I decided to do it on Christmas Day 2017. My family didn’t celebrate Christmas but it was a time we were all together. "This will be a gift they never forget," I thought - trying to make myself smile through my nerves. At the dinner table, in front of my mum, sister, and aunt, I said out loud what I’d known since I was 13. There was a pause, and for a few moments, I was terrified, until my aunt broke the silence. "I always thought you were gay, Tugay!" she said. We all burst out laughing. I hugged them all and felt an immense sense of relief wash over me.