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alma deutscher isto an extraordinary degree with the prevailing classical “ tableaux ”i don’t know what the implications of this are, but it could be a warning flag of some sort

multilingualism will be spreading her too thin and i don’t think the “ meta ” is entirely helpful either

these people on the web who just bash at the person and haven’t learnt to take an argument apart

tattoo inks are unregulated and contain nanoparticles, toxins and carcinogens

also they mess the immune system since they persist through a relay of being consumed by successive macrophages

women shop for men, but men are the eyeless product and don’t look too much

i must admit, i was never keen on geoffery chaucer’s writings, but with more experience of life i am

with history you can say things happen a certain way, with the future you can’t say with certainty what will happen

i think this is really what time is, this movement from certainy to uncertainty and vice versa

there is a sort of paradox between the ease with which you can represent something in say, art or writing and its mismatch with any sort of depth, consistency or utility

when some-one agrees with what you are saying, they are not actually saying what you are saying

you have to be careful with that

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brad warner, i have had quite a bit of experience of real life buddhism and zen and feel you are making “ bradhism ”its too idiosyncratic to you, a sign of schizophrenia btw

the really different thing about zen is its literary nature and in fact owed its support and development in china to patronage from the chinese administrative class which was very literary, almost unique in history

you are trying to graft it into buddhism, but in reality it was a deconstruction of buddhism

since i am deconstructing you, what i am doing is zen and not you who are trying to construct what is in effect a new version of a zen religion, shades of ron hubbard ?

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i was thinking about this this morning (ed. to a relative)so i just thought i’d throw my thoughts down on electrons and send them

history is fiction

self-worth

i think you need writing to give some sense ofand also working things out because society is so devaluing

in the end i think one is really alone, there is just oneself and one’s writing and that will continue until one stops

one is an autumn leaf floating downstream

one

can

be

red

or

brown

chaucer, in his prologue to the summoner’s tale, certainlyfriars and it occurred to me that things haven’t changed, how ratbag the people in the religious and spiritual scene are, modern “ friars ” so to speak

one action swallows a thousand opinions

why do we bother with them ?

one action swallows a thousand opinions

why do we bother ?

rather sobering, aboriginalin australia

493

its interesting to compare chaucer to the supposed writer of the plays and poetry, chaucer hascontemporary references to him, shakeapeare only a few

sir henry neville of course has heaps of references and like chaucer had travelled widely

geoffrey chaucer was unbelievably involved in court life and its

you may plan for the future, build something up, but everything unseats anyway

on the other hand there’s no point in lying across the railway lines

any relationship is a form of injury

break-ups

to those in relationship or marriage, you never have to worry about the personal side because they always take themselves into the new relationship

just sit back and watch

good writing of necessity has recursion, ambiguity and repetition

good writing necessarily has ambiguity

there’s a billion zillion million fictions of this world, a few of which are truer than this world

there’s a million billion zillion fictions of this world, a few of which are truer than this world

empty roads

winding unwinding

what’s the difference ?

morefor the benefits of “ intermittent fasting ”

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i don’t really use the word “ belief ” except in the sense of “ i believe so ”to me, its a mark of a certain uncertainty about a state of affairs

the sense of establishing a probably false or voynich state of affairs as a base doesn’t make sense to me, why would you do it?

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“ i believe in the father, son and holy ghost ”when i was a child at a church boarding school we had to say that as part of “ the grace ” before meals

really medieval actually

one sees so many middle aged people with substantial “ belly fat ” ” look out, it diagnoses

yes, belly fat is a disease condition

i notice brad warner who worked marketing “ ultraman ” for years has as many “ entertainment ” links on his facebook page as content relevant to zen or his books

so i think i might include more in the way of entertainment than i have been doing

marketing imo is more difficult than it appears and i don’t think it can be done successfully by the originator of the content, he/she has to rely on others to do that

r|zen is so bad

because they delete anything of quality

so in terms of posting on zen_mystical, if what you post fits on r|zen, then its not suitable

asks for that extra mile

writing is the selective reinforcement of some memories

these are pivots to dance across the universe

inter-textual

dialogic is therelationship with other writers — i do this a lot and it seems obvious, but i had never thought about it that way before

you have to have a conclusion

but there’s no conclusion

by the garage door

a beam of moonlight

in the shadow

it looked like a pole on the ground

i trod on it

it wasn’t

disaster is intrinsic to the fabric of reality

we are born with a desire to continue forever

look what happens

aging

why is this ?

a million lives flash past

a trillion histories stuck in the stasis of slow time

reaching outwards

forever

what is the meaning

in

this ?

meaningless sound bites are r|zen territory, that prince of the insane subreddits

have a think about this, i am sure you will see what i mean, its not conversational

zen_mystical is a writing board, a higher standard of explanation and working out is expected than for the usual subreddit

fran lebowitzwith insight

its interesting to consider the effect of the loss of so many quality artists to aids had on the current retarded level of art, a literal downsizing of intelligence

hmm, some or a fair portion of my writing is quite

pomplamoose et al

a good poem to upgrade your reading age on

emily dickinson’s

i thought i would pass on my opinion about getting cataract operations since i am developing them, the advice i got from a very experienced surgeon who has done a lot of overseas volunteer work is to delay for as long as possible which basically means until you need the operation for driving

the other big thing is there is a new generation of lens coming out considerably improved over the previous, but its going to take a couple of years

AMD

if you already have an iol in, imo you want to wear sunglasses in bright sunlight to help protect the macula as with the artifical lens you are at a bit higher risk of

BBC

theis full of crap, learning two languagesyour brain

80%

20%

the net iscrazies and idiots, but that still leaves a useful

one thing that seems to be working for me is the exact same time for turning off all lights and the computer and going onto my red led headlamp two hours before bed

people die in their sleep, and when you, you can see why

its a dangerous process, in the context of a failing body and brain you may not return from an excursion past criticality

not a bad way to go actually

evolution’s unintentional euthanasia

better than lions or wild dogs eating you alive for sure

what the rain drops in

the wind taketh away

,

what the rain drops inthe wind taketh away

what the rain drops in, the wind taketh away

what the rain drops in the wind taketh away

the problem with atheism is its like religion, its not a coherent position

“ i am an atheist ”

what does it mean ?

absolutely nothing

IBS

a sugar binge can cause anflare

hardly news to anyone familiar with elaine gottschall’s work, butis now coming in

theof leonard cohen’s song was a real person

“ when you’re right, you’re right ”

open-ended

i think all you have to do is spin it out a bit and everything becomeswhich is the way it actually is, but they close things off and fight to preserve the closed condition

IBS

people would rather die than do any thinking themselves withconditions

this is going to seem a bit weird, but complete immersion in another culture can be a disabling experience

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its rather fascinating to see you “ revert ”yet youby your time in france, you’re a cultural “ chimera ” now

i have noticed that women absorb more of a different culture than men

i actually think it will take you a while to find a new balance, don’t let the worst aspects of nz culture pull you down

another commenter (female) accuses me of sexism and making “ an extreme assumption ”

my reply

i would have thought it was a positive feature “ being able to absorb more of a different culture ” ? what i’m saying is there is a degree of damage in aligning to a new culture and language, she has gone through that alignment and come back, but she’s not the same person, new zealand itself has changed for her

this is not a “ good versus bad ” but a quizzy look at undercurrents in life usually not well perceived by us

what i judge music by is not whether i think its good or bad, but whether i am compelled to listen uninterrupted to the end

sung by lily jung meets this criteria

100

110

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CD4

you can get to, but to get toyou have to bethe clonal expansion of-positive cells that have acquired a cytotoxic ability

you can protect yourself to some extent from indoctrination in retreats by reading widely, but the bullshit from the theology is very counterproductive

however without solitary time you are just going to meander in verbiage forever, r|zen for instance

i would put in one and a half hours of “ retreat time ” a day

it can be a simple as a walk or “ not doing anything ” an hour or so before bed

estrella morente por las grecas fiesta

with spring dawn comes earlier

i overslept

blossom blown from the tree

useless to ponder

my reworking ofby meng haoran

digestive problems narrow people’s personalities and make them very resistant to change

the brain after all, is starving

jason says he was talking to this guy on discord who has been seriously ill for four months

he can’t eat anything, he’s fasted with water and gatorade — he says everything he eats passes right through him — said he puked 10 times yesterday ?

IBS

IBS

his doctor said it might be gastroenteritis but they’re not sure, they haven’t done an endoscopy and they haven’t really discussed(irritable bowle syndrome) or crohn’s — he sayshas been a thought with the doctors

what i’m surprised is they told him to start taking probiotics, he hasn’t noticed any improvement with them so he hasn’t really been taking them

IBS

sounds likethough right ? not a stomach virus since it’s been going for so long

my reply

IBS

yeah, bad, gatorade is just a disaster area, it will be making the bowel problems much worse

he should cut out grains and potatoes entirely and read up onand the

eggs boiled to just touching on hard are a good recovery food, shredded coconut can help with the microbiome, most probiotics have the wrong bacteria mixes and don’t work, pasturised fruit is a good source of carbs, etc, he has to do some reading and thinking

the net is full of “ book zen ” where they think you can develop some sort of understanding without going to/on retreats

what are you doing that you are trying to browbeat me into your opinion ?

just ask yourself

ufo’s are just a projection by crazies

what more do you need to know about it ?

men have fragile ego’s

that makes them manipulable by women

so they are always going to be in a state of trauma

the endless mire of scriptural discussion

its just infinity

to not much purpose

i’m dying

a brief glimpse of marvels

and then its over

i’m dying

a brief glimpse of marvels

and its over

a veryof the death of diana athill’s mother

another

,

theyou can see everything

but how long

can you go

without sleep ?

