



Another way that I developed my Se, in which was almost purely coincidental, was through my current job. Currently, I am a paraprofessional at a school for children with behavioral issues and autism, and I am finding myself “preforming” in ways that even 6 months ago I couldn’t imagine myself doing. Never in my life could I see myself standing in front of a class leading a lesson, or steering a class discussion. While it typically isn’t of a dense subject matter, it is quite a challenge in itself to explain where a decimal point goes on a calculator to a definite young teenage boy. When I first started this job a few short months ago, it was petrifying to stand in front of a group and be a firm leader and role model, but after doing so, it is one of the most invigorating experiences in my life. Pushing past the potential shame and embarrassment has earned me the respect of students and my peers alike.





Writing this blog has proved to be quite the challenge for me as well. Not only is the lack of time an obstacle, but sharing my thoughts and personal experiences has been quite demanding in itself. There has been times where my Se Inferior has kicked in heavily, and I feel “stupid” sharing my thoughts. Though I remain relatively anonymous, there is a fear that this blog will somehow infiltrate my personal life. Though I am sitting safely behind a computer screen in my bedroom, it seems that I am sticking my neck out there as irrational as it may sound. Knowing that I have a long journey ahead of me, I must push forward, because this will test me and greatly develop my character.





Like anything worthwhile, developing your subconscious is an arduous task, so a word of warning is warranted… Trying to Aspire your Inferior function is quite difficult. A thorn in the heel of any INTJ is the pitfall of Se Inferior. Anyone individual with Se in their top four functions often struggle with addiction in some form. For me, when I get stressed, I overeat, but others may drink or turn to drugs. There will be times where you get discouraged, and fall into the Ni-Fi Loop. When you fall into this loop, try to avoid beating yourself up. It seems commonplace that INTJ’s hold ourselves to a higher standards than we do others (and more often than not, we hold others to high standards.) Just be mindful of what’s going on, write it down to sort through your thoughts if needed. It’s becoming a bit of a cliche, but mindfulness is a great tool to self betterment. It may be difficult, but show some humility and ask for help. Therapy is a great way to have someone analylze and point out the falliacies in your day to day thinking.No matter how difficult things get, never give up. If you fail, learn from it and try again.