Current Location: Liberty City Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Soviet Connection

Already 40 days into this year, and I doubt it's going to get any better. I've been dealing with a moderate sickness which has caused me to miss a dentist appointment. My front teeth are starting to cause me severe pain when pressure or liquid makes contact which shouldn't even be happening as the dentists did 2 hours of work on them a few weeks ago. I just got 3 cavities left to patch up and my teeth will be alright, but enough about this shit.



For the last few weeks, I've been playing the f*** out of Grand Theft Auto IV. It's just about 8 years old now, but I'm still finding new things every time I play. I must confess that despite now owning GTA 5 (due to a friend gifting me it on steam), I've never beat it. Up until I was gifted it, I never even touched the game. Despite the fact that 5 is superior to 4 in most ways, I still find more enjoyment in GTA 4; 280+ hours of it to be precise. Suffice to say, I'm addicted to Liberty City, and all the fucked up freaks and events that take place within this virtual world.



Through the near-decade long time I've spent on IV, I mostly frequented the southern half of the eastern borough, and downtown 'manhatten' and the central park. Lately, I've been exploring the smaller obscure islands and finding a lot of shit. I modded some health / armor regen scripts to make the game a hell of a lot less tedius, but practically doubled the damage of the weapons and vastly expanded the range of them; the sawed off shotgun is capable of downing someone over 200m from you (although it is VERY unlikely due to the spread)



I've been going on GTA 4's internet and browsing these sites. I've found shit I never read before. GTA 4 is on par with TES 4 on the amount of shit you can still discover. I was reading blogs in game and legit threw up from one of them. It was basically some ugly fat feminist furfag cunt talking about her perverted sexual activity with someone else and dousing each other with dishwasher liquids. I'm just sitting here thinking.. Someone employed at Rockstar North is even more fucked up in the head than I am. My writing shifts more towards patrick bateman / ER shit. This rockstar jackass is just a perverted troll with a way-overactive imagination. Fucker should see a shrink.



Well, 2007 is already 8~9 years old. It's scary to me how time just flew by. I always bitch about how my future is bleak, and indeed the entire nation and world's is (unless you're a spoiled fucking cunt, in which case check your privileged for real, asshole) but I know I'm not the only one thinking this shit. Obama's got less than a year left in office now. GTA 5 is already 2 years old man.. fucking hell.



Those days as a kid in that ALB Metro house, with the two fireplaces, the large den; the cozy old-school feel.. It's not even close to recent anymore. All this time I've spent as a shut-in / NEET / outcast.. I remember a time before social media and smartphones. Chad and Chloe weren't entirely fucking brainless zombies addicted to their screens. They're still normies though, so they're still absolute scum of the earth who deserve nothing but a few stabs into their jugular vein. What I'm trying to show you is, the world's a different place than it was when I was growing up. We're seeing Global warming finally having some serious effects. We got the USA at the quality of a 3rd world country now, with a middle class minority, severe poverty, accelerating crime and corruption and the greatest security state in the world's history on the horizon. Just for typing in these buzzwords, I'm now on a couple more watchlists, and nobody is going to be reading this shit anyways except you NSA ass clowns.



Here's something to rustle your jimmies. If I was to reenact the shit I've been doing in GTA 4, in the real world, I'd probably have a 7-fuckin' star wanted level. I've been going around driving over thousands of NPCs in central park over and over for shits and giggles, acting out an "anders" dozens of times, beating the shit out of random fuckers and other shenanigans.



Not much else I feel I should type out anyways. It's already TL;DR but perhaps one of the JIDF rats or creepy faggots from my past might be lurking around. In which case.. I hope you enjoy this entry you crazy ass motherfuckers.