Unfortunately, I think Lydia almost couldn't get up that morning to lead the stoning, and you could tell. However, it's her first obligation is to Gilead. And when she sees that those girls are not going to cooperate, I think she has entirely lost her footing and can't even believe what's happening. I think if you repress and keep a rigid platform and unhinge that platform in the right vulnerable spot, your life is going to turn into chaos because you've been repressing and confining and shutting out all other aspects of life. I think in that episode, God only knows what's going to happen with Lydia, and how long it will take her to recover her senses.