It's a process. I'm very self critical as well (I'm a writer), but as I've gotten older, I've tried to embrace the idea that each one of my stories is an opportunity to learn. I often re-read my oldest work in order to gain perspective on where I've improved and where I've fallen short. It's pretty likely this approach has kept me sane!Nice work, by the way. I like the bright red in the foreground against the greys in the background, and the 2018 version seems a cleaner composition to me. Cheers!