Pichikala Siddharth wrote to his friend minutes before ending life

By | Published: 10:54 pm 3:33 pm

Sangareddy: “There is a critic within me questioning every move of mine to the extent that I should not exist. I should not exist because I am the self-obsessed guy. I was brought up that way, being compared with the peers all the time,” Pichikala Siddharth, a third year B Tech student of IIT-Hyderabad, wrote to one of his friends minutes before he jumped off his hostel building in the early hours of Tuesday.

Siddharth was found in a pool of blood at 3.26 am on Tuesday when the entire campus was in deep sleep. The mail was delivered exactly three minutes before he jumped off the third floor of the building.

Security personnel and IIT-H authorities rushed him to Balaji Hospital, located 5 kms away from the campus. He was later shifted to Continental Hospital after providing first aid following the suggestion of the doctors.

Siddharth, a native of Qutbullapur in Hyderabad, sustained serious injuries. The doctors at Balaji Hospital said he was in an unconscious state when he was brought to the hospital. Since he had suffered serious head injuries, the doctors said he was bleeding profusely from the left ear. Sangareddy Rural police registered a case and investigation is on.

The incident has left students in the campus in a state of shock since this is the third suicide incident reported on the campus in less than a year.

Full copy of suicide note:

“Ending my life: These 20 years of my life has taught me enough already. I don’t find life interesting anymore. I just want to put an end to everything. Life rather seems depressing. Never ending strands of misfortune to an extent that mentally I could not tolerate it. I have no clue how my future is going to be. I have been feeling this for the past two months. Also, the courses are going too bad for me. I could not concentrate well. There is a critic within me questioning every move to the extent that I feel I should not exist anymore. Yes, I should not exist because I am a self-obsessed guy. I was brought up that way, being compared with the peers all the time. Finally, whatever it is, I am sure my death is not going to make a big difference to this world.”

Third suicide in less than 9 months at IIT-H

The third suicide of an Indian Institute of Technology-Hyderabad (IIT-H) student this year on Tuesday has left the entire campus in a shock. All three students wrote suicides messages and addressed them to their friends. The reason behind their suicides was almost similar – losing interest in life and lagging behind in studies.

The series of suicides begun on February 1, 2019, when M Anirudhya, a fourth year mechanical engineering student jumped off the terrace of his six storeyed hostel building at 12.45 am. He had written a suicide letter (e-mail) to three of his friends before ending his life. Anirudhya had written that he had lost interest in life.

Five months later, another student, Mark Andrew Charles committed suicide by hanging himself in the early hours of July 2 in his hostel room. In a suicide note found in a diary, Charles, a second year M-Design student, informed his friends that he was feeling empty, but not sad.

The suicide of Pichikala Siddharth (20) in the early hours of Tuesday is the third incident reported on IIT-H campus in less than nine months. A senior faculty member of IIT-H, on condition of anonymity, said the series of suicides had left the entire campus in shock.

Siddharth’s classmates and friends were refusing to make any comment on the incident. A student associated with Student Gymkhana, a body of IIT-H students, said the institute conducted counselling sessions following the previous incidents. “It is sad to see another bright student ending his life today,” he told Telangana today on condition of anonymity.

— T Karnakar Reddy

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