Alec Baldwin has penned a blistering magazine piece in which he says goodbye to public life asd laments being thought of as homophobic following a run-in with a photographer last November.

Despite the incident being captured by a TMZ camera, Baldwin denies calling the photographer a ‘cocksucking fag.’

In a New York Magazine piece scheduled to be published Monday and posted early online by Gawker, Baldwin tries to explain himself – exhaustively.

‘Am I a homophobe? Look, I work in show business. I am awash in gay people, as colleagues and as friends. I’m doing Rock of Ages one day, making out with Russell Brand. Soon after that, I’m advocating with Jesse Tyler Ferguson and Cynthia Nixon for marriage equality. I’m officiating at a gay friend’s wedding. I’m not a homophobic person at all. But this is how the world now sees me.’

In the seventh paragraph of the piece, Baldwin makes new mistakes.

He writes about an LGBTI group he met with in Hawaii shortly after the photographer incident and starts a sentence this way: ‘One young man, an F-to-M tranny … ‘

Tranny is considered an offensive term when referring to transgender people.

The trans man had asked if Baldwin was there to get dry-cleaned, like director Brett Ratner who stepped down as Oscars producer a few years back after using an anti-gay slur during a movie screening.

Baldwin writes: ‘ …I could do some mea culpa, write them a six-figure check, go to a dinner, sob at the table, give a heartfelt speech, beg for forgiveness. I thought to myself: Beg for forgiveness for something I didn’t do?’