I wrote a thing.

I've had a lot of these thoughts on my mind for months now and have been trying to form it into one large outlet as opposed to having it only exist cognitively.



Long distance relationships are extremely brutal and in no way ideal. I never thought I'd ever be in one but it's worth every second. When you have someone so beautiful and special it's worth feeling like you're going to vomit profusely with anxiety at least twice a month. You learn to appreciate technology, texting, and Skype so much because let's be honest long distance relationships wouldn't exist and the amazing relationship I have would be fiction. Forcing you to limit yourselves in terms of relationship progress sucks due to the fact that you're only able to spend time with your boyfriend/girlfriend through text and back lit screens, however, it does something wonderful in the process. It lets you communicate and talk. You talk about absolutely everything and anything. You learn so many things through this and grow through it. Having conversations that range from the purpose of life and many other intelligent concepts all the way to her calling herself a piece of garbage and me telling her that she’s a cardboard box because although it’s technically trash, it’s something that everyone loves and you can recycle it and build it into something new. (This was a real conversation and I don’t know why my brain thinks of this shit half of the time.) You learn about this person deeply and connect with them immensely. You develop and insane amount of trust and trust is definitely one of the most massive things in this sort of relationship. There’s times where you get scared and wonder if that person is going to get bored and tired of this relationship and want it to end, however, you have to realize one thing: They love you. They love you more than they can even fathom in your brain and want to do anything they physically can to be there for you. The thought of them with someone else crosses your mind from time to time and makes you feel sick but is quickly erased with the thoughts of holding them and hugging them. You remember how warm they feel when you hug them and how heavenly they smell and all of those worries go away. Skyping and talking becomes a part of your daily routine. Skyping from the moment you’re home from work/school and talking all the way until it’s time to sleep for the night and keeping the Skype call live only to wake up with the call running the next morning for like 14 hours and being able to see your cute girlfriend with her beautiful brown eyes staring right back at you with her contagious and adorable smile. Isolating yourself in your room and sitting at your computer desk for a massive amount of time definitely has an impact on your relationships with your friends. It’s not that you want to replace your friends with a webcam and computer monitor, it’s just difficult to leave her alone while she’s so far away. Your best friends will come to realize how important they are to you and support you with every endeavor related to your relationship and it will eventually balance out. I don't really know if I would recommend a long distance relationship, however, I can confidently tell you that there is a lot of happiness and sadness involved in one. It's brutal and tough and sometimes you wonder why you're in one in the first place and then remember the whole reason is for the person you're in it with. They're worth it. You want to be the best boyfriend/girlfriend you physically and emotionally can. You want to be there for them through everything and any time of the day. You grow stronger because you want to be stronger for them. It takes a massive amount of work but you're worth every second. I love you so much Sarah Wurfel. I’m always here for you I promise. I can't wait until you're home. <3



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