Isn’t it funny how some people often say “OMG you’re so lucky!” to other people, maybe even you? If you really think about it.. is the other person really lucky? Or is it not luck at all? I’m not sure about you, but I don’t subscribe to the whole luck thing. I believe you get what you work for, you get what you earn, and that’s that.

Surprisingly (or maybe not surprisingly to some people) since I started down the hardcore venture with James, along side the mass amounts of enthusiastic fans (thanks guys!) there’s been a few haters along the way. I suppose that’s not the surprising part, it was to be expected unfortunately.. welcome to the internet. Even though I’ve been doing my thing online for over 4 years now though, there still was a small part of me surprised to have people bitch or complain about this or that. Guess that’s the naive part in me expecting people to either love what you’re doing, or have the decency to not say anything if they don’t have anything nice to say 😉

Anyway I just wanted to address a few things. I do like keeping my blog upbeat and sharing with my lovely fans the awesome exciting parts of my life, but it is my blog after all so I just wanted to take a quick moment before we get back to the hoo-ah and fun of it all. Just a heads up, I’m giggling while I write this because it’s so funny to me that I have to say these things. Here we go!

James is not lucky to be with me, the man works damn hard! He surprises me with flowers and takes me on romantic dates all the time, cheers me up and makes me feel beautiful. He is not “lucky” to be with me, he won my affection and continues to do so daily.

I’m not with James for, nor did I start dating him for his money. We worked our asses off to start our own company together back in the day (not Bella, we started something different and then sold the whole sha-bang, then started my site which evolved into Bella) to the point we had bills stacked up and weren’t doing too well. But we persevered, we had fun, we had some hard times, but we got through it together. If I was with him for money, don’t you think I would’ve left when there was no power in our place 7 years ago? *giggle*

To the haters out there, I’m sorry you feel the need to try to bring either of us down. But let me say this, without James.. I wouldn’t be doing hardcore! I feel comfortable with him, we’ve been together for 7 years now (damn!) and I’m proud to say I have a HELL of a fun time filming my fun sex-capades with my husband and sharing it with the world, it’s exhilarating being an exhibitionist! A lot of people have tried to bring me down, or hold me back through out my life, and it’s SO nice to just.. be me. Not care what anyone thinks. Hell yes it’s scary, I’m just some real normal girl out there you know, just a person just like you. I just have a camera, a dude, and a computer with some free time 😉

Anyway that’s the long and short of it. Nope, I’m not going to film with any other guys, I’m a one man kind of woman. We’re doing the couples-thing…. but I may find a girl some day to finally act out some of my girl-girl fantasies. If you’re lucky I may just share it with my awesome members as well 😉

To my lovers, my fans! Thank you all for supporting me, with your awesome compliments (that mean a lot more than you think!) your fan mail, or just subscribing to my site for a wank! You getting off gets ME off 😉

Have a good weekend loves <3