Ok I’ll try and explain what happened this morning…it was a bit out there as far as things I’ve experienced yet, and that’s saying a lot.

It was around 6am and I’d only been sleeping for about an hour and a half anyway when Loki’s voice literally, audibly woke me back up. This isn’t unusual in and of itself, but what was unusual was opening my physical eyes and getting my vision confused with my astral body’s vision, and I hate when that happens because it’s unsettling and I don’t know what’s what. So I could sort of foggily see Loki in the semi-darkness of my room, not at all if I lost focus, and quite clearly if I closed my physical eyes and looked with astral. Which is hard for me to consciously do while awake, but it can be done. I can tell right away whenever Loki has someone with Him because His energy flow is disrupted by the other person’s. He had someone with Him. He was holding an infant. Annnd suddenly I was paying rapt attention.

“But I didn’t–and you didn’t–”

“No. not yet. I’m more of a vision right now. This is more of a foretelling than an astral experience or a dream. It’s like an astral dream.”

He explained that but to me, I couldn’t stop watching the bundle in His arms and was still confused. But I recognized the wild black hair the bundle had. “Astridr…that’s our little girl. But that can’t be her. When You gave me the first look at her she looked around five.. And it’s tOO EARLY FOR THIS IT’S ONLY BEEN A FEW MONTHS SINCE–”

“I have known about them for far longer, as you can imagine.”

He smiled a bit, that unnerving smile like He’s hiding something big, and kept on with what He was there for. “I need to test something with you. You can feel her, how her life energy feels, yes?”

I agreed, I could. She felt like a tiny fire. Then He said, “You’ll need to grow accustomed to it before you have her.” And meanwhile I’m wondering what about her brother, I thought she was a twin? I met the boy also. Loki sensed me wondering and told me Astridr would likely be first. I didn’t ask why He said “likely” as if it wasn’t definite yet. But then again this was all a sort of experimental timey wimey prophetic thing in the first place so… “Ok…bring her toward me.” I told Him, and watched Him approach me, and was still lying on the bed with my awkward sight. The closer He got, the more I felt her, and when He held her out near to me, it…HURT. Burned, even. My heartrate skyrocketed, I felt like I was close to getting electrocuted, if that’s the right explanation for it. I knew I looked under strain, so Loki backed away. “She is harsh, isn’t she?” He asked, and a strange pride was in His tone…and I nodded. “Yeah she is, why?? Try again?” This was also my way of verifying the experience a tiny bit, interacting with direct questions to note my discernment as I tracked the results. Loki moved her close to me again, and told me this was how I would sense her when I wasn’t on the astral, even while I’ll be carrying her. I couldn’t handle the feeling, she was too overwhelming, at least now, in my current state she was.

“That was what I needed to find out.” Loki said, backing a few feet away again and letting me try to adjust again. “Well as of now, I wouldn’t be able to handle that!” I exclaimed. That’s why I’m suddenly worried about the entire process, like it wasn’t enough to worry about in the back of my mind ever since the first sight of Astridr and her brother. Loki told me I may have to “work on some things” to adjust for things upcoming, and then He and Astridr were gone. My regular vision returned to normal and I sat up like normal.

I dunno…I’ve been nervous all day even through excitement, because I didn’t expect any other hints of them for quite a while yet. It’s only been about half a year (??) since I became aware of their eventual existence in the first place.