Yeah it hit me deep and made me wail in bed.... I lost my husband to cancer when I was 20, he was 31 and our baby was 4 days old. The experience of it all was sometimes unbearable and it changed me and if feels like for the worse. I dont recognize me now, I dont think he would recognize me if he could see me or talk with me. I'm still hirting so much and its affecting our daughter. I've done so much to try and heal but time has not helped, I've just sorta learned to live with the trauma and pain. I'm a trainwreck, and it seems to be getting harder. I know that no one can heal me but myself, but can you truly "heal" from multiple traumatic experiences...or do those just become you and you can never shake the traumatic off... When the emotional is beaten and broken, the mental takes a beating and then the body breaks down, I'm in the body breaking down fase, im 37 and im falling apart. I was a wife, a mother and then a widow within 6 months, I'm just tired of how much it weighs me down. This was my first real podcast I tuned into and it reached Into me and shook me a bit. I'd like to read her books. I'm glad I stumbled on your podcast and I'm super glad you had such a beautiful guest on.

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