We are here for you Dyrus please don't despair. It doesn't help to keep things bottled in. If you ever need anyone to talk to hit me up with no worries of you being exposed to social media in anyway. I find talking to a completely strangers about my problems helps even if it's just a little. Xoxo -butters

I broke up with my girlfriend and now I can’t sleep. I’ve been streaming 10 hours everyday and uploading two videos a day. I’ve learned so much in the last weeks then more then a year or two of my life.

I’m hungry. I have to do laundry. I gained ten pounds traveling. I haven’t been to the gym since I was back yet. Loco speaks in Korean in his sleep and it’s fking random as hell because it mixes with English.

I need a haircut. I hate and love the league community. There are some shady pro players and organizations. I can’t stream comfortably

Leveling up account has been my worst experience since getting rejected rebounded and led on after high school. My mechanics are random and inconsistent.

my pillow is not comfortable, no one ever takes the lint out of the dryer, my head is dry from traveling. My back is so tight and stuff you might as well call me a virgin.

I got a death threat from certain random messages during worlds.

But hey other then that I’m doing ok. I can at least play some other games and have fun with the jokes my subs and chat make on stream.

I don’t even think I should post this, but I will because on the inside I’m probably looking for attention like a selfish person. the same kind of person that I hate being. I’m probably going to be jaded as fuck but I’m still gonna be real with you guys even if it hurts or doesn’t benefit my income.

I just want to play some video games man, but first I need to find a way to fall asleep