the advantage vladimir nabakov had over his russian contemporaries like akhmatova and mandelstam is he was brought upand therefore linguisicially at home in england and america as a writer, whereas their facility ‘ in russian only ’ kept the other great russian writers in the murderous stewpot of stalinism

brad warner won’t go the extra step

he was pricked

and why ? well you can see buddha is just another story, but he just won’t go there

why are you treating a translator’s opinion as what eihei actually said ? dogen translations are characterised by a complete lack of philological work, without which you might as well be making it up, which of course they do

by contrast yoshida kenkō'stranslation by donald keene has much more philological depth and you can pick it by reading and how much more alien (as you would expect from a medieval culture) it sounds, this was written by a buddhist priest from kyoto only eighty years after dogen’s death and is one of the world’s most famous writings, on a par with war and peace, yet zennists never have heard of it, par for the course i’d say with their wilful ignorance

people just play the “ infallible scripture ” game with dogen translations, like what the fuck are you doing pretentious morons ?

i am the synchronous child

synchronous with infinity

it doesn’t mean i find life pleasant

or i am hand in hand with god

all the same i am synchronous

its a gift

i am the synchronous child

synchronous with infinity

it doesn’t mean life is pleasant

or i am hand in hand with god

all the same i am synchronous

its a gift

one of the reasons olivia colman is such a great actress is she doesn’t remember the unecessary which gives her an intense focus on the relevant

effective memory is as much selective forgetting as well as remembering

asinine-ness

there are a clutch of problems like theof liberal arts education in the universities and exorbitant prices being paid for modern art that is rubbish at best that must reflect a common root, but i don’t know what it is

its hard to believethese two “ experts ” have put together

in all the millions of hours of videos or endless pages of nonsense on the web, one hardly ever sees any criticsm of the psychiatric system

the norm is women on ten meds wondering why they have all these systemic health problems and they get really nasty when you throw a bit of information about side effects to them

D.

anitawith“ and the psych ward says ”

ideas about mediums and ghosts are a lot more blurry than people think

because and its easy to see

memory is

eihei blending historicity with fiction

created a conundrum

and trap

for future

generations

i was

never

caught

but

you

maybe

cats recognise the ownership of food by other cats andis signalling that boris “ owns ” that bread

alec guinness onjames dean’s death

doesn’t think you can be happy and write

that’s true, it requires a certain lack of insight to be happy

a generation lost

to war, genocide or famine

and these days drugs

the generations after the next

carry on

as though

nothing happened

check-ups

i don’t think any contact use should be unsupervised in the sense of not having

they are very invasive and more in the nature of a drug than glasses

neither rujing nor dogen advocated “ just sitting ”

its a meiji fascist imperailist construct designed to creat pliant vessels for ultra nationalist dogma

moving the eyes to the extremes, left right, up down and diagonals seems to help with dry eyes, maybe because exercise helps reduce inflammation

other things to look at is the circadian rhythm being out of wack and excessive screen time

i feel like a three year old

at times

why grow up ?

why can’t i sit down and write a nice poem ?

something with cherry blossom

and candyfloss

sweet

and love

keep up the fiction

of life being pleasant fiction

how unreal

“ i’d be some sort of dream or illusion ”

where that came from i don’t know

the brain turns over

and dumps stuff

louise bourgeios (

its about the torment of being an artist

“ the torment, but its absurd, its not a torment to be an artist, the premise is idiotic, is idiotic ”

its not a torment to be an artist its a privilege

my reply

i’m not anything in particular, my torment is always my own

what to do for twelve billion years ?

theof a galaxy

16,000

24/7

“ the calculation itself requiredcores on the hazel hen supercomputer in stuttgart, working together,, for more than a year — the equivalent of fifteen thousand years on a single processor, making it one of the most demanding astrophysical computations to date ”

eihei dogen was certainly ambitious

the buddhism that is not buddism

he is trying without much success to fictionalise the nonsense of buddhism into something that makes sense in a similiar manner to milton, only milton is much more successful

lists “ only ” and “ merely ” i think emily means both words and you actually have two poems

I

L

n this shortife

that only lasts an hour

H

ow much —

how little —

is within our power

I

L

n this shortife

that merely lasts an hour

H

ow much —

how little —

is within our power

hoodwinked with fictions

the fictions hoodwink

priests gain a living and life crawls its deluded way

“ the unsurpassed aspiration for enlightenment ”

dogen spews his delusions

on a high cliff he tosses sincerity over

and makes a religion

“ what is life about ? ”

you have the question, why don’t you have the answer ?

“ i don’t have the answer ”

maybe you didn’t have the question either ?

my reply to emily dickinson’s

you can tell the truth

but catch an ouroboros by the tail

its roughened skin will lacerate

and blood obscure the bail

look forward not behind

look behind, not forward

look

act

look and act

“ my father also said something about his digestive tract being raised up more towards his chest, because of these stomach problems, and that is also why he gets such bad acid reflux

it seems like heartburn, acid reflux, is so common — is that mostly a bad microbiome ? ”

my reply

in large part, but he will also be screwing up the stomach and esophageal physiology with the drinking, quite possibly permanently

not to mention the cancer risk

to me complete abstinence from alcohol requiressupplementation, but this is well beyond most people

even i (who am a teetotaller) doesn’t have an absolute zero consumption, sometimes i add significant amounts of alcohol to cooking

an absolute limit of half a glass of red wine a day is a useful guide for those with a drinking problem, red wine (cabernet sauvignon) is the healthiest form of alcohol, absolutely no spirits and beer can be a problem with its yeast spores

11.30

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the only real routine i have is lights out absolutely rigidly byand going onto red led light and then muck arounddo chores or “ unpack ” my head for about two hours, i sleep late, but really i could move the whole thing forward to “ lights out ” at say ten pm

jason writes

supplements i’ve also lagged behind in, haven’t been able to afford the enzymes — but this past week i have gotten back into krill oil, vitamin D3, vitamin K2, taurine, folapro, and i took germanium once

my reply

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68C

60C

the only enzyme i am using now is thei tip and mix one capsule in milk heated to aboutthen let cool tobefore adding the enzymes

maybe two or three capsules used a week so the cost is not significant

just remember that krill oil, folapro and to a lesser extent vitamin D3 can be quite immune suppressing

yeah germanium can only be taken very occasionally, so again the cost is not significant

taurine has been a life saver for me and migraine

if you are not getting much exercise, lymph movement exercises are easy to do and helpful, i must do a video to show what i mean by this sometime

supplements diet, health, this must be the primary focus and requires ongoing finesse

yeah just focus on job skills, i’d forget the guru thing for quite a while

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you can’t control things completelyall you can do is put things in place and see how it might slowly come together

everyone perceives you a bit differently, but itaccurately and actually your own perception of yourself at the neurological level is surprisingly consonant with this average

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two of the most commercially successful books ever written“ catch 22 ” (catch 18 originally) and “ to kill a mocking bird ” were just as much the products of a very interactive development with their editors as works by their writers

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i don’t think either are what you might call “ great literature ”they are too accomodative to the rather bland thinking of “ the masses ” being in effect communal products and it shows

self-publish

i always find “ editing ” interesting because i have to provide my own though very limited feedback from what iand taking part in message boards

i do think it works, but i don’t expect to ever be commercially successful

cape town where murderers and worse walk free, while a woman whoin a happy environment gets ten years

brain blood flow decreasing with age is the dreadfulof the ceiling

the most dangerous and rather distressing thing about aging is how one falls into repeating patterns

the world moves on, but you don’t

the sea looks calm

why is it that one dodges

from one whirlpool

to the next ?

“ its my baby ”

well its his baby too

“ yes, but its my baby ”

who the hell are you ?

“ some-one else ”

who else ?

“ nobody ”

fat lot of use you are

“ that’s just the way it goes i am afraid ”

gamers

aggressive wimps

one touch in real life and they die

unlike the screen

zen had been reshaped during the meiji era to become a propaganda organ for the extreme nationalists and we know where that went

you can’t understand or have a real feeling for what zen is without going on retreats

the pretenders read rubbish and game and this supposedly is “ zen ”

stick to gaming, it keeps you intellectually downsized

believe what you see and not much else

life is a strange place

it doesn’t work like we think it does

and we want to be aware of what is around us

what is the emptiness that is infinity ?

opo

that slippery fish

frolicking on the shores of the unknown

and killed by the known

time stopped twice for me today

driving up the forth hill amongst all the leafy green

eating at the ‘ charcoal chicken ’ with a rainstorm dropping bucketloads outside

i don’t look for more

why is it so hard to see ?

women appear empty to themselves without occupation

hence the arising of the world’s troubles

alzhiemer’s disease can be driven byof neuroinflammation by gut microbiome dysbiosis

on-line

you go through onesuicide attempt and you will never want any contact with the suicidal again

what isthinking ?

absolutely the weirdest thing on the net is these people who follow me around, violently opposed to anything i say, yet copying me

it is so so disturbing, i really feel life is utterly fucked that this can happen, but history shows this happening all the time

“ i can’t say anything ”

i didn’t say that

what did i say ?

humans work like this

any hint that the way we look at the world is flawed

results in the annihilation of that hint

it used to be, if you scratched a poet you would find tragedy

nowadays you don’t find anything

except

babbled nonsense floating over a serene lanscape

of

vacant

rubble

he can talk

and

talk

and

talk

wisdom dropped

out

of

the bucket

eihei dogen never actually got transmission from rujing, we know this because he tells us

anti-transmission

the transmission document was forged and rujing actually was very, dogen’s version of “ face to face transmission ” is his fictionalisation of what in those times in china was very closely tied to becoming an abbot and having to get the transmission credentials to become abbot

i say underlying

i say overlying

i say infused

say

the mediocrites crawl over each other to suppress you

nothing gives them more joy than to have their hands around your throat and choke you

what is the real purpose of the net ?

a proselytizing platform for drug users ?

