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"Mm… oh baby…" I chuckled, bringing her thighs up to my hip as I carry her upstairs. She laughed against my lips, hugging my body.

"You are so gorgeous," she whispered, biting my bottom lips. Without me realizing, she quickly tugged my tie off my neck and unbuttoned my shirt. I stared at her in surprise, but laughed it off.

And as soon as we got upstairs, I brought her against the wall, lips smashed against each other with lust and hurry. She moaned, sending goosebumps down my spine. I was burning up and with the fire inside of me, I ripped her stockings.

"Ah! Miss Snow!"

I chuckled, biting her neck, whispering words against her hot skin. "What are we going to do, huh, my princess? You're the one who's against the wall…" I shoved my leg between hers, rubbing against her center and she sighed loudly. Immediately, I shoved my tongue inside of her, letting her ride on my leg.

"You better stay quiet, babe… my family is asleep…" I whispered, dark blue eyes eyeing her up and down.

"Or else…?"

Smirking, I grabbed her chin, tilting her head up. She held her breath. "I'm going to stop."

With a small gulp, she nodded, her smile on her face still as pretty as ever. Her body continued to grind against my leg, groaning and I hugged her tightly, letting her kiss my neck. I smiled, biting her ear playfully with delight—

"Elsie…?"

Quickly I turned to the voice and all activities stopped with her frustrated groan. I looked down to the four years old blonde, holding a blanket and a teddy.

"Miss… who's that?"

I smirked. "It's my niece."

And my niece looked confused, staring at both of us back and forth. "Elsie, what are you doing?" I had to stiffen a laugh—and a groan as the woman licked my neck without care, biting my skin with pleasure. Ah, that felt good.

"E-Elsie, does it hurt?"

I bit my lips, tilting my head up. With all my strength I turned to the little girl. "Jackie… Ah… what are you doing up?"

She looked down to the ground, almost crying. "I-I had a scary dream and I wanted to go to daddy…"

"Then… go to your… Mm… daddy, Jackie." I squeaked loudly, giggling as the woman's teeth caught my ear. Jackie was still here, looking at us. I groaned, pushing my lover away.

"Go to my room, turn around to the corner and you'll find the bathroom. Next to it, is my room. Here, take my keys, I'll be back in a moment." I tossed her the keys and she blew me a kiss, hips swaying steadily as she went.

"E-Elsie…?"

I sighed, annoyed. "Come, let's go to your father's room." I offered her a hand and with her tiny ones, she took it.

In silence, we walked until she was just a few feet away from Jack's room. "Just go in there, it's okay."

She nodded and looked at me. "Elsie?"

"Yes?"

"What were you doing before? Why are your clothes like that?"

I scratched the back of my neck. Well, I did not expect her to ask that. "We were … expressing our lov for each other." She looked confused.

"Love? Like how Daddy and Mommy say 'I love you' to each other?"

Well, fuck. "Yes, close. Now, why don't you go—" Oh no, her face lit up.

"Does that mean Daddy and Mommy can also love me like that since they say it to me too?" Her tiny feet jumped up and down.

That was a shocker. I couldn't answer her and any arousal I had before was gone by then. "I'll… um…" This was the first time since a long time, I'd been speechless like this. What did I expect when I answered that damned question?

"Hm, no sweetie, this is an … adult thing. We can talk about this in the morning. Good night, my dear." Kissing her cheek and letting her kiss my nose, I left, nearly bursting into laughter. Oh dear god, I never had to hold down my laughter for so long.

Morning came, the sky filling with grey clouds. The room was dark and new, unfamiliar to my eyes. It was 5AM and I had been awake for longer than I had thought. My right arm dangled off the bed, eyes staring blankly at the wall just a few feet away from me. I wondered if I was already driven to craziness by one—no, two girls. My eyes watered, but I could not feel a sob coming up. There was no reason for me to weep, anyway.

The only noises that filled this room were the ticking of the clock, the birds chirping outside, and the sound of her breathing. If only it was Anna who was breathing beside me—

"Anna…" I whispered to myself. I wondered if she was alright—but of course, she wasn't. Not one of us were. Since the very beginning, I had caused a mess. But I was too blind to realize it until I had left her to cry on her own, drunk, and with a slap across the face. She did not earn that, I would admit it.

