I haven’t spoken to Benjamin since our last encounter at the pub about a month ago. So I was really surprised when he called me today. He apologized for laughing at me, and said he didn’t mean to offend me. I think I also overreacted a bit. I can’t help but get on the defensive side every time someone brings this topic up. I don’t normally meet people who accept my choice. The fact that it’s none of their business just makes this whole thing even more bizarre.

He asked me out, and I said yes. It probably sounds stupid, after how he humiliated me last time, but a part of me wanted to prove to him, that just because I don’t want children, I’m not a freak. I’m still a loveable woman, have feelings, just like anyone else. Ridiculous as it sounds, I just wanted him to be nice to me again. Also, I haven’t heard from Gavin since Rodney’s party last weekend, so I’d assumed he was not interested in me after all.

I must admit, I thought it was a date with Ben… but soon I realized I was probably wrong, because he kept going on and on about this girl, Haley, how they met, and how cool she is. Apparently she already moved in to his house. When did all this happen? And what the hell was he doing in the pub with me then, I wonder?

It was quite late in the night when I saw Gavin walk in. He was alone. My first thought was to simply ignore him – I didn’t want him to think I’m desperate for his attention -, but he noticed me and waved at me tentatively. I patted the empty bar stool next to me and motioned him to come over. “Drink?”, I asked, and he nodded. Once we were halfway through our drinks, the conversation started flowing more easily. He said he was thinking about me, but didn’t want to bother me after I had “such a great time with Booker”. What the hell is he talking about? Men… I told him that I’m not interested in Booker. We had a few more drinks and spent the night talking about all sorts of things. He did not mention kids or marriage or anything of this sort, so I was relieved. Just to avoid further misunderstandings I used very simple words before leaving: “Gavin, it was great meeting you. I hope I’ll see you soon.”

I like this guy.