A Follow Up

The girl who doxxed me awhile back

http://gamergateharassment.tumblr.com/post/99995431621/i-got-doxxed-and-sent-some-really-gross-threats

called me again a little bit ago.

She said she just wanted to talk to me, that she got her mom’s permission so it was okay and everything. She said she just wanted my advice/help with some things.

A few of her IRL friends are apparently hardcore SJW types, and it’s how she got into the mindset she was in that she thought doxxing me and shit was okay. The girl, let’s call her Ash, her mom told the girls why she wasn’t allowed online for awhile and why she wasn’t allowed to go out with them for awhile but they could come visit her as long as they stay at the house.

The girls started giving her shit. Ash tried to explain to them that I wasn’t a bad person, that I didn’t even go to the authorities, that I was understanding. They said she was just “sucking patriarchy cock”. I guess she started crying and started trying to tell them that it’s not okay to hurt, attack or harass ANYONE no matter WHAT and tensions got high and the three girls started beating the hell out of her until her mom came in and kicked them all out. I guess those girls got in trouble with their own parents.

This happened a few days ago. Ash called me a bit ago to just.. tell me what happened. She wanted to know if I had ever been bullied, beaten up or anything. So I told her yeah. I used to get into a lot of fights when I was her age because I would stop bullies, I would stand up for other kids. She asked if I still get harassed because of Gamergate.

I told her the truth. I told her I got doxxed again, but this time they got me kicked out of the charity group I was in and damaged my reputation in real life.

She said she doesn’t know what to do. That she’s been thinking about everything a lot and she’s realizing that a lot of what she did thinking it was for the good of everyone, “being a good feminist”, “helping people learn”, she’s realizing it was just bullying and being cruel. That it was terrible. She said she realizes that every time someone tries to do the right thing they get hurt or attacked for it and she doesn’t know what to do.

I told her what’s important is that she take cares care of herself. Above all else, her safety and wellbeing takes priority. That if she feels scared about doing something, don’t put herself in danger.

She asked me why I do it, then. Why do I “put myself in danger”. I told her it’s because of a lot of reasons, but most of all I just don’t like seeing other people being hurt or used by other people. I don’t like seeing people get used as tools, lied to or seeing people crying out for help only to be ignored.

She started crying and asked why I was nice and forgiving to her.

I told her it’s because she was only doing what she thought was right and she learned better. That she showed me she’s willing to grow as a person and the world needs more people like that.

She asked what she should do about her friends. I told her that if they were so willing to hurt her like that, they’re not her friends. Friends don’t gang up on and beat their friends. They don’t say the things they said. She asked me if I think they hate her. I told her it honestly doesn’t matter if they do or not because they’re not worth worrying about anymore.

She asked what she should do from now on. I told her the same thing. Just take care of herself. “But what if I want to be like you and help other people?” …so I told her to do it, if it feels right, but she should know that it’s dangerous. That it’s always going to BE dangerous no matter what. People don’t like to hear that they’re wrong or that they’re doing bad things. But there’s always going to be someone who needs help and if she’s serious about it, it’s not something that’s going to end.

She asked me about the charity group I was in. I told her about the Lion’s. She told me her grandma is in the Lioness Club and kept asking her to join, she said she’s going to join, because of me, and do her best to help people.

She asked me if I was crying. I said yeah, a little bit. “Why?” and.. I just told her that it’s because I didn’t expect her to call me. I was just surprised. That I’m just happy that I was able to help someone. “But I was so mean to you” and I told her it didn’t matter. She needed help and I was able to help her. And she cried again.

She said she had to go because she has a “phone curfew” or something, but she wanted to thank me for talking with her and being nice. She said she learned a lot and she wants to be like me. She said that she hopes that there’s more people like me in Gamergate and I told her I hope so too, but I don’t speak for everyone.

“People who are against it should just listen to you. You know what you’re talking about.”

and then she asked if we could be friends. I said yeah, sure.

Then we said bye and we hung up and I just cried for a bit.

This kid who I met because she doxxed me and wanted to tear me down. This kid who spewed venom and hate right on me. She came to me for advice and help. She opened her eyes and saw people, not enemies.

I dunno how to word it. It just had a profound impact on me. I have a lot of new followers because of my original doxxing and story about this girl. I just figured I should share this part of it as well. She’s suffering and being bullied by people she thought were friends because she stopped agreeing with them.

That’s the kind of shit I fight against.