Returning from her first unaccompanied trip to a restaurant bathroom, my ten year-old daughter excitedly said: “That was the best bathroom of my life!” I certainly didn’t expect this trip to change her life, but it seems that sometimes bathrooms do that.

It turns out that, to her, this bathroom was pretty special. She marvelled: “There is salt to wash your hands!” I was puzzled, but just as I started to shift in my seat to get up and go see this for myself, the server came over to our table and leaned in close, whispering to her: “Oh no, honey, we don’t tell the men that. They don’t get to have the fancy stuff we get to have. We keep it all to ourselves.”

Just like that, the server walked away. I’m sure she didn’t expect that to change our lives. But sometimes the smallest comments can do that too.

My daughter was six when I came out as transgender and started using they/them pronouns. She started calling me Apa instead of Mommy. I identify as transmasculine nonbinary, but my kid just calls me “a they/them”.

Language is important because it can put all the big ideas into neat little packages. As a parent, I’m careful not to get so caught up with the package that I miss the good stuff. Non-binary just means that I’m not her mom or her dad. I’m her parent. Neutral. In that middle place where I get to be myself – no different than the self I’ve always felt like on the inside, just a few different versions of me on the outside.

The transmasculine part of me means that I feel much better with strangers seeing me as male than female. Because with strangers, it’s generally either/or. I take weekly shots of low dose testosterone and earlier this summer I had gender affirming top surgery to make my chest flat. I’ve never felt as comfortable in my body as I do now. At 40, parenting a ten year-old, that is a special gift for both of us.

As a trans parent in Trump's America, I'm not just telling my child to be herself – I’m showing her what that looks like. Sometimes people don’t agree with you. Sometimes people around you won’t understand you no matter how hard you try to explain yourself. Sometimes they will fight against you, they will stare and they may even make you feel unsafe.

Yet it is still worth it to be you. At ten, she’s still just getting started. Because it’s not just trans people who reinvent ourselves – everyone does, especially kids. My kid is certainly not the same version of herself as a toddler when she identified as a Disney princess. Yes, there are glimpses of that version of herself, when she wears a particularly twirly skirt, but she is so much more. You are not the same version of yourself from 20 years ago, either, and that is a good thing.

In 2019, the war against trans people is at an all-time high. Instead of fighting to keep us safe, the government, state legislatures and even school systems are fighting against trans people to remove protections, rights and our freedoms. Currently, medical providers aren’t allowed to hold back care for a transgender patient, but there is talk in the current administration to remove these protections allowing medical providers to make their own choices based on their personal beliefs. This is not okay.

A transgender man’s journey Show all 24 1 /24 A transgender man’s journey A transgender man’s journey Massie, when he was 22, poses on his bed in St Louis, Missouri. He says: ‘I’m extremely fortunate to have the people in my life and to even have the transition I've had’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey Aged 22, posing with Heaven. ‘Heaven and I had a very brief relationship, which was always more of a friendship, we went through some very hard times together’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey ‘It’s beyond luck, karma, blessed, whatever you believe in. I honestly never thought I would get to this point in my life.’ Massie, aged 21, in 2011 Reuters A transgender man’s journey With Heaven when he was 24 Reuters A transgender man’s journey Massie poses in the shower at his mother’s apartment. ‘My mother has always supported me. Even if it took a minute I’m the favourite’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey Testosterone, a needle and an alcohol swab. ‘When I first started it was painful and scary because I’ve never liked needles or shots, but you just get used to it. It’s everyday life now’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey ‘My dad has always been my person, I fully believe I get my strangeness and my weirdness from him’. Massie, 28, and his father Robbin Reuters A transgender man’s journey Aged 21 in 2011. ‘At my private school, I was the pretty girl who “fell in with the wrong crowd”. I remember the most popular girl at the time saying she didn’t know why I hung out with lesbians’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey ‘Growing up in Saint Louis shaped me as a human... It’s truly my home.’ Massie with his car, aged 25 Reuters A transgender man’s journey Fiancee Sandra and Massie, 28, at their home in 2018 Reuters A transgender man’s journey In 2015, aged 25. ‘I want surgery because I’ve never had an attachment to the fat that has been on my chest since puberty. I will finally be able to go outside without a binder. Finally be able to swim’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey Massie, at 26, talks with Elle (left) and Mackenzie (centre) in Elle’s apartment in 2015. ‘I have very long-lasting friendships in my life. About nine of us have been friends for over 10 years now’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey In 2012, aged 22 Reuters A transgender man’s journey Massie and Sandra joke around in their backyard in 2017 Reuters A transgender man’s journey Giving himself a testosterone shot in his bedroom in 2017, aged 27 Reuters A transgender man’s journey Massie serves a cocktail at Planter’s House in St Louis. ‘When I first started transitioning I couldn't find a job for the life of me’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey Posing behind a curtain on the day before his 22nd birthday Reuters A transgender man’s journey Massie smiles as Reeny prepares his testosterone shot on the day before his birthday in an alley in St Louis Reuters A transgender man’s journey Massie, 27, and Sandra at a Pride in St Louis. ‘It’s the rarest of the rare, and the most healthy relationship I could ever hope for. We’re not just partners, we’re best friends. Sandra is my everything’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey ‘I started shaving before any hair had shown itself, because I wanted more to grow.’ Harrison, 22, looks in the mirror as he applies shaving foam Reuters A transgender man’s journey Massie, aged 24, wears a binder in 2013. ‘After seven years of binding I’m having back, shoulder, collar bone, and sternum issues’ Reuters A transgender man’s journey ‘Wanting a beard was one of my first ways of letting my friends know I was going to transition. Now, I have a beautiful red beard that I am very proud of.’ Aged 25 Reuters A transgender man’s journey Massie, 25, eats breakfast with his cat Reuters A transgender man’s journey Sandra has her head shaved Reuters

We are people. We are parents. We are friends, teachers and even elected officials. We deserve access to medical care and welcoming schools and safe bathrooms. We deserve the opportunity to thrive.

In our family, we celebrate identity. We celebrate the differences in our friends in race and colour and religion and language. We celebrate difference of opinion. We celebrate the opportunity to learn and grow and support one another. Having a trans parent is not always easy for my kid, but she celebrates the difference anyway. When she’s frustrated or scared, she has learned to ask for help.

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As the server walked away from my daughter that day, moments after her first solo trip to the bathroom, she asked: “What just happened?” It took a minute for us to figure out what she had said, but I eventually responded: “She thinks I’m a boy.” Her face lit up, and she excitedly replied: “Just like you want!”