Shutting my eyes, I swallowed dryly. That expression she had when my palm went across her face was painful. Horrific. As if, I had scarred her all over.

Chills ran down my spine and I shuddered.

I regret it.

Opening my eyes, I stared at my palm, still aching from the hit. I slapped her. I had one chance to redeem myself and I blew it with a slap across her face. She did not deserve it—most of all, did not deserve me and I would be more than glad to see her smile without me. Even if her radiating smile was caused by someone who was not me.

"Mm… babe…?"

I opened my eyes, feeling the woman shift, her arms reaching for my stomach, her legs entangled with mine. I smiled and rolled over to stare at the brown-haired woman. Her eyes were closed, her grin widening. Her hair was a mess and bruises covered her body. I chuckled joyfully as I fingered through her hair, kissing her forehead.

"Hello baby girl," I breathed.

She smiled blissfully and Anna was instantly out of my mind. She would do this to me, keeping unwanted things off my mind with ease. "Mm… Good morning…" she slurred, arms running up and down waists.

"Good morning to you too," I whispered, lovingly. "Go back to sleep… it's too early."

"Mhm…" She nodded and tucked her head under my chin. At last, I had a chance to relax. Breathing through her hair, she still had the same scent since… forever.

"You should… sleep too… Snowflake…"

"I will. Goodnight, babe."

She yawned and smiled widely towards me, sticking her lips out. I chuckled and kissed her lightly.

"Night…" she mumbled and curled up against me like a koala. I stayed quiet, hugging the girl, drawing circles on her naked back.

I stared and she looked so happy, smiling ever so gently in my arms.

At that moment, Anna came back, this time accompanied by Belle.

Throwing my good arm over my head, I looked up to the ceiling and breathed out my sorrow. Belle was right—she was always right about everything. If I had listened to her, Anna and I… we would not have been so hurt. No, I brought this upon myself and I deserve to be hurt.

Anna did not. She did not deserve all this… bullshit. We would still have been together, living happily ever after. I sighed. Oh, how I wished we would end up with a happy ending, where we'd live happily ever after. And oh how stupid of me to… hide.

Dull blue eyes turning to Belle and she looked like a greedy child, taking me all in her arms. I laughed in bitterness. Ah yes, we were both childish and immature in our own way. How we'd break each other's heart, have rough sex, make up… ah, what fuck-ups we were. Our fucked up selves belonged to one another.

I breathed out silently, closing my eyes. My shoulder ached as I put pressure against it, but I endured. Stiffening a pained groan, I felt her finger wandering freely on my scar softly. It had an immediate effect. My body relaxed into a puddle at the warm feeling, freeing me from any pain. The agonizing groan turned into a satisfying hum. Ah, thank you. Tucking my chin over her head, a small pleasing grin crossed my cheeks. Mm… how soothing.

Slowly, my heavy eyelids lost the fight to stay awake and, in her arms, I finally managed to sleep peacefully.

Sleeping beside him with his big arms around my tiny body made me feel safe. I stared at him as he slept soundlessly, fingers caressing his freckled cheeks. I grinned faintly, letting my fingers trail up to his hair, running through the radiating redness.

Birds chirp through the thundering sky, rumbling and threatening. I frowned. God, was it going to rain today? What a perfect timing after Elsa and I—

The alarm clock went off and I jerked, startled and interrupted by my thoughts. They were unnecessary turmoil, anyway. Thank the heavens. Rolling my eyes, I chose to ignore the noises and continued to stare at his face. It was only eight in the morning.

"Mm…" he groaned, eyebrows twitching and ended up glaring.

I chuckled, watching his arm blindly reaching for the alarm. "Off~" he grumbled. Quickly he slammed his palm on the top. It was quite amusing to watch him struggle and groan as he reached for it.

"Good morning, my little red head," I whispered, getting up a bit, elbows supporting my weight.

He groaned and stayed quiet for a moment, eyes still closed. I pouted. "I said, good morning~" I whispered to his ear, slowly nibbling his earlobe. He hummed and finally, fingers ran up and down my waist.

