I WAS HAVING A CONVERSATION WITH MY BROTHER AND HE SAID SOMETHING TO ME THAT GOT ME REALLY UPSET. I KNOW THAT I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH WHITE PEOPLE AND I TIMES I MAY HATE THEM. BUT I ALSO DON’T HATE THEM IT’S JUST MOST OF THEIR IDEALS AND WAYS OF THINKING THAT GETS ME UPSET. IT’S THEIR MIND THAT I HATE.

SO, I WAS TALKING TO HIM AND HE GOES “IF YOU HATE WHITE PEOPLE SO MUCH WHY DO TALK LIKE THEM?” AND I WAS CONFUSED AND I ASK, “HOW DO YOU MEAN?” AND HE RESPONDS “YEAH IF YOU HATE WHITE PEOPLE SO MUCH WHY DO YOU SAY EVERYTHING CORRECTLY AND DON’T USE SLANG, YOU TALK LIKE A WHITE PERSON.” NOW, AT THIS POINT I UNDERSTOOD WHAT HE WAS SAYING AND MY FACE GOT SO FUCKING RED THAT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ELSE TO SAY.

THE REASON I SPEAK THE WAY THAT I SPEAK IS BECAUSE WHEN I WAS IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL I HAD TO TAKE SPEECH CLASSES FOR A STUTTER THAT I HAD. IN MIDDLE SCHOOL, FOR ALL THREE YEARS, I HAD BOTH AN ENGLISH CLASS AND AN ADVANCED READING CLASS. AND IN HIGH SCHOOL I WENT TO A HIGH SCHOOL WHERE SPEECH WAS NEEDED TO PASS WITH THE MOST BASIC OF LEVEL.

SO TO SIT THERE AND ASK ME WHY I SPEAK LIKE A WHITE PERSON JUST PISSES ME OFF. I DON’T SPEAK LIKE A WHITE PERSON I SPEAK LIKE SOMEONE WHO TOOK THEIR ENGLISH CLASSES SERIOUSLY AND IS EDUCATED IN ENGLISH. NOT SOMEONE WHO SAT THERE BULL SHITTED THEIR WAY THROUGH 13 YEARS OF SCHOOL.

THAT IS THE PROBLEM THAT I HAVE WITH SOME PEOPLE OF COLOUR AND WHITE PEOPLE. THE FACT IS EVEN THOUGH IT’S NO LONGER TRUE. PEOPLE STILL EQUATE BEING INTELLIGENT WITH BEING WHITE. THE FACT IS THAT BOTH PEOPLE OF COLOUR AND WHITE PEOPLE ARE INTELLIGENT CREATURES BUT FOR SOME REASON EVERYONE IS STILL PUTTING SO MUCH ENFACES ON THEM THAN ON THE STRONG INTELLIGENT PEOPLE F COLOUR.