I wish i would have known that tonight would be your last, that i couldnt hug you or see you laugh,or see you smile that beautiful smile one last, I wish i would have got out the car the last time i seen you from a far, and hugged your neck for way to long, i wish i would have known i didnt have forever to catch up on everything we missed growing up, i wish i would have called you and bugged you more and just picked up the phone one night, Now all i have are regrets of the things i didnt get to do, like being close to you, the way we were when we were kids, when youd come pick me up at aunt helens with my mom, or the way i used to see you now i think of you everyday, i wish i'd been to more ballgames, like the one that we cheered against you, but for you too, i wish there we more crawfish bowls where you chased us round and round and chased up the club house just to hear us screem, i wish so bad i could have done so much more, but i didnt know you'd be gone, i'll never forget that morning when i heard the news, how devestated my mom was and the coldness that filled my livivng room, i was alone without anyone to scream too, all i could do was cry, for the thought of you gone from our lives, just wasnt fair it wasnt right, you were someone i always looked up too, you were so full of life, i'm happy for a few short years as teens i hugout with you, i missed you when u went to college and was happy to hear you were home, i was even happier when u came to see me at work, the last time i talked to you was there at work, you were wearing that darn DARE shirt, i cant get that night out of my head, because i wish i would have hugged and kissed you and said what i never said... i love you, i wish we hung out more.

nikki