My dear brother,

1 Jo Mr Peyron 2 Thanks very much for your letter of 22 Dec.containing a 50-franc note; first I wish you anda happy New Year and am sorry for having perhaps made you anxious, quite unwittingly nonetheless, formust have written to you that my mind has once again been very disturbed.

Mr Peyron At the moment of writing to you I haven’t yet seen, so I don’t know if he’s written anything to you about my paintings. He came to tell me while I was ill that he’d received news from you, and if I wanted to exhibit my paintings, yes or no. So I told him that I’d much rather not exhibit them. Which had no justification, and so I hope that they’ve gone off all the same. But anyway, I regret not having been able to see Mr P. today to find out what he wrote to you. Anyway, this doesn’t appear very important to me on the whole, since you say that they only go off on 3 January, you’ll still receive this in time.

Gauguin child 3 1v:2 What a misfortune for, thatfalling out of the window and he unable to be there,I often think of him, what troubles that one has, despite his energy and so many matchless qualities.

sister Jo I consider it perfect that ouris coming to help you whenhas her confinement. May it go well – I think a great deal of you both, I can assure you.

Now what you say about my work certainly is agreeable to me, but I still think of this bloody profession in which one is caught as if in a net and in which one becomes less practical than others. Anyway, useless alas to fret about this – and one must do as one can. Odd that I’d worked perfectly calmly on canvases that you’ll soon see, and that all at once, without any reason, the confusion took hold of me again.

Gauguin too much of a fix I think I’d again suggest to him going to live together where he’s staying, as we’d be able to feed the two of us on what it costs here for myself alone. Ifwas inmuch of a fix I think I’d again suggest to him going to live together where he’s staying, as we’d be able to feed the two of us on what it costs here for myself alone.

Mr Peyron 1v:3 I don’t know whatis going to advise me to do, but while taking account of what he’ll tell me I thinkthat he’ll dare less than ever to pronounce on the possibility of me living like before. It’s to be feared that these crises will recur. But it’s not at all a reason for not trying a to distract oneself a little.

For the crowding together of all these lunatics in this old cloister is, I believe, becoming a dangerous thing in which one risks losing all the good sense one might still have retained. Not that I’m set on this or that by preference, I’ve become used to life here, but mustn’t forget to try the opposite a little. Whatever the case, you can see that I’m writing to you with relative calm.

Mr Lauzet 1r:4 Very interesting what you write about’s visit. I think that when I send you the canvases that are still here he’ll certainly come back once more, and if I were thereI think I’d also start doing lithographs.

Reid Perhaps the canvases in question would fit the bill for

Mr Peyron Above all I mustn’t waste my time, I’m going to set to work again as soon aswill allow it, and if he doesn’t allow it then I’ll make a clean break with here. It’s that that keeps me still relatively balanced, and again I have a whole lot of ideas for new paintings.

Ah, while I was ill, damp, melting snow was falling, I got up in the night to look at the landscape – never, never has nature appeared so touching and so sensitive to me.

2r:5 The relatively superstitious ideas people have here about painting make me more melancholy than I could tell you sometimes, because there’s always basically some truth in it that as a man a painter is too absorbed by what his eyes see and doesn’t have enough mastery of the rest of his life.

Gauguin 4 Pissarro Guillaumin If you saw the letterwrote me last timeyou’d be touched by how upright his thoughts are, and for such a strong man to be almost immobilized is an unhappy thing. Andtoo,the same. What a business, what a business.

Mother Wil I’ve just received a letter from, and fromtoo.

Jo Wil In the next few days you’ll have many anxieties withat times, and a bad time to get through. But these are things without which life wouldn’t be life, and that makes one solemn. It’s a really good idea that’s going to be there.

2v:6 As for me, don’t worry too much. I’m calmly defending myself against the illness, and I think that I’ll be able to get back to work one of these days.

And this will be another lesson to me to try and work straightforwardly and without too many reservations that trouble the consciousness. A painting, a book, these mustn’t be despised, and if it’s my duty to do this, I mustn’t wish for something else.

Jo It’s time for this letter to go off, thanks again for yours, and good handshake to you and, believe me

Ever yours,

Vincent.