'She gave me 19 phenomenal years,' said her father Jim

Andrew Wilcox, the runner who saw her jump, also revealed that he ran his first marathon to raise money for suicide prevention

the gifts the young woman left behind for them

Now, her family has released her tragic suicide notes, and

Her father said she was struggling with school work, had shared her suicidal thoughts with her family and was seeing a psychiatrist

The University of Pennsylvania freshman's death shocked the school and her hometown in New Jersey

Madison Holleran, 19, took her life in Philadelphia on January 17, 2014 after leaving a suicide note and gifts for her family

The parents of a popular University of Pennsylvania track star who took her life last January have shared her tragic suicide note.

Madison Holleran, 19, jumped to her death from atop a Philadelphia parking garage, leaving behind a note and gifts for members of her family.

'I thought how unpleasant it was to be locked out, and I thought how it is worse perhaps to be locked in,' said the young woman according to an exclusive interview with family and friends in this week's issue of People, which is on newsstands now.

She also left behind cookies for her grandparents, chocolate for her father and necklaces for her mother - all of whom are trying to cherish the life of the young woman they lost rather than mourn her death.

'During the funeral, a guy from [the town] came and said, "Jim, if I were to tell you, I’m God and I’m going to give you a daughter for 19 years but I will take her back, will you take this deal?" ' said Jim Holleran, Madison's father.

'And I said, you just told me about Madison. So I would say yes. She gave me 19 phenomenal years.'

Loss: Madison Holleran, a track and field star at UPenn, jumped to her death on January 17, 2014, with her father James, (right) said she had taken her life because she was overwhelmed by the workload at school

Final moments: The 19-year-old freshman posted this image of Rittenhouse Square to Instagram an hour before her death

'I'm going to miss my best friend; i don't even have words to describe how i feel but just know i love you forever and always my sweet little sister,' said Madison's sister Ashley (above) on Facebook

She ended her suicide note with an apology, saying; 'I love you all...I'm sorry. I love you.'

'I don't think she realized how awful it would be for us to not have her around,' said her father.

'Parents, if you see a huge change in your child and you haven't discussed suicide with them, open that discussion up.'

Madison was such a perfectionist, and hurting so much, her family also found a first draft of a suicide note in her dorm room.

'I don't know who I am anymore. trying. trying.trying,' the note began.

'I'm sorry. I love you...sorry again...sorry again...sorry again...How did this happen?'

Mr Holleran and his wife Stacy started The Madison Holleran Foundation in her honor to help high school seniors and college freshman who might be depressed or suicidal.

Madison Holleran's Suicide Note 'I thought how unpleasant it is to be locked out, and I thought how it is worse perhaps to be locked in. For you mom...the necklaces...For you, Nana & Papa...GingerSnaps (always reminds me of you)...For you Ingrid...The Happiness Project. And Dad...the Godiva chocolate truffles. I love you all...I'm sorry. I love you.' Advertisement

They go to schools to see how the kids are feeling, give talks about their daughter and warn about the dangers of social media on the self-esteem of youngsters.

'Everyone posts pictures of the best time they're having; no one posts pictures of themselves sitting in their rooms crying,' said Madison's childhood friend Jackie Reyneke.

'Madison was the happiest kid, you know, when she was happy,' explained Jim.

'And if that person would understand what they are doing to their family and their friends and their extended friends, they would not choose suicide if they really understood that they would be gone forever. They would not make that choice, but they are not thinking in their right mind.'

This year, they will also award a scholarship to students at their daughter's high school, Northern Highlands, in her name.

There is also a Facebook page in her memory where the stories of young people who are struggling with depression are shared on a weekly basis.

Madison with her brother Brendan (left) and at her high school graduation with her mother (right)

Madison ended her suicide note by saying 'I love you all...I'm sorry. I love you'

Mr Holleran said that Madison had told her parents in December that she was feeling suicidal and was seeing a therapist.

'That weekend she told me she needed to talk to somebody, because she was having suicidal thoughts,' said her mother Stacy.

'I was shocked. She's never been depressed before. I knew she needed a therapist, but I couldn't get her an appointment because it was the weekend. On Sunday I had a friend come over who works in the mental health field.'

She seemed to get better over her holiday break, enjoying her time off and hanging out with her friends.

'We had a last supper with all of our friends before going back to school,' said friend Brooke Holle.

