That's when he remembered Wilfred Fletcher, an old man who had worked for his father on the farm. He remembered how loving Fletcher had been with the cows. Then he looked back at the calf.

"He was so careful with his animals, and then I said, 'Oh it’s too bad I’m gonna knock you in the head and cut you into pieces and eat you,'" said Lanigan.

"And then I thought how hypocritical of me to give something so much love and the end thing is so different from that love."