“I probably know more about Jeff Epstein than Jeff Epstein knows about himself at this point. I have read every single court document, article, and book written about him and his case. I’ve combed the flight logs, and every page of his “little black book”. I’ve even researched the background of every witness who testified-background searches, property records. When I say I spent hundreds of hours on this story, I meant it.” -Me, October 2016

So. Jeff Epstein is dead. Reportedly a suicide.

Like many of you I have a hard time buying this. I would like to explain why, and also provide a bit of an explanation of where I have been for the past almost 4 years.

I mean really...

Jeffrey Epstein was, to the core soul, a narcissist. As a narcissist he was driven by self interest first and foremost, but when things don’t go his way, his focus turned to revenge. For years Epstein has been collecting “dirt” on his associates- secretly recording their liaisons with underage girls and creating “files” on his friends and enemies alike. He used this as both leverage and blackmail. It allowed him to get away with his crimes for years. This indictment must have felt to him like a huge betrayal.

Epstein would not kill himself, in my opinion, without first enjoying the spectacle of watching those who double crossed him twist in the wind. A man focused on vengeance, a predator through and through, he would not hang himself in a jail cell before trial, the same night thousands of pages of documents were dumped. Please bear in mind, there is not a lot of new information to be found in there about Epstein himself- it is known, and finally officially acknowledged, that he was running an international sex trafficking ring for the power elite. His role in that is beyond dispute. And it’s also been an open secret for years. The only thing being revealed at this point- and what would have ultimately come out during the trial- is who his co-conspirators were. Who his clients were. This trial would have, in my opinion, been a monumental opportunity to see the ugly underbelly of the power elite, and lay bare how they ALL are complicit in the abuse, rape, and sex trafficking of young, powerless girls. And now that he was an outcast and not an insider, the Jeff Epstein I “know” would love nothing more than to see all of that dirty laundry aired.

Jeffrey Epstein also wasn’t staring down a life sentence. He was a billionaire! Billionaires don’t go to prison, this is America! He also had tons of leverage to use with the states attorney and they were in discussions for a proffer last I heard- meaning he was cooperating. Meaning he was talking. Which is exactly what I expected he would do. He was talking not just to save his own ass, but because he got a vicarious thrill from taking down all the enemies he made over the years. And yes, it is worth noting that Trump was one of them, although far from the only one.

Jeffrey Epstien wasn’t ashamed. He wasn’t scared. He certainly wasn’t feeling guilty. My gut feeling is Jeffrey Epstein was pissed, and revenge focused to his last moments. He was a master manipulator to his core. The kind of man who makes plots, not rash decisions.

It’s not that Jeff Epstein wouldn’t kill himself- but he wouldn’t do it like this in my opinion. Not without forcing his victims to come to court and testify, be subjected to some public humiliation first. Now without taking one last opportunity to stare them down and make them squirm. Not without enjoying watching Alan Dershowitz, Trump, et al go down with the ship.

And finally, Jeff Epstein wasn’t worried about his reputation. That’s the most amazing part of this- he never hid who he was. He flaunted his perversions openly and proudly for decades. And at the end of the day, he was still surrounded by enablers. Nothing that came out would hurt him, the elements of the crimes remained the same, they were known in 2008. Remember, this is not the first time Epstein was sitting in a jail cell facing hard time- and there was no reason for him to believe this time would end up any different. And here is how that ended up for his social life:

“The conventional wisdom among his friends was that Epstein has been victimized by greedy, morally dubious teenage girls and unscrupulous lawyers. "I've never condoned paying for sex, but if the young lady lied about her age it's her own fault," explained one socialite, who along with Wilbur Ross and Leon Black hobnobbed with Epstein at a Southampton movie screening just two months after his release from "community control" in Florida.” -Alexandra Wolfe for the Daily Beast, 2011

And let’s not forget:

“Why was Epstein so easily rehabilitated? He was smart. Attractive. Rich. And that is a potent combination. As David Patrick Columbia, editor of New York Social Diary, explained it for the Times: “A jail sentence doesn't matter anymore. The only thing that gets you shunned in New York society is poverty.” Jesse Kornbluth, Salon, July 9 2019

Just a reminder!

When we discuss conspiracy theories, we speak in terms of Occam’s razor. The simplest explanation is the most likely one. In this case we have a situation where what appears on the surface to be the most simple explanation defies logic and common sense.

On the surface, a rich man who has found himself in a jail cell facing hard prison time, well that’s pretty rock bottom. Maybe he felt guilty. People are continuing to view this through their lens of being normal people with normal emotions and motives. But we are not dealing with normal people, in more ways than one.

To me it boils down to motive. Who had a bigger motive to silence Jeffery Epstein- Jeff himself, or the people he still had power and leverage over? Does it follow common sense and logic that a grandiose narcissist with unlimited financial resources, who made his fortune essentially gambling and collecting kompromat would kill himself before using ANY of those resources?

And I want to make this very clear- I do not have any evidence to give you or new insight. In fact, for reasons that should make sense shortly, I have avoided anything having to do with this story since November 2016. A lot more has come out since then, and maybe some of it would explain this particular turn of events. I’m not here to engage in conspiracy theories or speculate on what actually did happen or who was behind it. This is nothing more than the gut feeling I have as someone who researched this man down to his sinew and cartilage and emerged with a fundamental understanding of who he is. Or was.