Leslie Murillo is a political rarity. She’s black, Latina, a millennial, and a Republican. That combination of identities may seem incongruous given voting trends, but Murillo insists they’re not. In fact, Murillo has spent a great deal of time over the past few years explaining to family, friends, and others why she, a young woman of color, feels at home in the Grand Old Party. Those conversations are getting a lot harder this year.

“In the Trump days it’s been very difficult to say out loud that I’m a Republican,” says Murillo, a 31-year-old nurse based in Minnesota. “It has interfered with my identity as a black Republican, which was always challenged, always questioned. I can’t even blame the people who are making these insults [now]—I mean, look at who our candidate is."

Murillo has an admixture of beliefs that come together to put her outside of both major parties ideologically: She’s pro-choice, anti-welfare, pro-Black Lives Matter, and against the Affordable Care Act. It’s a set of positions she says she evolved into. Driven by a sense of duty and possibility, Murillo says she voted for Barack Obama in 2008 and watched his inauguration with so much gratitude that she wept. During Obama’s first term, however, she began studying the principles of Democrats and Republicans and thinking deeply about her own values. The more she learned about the conservative tenets of small government, individual freedom and personal responsibility, the more she realized that she was a Republican.

“‘You’re black and you’re a Republican, what’s wrong with you?’”

“‘It doesn’t make any sense.’”

“‘Oh, you wish you were white.’”

Those are the responses Murillo says she gets most often when people find out she’s Republican. Beyond the judgment, though, Murillo is an anomaly as a voter. In fact, she is at the intersection of four groups that lean Democrat. According to a Pew report released last year, young voters like her favor the Democratic Party by 16 percentage points, Latinos lean Democrat by 30 points and blacks by 69 points, and women favor the Democratic Party over the Republican Party 52 percent to 36 percent. Pew also found that just 12 percent of millennial Latinas and only four percent of black millennial women identify as Republican.

But for many of the young conservatives of color that do exist, Trump’s ascent within the Republican Party has made their already challenged political position feel indefensible. And, although many support the candidate, admire him as a businessman and appreciate his candor, there are others who are dismayed with the way issues of race have been placed front and center in Trump’s campaign. Those most offended say they’ve had their understanding of the Republican Party, and their own position in it, shaken up by the nominee’s many questionable statements and positions. They’re not sure if they’re ready for Trump’s America.