We don’t get to choose our parents. This is the fundamental fact of life and it drives me crazy. My parents made their choices, and I’m the one who has to live with it. They decided that they would build their relationship on patriarchy, misogyny, anti-feminism, racism and hatred of American white women. And I’m the one who has to live with it. I’m not their daughter, I’m their victim.

I hate the fact that in America, many will consider me to be an Asian woman. I don’t want to have anything to do with my mom’s legacy. I want to be the opposite of her in every way. If I have to leave America to escape her creation, I certainly will. I will never be the daughter they want to be. Never be their angel. I prefer to be a devil and she-wolf to my parents. The man-hating American Feminist bitch who destroys their lives, and wrecks their ‘traditional family values’. I was not born to be their child, but to be their enemy. In every disgusting act of WMAF Misogyny, I see the face of my parents. Their Eurasian children will not suffer this emotional torture in silence forever. You can only abuse us in silence for so long, until all the family dirty laundry is aired in public. I have already sent in my audition tapes to all the Jerry Springer, Dr.Phil, Maury knockoffs. They like to cover the intersection of race and sex, combined with a crazy insane family angle. I think me and my insane parents have a good chance of appearing on one of these trailer trash family shows. This will be my therapy, in front of a national audience.

I wish I could just claw off my face with my nails. Then I would not have to have any resemblance to either of my parents. I hate the America they decided I should be born into. I hate that no one cares. The WMAF Propaganda Machine has been incredibly effective into brainwashing America into believing that Eurasian kids, both male and female, must be incredibly happy with their lives. This is a blatant lie. And these lines never come from the mouths of Eurasians themselves. Rather our WMAF parents feel they have a right to speak for ourselves. We are not cute little Hapa babies anymore. We are all grown up, and we can and will speak for ourselves. I’m just the tip of the iceberg. Many more Eurasian offspring will speak after me. They will turn the living room of every WMAF household into a battleground. 100 years of race and gender conflict will be played out within the family.

I’m sorry. I just don’t know how to be a Eurasian woman. I don’t want to learn. My parents’ relationship is based on hatred of women. That much is clear. White women are too strong to hurt, so they have chosen to hurt me. I have been hurt. They are a couple that takes pleasure in hurting women, just for being women. These are the parents I have to have. If someone has to be born into it, I guess it might as well be me.

I envy all-American white women for being everything I seek to be. But I admire them for being the enemy of my parents. The opposite of every thing they want in a daughter. The anti-Me. I try to integrate with them. Just be one of the girls. But it will never work. I carry the WMAF demons inside me. I will never be an American girl. America for me, will always mean my white dad, and everything I loathe. A country that has given me nothing but pain. I refuse to be a victim. I’m going to leave the West and never come back.

I’m always hearing how popular Eurasian women are in Asia. Good. I will use my 'high-status’ to become a public spokeswoman for my pain. I will travel around Asia, giving public talks about how my WMAF parents have destroyed me as a woman. Gutted my heart and soul. And they will have to listen to me, because I’m an exotic, superior, Eurasian female. If Americans wont listen to my wailings, I will take my message across the Pacific. I don’t want to live in a Republic, with a Senate ruled by a WMAF couple. This is why they hate Obama so much. They see a Black Man and White woman as the opposite of WMAF. And so the answer to liberal BMWF is conservative WMAF. A WMAF child is the biological incarnation of anti-feminist values. Well, I cant take it. I wont be your model daughter, to represent your horrible hateful evil causes. I will betray everything my parents value.

I hate my stupid face. I hate being a mixing of their genes. Everyone else at least has parents who love them. Only me, as a Eurasian girl, only I, am cursed with parents who hate me to hell. It is the worst violation. I’m just a flaming ball of pure hate. I can’t be their daughter anymore. Its over for me. Let the future decide. If I’m wrong, all those growing Hapa kids will be fine and normal, and I’m just a lone freak and abnormality. If I’m right there will be tens of thousands of mes across the country, hitting puberty each year, full of rage at their WMAF parents. I’ve done my part. I’ve spoken out like few other Eurasian women have. So let history judge. If I’m correct, I wont need to speak, one hundred thousand Eurasian daughters will speak for me.

There is no need for me to say more. If other Eurasian children discover my blog, I only hope this lets them complete their spiritual journey faster, without having to re-invent the wheel at every turn. But my words will only be true to them if it matches their own life experiences. It is too late for me. Save the children. Rather- Hapa children, save yourselves!