sometimes i wonder

the past has occurred

the future has yet to occur

i wouldn’t separate the present from either of these

if you win the game, don’t keep playing it

when you win the game, don’t keep playing it

my thinking on retreats

they push some doctrine on you that the plasticity induced by the retreat makes you susceptible to, it takes twenty to thirty years to get rid of this shit, most never do

it is basically cult behaviour with their hierarchies and behind the scenes promiscuity or worse

it takes a lot of preparation to make the most of a retreat and minimise the indoctrination aspect

i think the thing about a good writer is he doesn’t take life personally, that is so hard for the “ norms ” to understand

there seems to be an expectation that poetry should be easily understandable

however most of the great poets really bend one’s brain, edward lear is a good example of crossover

when you read interviews with good or great writers or their own writings, you see how open minded they can be, they are not trying to impose their view of the world on it

so i got a three day ban on r|poetry for some trumped up idiocy, i notice this with the message boards, you post for a while, the mods are asleep, then you make an impact and they start to curtail you simply because you write effectively

seen it happen so many times

one needs one’s own publishing outlet even though the readers are few

the stupid bastards

the pot calls the kettle black

the kettle calls the pot black

one boils water

the other boils things

even shades of black vary

a retreat is going to be no better than the preparation for it

you need a genuine spirit of inquiry

this can’t be manufactured

or faked

if you do this

wait until the next lifetime

the problem with retreats

is if you read and think junk

you are going to retreat junk

i’m not saying it doesn’t happen anyway

but it needs not to happen completely

the insolent young

pre-prime

in their prime or

everything to look forward to

except getting old

kyrie eleison

i’m not such a hypocrite as to ask for mercy

waller-bridge

actually i thinkhas it right, its a

artistic talent doesn’t confine itself to

“ deep and meaningful ” is an illusion

shallow puddles are fun to splash in, the deep drowns so most don’t go there

the morons only praise what they understand

the beauty

is

doubly

beyond

them

got tired of the usual vapid r|poetry comment

“ beautiful ”

my reply

ugly

beautiful ugly

ugly beautiful

ugly beautiful ugly

ugly ugly beautiful beautiful ugly

beautiful ugly beautiful ugly beautiful ugly ugly

and so on

women don’t change, though the dresses do

victorian/edwardian

the usual no reply, zennists are such cowards, the moment they don’t look so good, you can’t see them for dust

80%

repairing a stove is like building a pc, you coverof the ground of hardware knowledge needed for a general expertise

i think meister eckhart suffers from the usual problem of the religious

he attempts to create a philosophy of mysticsm outside the use of poetic language

it doesn’t work

the necessary bilingualism imposed by latin wouldn’t have helped

you didn’t quote me in full giving a misleading impression, its dishonest, what sort of person has zen made you, a stupid liar ?

there was a very inbred half grown feral kitten hanging around, not thrifty and susceptible to eye infections and being a real pest outside the front door

25

i finally and reluctantly decided to kill it, hitting it hard on the head with a short piece ofmm diameter hardwood dowel

unfortunately it was only momentarily stunned and ran away, i probably would have intially shot it rather than hit it, but i didn’t want to disturb the men across the road in the yards

i found it again later in the day, clearly injured and shot it

in its way, it was a person, it wasn’t its fault and it didn’t understand, not even running away when i found it again

i’ve been shooting feral game for years, never bothered me, this bothered me

i have traumatised myself

sophist-style

these not too bright borderline personality types on net messageboards seem to thinkdeclamations substitute effectively for their failure to address content

what has zen done for them that they come across as not too bright borderline personality types ?

,

when i bail them and othersthey all run away, what is that about ?

,

brad, why not stop treating eihei dogen in the manner of the catholics, that isas a doctor of the church, ie an infallible promoter of the soto doctrine ? allow him to be wrong, off target or underdeveloped, i’m sure he will rest easier and so will you

then speak from your own experience and not be straight jacketed into nonsense

you can’t even be sure what dogen said because the translators are too lazy to any philological work

genuine transmission only occurs once a kalpa, the endless pretenders simply pretend, you bailed out early in the process, i don’t know why

women are stuck with a bit of a hormonal illusion

,

with the approach of menopausethe blinkers come off

the garden of time

out of time

translucent rhododendrons

glistening shrubs

towering gums

the grass

the sea

the mist of cataract

and finally me

in a way i don't think poetry is that interesting, its the experience that gives rise to it that is interesting

alcohol, such a hidden factor in so many drownings

i think almond milk is just a failed milk substitute

creates more problems than it solves, though as these things go, its not too bad

creating explanations

they avoid understanding

the insane

boring work has its advantages, complex work takes too much of your brain

a rounded teaspoon of taurine a day boosts the immune system in a way that is helpful with shingles

40%

also puttinghydrogen peroxide on the first signs of an outbreak works

there’s so much random shit going on in my mind it makes

me wonder

randomly

about

random shit

the fallacy of soto zen

is that eihei dogen’s words represent an objective philosophy

that can be learnt

and that’s the end of the matter

but all that is the case is some views fit reality better

than others

its up to us to come up with our own philosophy

and observations that fit us

eihei was creating a religion

a failed religion

why should we do that ?

when some-one else is dying

there is always an element of

i’m not dying, you are

ha ha

ein sof

a kabbalist rinzai zen master

he runs away when i corner him

but he comes out with a big stick when i say something new

hits himself with it

then dies

if you’re locked into dealing with some-one you don’t trust, its important not to slip by familiarity into trusting them

the problem with writing better is you realise a lot of your earlier stuff was just preparatory to “ writing better ”

it can be hard lesson, but there’s a disproportionate number of “ not mentally right ” people on the net nothing like what you would ever meet in real life, just don’t engage them, my god they are bruising

eihei dogen was actually very much a philosopher, people brush that aspect under the carpet

zazen will not make you think straight, what it shows you are your “ theory of minds ”

you have to engage the philosophical aspect which means being a philosopher yourself and not simply a regurgitant of the usual pap

drug use seems to inevitably create (for those round them to put up with) a very wearing narcissism

old thoughts circle around and around

and

never come to ground

old thoughts circle round

and

never come to ground

the information on the web these days is so good its reasonable for a doctor to expect patients to research whatever medications or aliment they have

99.9%

yetof people on a prescription would never haved looked up its side effects

god said “ let there be reality ”

reality said “ let there be god ”

fair enough said god

reality blithely went on its way

poor males, their orgasms so meagre compared to the female one has to wonder why

all their lives as slaves in service to this

the principle problem we have as biological beings is not that of getting enough food or being killed or reproducing, but that of not misinterpreting the world

the world is unstable and generates its own misinterpretation constantly

women more than men are always chasing something

they scarcely stop, even on their last breath

how dangerous are bored women ?

can you get more dangerous ?

a poem should be a distillation of meaning and expressing something that can’t be said any other way

divorce or breakups, all you have to do is sit back and watch her go through the “ boyfriends ” and you realise it was nothing personal

old thoughts

circling around

and never landing

free verse

no verse

obverse

lewis said

take care of the sense

and the sounds will take care of themselves

the world is a mentalist construction

an illusory explanation imposed on a different working substrate

all the same there is no bottom turtle and the impostion may reflect the substrate better than the substrate

if you can’t win in real life, you can win in fantasy

the essene

we live our lives on this gilded path

only if we look closely

its not so gilded

how much poetry matches the usual spruik ?

very little

“ you should give a talk ”

i’m not very good at guarding my tongue

“ perhaps you better not then ”

all the fakes

promote rumi

bad poetry

by and for the crazy

immaturity i think is more adventurous than maturity

life is the other side of suicide

the wrong side

why should i talk to you lot ?

you’ll just give me grief

you’ll discover what i really think and hate me for it

self-limiting

if the nature of conciousness is high entropy, then its inherentlyand dissolutive

multi-lingual

my objection to beingis its a huge tax andwith high entropy on the brain

there is nothing special about a language, ideas can be expressed in any langauge, that is all there is to it

the largest cultural influence today is the spread of english and its “ universalization ”

what amazes me about the middle east is how many closed sectarian worlds form that last a huge number of generations

the religious straight jacket medieval art was constrained by creates a perverted view of reality

fuck you, cimabue, giotto

most people who write poetry are not cut out for it

even some of the famous

the public love junk

“ for love ” i have ever seen

when you are ill

things slow down

you can’t do much

in that space

things open up

re-evaluate

there’s a sort of objectivity that springs from bitterness

there’s a sort of even mindedness that springs from bitterness

what willdo ?

they will pass quick enough

i think “ supercompetence ” is when you get to be able to take anything said in the subject of interest and extemporise on it or correct it

no-one

when i climbed uluru/ayeres rock there waselse on it, winds were very high and i jumped the fence, but actually its not that great, i preferred the olgas which had that mystical aura, ayres rock didn’t do anything for me

re : the banning on climbing it

the whole circus will play out

poeple getting guided on it for vast sums

young men doing it for the thrill

the local businesses losing considerable income and resenting it

just here

sitting

feeling like i am cacking out

what can i do

nothing

but wait it out

just here

sitting

feeling like i am cacking out

what can i do

nothing

doctors with a good bedside manner are not necessarily competent and doctors with a poor beside manner can be extremely competent

women seem to be somewhat blind to this dichotomy and strongly favour a good bedside manner to their detriment

bob dylan was such an outside choice for the nobel prize for literature you have to wonder why

well it turns out that at least two of the committee members had been betting indirectly through others on the winner for many years, knowing of course the outcome beforehand

bob dylan was such an outlier with poor odds that they made a real killing

funny how that never came through the media isn’t it

low probability winners explains most of the winners in the recent decade

well, giving such a big kitty away you’d want a share in it wouldn’t you ?

people don’t get the fundamental fact of web publishing

that there is no cost to more content

,

of course, what that “ more ” isrequires skill and measure

blythe baird reading“ the kindest thing she almost did ”

non-singular

the point about “ singularities ” in phsyics is that thesystems really at the heart of the matter haven’t been discovered or elucidated yet

the most interesting problem of the “ universe ” is how such a functional set of laws and epistemology of matter was arrived at

co-herence,

we know from biology that really the only explanation is evolution acting on many possibilities and since there is tautologically no “ god ” at this level of semantic pragmaticthis theory ofmay provide an explanation

that in this period you had possibilities for laws and simultaneous selection

“ reheating ” allows for an existant universe

you know you have a bad virus when you don’t get out of your pajamas

the universal nature of viruses is astounding

postedand i have the same thing, its no doubt come down finally here from the very bad mainland flu season

sounds like i still have some days to go

fuck it

i fixed an overwide stove contact yesterday by clamping it closed while annealing it with a gas torch, one can still make progress apparently while ill

life is a mess

we are profligate with our prime

then

its

over

we are well designed for short and even long periods of starvation, an exceptional evolutionarily designed ability

if i feel ill or have a migraine, i just fast

whales have huge brains, why were they so vulnerable to whalers ?

all they had to do was swim horizontally underwater away from the whalers, yet for the lack of this several species were driven almost to extinction

writing creates a world

what

is

that

world ?

writing creates a world

what is

that

world ?

writing creates a world

what is

that world ?

writing creates a world

what is that world ?

