pulls you

twice as hard

the marine graveyard in séte

foolish dead

your prim houses, meaningless crosses

your eyeless corpses never to see what is beyond

the drift of the waves

moonlight stairs that you cannot climb

ciphers thou art

signifying

no-one there to see

this graveyard overlooks the sea in séte

i was researching paul valéry’s famousand its really odd to read, the first verse is wonderful, but the following ones are tangled rubbish, anyway, i was looking atof the cemetery and something fused in my mind with valery’s poem and the result is above

georges brassens is buried in a cemetery for the poor on the other side of the promontory

pour l'auvergnat

dozing off in a chair

random nonsense

arises

i get up

i’ve had enough of this

dozing off in a chair

random nonsense

arises

everybody expects fixed points

they don’t exist

spouse, children

money, health

sometimes they shift

sometimes they don’t

so much depends on the preservation of continuity

except it is

non-continuity

religions are ambiguous in terms of benefit and harm, the most brutal and murderous regimes to their own citizens were the atheist soviet union and communist china, literal holocausts in their own right

$10

done asby jeff koons, worthmillion

3D

done as a tutorial project for

$0

value

go figure today’s art scene

i don’t think in terms of a "meditative state", rather its a "do nothing time", no internet, dealing with others, no chores" etc, you are decompressing and cognitive structures can simplify and develop more predictive and insight "power"

however without adequate wide ranging quality reading you will also end up on rather narrow schizophrenic roads which are a real danger

people also "isolate" observation from testing and developing hypotheses which is another trap

the number of people i have seen complaining of depression with poor diet, heavy pot use, complete lack of exercise and no attention to the circadian rhythm and sleep who then say "trust your doctor" and take your meds (often multiple with chronic side effects) is unbelievable

the adding of sums is more like the solving of equations

we add this and that and then solve to make something simpler that then grows in complexity

sometimes to break apart leaving nothing

occasionally staying in its own terms leaving a base we can work from

36%

"diabetesthe incidence of glaucoma by

an effective inferential demonstration of how importantis to the eye

the essence of any art is to regenerate the interest as it is looked at or "perused"

if you can do this, then you have made great art

a lot of modern art "cheats" by having something initially "confronting" so creating an intial interest, but there’s nothing more or behind it, its empty

in a vision

however i would have made a mistake

me

the brain is like a fabric

that my poems and homilies rip

the brain is like a fabric

that my poems rip

what left you so inarticulate?, you’d be a hazard grocery shopping

i’m a stranger in a strange land

with no home anywhere

i’m a stranger in a strange land with no home anywhere

edda göring’swith hitler as her godfather, all quite chummy

i dispute the translations of eihei dogen’s use of "time", there is in fact no contemporary word in english to match what he meant, its obvious if you listen to all the inane explanations and i wouldn’t be surprised if he used different words anyway, the consistency is just a translation illusion

the translators give an interpretation in terms of an imagined structure, when its just a riff, pick it up and let it go, because that’s about all it is

who-knows what

look at thegoing on, the schizophrenics all trying to make sense of

a wikipedia page to testify to stupidity

the religious, so hubric

their

farts

are

tacky

zennists, so hubric

their

farts

are

tacky

viking ship burials, the pyramids and mummies, religious promises of an afterlife

the endless pursuit to sustain the illusion of continuity

in contradistinction to the failure thereof

enclosed in its walls

you don’t understand that the seeds of failure are always within ourselves

some-things

we can not help fail atbecause we cannot not be ourselves

the man leonora carrington loved was her last husband and the father of her two children, you can see it in the photos of them together

jason and cat, what drives your relationship in her eyes, though she is unconcious of it, is the reality of your unconceived children

they will flux between being more real and entirely imaginary

at some point she will move to more real or abandon the prospect and leave them as entirely imaginary

most women will abandon the relationship at the point they appear to be entirely imaginary

children feed their parent’s narcissism, they are images of themselves

you (ed. brad warner) are making all these claims of eihei dogen’s behalf, but you are just another person making claims on eihei dogen’s behalf

all good poetry implicitly deals with time and its mutations, but your reading is so limited you have no idea

the moon

tonight, tomorrow

who cares ?

walking with the fairies

that’s zen

i am asked

what does "walking with the fairies" mean ?

my reply

"away with the fairies"

“ giving the impression of being mad, distracted, or in a dreamworld ”

in terms of the poem, its not entirely negative, to successfully negotiate what zen is about requires substantial measures of distraction, madness and dreaming, too much so for the "normative bunnies" inhabiting zen today

“ leonora carrington’s views of sexuality, however, differ from contemporary feminists in that she seesas the key experience of femininity

love-making,

she stated : “ we, women, are animals conditioned by maternity . . . for female animalswhich is followed by the great drama of the birth of a new animal, pushes us into the depths of the biological cave ” ”

mating and children

women never get out of the biological cave of necessity

the ten new precepts for net zennists and buddhists

1. take plenty of drugs, its great you are being one with the universe

2. be a total hypocrite talking about compassion when you actually do nothing but talk

self-delusion

3. extend your hypocrisy into every area of your life, talk is cheap so maximise yourabout the sort of person you are

4. remember that being a buddhist, you cannot be closed enough to new ideas

5. promiscuity goes with buddhism like bacon goes with eggs

border-line

stock-in-trade

6. narcissism andpersonality are the

7. your drug taking may keep you poor, so hang a photo of the dalai lama on the wall, he's rich so maybe some of that will rub off on you

8. buddha statues everywhere to hide the pot or whatever in

9. in religion, pretense and stupidity is everything so let your natural abilities flow

10. don’t worry about re-incarnation or other crazy doctrinal divergences from the western way of thinking, your "buddhism" is what you make it

he’s behind a glass wall

of a lack of interaction

with the people

he

needs

to

deal

with

walk the road of bitterness

a lot falls away

in its clarity

there’s no-one else on this road

walk the road of bitterness

a lot falls away

in its clarity

its a road of your own

no-one else

walks

it

walk the road of bitterness

a lot falls away

in its clarity

if you don’t deal aggressively with mistakes, you will be stuck in a limbo

all the same, patience is needed in the rectification

some-one,

the problem with being excessively influenced byis you take on their mistakes as well as your own, and this proves to be an insurmountable barrier

what is the difference between visual art and poetry ?

this has always puzzled me

leonora carrington on how you shouldn’t intellectualize her art, but should

i think that’s equivalent to my saying you can’t break a poem apart to get the sense, though obviously, you can somewhat break apart art and writing effectively for analysis to an extent

i don’t think visual art, sculpture or music can carry abstraction the way poetry can, in fact, now i think about it, poetry is a unique confluence/ intersection/ conjunction of sound/ abstraction and visual imagery

poetry seems minimalist, but its the most complex, combining all the elements of the other arts as it does

an exhibition of leonora’s work

men and women with charisma are trouble

woman and men with charisma are trouble

a woman with charisma is trouble

she has charisma, and that always means trouble

,

the art buying habits ofis best explained by "opportunity cost"their successful use of attention to financial matters has left them vulnerable on the question of artistic quality which they take to be measured by price and the opinion of "experts"

1960

in addition there has been general downsizing of artistic intelligence in the public since about

oddly enough i think musical appreciation and sophistication is improving with the huge variety of material available on the web

when i look at some of the financial gurus like warren buffet, charlie munger, john templeton and peter lynch, all very able men, i suspect in a different culture and time they would have been warlords, so look out !

we live in unusual times, cycles of famine and plenty, peace and ruinious warfare and constant disease used to be the norm

anti-intellectual

charlie munger is interesting, he insists on the necessity of a lot of reading, an outsider in anworld

research is showing vaping is turning out to be no healthier than smoking

its better to "step down" over a fortnight than give up suddenly

alcohol, smoking, vaping

those two orbs in our head

they never consider

i scrape the barrel of my thought

nothing

i read some poems of marina tsvetaeva

and write something down

its probably enough and i don’t feel anything is missing

when you reach the end of the road

you don’t have to keep travelling

i scrape the barrel of my thought

nothing

i read some poems of marina tsvetaeva

and write something down

its probably enough and i don’t feel any absence

when you reach the end of the road

you don’t have to keep travelling

because marina tsvetaeva writes so directly and understandably, of all the poets i find her the most disturbing to read knowing how she died

there’s a complete disruption between her idyllic childhood and the manner of her death, she just had no idea, her poems belong in a different universe, not starving in tartarstan

her poem

people who dislike you, or you dislike can give you very valuable criticism

there is absolutely nothing special about a language, there’s many infinities of them and when you geographically isolate to some extent a human group, a new one will arise

as you get older, you get to grips with a basic principle of life

usually what you intend does not happen the way you want it, or expect

nothing is destroying maori culture faster than retaining the maori language

let go what is gone and you will keep what remains

drug users

a million miles of hubric

on a nocuous brain

not an old russianat all, but composed for a russian mini-series by evgeny krylatov with lyrics by yuri entin

the beauty of distance/ beautiful far

i find if you get into a subject more, you don’t have favourites, rather the palette becomes very broad

why are psychoactive drugs so much more dangerous to the brain than precription medicines ?

