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|___/ May 18, 2010

You left me.

It's almost been two years.

I'm still alone.

I got a tattoo, with your initials in it, two years after our best

weekend together on my birthday. Watching the rain from our cabin.

Watching the horses in the hay. Spending time together.

I couldn't sleep without feeling you next me, a phantom in my lonely

nights. Now you are part of me. Forever. Just like the special place

in my heart you earned.

I don't know if you search for me to see how I'm doing, like I do you.

I don't know if you realize how much of my world walked out in 2010. How

much of that world I'll never get back. I went from seeing in color

back to nothing again.

I failed to love you in the ways you needed, you gave yourself what you

needed for your birthday -- you left.

The last Shark Week left me in tears...memories of your gummy sharks and

a candid picture haunting me.

The last New Years left me curled in a ball crying. Our second best night

together, when you took me back the first time...

I don't know if I'll ever get that back but my clock is ticking. And when

it chimes, nothing will matter anymore. Your picture will be the last