1

“ bitching behind people’s backs ” the no.new zealand trait, first thing you notice is the knife between your ribs, for a small country the power politics are quite russian

sadly konrad marchaj/ ryushin has not got any less crazy since being expelled as a heretic from the zen monastery at mt. tremper

showed him that zen was all bullshit, but he just seems to have fallen into another form of bullshit

depressing

you’d think life has enough mental illness, but no, the web has more﻿

i twigged toof titanium dioxide as food additive years ago

go fuck your gut all the creepy “ all approved additives are ok ” idiots

“ TiO2 significantly impacts gut homeostasis

These changes were associated with colonic inflammation, as shown by decreased crypt length, infiltration of CD8+ T cells, increased macrophages as well as increased expression of inflammatory cytokines.

These findings collectively show that TiO2 is not inert, but rather impairs gut homeostasis which may in turn prime the host for disease development ”

a gamer

on the net

doyen of digital constructs

emperor of whatever world

when they come to using english

they are muddled

can't think straight

reason beyond attitude

step out of their hubristic selves

emperor of what world ?

scientology has a belief system, sacred texts, a prophet, a hierarchy, a methodology, gatherings

i can’t see how you can’t say its a religion

scientology has a belief system, sacred texts, a prophet, a hierarchy, a methodology, gatherings

i really can’t see how you can say its not a religion

an interestingon the anime industry with real japanese people

if you are not careful, you can develop a general content problem on the web, seeing too much crazy bullshit, there’s a sane world out there if you can recognise it

the net disguises crazy people, its difficult to tell in writing

life-sense

you really have to be careful of getting involved with r|zen, the effect of the censorship is insidious, you start to narrow your horizons because that's what the censorship is doing, like i notice now i am getting back much more into poetry which is healthy and i am thinking straighter in abecause of not posting there anymore

the plus side of r|zen is it keeps really toxic arseholes out of one’s hair, i have banned most of them fromotherwise the place would be overrun with those turds

r|zen is useful in learning about dealing with the insane, but the other side is you get too bruised and constricted by them, its damaging

one day you realise

not everybody looks at reality the same way

in fact

the difference

is unfathomable

if i let the whole world go

where am i

going ?

if i let the whole world go

where am i

meandering ?

the special effects are into the hackneyed clichéd plot only retards could be happy with

today’s audience i am afraid

religion is the attempt to make literature real

this it effectively does by excommuncation, execution, torture, estrangement, insanity, ostracism, gaslighting — it gets very real

“ a hallmark ofis the tendency to individuate members of one’s own group but process members of other groups categorically ”

stone don’t lie

you can see the grey layer of thecretaceous-palaeogene boundary towards the top of the photo

repair is actually the highest benefit form of recycling

brad warner is obsessed with wanting to counter some trends in western buddhism

my reply to him

some of the commentersoccasionally act like they own this blog and want to control it in a way that would be appropriate to their owning the blog, only its yours and not theirs

you don’t think you are trying to do the same thing to buddhism ?

how many versions of christianity are there and have there been ?

thousands i would guess, interestingly some of the modern variants owe quite a bit to the rewriting of christianity by john milton and actually islam is a rewriting of nestorian christianity

because religions are just the pretence of random nonsense being meaningful, then they are always going to schism in their search for deeper meaning

if western buddhism is looking for deeper meaning in modern academic and populist political paradigms now sexual abuse is no longer permissible how can an individual try to control that ?

why would they want to ?

buddhism

as empty

as the air

buddhism, as empty as the air

buddhism

as empty

as air

buddhism, as empty as air

what is this describing ?

five-fold

four-fold

two-fold

“ the increased risk ranged from aincrease in alzheimer’s disease, through an approximatelyincrease in motor neurone disease, to aparkinson’s disease in former professional xyzers compared to population controls ”

hard to believe but

of course the senior management are already demented so there will be no rule changes until the sport has significantly lost new enrollments

unlike american football which is an unabashed gladiator sport so the players are disposable

blue light has a neurological and systemic

are vegans more likely to get cancer ?

T-cells need a lot of energy to defeat fast growing cancers and in fact are in competition with the tumor cells for “ metabolic fuel such as glucose, amino acids, and lipids, which can be limiting ”

T-cells

high-energy

is a critical molecule buffering ATP levels in cancer-targeting CD8through maintaining a readily availablephosphate reservoir ”

religion can never go anywhere because its foundations are insane

religion can never go anywhere because its foundations are insanity

its interesting that jesus is mythical andis not

however the bible take on him may have some justice though he seems a thoughtless man, but the romans in some degree appeased the temple cult

jason writes

i was going to message ice poseidon on twitter

500

30,000

ice is struggling now withviewers — yeah he was getting aboutlast year

ice is a big fan of lil uzi vert — i was going to message him on twitter pointing out that lil uzi vert doesn’t make music anymore, that the drugs and the girls caught up to him

well i didn’t message him because i’m taking my own advice not giving unsolicited advice

i’ve done some drugs too, not hard drugs like ice and lil uzi have — but what i think has let me survive is not having a girlfriend, which they both had

even worse for them their girlfriends were toxic

over-developed

technology has meant there is an unparalleledof the past occurring, way more coherent and accurate than was ever previously possible so in a sense we have annotion of the certainty of time

lana del ray

i think i’d be happy doing anything at this point

cort johnson

ever dug a ditch ?

lana

some-one

that’s the whole point of being a woman,else digs the ditch and she pushes him in and another man covers the first with dirt

twenty percent of people prescribed opiates become addicted

hmm, according to, its better to be single in than in anything less than a high quality relationship

WW2

russo-japanese

the most amazing thing about the japanese effort in, was that such a small country was soto fight thewar again

that’s a lot of hardware and lives at the bottom of the ocean

viggo mortensenfor using the “ n-word ”

n-word

let me use the

nigger, nigger, nigger

no-one is going to give me the slightest attention, not a tweet or net comment

i feel inadequate

7th patriarch is i keep coming across things that fit, otherwise i would ditch it, its not that important to me

6th

i was working through the implications of shakyamuni buddha being a synthetic myth and not a real historical figure and i realised that in fact since he is not historical and buddhism does depend on him being historical whatever they say, then zen which is essentially a deconstruction of buddhism no longer has a purpose, for it to be meaningful it must move to a broader contemporary deconstruction which in fact i do and always have done, therefore i am the patriarch of this new zen which fits with a jump from thepatriarch to me

in previous generations it was just entertainment

faux-spiritual

now its theplus entertainment

disgusting

“ my girlfriend has a reoccurring dream where she is in a hotel floating around, she feels bewildered and confused, she will try and find her room but she doesn’t know why she is looking for her room or where it even is, she just knows she needs to find it, something she had yet to do

every now and again she will be looking for the toilet in the hotel instead but just like the room, she is yet to find it

the hotel doesn’t always look the same ”

you’re the wrong room, wrong hotel even

“ there was one bit in chapter fourteen of the martyrdom ofthat i just had to sit there and ask “ why does this sound like the christians are wanting to eat polycarp after he was killed ? ”

chapter twelve said that when polycarp was burning alive, he smelled like bread being baked in an oven

it then spoke in chapter fouteen of christians coming to partake, or share in, or commune with, the corpse of polycarp, following his death by being stabbed after not dying from burning alive ”

its not unknown in some religions for a revered person to be eaten when they die

,

the story sounds like some mythic amalgambut the eating of polycarp may well relate to some religion there

creepy-crawley

a downvote is way more successful than an upvote, you have offended the usual reddit

poor sylvia

the poppies flare

the cornflowers blaze

but

no-one

was

prepared

to

help

her

don’t be fooled by other people’s stupidity

downvotes on reddit are like a bluffing bid in a card game, you call it by not paying it any attention and since they never show their hand by replying, you have shown their hands to be valueless

pre-raphaelites

there’s a lot of videos on the web of interviews with performers of some sort or other, actors, actresses, various artists, writers, people may be intelligent but they usually lack real artistic insight, the few that have that insight stick out, like emma thompson picking up onwho is a very interesting intersection of theor like tracey emin who can

there’s so many of the intelligent, but they are just too ordinary, kate beckinsdale and the like, faux abnormal but so shackled by the chains of convention and appearance

you wouldn’t believe it,by lewis carroll of effie, john millais and their daughters

you can’t change that amountwithout getting a disease of sorts

time will show

rumi

a dreamer

fake worlds

without substance

jason writes

i’m way more cautious giving unsolicited advice now

why empower my enemies ?

