I’m sorry everyone, I wish life had gone better…

This will probably be one of the only personal posts on this blog and I’m sorry if you didn’t want to see this but I just wanted to explain why my blog died and I don’t upload things much.



I started this blog to share my sexual interest. I’m a female who actually likes this kinda stuff and I was more than happy to share it with guys and gals and anyone in between that liked Ecchi as much as I do. What many of ya’ll don’t know is that as much as I love ecchi, my real life got in the way of me wanting to look for it and find sexy things and share them here on my ecchi shrine.



See I was engaged, to a girl that I loved dearly. She was the original reason I started this blog to being with. This shrine was dedicated to her, we both liked ecchi and we’d share it back and forth sometimes.

But she left me out of the blue, I was expecting to be married to a girl that I loved and cared for and what I got in return was a broken heart.



I tried to keep things together but I started cutting and relapsed back into being a horrible person to myself.



Eventually my 2 year mark here with this blog came around and I decided to make a big post drop, but then I lost all sexual motivation altogether.



I tried dating again and was turned down by girl after girl, and I felt so awful and worthless. I couldn’t even get a date. I tried to pretty up, try to be more attractive, put on some make up and do my hair nicer. I tried acting more confident and open minded with everything.



But nothing helped. I just got rejected over and over.

I felt so low, and this blog became an unwanted part of my existence. I had no sexual feelings anymore.

I closed off my accounts and relationships that dealt with dating and I gave up.

I’d been hurt too many times to really want to date anyone ever again.

Being a sexually motivated person, this blog became a depressing place for me, because all these beautiful girls and I realized that not one girl in real life wanted me. So it just reminded me of all the things I couldn’t have.



My ex-fiancee was the only relationship I’d ever had with a girl that lasted. I’ve always been ditched and stood up.

Me I wanted to be a loyal and dedicated and helpful girlfriend, but no one wanted me, so i just sunk lower into depression, and this blog became untouched and unwanted.



However after a year and a half of searching and giving up, a girl I never expected told me “I love you” while we were chitchatting about things.

I didn’t expect that, but life seems to be totally random.



I’m happier now, and I want to pick this blog back up again.

I hope this change in my life is for the better, I don’t want to feel worthless and unwanted like that again. I’m scared and nervous about dating someone again. But I want to be happy, so I’m going to give it a shot.



Hopefully, this time, things don’t end up with such painful memories, and I get to have happy memories instead.



EDIT: That girl and I broke up. All she did was lie to me. Said she really never loved me.

What a drag.