April 17

It was just terrible! I screwed up the choreography, AND forgot my lyrics. I feel so sorry to all my fans!

April 18

This morning, when I got off the train left foot first, was when all the bad stuff started. I always make it a point that my right foot goes first into the train and into the bath.

April 19

Today was my 21st birthday. Yukiko, Rei, and the staff at the agency held a party for me. It was terrific! Coming home, I went grocery shopping at the usual store. I got mineral water and milk. The milk just has to be Cow Brand Milk. I have to allow myself at least this much luxury. And food for my precious fish, of course.

May 12

I was impressed with Eri Ochiai's performance in Double Bind. She's another person when the camera is rolling. I hope to one day be as good an actress as she is!

June 19

I don't want to do that drama anymore! The producer is a total pervert, and my role is really screwed up! Singing in front of my fans has GOT to be the best for me after all!

June 22

Today, I was still a little depressed, but receiving e-mail from all of you made me feel a little better.

June 24

Help me, everyone. Everyone is forcing me to do it! It's all the screenwriter's fault!

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