Losing in blackjack is never a fun experience, but it’s especially gutwrenching when more than 40,000 people are watching you. Twitch.tv streamer Chance “Sodapoppin” Morris played online blackjack Friday using a betting site that features live dealers, and in his last hand decided to place a maximum bet of $5,000.

Morris’ first card was an ace, putting him in a golden position.

The house drew a six, but Morris’ second card was a dastardly five, giving him six or 16.

He decided to hit, but a jack put him right back at 16. Morris stood on 16, hoping that the dealer would bust.

The dealer drew another six, meaning that only a face card could save Morris.

What happened next was heartbreaking.

(Warning: video contains profanity.)