Omg thanks so much! Finally someone who figured this out!



Yeah I kinda felt like... there was this still shot of Peridot looking really scared when Jasper pulled out the Stabilizer. (I think it was the episode before Jail Break)



One artist drew a picture of this and it made me realize... what if all gems in homeworld think like Lapis does? She said that Steven shouldn't fight because he cannot win.



But I think the homeworld gems obey the orders from above without even doubting them a little. Its because the Peridot is a stone which symbolizes Compassion and happiness, the complete opposite of how Peridot acts.



I think that she just does her Job and that it is her duty to be like she is. But I think when she comes to earth and meets steven and is all alone and without any guide or representative from homeworld she has to overthink what she is doing.



And in another context she has to feel someone, at last, so I interpreted her as being abandoned by homeworld where she wants to go back to. Its only normal, because we don't know that much about Peridot yet.



Well, I just thought: Thats what I would do and think if I would be in this situation.

I can see through the episodes that Peridot is not that happy with her situation ("Go to earth they said, it will be easy they said") which made me think of her as a normal worker in a normal routine, kinda bored kinda uninterested.



but when Steven talks to her in "Marble Madness" you can see how many emotions she actually has. And therefore you know that she knows nothing about Humans or other sentient creatures and does not care for them.



But when she is not working/related to her homeworld job, I think she gets a bit desperate in the end because she has nothing to hold on to.

In this situation she overthinks what she is doing because the only one who is there is Steven.



And she kinda wants to behave like she does in homeworld because she first tries to smash the Robonoid in my story. But then she thinks different because she misses her home and actually has emotions. I think she is just going with the flow in homeworld and Steven makes her feel different about earth and compassion.



This is acutally a pretty current message.

I remember one time when I traveled with the bus and there was a girl at the age of 10 sitting in front of me, reading a model magazine. And she looked so unhappy! It was like... she was thinking she had to do it and like it because everyone else did. She looked so sad to me because she didn't even consider liking something else.



But if someone pulled her away from this kind of society, she would probably like something more unique. More fitting her character, and not being pressed into a shell which tries to fit everyone.



Also... you can see this, Jasper and Peridot wear the same uniforms. Its kinda like... they have to work like this, be like this. Jasper has a reason, she hates Rose and fought in the war, But Peridot is different because she don't even recognize the crystal gems. She is newer and kinda grew up there, so she misses homeworld, but she also has time to reveal her feelings in my comic for once because she is free from anyone to judge her and to not fit in with.