what stands out to me is the lack of useful help sylvia plath ever got, a needy woman with two young children and everyone just walked away

be careful about other people’s opinions on your weight, the fat want everybody else to be fat

overweight people complain about being socially ostracised, but what they don’t get it is it is a disease state

the one time in my life i effectively did an extended water fast was as a young adult with a persistent flu and it was for maybe a bit more than week from what i can remember

i was in bed all that time and the flu cleared up

i doubt i am ever going to do an extended fast again because that was an unusually bad flu and i don’t need to loose weight, the real value of an extended fast is the research shows that you need to do this to lose substantial amounts and keep it off, ie a drastic remedy for what the research (again) shows is a disease state

the other benefit of extended fasting is cellular rejuvination at the stem cell level, but i don't think i would ever be bothered to go to the trouble of fasting for that, though who knows

so for extended fasting i have very limited experience and i was ill as well, one does become weaker which is what you would expect

,

if you were fasting when you were basically well, i suspect you would try to keep doing as much as possible in terms of living “ the daily life ”but i can’t really comment as i have never done that

gutting a wallaby

the feral cats

a sea of fur

gutting a wallaby

feral cats around

a sea of fur

i make a poem

one line

and

word

at

time

social learning has a bad obverse

a bunch of useless attitudes that come from quite an empty space

every second hubric idiot

writes poetry

i couldn’t say it was bad

you have

to

read

it

first

chris isaak feat and lana del rey sing

nothing fits

i am outside the world

madonna in the snow

christ in the desert

contradictions abound

time has passed before i began

i rock into the void

from johann goethe i quite like

we do not have to visit a madhouse to find disordered minds; our planet is the mental institution of the universe

what youfrom cats

if you are a very big dinosaur, one of your problems is gettingfrom the hot sun

OP

the surest way to get andownvoted on reddit is make a criticism of marijuana use

the pestilence of drug users apart from the incompetence, thievery, lying and hassle they spread everywhere is their insatiable missionizing

because knowledge about the writer informs the reading and enriches the associations, the academic notion that reading a text is independent of knowledge about the author is the stupidest fallacy one could imagine and symptomatic of the very deep hole of incompetence that university studies of literature have fallen into

however there is a case for the writer himself not being completely informed, or even mistaken about his or her’s own work

so readers of a work, you are potentially up there with the author in making informed criticsm and interpretations of the work

in micesays that the genetic aspects of the innate and adaptive immune systems are the dominant “ controllers ” of the microbiome

“ when the researchers looked into how these different immune mechanisms shaped the microbiomes of the recipient mice, the researchers saw that while adaptive immunity had some effect on certain strains of bacteria, overall the effects were not dramatic

in some cases, bacteria even took advantage of the adaptive immune response to thrive

MHC

instead, the majority of the differences they saw could be attributed to innate polymorphic genes, or different variations of genes in the

laser pointersto the retina

there’s a lot of art by “ the insane ” on the web, some of it is very good, well executed technically and highly involved, but i would have to say these works lack thematic depth, unlike anne sexton or sylvia plath

virginia woolf had relatively clear divisions between her periods of sanity and insanity, but she said that she got a lot of insight from her insane periods

this woman known for the strength of her swimming having to load a coat with stones so she would drown in the river ouse

i wonder if modern psychiatric medications have meant no more poets like

anne and sylvia, that raw overt suicidality

or would they have passed their lives in a talentless marijuana haze ?

edit : since what i wrote is being misinterpreted let me say i’m implying the medication itself and reduced suicidiality lessens or annihilates the quality of the poetry that a different and talentless trajectory is created that a different and talentless trajectory is created

sylvia

she can’t put a toothbrush in a poem

still not a poem

poor woman she sounds like she is breaking up

the bestof a cutting edge i have ever seen

“ everything is of preference and poetry is no exception ”

the problem is the limitation of our own preference

its like a wall we cannot see, but hides so much beyond it

i think a consumer might look at poetry in terms of like or dislike, but i look for new ideas and expression ability

so i never run out of reading since the above is infinite, what is short is the time in my life

,

an inexpensiveway better than the usual costly rubbish, written with sensitivity by greta nash

quality can have an inverse relation to the budget

so i’m gonna be weird again, or what some people might find weird

i went to bed early with a migraine almost cleared up, but not dropping off to sleep and had this vision

dali-esque

a woman partly? clothed in a pleated?/sere? /flowing/robe with a naked baby or young child just sort of floating in front of her and she also floating above some sort of deck or platform high up in a mountain, possibly surrounded by snow laden firs

it looked down (from very high up) on an unfrozen lake and on further behind the lake, snow covered mountains extending forever

i wonder if this is something to do with the migraine, a flood of chemicals through the brain ?

this is what mysticism is, a momentary yet paradoxically timeless glimpse of a more intense, true world, without them you will never understand, but deny and make pathetic incoherent images in the dust which is what the pretenders do

they have no certainty, only visions provide certainty

,

i couldn’t make up this stuff if i tried, i can see where some of the imagery came from, mountain photos and videos, my own travels, renaissance ‘ madonna and child ’ art and dali’s ‘ the madonna of port ligat ’of which (dali’s) it can be seen somewhat as a correction of, more unitary

just when you think you will be migraine-free for the rest of your life

the thunder rolls in

not epilepsy

not dementia

just pain

to write good stuff

you have to escape the trajectory of the mediocre

which crowds down on you

for escaping

polymath is another name

for

getting spread too thin

the maoris

a sea people

traversing from the glistening tropics

to a rather cooler land

not quite at home

i’m never going to write another homily or poem

i have more important things to do

so i write another homily or poem

sad

emily sails on a breeze of thought

of summer’s highs and winter’s troughs

the empyreal and her garden

one wonders exactly where is she ?

ed. this came to mind on reading her poem “ as imperceptibly as grief ”

emily sails on a breeze of thought

of summer’s highs and winter’s troughs

the empyreal and her garden

where is she ?

poetry is simple

you are just knitting a bunch of associations together

now comes the hard part

unconciously

the world makes sense in terms of “ the prime ”

once you edge out of the prime

it

doesn’t

he asks for a poem about schizophrenia

show me one

without ?

it damaged me to read that poem

the writer of course

oblivious

the writer asked for more explanation so i followed with saying it had bad imagery

basically it doesn’t say anything, its a mess and its not really a poem

a good poem should attract under its own power even if you don’t fully understand it

there’s a difference between a mess and something that has power, but is not understandable

a poem should have a holistic entity

it really helps to read a lot of well known poets

i don’t think you ever reach a ceiling in writing because it is content driven and as we know, semantics just goes on and on, but you can’t step outside semantics

its the denial of the literary nature of religion that astounds me, people making life choices on the script of what is bad soap opera

bene navigavi cum naufragium feci

my life was wonderful except for the disasters

its interesting to compare heidegger with

one a dull murderous and completely obscure pedant

the other gentle in his skepticisms and understandable

which one does the academic philosophy world prefer ?

no surprise is it ?

to argue about the interpretation of a translation is to argue about the interpretation of an interpetation

those who just do not or will not get the problem step into mental illness

what might be arguably the world’s most famous poem — “ i wandered lonely as a cloud ” by willam wordsworth owed an awful lot to his sister’sof the walk by the lake in question

,

interestingly at the spot he is talking about (glencoyne bay, ullswater)the daffodils are now of a variety that is coloured differently, who knows what happened there

ullswater from gowbarrow

under-replying ?

is complaining about overthinking, over or

under-replying ?

is complaining about overthinking over or

is complaining about overthinking, underthinking ?

is complaining about overthinking, overthinking ?

,

all the world is a vastbadly behaved stupidity

it doesn’t work the way we require it

i’m not sure that’s a stupidity

i think writing is the integration of a lifetime

it is not necessarily a forward progression in time

wolfgang goethe does not come across as that likeable as a person, but when he writes, there’s some magic that is difficult to explain

i always find tracy emin an education

donna summer “ i feel love ” , the start

the way its mixed, the voice comes through better with headphones

giorgio moroder

the world turnsand just generates more of itself

cocks love vaginas

vaginas love cocks

between the two

what will happen ?

servants of a deep drive

lives

are changed

or

not ?

ed. i wrote the first four lines and then went for my two hour afternoon sleep thinking i might just repeat those lines with the obvious inversion, but when i woke up the other lines came out making quite a different poem

you can think things

that to say them

would cause trouble

the madmen of r|zen

in their psychward subreddit

not quite a horde

they just behave like it

there is one beside me

outside of me

inside of me

i don’t know who that is

what i have noticed is that writers in any language all pretty much sound the same

its just that way of looking at things

reflective, discursive, questioning, skeptical, ironic

on the one hand you need to focus to get anything done

on the other if you don’t look around you will get eaten by what you are not paying attention to

you don’t think the roots of the “ opiate crisis ” are in people proxying their health entirely over to medications and not paying any attention to diet, exercise and learning to think for themselves

that this “ crisis ” has its roots in a deeper social failure, not the least of which is the education system ?

the full moon

the forests

the mists on the flats

the circle goes around again

but i no longer engage it

the full moon

the forests

the mists on the flats

the circle goes around again

but i don’t engage it

the first line of sylvia plath’s poem “ apprehensions ”

there is this white wall, above which the sky creates itself — infinite, green, utterly untouchable. angels swim in it, and the stars, in indifference also

my reply

were the angels that indifferent ?

they loved you, but a female mind bent on its imperatives placed you beyond them

a wider, more sceptical reading would have helped

last night, on going to bed i had a sorta hypnagogic vision

25

as clear as daylight i saw an asian/egyptian? face/head, male but somewhat androgynous, good looking maybeor so with a mole or piercing on the left side of his face, i had the impression of a past time and religious context

where did it come from ?

its was strikingly original, a “ meta ” synthesis, not something i would have cooked up in a million years, yet obviously it had come from me

its was a startling synthesis but i can see its origins in watching a video that day of figuring out if a woman was asian or not and other experience garnered over much longer time, but there’s part of my brain that’s hidden to me that has far greater competence than i am aware of

later that night i had a dream involving me being threatened by

its like digging up an overgrown garden

going back through the past

figuring out what was significant

or why

its like digging up an overgrown garden

going back through the past

figuring out what was significant

and what wasn’t

what amuses me about cardinal pell’s trial and appeals for paedophile offences is the way his very expensive defense team is convinced of his guilt and doesn’t hide their opinion

the vatican must have been crazy to send him back to australia and he had done them a big favour with his work on the vatican finances

