February 07, 2019 • Monica Castellon

I wrote an entry on how terrible I was feeling and how I feel as if everything is out of my control.

It was about how fucking hard I’m trying to be happy and how the happiness just doesn’t stick. One minor bad thing happens and I just want to give up on everything. I don’t want to keep going and I don’t want to live.

It was about how I feel so paranoid to lose everything I’ve worked for and everything I care about and love. Am I going to lose my job? The only thing that actually keeps me sane and out of my safe place. Am I going to lose the people I care about? The only people that care about me. Am I going to lose my strength? My hope?

It was to show everyone that if they were feeling the same way, they’re not alone.

But my blog entry refreshed and everything I wrote went to shit and I don’t feel as bad as I did a few hours ago.

So you’re not alone and it will pass. Keep working on yourself, let’s keep moving forward together. We all need each other.

xoxo.