i think the plasticity of the brain and "soft memory" makes it vulnerable, so anything that the primary effect is to act on the brain can be very damaging

cross-over

you can see this with chemos designed for brain tumours, thisbetween prescription medicines and the psychoactive

an elephant

and a

human-like

brain

anti-depressant

sensible exercise/physical work is a very effective

pyotr tchaikovsky —

lsd does absolutely nothing and is dangerous

we already know altered states through dreaming

from "de aegypto" by ezra pound

the moon is a great pearl in the waters of sapphire

cool to my fingers the flowing waters

my re-working

the moon a pearl in sapphire waters

no hand in the flow

my comment ezra pound really does have his moments, a very interesting life, with one huge mistake that cost him dearly ezra pound really does have his moments, a very interesting life, with one huge mistake that cost him dearly

the more the retina is damaged, the more easily it damages

its a general principle of just about anything, damage also damages an organ’s ability to defend itself, also the damaging stimulus will be taking bigger and bigger percentages of the remaining functionality

an absolutely breathtakingby sabine devieilhe and lea desandre of handel’s "per abbattere il rigore"

"personal development" is just nonsense for suckers

half-witted

the net is infested with thesedrug taking idiots trying to shout down any criticism of what they are doing and they use zen as wallpaper for their lives

you would have though they just moped around high or whatever and kept off the net, but no, they have to missionize their bullshit everywhere

LSD

the bottom line with drugs, is do they cause permanent brain damage and my observation of people who do them, is yes they do, and actually especiallywhich even one dose doesn’t seem to leave people unscathed

self-reflection

there is no substitute for sustained periods of solitary, you can call it "meditation", "contemplative work", whatever, but that’s the real mccoy, not drug bullshit

the other thing is reading "quality", by which i mean emily dickinson and sa’di and not alan watts or ken wilber

"entertainment" is another mire, more so because its not black and white at all, i suppose you could call it an intoxicant, but its certainly a mix of useful and counterproductive

a druggie replies

i find it bothersome that you (ed. brad warner) madeabout drugs and zen without mentioning the fact that there are many zen monks that drink rice wine. read some ikkyuu and respond to his poetry about zen and drugs

my reply

i don’t think he drank that much, for one thing it was expensive then and there’s nothing to indicate he was an alcoholic

there have been some great poets who have been alcoholic like charles bukowski, but jesus, he would have been better without it

li po /lai bai too

ikkyu is also used as a contrary indicator of the need to be celibate in zen, but as far as i could work out, he was celibate until about 30 and actually i think the popularity of his writing made women more "available"

the "real zen" imo is about dried up sticks like joshu who kept their brains in good shape and lived a long time to work things out fully, its sorta between religion and poetry, with elements of both, but not completely either

ikkyu is sorta there, but he also sorta wasn’t, missing a fold or two that you can see in joshu

buddhism was created by and died with the rise and fall of the ashoka empire well, it hung about a bit, but the empire was its glory days it was a religion designed to keep the peace, just like islam actually, only in a rather different way

what i never expected was to become so prolific writing, i can’t keep up with myself, but i think its a good space, like picasso

i find the most important thing for sleep is adequate folate in the diet, that’s the real folate and not the folic acid added to food

it confusing because the terms are often used interchangeably, but they are different

regular hours and avoiding blue or white light for at least an hour or so before bed is also important

you can also sleep for several hours in the afternoon

stalin and osip mandelstam were similar, they had strong manic episodes and good intelligences

buddhism attempts to create a system of "wisdom"

it just don’t work

"wisdom" only partially works in the first place

false versions of the universe

buddhism, christianity, islam, religions in general, science, atheism, humanism, agnosticism

is that list exhaustive ?

ahh, i forgot philosophy, new age, aliens, materialism, modernism, post-modernism, engineering

what is not a false version

history, poetry, literature, going for a walk by yourself

eugene peterson’sof ezekial’s vision by the kebar river, i think it conveys the underlying strength of infinity in reality with more than a hint of tangibility in the intermediaries, something to think on for sure

so much of the old testament ismilitary victories when the reality was defeat

you can see the holocaust was to some extent consequent on a certain programmed pyschosis in judaism

what’s not known, can’t be created without "discovery"

everything just washes by

past intensities are gone

one looks back in wonder

at what seemed so concerning

everything just washes by

past intensities are gone

there is nothing more pissy than the literary world and those hogwash dregs called "critics"

“ . . . then "scientific truth" is decided by both accreting evidence and reasonable consensus between professionals. this often takes time ”

,

i really subscribe to the "free energy principle"understanding is a discovery process, it doesn’t have a beginning and an end

even the notion of truth itself is part of this

in terms of brad warner’s vlog, his "brad’s buddhism" is an obvious example of a discovery process gone awry, he doesn’t research deeply and is preoccupied with building some static understanding of "life and the universe" from the bricks and mortar of the usual idiots, why is a mystery

basically he is being unscientific, the theoretical dog is wagging the real life observation tail

in terms of science, you can infer mutability, for example the "standard model" will have some radically new perspective within several hundred years ceteris paribus

biology i have decided is some sort of macroscopic quantum phenomena

the spiritual type

5

doesminutes of meditation a week

smokes pot daily

can’t admit it so blathers to hide the fact

i’ve seen it all

the karma of going up wrong roads

one has to ask

what is a wrong road ?

the theme of icarus is not that great

if he had made the wings himself

he would have known of the low melting point of wax

non-buddha

buddha implies

what the hell

do they think

they are talking about ?

“ karl popper said that a scientific theory must make specific predictions and be falsifiable ”

well he was wrong, there are scientific theories that do not make specific predictions and are not falsifiable

something can be true without being falsifiable, wake up karl !

monotheism is bunk

one god

implies

others

the idiot pretends

zen is not a religion

why ?

because

he

is

an

idiot

just because a group of people

think it is so

doesn’t mean it is so

the rule book of buddhism

any idiot

can see

it doesn’t work

something that is

implies that which isn’t

you have to go between them

the problem with one formal system of understanding

like a religious belief is it implies others

obviously the buck doesn’t stop there

the problem with one formal system of understanding

like a religious belief is it implies other formal systems of understanding

obviously the buck doesn’t stop there

,

what i have found is people who ignore what is posted to them the way you are doingare n. q. r. i. t. h.

,

you obviously do no meditation or contemplative workjust stuck in faulty conceptualizations

its a fundamental thing when people disrespect you by not paying attention to what you say and not answering your (implicit) questions

cat writes

“ you can create a man with wings, closer to the sun but almost falling, because when we want to get the hardest things of life sometimes we burn ourselves ”

i think she’s referring towith its very astute observations on life

“ no plough stops for the sake of a dying man ”

you can write like a conversation

or you can write with density

big difference

by real life experience of buddhism and zen i mean involvement with various organisations for some extended period so you see the inside as well as the outside

to be certain of an opinion of something without substantial real life experience is a type of schizophrenia

in all my various involvements i have never seen anyone really dispute or even be interested in disputing that zen and buddhism are religions, its only by people living in imaginary worlds on the net that one sees it

interestingly a fundamental belief of buddhism and zen is the "correctness' of the teachers, with really no exceptions imo they are all stupid clueless idiots, that’s not "upaya" but outright stinking craziness and i have met plenty

what strikes me as bizarre about disputing zen as being a religion on brad warner’s vlog is that brad is an approved teacher for an organisation that views itself as a religion

how do religions and philosophy differ ?

philosophy is an investigative theory of reality

religion is a "given" theory of reality not open to investigation/question

semantic-pragmatic

they are both psychotic because the recursive nature of language means nothing meaningful can be said from thespace they occupy

to me, the essence of religion

is the pretense

of nonsense

having deep meaning

that is to say

matched to its audience

its will be like this

for all being

for all time

and existance

to me, the essence of religion

is the pretense

of nonsense

having deep meaning

that is to say

matched to its audience

to me, the essence of religion

is the pretense

of nonsense

having deep meaning

D

anti-inflammatory

its not generally appreciated that vitaminis not really a vitamin, but ansteroid and now low levels are turning out to be a major factor in

1000

D

400

1000

i’ve been taking it for years, cured a shoulder problem i was having, the blackmoresiu vitis good, you can tailor the dose by pricking one end of the capsule with a pin and say squeeze out so many drops as make for half the dose, you have to work out what dose suits, more is not necessarily better with vitamins, what suits me istoiu a day, depending

i don’t like the supermarket "multivitamins and minerals"

D3

K2

the caruso’s "vitaminand" is good, i split the dose to twice a day

K2

thereverses calcification of the arteries and connective tissue, but needs caution as it has an effect on blood clotting

i really have no health problems except one day i will need a cataract operation and am still limber with good stamina, something intelligent supplementation has enabled

i have to say most of the commonly accepted advice is rubbish or harmful

the number one enemy of continued good health as you get older is impaired circulation, it has a lot of flow on effects

D

the above is, in effect my opinion, there are contrary views on the value of vitaminsupplementation for covid, its always a difficult area and what i write is "some care and no responsibility"

1000

i do think some of these very high doses greater thaniu a day are problematic

oddly enough the intervention that has changed the game with covid is not putting people on ventilators, but using oxygen and the prone position with its greater lung efficiency, the survival rate on ventilators is very low and requires highly skilled operation

,

D

boris johnson didn’t gohe may still only be alive due to the oxygen and prone intervention, he’ll be low vitaminfor sure

a "devil’s dictionary" definition of fashion,

the extent to which women will go to disguise the fact they are cows or sows

"i’m not taking the bait"

the next step is not to take the bait and walk away

"anti-baktinism"

zen has always claimed not to be a religion but by theapproach it is and everything about it and the idiots who follow it makes sense

what makes a religion is best defined as a sort of "inverse" that is, a twisted and toxic version of the literary, it is and isn’t in a rather crucifying way

anti-carnivalistic

anti-dialogic

its anti-heteroglossial (monoglossial) in opposition to heteroglossia, subtlywith its rote and restricted permission of carnivalism,and has a false chronotope

i don’t think any religion is any truer than any other

zen and buddhism are religions

where does that leave you, zen buddhists ?

up shit creek without paddle

the usual idiot with their schizophrenically crafted version of buddhism and zen replies

At its central core, zen and buddhism are not religions. Religion is an edifice of beliefs and ideas. Buddhism asks, "when you put away all beliefs and ideas, what do you have?" That is Zen. That is buddhism

my reply

i do think zen and buddhism have strong belief systems, for instance the belief that "buddha" is an historical person, which in my view, he is not.

