Chapter 1

So do I...

"Really?" Said Miyabi with a sparkle in her eyes. He'd seen it quite frequently with her in recent weeks, and it was starting to dawn on him what it was. He'd had a similar look in his eyes when he looked at Hina... and Rui. Did he feel the same about Miyabi? Could he be happy with this decision? Does he mean what he just said.

Natsuo was broken from his deep thought at the loud crash and comments from fellow members of the drama club, because "so do I" was not the line in the play , and it would appear to serve as an apparent confession. Miyabi was now the color of tomatoes and went to storm off, but not before dragging Natsuo by the wrist. After a few minutes they were alone and she surprised him by placing a tender kiss to his lips. He closed his eyes and leaned into it, trying to feel it... and yet After the kiss broke, Natsuo opened his eyes and said "was that... reciting for the part... or"

Miyabi blushed again before saying "...no Natsuo... that was from me. I'm sorry I've never felt this way about anyone, honestly I've never even had a boyfriend before." This caught Natsuo by surprise... it reminded him of Rui. His eyes darkened which caught Miyabi off card, she lightly gasped

Natsuo then said "I get how you feel Miyabi, I truly do, and I do like you on some level." Miyabi seemed to be on the brink of tears "Now don't cry, listen... I thought I was over them, her, all of it. I mean, they both left me when I couldn't write... in my best interest. I know they're my family but they were my first and second love, and, I don't think I'm as over Rui as I thought. I always try to do the right thing and mess up the most important part, silly right?"

Miyabi considered this deeply for a bit before curling her lips into a deep scowl and shouting "IDIOT! First I find out you have a girlfriend but you're vague with your feelings all the time, then I realize she's your sister and you dated her AND your elder sister? Now your telling me they both left you for your own good, but Natsuo what is your own good? To be outcast by family and losing love? I may have little experience but it's pretty clear to me you're either an idiot or a coward, and right now I don't know which is worse."

Natusos eye were wide and tears were forming, realizing she was totally right. He'd always been a coward, to afraid to say what he meant, not able to trust or share. That's why his relationship with Rui failed, not because he thought she was weak, but because he knew he was. He then croaked out "what...what do I do then?"

The distressed actress thought for a few minutes and set her hand on his chest, and his onto hers, right over the heart, and said "I didn't know how deep it was... but it's very clear your heart does not beat for me; it doesn't flutter or dance for what I can offer. So what if they're your sisters? What am I saying... no, you know what, I can't talk. I must confess I was trying to figure out a way to steal you long before she left... I'm an awful person. When your girl friend was going to America I thought "what a wonderful opportunity" and I can only see now how selfish I was. Having said all of that, I think theres only thing you can do now. Fight, for Rui. You clearly didn't for your first love, you can't make that mistake again. Also if you were truly Rui's first love and after everything you did, you'd be a fool to let that go... so easily. And don't think about me, I mean I like you but... well im certain it's not love. So, go and fight for her, and if your to scared to, then... act like you aren't."

Natsuo enveloped her in a massive hug, tears poking through, and cried on her shoulder for a minute before saying "Thank you. I'm afraid I won't be able to act in the play anymore", leaving her extremely confused, and then he got up and ran. Ran harder than he ever had, until he'd reached transport; and without thinking he went to his editors residency, with nothing but an idea an a hope.