Errrm yeah,

That’s a toughie.

“So you play SC2 on launch, blitz through the campaign on brutal, experience the epic story and plough on into gold back when there was a copper league and then just stop. No reason, no rhyme AND you can recall the days when TLO played Random and when Roaches had 2 Armour in beta, but still get as giddy as a school girl going to a boy band concert when a new GSL season starts. So basically you went, you know this thing called logic? Fuck it!”

That’s kinda what I expect people would think if I told them that I queued from 10pm the night before SC2 hit retail in the UK to make sure I got a hold of my copy…

Yeah, the more I think about it, the more it confuses me, but that probably doesn’t mean much as I am a man that is easily confused. But to be honest I cannot really give you an answer. I guess it was a combination of many things. Like what? Well, the usual suspects come to mind; Ladder anxiety – yes really, Battle.net 2.0 at launch being a horribly insular and lonely place to game and generally just sucking. So SC2 became more of a spectator sport for myself. Kind of like Football I guess. You love seeing your favourite team play on the weekend and back when you were a kid you used to kick a ball around a bit, but you grew up and got an office job and a beer gut. (Luckily I have dodged the beer gut thus far). So that’s the reasons I guess, always loved the sport (game, to me e-sports have all the elements of competition to be regarded as fully legitimate sports, I mean look at darts and snooker, e-sport are kinda similar.) and now I am gonna start playing again again and screw the rest of it. I have played LoL and Dota, why? Because I could play with friends and piss myself laughing over Teamspeak while doing so. It was great and it felt like we were at a LAN. Hell it still feels like I am at a LAN, right now I am sitting on the same TS server with the same handful of people >10. We play different games now, and we may not play together. But we got something, we kinda just hang out and talk shit while doing our thing and occasionally questing, raging of receiving/administering some serious BM. So in the cliché e-sports way, what I guess I am trying to say is “My body is ready!”

“So what now? You suddenly think you can come back now and be MR big new EU guy to the scene #1 GM!1!one!1!”

No, I didn’t say that. I just feel like I really want to play this game now, it has everything I want from a game. I has the raw skill required, well personally I feel it is a lot higher than anything else I have played in a long, long time. Plus it has a pretty baller community to be fair. All you need to do is go to Team Liquid or SC2 redidit to see 2 side of the same wonderfully exquisite coin. Additionally we have some brilliant personalities on Twitch and beyond, hell, we have the Likes of Day[9], Dapollo and the casting Archon Tastosis.

So yes I do want to come back. Yes I do want to get better. Yes I do care what League I am in. Yes I full expect to start life in bronze. Yes I will jizz my pants if I hit masters. But I am under no delusions, there is the possibility I never will and I don’t want to make a career out of this or anything like that. I just wanna have some fun and test my mental agility and maybe make some friends along the way. I just don’t want to see this:

But with that I do want to give something back. I will stream on my stream, and I will blog on this blog. I will become more active on Team Liquid and Reddit. If not for the community, for myself. After all, the reason why I made this blog was to give my self some sense of accountability. Even if no-one else reads this. I will, and I will have to hold myself to account for my actions.