A message from fertilizin I don't like Historia either. Actually, I'm kind of mad that a character who was literally a nobody to me has such a large part in the story right now.

well she started off as the cliched super sweet bug-eyed angel who is just jesus-level kind to everyone which I immediately disliked because *looks over at millions of other anime and sees BILLIONS of carbon copies of that character and shudders*

but then she interested me a little with her relationship with ymir like obviously ymir was seeing through her bullshit and I thought that deconstruction of her perfect facade and showing how ultimately her motivations behind her flawless compassion was selfish and pitiful. that was great. bless ymir. the only time I ever liked historia was when she’s with ymir since freckles calls her out on all her shit and brings out a better and more honest side to historia.

and then I was a little intrigued when it was revealed she was more than what she seemed and was actually historia rather than christa. but everything she’s said or done since then has just fucking annoyed me. she comes across as so unsure of herself and is quite sanctimonious in her own grief and she sat around moping over her past and the absence of ymir - which I wouldn’t have minded so much because self-pity and being upset or whining in such a horrible situation doesn’t make a character bad or unlikable to me - but she seems to focus on her own shit above anyone else. she didn’t even give connie a moment of sympathy when he was upset about the fate of his parents and ymir’s reaction to it, she just jumped in and told him he was wrong and this is what ymir ACTUALLY intended with her words. fuck that man; connie just lost his family and entire village and gurl cant even give him a moment to be rightfully upset about someone who he thought to be a comrade giving him shit about it. ymir’s intentions being truly good or not, it wasn’t necessary for historia to interject that in there for fuckssake. connie’s need to grieve = more important than your need to explain your girlfriends behaviour.

and yeah, levi fucked up by losing his temper and manhandling her after she had some perfectly reasonable doubts and hesitations about accepting the responsibility of the crown and being a pawn in a revolution plot. like I’m sure you could say that levi’s outburst could have dented historia’s loyalty to her captain to a degree, particularly from a girl who has formerly experienced physical violence as a child and would associate that within the context of abuse or outright dislike towards her. regardless, historia is not just a teenage girl but in the harsh setting of the story she is a relatively experienced soldier now and has lived the hard military life for years and should be very aware that her superiors can be brutal, and I say this as someone with a brother who is ex-military. dude got fucking thrown to the ground by his superior just for talking out of turn. so gurl cant exactly act as though she’s been done some OUTRAGEOUS harm or wrong when her captain loses his temper at her during a high stakes military operation.

but historia losing some loyalty to her captain does not equate to her losing loyalty to either the survey corps or to her comrades like eren, mikasa and armin etc - well except for maybe mikasa since she threatened to cut her down the LAST time eren was kidnapped. godfuckingdamn these ackermans and their tempers, seriously. *slaps mikasa and levi* THIS IS WHY WE CAN’T HAVE NICE THINGS

then we had historia cooperating with the operation and hanging back with eren who was also on the MP’s most wanted list. they have this beautiful conversation and open up to each other. and remember, they already have three years of military training and subsequent high-emotion battles they’ve been through together under their belt.

and then they get kidnapped and historia’s historically (lmao) ABSENT, ABUSIVE, and NEGLIGENT father pulls her out of a literal fucking COFFIN and sobs a little and says he loves her - and then gives her this sprawling story of how grisha jaeger done fucked up etc etc

and regardless of her seeing some of those memories via touching eren’s back, she gets ANGRY at her poor fucking CLEARLY distressed comrade who is fucking bound and gagged and on the verge of tears. who, just like her, has learned some fucked up shit about his own father and family history. and historia should know eren well enough by now (whereas she realistically BARELY knows her father) to understand that he’d be just as upset and horrified by the revelations regarding his father as she is about her family.

but does she even bother to try and allow him to speak for himself? does she express any concern for eren’s well-being? does she even really QUESTION what her father is telling her or suspect him for ulterior motives whatsoever? seriously? after how he’s acted 99% of the time in her life? or rather, OUTSIDE of her life since he’s never fucking been around except to goddamn traumatize the girl.

