When Poland has been coped with it will be our turn. E was knocked over emotionally by the situation and could think of nothing but the war. I think he will let me have a baby. He thinks the war will make it easier for me to have it.

Monday October 2, 1939

Listened to Churchill last night and was quite impressed, tho’ not so much as I expected. He has a quiet confidence and can joke enough but not too much. Very well delivered.

Friday October 13, 1939

The flavour of today was unobtrusively happy, derived of course from lunching with E and 2 things that he said – first, that he may after all have a day next week to walk, secondly, ‘Thank you for coming up to lunch’ – which made the way from Bank to Charing Cross glow warmly. Though it was strange to walk through the centre of London wondering how long it would be standing and I with eyes to see.

Wednesday November 1, 1939

Lunch with E. I couldn’t prevent myself from asking him, ‘Do you not want a baby too?’ and his immediate and serious ‘Yes’ comforted me. Even more in a way than his ‘You are very sweet’ in the cold rain on Saturday. I want so much to begin trying for a baby in December. Perhaps we will be able to. We are to have a quarter of a pound of butter and bacon per week when rationing begins next month. Not so bad as rumours which have been as small as 2oz of butter. We can manage.