Porn star Lily Adams broke down in floods of tears as she told DailyMailTV of the terrifying moment an award-winning porn director allegedly anally raped her during a 'go-see' meeting at his home.

Speaking for the first time since she made the allegations on Twitter earlier this year, Adams said she cried out in pain when the director - who goes by Stills by Alan - held her down and sodomized her at his four-bedroom house in Los Angeles, California.

When the then 21-year-old porn starlet asked him to stop, whimpering in agony as he raped her over and over again, the 40-year-old director told her: 'I'm old enough to be your father, you do as I say.'

Adams claims Alan had invited her to his home for coffee and what she thought was a 'go-see' after reaching out to her on Twitter.

A 'go-see' is a common practice in the porn industry where a director requests to see the model or performer in person. But Adams claims Alan - a porn industry veteran- had other, far more sinister motives.

She claims he forced himself on her before holding her down on a bed in what he called 'The Princess Room'.

'The more I asked him to stop, the more aggressive he became,' she told DailyMailTV exclusively, her voice breaking with emotion.

Porn star Lily Adams (pictured) broke down in floods of tears as she told DailyMailTV of the terrifying moment an award-winning porn director allegedly anally raped her during a 'go-see' meeting at his home

Speaking for the first time since she made the allegations on Twitter earlier this year, Adams said she cried out in pain when the director - who goes by Stills by Alan (pictured) - held her down and sodomized her at his four-bedroom house in Los Angeles

Adams continued: 'I started crying and said, ''please stop, please.'' It was really painful and the more I cried the harder he went and the more he got turned on and the sicker things he would say to me.

'I was so terrified and so confused by what was happening.'

Adams said she and Alan had exchanged numbers and they began texting before they met.

'It was a little flirty, but when communicating with directors it's not uncommon for them to ask you what you're in to, what your fetishes are for example, because they need to know that for shooting - at the end of the day our industry is sex.

'It's also not uncommon for them to call you attractive, or to comment on certain aspects of your appearance, especially if it's something they might like for your site.

'He asked me how old I was, he told me he saw a lot of potential in me, so I got the impression this was all in a professional context.'

Adams, from Mississippi, said Alan had given her the option of meeting at Starbucks or his house where 'he had a really good coffee machine'.

She said she felt Starbucks would have been an awkward place to talk about porn so opted for his place.

And up until the point 'he was completely on top of me', she thought it was a professional meeting.

'I recognized the house, it was a shoot house that was used not just for his company but tons of other companies, but I had no clue we were going to have sex, as far as I was concerned it was a professional go-see.'

DailyMailTV found a clip in which Adams can be seen at the property during a porn shoot prior to the alleged rape.

DailyMailTV found a clip in which Adams can be seen at the property during a porn shoot prior to the alleged rape. The house has a unique spiral staircase in the lounge seen behind Adams

Adams said she believed the meeting at Alan's California home (pictured) was strictly professional. She said: 'I recognized the house, it was a shoot house that was used not just for his company but tons of other companies, but I had no clue we were going to have sex, as far as I was concerned it was a professional go-see'

The house has a unique spiral staircase in the lounge seen behind Adams.

The starlet said Alan sat down with her in his kitchen and gave her a speech about how he knows 'dozens' of directors.

Adams said: 'He said they talk and they're friends and if one of them gets a bad vibe from a girl or doesn't like a girl or doesn't want to book her, they'll call up all of his other director friends and say, ''look dude don't waste your time with this girl, she's not worth it.''

'He repeatedly told me that and that he saw a lot of potential in me and said I'd be successful in this industry if I made the right decisions and was strategic.'

Adams thought she was getting good advice from an industry pro.

And even when Alan asked her to go upstairs to the 'Princess Room' – a pink decorative room with a double bed - Adams thought it was part of the 'go-see'.

'He followed me up and said ''get undressed''. That's completely a normal part of the go-see, directors will ask you to get undressed, spin in a circle to see what your body looks like, if you have any tattoos, body hair. At the end of the day we're in the porn industry and certain companies favor certain body types.'

As soon as Adams was completely naked Alan approached her.

'He pushes himself on top of me, doesn't say a word, he doesn't give me time to react, he doesn't ask for anything, he's just on top of me.

'I was shocked and in my mind I'm thinking, ''oh I thought this was a go-see and he thought this was something else''.

'I couldn't believe I'd got myself into this situation and at that point I was thinking, ''I'm here, let me just get it over with''.'

While Adams said she didn't want to have sex with Alan, she allowed him to continue.