,

my guess is you have no real life zen or buddhist experience because your view is quite common among "net zennists"if you have real life experience with all the ceremonies, statuary, hierarchies, costumes, chanting and other brou-ha, the view they are not religions is not possible to sustain.

i think brad warner’s lack of wide ranging buddhist and zen experience has left him naive in this respect

yet another idiot comes out of the woodwork and writes

I guess the military has ceremonies , statuary, hierarchies, costumes, chanting and are not a religion

my reply

no-one

religious-like

religion and the military have always been entwined with religions promising an afterlife, whether heaven, reincarnation or even sheol to persuade soldiers to place their lives at risk butregards the military as being religion, though it may havefactors, that is, its function which is warfare is different

even so, there’s some validity to your point and we have to go to the next level on what constitutes a religion, which i have written upand is worth the effort to work your way through

interestingly brad is on the border of literature versus religion

the answer to the puzzle as to why women

its basically because double ovulation favours favours the birth of one child as women age and fraternal twins themselves are an unwanted side effect from a survival point of view

all these poets and poetesses that kill themselves

you get attached to them

and then . . .

leaving

our lives now sundered that were never apart

let the burning go on

ed. my reply to marina tsvetaeva's poem

i think the "third call" must be for boarding a train or possibly a ship

anotherof hers about asya

circles

returning circles

pick up when you come around again

relationship break-ups are irreversible, only the mentally ill or demented would want to go through all that again

if it didn’t work once, it won’t work twice

$170,000

$300,000

the waygoes these days,damages andcourt costs

its hard to understand "the telegraph" who clearly had no case not settling for the fifty or sixty thousand daniel johns would have probably accepted intially

this is a wonderful example of defamation, its defamatory if its not true and not defamatory if it can be proven to be true

the real weirdness is any number of people can say anything on the net and they won’t be touched because the legal costs are so high in relation to any likely return

newspapers and print publishers however are a sitting duck

nothing is ever right

sometimes you can think yourself right

and wake up

to find yourself out on a limb

in the middle of nowhere

nothing is ever right

sometimes you can think yourself right

and wake up

to find yourself out on a limb

in nowhere

jason writes

well an old feeling appears and lasts for three or four seconds, it carries so many memories, not like a single memory but a whole folder of them

it felt mystical, driving through the mountains of northern portugal at dusk

multi-directional

life is aproblem

unwarrantedly reducing directions can create unforseen consequences

multi-directional

life is aproblem

actors and actresses

charisma and not much else

that’s all they are

brains, no

the useless burn

of

our

lives

the world’s most fruit loop occupations : acting, musicians, politics, artists, writers

there’s a putrid ripeness festering under the appearance

however, not in all cases, there are exceptions

you can see how picasso somewhat circumvented the cost of women by looking at what he did with them artistically, he made them part of his art so he got a benefit from the involvement

brad warner is living with his girlfriend over the lock down, its really set him back and exposed him as "intellectually dishonest" to a disgusting degree, the coronairus has had some benefits, its made me wise to a certain con artistry in him

any-one

fruit-loops

beware ofwanting to be an actress or actor, the "profession" is populated by promiscous

the young don’t understand the between "cup and lip" thing, they over project, its actually a form of schizophrenia from lack of life experience, you want to be wary in dealing with them

gangiji and her people are so fake i bet thisof mine will be deleted

doesn’t she get sick of talking nonsense ?

7,000

views and mine the only comment ?

she’s buying views, you need to buy comments as well oh aging honey

living evidence pot causes brain damage

theversus the

the real is our evolutionary antecedents so the fake is no surprise

its hardly "in the moment" to be giving endless waste of time explanations, just the usual craziness of "spiritual teachers" and the morons who pay them

forget general relativity, quantum mechanics and a unified theory, "is" and "is not" and what’s in between describe everything

a question can be a comment

i must say carl jung is mostfor one so famous and having supposedly such a seminal imprint on twentieth century thought

ed. to read the link if you have run out of free reads, just leave the "cookies" screen there and don’t accept

“ Sir Thomas Urquhart, who is known today, if at all, as the 17th-century translator of part of Rabelais, must have been a most

At a guess, he may have had to a preternatural degree that quality of mind, not unknown among modern scholars, that causes a man to believe that whatever he thinks, says or does is infallibly true and right, and that whatever he observes in the world is true and right only insofar as it coincides with what is already in his mind

It would be wrong and unkind to call him a liar, as he has been called: he simply stated his own truths

Since he also seems to have been almost completely devoid of common sense, and to have been given to violence, he was hardly likely to have had a smooth life

The wonder, indeed, is that his troubles were not more immediately fatal; what saved him, I suppose, is that no one took him seriously ”

D

italy had such a high mortality rate with the coronavirus because everyone thereon vitamin

D

suprisingly it also explains why sweden is able to get away with a relaxed lockdown, that in fact they have high vitaminlevels

i really like thisby jason

jason replies

thank you, i like it too

i don’t know, am thinking about posting to social media somewhere

my reply

cat’s comments that are added to the images are crap

what works are the separate images and the images combined

that’s installation quality, the separate images framed on a wall and also the combined images

i would not put it on social media because people will pinch the ideas while shouting you down and telling you, you are producing crap, that’s the way of these mediocre arseholes

if you get some printing and framing costs i might be able to help

the sizes want thinking about

,

i quite liked cat’s late uncle’sthe talent was there

if you fix one part of a lambourghini, its just a small number of km’s driving until you find the next design and manufacturing

luxury performance cars are just one long beta that some people seem willing to pay for

“ buddhism is not mental construction ”

really ?

i get the usual deflective reply

reality’s so unreal

my "anti-deflective" reply

no-one

the problem is when the unreal is made real in maladaptive ways, something you are familiar with given your feeble attempts at controlling whatgives a shit about

the softest rain falling

not tears

but sorrow

, its a perspective that can be difficult to look from, but to me its just another poem, a different take on one i wrote many years ago i think the poem discomforted you (ed. a correspondent)its a perspective that can be difficult to look from, but to me its just another poem, a different take on one i wrote many years ago tears tears soft soft falling falling rain rain which is itself a rearrangement of a passage written by some-one i knew which is itself a rearrangement of a passage written byi knew “ then softly . . they did fall — “ then softly . . they did fall — her tears — like rain ” her tears — like rain ” yes, she was suicidal, but that’s the nature of writing, what is written doesn’t necessarily translate through to the writer, however that doesn’t mean i can’t tap into feminine themes and the depressive yes, she was suicidal, but that’s the nature of writing, what is written doesn’t necessarily translate through to the writer, however that doesn’t mean i can’t tap into feminine themes and the depressive writing explores these spaces, its not the normal social chit chat writing explores these spaces, its not the normal social chit chat

man-hour

all the idiocy and countlesss put into the creation and refutation of philosophies of science

overlooking

the

fact

there is no such

thing

as

science

astrology is a system of voynich with its own vocabulary and premises

and hidden subterfuges to suspend disbelief

its not that i don’t have anything to say, its that i don’t want to be bored by saying it

if only we could unsubscribe from some of our life "choices" as easily as we can do on the net

we get so "invested" in these "subscriptions"

the hermit life

you change your bottom sheet and underlay

because

they

have

disintegrated

maud gonne was a nut case, i think yeats was and wasn’t complaining about her rejecting him

clem gordon, the "hermitess" of st. isaac’s in the hokianga was unique, a person only come across once in many lifetimes, i was lucky to stay at her hermitage

non-being has no reference point

compared to what ?

yet it is everything

let the subs or whatever take care of themselves, concentrate on your content, its a big mistake to do the marketing yourself i have decided

unfortunately, it takes trauma to make us learn

it takes trauma to make us learn

today’s world with its ready access to literature, writing, music, entertainment and other media creates a trap for "dreamers"

if that’s you, you have to step out into the real world more and do things

only when you do things are the spells of one’s own projections broken

some-one

if you want to know whetheris talking crap

you can look at the way they behave

more insight than you want

some-one

if you want to know whetheris talking crap

you can look at the way they behave

when you run into the limitations of other people’s poetry

all you are left with is writing your own

when you run into the limitations of other people’s poetry

you have to start writing your own

there’s different realms of thought

unaccessible to the ordinary

love to travel

these

“ words of the wind ” by alejandra pizarnik, translatedby forrest gander

“ horse of ire

bear me far from myself

far from this cry

that stands in for the night ”

sometimes, it pays to let things slide aside

better the unrepentant, than the disguised repentant

“ illuminated memory, gallery from where the shadow of what i wait wanders, its not true it will come, its not true it won’t come ”

of alejandra pizarnik (number eight in a series) by anna morales

my reworking

magic memories

unearthly

glowing

i don’t ask

what is true

and what is not

an aspect of solipsism is you can’t speak to very different situations from yourself

on the other hand solipsism says you don’t have to be too concerned about that which differs substantially from yourself

the world seems so many disparate bits

that won’t come together

even if you point

and say those belong together

the angels stand

gobsmacked

error and the need for correction are endless

this is the task of celibacy

let the marrieds pretend

“ explain the words of this world thatof a boat elsewhere ”

anna morales translating alejandra pizarnik

poems without the spirit of what ?

