This is long overdue ...

Hey everybody, this is Sam. I will start by saying that Tolki and I are both alive and healthy. I apologize for not streaming the last 2 years and for not updating anybody about our lives. I am sorry to anyone I have to tell this to for the first time, as it is something I am extremely embarrassed about, but the reason we stopped streaming is because Tolki had an affair that became very public due to circumstances out of my control. I wish this could have been worked out privately, but that is not the way it is. I have forgiven everybody who asked for my forgiveness. I take full responsibility for the decisions I made that led to where we are now. I’m not sure if I can ever forgive myself for the decisions that I made, but only time will tell. In hindsight, I should have immediately come out and said what happened and worked it out. Instead, my first reaction was to handle it privately which led to me not wanting to be in the public eye. The more time that passed, the harder it became to start streaming again. At that point, I didn’t know what to do. I honestly thought about streaming every single day, and it was something that I desired to do again, but I could not build up the courage to start. I hope you can understand how I felt. I felt like I had let everybody down. I made a lot of promises I didn’t keep, and I wish I could have. I have to live with these decisions though and keep moving forward and make the best of my life now.



I want to take this time to say thank you SO much to all the people who showed their love and support to us for all these years. To all the people who supported us when we streamed, we want you to know that it really meant the world to us. Streaming really was a dream come true, and I am still amazed at the kindness and generosity so many showed to us. During that period of my life, when we were streaming, were some of the happiest moments of my life. The Pokemon marathon, in particular, is something I will forever cherish. Over the past 2 years I have received many messages of concern and encouragement, and I want you to know I read every single one of them, and they gave me hope every time I wanted to give up.



I also want to take this time to thank my closest friends who helped me through the past 2 years of my life, which have no doubt been the hardest I have had yet: Dad, David, Andrew, Spencer, Zach. I love you guys. Thanks for being the best friends a guy could ask for. Thanks for crying with me, talking with me, and most importantly having fun with me.



Tolki has chosen not to speak, and I, as her friend, ask that you please respect her and respect her privacy. She doesn’t deserve any of the nasty things some people say about her. She is still one of my best friends in the whole world and I love her. Thanks for respecting me and her.



I think that’s most everything I want to say right now. I want to start streaming again soon, but I don’t know if I will or not. I am not going to make any promises, but expect to hear more from me in the near future. Any updates will be posted on this twitter account.



- Sam

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