"I never thought in the 30 years I've lived with this man he would have done what he did," she said.

Hildreth told Lodge that he gets sick when he reads what he wrote during his Internet chats with who he believed was a 14-year-old girl. He cried and often struggled to speak about what he called "a nightmare that won't go away," according to the Statesman article.

Hildreth was excommunicated from his church after his arrest. He was the stake president of the Butte chapter of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints at the time of his arrest.

"I want you to know I have no compulsions to go back to the way I was before," Hildreth said. "I'm afraid of it." Prosecutors said in May 2004, Hildreth, using the screen name "Sexy Montana Gentleman,'' started an Internet relationship with an undercover Boise police officer posing as a 14-year-old girl. Hildreth moved the conversations from a public chat room to private instant messaging and initiated discussions of sex.

During more than a dozen instant messaging sessions over the next six weeks, Hildreth talked about his previous encounters with young girls. He told the victim he was 39 years old and made arrangements to meet the victim. On two occasions he sent her live, sexually explicit images of himself.