I love this girl. She’s smart, so smart, too smart sometimes; She’s beautiful, oh god, I cannot stop looking at her. She’s funny, delightful, and pleasant, I could spend hours, days with her talking about random things that a few people would understand. But she got hurt and doesn’t let anybody in easily, you have to earn it, fight for it. She’s struggling with every aspect in her life, she thinks she’s a failure although she’s everything but. You can tell by her eyes she’s hurt and lonely but her smile and words makes her not seem so sad, when she’s over with her day job, she cries her way home, thinking why she doesn’t have someone that says “it’s going to be ok, don’t worry too much, I’m here for you no matter what”, but she thinks she doesn’t have. Only people who get through her dense wall understand what’s inside her head but she’ll never tell you what’s going on. Her expectations are low because every single person who entered her life hurt her in some way, now she fears abandonment and rejection, she prefers being alone than with someone that could or would eventually leave her. She’s the strongest person I know, even with everything she’s been dealing, she hangs on and fights every day to excel, but she gets tired and depressed because she’s has nobody that will be happy about her accomplishments.

If you read all this you would be thinking that she’s not a strong person and she’s ungrateful, but no, she’s not like the other girls, she’s great, she’s just not easy to read.

She’s hurt, that’s it. Her story speaks for herself. She’s afraid and all she’ll ever need is for someone to love her as she is, that would make her stop worrying so much. She never had a childhood, she was bullied, and she was rejected several times. What’s worse than having nowhere to run, nowhere to go when everything goes wrong? What’s wrong with the society to make people desperate enough to make them want to disappear?

She’s not the only one who had her life tougher than the average person but every person has its issues and it doesn’t make them more or less valid.

She considers suicide as her only option, like many suicide is the only light at the end of the tunnel, but let me tell you my dear, it gets better, believe me, it gets better, I know it’s hard to think like that in those moments.

Please don’t let people influence your choices, you are a wonderful person and you don’t need anybody else but you in your life, you’re great, someday you’ll see that it got better, please don’t do anything that might hurt you, you are beautiful, smart, everything in you is good, the world would be worse without you, you have the power to change the world, believe me and in yourself, YOU can do it.

I know you’ll read it sometime and also know that you’ll think that’s not about you, that I wrote it to another person because you think you’re not deserving of nice things, you couldn’t be more wrong, there’s people out there that (will) love you no matter what. Just believe in you and remember this everyday: People who are lost, depressed and hurt are normally the ones who will change the world because THEY know how messed up it is and also know deep inside how to change it, it’s in your hands.

Go after your dreams, don’t let anyone stop you.