The starlet said Alan sat down with her in his kitchen and gave her a speech about how he knows 'dozens' of directors. Adams thought she was getting good advice from an industry pro. And even when Alan asked her to go upstairs to the 'Princess Room' – a pink decorative room with a double bed - Adams thought it was part of the 'go-see'

The two met over Twitter, with Alan reaching out to Adams directly. The two began texting (pictured) and learned of their mutual interest in 'DDLG' play, which stands for Daddy Dom/ Little Girl

Adams said: 'It was a little flirty, but when communicating with directors it's not uncommon for them to ask you what you're in to, what your fetishes are for example, because they need to know that for shooting - at the end of the day our industry is sex'

Adams said: 'He asked me how old I was, he told me he saw a lot of potential in me, so I got the impression this was all in a professional context.' Adams said Alan had given her the option of meeting at Starbucks or his house where 'he had a really good coffee machine'. She said she felt Starbucks would have been an awkward place to talk about porn so opted for his place

Adams said she only had anal sex once before and tweeted about the experience. 'It was with somebody I consented to and I enjoyed it, I'm allowed to have anal sex with people I consent to,' she said. It's her guess Alan - who had already commented on how he liked her activity on Twitter - had seen the tweet and thought it was okay to penetrate her anally

Adams said: 'Part of me kind of felt like I was a little bit at blame for not realizing he was luring me over to his house to f**k, how did I not realize that, how can I be so naive?

'I was so disappointed in myself for thinking this was just a go-see.

'It wasn't something I was looking for, I wasn't attracted to him, it wasn't something I went over there for.

'For a minute or two I'm processing it, trying to understand it and I guess accept it.

'I remember the detectives asking me whether I remember saying anything specific during the vaginal sex and I said ''no'', because I didn't want that either.

'It was just something I wanted to hurry up and get over with.'

Adams said she only had anal sex once before and tweeted about the experience.

'It was with somebody I consented to and I enjoyed it, I'm allowed to have anal sex with people I consent to,' she said.

It's her guess Alan - who had already commented on how he liked her activity on Twitter - had seen the tweet and thought it was okay to penetrate her anally.

'He flipped me over and he shoved it in there with no lube, no nothing, without my permission or anything,' she recalls.

'At first I'm kind of nice about it, ''I'm like no, can you please take it out. I've only had anal sex one other time, please this hurts''.'

But Adams said her pleas fell on deaf ears and Alan continued, getting more aggressive.

He grabbed the back of her neck and forced her head into the pillow, she claims.

'The more I asked him to stop, the more aggressive he became. He said, 'I'm old enough to be your dad, you do as I say.'

An hour after the incident Adams said she sent Alan (left and right) some text messages which gave the appearance that all was well. Alan himself cites the text messages in his defense

Hours after the alleged rape Alan texted her stating: 'My c**k is so happy right now (smiley face).' Adams replied: 'Glad I could please u daddy...My a*****e is pretty happy too.' To which Alan replied 'good girl'

The night of the incident Adams posted a tweet (pictured) on her official Twitter page which Alan would also later use in his defense. 'I just took the biggest d**k in the world up my ass... I'm equal parts shocked and impressed.' The tweet essentially confirmed she had just had anal sex and liked it. Alan - who vehemently denies the allegations - told DailyMail.com that this clearly shows she was not raped

ADULT FILM DIRECTOR STILLS BY ALAN DENIES LILY ADAMS' RAPE CLAIMS In a statement Stills by Alan told DailyMail.com: 'On December 29, 2018, my world was turned upside-down when an adult performer made criminal accusations against myself and Bree Mills on social media. 'Up until now I have been cooperating with Gamma Films' investigation into the matter, and thought it prudent to not make any public statements. 'Now that I have spoken and provided evidence to Gamma's attorneys, I will state publicly what I told them: the accusations made against me are completely false and baseless. 'Not only was the sexual encounter between myself and the performer 100% consensual, the circumstances under which it took place were misrepresented and fabricated by the performer to create the false impression that it arose out of a 'go see' appointment. 'I originally met with the performer while she was accompanied by an employee of her then-agent on September 16, 2016, 14 months prior to our sexual encounter. This fact is crucial. Conflating the two events, more than a year apart, creates a false and inappropriate context for the encounter. 'In fact, the sexual encounter arose from a date we made via several text messages. During our date, on November 13, 2017, we both actively and verbally consented to having sex. 'At no point during the date did she ever convey any physical or emotional discomfort to me. 'If she would have done so I would have immediately stopped. 'After the date, she and I exchanged text messages where we both indicated how happy we both were with the evening. 'She also made a social media post after the date where she tweeted that she was 'surprised & impressed' with herself after having anal sex that evening. 'We later worked together professionally on February 13th 2018 & March 9th 2018, without incident or issue. 'I supplied Gamma's investigators with copies of these text messages and social media posts, along with proof that I had done a formal, supervised, professional go see during business hours with this performer and a representative of her then-agent long before the consensual sex occurred. 'I also supplied Gamma's investigators with written character references from multiple talent agencies who have known me for a decade, stating that they have never had a model complain about working with me. 'It is not fair to take away a person's career, livelihood and reputation over an allegation that has been proven false and is completely untrue. 'I look forward to returning to work and continuing to create the quality adult content that so many fans have enjoyed over the years. 'I support and, if given the opportunity, will strictly adhere to Gamma Films' new Code of Conduct and look forward to continuing to provide a safe and creative workplace for adult performers.' Advertisement