'She was so happy we were all together.'

On the day that she jumped to her death, her father texted her encouraging her to see a therapist for some anti-depressants, and she said she would.

Just an hour before she jumped to her death, the young woman posted an image of a sunset over Rittenhouse Square to her Instagram account.

'I don't know who I am anymore. trying. trying.trying,' said Madison in a draft of her suicide note found in her dorm room after her death

'We had a last supper with all of our friends before going back to school. She was so happy,' said friend Brooke Holle (left with Madison, Emma Catherine and Jackie Reyneke)

Andrew Wilcox was running down the street when he saw her jump.

'I kept thinking, "This poor girl. What was she going through? Her family must be devastated,"' said Wilcox.

In honor of her death, he also ran a marathon to raise money for suicide prevention.

'I was heartbroken,' explained Wilcox.

In another tragic turn, Eric Lambinus, the soccer coach at Lehigh who knew Madison as she almost attended the school being an equally talented soccer player, saw her just moments before her death.

'I happened to see her by the restaurant when we were having dinner in Philly about 6:25pm,' he revealed.

'She was holding a bunch of stuff. She said she was shopping for her family. She walked away.'

10 minutes later she would jump from the garage, the bags she was carrying being filled with the gifts she was leaving for family and friends.

She also left a photo of herself holding a tennis racket as a child and a copy of the book Reconstructing Amelia, which tells the story of an overachieving teenager who jumps to her death.

Andrew Wilcox (above) who saw Madison jump ran a marathon in honor of her and to raise money for suicide prevention and awareness

'I don't think she realized how awful it would be for us to not have her around,' said Madison's father (above)

The college student left presents at the place where she jumped of cookies for her grandparents, necklaces for her mother and chocolate for her father

'The thing I am still shocked about is that every 13 or 14 seconds in the United States, someone will take their own life,' Mr. Holleran told NorthJersey.com in an interview.

'I can’t fathom that.'

And already, the family's foundation is helping teenagers who are struggling.

'The first letter we got from a girl in Phoenix said, "I have suffered tremors of depression, because I am not able to run anymore,"' said Jim.

'I am just like, "Oh my, what the hell does that mean?" But it was the perfect imagery. She said, "Because of your daughter, I am running again." And I was just like, this is why we have to get the message out.'

'Jim has had a profound affect on people, even in his shock,' said family friend Steve Meneve.

'Him coming out and being very open about this has brought people out.'

Distraught: Madison, who was one of five children, poses at a Penn meet with her mother Stacy Beautiful: Hundreds of friends have shared their condolences on Madison's social networking pages Mr Holleran said that he did not blame the school for his daughter's suicide but that he wanted to warn other parents. Holleran was a member of UPenn's varsity track and field team. 'The entire Penn community is deeply saddened by the death of Madison Holleran,' Penn president Amy Gutmann said in the statement. Family friend Bob Weckworth said the high-achiever ultimately couldn't cope with the expectations she'd set herself. 'People talked to her within hours of her act of suicide and there were no red flags, warning signs, nothing,' he told the Daily News. 'This kid didn’t have a boyfriend. There were no drug issues. There were no mental health issues in her background. It was just the last two, three weeks where they saw a change in her. Something snapped. 'She got a 3.5 her first semester, and I think just the high expectations that she put on herself was that that’s just not acceptable.'

Embrace: James Holleran (center) is comforted by a mourner ahead of the funeral of his 19-year-old daughter Madison

Heartbreaking: Mourners, including James Holleran (center) leave a memorial mass for Madison Holleran at Guardian Angel Church in Allendale, New Jersey on January 21

Scene: Madison Holleran jumped from this Spruce St, Philadelphia parking garage to her death on January 17

Days after Holleran's death, more than 600 devastated relatives and friends paid their respects at a funeral service at the Guardian Angel Church in Allendale, New Jersey.

During the mass, Mr Holleran said that his daughter used to rally her team by saying: 'Now is a time to be strong.'

He added: 'Today, we all have to be strong for Madison.'

He then urged the congregation to learn from the loss of an 'iconic' young woman: 'Please seek therapy if you need it. This is not a weakness, but a struggle.'

He also led them in the Serenity Prayer, saying: 'God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.'

For confidential support in the U.S., call the National Suicide Prevention Line on 1-800-273-8255.