Thin privilege is never having to apologize for your actions.

There is a group of skinny, mean girls at my school who constantly torture me ever since last week. It started because I wore a pair of shorts and a strappy top to school knowing that I would probably get shit from my peers for it (I’m 5'2 and 300lbs) but I didn’t expect to be bullied by a teacher for it.

A skinny teacher took one look at my outfit and told me that it was not appropriate for school. I saw one of the skinny girls wearing the EXACT SAME OUTFIT except with a cardigan over her strappy top, so I thought fair’s fair, I’ll put my cardigan on. She still wasn’t satisfied and told me my outfit still wasn’t acceptable and I would have to go home to change.I didn’t want to back down because she wasn’t picking on anybody except me, so I pointed out the skinny girl’s outfit and explained calmly that they were exactly the same.The teacher then told me that my outfit was unacceptable because my top was low cut and hers wasn’t. MY TOP WASN’T LOW CUT - I HAVE LARGER BREASTS BECAUSE I’M A LARGER GIRL.It didn’t matter how much I argued, she wasn’t having it so I was sent home only to return in jeans and a sweatshirt in the boiling hot weather while the skinny girl paraded around in her shorts and strappy top (even taking her cardigan off later because she felt “too warm”) with all of the boys watching her every move. This was somehow not inappropriate.

The girl’s friends were all whispering about me when I returned for “trying to get *her name* in trouble” and eventually, due to being on the verge on heat exhaustion and general anxiety just for existing as a fat person, I snapped. I turned around and told them to shut the fuck up about my body and threw an (empty) water bottle at them. It didn’t hit any of them, I wasn’t even aiming for them. I was just frustrated and tearful and completely DONE with it all. I know I shouldn’t have done it but telling them to stop wasn’t working.

I got hauled to the prinicpal’s office and was given a week of detention. None of the girls were affected or hurt, they all just burst into laughter as I left the room. They didn’t get any consequences for bullying me to the point that I snapped and they still whisper about me every time I walk past them. School is unbearable and the worst part is that I’m starting to feel like my body deserves to be starved. I know that’s not true!