I’m now remembering, I tried to talk John out of it, which was part of my process. I just thought ‘Maybe he doesn’t scream. Maybe he just stands there.’ Just because I felt like it was so insane to do and crazy to do. And the last thing he does before you find out that he dies. So my natural inclination whether it was self-preservation or what. But just mixing my own personal feelings with what I was trying to accomplish on the screen. I think I definitely let them mix, but I let my own insecurities get in there. I definitely tried to talk my way out of it.