I can go back to my mid teens thinking about cock. I was always told I was good looking and had my choice of women. I completely worship a woman’s body, tight ass, large B or C cup tits and that perfect lower back curve. But then, around my mid teens I started to notice dicks. In the locker room. soft but in all sizes, I felt no attraction to any other part of the male body, just found myself being intrigued by those dicks, what they felt like soft, what it would be like to see and touch them as they got hard. what the impulse might be to do more than touch. There were times I would jerk off instead of fucking available girls and women around me just so I could think of those cocks. I would start touching myself while soft and closing my eyes and seeing those cocks and feel myself get hard and then think about them feeling as hard and throbbing as my own until I came.

This went on for a couple of years, never acting on it at all. After I turned 18 I found an adult bookstore in Hartford that was far enough away from home to make me comfortable. I discovered glory holes by accident, I had no idea what they were. I went to a porn store to buy some VHS tapes and saw the entrance to the booths and went in the back to watch some porn. I dropped a quarter in the box and up came the video. I think you had a choice of like 3 or 4. I was glued to a guy blowing a guy onscreen when my eyes adjusted and I saw the roughly cut hole. I didn’t know what to do lol but watching the movie was really getting me hard. I got the courage up to look thru the hole. but there was no one there, I don’t know if I was more relieved or disappointed!

After about five minutes I heard a door open and saw some light come thru that mysterious hole and heard the door close. I was frozen at first, my zipper down, my dick hard with only my head poking through my jeans afraid to let it all out at that time. I went back to finish watching the blowjob on screen till the guy blew his load into the other guys mouth who swallowed as much of it as he could. That was the first time I saw another cum and it was so hot. But of course, I didn’t feel gay or attracted to any other aspect of the guys on the screen. I turned to a different movie and once again it was two guys and one was being eaten out to be prepared to be fucked, I was not into that at all at that time and turned to watch another movie with a very hot girl that kept my dick hard.