Luann wanted kids, envied my simple life and refused Mick's offer of money: L'Wren Scott's estranged sister who's married to a garbage man speaks out about her suicide and their strict Mormon upbringing



Jan Shane, 53, said Tuesday she was 'devastated' about her adopted sister's death and would have tried to talk her through it if given the chance

The sisters, who hadn't talked in 6 years, were close as kids but lost touch after graduating high school when L'Wren moved to New York

Following a starkly different path, Jan remained in their homestate of Utah, married young and raised eight children in the Mormon church

She and her husband Rob claim L'Wren desperately wanted children and was upset that she couldn't have them with Mick

The fashion designer even told Jan, 'I envy you' at their parent's funeral



L'Wren was found dead in her Manhattan apartment Monday morning and her sister found out on the internet



L'Wren Scott was desperate to have children, her estranged Mormon sister claimed today, wondering whether this void, rather than money woes, might have been the real reason she tragically took her own life.

Jan Shane, 53, who hadn't spoken to her famous adopted sister in 6 years, and her husband Rob Shane, 57, told MailOnline Tuesday they heard that Mick had offered to pay the fashion designer's mounting debts but L'Wren, born Luann, was 'too proud' to accept his help.



However, the couple don't believe the $6million L'Wren's crumbling business owed to creditors would have driven her to suicide because 'in her world, that wasn't a lot of money' and she had recently enlisted the financial help of her brother Randal Bambrough who was 'really, really smart with money.'



Family: Jan Shane, 53, left, and her husband Rob Shane, right, told MailOnline Tuesday that their estranged sister and sister-in-law, L'Wren Scott, was distraught she couldn't have children of her own

Distraught: The entire Jagger family are devastated at the loss of L'Wren, who'd been a part of their lives for 13 years

Rather, they thought a deep longing for children of her own may have contributed to her unhappiness.

'I know deep down she wanted a family and kids, and I think she deeply wanted it and couldn't get it. I think it bothered her,' Jan, a mother-of-seven, said from her Sandy, Utah, home just miles from where the family grew up.



Jan revealed that years ago, at their father Ivan's funeral, L'Wren told her she envied her quiet life in Utah. She said she came to their mother's ceremony flanked by bodyguards.



'It was hard to get near her. I don't know why she thought she needed bodyguards. I guess that's just how her life was at the time.

'But at one point we stepped out together and she looked at me and said, "I envy you."

'She had her career and her company and everything - she'd made it. I looked at her life I didn't believe what she was saying and she told me, "You have your family." And I thought "You do, too!"'

Rob, a local garbage removalist who hasn't met Mick, added: '(L'Wren) wanted a family, but she loved Mick, and the trade off was that she was happy with him, and didn't want to give him up, but couldn't have the family. I don't think he'd be up for having anymore kids.'

He said she 'always thought (a family) would be part of her life at some point.



Close at school: The sisters, Jan, left, and L'Wren, right ion the 70s, were close in school but drifted apart after the younger sister moved to New York at 17

Adorable: L'Wren, show left as a young child in 1967 remained close wit her brother Randy, pictured right

Family photos: L'Wren, whose real name was Luann Bambrough, is shown here bottom left. Also pictured are L'Wren's mother Lula, father Ivan, brother Randall and sister Jan. The picture was taken in the mid 60s

Happy childhood: Jan, pictured right, said she and her siblings, Randy, left, and L'Wren, were loved and didn't want for anything while growing up

'But she had this dream of being this famous model, designer to the stars, to Michelle Obama. Now it was like "I've done what I want to do, and now I want to start a family." Yes, 50 is kind of old to start a family, but you can adopt.'

The 49-year-old was found dead in her apartment in Manhattan's Chelsea neighborhood just after 10a.m. Monday morning.



She had hanged herself while the Rolling Stones frontman was on tour in Australia, leaving him 'completely shocked and devastated.' In a tribute Tuesday he said he was 'still struggling to understand' the tragic decision his love and best friend felt she needed to make.



Jan said she learned of L'Wren's death via Google, after a friend send her a text message, showing the level to which their relationship had deteriorated over the years.



However, she spoke very fondly of her younger sister and said she wished they had been closer but their lives were so starkly different - her a small town Mormon wife married to a garbage man, L'Wren a glamorous model and designer dating the most famous rock star in the world.

Jan described L'Wren as 'a very private person' who never let on if there was something wrong.



'All we saw when she was home was a super-strong woman and, to my kids, they had an aunt that was famous. They don't see the other side of her and she isn't going to tell you,' she said, adding that she wished she could have done something to help her sister in need.