1843

cardinal john henryconverted to catholicism about, roman catholicism was by then on a surge of the wave of homosexuality leading to it becoming dominant in the church rather than the token celibacy and de facto marriages of the catholic clergy for most of its history

so he’s now a saint. a productive competent man, but only the homosexuality can explain the insanity of his life, which from that point of view is not insane at all

this is not to be taken as a diatribe against homosexuality, but an exposition of the substantial change in the character of the roman catholic church which is now in disarray, run by old men unable to adapt without any competent younger men like newman coming through because their doctrine is so out of sync with the modern world

the only type of thinking i am any good at is that which the world works to crush out in you any suspicion that it has any value

the only type of thinking i am any good at is that which the world works to crush out any suspicion in you that it has any value

i don’t think really good poems make sense

i noticed that with emily dickinson

you can pull the poem apart

but the bits don’t add up to what it means

HELP

“needsearching for a dark/creepy/haunting/sad short poem ”

he wants a creepy

haunting

dark

sad

poem

he just wrote it

as you get older, nostalgia

is

an

insidious

disease

if we look at the way reality really works compared

to how it paints itself as working

the disjunction therein

what does it mean ?

nothing satisfies or is without flaws that turn it inside out

the causes of autoimmune dry eye disease

as an inflammatory response neutrophils extrude strands of DNA to form webs on the surface of eyes affected by dry eye disease

,

ACPA

in thisthe researchers identifieds (anti-citrullinated protein autoantibodies) as another cause of eye inflammation that also contributes to the development of these webs in a vicious cycle of inflammation

,

near death experiences

unconciousness andare meaningless states

the best that can be said of intelligence is he/she is quite smart about somethings and quite stupid about others

the schizophrenia of the world

re-made

everythingin its own image

typhoons, versus hurricanes versus cyclones

different names for almost the same thing in

i really find tracey emin good value,, she has a good understanding, drawers likecan’t understand the difference between her and them, their technical competence and not much else versus her intellectuality

the thing about history

is it extends your range of experience

not what happened just yesterday or last week or ten years ago

but a thousand years ago

you get a skepticism

borne of long experience

i cannot conceive

of a need

to go “ sit ” with people

“ wrong-mindedness ”

edit : well, this is what i did when i started zen and it improved my social skills which were in need of it, but after a while the generalof people becomes an impediment, unpleasant and a drag

you outgrow them and they don’t outgrow you

the moonlit landscape seems truer than in daylight

the colours and textures

all

gone

washed out

there’s nothing really

is this the way things are ?

this cup or that cup

long lists of names or teams

neatly printed on varnished wooden panels

in the school hall

1925

back toand earlier

it meant something for a while

but not now

surrogate-ness

“ fans ” don’t seem to be bothered by theof it all

what peter hanke

in a good way, not only in a bad way i was astonished, it was very courageous of the swedish academy, this kind of decison

what he really meant

i’m surprised they gave the nobel prize to a genocidal slav fascist

well done nobel prize committee, from the frying pan into the fire

some-one

well at least this time they gave it tointerested in the prize, their usual pattern of choosing slightly better than mediocre writers of some public standing is the only continuity

2015

once they warm up, thisof peter and win wenders is better

the whole thing about “ the spiritual path ” is you are building something, but its also native

it has to match reality, but reality isn’t sufficient so it also has to be built in the imagination

this is where just about everybody goes wrong, they either import some communal fictional trash and so get beaten to death by those idiocies or they create their own schizophrenic structures completely untested in terms of internal consistency or fitting “ reality ”

when people are antagonistic towards you

all you can do is step away

and

let

them burn uselessly

IOL

’s are, there’s always problems with prosthetics, these opthamologists recommending lens replacement with minimal cataract to eliminate the inconvenience of glasses are misguided at best and mercenary at worst

the vast majority of people with digestive problems don’t want to get into the real complexity of resolving them

,

there arebut its a lifetime’s work to sort out, that’s the reality

the other road is malnutrition, cancer, nasty gut operations and bad med side effects, a road which by default most seem to want to take rather than think and experiment

SCD

the education system has created a mindset of oversimplified “ packaged ” solutions with no mental effort required, i remember elaine gottschall saying that she wouldn’t have framed thethe way she did, but a more complex approach wasn’t palatable

past life’s prime

don’t let me whine

i don’t have the energy

my voice sounds crackly

my smile lacks teeth

or should i say “ grimace ” rather

beauty is for the young

narcissism needs roots

to want to repeat itself

we the fading

only want to fade

one thing about the insane i have noticed is they never tire of each other’s company

where am i ?

nowhere

watching the sea

it rolls over me

being in the prime of life is one perspective

not being in the prime of life is another

which is truer ?

just goes to show that truth isn’t everything

or is it ?

if you read the whole bible including the apocrypha its obviously a literary work with interspersed and difficult to discern factuality that modern archeology is helping uncover

i don’t think you can read the whole bible and remain christian, which is of course, why they never do

umm, poetry is “ the dismal art ”

there’s nothing necessarily wrong with using clichés in poetry, but they should be “ embedded ” so to speak and contribute positively to the overall meaning

vanity publishing

the million speaking like the million

give me

the

solitary

longish retreats like the zen seven day “ sesshin ” will be too traumatic if jumped into without any prior experience

i had at least nine months of doing a weekly group “ sit ” of an hour and a half’s zazen before doing my first sesshin and that background made the retreat very productive

,

i’m not a believer in the soto line of doing endless retreatsrather they have something to teach you which you should be able to pick up on

the major problem with retreats is the way the organising groups use the opportunity to “ imprint ” participants with whatever doctrine they are promoting, the only real protection against this is wide reading of quality literature

if something seems paradoxical or inconsistent to you, search for the underlying rationality, it will surprise you

writing to some extent is a remedy for the impairedof schizophrenia which explains why so much of the net and writing is outright crazy

impaired brains scribing the same useless circles over and over again

tell me oh moon what should i do ?

“ where i shine i shine ”

“ tell me oh moon what should i do ? ”

where i shine i shine

there’s some really good qualityaround, but its laying waste generations intellectually

you see it all over the web, entitled idiots who can’t think their way out of what ever jejune immersive worlds they crib their life experience from

,

you learn something new everyday

sometimes i feel a million miles away from any poetry writing space

then something comes along

not this time

i’m always impressed by how much competentsits within the walls of the british museum

from crocodile mummies to cuneiform andhistory

he wakes to dream

and dreams to wake

men are less concious of gender than women

to their disadvantage

there is something that is all

and is not

how can that be ?

i don’t feel comfortable

taking charge

of anything

“ a good way to avoid getting into arguments is remember, you cannot argue with stupid

you cannot change peoples minds, and also ask yourself do you really want to be a broken record and keep repeating yourself ?

do you really want to argue with someone stupid ?

do you really want to argue with someone who can't be bothered to be listening and just keep twisting what you are saying and putting words in your mouth ?

this thinking has saved me from internet drama and kept me out of trouble ”

my re-translation of the poem ‘ during sleep ’ by michizō tachihara

the moon is shining through the window

and my room otherworldly still

(yes, that’s how it was)

in the moonlight a bird is flapping its wings

scattered pollen glistens.

then, pulling my black cap back over my brow,

i slowly looked

somehow i'd been dreaming

(i know)

my reply

he wakes a dream

a dream he wakes

reggie ray gets

why these people line up to give their lives away to frauds i do not know, the real work is unpalatable to them and they only validate the sort of crap reggie goes in for and then years later they complain, not of having being duped, but being discarded as oppositional or no longer useful

cults are dependent on their real organisational dynamics being concealed and the net with its easy publishing of grievances is breaking that concealment down

the most fundamental question is “ why ? ”

why is there a “ beyond ” from which perspective everything makes a sense that eludes us in our day to day lives

why is there a magical reality beyond of which we are some fragmented vision ?

why ?

one hundred million

about how many wrong ideas i accumuluate over a lifetime

one million

about how many i sort out

nanoparticle andthey pay to get !

ikkyū sōjun wasn’t a buddhist and in fact was celibate up until about thirty

he was an iconclast and artist/writer in the context of buddhism which is quite different from “ believer ”

he was rejecting zen in favour of art and life and again you have to be careful of western cultural biases in translations of his poetry

zen is mostly fakes and stupids, then as now

you can sorta see how jorge luis borges’ short storyinfluenced gabriel garcía márquez’s “ one hundred years of solitude ” and even possibly chris van allsburg’s “ jumanje ”

“ ell emm ” has a nice reading voice, the music could be more muted in relation to the voice

two very good lucille ball skits, several videos on from the start of the first video, two women in pink wrapping sweets on a production line, then the next video where lucille is the “ vitamin and vegamin girl ” slowly getting drunk on the alcoholic content of the elixir

thereally gives another visual dimension

we live a dream

a flickering film of past events

real and imagined

somehow

we

think

this

is life

writing is a form of thinking so even if nobody else reads it, it still provides value

upvotes and downvotes on reddit are not symmetrical

if you are upvoting you are saying its substantially right so further comments are to a certain extent superfluous

OP

downvotes however are a bluff because you have not said what the problem is with theor comment you are downvoting

OP

if the commenter orignores you by not mentioning the downvotes then he’s called your hand and if you don’t comment then its a fair inference you have nothing to show

there’s a lot happening in supposedly quiet shadows

“ spandex ” is an anagram of the word “ expands ”

why i think “ enlightenment ” is only available to celibates

because essentially it is a massive insight, then you are faced with the problem of distinguishing it from “ ordinary ” insight

its that the enlightenment experience traverses you through an infinity of worlds and all time, so how would you get that ?

