ok

so, here's how it went down

in like 2012 or 2013 or so

i made an okcupid

i think i realized i was incel aroudn this time too fwiw

like, before then, i didnt even know

that ppl were like having sex and other stuff

i sorta assumed everyone was like me

i know

i legit thouht most ppl were in like maybe

1-2 LTRs max

and had sex after waiting for like 6ish months

to make sure they really like each other

it seems laughable to write this out right now

anyways, u know how i found out i was incel

so i decided to do somethign about it

i made an okcupid accnt

yeah so i made an okcupid accnt

so contrary to popular belief

i actually got responses to my messages

like, even with my ugly ass profile picture

that i shot in my cube at work lol

i suppose it makes sense tbh

im decent looking

and sorta funny

so i could see women liking that

yeah we do have a bad rep lol

but ok, i didnt get any dates off of this though

mainly i think bcz i have no idea how to make it a date

i would say like some funny thing

then she'd laugh and say 'thats hilarious!'

then id say another funny thing

and theyd say tha too

then id be like 'ok.. now what'

so id just msg somebody else

lol

i dont know man!

i still dont know, fwiw

so, anyways, one person who had

no picture and no profile

asked me 'wehre do you live? do you want to hang out?'

at like 3am

i got really excited

oh boy, a date!

and thus begins the story of my firs and only date, ever

so, turns out after some back and forth she lived about 60 mi away from me

in a super ghetto area

but, i was like, ok, w/e thats fine. i can deal with it. lets get breakfast tomorrow!

and she said ok

lets go

so i wake up like 4 hrs later at 7 to make the hourish drive to the slums to go see this person

somehere about 30 mins in it occurred to me that u know this is probably a bad idea

like, she is probably gonna stab me

and rip out my kidney

or, im gona get jumped for drug money

or something

also, it was raining

like fucking pouring

so noting was going right

so i get to where we're supposed to meet and turns out its like in front of a tatoo parlor

and i think 'fuck, okay, get ready for a fight clsoe'

against all expectations

she was actually pretty qt

think abotu that folks

she looked sorta like

mousey

a little taller than me (i'm 5'8'')

yup

so, i said, lets go get bfast

so we went to dennys

lol

it was right there

yeah so far so good

but then it gets bad

right from the get go, she starts running her mouth

it seems as if this woman hasnt spoken to anybody in months

and thats because she hasnt

apparently she was a NEET

like a real life one

she hadnt left her room in 2 months

so i was trying to make conversation

'do you like movies'

(no)

'video games?'

(no)

'books?'

(no)

'uhhh... music?'

(i dont listen to anything)

'wow, so how abot politics'

(i dont follow the news)

so im thinking 'wtf does this woman do all day'

turns out she mostly watched the history channel

she was telling me in detail

about like weird autistic documentaries

about aliens

u know that guy

witht eh hair

that guy she was mostly talking about

yeah it gets worst

if u can believe that

so, she was talking with great enthusiasm

about the history channel

but i guess there was this family behind us

holy cow

she got fucking mad

cuz their kid was being a kid aka laughing and talking

'fucking BREEDERS'

'i HATE their little hellspawn'

'the WORLD is ending bcz of this shit'

yeah

so i thought i would lightne the mood

like

'so i like your cape'

she was wearing like a girl cape

'where did u get it from'

turns out, she goes dumpster diving

for clothes

like i didnt know that was a thing

but i gues sit is

lol

then she started tearing into me about what a bad person i am

like

'you know, i can see it in your face'

'you have a mask of happiness on'

'but there is a depe inner sadness'

'how do u project yourself to the world'

'how do u manage in life'

and i'm thinking 'the fuck is this'

lol

so she started goin off about this and that about me, btu we had almost finished up

so i was thinking 'jeez man this is such a depressing convo'

'i have to do something about this'

'lighten the mood'

we were near the ocean, so it occurred to me we should go to the pier

there was a pier nearby

and at the end theres like a gate

with like graffiti and 'street art' on it

its a cool place

so i was like

'hey! lets go to the pier! it'd be a nice walk'

and she agreed

SMOOTH right

not bad

i applaud myself tbh

even in retrospect

sooo

we hop into my car and drive over to the pier to take a walk

so this entire time

she starts telling me about her life

like, how she doesnt leave her room

her dad beats her mom

and also beats her

how all the kids used to bully her and beat her too

at the time

no this is 100% true

this is a real story

like, i was 25ish at the time

or 26?

she was around 23/24

so she starts takling about her life and stuff like that

and we're walking down the pier and im thinking lke 'man.... this woman has had a rough life'

'this is really depressing'

'this is the worst date ever'

'i must be so bad at htis'

stuff like that basically

so we get to the end where hte gate is

and i think 'okay close, this is ur moment. say something to cheer her up'

so i go

sigh

hold your horses folks

this is a lot of cringe

let me prepare myself cuz i cringe irl just thinking about it

ugh

'you know, theres a lot of pain in you. you need to let go of your anger, or else you'll continue to hurt in your heart'

sigh

so i say that

then she looks at me

and her face controts into this expression of combined grief, rage and anger

then she fucking SCREAMS

like a banshee

like arooooooowoowowowowowowo

and lunges at me with extreme force

so im like

'holy fuck'

and i side step

and she literally SLAMMS against the gate

like i swear she mustve broken something

banging on the gate as hard as he can

like just BANG BANG BAGN

while scream crying

like an animal

like AROWOOWOROWOWOWOWOW

i cant even make the noise

so im like 'holy fuck what is going on'

so i pull her off the gate and im like

'calm down calm down'

'its ok'

and she just like

latches around me like a spider

vice grip

and sorta like collapses on me

and starts crying and craying

so she must've weeped for like, 12 minutes?

over 10 minutes

it was long enough that i actually started getting bored

lol

like 'i wonder when will this be over'

'so i an go home'

i am a shity person

:frowning:

so after she calms down i say something like

'i think its time we head back'

so she goes

'okay'

and we scurry into my car

and i drive her back to her apt

anwyas, while wer'e driving back

she goes

'close.. i have something i gotta tell you'

and im thinking

'holy fuck'

'after all that'

yes

thats actually what happened

'so, im actually pretherapy'

'and ive been taking testosterone'

'im sorry for any trouble'

'im still on HRT'

'and its just been so hard for me'

tbh my first thought was

'wow no wonder she was so strong'

cuz she had a VICE grip

lol

so we get to her house after she drops that bombshell on me and i walk her to her gate

and so she turns around

and looks at me and goes

'well?'

'you want to come in?'

and i think 'uh oh...'

so i did something like

i patted her on the head

like a dog

and said something like

'there there'

lol

and gunned it to my car