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Blakey (BlakeBelladonna92)

to me | 6:52 PM (19 hours ago)

How can you, in one email, scream at me about telling you what to do and what to be while in the same stroke of keys belittle me for not demanded you stay? I keep trying to stay out of your way, but you keep taunting me, just trying to get me to react. How am I supposed to take all this? I asked when you were coming back, and you flipped out at me for it. Why do you think I won't ask you to stay?

How can you say you love me and email me about the boys you're kissing? How can I be cherry picking you when I'm lonely if you're always the one sending me messages drunk and 'desperate'? I'm not cherry picking you Yang, I'm trying to not pick you at all so you can't keep cutting me deeper.

My parents sent me money Yang, but they didn't come after me when I ran away. They didn't get involved after he beat me, they didn't even ask me about it. Summer did get involved so yes, maybe I wish she was my mom too. I liked pretending your family would want me to come back if I left them.

You know, my real parents don't even ask me when I'm coming back?

None of this makes any sense Yang, what do you want from me? I'm just trying not to hurt anymore. I just want to feel safe and stable. Am I so wrong for that? How much do I need to pay for that?

You've screamed more at me in one email then you've done to your cunt mother after a life time of abandonment. Was staying in Oregon that fucking evil? Was wanting a pretend family that fucking wrong?

Why do you keep tormenting me? I go to work every day hating my job, regretting what I do, but for the first time ever I didn't feel like I was a blight on someone else's life. For the first time, I'm no one's burden, that's my freedom, being guilt fucking free. It's all I get for losing everything else in my life and you just stripped that little shred away from me.

You can tell Sun he doesn't need to worry about me getting in his way anymore. I refuse to be anyone's problem anymore!

Blake Belladonna

(458) 555-7929

Sent From: Portland Oregon

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Yang (Fireballin17)

to Blakey | 7:02 PM (19 hours ago)

What the hell is that supposed to mean? You "refuse to be anyone's problem?" Everybody's someone's problem, Blake, you're the one who told me nobody exists in a bubble. Did you even mean that, or was it just something else you were trying to use to guilt-trip me with?

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Yang (Fireballin17)

to Blakey | 8:16 PM (18 hours ago)

Seriously Blake, quit fucking with me, what the hell did you mean by that?

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Yang (Fireballin17)

to Blakey | 10:01 PM (16 hours ago)

Fine! Ignore me! See if I fucking care.

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Yang (Fireballin17)

to Blakey | 3:41 AM (11 hours ago)

Ples just tell me ur ok or something.

No I don't know where I'm going

But I sure know where I've been

Hanging on the promises of yesterday

And I've made up my mind

I ain't wasting no more time

Here I go again.

Sent from: Detroit Michigan

Yang Urgent!

Rubles (RedLikeRoses94)

to me | 12:43 PM (2 hours ago)

Sis first off you need to get goddamn cell service back! Ill even pay cause it is impossible to reach you! I had to dig through blakes files to get this email address, thank the lord she even has paper files!

Second and much more importantly do you have any idea where blake is? She never came home from work yesterday and shes not there today! I called her folks and they dont know either. Weiss and dad havent heard a thing and nothing out of velv or coco. Yang she left all her stuff at the house only her cars missing. Theres some broken glass on the floor from the framed photo of the carnival with you and her but other than that it doesnt look like anyones broken in.

Im scared yang should I call the cops or (and I cant believe im suggesting this) call ilia and see if hes involved? He cant be right its been years...

Yang please just tell me shes going to visit you or something? Please email me back asap

I love you.

Ruby

Sent From: Portland, Oregon

A/N: Hey everyone, this is Elfen, for asinine crediting reasons just want you to know I didn't write the Yang bits even though it's my chapter, Yang is always Fawkes, the Ruby bit while not what I would call worth crediting over is me though. Thanks so much for reading!