Morman upbringing: This image shows L'Wren, pictured rear, and her family at a family gathering in 2000

Together: This image shows L'Wren and her family in 1992. Also pictured are L'Wren's mother Lula, father Ivan, brother Randall and sister Jan. The picture was taken at L'Wren's parents 50th wedding anniversary

Utah upbringing: The family, with L'Wren and Jan on the right, are pictured in their humble in 1978

'I would have always sat down with her to talk things over if she was struggling,' Jan said. 'We had no clue she was feeling like this. She must have felt so alone and it bothers me because she always had us. I would have talked to her in a heartbeat. I just hope she knew that.'

Jan and Rob, who have been married 22 years, said a cousin told them Randy had flown to New York from Utah at the request of authorities to ID L'Wren's body, and they're hoping he brings her home.



'She should be buried at home,' Rob told MailOnline. 'She shouldn't be buried in New York... Her family is in Ogden, there's nothing in New York, she'd be on a plot of land by herself. Bring her home to rest with her family, mum and dad and grandparents. You need to be buried with family.'



Jan admitted her relationship with Randy was also strained, and that she was learning much of what she knew about L'Wren's death from reading the news.

'She was closer to Randy, they talked a lot more. I wish I was closer to him, I have to abide by his wishes,' she said, adding that she hadn't talked to her brother since the suicide.



'I'm just finding information from the Internet. That's the hardest part for me, I'm learning it from strangers.'



Jan said she was 'devastated' by her sister's death and had assumed from pictures she was living a happy life.



'It's the last thing I thought I would read,' she said. 'I had no clue where she was at. I assumed everything was happy, I see all the pictures of her - she looked lovely. I saw her pictures of when she was traveling with Mick in India and Africa, it all looked fine.'



Stayed close to home: Jan, pictured, said she and her sister, both of whom were adopted, fell out because they chose different paths. She stayed close to home, married and had eight children

Humble home: Jan and her husband Rob remained in Utah where they raised eight children and live in a humble home, pictured

She added: 'Something devastated her to lead to this. I just I wish I knew what.'



Jan described the family's upbringing as idyllic, and said the sisters, both adopted along with their brother through the Mormon church family network, were close until they graduated high school and the relationship 'fizzled out.'



The last time she saw or spoke to her was at her mother's funeral in 2008.



'We had the same upbringing, same vacations, but there was always something more. She had the vision of what she wanted and was going after it. She wanted to make something of herself, that she can do it, accomplish it,' Jan said.

'I was the one who stayed at home while she had the career, I was the one who had the kids, I was the home girl. I had seven kids and a stepdaughter, that's a full time job.'

She added: 'I couldn't compete with her career and her money. It was a different circle she lived in.'

Jan's husband, Rob, said the family would jokingly refer to Jagger as 'Uncle Mick' when they heard a Rolling Stones song on the radio or they would be talking about L'Wren.

Jagger never visited the family in Utah, but they were proud of the romance.



Jan said: 'She was really on the private side. She never spoke to us about Mick Jagger or anything like that but we would follow her career online. Our parents were always there for all of us all the time.



'They were extremely proud of her. Any time there was an article in the glamor magazines, mum would be beaming about it.'



Religion was the center of the family's lives growing up in the nondescript town of Roy, about 30 miles from Salt Lake City in the shadow of the Wasatch mountain range.

Happy: Jan said she thought her sister always looked happy with Mick Jagger. The couple are shown here in 2012

L'Wren Scott was found dead at her Chelsea apartment building, pictured, Monday

Their father served as a High Priest and Bishop for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints – the Mormon Church – and the family were all regulars in the Roy congregation.



'Our childhood was perfect, I couldn't have asked for better parents. They did anything they could for us, never wanted for anything, we knew we were loved, taken care of, home was safe for us. It made no difference we were adopted,' the 53-year-old said.

In such a town, L'Wren's flamboyant nature and her sometimes outlandish dress sense stood out and at 17 she headed for New York and never looked back.

Jan told MailOnline that she believes L'Wren always held onto her belief.

But once her parents passed, she came home to Utah less frequently.



'She wouldn't come for family events, just when she could fit it in her s chedule,' she said.



'Since dad passed away, she came home maybe twice. She was close to mum, but towards the end of mum's life it was harder for her to come. Sometimes it felt like she chose her career over her family. She did what she wanted to do; you have to admire her for that.'



Jan said she believes what happened, happened for a reason and that her sister was now in Heaven with their parents.

