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A former lover of disgraced Lostprophets star Ian Watkins says the singer wanted to kidnap and kill children.

Joanne Mjadzelics, also known as Joanne Majic, said she believes Watkins, 36, attacked hundreds of young people around the world .

On Tuesday, Watkins admitted charges including attempting to rape a baby and sexual assault .

But Joanne, 38, who says she told police of his depraved desire to attack children in 2008, said: “I’m absolutely sure Ian wouldn’t have stopped at abuse. He wanted to rape and kill children. He wanted to rape newborns.

“He even wanted to get me pregnant so he could rape our baby. How does anyone become that sick?

"I can’t understand how and I don’t think I ever will.”

Joanne said her repeated warnings to police were ignored. Two police forces, South Wales and South Yorkshire, are now being investigated over how they investigated the singer . One detective in South Wales has been suspended as inquiries continue.

She said: “I’m absolutely devastated it took so long for him to be caught. Hundreds of children have been abused by this monster despite my constant calls to the police.

"I was literally calling them every day at one point.

“I’m so angry at them for ignoring me. I was made to look like a mad woman while Ian carried on like Jimmy Savile.

“Actually, he is worse than Savile. He is the most disgusting human being I’ve ever come across – scum of the earth.

“I hold the police responsible for allowing those children to be abused. They must be investigated.”

Joanne, from Doncaster, said she first became a Lostprophets fan in 2006 as a 30-year-old.

She contacted the band on social media, asking if they had any concerts planned near her home town.

But she received a reply from someone called Ian asking if she wanted to make a porn movie.

Joanne went on: “Messages got weirder and weirder. He was talking about how many women he wanted to sleep with.”

Watkins then offered to put her on the guest list for a gig in Leeds if she would meet him in a hotel first.

She told The People : “I was intrigued so I agreed. We immediately clicked. He was really attentive and we were soon in bed.”

But within months, Joanne began to see a darker side to the Methodist preacher’s son.

He first convinced her to take part in one of his fantasises, a foursome with two other women.

She said: “I was fine with it but it made me feel a bit weird and never happened again.

“I fell in love with him. But I knew there was never going to be more commitment because he was a rock star and there were other women.”

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A few months later, while Watkins was recording with the band in Los Angeles, his online messaging really started to become sinister.

Joanne said: “He would talk about how he had all these young fans, one as young as 14 and how it was his fantasy to take take their virginity.

“I thought it was the drugs talking and told him to stop as it was so upsetting. My son was only 11 at the time too. It was very distressing.

“It got worse. He started talking about having sex with an 11-year-old girl. He also boasted how he wanted to have a threesome with underage identical twins and another fantasy was to have sex with a mother and a daughter at the same time.

"I didn’t ask for any more details as it was too horrific to hear.

“He also told me how he had ‘touched’ a three-year-old in his bedroom. I was shocked. That was it for me, I couldn’t take anymore.”

Watkins sent Joanne a picture of a girl holding a tile with cocaine and a razor blade on it. In the girl’s hand was a rolled-up dollar bill.

There was another one where she was posing suggestively.

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He also confessed how his favourite film was an eastern European film which shows a newborn baby being raped.

Then Watkins spoke about his ultimate fantasy - the kidnap and killing of children. She said dealing with his revelations, as well as her own cocaine abuse and the demands of her job, sent her spiralling into depression and in August 2007 she had a mini stroke.

After three months on sick leave, Joanne resigned from her job at a leading bank. Desperate to make ends-meet to support her son she took a job as an escort, inviting clients back to a hotel for sex.

Her relationship with Watkins had continued intermittently. But by August 2008 Joanne decided she needed to end it and at this point first told him she was going to contact police.

“He begged and cried saying, ‘I can’t believe you’re doing this to me. My mother’s been asking after you this week’.

“He also tried to make me sign a gagging order which said I was to destroy any electronic chats between us where he discussed what he wanted to do to children, as well as the pictures he sent of the three-year-old girl.

“At first I refused to do it, and I wrote all over it, ‘I will sign this when it isn’t full of b******t,’ and I sent it back.

"Ian went crazy and begged me to sign it. I sought legal advice and thought if I sign it will get him off my back and then I could go to the police.”

In December 2008, Joanne contacted the Child Protection Unit at Pontypridd, where Watkins still lived with his mother .

But she says it was three months before South Wales Police decided to send an officer from her local station in West Yorkshire to see her.

Joanne says they weren’t taking her seriously. She also believes Watkins had been made aware of her complaint.

“Basically in that three months I believe he’d already hidden all his computer. He covered his tracks.

"I remember the last thing I said to the police. I said, ‘Look, I’m not some psycho. If anything else happens to another child it’s on your head, not mine.’

