this'll probly' be embarassing

Physical: tingling in limbs, fire-in-veins feeling, dizzy when moving head (train of thought "knocked out" from shock), warm face

Poor coordination

"Munchies" perhaps just reduced inhibition. (Peanut butter bad culinary choice re inattentively smearing)

Body seems able to carry on basic tasks while not focused, whether memory makes it through or not

Distortion of color perception?

Not sure if dry mouth is physical or imagined. May be inability to notice presense of saliva on tongue among physical perception noise (saturation). Similar to "difficulty" swallowing? - not really difficult, just perceived that way

Fingers "dry" (numb) in similar sense?

twitchy

Minor hallucination: light reflecting off computer case = smoke (peripheral vision only)

Starts intense, trails off to more pleasant fuzz ~1.5hr in

(timestamp next time to graph duration, etc) - started 22:00ish, peak ~23:30

Write parallel tracks about shows next time? (Potential to be dumb)

Observations

Similar to dream state. Disconnected events and distorted time sense. Memory accessible when it seems relevant, otherwise unguessable. Sense of moving up and down in lucidity

Feels better to "sleep" because waking up is bucket-of-water shock. Hope this does not become a metaphor (no: will not allow!)

Spatial perception also compromised. Loss of space sense -> clumsiness.

Much like Memento - must remember to remember. Usually futile without writing down.

Still able to read or at least connect sign -> sound.

Constantly surprised to find oneself acting on orders of previous memory phase. Like being controlled.

See sci-fi about timelines pulled out of time into "tails" of memory in 4D(?). Quick-resetters "drums", etc

Re: stoned humor

Humor is based on surprise. Disconnected logic -> harder to follow the joke -> bigger surprise. Also memory spontineity compromised, so no memory to spoiler it. Can depend on less context.

Origin of humor not reality per se but chain of broken logic spawned from thoughts/sensations.

Exaggeration funnier.

Action planned, carried out as normal but without oversight by consciousness. Like blindsight. Slower due to loss of train of thought (or is it? re distorted time sense).

Joke-goes-on-too-long jokes even funnier without timesense. Same reason repetitive motion goes on?

Artificial brevity in this note: need to keep focus long enough to finish connecting thought, or side effect of dissociation?

Not enough time to plan connected clauses

Too much "re:". Affectation or not?

check IM with Mom for blatantness.

Don't type this in there by mistake!

Still suppressing thoughts if they seem likely to be embarassing in retrospect

Better to let all out and edit later, or would that compromise validity?

(censoring in mind too: turning away from too "typical" topics)

Repetitive memory erasure: akin to murder of individual between memory creation and wipe? Forward continuity also broken

Pulling up memories is like by bucket in well.

Strategy: start doing something, let blindsight-mind carry through until next reset

Interlacing on video looks odd, not sure on first seeing if real or perception glitch

"ungonzo" - like HST said F&L became. Useful word?

Emphasis on memory/loss of memory seems excessive.

Possible to "surrender" analytic instinct briefly. Comes back when not thinking about it

Harder to type accurately now (00:00 hours)

Fill larger water bottle before next time - better to not run down&back for drinks

Anime harder to follow because hard to notice not noticing subtitles

(at least while typing)

self-note: Sleeping soon, will be signing off. (00:14)

put this on erowid if it's not too stupid

it's almost a damn parody as is (sarcastic hipster stoner)

time in this note not even approximately strictly increasing from top to bottom. (editor to reconstruct this after the fact by keystroke timestamps?)

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show-related misc:

Japanese sound/quality onomotopoeia (can't spell either, hindered by no spellcheck in Emacs) seem oddly appropriate to semantic meaning