Porn star and escort Kayden Gray has opened up to Gay Star News for the first time about a violent sexual assault that happened while he was at a chillout.

‘He knew I was negative, and that everyone else was positive. He said: “Don’t let anyone here fuck you”.’

At the chemsex party, Gray was at, he was unaware of the HIV status of others.

Passing out from what he believes was an overdose of ‘G’ or ketamine, he woke up to find three men fucking him bareback, with a fourth in the room watching and crying.

In our video interview, he shares the horrifying account and talks about contracting HIV. He also reflects on what it’s like to be a well-known porn star and going to ‘party and play’. Watch now:

Warning, this video and the rest of this article contain descriptions of sexual assaults, violence, and content that some viewers may find difficult to watch and read:

‘They tore my ass for starters’

Gray says the men gave him a lot of drugs and were ‘very inconsiderate’.

After the assault, he says he was ‘bleeding from both ends’ with his throat in a lot of pain too.

At one point he started to be sick, so one of the men dragged him to the shower. Straight after being sick Gray says the man ‘shoved his dick in my mouth and pissed in it’.

In the next 24 hours, Gray took Post-Exposure Prophylaxis (PEP), which at the time prevented him from catching HIV.

However, as his time on the party and play scene continued, he contracted HIV at a later chillout. He talked about that during the GSN Facebook Live that drew our two-week chemsex series to an end.

Gray doesn’t use the word rape to describe this violent attack during our interview.

Like many others who get high and horny, these environments create confusing and constantly blurring lines of consent, that are difficult to comprehend.

But reflecting on why now was right to tell this story he says, ‘it’s a conversation that needs to be had’.

‘As a gay man who has grown up in a world that is predominantly straight… I have issues around masculinity.

‘Getting sexually assaulted it makes you look like a victim. In fact, you become a victim in that very moment. But a lot of people repress that.

‘Like I said in the series, I thought chemsex was the best sex ever, and I thought that for a couple of years. Then I realized there is a limit and I hit that.’

Porn star speaks out as part of our chemsex series

Our two-week series draws to a close today. But, you can watch the full live stream from last night where Gray reflects on the original video interview now.

We brought together ‘party and play’ experts and others who have shared their stories for a Facebook live discussion.

They discussed whether chemsex will define a period of gay history?

Looking for support?

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Globally we have also compiled a list of LGBTI friendly organizations you may wish to seek help from.

This article is part of the Gay Star News Chemsex Series. Read more stories, support and see the videos on our chemsex section.



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