Woe to those “Paul-ians” who claim to be Christian and/or Messianic (or anyone for that matter) that insist on telling me “I just felt so drawn to tell you that God…” “created you as a man”… and that I will be accounted/judged for “choosing” to be a Woman and being Bisexual/Pansexual. *laughs* It’s my life. Did she choose to be a woman (this person is a woman)? No she didn’t choose to be a woman (unless she is denying she is a man). Anyway, Neither did I. I just am a Woman. I chose not to live a lie… as a man. The lying was a sin… the being untrue to myself was a sin. Living happy and being myself is Truth.

It is Da’at-Emet. KNOWLEDGE & TRUTH.

What does their bigotry have to do with telling me what to do with my body and soul? What gives them the right to tell me that my life’s walk is wrong when they are NOT me?

Because I’m a Transgender Woman I got asked… “Do you still talk with your mother?” and asked “How is your walk with God?” and “Why are you doing this? God gave you so many talents, you’re an artist…” and “What about the scripture?”



First of all… I had just finished telling someone that my mother LOVES me no matter what… and she even gives me jewelry (WOW). I love my mother and my mother loves me. What a horrid assumption that person made. Also I had been sitting there with my head covering on (at the “International Fest”… it was SABBATH) and covered in religious/spiritual items… and she asks ME “How is your spiritual walk with God?”. But most of all my face is SHINING with HAPPINESS… and I’m asked “How is your walk with God?”. I was LOVING the diversity and the coexistence that was going on during the festival… and I’m asked “How is your walk with God?” Some Paul-ian felt “led” to ask me “How is my walk with God?” And what does my talents have to do with it? I didn’t loose my artistic ability because I realized I wasn’t male. “What about the scripture?”… HUMANS wrote it. You KNOW they put their own opinions in there. Has God ever used you and you goof? Has God ever told you to do something one way and you do it differently? If you are NOT perfect how do you expect and/or believe that the people of the Bible were? It’s full of where they made mistakes. You don’t think the Bible could have mistakes? Or maybe there are things that aren’t relevant to today? Have you actually sat down and thought about what is actually in the Bible? Sure some of it I definitely agree with… some of it definitely applies to me. And some of it is my culture and religious History. But some it just isn’t right, at least not in today’s age… I’m sure there was some kind of reason for some of these. Stoning a person to death because they have a spiritual practice that’s different… …they sinned in YOUR eyes… …slavery. These were things that were okay. You choose not to keep Kosher yet your religion was once of the Jewish religion…. you say you are freed from this… but that’s because Paul said it, NOT Jesus. You choose to “hate the sin” of those who are Homosexual (etc.) or Transgender because PAUL said you should, NOT Jesus. Jesus never said anything about Homosexuality and the Bible never said anything against being Transgender. So where are you coming up with this? Paul? “I mean who are you ACTUALLY following here? The horse or the shit that comes after?” – D. Gavi Chayim When I was depressed, you said next to NOTHING to me about my life nor did you even try to help me. How could I have shared my feelings with you? You would have calmly said to me “What you are doing isn’t right, this isn’t how God created you?” And I would have … and DID go home and physically beat myself because I thought God would send me to a place without LOVE, without hope, without laughter and joy… because I happened to love people regardless of what gender they were born as or are. Because I LOVE these people no matter the gender… and I see heart and soul (JUST like God/dess does)… I would be lost forever. STOP… See why that does not make any sense?

God/dess is LOVE… LOVE is God/dess, simply put. Where there is Love there is happiness and peace… balance. Whether you believe in Love or just know that Love exists… you don’t have to think of it as a deity or you can. It’s just what it is… not a body part.

Do these people (stuck in their at least 2,000 year old nonproductive ways) really think they are going to get anywhere by walking up to someone and just tell them that their happiness doesn’t come from something real… that they are actually sinning? I even mentioned that people can actually be born with a female brain and a “male” body. I don’t mean 100% one or another type of brain. But it’s obvious, at least to me. But seriously she asked me where I learned this… I said Science and Psychology… my heart and my own brain. And yet she still didn’t believe.



I will keep repeating myself until the world gets it. I’m not leaving. Will I haunt you when I’m physically dead? Probably not. But my words will haunt you. I will NOT stay silent. My words will and ARE being heard. “A spirit is given no true gender. It is up to us to discover who we are, not be confined to what the world says we are,” Chayim says. “Self discovery and acceptance in the last few years has been one of the most important things to me. It has saved my life. I hope mine and Stephanie’s art and words will be a positive contribution to Tikkun Olam, Healing the World, so that all the LGBTQ community may have hope.” … may have hope.

EQUALITY, JUSTICE, and LOVE win over bigotry, hatred, confusion, and ignorance. See LOVE for a change and not what is between a person's legs… and then maybe you'll find peace in your own heart and soul.