its the meshing of us being in a restricted form of infinite reality with life that is quite meaningless in conventional terms, ie childless

its particularly empty vacant lives tipped by the difference into infinity

that’s really what is a bit special about people like eihei dogen

i have to say its very rare, zen today is a transmission of fakes

migraine with aura

the “ upset circuitry ” in the brain must be very spatially localised

it always amazes me with artists, musicians, writers and composers how they can have deep deep talents in some areas, preternatural almost and be so away with the fairies in others, especially the semantic intellectual

it amazes me with artists, musicians, writers and composers how they can have deep deep talents in some areas, preternatural almost and be so away with the fairies in others, especially the semantic intellectual

ISIS

re-invention

if you look at islam in terms of culture and society,is not islam at all, but ain the mould of the cultural revolution and stalinism

to watch artists like tracey emin talking about themselves and their work can be a massive shortcut to upgrading your social sophistication and skills

100

five minutes of watchingyears of gaming

its the nature of politics to go through extremes and if the system is functional, recover

so i was in town yesterday (saturday) for my fortnightly shopping trip and always the big problem is getting a decent lunch without additives or wheat flour

that rules out any pies, macdonalds, subway and just about everything else actually

however there was a coffee shop that i have never been to that also sells restaurant type meals so i waited till the crowds had left (the best places are always busy) and had a lunch of too much chicken, with deliberately burnt cauliflower and raw spinach leaves

the cauliflower was actually tender and the three or four spinach leaves i ate were palatable, though i wasn’t game to eat all of them

i left one piece of chicken uneaten as the serving was too large and would have to say that wasn’t a bad lunch and i feel better today for it, rather than ingesting who knows what modified food and additives

i may go again

people would have a lot less trouble with islam if they understood it was a form of nestorian christianity designed to solve some of the theological problems with trinitarian christianity

muhammad being only a prophet and not god himself does offer a theological route out of very thorny woods, unfortunately in practice he becomes the only avenue to god which brings back the usual problems

st. francis who had travelled in islamic culture had a very high opinion of islam

cosmopolitan-ness

in my view the islam we see today is somewhat a twentieth century reinvention, and lacks the subtlety andof the islam that maintained the social fabric of great empires

i can see i am a bit schizophrenic because of the extraordinary effort i have to go to to untangle the mistakes in my thinking

if i didn’t do that i would be in some shoddily constructed la la land

one of the advantages of “ lifetime ” employment as a librarian for philip larkin was it enabled the poetic “ observational mode" outside working hours which he employed with his usual

the downside is that he never really had the time or interest to explore the areas of life that would eventually kill him, his drinking and general diet and health and somewhat toxic social and sexual life

lana del ray is interesting, some-one that transits in and out of commercial competence, veers between train wrecks and the truely lyrical

thisdoesn’t work, whatever “ creative advice ” she uses is hopeless, she is all the talent that is around her, she should trust her own thinking more

of course the truth could be sadder, she is trusting her own thinking

i’m not sure jordan perterson is not insane

if i have tosomething more than three times i throw it away as not being right in the first place

“ there’s something to say ”

what ?

“ the problem is its best not said to people ”

yes, that is a problem

10,000

what a manyears ago in jericho

apart from the skull which was bound at birth, he looks very modern levantine

r|zen squabbles over “ the real meaning “ of zen

basically its a schizophrenic activity to try and conscript a meaning of a word for yourself away from the public domain meaning

interestingly, my being the seventh patriarch is in accordance with public domain understanding of “ dharma inheritance ”

why it is so important to identify when you are dealing with schizophrenia is that you are spending your time involved with something irrational past the point of futility

the chinese have the right idea

limiting the family size

otherwise the rabbit genes

are

going

to

take

over

it looks and sounds like english

i should understand it

it speaks to me

but i can’t

so i get upset

love is a machine

that doesn’t let up

love is a machine

that

doesn’t

let

up

you don’t have to think about death

you only have to think about not being here

same thing

women don’t think about perpetuating the species

they think about what’s theirs and what is not

that perpetuates the species

russian does not translate well into english

michizō tachihara’s poem “ at the park ”

whenever i watch a fountain

someone beyond the spray

watches it, too

here, more than anywhere else in town

afternoon sun softly lights up someone’s back

as time cavorts calmly with the wind

my reply

the fountain sprays the loss of time

i drift in the sun’s glinting on the water

be careful of what the wind takes away

i wouldn’t say rumi was complete crap

“ thou gatherest up thy garment lest the water should wet it : needs must thou a plunge a thousand times in the sea. love’s way is all lowliness and drunkenness : for the torrent runs down: how should it run upward ? ”

but the eastern and islamic culture reallly doesn’t translate at all into the western associations and value systems so it just looks like what it generally is, spacey not quite nonsense

“ be helpless, dumbfounded, unable to say yes or no. then a stretcher will come from grace to gather us up ”

shams-i tabrizi

well the stretcher didn’t come forwho was murdered by rumi’s son and the body never found

his bones will still be where they were buried somewhere around konya

the vast landscape of inanity, supported by stupidity

supported by what ?

i can’t even guess

the “ spiritual ” world

either rumi was so clichéd original thoughts were alien to him or the translations are so bad, they give that impression

31

the last two stanzas of sappho’s fragmentis the world’s most famous description of female orgasm

obviously men aren’t in the running

the golden ratio is a simple increment that is easy to implement from a genetic point of view to maximise “ packing ” efficiency

it would make sense that thehad need of this

“ how is the world ? ”

i don’t know how the world is

“ surely you must know how the world is ”

no, i don’t

“ we are not going to have much of a conversation then are we ? ”

no we’re not

“ the air feelswhen we get hot and sticky, that’s when

the air is warm enough to make us perspire

and the air contains sufficient water vapour to interfere with the evaporation of our perspiration and not allow us to cool down much from that

so mugginess depends on both heat and humidity ”

its interesting how you can flip flop back between views and the real view is a synthesis of them

you tube viewing recommendations are like some mix up of jorge luis borges’ stories

random and non random in the labyrinth of the library of babel

knowledge is the business of successive approximation, blowing out exponentially in both directions

knowledge is the work of successive approximation, blowing out exponentially in both directions

the chemicals in vapingthe lungs

dr. larsen, a pathologist at the mayo clinic,

you can tell the insane a problem they have or point out some error in reasoning

what do they do next ?

nothing except go away

some try to shout you down

non-functional

that’s what makes them

brad, your t-shirts are too “ safe ”

how aboutbetween jesus and buddha ?

or jesus, muhammad, buddha and moses as passengers on the heaven’s gate spaceship driven by

eihei dogen never uses the term “ forgiveness ” because its a bullshit term

why is that ?

because its an idea on the same level as self

the person you read in my writing doesn’t exist

its not quite me, its a double fold

there is an ambiguity in the “ sour grapes ” fable that the story doesn’t capture

that the grapes may in fact be sour

,

safer

real lifeand not magical i am afraid

shiey’s stamina is absolutely amazing

fictional worlds versus real worlds, both are constructs with different inputs

the essence of a “ holy ” religious figure is basically they have superpowers to distinguish them from the rest of us

jesus by comparison has broader “ superpowers ” than the castrated westernised buddha with whom he shares infallibility

,

no-one else

interestingly western zen takes the castration even further by creating a sort of crimped omniscience for its “ masters ”namely that they are privy to a secretis and they are necessarily right

religioushave higher psychological “ superpowers ” but lower biological and physics “ violations ”

its interesting to compare the superpower mix for buddha, muhammad and christ

asian can be distguished from western buddhism by the much more aggressive superpower violations

there’s nothing more pathetic than buddhists grasping at the story line of that sanctimonous fart, the buddha

on the net, hostility seems to rise in direct proportion to ignorance

cataract lens replacement ops are really once in a lifetime operations, later operations are far more problematic

,

indo-greek

the yogachara idea that the only way we can know the world is our concious experience isin fact, very greek and exactly what you expect from the origins of buddhism in thekingdoms

david bohm’s view that there are endless further levels of physical reality below the quantum has the logical flaw of that view being in itself an end

interestingly russia was the same problem for hitler as napoleon and their “ solution ” ie invasion, worked for neither of them

WW2

B-17

1935

the most glaring deficiency of the german airforce inwas the lack of a four engined long ranged bomber capable of reaching the soviet union’s armaments manufacturing plants, yet the first flight of the american“ flying fortress ” was in

the senior levels of the luftwaffe were startlingly incompetent

words

intricate

multilayer

dense

a poem

words, intricate, multilayer, dense, a poem

everybody has their prime, though the prime isn’t quite what you think it is

disclaimer :

mean

,

,

,

this is a stupid piece of prose which can mean anything including what it doesn’ta left turn or right turninside out or upside down, and particularly what it is, isn’t and might bebut the opposite and same !

winners write the history and myths, the losers are not only facing the consequences of having lost, but lose their version of events

god or gods are superheroes, what a crap species humanity is that they are its highest aspiration, stupid cornflakes figurines

god or gods are superheroes, what a crap species humanity is that they are its highest aspiration, stupid cornflakes figures

at my age i have been through that many nightmares to not want to go through it all again though i do know now how to avoid some of them

there are those who don’t have genuine questions, but waste your time

don’t be dismayed by downvotes, they are a poor quality bluff by idiots

some people will waste their time arguing but won’t research, verify their opinions or weigh in any real world experience but they are happy, nay prefer to argue forever wasting your time in a gluttonous joy of screwing your day up

for sheer tragedy its hard to beat the life of sylvia plath

she basically got fucked over by the incompetence of the world

anti-intellectual

anti-artistic

i do think that period wasandand she was a fish out of water without real companionship or support

,

i’m not prepared toyou are dissing me, my experience and what i am saying

you really have a “ bad attitude ” to others, treating their time as worthless

life is like a spreadsheet where unbeknownst to you the parameters are constantly being altered and nothing ever adds up

the basic tragedy of life is we are stuck in a cycle of growth and decay and we don’t really figure things out until we are in the decay portion

