◢ All of my doctors are saying “oh you don’t need this medication anymore” and people keep telling me “college is doing you some good” because of all the weight I’ve lost

Hello I lay around my days with vertigo and this huge fatigue laying over me because I can’t force myself to eat. My diet is almost illicitly fruit, sugars, cheese and breads- it’s fucking awful for me. I scarfed a giant bowl of chicken and fried egg last night because of how long it’s been since I had decent clean food. I’m hungry and sad and moody all the time and can rarely bring myself to eat anything that isn’t junk because if I idly eat popcorn or chocolate it takes less effort than sitting down and eating the delicious apples I bought. For fucks sake I went back to eating fried food- I haven’t had fried chicken or consistently eaten french fries in years because fried food make me sick but they’re the easiest way to keep my blood sugar from tanking.

The medicines I no longer have to take aren’t even related to weight or diet- they’re related to my natural hormone levels and other shit but suddenly aren necessary since I’ve lost like 30 pounds.

My diet reverted back to the same horrible patterns as like 6 years ago, but I’m eating to extremely little that its causing me to lose weight. I’m not healthier or making better choices- I’m sick and I can’t even force myself to eat most of the time and I feel awful.

I really wish people would stop saying that college is great and that I’m doing amazing in class (literally cannot eat because of how stressed I am) and how much my health just because I have lost weight. These things aren’t connected and while I’m glad to finally lose weight- the cause of it is hurting me greatly.

It’s good to know that I have my life on track and look so pretty and am healthy now because I can barely force myself to eat two meals a day.