You have epilepsy and take a lot of medicine No seizures! You feel great! It is a wonderful thing! Then one day you feel sick. So, you end up in the ER. just to keep your medicine down. You need to keep your medicine down.

They give you water, just through the IV. Then take some tests, Just normal tests. After a while, they come to you. Gentle and quiet, just to talk. Then they tell you why they came. They need to tell you why they came.

At first, one holds your hand, and quietly says to you, your kidney is starting to fail, just starting to fail. The problem is the medication you are on. The one to stop the seizures. It is the best to stop your seizures.

They say, they will tell your doctor, you have a lot to think about. Your seizures, the medication you take and something called hemodialysis. And what is hemodialysis?

The more you think about that, the more sad you feel. When the seizures stopped, you felt you were free. You could go out alone, drive, and have fun with friends. So, you read about hemodialysis, and found out what it takes from you. The days, the hours.

It is not a cure, but it takes the freedom away, like the seizures did. So, which one is better? More tests will come, like it was before, test after test. When will it stop? Just when will it stop?

So, what do you do, when you want to be free?

Maybe you won't just, ever be free.





Update May 2012 The last Kidney test is normal Thank God!







