Looking back on what seems like ages ago, I was posting in a small sub on reddit. I remember not showing who I was… never posting pictures. Just chatting a little. Mostly it was telling other people how awesome they were and how I liked their clothes.

I slowly started to move on.. and other yet another account, share pictures. The triggers in my life were being pulled, and I was very close to ending it all.

This small community gave me a little hope, as my life began to unravel. They gave me some hope and sanity. This community is full of awesome people even to this day. They helped me get there.

Almost 2 years ago I finally admitted I was transgender to the first person. I had known to myself for a long, long time this was me. First was my son’s mother, I still miss her deeply. I miss talking and having that confidence in her. She is an amazing person.

Then came my childhood best friend. I feared coming out to him. He showed me that things would be ok.

Then an old high school crush. Not sure why… I just new it was right to come out to her next.

She has become one of the loudest supporters of trans people I have ever met.

I do not know what I would do without her. She has held my hand. Helped me when there was no one else to help. Led me through hell and back.

Every month it is like a small celebration of my monthly anniversary for starting HRT. She probably knows more about me than I do.

It wears on her. I can see it. Everytime a trans person dies, gets hurt… anything. It drags on her. She works her ass off for her husband and kids. She is still the loudest supporter I know.

She goes to church. Faces fire for all of us. She does so with a huge passion.

It wears on her. At the end of the day… all she wants to see is a smile on my face. Or yours. Any trans man or woman’s face… a smile.

I have never seen any cis individual speak so fiercely for the trans community. Everyday, I am speechless.

I would love for once, her to realize everything she does. Day in, day out. Tireless. For every trans person out there.

Connie, you are brilliant. Stay rad. If you can handle that, I will stay on my little blue pills 🙂

❤