are not

poems

poems without the spirit of what ?

are not

poetry

wrrdgrrl

in her search for damaged men

goes further afield

she replies

5:7:5

you have got to follow theformat

the damaged men, swept

like dry leaves against a fence

commiserating

my reply

haiku doesn’t fit english that well so some flexibility is needed

honey to her ears

the moans

of the dead

my view is that the only reasonable reply to a poem is to write a poem in reply

if you write poetry you will understand what i am saying, poetry is not prose, it is quite a different use of language, it can’t be approached in prose

night-time

an almost full moon

the curtains not drawn

a bird hits the window and comes back a second time

but not a third

it must have figured it out

let the masses weep

in their way

stupidity mixed with sugar

their blandness is temporarily traumatised

sod the lot

you’re a musician ?

i don’t have a high opinion of the cognitive abilities of musicians

the neighbour gave one of the feral cats away

“ tigs ”

i was quite fond of him

he woud walk with me across to the pump shed in the moonlight

i suspect he was dumped somewhere, might be alive, might not be

i think he could support himself hunting

i don’t know whether to mourn him or not

brad, you come across a lot better withthan the buddhist stuff

all you are doing with the "buddhist zen" is "missionizing" for the likes of the san francisco zen center, money into their pockets taken from yours

just remember, that sawaki’s sidekick uchiyama made his money from his books on origami, not zen

there’s no money in zen and when you do the buddhist stuff, you are just another stupid priest, one of many thousands who will just kick you away while pocketing your wallet

you can’t predict the future, all you can do is make an educated guess

you are just imposing your personal feelings, heaps of sugar is what you like

well, that doesn’t work with reality

poetry requires a degree of abrasion for effect !

eva kor wasof dr. mengele’s infamous "twin experiments"

“self-therapy”

“ she realized after many years of lecturing that speaking in public was also a kind of

for seven years, she would end every lecture with “a very strange statement : i would say, ‘i am standing up here looking down at that little girl and telling her story’ ”

1985

but in, she was at one of her talks, describing the separation from her mother, which she had done many times, and she began sobbing uncontrollably

“ i was very embarrassed. i had never cried before ”

it started happening lecture after lecture, until she was forced, she says, to confront some buried awfulness

“ never again did i say that i’m standing up here looking down at this little girl and telling her story

because that little girl and me became one ” ”

by male standards

nothing a woman does

is simple

only in iceland

,

a future of back and jointwhy do they do such a self harming activity ?

humans are a minimally robust hominin, this shit is just phakic

pre-columbian

herd immunity is a bit of a nonsense term imo, real "herd immunity" is quite a complex notion, for example the control of syphilis into its milder forms inamerica

we have an evolutionarily designed herd immunity to influenza because its genetically designed into our immune systems for us not to be killed by it

covid-19 precisely because it hits our immune systems at a vulnerable point circumvents the possibility of herd immunity

i think its known how much better to handle it now, particularly oxygen instead of respirators for those having trouble breathing and tracing contacts with outbreaks

60%

of the problem where i am has been people returning from cruise ships

i feel the long term solutions are medical in the sense of remedies, tests and vaccines

lock-down

all it took here was a couple of infected elderly passengers returning from a notorious cruiseship to spread the viruses through a hospital and put an a large regional area intowhich hopefully will be lifted tomorrow

she intends to confuse you, what do you expect ? you are not talking to another man

“ i thought i met a good girl, and that she wasn’t playing with me ”

people have unconscious agendas, she’s no more "good" than you are

you meet the agenda you’re on board, you don’t meet the agenda and you’re off

women play with men the way cats play with mice, what are you complaining about ?

"anti-flu"

basically covid is an

it hits our immune systems in a way that, optimised as we are for surviving influenza, we are vulnerable

its an infectious niche that always runs the risk of being filled

just keep an open mind, observe and do things, that sorts the problematic out

the strength of talking is dialog and interaction, not density

the strength of writing is density, its not strong on "interaction" so it needs to be righter, which unfortunately, it rarely is

males are disposable

females to a large, but not entire extent

treat them as such

judi dench is an

a quote from earnst hemingway’s "a farewell to arms"

&

&

“ the world breaks everyoneafterward many are strong in the broken places. but those that will not break it kills. it kills the very goodthe very gentle and the very brave impartially. if you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry ”

my reply

yet you killed yourself

in a hurry ?

a large pike is at leisure to eat anything in the pond

given her age, shape and skin cat is always going to have men around her like flies to honey, don’t get attached, she’s just grief

you don’t listen to me, you need to get a skill, her’s is to hook men

you just go through one female fixation after another when you should be doing art or something

keep her as a friend and not a lover,

she’s a young woman at the height of her power, she’s looking for a mate with enough money to support her future children, they are all the same, its a deadly serious business

you are more of the problem than her, its unreasonable to constrain her life

you are skipping over what i am saying

bad sign

“ If you trust me you don’t have to worry about nothing. Like I know is still too early to trust and you don’t know me well and enough, but I’m just saying you can trust. Then you do what you want. I won’t hurt your feelings on purpose ”

lol, if you believe that, you’ll believe anything

a large pike is at leisure to eat anything in the pond

she’s just sharpening her skills, but in all sincerity is not fully conscious of it

interestingly, her sentence structure is quite male

she needs to be some use in your life, artistic interest or something

its all one way at the moment, her using you to "update" her male handling skill set

she’s burning your time away to not much effect, there’s a few themes here for some good art actually

i think that might be a root issue actually, your being too casual about pissing your life away in your peak years, which, believe it or not are already fading

her replies to you are sophistic, avoidant and voynichy

she really has an agenda and long term its not you

memes

toxic shit

running

everywhere

auto-immune

1918

the core of the problem with the coronavirus is itinto too strong anresponse and like theflu, what kills is not the virus but the body attacking its own cells

it locks on to a receptor in the lungs you have more of as you get older and if you smoke

i can’t see things getting back to normal until antibodies and vaccines are developed

interestingly we have evolved to have an immune response to be be effective agaisnt influenze, but this adpation is out of phase with what is need for coronaviruses

if i read about the coronavirus

megan and harry

,

the british royal family

,

donald trump

,

jacinda arden

i don’t have to read about

anna akhmatova, marina tsvetaeva and osip mandelstam, he courted both and was rejected, in hindsight he was a far better choice than the disasters they actually chose

certainly he was a better match for marina than her stupid murderous husband

9/92

1/91

6/89

they were all quite closely matched in age; mtomaa

something to remember about the "acmeist" poets, is their lives were such a disaster the poetry wasn’t worth it

eihei dogen wrote : one day a monk came to me and said "the moment we have no possessions my world becomes larger"

my comment : yet he now possesses the idea his world has become larger

his viewpoint is that of the "religious mad", ideas replace objects and they suffer bereft of the objects, yet for all their error they may as well have the "objects" which actually the buddhist monks of old did since archaeology shows them to have been very wealthy, their lifestyle only being matched by royalty

,

you can’t say "it is, but it isn’t"you actually have to displace that by looking in a different area so the questions don’t arise

the idiots spew their conceptualizations

not understanding the fluidity of being

they bath in sewers and eat from dumpsters

thinking they sit at a king’s table

how can you help these ?

don’t

i think what is different about the net

as a publishing medium

is the way the audience gets confused with the creative producers

if you are on the creative side

by god

you have to be careful

of the grasping thugs

ourselves

shredded tinsel blown in the wind

to rebuild

is questionable

the landscape is the dreaming, when you walk in it, it is a friend and will help you to the extent it can, but be warned, there are limits

there are strange realms where you can be swallowed up and coming out again is not known

a good page of marina tsvetaeva

she might have been the brightest of the soviet years poets, having a natural philosophical depth

group moderated message boards

often show an uncanny ability

to destroy themselves, at least to sense

by selecting

the people least suited

to

be moderators

as

moderators

group moderated message boards

often show an uncanny ability

to destroy themselves

by selecting

the people least suited

to

be moderators

as

moderators

people get on a track

they veer constantly in some unknown direction

but known to them

to the outside observer it looks insane

it is insane

its called late onset schizophrenia

and once you recognise it

its everywhere

19

the covid-cure rate is significantly associated with higher

dusk

a half moon

a head in the clouds

making meaning out of nothing

dusk

faces in the clouds

making meaning out of nothing

van zyl’s pass and the marienfluss in nambia arei will never visit, beautiful country, reminds me of the flinders ranges though the flinders lacks the scale which is saying something

if i had to make "rules of life"

they would be

you have to be patient

360

only a couple of degrees inever works out

sometimes simple rules work

sometimes they don’t

don’t get caught in "bad corners" where all the outomes give an injurous intersection for you

test your ideas and be prepared to find yourself wrong

do you really need to damage your health and brain with recreational drugs and alcohol ?

remember that sustained inadequate sleep inducts permanent brain damage

there’s a type of insanity that wants to take you down with them

do not evaluate the opposite gender on looks or physique

non-black

"all ravens are black" does not necessarily imply there are noravens which actually matches real life observations

what’s the religious obsession with rules ? i have never found a rule that didn’t need modification or changing in my life ?

