Grill & Chill - re: haters on the great DQ of Anime Ascension '19

Yea so I walked up to the TO and I was like "hey, I'm going to DQ" and he was like ok and I guess he misunderstood, but that was one less blizzard I had to buy.



Jokes aside, I do think this is actually rather funny, I've had a good time with all the memes and stuff. Still, some people seem to be rubbed the wrong way so I'll just let you know how it is. Hopefully this is written comprehensibly (I'm doing it on my phone) but really, I think if you are ragging on me for this, or feel slighted, or I'm disrespectful to the event / game, you probably need a bit of insight.



I don't actually think there are that many people upset with me, but I don't mind speaking my behalf just in case.



Anyways, to start, so what I did was qualify for top 8 for BBTAG and then...boom! DQ baby. People think I don't understand what it means, or I'm unapologetic cause it means that someone else could have gotten that spot and played it out, or it feels disrespectful to lose to someone who may not prioritize it as much or whatever.



The reality is, you've probably lost in bracket to someone who cares less than you. Not everyone who enters the tournament has the capacity to win the tournament, or even the expectation to. I understand this. I feel bad when people feel bad, but that's their issue with the nature of the beast, not my actions in particular. If you interpret that as poor sportsmanship, just, no.



I agree with being unapologetic overall (lol) but circumstantially, despite the threepeat of it, there are factors that go into whether I'd choose to play or not, each time. I don't drop on a whim, and I'm not gatekeeping.



No idea how anyone gets the idea of poor sportsmanship or being inconsiderate to the viewers at home, especially considering I gotta make the distinction about putting on the best performance I can for more than just myself lol. We lost stream time for a single set of bbtag that I had..."withheld" at my own discretion. I'm sorry I owe you my performances, lol.



Anyways...



So, you know me. CF is my jam. Izayoi is my jam. I will pick that game. So why at AA?



-BBCF is a main game, and the main event, so the pot was much larger.

-BBCF was the last event of the day (8pm, Tag 4pm)

-I play a stupidly difficult character in cf and I have finite energy and time

-I expected to do a photoshoot during the day

-I expected to do prep / warm-up if I had a hard match for cf top 8 (which was not only finalized that afternoon, but I definitely called it as hard and lost, so)

-I wanted to put on the best performance I could in CF, due to it being the "main event", and didn't feel I could if I drained myself playing bbtag to my ability



So, if I had anticipated a decent run in BBTAG, and then, there's the awards and stuff, I'd be free to focus on CF at...6pm, then if I still wanted to swing all the other stuff...and be in shape to play well right off the bat...



I'm pretty sure I am defensible here, b-but skd!! You d-did it three times!!



Yeah, I pick cf every time if I have a hard bracket and something can interfere.



If Tag was scheduled after bbcf top 8 as the main event, I would have played. If Tag top 8 was Saturday night, I would have played. If CF top 8 was finalized earlier and tag finals were still that close to cf finals, I would have DQ'd. You know who else DQed out of bbtag, got sent to losers, and then won cf the same weekend? Fenrich. Cool.



Given the circumstance, I would love to participate. Unfortunately, cramped schedules, hard brackets.



"Just play it out and lose both!!" Yeah shut up lol.



I'm sorry if you wanted to see me play. I can understand frustrations if you like my characters or play or something.



Would you rather I half assedly sit there and press buttons, either throw the match or uncaringly eliminate someone else from the tournament? Is it okay because you can't tell?



(I understand disappointment from people who wanted to see lit Blake mixies, for that I am sorry)



Maybe I just shouldn't enter in the first place right?



Am I not allowed to guiltlessly play multiple games and give my best shot to the ones that I remain in? Don't many competitors actually do this, but fail to make top 8 in multiple games, so they never actually have to make these calls?



What if I lose in cf and want to give my all to tag? Too bad, you're too likely to focus on cf so screw off?



Do I have this responsibility where there is no good way out because I'm going to win matches?



Don't I register for tournaments before schedules get put out so I don't actually know if I can properly accommodate?



Should I just dq myself as soon as the schedule is announced because of the potential I might have a hard top 8 following?



I said earlier I would play if I could, and I had hoped so. Unfortunately you might think it selfish for me to try to spread out but I wasn't able to confirm if I would or wouldn't be able to until the morning of, in which I promptly let the TO's know as soon as I qualified that I was most likely going to drop, and then confirmed it shortly after.



So yeah, nobody was held up waiting for me on the organizer end, and as much as it stings to lose to someone who drops out, isn't it the same to lose to someone who just throws a match later in tournament? It's just okay because ignorance is bliss and you can interpret that loss however you want?



What would you have liked for me to do? I legit want answers to this.



Predict that I would have made top 8 free in bbcf (I think this is kinda disrespectful lol), then bc of that don't enter tag, and put all my eggs in one basket?



Predict that I would have made top 8 winners but had a comparatively easy bracket path so I could juggle both?



Know that I would have a hard top 8 so dq myself as soon as the schedule is announced? (Lmfao)



Play tag hard, drain myself, still lose, then lose cf? (I know y'all gonna pick this one)



Throw matches on stream and lie to your face to make you feel better?



Screw myself in the game that has a bigger pot, the one I'm obv more likely to put on a good show in, and the one I love more?



And seriously, I mean no disrespect to the game or event like it is not something worth taking seriously. I like the game a lot. I stream it more than CF. I write about it more than CF. I help people with more things about tag than CF.



I love this event. I wanted to make the CF finals the best I could, (I did, and it was a blast for everyone who was there too, even down to the Dairy Queen memes and SKDQ chant) something I didn't think I could for BBTAG regardless, and I had to make a choice that was not only good for me but, just maybe, good for the event too?



What's really disrespectful is how big of a deal people are making about me instead of the rest of the tag top 8. If you want to preach positivity and huggu clubbu I have no idea what you're doing. Those guys work hard and are fortunate to have the ability to dedicate to it.



Is it wrong for me to have priorities or preferences, try my hand at multiple tournaments (with intention to perform in both, priorities in mind) just because im likely to "take up" a top 8 spot instead of earning it? Did I "waste" precious stream time because of how things turned out?



I operate at events with the exact same principles most community members have. I just have different choices to make. And yes, I care about the community and yeah, I can say I'm not selfish in these calls.



If things panned out differently, I would have made the call to play in both top 8's. Stamina / hands reasons aside, switching between both games is also a huge hurdle to overcome.



What do you want from me lol. I made the best call I could at the point that I could, not in a selfish way, and I delivered on it.



Everyone else got to play their promised games in tournament, the only one who I should be apologizing to is spectro for making his entry fee slightly less worthwhile.



I apologized to shinku for causing this distracting mess but it's honestly so hilarious to me. I made the best call I could. Nobody at the event is complaining, just people at home, who feel personally slighted by my actions, or my character (I'm just too sensational).



I think if you catch feelings over this, you're impulsive, don't understand how these things go, lack insight, or feel entitled to players' hands and brains performing for you (???).



You probably don't have to make these calls, but what ridiculous idea would you suggest instead?



TL;DR: stop violating





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