"Good morning to you too, baby girl..." he slurred, opening his eyes slowly with a warming grin. Ah, his hair was messy. He drew gentle circles around my back, silently taking in all of my presence.

"How long have you been awake?" Hans mumbled against the pillow.

"Long enough to watch you sleep," I smiled. "… And snore."

He groaned, cursing under his breath. "Sorry… usually, I don't snore… I think. Ugh, my hair…"

"Don't worry, you look beautiful... and buff. God damn Hans, you really are freaking strong. What happened to that skinny kid, I used to know, huh?" I chuckled, poking his biceps.

"Shut up… I'm older than you…"

"Huh."

"Huh is right."

Suddenly he looked up to me, his expression giving me goosebumps. This was not good. My smile faltered and we were staring into each other's eyes. "How are you feeling…?" he whispered, voicing his concerns. Oh, what was that tensed face? I did not like it. My heart was racing.

Somehow, I managed a shrug. "I'm fine."

He searched through the color of my eyes, trying to find a hint of what I was feeling. I was exhausted. Exhausted from the feelings I had for Elsa, that is.

"You were drunk yesterday… do you realize that?" He caressed my cheek slowly.

"Yes."

He chuckled in astonishment and sat up, not caring if he was naked. And of course, I did not care either. I was well aware of what we did. What I told him that night.

"What you said last night…" He took my hand and I held it tightly. "Did you really mean it? 'I love you', was it? You really meant that?"

I stared into his eyes, gleaming in anticipating. Or was it fear? He was shaking as if my words were scaring him. I kept my eyes to our intertwined hands, thumbs caressing one another.

"Did you really mean it?" he repeated. I grinned, nodding. But his expression didn't change and he hadn't stopped shaking. His expression was tight, eyes dark with resentment. I was almost positive that he did not believe my words.

"You don't believe me…?" I murmured. He laughed softly and kissed my forehead. Mouthing an 'I do' I leaned in to kiss him. He hugged me tightly, accepting my love through a deep and loving kiss. Smiling like an idiot, he slowly pulled away, looking into my eyes.

"I just wanted to make sure, babe. You know, so that it's not drunk talk. You okay?" he asked.

"I'm more than okay with you," I mumbled sweetly against his lips, nibbling playfully. Brushing my fringes away softly, he kissed me again and again until his expression tightened once more. Oh now what, we were doing so great!

Hans cleared his throat and I looked at him up and down strangely. He pushed me away, sighing.

"Elsa Snow… did you know how hard she cried?"

I blinked. "W-What?"

He gulped, taking a deep silent breath. "I saw her running in tears last night when we bumped into each other. She looked so scared, last night. Anna, she was just… she was really trying hard to hold herself together from breaking down in front of me." How could he say this to me now? I couldn't bear to listen.

"She's very pretty, you know? But… she needs those care for her… her friends… her family… Anna, she needs a lot of help."

Closing my eyes, I felt a ping of hurt inside of my heart. "Hans, you don't know her like how I do."

The redhead smiled. "I don't but… her eyes say it all."

I sighed, hoping that all my doubt, regret, and desperation would be all let out. My heart stopped and I would not dare to imagine this woman breaking down in front of me. I avoided looking into his eyes. But of course, he didn't care, he just needed me to hear it. Green eyes turned to our entangled hands, caressing each other.

"She told me to take care of you, Anna."

I shut my eyes. "Hans…" I did not need to hear this. I did not need to feel something so unnecessary. My chest felt like it was going to burst.

"She told me that if I'd ever hurt you, she would never forgive me. Anna, I'm listening to her. I promised her—"

"Why…" My voice trembled, tears blurring my sight. I closed my eyes, clearing my thick voice with a deep breath. "Why are you doing this for her?"

He kissed my forehead. "Because I owe her. I have to make up for… all the teasing and bullying I did to her—both of you, I guess. And I owe her because…" He chuckled cheerfully and flicked a finger under my chin. "I've got to be friends with you—lovers even. I'm grateful for her, Anna."

"Hans… let's not—"

"She cares about you more than you think, Anna."

I had no words. Her care for me, it'd always made me feel doubtful and hurtful. I'd always been by her side, been there for her, or … taking care of her. But I was free from her clutch. And it was all thanks to Hans and Olaf. But …I never would have expected Hans tolisten to Elsa. Or… so I thought. .