nah. she GLOWERS at eren. she’s ANGRY with him. like not only is she gullible for putting all of her faith into her father based only on his word, some unclear memories and the fact that he now supposedly “loves” her. but she’s showing almost NO concern or empathy for eren, who she has more reason to care about than her father - and shit man, they dont even have to be close friends to give historia more cause to care for eren than her father. and her experiences with negligence and abuse dont make historia a naive little girl who is desperate for love - that would be insulting to her experiences. she’s seen some shit man, she’s experienced a lot of hurt and distrust in her life. if anything, she should be LESS likely to blindly trust anyone, particularly her father, and MORE likely to cling to the secure constants in her life which have been the 104th and survey corps.

and yes now she’s been told that she’s supposedly the last hope for humanity so she’s going to inject herself with the serum knowing she’ll have to eat whole or, at the very least, consume eren’s spine (the SNK fun never stops).

and she only shows SOME level of concern for eren or certainty over what she must do once eren is bleeding from the fucking forehead, crying, absolutely devastated and saying he’s useless, unnecessary and has given up. like “oh good well he’s finally given up and has told me it’s cool for me to eat him; pHEW this is going to be so much easier to brush the guilt off my shoulders now I have this poor broken teens blessing”. like imagine her facing the rest of the 104th after and being like “its cool guys, eren told me it was okay for me to eat him. i mean sure he was traumatized and in a bad state of mind due to recently revealed but still slightly sketchy info about his most beloved father and confusing titan mystery and bloodlines but it was chill. he consented. so you can’t hold it against me, guys. btw I’m your new hope for humanity”.

not to mention historia doesn’t say shit to eren or offer him any comfort when he wrongfully blames himself for the deaths of all those people when it’s obvious to anyone with half a fucking brain that it was ultimately Grisha’s fault - and even his motivations are still unclear. historia couldn’t even emotionally connect to that part of eren’s grief after everything with her own father fucking her over? she just tells eren he made her happy when he said she was normal that one time. great. im glad eren could serve your self-esteem in some way, historia. GREAT. GOOD FOR YOU GURL NOW INJECT YO’ SELF WITH TITAN SERUM GIVEN TO YOU BY YOUR SKETCHY-ASS DADDY AND ENJOY CHOWING DOWN ON EREN’S SPINAL CORD, FRESH AND NICELY SALTED BY HIS FUCKING TEARS YOU TINY HEARTLESS FUCK.

and this isn’t some biased eren-lovin’ blinding me because eren’s not even one of my die-hard faves. like he and armin are the only two in the 104th who I really care for since I’m a slave to the veterans.

but holy SHIT historia was just fucking gullible, selfish in her own grief, sanctimonious and just horribly cold.

she’s a fucking pain in my ass and does not behave in ways that make much sense to me at all and I cannot fucking stand her at this point - frankly I don’t want someone who is so unsure and gullible and fickle and cold to be the one saving humanity. eren isn’t perfect either and he’s been reckless and one-track-minded in the past, but he’s always stuck to his own principals and been clear with his motivations and is deeply compassionate towards his comrades - dude at least expressed SOME empathy or hurt or pain or disbelief or doubt over having to turn against friends who legitimately betrayed him like reiner and bertholdt.

I mean even Isayama said Historia is one of his least favourite characters since she’s difficult for him to understand.

so I pray to the gods that the characters find a way to work through this without needing historia as the sole saviour so we can have eren recover and make a comeback with some A+ character development for him after experiencing what it’s like to be completely broken - and historia can get shoved back into the shadows of mild relevance where she belongs.

and if anyone sends me a message implying I only feel this way about historia or am being harsher on her for being a girl, I’m going to shit. I think when even the character’s creator has said he doesn’t understand her then it’s confirmed that she hasn’t been written well enough to inspire much love from people.

TLDR: dear historia