I am a registered democrat, and I am no fan of Trump, but I have this strange feeling in my stomach that I’m going to be voting for him over Hillary.

Anyone who knows me would probably be shocked by this. But there is something that tells me that, as scary as I believe Trump to be, he is actually the lesser of two evils here.

Say what you will about him, but I believe that no one with any reasonable amount of success can be the man he is stating he is in the public eye. It is a mask, a charade, a misdirection to tap into the anger and desperation many in America have. It is a tactic in this way; one that is a part of a much broader strategy. While with Hillary, what you see is what you get — whether you care about what you see or not.

In this campaign we’ve seen blatant manipulation of the media, we’ve seen campaign fraud, and deliberate violation of party rules. We’ve heard about the closed door, high dollar fundraisers. We have documented proof of the amount of money Hillary got for her speeches, and yet, still no manuscripts of what she actually said or if those speeches actually took place.

We see ZFS, LLC. (her primary source of income) plain as day in the Panama papers. We see proof that the Clinton’s use the Clinton foundation as a slush fund. We see Hillary’s blatant disregard for the situation in Benghazi, a situation which could have been prevented by her and her state department.

In the past we’ve seen her cozy up to KKK leaders, get fired from law firms for being a known, ruthless liar. We see her relationship to Ken Foster and the Rose Papers scandal, which, at first glance, would seem like a spy thriller novel.

We have personal accounts of those that knew her growing up and in college of her ruthlessness. We have personal accounts (a book in fact) of people that have worked for her documenting how terrible of a person she is.

You can say what you want about Trump. You could even say that I hate him. But what’s worse in my mind is that I fear Hillary.

I fear her and the lengths she will go to get what she wants. I fear someone who is willing to go to war in Syria. I fear for the people of this country, when she talks about income inequality in a $13,000 dollar jacket. I fear someone who prefers to meet with the powerful and wealthy in the dark. I fear someone who has blatantly lied to the public, and disregards the laws in which the vast majority of the public abides by.

Whoever wins doesn’t matter. In either case we’re in a worse off position than we have been in years. But at least I know that Trump has competency, and some degree of morality whereas Hillary — as far as I can discern — does not.