tell me about ur middschool crush..

all right boys get close because it's storytime with puddi and don't worry this gets plenty cringe --- middle school is also known as the time where everyone is really really mean to each other, and while that wasn't exactly the case for me, homeschoolers (me included) generally don't have a sense of social standards and what social norms are by then. you know, they're always sitting at home working by themselves, without any real social interaction. the existence of the "supplementary center" that i went to, where homeschoolers like me would go to take classes, helped to mitigate that, but most people didn't exactly know what social norms were. musical theatre creates this weird inclusive social group which, if you ever went to high school, probably know all too well. so you're me, you're 13, you're going through puberty, you're homeschooled, you've been doing musical theatre, and you're crushing on a girl. fantastic. this girl (we'll call her alia) happened to also be 13, happened to also be homeschooled and happened to also be doing musical theatre. i knew her for like three years prior to this point - she was talented at singing at acting, she was funny, and she was cute, too! the trifecta. this was also around the time that i started watching anime seriously, and found myself really invested in the romantic subplots of shows that i would watch. so being 13 and having my brain be easily influenced by the tiniest of things, nourons fired in my head and my brain started to tell myself that "yo you should get in on this romance shit, seems pretty dank." so after like a couple days of mulling over it in my head in october i was like "yo i guess i like this girl." not that i did anything about it at that point in time - it was kinda like a one-sided affection. now let's be honest here i wasn't in love with her stupid brain saying stupid things to a stupid 13-year-old puddi back to the story fast forward to december where i'm traveling in japan to spend time with my grandparents. my friend dylan from the states is also staying with us, since he said he wanted to check out japan and we were able to accomodate that. i'm mulling over all these romantic thoughts in my head and i'm often turning to consult dylan with like "ooooh should i confess my feelings to her? should i kokuhaku it up???" which, mind you, were some pretty real questions at the time. i didn't know what it was like if someone turned you down! i was homeschooled, i didn't know about social stuff. maybe i'd get gossiped on and become the laughingstock of the school! but against my better judgment, on december 17th i said to alia (and this is paraphrasing here) "yo i think i like you. dunno exactly what that means, but it's just something that's been on my mind." over a skype IM. >skype >IM >why.jpg --- there's more stories regarding my middle school crush that i could go into, but this is long enough already, so if y'all want to hear more, just ask