rubato:

lately

I’ve been feeling a lot more cis

I tracked my gender for a reason and I haven’t been tracking lately, but I know that my feeling cis and feeling more okay with she/her is also correlating with birth control hormones still being in my body

I stopped taking my birth control pills though, because they were worsening my depression

so I’m curious to see if I’m going to go back to feeling agender or neutrois sometimes

lately though I’ve been feeling femme

but I never really ID as “woman” unless using the term “woman of color”

“woman” just feels weird to me, even when I’m feeling cis

I don’t know

either way I stay out of gender discussions and do my best to center genderessence/tpoc

but

yeah

I guess genderfluidity for *me* means

sometimes I’m cis

sometimes I’m not quite cis and yet not trans either

idk

does genderessence have space for me? :(