His fingers and lips came up to catch falling tears. "Anna… she told me make you happy and I promised her." He smiled widely, proudly. "I promised her because… I actually really, really do want to make you feel like a princess, even without her telling me to."

"I am."

Hans sighed with annoyance, shifting nearer to me. "Are you really…?" I looked down, his hand caressing mine. I only succeeded in opening my mouth and closing it, no words coming out. It was something that I had to think through.

Looking helpless, I brought my eyes up to him. I grinned, gently, arms wrapped around his waist. "With you, I will be, right?"

Silence filled the dark room and we were staring into each other's eyes. He laughed, bringing me into a tight hug, sprinkling me with his love and affection through kisses. "Oh, I hope so, babe," he whispered, lips brushing against mine. Giggling, I pulled him in and kissed him once more. Hums filled the air and I felt so free. Free from her grasp. Free from her pity party. Ah, it felt so… wonderful.

But it wasn't enough. I wanted more.

Quickly I got on top of him, hands cupping his cheeks as I kissed him deeply. The gentle hums turned into moans.

"Anna…" he moaned, hands slowly floating up from my thighs to my hip. I kissed his neck, gentle like a feather.

"Anna… later…"

"Hm…?"

He managed to push me away, out of breath. His eyes were dark, groping my body in his gaze. "We can do this later…" He looked up, clearing his throat. "I... I have work, right now. So… later? When I come back?"

I chuckled and got off him, getting under the blanket. "Sure, later."

"Great." With a kiss on my forehead, he quickly got out of bed and turned to the door—

"Um… Hans?" I nearly gave out a childish giggle.

"W-What?"

"You should um…" Ah, I couldn't take it anymore! "Y-You wanna cover yourself up or what? I mean…" I burst into laughter as he looked down at his crotch, giving out a squeak. "I-I don't mind if you—"

"G-Give me that!"

I gasped as he snatched the blanket, running away with it without looking back.

"Hans!"

"S-Sorry, babe!" he shouted and I could hear his feet tapping rapidly through the hall. He went to the bathroom, by the sound of the door slamming in the hallway.

I sighed, grabbing his pillow to cover me up. I looked up at the ceiling, staring blankly, as I entertained myself with thoughts of Elsa. Closing my eyes, I shook my head rapidly. I shouldn't be thinking about this—I needed my mind to be clear. My feelings for her were toxic. Our relationship was filled with lies and sex. She was beautiful, yet ugly. A mess.

But, I realized, I was the cause of this mess. I chuckled bitterly.

Ah, I was so naïve… so innocent and oblivious of what was happening around us. I should be ashamed of myself.

Closing my tired eyes, I let my hand go through my right shoulder. Did that hurt for her? To… protect me, she jumped in, trying to save me, only to have the upper right of her body crushed by something so big… did that hurt?

How hilarious.

"Elsa… you fucking idiot…" I whispered to myself, scratching my shoulder. "I hate you…"

But no. What I had for her was not love, not longing, not want. We were only lusting and thirsting for each other, hurting each other in between.

She manipulated me. She lied. She controlled.

"Stop… Just stop it…" I whispered, rubbing the bridge of my nose. I was tired of these feelings for her.

My heart pounded loudly. And even with Hans, the pain of my heart pounding just for her was still there. I pressed a hand against my chest. It hurt. It burned, tearing me apart. But despite all the lusting and thirsting… mind-fucking and just fucking… I had a heart and so did she.

I bit my lips, resisting the urge to weep for her. I curled myself up, stuffing my head against my pillow. Tears flowed freely, shoulders shaking as I cried.

"Elsa…" I cried.

And I cried harder because deep down in my tiny heart, deep down in that little sparkle of light inside of me, I loved her.

Thunders rumbled and lightening roared through the dark sky.

I looked out at the window with a cup of coffee in my hand. I looked down, watching the dark liquid swirl.

"Are you done staring, Belle?" I murmured.

She sighed and came up to me, wrapping her arms around me from behind, kissing my shoulder.

"Hey baby…"

I grinned, letting her spoil me with her love. "Hi, how do you feel?"

