AN: Saw a prompt awhile ago looking for a fic about Katya helping Adore through addiction on the BOTS tour. That’s kind of where I’m going with this- let me know if you’re interested in more.



Danny has always been a party girl.

Had his first drink at 12.

Smoked his first joint at 14.

Tried a line of coke at a party at 17.

He’s from Azusa it’s expected there. It’s a fucking way of life. However not everyone gets out of – because of this life style and those who do either continue on the lifestyle until they die or they some how crawl themselves out of that hole.

Danny has climbed out of that hole once. Before appearing on RuPaul’s Drag Race he knew that there was no way he could go far while still being strung out. He worked hard, he collected his NA and AA chips. Adore may have been a party girl but Danny couldn’t be one anymore.

However this all crumbled to pieces after making the top three. Yeah sure, Danny tried his fucking hardest to stay away from all the drinking and all of the drugs. But he made the top three! He had a goddamn chance in this messed up world. Soon enough he found himself traveling to nightclubs all over the world to preform at all hours of the night. At first it was easier, he had the energy back then to say no to the constant stream of alcohol and other drugs that were passed around in the dressing rooms of nightclubs. He knew how to say no back then.

Now though, three years later, Danny does not know how to say no. He is not really sure how he forgot all of his AA and NA meetings. Is not sure when his firm no’s at the sight of poppers or coke or a vodka Redbull started to grow weaker until they became enthusiastic yeses. All he knows is that touring is hard and loading his body with vodka, coke, and weed makes it all just a little easier. And is that not what we all want in life? For things to just be a little easier?

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Four months. It’s been four long months. God damn it’s been four months and Brian does not think these four months could have been longer. Sure he’s been on tour with all of his friends- being reunited with Jason, Josh, and Matt has been great and growing closer with the rest of the girls has been phenomenal. But his body is tired and his mind is barely hanging on.

Brian has been addicted to a lot of things. Has been addicted to cocaine to alcohol to crystal. If it is out there Brian has put in up his nose or down his throat. And while it has been years since he’s jammed a chemical into his body that ache is still there. He knows that no matter how many AA or NA meetings he attends touring will always be difficult. Brian just needs one day in that fluffy white bed with his life sized Barbie doll, just needs to get away from the drugs and alcohol just for one day.