social rules have a tremendous sophistication and complexity, more than is easily captured in millennia old nonsense

what’s the religious obsession with rules ? i have never found a rule that didn’t need modification or changing in my life ?

what is this obsession with rules ? i have never found a rule that didn’t need modification or changing in my life ?

grandparents on either side of the family can be more indicative of genetic inheritance than parents

long term pot smoking makes you a derelict and smoking in adolescence permanently fucks the brain

long term pot smoking makes you a derelict

jason replies

i see how long term smokers are, just stupid

bottom line, relationships need money

if pigs had wings

and fish could fly

and the sea rolled up

and turned out to dry

why then

clouds would frolic

on swards of blue

the earth would boil

and all be gone

the last of the last

that’s this song

a young girl writing

a poet’s skill develops

she then abandons it

why ?

i think poetry

is a discovery

most are slow to, or never make

language on a different plane

i think poetry

is a discovery

most are slow to, or never make

language on a different level

emily met herself and got confused

she was the horror, revolver, bullet

and assassin

her own handwriting ed. the poem inhas quite a different "feel" to reading the printed text

the world we measure

is not very wide

yet it frightens us

the abyss outside

freezes us

and we don’t want

to know

the problem with eihei dogen, is people don’t give a "philologically correct" translation

therefore all the translations are inaccurate

how can you meaningfully comment on what is inaccurate to start with ?

its not professional, hence the reams of blather

the way dogen is used is as a purveyor of lovely nonsense that idiots can craft their own sense into

young people considering a career would find it helpful to ask themselves "what am i good at without trying"

the difficult can seem attractive because its difficult

wrong road

neither of you are putting enough emphasis on money, there’s whole myth about what you both are doing "the lotus eaters"

love is a narcotic for women

3

4D

i think writing compared to oral and this would also apply to art (painting, sculpture) is that being so persistent, they give more depth in time, moreorso to speak, much more sophisticated shapes and contours which would also translate through to the representations

poems by children

its interesting what they have and what they miss

highly intelligent imagery and use of language

experience of life

juliet claims the stars are forlorn

juliet

forlorn

of

the

stars

to write like someone else

is a mistake

to write like yourself

is a mistake

to write

is not a mistake

i don’t know i have pursued any skill

but at my age

the ability to write

at least to my own satisfaction

is

unusual

i like writing

you can make worlds to be remembered

talk lacks density

to do this

those hominins

scribbling on cave walls

knew this

a tsvetaeva i have never known

marina is a nice name

a mad female soul

invested

with the beauty of unreality

one of the traps

of talking to the mad

is they will talk to you forever

and at the end of forever

neither of you will be any

the

wiser

for

it

non-persistent

when i think back to orchestra performances before recordings, they must have been frighteningly, a few concerts, then gone

it would seem downright weird today, simply not worthwhile

on the other hand a good performance must have seemed magical to the audiences, disappearing as fast as it came, leaving only the memory

a conductorless orchestra is a thing

it has its origins in the soviet russian

i think a small orchestra like the orpheus has the interpersonal dynamic to keep things together with its wonderfully tight and synchronished

but mahler ?

no wonder half portugal is unemployed

they’re all in bed worrying about anxiety

there’s a lot of talent about

still there’s an eye

that goes for the center

very rare

you miss the boat

you miss the bus

and stand and look at them pulling away

what can you do ?

already ratbags

14

children at

stuck in their ways

16

at

20

blocks of concrete by

“ i need a dictionary sometimes to understand your posts ”

i have to look up words to, but i do look up/research words, the net is very good for that

5

am :

in the shower

a little too cold

and

a little too sober

somewhere between

"I don’t care"

and

"still thinking of you"

the above poem and following homily by amber prunster

“ i’ve got one foot in a fairy ring and the other in a mossy bog ”

we half see things we do, that in a year

we will ask ourselves why we went ahead and made that mistake

delay and research can avoid this to some, but not every

extent

the trouble with the net is there is so little consequence and energy required to create schizophrenic worlds, that competence is drowned and hunted out by toxic idiots promoting their schizophrenia

how different the trueone sometimes comes across

cat’s childhood photos were interesting, she’s an "old soul" from old parents, weary of life already, a real life relationship between you would be a disaster, you would both be too much of a burden on each other

she had it right with a wealthy boyfriend

autistic-style

its not a good sign her constantly saying "i love you", trivializing her feelings, which means that the feelings are jangled

20

20

i’m not really recommending anything at all, however she reminds me of an ex’s daughter, really damaged, like you and me, in an ideal world atwe would getyears with sufficient funds and no aging just to learn enough about life to make it navigable

“ i mean i bought a knife like two years ago on your recommendation ”

see you are stretching the truth here, i may have discussed it but i won’t have recommended it, just because i discuss something doesn’t mean i recommend it

its just to weary to oppose people all the time

how to make sense of the world

you can’t really

men brutally callous

women creatures of feeling

collision

ignition

how to make sense of the world

you can’t really

men brutally callous

women feeling everything

collision

ignition

its a fundamental rule of life, you don’t do irreversible things if you can help it

enough irreversible things happen already

from suicide to tattoos

don’t

old brains can’t adapt

a very few

still do

1

2

3

4

andandand

endless the sums we must add up

to simplifiy

our understanding

of

life

1

2

3

4

andandand

endless the sums we must add up

to simplifiy

our understanding

of

the

world

if you could predict the future

you'd be a rich man tomorrow

21

i can’t quite get to grips with(by andrey kneller) of a poem by ayear old marina tsvetaeva

anyway i have been reading a bit of her and wrote the following poem in reply

marina dreams of rowan trees

cut down

in all their

beauty

dream on sweet one

on that bourn

my retranslation (below) of the first two verses of marina’s poem

night’s chasm in which we appear and disappear

scatters empires and people

to history we are paucity

yet the emerald of my eyes, lilt of voice and golden hair

ensnares it all

one tomato

on my table

light red and green

a wet year

i neglected them

the others rotted

on the ground

ed. i went to a lot of trouble to fertilise the soil properly and it grew prodigiously, but i didn’t stake it, more fool me

fromby alejandra pizarnik

in the night

the mirror for the small dead

everything turns to ashes

my comment

its not ashes while it occurs is it ?

not everything turns to ashes, even though we may not see it

sometimes you can see something significant and it doesn’t register

sometimes you can see something and it doesn’t register

so i went to town on friday and unfortunately picked up a norovirus, from i assume, eating in town without washing my hands — soap and warm/hot water is needed for norovirus, alcohol-based [60 - 80%] sanitisers work for enveloped viruses like corona, but not unenveloped like noro

i had bought some fresh salmon keeping it on ice and eating it today (monday) it has kept very well, suprising as fresh fish can go off very quickly, even on ice

you, the reader may wonder sometimes about the people i correspond with, here’s my reply to one that may raise eyebrows

is useless for any practical purpose you might have, you are not a mobster assassin

just to have a knife of that nature on you will get you into more trouble than you can handle

my experience with butchering a lot of the tough skinned feral pests that we have around here is what matters with a knife is having a good firm grip and a sharp edge, a problem a diamond steel solves

childhood dreams

exotic places

on the net

they turn out to be

just more people

“ i know if you’re given a poet’s voice

all the rest will be taken from you ”

marina tsvetaeva

when you don’t eat for several days

the brain goes awol

when you don’t eat for a while

the brain goes awol

ask yourself, is the result worth the effort ?

ask yourself, is the result worth the time ?

soto deepens narcissism

what can i say ?

all the fuss about coronavirus

and what do i get

the norovirus

twelve hours of nonstop vomiting leaves a mark

ed. changing viral transmission characterstics like "lock-down" and "social distancing" brings a different set of viruses to the fore, in this case the norovirus is persistent on surfaces

it surprises me the degree of hostility i get on the web

they don’t like what i say

narcissists are so sure of themselves

read the signs

and don’t be caught

covid- 19

one of the surprises of thelockdown

relatives turning up on one’s facebook page

if you are buying a car; reliability, ease and cost of repairs before features and "luxury"

range-rover

BMW

if you really want to be stung, you can buy awith aengine

cars these days seem to be more disposable toys

i’ve got a virus

you just have to wait and wait

and wait and wait

until things get better

ed. rest and stopping eating with the occasional teaspoon of jam in hot water to keep the stomach lining coated with sugar is what as worked for me before, i don’t think its covid because my lungs and sense of smell are fine, most likely just the usual with autumn, in this case, i think its a norovirus aka "the winter vomiting bug" which i think 12 hours of nonstop vomitng qualifies me for

by jason

you can see the thinking is different, so unlike the steaming piles of phakic shit on the net

to get a reputation as an artist you have to start producing in quantity

it would pay to read up on andy warhol who certainly knew how to "commercialise"

if women were hermaphrodites

and could get pregnant by themselves

some would

if women were hermaphrodites

and could get pregnant by themselves

they would

a wrong road

i turned down

it turned out it was not so much wrong

as i needed correcting

still

i need not

have taken it

søren kierkegaard

anti-gordian

anuntangler of his day’s morality

even

so

he broke through

thedeliberately doesn’t list items to snare the innocent, they present the other stuff after the first repair as needing doing and the base overinflated price has already been set

don’t underestimate the cunning of dealers, what breaks the spell is your video, they may retaliate its so damaging to them

when people don’t answer your points

and skive off

into their own agenda

get out

omniscience

omnipotence

omnipresence is redundant

so

much

for the trinity

“ you don’t go anywhere if sussing out ideas is your aim ”

you go somewhere by sussing out ideas

r|zen is a festival for borderline personality

the self-love is so thick you can cut it

what is not a story ?

everything is a story

except the story that is not

a story saying everything is a story

except the story that is not

“ people whose diets consisted mostly of highly processed meats, starchy foods like potatoes, and snacks like cookies and cakes, were more likelyyears later than people who ate a wider variety of healthy foods ”

“ more diversity in diet, and greater inclusion of a variety of healthy foods, is related to less dementia ”

“ words destroy meaning ”

spot the recursion ?

