It appears that the art and poem Ishida uploaded a few hours ago (20170912) have been deleted from his blog. I managed to copy down the poem before it got deleted, so I’ve also included the original poem in Japanese below the translated version. Please let me know if there are any mistakes in the translations!

idealism - phosphenes

If behaving like a god is a sin,

even the act of creating life would be blasphemous. Wouldn’t doing this be mocking the gods?

Wanting to be judged, I entered the prison of my own free will.

I play around with sludge in a silent room.

“So you’ve come back again,”

I was being cursed at with a timbreless voice.

That place was dazzlingly beautiful.

I was starving to death, and then

from when I was gnawing on someone’s body,

that’s right,

from that moment, it all became strange.

There definitely have must have been poison in there.

Only beautiful merely to the eye, and

shit.

I don’t want to put anything in my mouth, I don’t want to hear anything.

I don’t want to see anything,

anything at all.

Place myself on a scale, along with the things being sold off,

along with the ripped-apart bodies given away in pieces,

along with playing by peeling off scabs, don’t, don’t.*

Throw away everything you don’t need out the window.

It’s okay if you fall and die.

Until the very end, lend your ears to just the sounds fading away.

Hey, how many things did you get that you wanted?



T/N: The only definite pronoun used in the poem is in the line “I was starving to death”. I may or may not have gotten some pronouns wrong in the poem (if I did, please let me know so I can fix it).

(*): ‘Mou’ is a very general term. It could be an interjection of exasperation (geez), or soon/already depending on what comes after ‘mou’.

Original in Japanese

神のように振舞う ことが罪なら

いのちを生み出す行為すら冒涜的な、神の真似事じゃないか





裁かれたくて すすんで牢獄に入った

音のない部屋で 泥濘とたわむれる

またもどってきてしまったね、と

音色のない声で 罵られる





あの場所は眩闇だった

わたしは ひどく餓えていて そうして

だれかの 身体をかじったときから

そう

あのときから おかしくなってしまったのだ

あれは、あれには きっと毒が仕込まれていた

見た目だけがただ美しくて

糞





なにも口にいれたくない なにも耳にしたくない

なにも見たくない

なにも





自分を秤にのせて 売り渡すのも

身体を割いて別け与えるのも

かさぶたを剥がしあう遊びも もう もう





いらないものはすべて窓から 放り投げてしまえ

落ちて死ねばいい

さいごのさいごに 終わる音だけ耳に添えて





ねえ、欲しいものは、いくつ手に入った？