Oh Lordy, I am late. Hope you all had a good and productive week...

Well as you witnessed, when we meet again at the gorgeous flower market, I wasn't in the frame of mind to accept Brandi's flowers. I assumed if I accepted the flowers, that meant I had to accept the apology. Accepting the apology means I am perpetuating the behavior, so therefore I wasn't prepared to do that.

We talked before about life's consequences, and I am not accusing BG of a heinous crime (pushing and slapping), but it was the straw that broke the camel's back.

I had reached my limit of allowances for her, and if Yolanda wants to continually make excuses for her poor behavior, then that is up to her. I had certainly had enough. Talking to Ken, I yearned for home and to be back in a place of emotional security, but one more night to go, then I was off to London to see my family. So the last supper, surrounded by the beauty of the canals and the gentle banter between us all, was a much needed emotional poultice before we ended this eventful trip. The absence of BG was a welcome change to the dynamic, and the fact that she was going on a date with my son's friend (best friend in school for many years) seemed strange to me, and the remark that he had a nice c--k just certified why I have little left to say. I am devoid of any more remonstrations. It is not his age, it was the fact that I had known him so well for all the years growing up. It seemed strange to think of him having sex at all! Especially as they had just met.

Amsterdam will still resonate as a unique and fruitful experience, and I am happy that I went, even though some moments were less than pleasant for sure.

Loved being back at LaLa and was nervous to ordain my first wedding between this wonderful couple Dominic and Magno...a perfect example of how love sees no color or gender. Officiating the wedding was a responsibility, and one that I took seriously, as this wasn't my day, this was theirs, and as we all ventured into unknown territory. I felt an overwhelming urge to hold their hands and guide them into the next chapter of their lives.What a sweet couple. I have been asked many times to officiate, and this couple, as I looked at them, I felt blessed to have been included in their special day.

Many have asked me why I remain steadfast in my resolve and support of LGBT and many have criticized me for my dedication to the gay community ,the fight for equal rights. I have always maintained that marriage is about two people who love each other, and those two are afforded the same rights as others. It's not political, it's about humanity. It's not tolerance, it's about embracing our fellow man. So in a public forum, I was happy to stand up to the objectors as a conduit between the heterosexual community and theirs. I have an understanding of the qualities and to what I believe makes a decent human being. I am positive that who somebody spends their life with, who they are attracted to, is at the end of that list.

So let's focus on positivity in this episode and accountability. Whoever we are, if we make mistakes, it is not about saying sorry--that's easy. It is about personal growth and reassuring the people involved that you have computed the fact and have learnt from it. Then you can move forward.

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Until next time, when we conclude this fifth season, I bid you a healthy and productive week. As always...Love, Lisa