Despite her cries he wouldn't stop.

'I remember him saying, 'this hole is mine now' and 'you're not allowed to use it for anyone else, you can go get f**ked on set by other guys but you're going to come home to me and let me destroy this hole.'

Adams said she wanted to keep crying and keep saying no but felt it was encouraging him to go harder.

'It made him think it was some sick, twisted fantasy, I feel like he thought me crying and saying no was a joke.

'And so I just had to shut the f**k up and take it. I don't know what was more painful, the physical pain or the mental pain of not being able to say anything, having your voice taken away.'

Adams said it felt like the rape 'lasted forever'.

'I honestly couldn't tell you whether it was five minutes, an hour or a year,' she said.

'He got up pulled up his pants and acted like nothing had happened. He walks downstairs.'

Adams said that after she composed herself she went downstairs and described how there was an 'awkward energy' in the room.

'We're both looking at each other, like we know what just happened, what is the next move gonna be. Is he thinking, ''are you gonna go and tell people you raped me or be quiet and work for me''.

The actress said Alan offered her a cannabis joint which she refused and she stayed no longer than 5-10 minutes before leaving in her car.

'I just wanted to go home, I was in pain and bleeding,' she said.

Before she left, Alan's parting words were to remind Adams that he will be sure to let his other director friends know what type of girl she is.

This was Adams' greatest fear.

Adams said that after she composed herself she went downstairs and described how there was an 'awkward energy' in the room. The actress said Alan offered her a cannabis joint which she refused and she stayed no longer than 5-10 minutes before leaving in her car. A few days later Alan texted Adams about a party they were both attending, where Adams seemingly got drunk and hit Alan

Adams claims she has 'no recollection' of hitting Alan after becoming drunk at a party

The porn star claims Alan forced himself on her before holding her down on a bed in what he called 'The Princess Room'. Adams said through tears: 'The more I asked him to stop, the more aggressive he became... he got turned on and the sicker things he would say to me'

Pictured: Adams at the party mentioned above, days after the alleged rape in November 2017

She said: 'What was he going to tell them, that I'm a horrible person and then never book me and then I get blacklisted after being in the industry for a year-and-a-half.

'I've exposed myself to the whole world and then all of a sudden because I get raped I get blacklisted... I couldn't have lived with that.'

Adams said she got in her car and broke down crying.

'I was trying to drive home but kept having to stop and pull over because I was crying so hard. It was just past sunset and getting dark outside.'

An hour after the incident Adams said she sent Alan some text messages which gave the appearance that all was well.

Alan himself cites the text messages in his defense.

Hours after the alleged rape Alan texted her stating: 'My c**k is so happy right now (smiley face).'

Adams replied: 'Glad I could please u daddy...My a*****e is pretty happy too.'

To which Alan replied 'good girl'.

But Adams, now 23, said those texts were sent to placate Alan, now 42, through pure fear that the director could ruin her entire career.

She said she regrets sending the messages, but admits she would probably do the same again.

'If I was in that position again, back then, with that little power and that little voice, I probably would have done and said the exact same. I hate it, but it's just who I am as a person. I didn't understand and I was scared and confused.'

Adams said she tried to forget about the attack and 'move on', saying the last thing she would have wanted to do was admit to being raped.

But as the weeks and the months went by the incident ate away at her.

Shockingly, Adams also worked with Alan a couple of times after being allegedly raped. But she messaged her agent Shy Love and told her the full story before doing so. 'I told her what I went through and that I was very hesitant to do the shoot in the first place and I would put my foot down if he tried anything, basically letting her know in case there was drama.' The agent told Adams what happened wasn't okay and urged her to report the incident, Adams said

'I didn't want to be the girl that got raped, once you accept that that happened you can't take that back, it's who you are now.'

