We change? It’s a fact that I made my peace with it long time ago. However, change of our hearts is what scares me the most.

How can someone so kind, happy and full of life would just change into a sad, lonely person? Life is definitely harsh, yet, why do we have to let it change us in such a cruel way? Can we even stop it? Can anything or anyone stop us from becoming darker? Sadder or lonely?

I struggled with these questions for a long time myself. I used to be so free, jump of happiness at the least ray of sunshine. I would be eager for gifts or for buying my first camera. I used to enjoy every moment of my life like there was no tomorrow. I changed a lot in just a matter of years. I was confident, smiling all the time, even at the hardest times. I used to comfort others before myself.

I changed a lot since I started realizing life, since I started worrying about my future, my family. I think I am becoming an adult who has to bear the responsibilities upon. Yet, this year it hit me. It’s good that I am growing up to a responsible adult, but that doesn’t have to change me. It doesn’t have to make my heart dimmer, yet it should make it full of light, full of hope.

I started thinking of my old happy self. The invincible soul that would never shed a tear, but will fight her way. That was when I heard that band for the first time by mistake. So far it became my favorite band. I listen to it almost everyday in the morning. I listen to it and I smile that a new day is upon me and a new fight is about to start. Every day is a new chance of life, why waste it in hatred, jealousy or whatever it is.

The answer to my questions of if there’s anything or anyone can stop me from changing to a darker person was song. Yours might be a song too, a memory trapped in a picture, a movie or the voice of a person you miss. Just remember that whatever you passed in this life that made you that sad or lonely is useless to the time of your life that you are spending sad thinking of.

We come to this life once, so please take good care of your heart and make it always full of hope and light. So you can be happy!

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx