Raddz Fri 30-Mar-18 17:30:18

Sorry for the length that this might be in. But I really need some advice.. Please dont judge.. I have a child who is three. Most of her life I have been trying to flee my ex partner. I have been in womens aid about 3 times because of him. The last time I was in the refuge was about 2 years ago because her dad was just stalking me, making threats and being violent even tho i had broken up with him. Time goes on in the refuge and its time to move out to my mums where i can have support and move on with my child. Social services was okay with this and gradually left me alone. Move in with my mum and things go okay. I meet someone and move to another place with them and my daughter ... things went bad and drugs, violence and social again become involved. I started taking amphetamines with my partner on the weekends and things went out of hand. I have no excuse as to why i was doing that. I just was unfortunality. He was violent and chaotic.. I protected myself one day and go arrested. The police let me go with no offences. When i got out the cells. My child father had taken my daughter. Which he had a good point to it as i was letting her down. Anyway time goes on and i try sorting contact but he stops it all the time. I got a message one day saying that he was in prison for frued, he stole 88k off a lady. He was working with Somalians. He got 22 month but literally out in june. He went before last Christmas. I have been working and doing well with social. When my daughter got taken I have had three jobs moved in to the ymca moved out and moved in to a shared house.. I have proved myself. I dont take any drugs, drink or have any offences. All they have on me is stability and of course the past.. drugs, domestic violence, moving around etc. My social worker is okay, but she seems to change the way she is all the time. I have been waiting for contact for 14 weeks, she constantly says yeah im sorting it, my child daddy is out in june. My daughter lives with his mum and when he gets out he will go there and live with my daughter. He has 11 offences including arson, battery ... the usual that horrible men have. Social say because he didn't committ the crime when he had her its okay! Not in my eyes its not. She says were both bad because we messed up. If im clean and changed my life around then why cant I have her back? Theres no order and no court orders... i have a key worker that helps me and who also doesnt understand why social are doing this? Can anyone help please? What would you do? Help xx