If you’re reading this, chances are you’re searching for some ‘definitive’ proof of the concept of ‘Twin Flames’. Spoiler alert – You won’t find it, at least from a practical point of view.

Like others on other Twin Flame websites have stated, you just ‘Know’, and I mean ‘Know’ ‘Know – like the kinda ‘Know’ as in you “Know you need air to breath”, or the ‘Knowing’ that you’ll never come across another human being as physically attractive, breath-taking and simply ‘stunning’.

I’m not going to spend any time explaining the idea behind ‘Twin Flames’, or Twin Souls as many have suggested calling it. A simple Google search takes good care of that. But what I want to say is that it isn’t some over-exaggerated attempt to glorify an otherwise romantic crush or relationship, this is something that shakes you to the core and ‘forces’ you to re-define the meaning of reality, and everything contained within it….at least it has for me…I’m pretty sure she’d laugh if I was to ever approach her.

I’m going to explain a little behind my story, the story up to now anyway. For reasons I wish to not disclose, lets just say briefly that I’m a male in my 20’s from the UK. You see, I thought I lead a pretty simple life (regardless I do), with a lovely, kind-hearted and generous long-term partner and gorgeous children. A family that can and will bend over backwards when help is needed. Just living life…..trying to make something of my life…..until it just seemed recently every stage of my life has suddenly been carefully designed to enable me to be in the right place (although at the moment seems like the wrong time) to meet a girl who absolutely left me breathless (and still does on an almost daily basis – I’ve felt like this for 2 years…).

After walking past this Woman at ‘Destination X’, the moment I saw her sent shock waves through me! I instantly remember thinking clearly “God it’s been a long time since I’ve seen her”, and then “Actually, do I know her, I’m sure I know her from somewhere’, to then realising a few days later after racking my brains “I’ve never seen this person before in my entire life”, what the f*** is going on!?

To cut the first year of what I call this game short, and completely ignoring for a moment the fact I couldn’t get over how attracted I was to this Woman and the ways in which I could always sense her at Destination X’, I didn’t really think too much else in to it.

Days would come and go. One time early on, I’d been sat in my car in the car park outside the supermarket. “Look to your right, look now!” I thought to myself – 2 cars down there she was. Sat in her car, where she turned to her left before I darted my face forward again. Crap, crap, it’s her I thought to myself. Play it cool, pretend you weren’t checking her out.

I’m in a stable relationship though , I’ve never cheated, I generally keep myself to myself, I trust myself to not get carried away by the fact she appears to me like a goddess. So what, I’ll get over her and get on with my life at some point won’t I? WRONG!

So what about ‘Synchronicities’. Isn’t that in your Twin Flame story. These initially came at the beginning, but the timing of certain events probably tipped this for me to confirm beyond doubt that what is happening “IS REAL”. You see, it appears she lives only a few doors down to where one of my relatives spent their child hood growing up.

I noticed that she drove a ‘Y’ coloured car, suddenly I’d see her and her partners car everywhere, and I mean EVERYWHERE! I live in a relatively big city but it didn’t matter. I’d subconsciously be able to find that needle in a haystack no matter where in the city I was. On one occasion I was one the other side of town, when I had a thought, “you’re going to see her car shortly”. I ignored that thought as you do, and drove home back to the other side where I lived. Passing through various traffic, traffic lights, etc. 3 streets from my destination having driven 6 or 7 miles or so, I turn out of a street and BOOM, I’m suddenly driving right behind her car! I couldn’t do anything besides laugh. What had happened, this was a joke right?

This is where things started to get really weird for me and things started to click together. The number 11:11 had been appearing and continues to do so on a daily basis since the end of 2015. I was aware of seeing these numbers quite a while before I learnt of the whatever this Twin Flame concept is, but thinking back now it makes perfect sense.

As ridiculous as it sounds, the precision in which these numbers appear (particularly 111) scare me. Every time I’m never consciously ‘looking’ to find these numbers. Digital clocks, laptops, suddenly skipping or pausing tracks on music, scoreboards at sports games, how many miles I’ve driven since I last filled the car up, receipts from the supermarket, accidentally knocking my mobile off the charging port for it to light up, you name it – 1111 or 111.