“I walked away and thought there was nothing more I could do.”

Joanne said not being taken seriously led her to question her own judgement and she apologised to Watkins for reporting him.

“He said, ‘I can’t believe I’m seeing you again after everything you’ve done.’ I said how sorry I was, I was so apologetic and thinking I had it wrong,” she said.

But two weeks later Watkins arrived to meet her with a bag of heroin.

Joanne went on: “Ian said, ‘I’ve got something to show you.’ He tried to get me to snort some lines of heroin but I refused. He opened up his laptop and he started playing this video.

"It was of a little girl, about five or six-years-old, being raped. Ian had this evil grin on his face while he stared at me.

“I could feel the tears coming into my eyes. I was thinking, ‘Oh my god, I wasn’t wrong about him. I wasn’t wrong at all'. I noticed a massive change in him then both physically and mentally which I put down to heroin.

“I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. I knew now I wasn’t wrong but I had doubted myself as the police didn’t do anything. How could he have accepted by apology and then played me a sick video like that?”

Joanne threw him out of her room and told the hotel receptionist to order him a taxi to take him back to his band mates.

“I was so shaken but I didn’t know what to do as I’d been threatened with harassment charges when I reported him before,” said Joanne.

“I didn’t know the victim in this video either. I felt the police are just going to think I’m crazy and Ian’s going to call me a liar.

“So I just left it. I left it for nine months. But that image haunted me every day.”

In May 2011, Watkins contacted Joanne again this time to invite her to Los Angeles where he was recording tracks for the band’s latest album, Weapons.

He told Joanne one of the songs had been written with her in mind and he wanted her to hear them exclusively.

She refused.

But Watkins persisted with his invites and started to bombard her with messages detailing his sick sexual fantasies again.

He even told her he’d raped a five-year-old girl while in America who he said was the daughter of an “obsessed druggie groupie”.

Joanne told the singer she didn’t believe him but after Watkins sent chilling images of the young girl to her through Skype she immediately contacted the police again.

Distraught Joanne said: “I was referred back to the same child protection unit where I originally reported Watkins.

“You know when you’re speaking to someone and you can tell they are not listening to you.

“I pleaded, ‘He’s telling me to go to LA to see him. This is where that little girl is. I’m going to go to the LA Police Department because they will not mess around.

"They will put a gun to his head and they will deal with them.”

Frustrated at the lack of police involvement Joanne agreed to meet Watkins in America. She intended to use all her cunning to gather more evidence from him.

“I planned to go into escort mode. Your job is to be a very good actress and cater for someone’s fantasies. I was going to get all the evidence needed.”

Watkins, she believes, stole her Blackberry phone - containing images of horrific child abuse - shortly after she had arrived at the singer’s apartment in West Hollywood.

He also refused to leave her side, eventually making sure she was taken back to the airport for her return flight to the UK.

After taking time out to visit her twin sister in Australia, Joanne returned to the UK determined to nail Watkins.

She went in search of what the singer called his “superfans” - who he boasted would offer up their babies to him - convinced that was the way to garner evidence to back her worst fears.

Using Twitter she contacted a young mother - later described in court as woman A - who she suspected may have allowed her baby boy to be abused.

She also extracted a confession from another mother - woman B - who admitted allowing Watkins to carry out sexual attacks on her baby daughter. But neither wanted to involve police.

Despite being armed with names, addresses and date of births, Joanne says police once again ignored her testimony in October 2012.

Later that month Watkins was arrested after a drugs tip-off resulted in a raid on his parents’ home in Pontypridd.

A laptop seized from Watkins’s home was password protected and was later sent to GCHQ to have it ‘cracked.’

Experts found the password was an obscene reference to child abuse and contained a cache of extreme pornography, videos and conversations about attacking children.

Finally Joanne found she was being taken seriously. She handed over her laptop and the details of women A and B to detectives.

Joanne has since made a series of complaints to the Independent Police Complaints Commission.

A detective sergeant who worked in child protection is currently under investigation after being accused of failing to act on information of child sex crimes by Watkins.

The sergeant formerly based in the regional command HQ in Pontypridd, is currently being probed by the Independent Police Complaints Commission.

The detective sergeant is also accused of not acting on a separate alleged crime in March 2012 of the alleged rape of a girl.

Joanne said: “Ian used his fame to get his fans, he preyed on them and he wasn’t even choosy about who they were.

“They were Jeremy Kyle fodder and he must have been paying them to do what they did.”

Joanne, who is now seeking counselling to get over the ordeal, added: “I just think he got off on the fact that he was torturing me by telling me depraved things.

“I’ve always said that to police, he’s getting away with it because he thinks he’s untouchable.

“All I ever wanted was children to be protected from a monster, the truth to be told and failures to be accounted for.”