April 1st, 2020



7:36 pm

The Mayor warned that April would be worse. It’s April now. I’m scared. I’m scared because I don’t know who might be next. I wish my sister and my best friend didn’t have to go to work. It’s a strange world we live in, where we put our lives on the line to be able to bring some bread home and to keep a roof over our heads. It’s been days since I last saw my friends. I miss getting out from work and grabbing dinner with my friends. I miss going out for walks. I miss the time when people did not look at each other with suspicious eyes at grocery stores, and your neighbor would hold the door open for you as you both walked into your building. I even miss taking the subway, even though I never thought that would ever be possible. There have been almost 1100 deaths today. When is this going to end?





March 29th,2020

12:10pm

So I put on my mask and gloves today, went out with my best friend to get some groceries done, came home and washed the clothes I wore outside on the sink and showered. I followed the instructions, but why am I still scared? It’s a weird gut feeling. But what was I to do? I couldn’t have survived the next few days if I hadn’t gone today, even though the shelves were pretty empty and I wasn’t able to get all the items I needed. It felt weird to go out today. The city that was once so crowded brimming with life, is dead and empty now. All you see are empty streets and people standing on lines near stores, six feet apart from each other. Each trying to hide their fears behind a mask and desperate to get some essentials for themselves or their families. Couples don’t share kisses anymore on the streets, and there are no pats on the backs. All you notice are scared eyes, each trying to be as far away as possible from the other. Well, hey, on the bright side, I can’t be indecisive about which brand to get if I can’t get anything at all thanks to the empty shelves.





March 28th, 2020

5:28 pm

Kinda worried about what to eat for the next few days. I’m officially out of cleaning wipes and disinfectants. My laundry is piling up while my fridge is emptying. I’ve been trying to order some essentials online, but the deliveries are gonna take forever. Mom called for the 9th time today, reminding me not to step out of the house. I can’t even blame her for worrying so much, it’s getting crazy in NY. Guess I’ll have to go get some groceries when she goes to sleep and I know she won’t call. Thank God for the 12hour time difference.





March 11th, 2020

11:00pm

The World Health Organization declared the fast-spreading coronavirus outbreak a pandemic today. According to statnews.com, 114 countries have reported that 118,000 people have contracted COVID-19 and nearly 4,300 people have died. God, save the world.





March 9th, 2020

5:13 pm

So the doctor did not see me, and I was asked to leave the premises immediately. I’m really mad, but I know I shouldn’t be. They are only doing their job. The moment I stepped out of the elevator and into the reception of the doctor’s office, I was handed a form with some symptoms and asked to check off whichever I was experiencing. Since I had gone for my migraine, I obviously marked “headache” and handed the form back. To my surprise, everyone at the reception started panicking, and it took a few seconds for me to realize that the form was given to me to make sure I did not have any coronavirus symptoms. Since I had gone there with a complaint of a headache, which happens to be a COVID-19 symptom, I was asked to leave. I did not have any other symptoms, but they wanted to be safe. So, I wonder, how many patients are being turned away from getting necessary treatments because of this?





March 9th, 2020

4:35 pm

I have a doctor’s appointment today for my migraine. This headache has been killing me and it’s so hard to focus on work when all you wanna do is lay down and bury your head under the blanket so the light does not irritate your eyes. So I took off from work early (I work from home), and as I was walking towards the subway station, I felt something I have never felt before. A fear to breathe. They say it’s not airborne, but why is it still scaring me? I was scared to come in contact with the turnstiles, the people around me, and even the MetroCard after swiping it. My legs are hurting in these heels, and there are empty seats, but I’m scared to sit there. For some reason, I wasn’t scared until now. Maybe I wasn’t taking it seriously before. But it feels so real now. There have already been 704 cases in the US until today. What if I’m next? What if someone from my family is next?





March 3rd, 2020

8:45 pm

New Yorkers have been asked to self-isolate last week due to the rapid spread of COVID-19 and so we try to stay home as much as possible and avoid going out. To be honest, this self-isolation thing is frustrating. It’s only been a few days and all I do now is eat, sleep and gain weight. I have been snapping at everyone who called me today. I wonder if I’ll still have any friends after this whole quarantine thing ends. I know I’m not the only one, cause I can hear my flatmate yelling on the phone too. This crankiness is not really a cute look. Gotta find ways to make myself look sane. So why not just write more about it to distract myself, right? Right.