I used to write a lot of short stories. Stories that just ended up deleted or lost somewhere on the cloud. In October, I had to pass an important exam. Last exam before getting my degree. And I failed. It was a dark time for me. I felt horrible, stupid and alone. The only way I could battle these feelings and keep myself at least a little bit sane was through poetry.

I would have never even thought about sending it anywhere, let alone publishing my poems as a book if it wasn't for my friend. She convinced me that my poems should see the light of the world. She convinced me that I should continue writing and ease my mind a bit of pain. Without her, nothing of this would ever happen.

The poems you'll see in the first part of this book are from this dark period. They were just appearing in my head. I wasn't planning on writing them. Just had an urge to put them down, and so I did. Some are darker than the others. Depends on the mood I was in. But nevermind how dark they got, writing them down and showing them to the world helped me immensely. They allowed me to shed my introverted walls and show the world what I am feeling without my traditional implosion. And that led to another very positive thing.

Sometimes, my darkness was penetrated by ideas about something nice. About some hope. I felt like I had enough of being alone. That's what the second part of the book is about. Poems that were cries of Hope I thought would never actually come. Little did I know.

More than a year ago, I met an amazing person through the magic world of the internet. We became very good friends, even though we were separated by a whole ocean. She was a great cheerleader of mine. Always positive towards me. Always helpful. I never saw the signals that were present, but I saw her sadness and I tried to ease it as best as I could. But fates had it that we both entered our respective crises and stopped communicating for a while. But she returned. And that was something that was a crucial turning point in my life. I showed her my poems and she revealed her feelings. She confessed her love to me and I realized, it was mutual. And thus she, with very simple, yet magical words grabbed me out of my spiral to the pits of darkness and saved me. My problems were still there, but Happiness finally entered the stage. And that's what you can see in the third part of the book. Finally, Love I was missing. It overtook my darkness I have inside of me, at least for a couple of months and put a smile on my face every morning as I was waking up.

I wrote all the poems in this collection in a span of three months. And the way they are put down here before you is mostly chronological. This was the evolution of those last three months in the year 2019. This collection was made mostly for me and for people close to me. I wasn't trying to write poetry, I wasn't trying to make myself write. Everything in there is 100% honest and coming from my heart. And if you decide to read it yourself, I hope you will enjoy my creation.