I am 30 years old and have been fapping since I was 12 I think(don't honestly remember when I started). I did it at least 4 to 5 times a week, some days I would do it 3 to 4 times. I have always been a very passive guy mostly because I was always afraid somebody would find out how much I was fapping and judge me.I have been married for 5 years now and that mentality had carried over into my marriage. I was still hiding that I was fapping to porn and would even lie about it because I was so worried about how she would react rather that just telling the truth. I have 2 daughters now, one is almost 4 and the other is 6 months old. I realized with my children and my wife that I needed to try and stop to see what it was like with out fapping and porn. I can honestly say that it is the most incredible feeling to not be hiding anything from my wife(I know that hiding fapping and porn may seem stupid but that was how I was raised, we didn't talk about anything that made us uncomfortable).I have been doing this for a couple of months now and it has been one of the hardest things to do mainly because it was something I did for so long. I used to be a smoker way back when and I was able to just stop and walk away from it. I thought that would be how this was going to be but it was far from. My mood was pretty bad for a little while there but it is getting better. You see, I am a stay at home dad and live in a small town where I have only one or two friends. So when I took on this challenge, I was in a tough sitiuation to do it. But, thankfully, I remembered how good working out made me feel about myself and it has been my saving grace.I wanted to post here to let everybody know that it can take over your life if you let it. Fapping feels great but for what? 8 seconds of pleasure? Take it from a very happy married man now, it is not worth it for the pleasure. Get the pleasure from a wonderful women that can make all your dreams come true and make you feel like you are king of the mountain, not your hand. I just hope that this story may help some of you realize that not fapping is more than just giving you energy, it gives you a mountain of self confidence in yourself.It is hard, but if the great things in life were easy, everybody would be happily married, rich, and not fap, haha!!Just some extra motivation, "Find your place in the world, don't let the world find it's place in you"