Although I understood I was seeing these numbers in all their strangeness, I didn’t know why. That was of course until around 8 months ago, when I read an article on twin flames, and literally a day later, this ‘attractive’ woman – who remember I’m trying not to over-think about – suddenly catches me starring at her, whether she was aware or not, to me at least it was the most insane eye contact I’ve ever had in my life – contain yourself, ffs.

At this point you’re probably thinking “well haven’t you ever talked to her?”. The answer is No. You see, that’s where the struggle starts to become real, and has done so since day 1. I’m settled with children, she looks settled with children. Although I don’t want to delve into the location of Destination X, let’s just say there’s no reason why we’d ever need to speak to one and other, not without people raising eyebrows and thinking “hmm, what’s going on there”, not to mention our partners assuming the obvious. We’re both faces to each other, probably a face she wouldn’t ever remember to well.

I’ve never felt so connected to someone in my entire life, someone as I stated above do not know. My emotions just keep been amplified ten-fold for her. Not a day goes by, hardly an hour where I don’t have at least one thought of her. And it irritates me so badly when logically this is just insane. I continue to love my family to bits and generally nothing has changed in my day-to-day life with them, but it’s a piercing feeling sometimes when I look at my partner and almost feel like I’m cheating on this other woman with my girlfriend!

A couple of months back, I sought to contact numerous physics and tarrot card readers to try and gain some insight. They’d confirmed what I was going through was real. But even then this ultimately wouldn’t ever give me definitive proof because I’ve thought “are they just telling me what I want to hear?”. Truth be told, nothing would help me more at this point then for all of this to be just a figment of my imagination. I could live with the fact I may be crazy, but living in the same reality as you Twin Flame and having zip relationship is just about the saddest and most disappointing situation I could ever think of been in. At the end of the day they isn’t any proof, other than proof you feel from your own heart, which I’ve learnt is the only tool you can ever really trust. We could get together in the future, and both say the same thing. Would that even be proof after all lol?

So in the nut shell, that’s my Twin Flame story condensed into about 20% if I could put a figure on it. Now for the really sad part, as I’ve briefly touched on.

Not a day (or hour it seems at times) goes by I don’t think of her. Wishing her well and for her to be happy in her life. Wishing I could just spend a minute or two to just speak to her and put some closure to all of this. It’s clear we’re not meant to be together any time soon. We’re both tied up heavily in our lives. Just to even have her as a friend would feel like a huge blessing for me, but I feel deep down each others presence is just too ‘intense’ for one and other. At least it feels that way for me.

I even think about “Why” I actually think about her. Over-analysing every aspect of this whole Twin Flame game. “What is she up to”. “What kinda food does she like”, “Would she like me if I wore this, or wore my hair like this”, etc. But most times I just think of how blessed I am to have even met her, even though we’ve not spoken. Then other times I just think get a grip LOL!

Ultimately it feels like I’m pining for her, and it upsets me so much that I can’t have some kind of relationship or formality with her. I’ve never been jealous of her relationship with her partner however. I see he looks like a decent man who is exactly who she needs in her life. I’m the idiot who’s awoken to whatever weird shit this is and looked behind over the wall, when in reality I never asked to, and never really needed too!

I will say it is quite satisfying “Knowing” with the up most confirmation that ‘YOU WILL NEVER FIND ANYBODY AS APPEALING’. I test this theory every day. We all see people who you like the look of at times….it’s natural. But every time this girl who I honestly believe is what you would call your ‘Twin Flame’ is THEE person who comes out on top. I don’t even have to question it for a second.

Maybe one day our paths will cross at a place where we can properly meet each other, or when circumstances are different. I don’t know. What I do know is that I love her with every inch of my being and will always be there for her, even if only through each others imaginations?

I ask myself the question on occasion “Would you do anything to be with this girl”, and honestly, I can’t YET given a precise answer. I like the idea of it working out with me and her somehow, even if it was 10 or 20 years down the line, but ultimately the question is “Do I want to be SELFISH and chase WHAT I WANT at the expense of destroying my family” and the answer right now is no. That’s why I question why exactly I’ve even been given this opportunity to meet my Twin Flame and have this experience. I never asked for it. Or did I?

It just hurts so bad to go through this, day in, day out, with every passing day seemingly getting harder and harder. This is a shout-out to anyone in my position. I feel you, whatever it is we seem to be going through. It is what it is. What’s meant to be, will be.

To my Twin Flame, I LOVE YOU.

xxx