The night of the incident Adams also posted a tweet on her official Twitter page which Alan would also later use in his defense.

'I just took the biggest d**k in the world up my ass... I'm equal parts shocked and impressed.'

The tweet essentially confirmed she had just had anal sex and liked it.

Alan - who vehemently denies the allegations - told DailyMail.com that this clearly shows she was not raped.

Adams said she understands how damning that looks - why would someone who had just been raped post such a thing?

I didn't want to be the girl that got raped, once you accept that that happened you can't take that back, it's who you are now.

But the starlet insists that at the time, aged just 21 and extremely naive, she posted it to reaffirm to her attacker that she wouldn't tell on him.

'I tweeted what I did because he told me that he found me through my Twitter, he thought my tweets were funny and I knew he'd be checking my Twitter that night.'

Shockingly, Adams also worked with the director a couple of times after being allegedly raped.

But she messaged her agent Shy Love and told her the full story before doing so.

'I told her what I went through and that I was very hesitant to do the shoot in the first place and I would put my foot down if he tried anything, basically letting her know in case there was drama.'

The agent told Adams what happened wasn't okay and urged her to report the incident, Adams said.

But the actress convinced the agent not to say anything that could damage her career.

In a detailed statement released to DailyMail.com Alan vehemently denies Adams' claims. He also pointed out the text messages she had sent him and the tweet raving about having had anal sex

Alan said he had already met Adams at a 'go-see' in 2016 - insisting that when they met in November 2017 it was a 'date' - not a professional meeting. Pictured: A text message exchange between Alan and Adams' former agent Shy Love indicating Adams had met Alan in 2016

Adams said Alan steered clear of her on set during two different shoots and avoided any awkward moments.

She never saw Alan again after the second shoot and she tried to put the alleged rape out of her mind.

Her profile as a porn star was on the up and she was popular in the industry.

'I swept the incident under the rug, nobody wants to be the girl that got raped, nobody wants to wake up every day and look in the mirror and admit to themselves that they got violated like that,' she said.

'So I tried so hard to forget about it.'

But then in June, 2018 - seven months after the alleged rape - Adams received an email out of the blue.

It had come from an encrypted, anonymous account and the person didn't give their name.

The email claimed that Alan and a female porn director called Bree Mills were making fun of Adams on set over the alleged incident.

The sender, believed to be another adult performer, claimed to have heard about what 'stillsbyAlan did to you' and said that 'many other girls' had complained about him before but were 'silenced' by Mills, Gamma Film's head of production.

'It really triggered me, I realized I couldn't avoid it anymore,' Adams said.

'It was all building up and it was as if the universe was telling me, ''you can't live with this pain any longer''.'

Adams decided she had to do something.

'I felt like me keeping this to myself was selfish,' she said. 'I needed to stop other girls being victimized.'

She called her new agent and told him what had happened. She then approached director Bree Mills about it.

Adams said she never saw Alan again after a second shoot she did with his company and she tried to put the alleged rape out of her mind. But then in June, 2018 - seven months after the alleged rape - Adams received an email out of the blue. It had come from an encrypted, anonymous account and the person didn't give their name. The email claimed that Alan and female porn director Bree Mills were making fun of Adams on set over the alleged incident

The sender, believed to be another adult performer, claimed to have heard about what 'stillsbyAlan did to you' and said that 'many other girls' had complained about him before but were 'silenced' by Mills, Gamma Film's head of production.' Pictured: Alan with Bree Mills (both in back) with three porn stars

'I broke down to her and was crying on the phone for about an hour,' she recalls.

'She sounded like she cared, she told me she would do something about it and I trusted her, but months went by and nothing happened.

'I waited and waited and then Alan is winning awards for best director and being promoted to bigger and better sets.

'So that's why I felt I had to take it into my own hands and that's why I came out with it on Twitter.

'I felt it was the only option I had left to tell the world and get the justice and the healing I needed.'

After Adams posted the tweets accusing Alan of rape she was flooded with messages from fans telling her to go to the police.

Hours later she did and filed a police report with an officer who came out to see her in the early hours of the morning.

Adams' bombshell tweets made instant headlines and sent shockwaves across the porn industry.

Alan, a contracted director, was immediately suspended by his company Gamma Films Inc.

The firm, which is best known for its high-end lesbian porn site GirlsWay.com, which Alan helped create, immediately opened an internal investigation into the allegations.

In a detailed statement released to DailyMail.com Alan vehemently denies Adams' claims and said he had already met her at a 'go-see' in 2016 - insisting that when they met in November 2017 it was a 'date' - not a professional meeting.

He also pointed out the text messages she had sent him and the tweet raving about having had anal sex.