“ proof ”

i think the skill is handling the recursion so it is meaningful

"words building meaning"

"meaning" and "meaningless" are mutual subsets of each other, but all the same there is a road out of nonsense

“ what happens after death ? ”

why are you asking me ?

go to a cemetery and have a conversation

omniscience

omnipotence

if that doesn’t tell you ideas about god are wrong

what does ?

my reply (below) to some nonsense i got in reply to the above

i think you have to "prioritize" ideas in terms of "correctness" or "utility" otherwise you don’t go anywhere, a problem in r|zen btw

i do see a lot of "everything is equal" in zen and its a cop out

i don’t treat "god" like a fixed idea, but i am actually asking what god is and even if you can ask what god is

you are building stories for something you have no experience of

why ?

some young women

are smart enough

to use young men

as a sink hole

for the energy

of delayed reproduction

young men are blind

the other side of sex is pregnancy

they get caught in the holocaust of parenthood

before they know it

predictions

endless and wrong

watch

the

one

that’s

right

there’s useless words and words that map reality

all these vibrant young women who a couple of generations ago would already be married and pregnant, there’s all that energy with no outlet, maybe they want to look for an outlet that is productive and gives them intellectual growth

i thought i heard laughter

but it was the neighbour’s chooks

i thought it was laughing

but it was just the neighbour’s

chooks

you (ed. brad warner) have it inside out with zen, the "mystical experiences" are primary, zen is just so much btw like everything else

when i would say this on r|zen it would really upset people, simply because lacking these experiences they required i be invalid or they were talking nonsense

the reality is the vast majority of people will never have these experiences or at least will never be able to integrate what does occur and the trouble with the "zen system" is the experiences are "synthesized" and not genuine, its really just so much fakery, the only genuine thing i found was zazen taught me to examine myself, but of course, one outgrows it as unnecessary, you just do it on the fly and put in "contemplative time" on a daily basis

"boot camp"

the most unpalatable fact of ch'an/zen that western audiences find is that the real tradition was celibate and the version of zen in the western world is actually a political fascist construct as japan was never "denazified" in the way germany was, easy to see if you have ever been in alike mt.tremper

people just want "window dressing" for their lives and self esteem and that’s all it amounts to with very shoddy curtains, furniture and wallpaper i have to say, "the futurological congress" really

the most disturbing trend in zen now is its use as a background justifying pissing your life and brain away with drug use

we have already been getting cold type coronaviruses since forever

covid- 19

people have huge differences in their susceptibility to serious complications frombased on their genetic immune halotypes

the use of quick effective tests for the disease and antibodies will become normal for international travel

the disease mutates to fit different "halotypes" for better infectivity and the different mutations have widely varying virulence

much less resource intensive ways of handling serious complications have been developed and some potentially remedial drugs have been identified

the most worrying aspect is that it can leave permanent footprints of damage, its not a disease you get once without too much consequence and have permanent immunity, you don’t want to get it and immunity will vary from not much at all to several years

it did not escape from a chinese laboratory but has developed over many years by a constant exchange between people and pangolins in chinese wild animal markets

yes i read the science, from that point of view and modern communications the world has never been so well equipped to deal with it which as just as well as pandemics have destroyed so many of the previously great civilizations

WHO,

asia needs to stop the sale of certain wild animal species like bats, civets, pangolins and anything endangered or cruel or its just a question of waiting until another possibly nastier pandemic disease comes along, science already knows the problem animals, its a job forbut they seem to failing in their brief

magpies

yakking to each other

meaninglessly

meanwhile, living bog

glory on

women have better verbal dexterity than men

why would you think otherwise ?

women have better verbal dexterity than men

why anyone would think otherwise

i don’t know

if the coronavirus has shown one thing

its the intellectual paucity

of the average journalist

"blather" doesn’t describe

these

idiots

young children

all the energy of life

it goes

quick

enough

language interprets and models the world

if it disrupts that modelling

look out

john keats

themed the elgin marbles into the grecian urn

where he lives forever

untouched

by

time

john keats

themed the elgin marbles into a grecian urn

where he lives forever

untouched

by

time

anna

seamstress of tragedy

the stone apollo in her st. petersburg flat

depressed

depressing

a life out of time

immersed in bloody unreason

ed. my reply toby anna akhmatova

how definitive can you get on sir henry neville beingof shakespeare’s plays ?

"stratford-on-avon"

if you’ve got any shares in

sell

when i walked through shakespeare’s house i thought, this man never wrote those plays

try as you might, you can’t ignore your past, it needs addressing almost constantly because it is part of who you are

try as you might, you can’t ignore your past, it needs addressing almost constantly because it is who you are

don’t try to impose your way of living on others, as a poplar and birch are different, so are people

"anti-paid"

underpaid doesn’t describe writing as a career,does

anything that’s not writing pays better

money anyway

i have a somewhat patchy electrical skill background and never understood how an alternator worked and always wondered

a good video

multimeters are inexpensive, know how to use one and you will save yourself heaps

self-inflicted

there’s something really crazy about japanese culture and the way they look at things, they must always be on the brink of some newdisaster

self-inflicted

there’s something really crazy about japanese culture and the way they look at things, they must always be on the brink of somedisaster

when you look at the complexity of a biological organism, i don’t think even god is up to the task of designing it

"design" in this sense is an emergent property of a fractal like "does it work" or "doesn’t it work", ongoing questions that spin on in evolution forever

or at least during the state of the universe where chemical conditions make it possible

some-one quotes me then makes a comment

“ "humility" is in fact your subordination to this better "objective" truth ”

this reminds me of an encounter with a fortune cookie saying

"agreement and disagreement are not preferences"

this means one should not prefer to agree or disagree

jolly good . . . far better than "your fortune is in the next cookie"

my reply

"agreement and disagreement are preferences", to me that is correct and your fortune cookie quote is not

i don’t feel the need to say what it means, you felt you needed to provide an "interpretation" of what you have assigned status as inviolate "sacred script"

the "new testament of fortune cookies"

in routine things people wouldn’t last a day if they weren’t constantly assessing if they are wrong

how is it people get these extraordinary ideas they can follow for a lifetime without ever assessing if they are wrong ?

people don’t think of lions having "brains", but they do, they’re an intelligent animal

"social justice" is a tchotchke

interestingly phonetic btw

the human bees

try to keep the hive together

the human bees

trying to keep the hive together

WWI

charlie chaplin is acomedy as well it might be in the years of

“ do you think there is any value in humility ? ”

if you want to understand something better, you have to be open to the fact you don’t understand it which means you have to invest in objectivity, not the blind regurgitation of religious nonsense, genuine "inquiry" is a completely different paradigm to that usually embarked on

you have to also be alert to having a good grasp of something because the turds do nothing but try to grind you down with your better expressed understanding

"humility" is in fact your subordination to this better "objective" truth, but they are few who take this road

wow, this really took me back to my stay at the kwan-um providence center, an important part of my life and i had forgotten how impressive the chanting was

the leaves have all dispersed in the wind

lost forever

zen/ch'an went off the rails from the start, the "song of awakening" by yongjia xuanjue is bullshit and the amount of energy spent in the later following centuries on fawning commentaries of this bullshit is, i am afraid the truth of the matter, idiots promote idiocy, how they can waste their lives in this way, i do not know

yongjia xuanjue was never enlightened

understanding, not at lesiure, dodging the tigers

until

one

gets

eaten

that’s

the

awakening

the idiots

spawning a trail of construction

leave a burden of deconstruction

this is the way

of the tao

if you don’t understand something and you think there’s something to it, it pays to go back later, can be days and try to figure it out, that’s all "zen" is, this improvement in understanding from figuring things out, there’s another level of engagement, not the social chit chat

my writing is that level of engagement, even to read me you have to turn your brain, that’s why people get so upset with what i write

yeah thoseare cool and actually its a very modern form except for the drums themselves

there’s a wide world out there and it needs to be searched out, not blinkered like people seem to take "zen" as excuse for

the way i do things, everything is on edge

its a wonder i don’t get cut more often

considering the size of brad warner’s reading audience, viewing audience and travels he is absolutely the lowest paid "teacher" i have ever come across, he needs to start charging for some things, people on the net are very "using" of the "volunteer" time of others, its easy to fall for their bullshit

GEN Z

, manipulative incompetent sophistry inwired into its soul

ed. "sophistry" is arguing to deflect and deceive without it being detected, something today’s younger generations are very good at

solipsism, you are the defining reality of your life

“ don’t cast pearls before swine ”

its not just the loss of the pearls, but the pigs drag you down

what i notice is that most people don’t equate an improved ability to write and reason on paper or the screen with zen, yet its the area that returns the most if you put the time in and are open to it

no-one

people seem to equate writing with your usual conversational expression, though often way more dishonest becausepulls you up for bullshit on the net and the next level up is not even understood to exist

