Hey guys, I've never done something like this before, but desperate times call for desperate measures and I'm reaching out to you because I started a GoFundMe for a number of reasons. Again I dont really know how you're supposed to go about these things, but I'm tired. I cant even begin to explain the stress I've been going through. I guess I should give you a bit of background info so that things make a bit more sense as you continue reading. I come from a very large family where I'm the oldest of 11 with the youngest being 4. Me and more than half of my siblings have a rare genetic disease called marfans syndrome. It is accompanied with a plethora of health issues including scoliosis, aortic root dilation, leaky heart valves, lens dislocation, nearsightedness, retinal problems, ect. Three of my siblings have already gone through surgeries due to the disease, two of them had scoliosis surgery while the other two had their aortic root replaced. My father passed on my 19th birthday due to aortic dissection although he was never diagnosed with the disease and my family's been struggling quite a bit since. I went through a deep 3 year depression where I completely lost myself because of it. I stopped taking care of myself, stopped seeing all my doctors, stopped my medication and at that point I guess I was just waiting for the same thing that happened to my dad to happen to me. I had a change of heart this past year and I dont want my family to grieve over me in the same way they did over my father so I started picking myself up little by little. I got a job and was living with a good friend and all until recently. Last wednesday I get a call from my mum telling me my uncle just passed, that my brother is now on a pacemaker due to his marfans syndrome, my youngest brother is prepping for surgery and then not even a week later I get wrongfully detained. I say that I was wrongfully detained because the officer hit me with 3 charges 2 of them being vehicular charges, mind you I dont have a driver's license nor do I drive, nor was I driving when I got detained. He detained me for "not complying", but in truth before he read me my miranda rights I was going through an episode. He kept on asking me questions that I couldn't answer because I shut down and went mute. I have bipolar II disorder and ptsd, when I go through an episode I tend to shut down and go mute or I go into a full blown violent psychosis, which I'm very grateful I didn't go into that day. The ptsd is usually triggered when I sense aggression. The officers tone got more and more aggressive because he saw that I wouldn't answer any of his questions and my flashbacks got worse and worse. The entire time my brain was screaming at me to breathe while I dug my nails into my fingers and forearm to stop myself from going into full blown psychosis. I didn't mean to relapse after being free of self harm for 6+ years, but I was quickly losing myself, felt like I was burning from the inside out and I needed a distraction. I'm in need of funding for medical costs and lawyer fees. I dont have insurance, and I have a couple of past due medical bills. I need to follow up with a cardiologist and get back on my meds before my aortic dilation gets any worse and I need glasses cause I have holes in my retinas, had surgery in my right eye, have dislocated lenses and am legally blind. I also need to follow up with a neurologist for a tumor I have as well as an orthopedic for my scoliosis because my back pain has become unbearable. I'm hesitant, but I know I need to start seeing a psychologist and therapist again to discuss antipsychotics. I have a job, but haven't been able to go back due to the injuries on my arm and hands. I know that an 11/hr job won't cover near half of these expenses and due to the fact I got detained near my job I dont want to go back in fear that I'll continue to be profiled and harrassed so I'm currently looking for a new job. I know it's a lot, but every $1 helps. If you're not able to donate at this time then please share this so that others who are able to can please. I appreciate all of your efforts to help and I hope to recover from whatever life has to throw at me from here on out.

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