It's the dark of night and I'm at the end of the line

Alone in my head and waiting for something divine

To answer me

Drowning to silence the internal violence, I pray

To make it through

The stormwinds are growing as my dreams are blowing away

Just like you --



-- Out at the edge the moonlight reflecting for me

The collapse of the waves echoing internally, as I cry out

If I'm living my life then why does it feel like my heart,

Will break in two?

Failure is calling as my dreams are falling apart

Just like you --



Celldweller - Just Like You



_ _ _ _Phew. I started this ages ago and this was supposed to be yet another piece for my "October feelings" -pictures... Guess who is late. But it doesn't matter, either. It's not the casual reason why October was a pain. This time... I had already felt absolutely terrible, and then I lost Tico, my precious little bird. This whole fall just feels like life has come up with a bunch of ideas to tear me apart mentally - and apparently physically, too. So many times I have wished to see that light which would guide me through all of this, but eventually something happens and I just fall deeper in the darkness. Now I have to force myself for trying to gather nerves to survive through even the smallest of hardships.Maybe it will be over one day. Though now I'm just living in the day as I have not much to wait for. We'll see.Apart from the rant, I also was supposed to say something else about this picture. I could say it was quite a journey trying to find new ways to work on the shadings. It was a hectic and terribly disorganized try. But in the end I kinda like the result. I anyway feel like I should do something to my art style. It seems like my life will be full of changes and maybe altering my style would be a good thing to start with. I want my style to look more "tidy" than what it has been. Of course that means spending more time on the art, too... Might help if I didn't spend hours on working on some tiny details which won't even show in the finished picture. Oh, well...Also, one more alter ego thing being angsty. Well done, me...Waittiz & Procylons & art (c) me