Hello Bravo Lovers,

How different life was seven months ago...

I guess the only thing constant in life is change, and boy did I experience change in 2015.

I fought to live, I loved, I lost, I missed, I hurt, I trusted, I made mistakes, but most of all, I learned...and with that knowledge I choose to move forward, one day at a time.

I have so much respect for women that turn their mess into a message. I'm so proud of Camille for bravely sharing her journey and bringing awareness to women's cancer. I was happy to be able to support her beautiful event, even if it was just for a quick visit.

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The night took a piece out of me. When frequencies are off due to tension or lingering anger, it's draining. I sensed Rinna 's negative energy early on in the evening. It's hard to understand the animosity she feels toward me because before the Munchhausen comment I never had an unpleasant personal experience with her.

It was painful for me to witness her so bluntly label Kim a "drug addict" and Brandi an "alcoholic" in public because the ripple effect of that was so painful for all involved from children, family and loved ones. So much hurt that could have been avoided if handled in a more delicate way.

Now a year later Rinna still seems to be stuck in the darkness and speaks with anger about these women. Me going to lunch with them seems to oddly affect her. Why does she care how I choose to go about my day?

Our physical universe operates under a clear set of spiritual laws, and it might be time for Rinna to replace her anger with compassion, unity, love, and fulfillment as that's what the red Kaballah string around her wrist is suppose to represent.

We don't have to be best friends with everyone, but at least show kindness and compassion.

These women were in our lives for many years, and YES there were some really "uncomfortable" and "unacceptable" moments between them and the women in this group. I respect that and have not forgotten. At the end of the day, though, they are still human. They deserve to be loved and supported, especially during difficult times.

Those hardest to love need it the most!

Kim and Brandi have always been compassionate and supportive of my journey, and for that I will be forever loyal.

Most Beverly Hills friends seem to be there when the chips are up but nowhere to be found when the chips are down. Hard lesson to learn, but I guess that's the reality of today's world. This "replace versus repair" formula doesn't resonate with me.

It is interesting to see some of these adult women make such calculating moves without any respect or empathy for other human beings suffering, yet they spend the day marching for Yulin. Is it because that moment brings them significant attention?

Don't get me wrong--this is such an important cause and had it been a good day, I would have been there to support it for sure. I was touched seeing LVP’s emotion while talking about the poor dogs, and I do wish she would sometimes access this same emotional depth and apply it to us, her human friends.

Eileen is honest, authentic and is hitting the nail right on the head. I am going to wait to see this story unfold before commenting on it further.

I think Kathryn deserves a pass for raising her voice at Erika's. I am happy that technology has come such a long way and given her a better quality of life. It was a touching segment and a reminder to never judge a book by its cover because most people in today's world suffer in silence from invisible diseases that we know nothing about.

And yes, there were mixed emotions while watching tonight's episode. A divorce, regardless of how it happens, is still the closing of the chapter, a separation from your life partner. We can't help but feel the loss and wonder when and how things went wrong. Long-term illness brings challenging hurdles to a home, a family and a marriage. It affects many lives, but I have to believe we've all done the best we can. Rather then getting stuck on what went wrong, I choose to focus on what was right and cherish the many great memories we shared.

And finally, I will address the latest hot topic. My last name. Let me share some of the "footprints" leading up to this to help clarify unnecessary confusion. I chose to keep my married name for my children when their father and I separated in 2000. It was important to them and we decided this as a family. When I married David, I honored his and went by both. I was Yolanda Hadid-Foster, and now I have dropped Foster for obvious reasons. Honoring my children's wishes on this subject is important to me.

Much love and until next week xo



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