“ a jack of all trades and a master of none ”

a master of all trades and a jack of none

fashion shows areof the female condition, that constant posturing to convey status and suck the energy of males

re-invented

paul-michel foucault hasabout modern medical “ survellance ” norms actually beingfrom christian “ pastoral power ”

surprisingly even quite old latex pillows can be an irritant problem for some

the word “ cunt ” seems to be gaining prominence and i wondered what the meaning is which i think is a woman oblivious to and lacking sympathy for, the problems of others

is a cunt

@2:17 of 4:04

it is a mistake

to try

to make

sense of

this world

it is

sensical

and nonsensical

what is really happening on r|zen ?

its to elevate fictions to superhero status and then by commenting on the fiction, induct an illusion of one being a similar “ superhero ” oneself

a literal jorge luis borges story

john of the cross, catherine of sienna and teresa of avila are the prominent mystics in the catholic church

there’s also the desert fathers, not catholic, but very much of interest for celibates

you want to be able to reach into the catholic belief system for material

the catholic church is in disarray and there’s a vacuum there

almost complete fasts with care to keep a tiny amount of sugar in the stomach so as to keep the sugar loving microbiome alive and not displaced by the protein eating microbiome is a very useful skill, especially for the overweight

,

however skill is needed because it can go wrongespecially for those in less than “ robust ” health

some-one

my advice toon being a “ teacher ”

brad warner is really i think a writer trying to make an living in retreats, his great weakness is he is not building an organisation with competent volunteer women who will do a lot of the organisational work

if you can stay celibate its a huge advantage in this area

he says he gets a lot of his income now from web donations so you should think about setting something up

in terms of this “ work ” both brad and lisa cairns are messed up by their sex lives, because you are celibate, even at this point you are well ahead of any other teacher

i really think dogen was right, married with kids is such a different world it doesn’t mix well with “ spiritual work ”

on the other hand you don’t need your audience to be celibate at all, only you need to be

i’d steer clear of bentinho massaro, he’s an intelligent schizophrenic, its actually a cult

childless people/women are your ideal “ zen ” audience, have money, limited family distraction and are looking for something

95%

of actors and actresses are fruit loops

it is a mistake

to try

to make

sense of

this world

it is

nonsensical

and sensical

if you can swallow that

you are enlightened

it is a mistake

to try

to make

sense of

this world

it is

nonsensical

and sensical

physical knowledge is surprisingly quantum, it just seems to go on forever with high degrees of uncertainty

shades of lewis carroll, i read this poem by fujiwara no teika

with the autumn wind

turning back the flowing sleeves

of a traveler,

how lonely in evening light

is the bridge above the gorge

and re-worked it into this

in the quiet of the night

autumn foliage

shedding

a foot bridge hangs

suspended

across the gorge

i’m not a person who remembers the past well, it comes and goes

mainly goes

there are aof books in the library of babel

youtube has someon jorge’s short story

i would say the universe both has a shape and doesn’t

are a type of surface called a rolled surface, its made entirely out of straight lines hence their use in architecture

being robust to criticism in a netverse of shrinking violets

hard to fathom

the insanity of avoidance

zen in theory at least should be about being robust to criticism,

some of those old masters did nothing but talk

painful silence is not an answer

a poem by fujiwara no teika

your face

i cannot forget since

our parting

traces of you

remain resting on the moon

my reply

your face already fading in the landscape

lit

by

the

moon

moreby him

i really feel a couple of hours a day “ do nothing time ” pretty well covers the ground for retreats

however, that is in the context of living by myself and not talking to anyone for days on end

when i have a virus i don’t feel like eating, its not too difficult to follow that feeling and fast or semi fast (say a teaspoon of jam in hot/warm water a day to keep some sugar coating the stomach)

writing from the point of view of existence is necessarily meaningless

writing from the point of view of existence is meaningless

i notice with my writing that if i use stuff that is a bit peripheral to me, it loses energy and i start to ask what i am doing

1980

louise bourgeois in the last thirty years of her lifethan twice what she had made prior to

2010

99

she died inat age

well, there’s hope isn’t there

the untalented with their sly putdowns, behind the scenes backstabbing, duplicity, dissembling

that’s their true talent

re-synthesizing

paul mccartneyhow he wrote his songs, it makes sense, he was actuallya vast array of previous popular music, so he was, in that sense a prodigy and this previous sourcing was the root of his success

choral music, too sweet for my own good

some zombie on r|soto upbraids me

why r u on this sub then ? this is a place to discuss soto zen practice, why do you think your comments are appropriate here ?

my reply

its like jorge luis borges’isn’t it

wasn’t eihei dogen attempting to make sense of the library ?

in actual fact i take dogen’s writings and the chinese tradition he is associated with to be primary, he changes his opinions as he gets older and you and i like other travellers in the labyrinth of the library forever look at at books we cannot understand the meaning of because we are not readers in nor from the time of medieval japan he wrote in

WW2

also it pays to bear in mind that modern soto zen is a political construct from the meiji period and dogen himself would have never given rise to the war criminality of the soto school during

see you in whatever hexagon “ in the library ”

my mother mentioned my first birthday being celebrated under the plum tree at our farm at lake rotoma

yeah, i remember the flowering trees on the hillside at rotoma, the sadness of a lost world

one of the things about the net is the incredible amount of imitative writing and the pretense of an in depth understanding that shows plainly in the endless garbage spewed out

its just so millenial, expecting an effect without the necessary work and all their effort goes into trying to force out writers who show them up and promoting their bullshit

you bail them up and all they do is run off to do it somewhere else

my mother, recently in tokyo commented on the kittykat craze there

my reply

apparently the japanese will pick up anything and add it to their cultural lexicon without much thought

my further comment

she and her family were evacuated from auckland at the beginning of world war two because of the japanese threat of invasion, its strange how times can change so much

“ why am i here ”

well modern science gives the best answer, we are here because of our ability to create continuity for our genes

‘ what is life about ’ is an answerable question because it actually doesn’t mean anything whch is the only basis for having a consistently unanswerable question

famous people are removed from you by their busyness

its a self-limiting machine

they run the treadmill of their fame, few escape

an ad or

i think poetry, unlike prose is art

that’s because its a circumscribed object designed to have an effect

i’m amazed to see how much i relate to artists and the way they think about what they do

tyrannosaurus rex

there’s going to be a lot of obsolete drawings ofaround, the latest evidence suggests acoat

apologists are people who bullshit to themselves

why ?

i’ve lived in various “ spiritual centers ” and seen people waste half their lives on nonsense

i think we have a talent in an area when we get things right unconciously

its easy to observe the areas this isn’t true for us

religion is a farce of stupidity, vocabulary, tragedy, viciousness and humourless comedy

zen is a farce of stupidity, vocabulary, tragedy, viciousness and humourless comedy

semi-insane

zen is a sort of mild psychward for theto pass the time

blake-like

i had a vision of auniverse

green and strong

then i saw its other side

damaged and riven

AI

so, when i listened to thei thought, well that’s too simple and lacks span so its created by artifical intelligence and when i heard the second i thought, well that’s obviously bach, has span, modulation and range, its too obvious so its theversion and the other is some bad bach

its called “ overthinking ”

there is no end to beautiful women and ugly men

what does this tell you ?

there is no end to beautiful women and ugly men

what does this say ?

as i get older and possibly wiser

i see

a lot of things

that

i thought

mattered

don’t

and still

i puzzle

about

what does

matter

as i get older and possibly wiser

i see

a lot of things

that

i thought

mattered

don’t

i think ginger cats are like red headed people, the ginger toms seem to be constantly injured from fights

“ do you have any regrets in life ? ”

lost count

i think buddhism and zen in the west is much more teacher culty than in asia because there, they are cultural religions and broadly based in the population and here in the west, they are well, personality cults

should be landscape, not portrait oriented, but it shows how psychotic people can be

look at the size of the long magazine, its a massacre kit

a black hole really

if you have any doubts about people’s ability to believe and implement total crap just look at marxism and communism

“ its such a mad crazy world these days that everybody i draw is

george condo

the emperorlived in surprisingly tasteful if somewhat grandiose

he was the middle of the five good emperors

the problem with the idea of having a changed past is usually there’s any number of unforseeable alternatives with far worse outcomes

if you are alive and in reasonable health today, that is a successful road

AR-15

my god, this american (florida, where else?) who is building anturned up onof all places

they really don’t think straight, i am showing what he wrote below because in itself, its a sort of hubric insanity, quite schizophrenic really

AR15

“ Interesting comment about the. That’s a shame they are illegal where you are. I have a pretty good understanding of how the media paints these firearms. It really is a misrepresentation

(X-men paraphrase)

Your comment of only having one purpose is unusual. For example, a pencil can be used to write something or could can be put into someones eye.

semi-automatic

But pencil’s only have one purpose, right ? Not exactly; the purpose of everything depends only on what the user does with an object. Arifle has many uses just like a pencil does

My line of interest is to protect people from others who intend to harm them. Putting myself in harm’s way and training to protect others is just the way I am. And strangely enough, I think hunting is immoral when our culture has farms for getting meat. I could agree with hunting completely if you are facing starvation. But that’s just me ”

my reply is below

AR-15

well new zealand had a recentin christchurch with an extended magazineamongst other weapons

NZ

the perpetrator was actually an australian, who was unable to get that sort of gun in australia, it having been made illegal after the port arthur massacre and went towhere it was still legal

its even better than a machine gun on people in confined spaces because you don’t have to carry so much ammunition

the reality is that the homicidal insane will continue to take advantage of such an ideal weapon in the usa until they are banned

one of the advantages of hunting is you understand what a nasty business it all is and you can also place guns in a functional context

sepehr has made a very goodof alfred bestall’s “ rupert the bear ” art

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this is what happens when you fall fromft [meters]

“ when she came down she landed feet first, thankfully, but more on her right side so her right heel was shattered, both ankles were broken, the right femur was snapped, multiple pelvis fractures, lowerjaw/mandible broken, missing teeth, both lungs were co