Kehlani hit No. 3 on the Billboard 200 this week with her debut album SweetSexySavage, but according to her, we almost didn’t get to hear it at all.

“I had a really crazy year last year. I almost scrapped my entire album,” she said during a recent interview with Zane Lowe on Beats 1 Radio. “I literally remember being on the phone with my label like ‘That’s cool that y'all wanna still put this thing out, but I’m done with my music and I’m done with the industry.’”

She explained that an incident in 2016 caused her to reexamine her priorities:

I just went through a crazy situation that kind of put me in a position of realizing what was important to me, and it wasn’t this famous life. It was like ‘Wow I want to work on myself as a person, I want to be a human, I want to be a 21-year-old girl’ … I wasn’t even thinking about music, but I’m lucky to have great friends and great family and awesome fans.

Although the Oakland singer-songwriter doesn’t explicitly point to one moment, it seems that she’s referring to an incident between her, Kyrie Irving, and PARTYNEXTDOOR last March. After PARTY posted a picture of them in bed together, fans attacked her online, thinking she was cheating on Kyrie. They were already broken up, but the damage was done: Kehlani later shared that all the hate led her to attempt suicide.

Although the incident took its toll on her emotionally, Kehlani explained in a January interview with the L.A. Times that it also inspired the positive outlook of her new album:

I didn’t want to be sad every time I go onstage … and I didn’t want to sink back into depression or relive these things over and over again. I wanted to make myself happy and when I get on stage everything is so happy. I’m having the time of my life, and that’s what this album is about.

You can read all the lyrics to Kehlani’s SweetSexySavage on Genius now.