The Courtney tapes. My ex probably still has them - I should have sued for them in the divorce. I even played a few of the messages back for my own voice mail at the time.

Courtney would leave messages that would go on for HOURS. She'd drift off, or go do something else, or have conversations with friends - then come back. Her moods were all over the place: angry, apologetic, very depressed, conversational and friendly, or just a total mess. What was clear was - for as much as a fuck up Courtney is - she was very hurt by Reznor's behavior. She obviously trusted him once.

Now add that in with what we know about Reznor's treatment of Tori Amos - and Reznor 'dropped' Courtney to fuck Amos at the time - we learn more about why Amos may have had some perceived animosity towards Love ('Professional Widow'). Fuck knows what Reznor told her.

Details:

They met backstage through mutual friends, but Reznor had John (manager) contact Courtney the next day. They spoke on the phone several times while Trent was touring, and discussed collabarating.

During the conversations, Trent told her that he considered her one of his best friends and one of the few people that he could trust. She, in return, "spilled her guts" about "this daily nightmare of living with Kurt's ghost" ("It's like I still see him everywhere and he was in the fucking kitchen this morning.")

At some point, they hooked up and everything went great. Trent returned to the tour - then would have nothing to do with her. And she didn't understand WHY.

Some messages would start friendly - almost professional - then silence - then "WHAT THE FUCK TRENT?? YOU FUCKING CREEP WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

One of my favorites: "IF YOU WANTED TO FEEL CONNECTED TO KURT SO BADLY, I SHOULD HAVE JUST GIVEN YOU THE SHEETS WE FUCKING SLEPT ON. YOU COULD HAVE JERKED OFF WITH THEM INSTEAD AND TAKEN THEM HOME WITH YOU."