She chuckled against my skin, her teeth biting me and I stiffened a nice long groan. "I feel great… after that interesting night. What happened, baby girl?" She grabbed my rear and I laughed as she smacked it softly.

"Just had a thought. A change of play would be nice." I sighed, feeling her fingers glide under my shirt, warmth pooling over my body. Gods.

"Any dreams?"

"Not since three months ago." I smiled proudly. "She helped."

"Hm." She looked at me up and down, eyes groping me everywhere. "… Well, I am expecting you to tell me something. I want an explanation for all… this."

"What…?"

She stopped, eyes capturing mine in an instant. I knew this was coming.

"You still haven't told me what happened," she whispered. I took a sip, putting my free hand on hers. My grin melted slowly, hoping she wouldn't notice my bitterness.

"Later."

"Well, you're not getting away until you tell me, baby." She got in front of me, my waist in her arms. She looked into my eyes, coming closer to me, but I was not moving. I let her kiss me and I let myself deepen the kiss, filled with desire.

"So…" She pulled away, letting our lips brush slightly. "You want to tell me?"

"I said later…" It took all my strength to not push her up against the glass and tear her clothes off. I placed my palms on her thighs, going up to hug her waist, smiling against her lips. Ah, she was making me feel so drunk with desire.

"Did you break up with her?" Clearly, she had to ignore me. I sighed, closing my eyes, dropping my arms.

"Yes."

Quickly she pulled me back as I was about to push her away, her hand roughly pressed on my back, my front on hers. I could smell her shampoo. "Look at me when I speak. Do you hear me?"

I gulped, hypnotized. "Yes…" Her eyes were trapping mine in hers and for the first time, I felt weak and vulnerable. I grabbed her arms to steady myself. Effortlessly, I was still shuddering like crazy for her, twitching from her touch and her darkened eyes. Was I scared?

She cupped my chin with her fingers, tilting my head down to her. I muffled an incoming gasp, my ears growing hot as we continued to look at each other.

"Did she remember, Elsa?" she whispered. I could feel her lips on my skin. It burned me inside out.

"…Yes…"

"Did you argue with her?"

"No."

She stayed quiet, staring at me as if she was observing me. Did Anna feel like this the first time we'd met? "She left without any words exchanged?"

"Just… some."

She raised her eyebrows, expression stern. "Elsa… you should've listened to me…" she said, letting go of my chin and I breathed in relief. Soon regret took over.

"I… I know…"

She sighed, caressing my cheeks. "What did she do to you…?"

"She did nothing," I murmured, blue eyes looking at her coldly.

She squinted. "I don't believe you, you've always been a terrible liar."

Ha! What a joke.

"I'm not joking." It was hard trying not to soften up in front of her. I sighed. "At least… at least, I'm here like you've always wanted."

Belle grinned, nodding as she let go of me. "You going out for a run? It's raining."

I turned around and grabbed my running shoes and my phone. "It'll help me keep my mind clear," I told her, fastening my shoelaces on. If only running would help keep me away from these feelings and these problems. Grabbing my headphones and tucking my hair under my hoodie, I kissed her goodbye.

"I'll be back in an hour," I breathed, blue eyes looking into her coffee colored eyes. She held my waist and smiled with her soft lips caressing mine gently. I was growing weak in the knees, unable to pull away from her alluring touch, soft like a feather.

When she pulled away from me, her eyes were dark,. her breathing shallow.

"Belle…" I whispered, fingers coming up to caress her cheeks and she purred, leaning against me. Looking up to me, she chuckled, kissing my jaw. I growled, pushing her away from me with all my might.

"You think it'll keep your mind clear? By running away from your feelings?"

"It's just a run, Belle." I sat back down on the chair, fixing my shoelace.

She nodded but her expression told me otherwise. Crossing her arms, she observed my every reaction but I stayed empty. I felt nothing, warmth leaving me.

"I love you," she said and quickly I got up and pecked her lips.

"There's coffee in the kitchen, you should drink some."

Humming with delight, she licked my lips and chills ran down my spine. "I will. Have you eaten?"

I shook my head.

"Then I'll make breakfast for us when you come back."

