So of course, I’m in a LDR so you would think “oh you must be used to the separation” Uhhh… NO.

I dont think i could ever get used to it. Just because we choose to love someone so far away from us, dose not mean we are happy about the distance. Yes, I love having my own freedom. Yes, I love when we are together. But I would love it so much more if it was happening at the same time; if that makes any sense at all.

I get to do my own thing every day. May it be working, exercising, hanging with friends/family, or just relaxing with a good book. But I know that at the end of the day I get to share that with him. We always say “only a text away”. I know he will be there if I need him and I am there for him. But on those really bad days, when you just want to come home and curl up next to that cutie and all you have is an empty bed, it hits hard… and sometimes a phone call just can’t help.

So what do you to keep busy on long nights like that? Well…. I have decided to start this blog. It’s easy for me to get my thoughts out and not keep them all bottled up. I’ve also taken up tennis! It’s something I can practice on my own, or grab a family member and have them play with me. Exercising before settling down for bed helps because I am tired. I also get all my frustration out on the balls so I’m not so upset.

Now, since Stephen is away at camp, I have a lot of time to fill. And I’m finding it pretty hard to stay out of that “I just wanna cry forever” stage. Keeping my mind busy is harder than it looks. When I am not at work I’m usually around the house during the day taking care of the pups and random house things. Keeping your body busy and mind busy for me is two separate things. I can do plenty of body movements while I am sulking in my sadness. But trying to keep my mind occupied during the “slower” physical task is what I am trying to focus on.