"It's been so many ups and downs," he said. "I mean, I've had breakdowns in the privacy of my own home. It's just been a really tough summer, and a tough situation to deal with. One of the worst parts was feeling healthy and just feeling like, 'Man, I can go do it,' and just feeling like, you know, it's nobody out there that's helping me. Whether people want say what they want or not, that's how I feel."