In 2 days I take my one way ticket and depart for Canada.

Even writing that I don’t believe it.

Last night my best friend Gemma turned up at my house and blindfolded me before bundling me into her car. We drove for a bit and I realised that my blindfold was in fact the dog’s which was quite funny, and then we stopped and I was led out as Gemma pulled me impatiently “You’re SO slow Estelle” (Yes because I cannot see, Gemma) and I heard this crazy fanfare music playing (turns out it was the Canadian national anthem).

Then, my blindfold came off and I saw a whole lot of my friends standing around me, and a room filled with balloons, food, and countless photos of me and people I love, and a hilarious montage of “Estelle Videos” taken over the years. There was also a beautiful cake made by my wonderful friend Ashleigh.

I was just blown away by the thought and effort put into that night. It was so amazing to see all the memories and incredible times laid out in front of me.

I have been sitting in my bedroom crying for the last hour. Not because I am miserable, but because the move is fast approaching, and the bittersweet element of it is really hitting home.

I am beyond excited to start my new life in Canada, but as I surf through all the photos from last night, I have been feeling very nostalgic. The realisation that I am leaving my home, my family, my friends and everything I’ve ever known to venture into something brand new is really clear right now.

I’m so lucky that where I’m going is an amazing place and I have amazing support in my family, and Adam and his family, but I’ll admit it… I’m kinda scared right now. It’s daunting, and I sometimes sit and wonder if I can really do something like this.

Of course I can. I know I can. But it is a HUGE step. Life as I know it will be no more. It’s the end of an era.

I guess I just needed to have a little cry and take a little time to pay mind to all that I am leaving and all that I am grateful for.

I am incredibly blessed and surrounded by love, and I will remember that wonderful night forever.

My friends will always be my friends. Our love and our bond is strong, and I know they will come to visit me in beautiful Canada.

It’s funny standing at a turning point in life, knowing everything is about to change forever. It’s terrifying, but exhilarating.

I hope the amazing people in my life know how much I love them. You have all been the best friends I could ever imagine. I adore you, never leave me.

Here we go. 2 more days until everything changes.

I’m taking a deep breath and I’m wiping my tears away. It’s time to take the step..

Wish me luck.

This will probably be my last blog post until I’m there.

Isn’t that crazy?

Until then,

Estelle x