"teaching" is a farce, there’s no money in it, the "students" are all narcissistic borderland personality types and just suck your time for their gratification, the "teachers" themselves don’t understand their subject, so its all some sort of purgatorian hell

ADHD

even just reading fully what they are replying too would be a big improvement for most, thispicking of a few words from a post then reconstructing a meaning from that is unbelievably common from these "in their own eyes" masters

hubricity and stupidity run riot

i got the usual idiot reply to this

my reply

you are exactly what i was complaining about, don’t bother to read what was written, pick out a couple of words to reply to, and then to cover the fact you are too intellectually diminished to understand what was written, reply in a couple of "deflections" and "declamations"

GEN Z

god its depressing that this is standardfare, manipulative incompetent sophistry inwired into its soul

you can have the patterns of mental illness

but not be mentally-ill

the problem with "teaching" is its not very remnant

whereas if i write something its remnant

i remember a poem by charles bukowski where he is bored out of his mind day after day dragging on endlessly, just smoking and drinking i guess, maybe something you can do in the climate of los angeles

i’m sorta envious of that, except the drinking and smoking, an endless changeless nothing going on forever

WW2

story about werner heisenberg

“ heisenberg lectured in neutral switzerland. the united states office of strategic services sent agent moe berg to attend the lecture carrying a pistol, with orders to shoot heisenberg if his lecture indicated that germany was close to completing an atomic bomb ”

a very able man, he was quite capable of organising the development of the atomic bomb, its just the nazis regarded it as too long term a project and didn’t fund it

,

if he had tapped into the japanese bomb research program and both japan and germany had adequately funded the developmentcould be one of the "master race" lecturing us racial defectives

WW2

,

,

,

its fascinating that germany did the science for the atomic bomb on the cusp of, two of the research group responsibleand her nephewhad toas they were racially jewish (meitner was a convert to lutheranism)

you can see that the nazi regime, through the vehicle of its policies which enabled its rise also were the actuality of its eventual failure, the atomic bomb development was literally passed to the americans in the year leading up to the war

the reich on a large scale destroyed an extraordinarily large and productive part of its middle class, it was only possible to lose the war on that basis

SS

as an interesting aside, heisenburg though not jewish ran into trouble with thedue to conflict with "deutsche physik", however his mother was a friend of himmler’s mother so managed to get himmler to give him "a pass"

why does everybody have to? you need to be yourself with your own thoughts

"non-permission"

"teachers" become trapped behind a glass wall of a lack ofof criticsm

i actually have to say i don’t think its a healthy thing to be "a teacher"

in the context of "springwater" i know it hurt toni, she was too obliging

as "springwater" gets more into the "net" it will be tempted to censor which to some extent will need to be done to weed out the incorrigible schizophrenics, but keeping the useful stuff is a definite skill

better open than closed, you learn a lot at the extremes only it takes a bit of finesse not to be damaged by it

let’s be honest, a lot of finesse which is not necessarily successful

interestingly david hume developed hisfrom the indian/asian religious notion of the skandhas or "five aggregates"

its the claim you can know an object by its properties and the aggregation thereof (an infinite regress you should already be suspicious of)

super-ordinate

the conceptual flaw is that you have to list consciousness as bothand subordinate

when you do that the theory unwinds

"non-permission"

"teachers" become trapped behind a glass wall of a lack ofof criticsm

i actually have to say i don’t think its a healthy thing to be "a teacher"

in the context of "springwater' i know it hurt toni, she was too obliging

have you ever noticed how consistently hostile human interaction is

there’s always an edge of resistance

breaking through

there is a wall reason doesn’t go beyond

i think that you are looking for more reason than there is

hyenas, wild dogs, lions, leopards

forever at war with each other

like human clans

returning memories

triggered associatively

looking back

the years intervene

today

not as bright

as they

were then

no-one

this a true story, an austrian jewish woman survived the holocaust by being married to a wehrmacht officer, he knew butelse did

to get married she had to prove aryan purity which she somehow fudged, obviously she lied to the registrar

after the war she confronted the registrar and his response was she committed fraud

the callous brutality of the simple minded

in-groups

cloy to themselves

disgusting

why does everybody (ed. at the springwater center) have to mimic toni ?

you need to be yourself with your own thoughts

the sense of something is independent of language

though something may be much better expressed

in one language compared to another

depending on its optimizations

translations have this limitation

you cannot transfer

the meaning

lock stock and barrel

from one language

to another

when you write

fold meaning

let the reader unfold it

most won’t

when you write

fold meaning

let the reader unfold it

i cut my hair for the first time in my life, i have trimmed it before, but the full scale cut went surprisingly well

i think you need a night’s sleep between washing the hair and cutting it so that when you come to cut it, it is falling in its natural shape, even combing it may not be good idea as this disrupts the natural fall

the big advantage of cutting your own hair is you can trim it over the following days as the shifting way the hair falls reveals new flaws that need to be removed

i’m in no hurry to get it professionally trimmed and in terms of shared air space, i would say being a hairdresser is a high risk profession for covid transmission, right up there with dentistry and

i could go feral, pine boletes, saffron milk cap and wallaby

when they substitute analogies for real reasoning

look out !

losing yourseems to be a consistent sensitive early indicator of gettingCOVID-19

i have never paid much attention to my sense of smell so i am learning more what i notice in the way of smells

its a good indicator of encroaching alzheimers too, though i am not so sure one wants to know that

neuro-psychiatric problems

all my reading of the covid virus is you don’t want it, even if you have relatively few symptoms, it can be quite damaging to the lungs and other organs and has the potential of

self-isolate

i think people are going to have to learn to identify early symptoms very quickly and

of course there will be the usual nutcases who deliberately spread to others and the ignorant in denial

smoking increases the number of receptors the virus binds to in the lungs, anybody who still smokes has a mental health problem

COVID-19

D

when i see people within hospital on the media they are all supine, but if you are in "acute respiratory distress" you are better to be prone;. inis why the prone postion gives better lung recruitability

“ patients who did not receive prone positioning had poor lung recruitability, while alternating supine (face upward) and prone positioning was associated withlung recruitability ”

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what i find objectionable about these "morality tales" (ed. no.in the shinji shonogenzo or no.in the blue cliff record) is its just basically pompous asses telling people garbage, who do they think they are ? nishijima, the blue cliff record author, translators and

it lacks nuance, decent expression, insight, its just the usual declamatory meta of babbling idiots trying to overwrite reality to create an illusion of them knowing what they are on about when all they can do is copy nonsense

the readers can’t read

and rewrite what they think should be read

telling

instead of listening

there’s something to "following circumstance"

and also something not

does it mean anything at all ?

look at the voice it comes from

the breathing of sick men

it you can’t work out that’s toxic

is there any hope ?

no

i am asked

hi, what do you think "following circumstances" means ?

my reply

i am very wary of when people move away from common use english to craft their own schizophrenic meaning, a fault one sees a lot of in "spiritual writings"

the right answer is its nonsense because its not actually understandable english"adapt to circumstance" is more recognisable but hey big deal, hard to puff yourself up as a zen master on that

so much of zen is what i call voynich, if you want to know what voynich is, research the "voynich manuscript"

its bullshit crafted to look like it has deeper meaning, something that has the dumb idiots on r|zen fluttering like moths around a radioactive lamp

let me recover the meaning

a monk asked ta sui

"what do i do if there is a conflict between the scriptures and what a situation requires"

ta sui spit into the ground and said

"adapt to circumstance"

knurled surfaces

embroidered, decorated, raised, lifted

something to the touch

but not to the brain

knurled surfaces

embroidered, decorated, raised

something to the touch

but not to the brain

knurled surfaces

embroidered, decorated

something to the touch

but not to the brain

a summer’s day

shimmering in memory

how often ?

not so often

anti-natal

jane austen was known for herviews and an underlying theme of "emma" is the death of young mothers, three of the central characters all lost their mothers at a young age

mr. woodhouse’s horror of his daughters and mrs. weston being married is not without foundation

we like a story

the fragmentation of uncertainty disturbs us

it is not that things are not as they appear to us

but our construction of that appearance

constantly varies

we like a story

so we are told stories

and not much else actually

the fragmentation of the untold, unknown

is

unwanted

communal truths have no place in absolute truths

because

its inherent in the dynamic

the number of people on the web

living in the echo chamber of how wonderful they are

amazes me

“ but when or how will we inoculate society against a plague of injustice ? ”

when people no longer have children

arguing with the insane

not my favourite pastime

however it can be productive

you see things in extremes

not really possible

any other way

T

T

​ why spend your life (ed.hearutau) writing bullshit ? i have criticized brad for being schizophrenic in his development of a claimed buddhism well outside the public domain conception of what buddhism is

i would make the criticism of your behaviour being schizophrenic in the sense you are clearly replying to me and seeking me out yet dissing and paying no attention to what i am saying, i get this a lot on message boards, seeking validation from me, yet dissing what i say

really given my response to you you should not be writing/telling to me if you really believe on your own "rightness" versus mine

if as you claim, you are homeless yet are prioritizing a wife and family to be in your future life, you need financial security and a home, something not to got by wasting time bullshitting on brad’s vlog

the truth of zen is it is a celibate solipsist tradition and makes no sense in any other context

in terms of "mystical inquiry" "fear of death" is a dead end

and even death itself is a dead end

apart from the pun

: o )

non-useful

they are both justideas

paranoid fantasies are not reality

explanations fail, not because the explanation is wrong, but people won’t investigate further or make the necessary changes to their understanding

