I have finally gotten around to starting my second post and here it is.

I expected and was told when I started this blog that I could potentially get some feedback that I wouldn’t like. My response was; I’ve handled worse, I’ll be fine. Unfortunately, I didn’t handle it emotionally quite as well as I expected.

Negative Feedback

I, like most people I’m sure, have varying feelings about other people’s thoughts on me, depending on my own mood.

I either I want everyone to like me and to not think a bad thing about me, or I couldn’t care less and think everyone should just do what they want and feel like doing. I prefer when I feel the latter.

A response to my last post insinuated that I was being rather self-centred and that I should have focused more on the positives than the negatives in relation to how I handled my assault. So naturally, for the last few weeks I’ve been reading over that comment asking myself, am I being blind to this? Is she right? Is anyone else thinking this about me?

My plan was to write a hefty rather unpleasant response explaining everything wrong with the comment, but instead I took a step back and waited a few days before responding, and then another few weeks before writing my next post to get a clearer view.

Because really, what would I have achieved by lashing out in anger at the response of one person, they’re just words and it really doesn’t matter who thinks what about anyone, something I still need to remind myself of daily.

Thank you

Nearly all of the other responses and feedback I received after the post were extremely positive, and I was overwhelmed and thankful for how many people read, liked or commented on the post. But I got the feeling that a lot of people felt sad for me, which is a natural reaction to anyone being in pain.

So this post is an ‘I’m Ok’ post. I’m quite more than Ok but I just want anyone who read the post to know I’m not still in the position that I described in that statement and the assault actually occurred nearly 2 years ago now.

I have overcome a lot of the issues I was battling at the time that the statement was written/read out and now I’m in a much different place.

You can do it to

I feel like reading the statement back, I don’t recognise the person writing it.

The biggest turn around in my life has been in the last 6-8 months, and I find it truly crazy how much your mind-set and outlook on life can change in such a small amount of time.

I’m no longer on Anti-Depressants, I have plans for trips and holidays, I see my friends regularly (not just in my own home) and I am working out to make myself feel better about my appearance and help with my mental health.

You would think going through something yourself that you would know what to suggest to another person going through pain, but I don’t have any more answers than I did before really.

The one thing I would say though is that ‘time heals everything’. It sounds very optimistic and unrealistic when you’re in pain but it truly does. That along with support from those around you and yourself will get you to where you want to be.

In the impact statement I said the one thing I wish for is that I get myself back eventually. I’ve now come to terms with the fact I’m not going to go back to the naive person I was, but I actually quite like myself better now, and you can too.

Thank you for reading

Katie

xoxo