Hmmm… How should I start. I have been inspired by a friend of mine (he’s got me blocked on anywhere he could) to write this post.

So basically after coming out, I have been in quite a few relationships. The first being last year (which was simply one-sided) and the second was this April (it almost started, but in the end he didn’t want to due to some concerns).

Let’s talk about the first one. It was the third year of my Secondary School/Middle School. We were banded into our different subject combinations(we were allowed to choose what we would like to study apart from the 5 basic subjects at the end of the second year). I still remember him sitting directly infront of me. At that time i was still okay lurh, haven’t came out so we were just good friends… Many things happened in between, he was quite cute i guess. Still remember that time he hugged me(can’t rmb what was it for, was just joking i guess) and he actually accidentally sent a selfie to me and his gf. Holy I literally melted into water. After which fast forward to August 2014. I knew i had a crush on this guy. I kinda came out to one of my closer female friends, she was quite ok with it until much later in 2015. Meanwhile, sometime in September, i confessed to him as well… Gradually, they went apart from me (he said he was okay with me being ‘gay’, but really, their actions tell me otherwise). For an uncountable amount of times, they did the same childish things, keeping away from me, even making me stay away from him..? Just because he has a gf? Sorry but i really don’t get that part until today.

Being the usual me I’ve been crying, why is this society being so narrow minded? Really, like you get judged being an LGBT here, teacher’s can even have insensitive jokes poking fun at these people, education brainwashes us to have an ideal family, totally nothing at all on LGBT. Since talking about this, there was once my teacher was asking for feedback on the Sexuality Education (which was compulsary unless your parents opted out). Then there was this girl in my class which said that the school should cover on LGBTs. That particular co-form teacher of mine, immediately said it was ‘Off Topic’. I was horrified. You could’ve just ignored her or something, but yet saying that it was ‘Off Topic’ is indeed extremely insensitive. She(as in my co-form teacher) could’ve just said ‘Ok’ and not feedback it or something, or reason herself. ‘Off Topic’ is really not an acceptable answer.

Now to the relationship i almost started in 2015. I added him due to minecraft if i recall, we were playing in the same server and subsequently he joined mine before i stopped hosting it. We are very similar in personality, we both like tech stuff, etc. (shan’t elaborate) Suddenly on 30 March 2015, he asked for my views on LGBTs and I was like, of all things why is he asking me this? Later on then he confessed to me like yea (that he is bi) then ya then one whole long chain. Then we wanted to meet up on this particular Good Friday break (since i was free as well). Just days before, he texted me and told me he wasn’t ready so he doesn’t want to meet me. So i was like not exactly happy though, then I just cried and cried lor, like i can’t really do anything can I? I know you are reading this TF, hope you go on with your life, i’m really not worth your time.

Guess I’ll just stop here man, really can’t continue writing.

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