Smiling, I gave her one last kiss. "I'll see you later, baby."

"Mhm… Love you."

Thunders roared through the dark sky, pouring rain smacking against my body as I ran. What a burden. Twenty minutes into running down the dock, I was soaked.

Instead of clearing my mind as I thought I would, I was thinking. I stared down, my feet rapidly hitting the woodened floor. Regret and hurt struck through my body and she was in my mind again. My eyes were blank, staring into space. Anna overwhelmed me.

"Am I a toy to you?"

Growling, I shook my head and the lightning struck the sky, brightening the town for a mere second. Her laughter haunted me, hands roaming all over my body as she whispered to me, lips brushing against my neck and my ear delicately. I ran faster, gritting my teeth as if I could run away from the thought of her. But no matter how fast I ran, her chilling voice followed me.

"I'm… just a whore you'd fuck until you're tired and would toss me out?"

"No…" I whispered to myself, glaring at the floor. I felt useless, helpless. Most of all, guilty.

"I'm just another one of those women, right?"

"No!" I shouted, anger boiling inside of me. I stopped, chest heaving up and down as I breathed heavily. "No…" Looking up to the sky, that was filled with nothing but darkness—like my heart—I felt destroyed. But that was okay, I was the cause of everything. I closed my eyes, letting my hoodie fall off from my wet locks, fringes covering my eyes.

"No… you're not…" I whispered, letting the thunder respond back. Ah, the rain felt nice and cool for once. If only it'd wash away my worries.

"Elsa, do you love me?"

I did.

"I do…" I murmured, swallowing. "I fucking do…"

Sighing, I ran my palms through my face, trying to wake myself up. And I needed to wake up from this nightmare and accept reality. Accept that she'd left me once again. And if she'd ever come back, I'd hold her tight. I'd cherish her. Bursting into laughter, I knew what I wished for was only just a bloody dream. How absurd to think of this. What a stupid girl I was.

With me like this, she'd never see me again. I'd be fine with that.

Whatever.

I collected myself with a small slap on the cheek and fingers smoothing my fringes back—

Thunder continued to roar around us, driving me to silence as I stared at the girl in front of me with an umbrella in her hand and—I looked down—her arm hooked around another. I stared at the arm and there was this man. He stared at me, smiling gently.

My heart shattered into pieces like broken glass, watching as her hand ran down from his arm and held his hand. And as much as it hurt me, I looked into her eyes. They sparkled. Did that mean she was happy?

Our eyes never left each other, silence still enveloping this thick atmosphere. I straightened myself up, blue eyes strong and cold like always. My body shook in fear, in hatred, and jealousy. Taking a deep breath, I put my chin up. A cold person was what I was seen as, yes?

"Anna."

"Miss Snow."

My body twitched at the way she called me and slowly, I melted with a staggering breath. Taking a step towards her, she took two steps towards me.

"Anna… listen to me, please—"

Without another word, my eyes widened and I froze in my spot. What…?

She walked past me, ignoring my shock, ignoring my words. She giggled and whispered behind me with the man. I turned around, seeing her smiling and laughing with him. No… this wasn't happening… she wouldn't just ignore me. This wasn't the Anna I knew.

But I stayed on my spot, watching them grow smaller.

Taking a step towards them, I wanted to stop them. I was stuck in place.

"Anna… please…" I whispered, wrapping my body in my shaking arms and I broke down. I clenched onto my chest, watching them in fear, shock, and disgust.

They kissed, lips dancing gracefully with one other, moans responding to one another.

I covered my mouth, backing away as I watched them and I knew her teal eyes were crawling up my skin. My stomach churned and growled, tasting my own coffee from moments before.

Taking a deep breath, I turned my back on them. I didn't want this. I shouldn't be seeing this.

With all my guts, I decided to turn around. They were gone. For once, I was relieved to see Anna gone. But it burned, it hurt, and it was painful to see her and the intimacy she'd had with another person.

I wished I'd never seen that. Never seen her.

Looking around the empty dock as I took a deep breath, I blocked out all thoughts and all pain and continued my run. Faster and faster, I ran.

Nevertheless, I knew, no matter how many times I had to block her out, the pain would still be here. It would linger in my heart forever.