So stressed....

Sep 4, 2020

I'm so fucking stressed. "But how Kyle? All you're doing is sitting at home on your ass and just playing video games! You're not even working... you have nothing to complain about". I really shouldn't.. I should be relaxing. But I'm not. This year my dad died. He didn't even know this was going to happen. He thought he just had a bad cold. I didn't even get to talk to him.. I took too long to get back home to Ottawa because I didn't have the proper id. Plus,.,. I didn't think he was going to die. My sister constantly messaging me with her usual messages of doom and gloom. I get there...Dad dies... and then I'm forced to be around all these people I don't know.. I don't care to know...and I don't want to be there. This shouldn't be happening..... He's gone. Just like Mom. I feel alone. I feel like our family has been severed.... haha... yet.. I haven't felt connected to them for years. I purposely go out of my way NOT to socialize with my family. They make me sad. I didn't enjoy