But Adams said that while she had seen Alan popping in on porn shoots prior to November, she doesn't ever recall doing a prior 'go-see' with him.

After posting the damning tweets alleging rape, Adams went on a therapy retreat in the Amazon jungle in Peru for 24 days in a bid to 'heal'. She said she came back with a clear head and a new focus but was shocked by what she saw on her return. 'I went on the retreat and it was amazing and I was ready to come back and start afresh,' she said. 'I hadn't had my phone for the entire month and when I finally checked it I saw this wave of negativity against me'

DailyMail.com spoke with Adams' former agent Shy Love who confirmed that Adams had indeed attended a 'go-see' with Alan and that one of her staffers had acted as chaperone.

The agent also claimed that all 'go-sees' are conducted that way for the safety of the performer but also to ensure that the performer doesn't try to book jobs directly with directors.

Love, who has since parted ways with Adams, has also sided with Alan over the rape claims.

She told DailyMail.com that she is bound by an NDA she signed with her former client but in a series of tweets she wrote that: 'I truly believe Alan in this situation.'

She added that she couldn't understand why Adams would attend a shoot with Alan after claiming he raped her.

'If u were raped why would u want to shoot for a director,' she wrote.

Love wasn't the only doubter to come out against Adams.

After posting the damning tweets alleging rape, Adams went on a therapy retreat in the Amazon jungle in Peru for 24 days in a bid to 'heal'.

She said she came back with a clear head and a new focus but was shocked by what she saw on her return.

'I went on the retreat and it was amazing and I was ready to come back and start afresh,' she said.

'I hadn't had my phone for the entire month and when I finally checked it I saw this wave of negativity against me.'

In her absence Alan had posted a detailed denial to the rape online, and received the backing of many of his peers, including Love and a string of adult performers.

Adams claims she has since been blacklisted from much of the porn industry and claims Alan personally reached out to several well known directors asking that they not work with her in future.

The vitriol against Adams for coming forward with her claims spread cross social media. She explained: 'They tore me down and undid all the healing I'd done, it's so traumatizing to have people you thought were friends trade their lives off for money. So many girls'

Adams' former agent Shy Love, who has since parted ways with Adams, has sided with Alan over the rape claims. She told DailyMail.com that she is bound by an NDA she signed with her former client but in a series of tweets she wrote that: 'I truly believe Alan in this situation'

The vitriol against Adams for coming forward with her claims spread cross social media.

She explained: 'They tore me down and undid all the healing I'd done, it's so traumatizing to have people you thought were friends trade their lives off for money. So many girls.'

The starlet has since taken on a new agent, however, who has been supportive but work is scarce.

DailyMailTV has confirmed that an LAPD investigation is underway into the rape, although Alan claims he has not yet been contacted by detectives.

Adams' LA attorney Robert Rafii is handling her case and said he is considering filing a civil lawsuit against Alan, Mills and Gamma Films.

He told DailyMailTV: 'Sexual assault cases are very difficult on the abused under any circumstance, but particularly here where my client is in the adult movie industry.

'But regardless, in all circumstances, NO MEANS NO.

'This is both a civil and criminal matter. We are encouraging other victims to come forward and to share their stories.'

Mr Rafii said other alleged victims of Alan have already contacted him to tell their stories and he vows to respect their privacy and confidentiality.

'Many victims fear that they might be blacklisted by the industry for participating in our investigation, but I would like to assure them that we will not disclose their identities unless they give us permission.

'I can confirm that the police are already involved, but we are not going into further details about the police's involvement at this time.

'We will pursue civil claims alongside the government's investigation into the criminal components of this case.'

The lawyer added that he and Adams are seeking 'positive change' to make the porn industry safer for women, and insists Adams is not motivated by monetary gain.

Adams was not paid by DailyMailTV to participate in this interview.

When contacted by DailyMailTV Karl Bernard, President of Gamma Films Group Inc., said in a statement: 'In regards to recent comments made concerning one of our contracted directors, Gamma Films Group Inc. is proactively encouraging, supporting and cooperating with the individuals involved to report their statements to the appropriate authorities to ensure that there will be a thorough legal investigation.

'As a company, Gamma Films Group Inc. takes these comments very seriously. We care tremendously about the adult industry and the safety and well-being of everyone in it.

'We will also be opening an internal investigation and, until further notice, have suspended all Gamma Films productions through Stills by Alan and SBA Creative Concepts.'

Both Mills and Alan have pinned a statement to the top of their Twitter profiles.

Alan has been nominated for 'Director of the Year' at prestigious Adult Video News Awards for three years running.