He sees the union that was supposed to have his back, the St. Louis Police Officers Association, holding fundraisers for indicted white cops, while doing virtually nothing for him. He has a GoFundMe page. He’s had to beg various service organizations for help, even for little things like when his kids needed dressers. He’s about to lose his home to foreclosure. The city hasn’t processed his pension yet, holding off because, Khazaeli says, of a mysterious second police report on the incident that is being kept secret.

The police department has made it clear to him that there are separate standards for black officers and white ones.

“I’m at a loss for words for how I’ve been treated,” Green says. “It’s kind of shocking to find out that what you’ve done for the department doesn’t matter anymore.”

Had the suspect who pointed a gun at him fired, instead of a fellow cop, Green might have been hailed as a hero. Instead he’s just the black cop who got shot by a white cop; the black cop whom the acting chief lied about; the black cop who kept quiet for two years while some of his former white colleagues posted untruths about him on social media sites.