D

O

o you think what you’re doing is the correct ?r are you also wrong about everything ? ”

this is the point about coming from a number of different angles, if you look at an explanation/ supposition/ hypothesis ten different ways and it all adds up then that is objectively certain so i never have to entertain the question of whether i am wrong or not, but rather the degree of certainty that comes from different avenues arriving at the same place, for instance that "buddha" is a fiction i would say at least six or seven avenues lead to that conclusion

i think generally people just take the one avenue and then stupidly street fight it when if they took a more "baysian" or "multiple" approach they would see the error and the stupidity of defending the undefendable/nonsense

but of course they just invest in "the right one way"

an interesting consideration of the fictionality of buddha is to look at actual historical prophets and see how the reality differs

self improvement,

well we are on different trajectories, you are afteri’m after sorting out what life is about

its a difficult problem and you have to come from a number of different angles, but one day you dial the safe lock almost accidentally and it opens, everything is so different afterwards i sometimes wonder if its better to have never opened it and be ignorant but of course, opened or not there is still trauma in spades

they call it zazen or meditation, but basically they are putting in a bit of reflective time or "introspection"

it has its uses, but it also has its limits

there’s no problem that solves from one direction only

remove one card and the whole card house falls down

what is that card ?

buddha being an historical person

“ what is the card house ? ”

the card houses are zen and buddhism, its a fundamentally different paradigm of reality if people like buddha, jesus, muhammad and moses existed historically, it implies an "effability" to religion that validates it

if these people are fictions then its just glorified soap opera

buddhism has it origins as an early form of a "merchant bank" and buddha gives lots of sage advice on the pitfalls involved in lending

you (ed. brad warner claiming zen is a religion for skeptics) isolate yourself too much from real world zen, i’ve seen the "flavours" having travelled extensively and talked to many many zen teachers and i have never seen a "skeptical" zen, indeed you are the only claimant i have come across

some forms like at the rochester zen center and mt. tremper have strong belief systems and are overtly buddhist, in fact the springwater center broke away from rochester and kapleau because of that and they are no longer a zen center, but do "meditative inquiry"

its springwater and toni packer you have most in common with, krishnamurti as well and not zen, but you have not made the transition, what at least made partial sense for nishijima in the japanese cultural context does not make sense for you in the west

i don’t want to be unpleasant, but this highly idiosyncratic development of ideas in conflict with what is actually happening in the public real world is a defining characteristic of schizophrenia

another characteristic of schizophrenia, is nothing you say makes any difference and i am sure that will be your response to this comment

you have a very serious problem, i am sure others tell you

when they become obsessed

with you

the why of it

never

occurs to them

the talentless

obsessed

with

the

talented

thinking somehow

to gain from you

what

cannot

be

given

all art and writing comes down to only this one thing

the ability to regenerate the brain to continue viewing, reading or listening to the work and not get fatigued

bio-mechanical

the eye is an extremely complexsystem

when you put a plastic lens in, you are distinctly changing the biology and mechanics

everyone breaks the law in little ways all the time

people break the law in little ways all the time

if you are wondering whether you have become more short or long sighted you can try ato be sure of the direction

letters clearer on the red mean you need

I

will not trouble you again ”

that’s my dearest wish, but you fakes always seem to have something that sticks in your throats that won’t leave you alone, could it be the taste of your own bullshit is difficult to ignore ?

all that hostility going to try to shape the world to what you want it to be

why ?

when they

twist what you say

make unbacked assertions

ignore the points you make

well

then

beware

the

hostility

pine boletes, saffron milk cap and silver beet for dinner, freshly picked

at least i think it was saffron milk cap with the drop shapes on the stalk

i guess i will find out (ed. they were ok)

i haven’t talked to anyone for at least a week

isolation

the neighbour though living by himself has woman trouble

a poem by the australian poet david campbell

the cruel girls we loved

are over forty,

their subtle daughters

have stolen their beauty

and with a blue stare

of cool surprise,

they mock their anxious mothers

with their mothers’ eyes

these people

they seek my approval but won’t listen to a word i say

if i contradict them they get upset and try to grind me down

its

depressing

and wearing

the worst is their attempts to copy me

it is really weirding to read

yourself distorted and misunderstood by arseholes bent on fucking you over

i specifically singled out your (ed. thetarutau) reading junk as the major issue

if you are going to swim in a sewer, you are going to belch sewage aren’t you

if you can’t follow the folds in my thinking

you won’t understand what i write

its like origami

no object without the work

i don’t claim to completely understand anyone or anything for that matter, its all a process, you just do the process

“ i would like to know more if you’re willing to share, what makes you pick this one (ed. zen/buddhism/religion) to rail against ? ”

that’s a good question and i have thought about that occasionally and think its because except for the first few years, all my schooling was in church (anglican/episcopalian) boarding schools so i have a lifelong burden of walking that "shit" out of my system

zen is quite a convenient target because it has "deconstruction" eg "buddha is a shit stick" built in so its relatively safe, the same could not be said for islam for instance

also my background in zen is very substantial having travelled visiting teachers two decades ago on balance having quite a good time and lucky to come across toni packer who did periods of residence at the springwater center when i was staying there

also there is an "energy" in destroying these vast human edifices

if you think there’s any order and rationality to life, it only exists at the very highest levels of abstraction

T

T

hearutau" asks

two quick questions you actually meditate and you go to retreats alot right ? what happens during a retreat ?"

my reply

i don’t do zazen because i worry about its effect on my circulation and joints at my age, however i put about two hours every evening into "contemplative" or do nothing time. i live by myself, hermit like really, so its all pretty much retreat

retreat is just "doing nothing" time, ideally you are in beautiful surroundings and can go for walks

J

the big catch is the brain needs something to work on which can be real life observations or come from quality reading, your big problem is not that lack of retreat but the "unk" you read and imbibe, if you just turn nonsense you are going to get nonsense

so you don’t actually have to go on retreats with others, you can do it yourself, the big advantage of retreats with others is the socialising skills gained which a lot of people (including myself) seem to need

the big disadvantage of group retreats is the culty bullshit and crazy, useless teachers

when i was involved with real life zen groups, i could never sit zazen by myself, but only in the group context

thetarutau gave his usual crazy nonsense in reply

my reply

you haven’t read what i wrote, its sort like paper with extra folds, you have to do the folds to get the shape

what is manic is you working on black and white categorys such as "she likes me" or "she doesn’t like me"

i keep telling you, you don’t understand women, but it doesn’t get through

why not work on seeing past the veneer ?

they operate on "sums", pluses and minuses and are calculating constantly, the only light for men is they often get the sums wrong which give them (men) a break (lol for all the good it does them)

"mentally ill"

honestly, my definition ofis when correct explanations fail

"mentally ill"

honestly, my definition ofis when explanations fail

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my reply to "hearutau" on brad’s vlog

you need the retreat experience to gain more insight into yourself, you are dreaming if you think you can understand zen with no sesshin or weekly group sit experience

i really would appreciate you not replying to me until you get some retreat experience, i have been through so many mentally ill people caught in a blather of words not prepared to any real investigation of it

my view is you are mentally ill and of that ilk, please keep away, you burden my time with no consideration, that is, narcissistically

nobody ever "handles" another person right, its like trying to calm a hurricane

if you get involved with a woman, you business in life becomes the support of her and her children, regardless of whether they are yours or not

if there are no children, then the support becomes of the potential, again regardless of whether they can materialise or not

sabine hossenfelder asks “ what is reductionism ? ”

my reply

can you explain consciousness from the reductionist viewpoint ?

you can in terms of information "broadcast" and highways between different parts of the brain, but in terms of the thing itself ?

no

there is a recursive element in "reductionism", that the process itself cannot be reduced which makes it nonsensical

if you eliminate "reductionism" as having no necessity or utility i don’t see there is a problem, rather "scientific progress" is made by untangling recursions, notably einstein untangling the information nature of light from physical effects

vincent van gogh wasn’t psychotic, he was autistic and as artists go, unusually sane

he probably had some degree of heavy metal poisoning from the pigments he used and alcohol eventually killed him, or rather, got him killed

all in all, i feel he would have been better never to have lifted a paint brush in his life

i didn’t say she was "bad", its just you are a dreamer when it comes to women, you are building "castles in the air"

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from agestothey have a huge power and an agenda even they don’'t understand that they move to fulfil

you write

"anyway i can’t deny that she likes me, unless she is just playing with me which i haven’t figured out yet. then again i feel like they’re always manipulating"

you can see the "manipulation", so why aren’t you more "sceptical"

everybody has some crazy ideas

mentally-ill

crazy enough that if they were

we would think

mentally-ill

that’s why they are

mentally-ill

but if they are not

we think

they are just crazy ideas

ed. i don’t want people to be offended by my use of "mentally-ill", perhaps they have relatives etc., you have to be robust when reading my writing in this case what i am really saying is people can have really crazy ideas yet still function "normally" and this gives an insight into the "nature of reality" and how it works, namely, deeply divided segments that don’t communicate too well with each other in this case what i am really saying is people can have really crazy ideas yet still function "normally" and this gives an insight into the "nature of reality" and how it works, namely, deeply divided segments that don’t communicate too well with each other

ill-founded

notions of "repair" for schizophrenia are

they just want to drag you down into their reality

well

i’m

not

going

like hector berlioz

awakening

this world

a mad frenzy of witches and devilry

nothing makes sense

stupidity rules

writing forever

complete nonsense

while applauding it

on

the

pain

of

death

all is unstable

the pe