(a Youtube Video) I will make a music video of the song I wrote for my ex-girlfriend before flying out to Portland to tell her I loved her, the most embarrassing song I ever wrote, especially considering I might have misinterpreted the situation at the time. I will change the names in the song so she doesn't sue me or get a bunch of paparazzi at her house because that is how love works. Even though she told me to never speak to her again, I am sure if she ever saw the video she would understand I needed to make it for therapy reasons and that she wouldn't be like "Hey, I know I told you to never talk to me again, but that is MY song you wrote for ME out of misplaced affection!" Maybe she would feel really guilty and apologize and we could be together again and go on one of those awesome freighter cruises or something. According to my friends, the song lyrics actually do send mixed signals, kind of like her (according to my brain at the time, but maybe not in real life. She was pretty clear once I got there.) Life is all about unique experiences, and while that trip cost lots of money I didn't really have and made me really sad, I'd do it all over again, just to have my face stomped on again, because life is awesome, no matter how you might get bummed out sometimes. When you care about someone you show it, and there is always hope to connect with others and make awesome art as long as you demand that you trust your instincts and live on your own terms. And may the wind always ignite your sails.

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