Yogscast Diverse Headcanons Month: September 2 - Xephos

local serious spaceman actually just one big case of anxiety

it’s your greypansexual nonbinary kiddo who uses h/him or ze/zir pronouns!!!!



in a human au i headcanon zir as Indian/Singaporean/Taiwanese/other asian (zir family history is very diverse).



ze’s greyromantic and it’s. hard for ze to do relationships a lot of the time, it’s something ze struggles with. sometimes ze’ll have romantic feelings and then it’s like “ohh, wait no”



ze is autistic



ze has anxiety and has Struggled a lot: details under cut



ze has chronic pain in his lower back and ails from migraines regularly

i have some more Deep Headcanons (like backstory and stuff) for xephos because i’ve kind of known the character for the longest i guess.

headcanons under the cut this time because tws: self harm mention, suicide attempt(s) mention

okay so. wow

i project Some Feelings onto this space guy here. again tw for the stuff mentioned above - no graphic descriptions however, only mentions.

so xeph went to space college and ze was like ‘oh yeah space college. cool’ but it turned out to be really hard



and ze really struggled in everything and was killing zirself to get high scores in all zir space classes



everyone thought ze was just really smart and great (which ze is) but they thought it was suuuper easy for him to do as well as ze did, which. it wasn’t

ze suffers from FODE (Fear Of Disappointing Everyone) so ze was really hurting zirself to do well

ze became very suicidal and attempted about 4 times through 3 space years of space college



one day ze had a mission to go to Minecraftia/Earth (What Ever I Literally Don’t Care about the name lmao)

and ze knew how to pilot the ship. of course. ze had stayed up for 72 space hours memorizing the manual.

but ze did not want to survive any longer

so Young Trainee Xephos deliberately crashed zir ship in a suicide attempt. ze was miserable and as zecrashed, ze felt no regret

he was discovered by honeydew in the wreckage, as soon as ze regained conciousness, ze wanted to live again

xeph sorta had the whole “Healing Arc” i guess here. ofc you can’t ever fully beat depression/suicidal thoughts, and ze still has them from time to time, but ze has learned coping methods to deal with them healthier

honeydew literally helped zir so much like. that love and philosophy of carefreeness? heroism??? xephos regained half of zir mental health just by meeting honeydew

also ze has a big support system now!!! before in space college ze only had strife and sips to rely on, and well , sips, kinda, faked his death and became a space criminal, and xeph wasn’t as close to strife as he would have liked to been

they’re all good friends now tho

xeph wears the jacket to cover up the self harm scars on zir arms

ze wears zir jacket even when it’s sweltering - on sjin’s farm sjin will be like. “why don’t you take off your jacket!!” and xeph will be like “:) !!”

- on sjin’s farm sjin will be like. “why don’t you take off your jacket!!” and xeph will be like “:) !!” honeydew Defends xeph in everything and he loves zir