Aside from helping him find his people, stand-up has also always been therapeutic for Davidson. In SMD, he mixes a dash of observational humor with a ton of extremely personal anecdotes. He makes fun of his troubled teenage years and his relationship with his mom—which is so close that he admits to sending pictures of his penis to her “whenever I’m worried.” He segues into the last segment of the special by saying, “We’ll do some 9/11 jokes and then we’ll get the fuck outta here. How’s that?”

The special is full of laughs, but its true strength lies in how conversational, raw, and honest it is. Here’s this kid wearing Jordan XI Space Jams and one of his dad’s Ladder 118 shirts, just telling true stories about his life.

When Davidson started, he says he was “just so excited to try to be funny. Now it’s like, I have some shit on my chest. Now, when I’m really bothered by something, I will go to a comedy club and run it out. I always wanted my stand-up to feel like not just a show, but like you’re hanging out with someone for an hour. I like to just talk.”

SMD is also a showcase of Davidson at both his most and least mature. He talks about trying to smoke weed less for his mom, but he also talks about the secret to surreptitiously jerking off around your college roommates. The balance he strikes in the special reflects the strides he’s making to be more topical and grown up on Saturday Night Live. In his first season, Davidson talked about STDs, looking at gay porn, and weed, but last year, he challenged himself to comment on things outside of his comfort zone: Donald Trump, trans rights, slut-shaming. Yes, he still worked some dick jokes in there, but there was a clear maturation. “I was thinking about it,” Pete says as he clears Chipotle off of his coffee table. “Do I really want to use this platform to talk about dicks, or sending pictures of my dick to my mom, or sucking dicks? It just got monotonous. I was like, I have an opportunity to have an opinion—there’s no reason I can’t talk about stuff that’s going on. And yeah, it made me feel better, like I had more purpose.”