Recap: John 8:31-32 – Jesus said to the people who believed in him, you are truly my disciples if you remain faithful to my teaching. And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. ~ NIV

In part 1, I shared how telling my earthly father the truth about some trouble I got into my senior year in college helped set me free from a heaviness of depression. I felt so empowered that day that I was sure I would never feel depressed again—until the next night when all of a sudden, I started slipping into my pit of depression again!

Psalm 139:1-2 – O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I’m far away. ~NLT



Man-to-Man – God led me to this scripture the moment I started getting depressed again. At first glance the verse seemed pointless because as a born-again Christian, I know that God knows my heart and everything about me. I mean the bible says he even knows the numbers of hairs on my big head! So of course he knows everything about me! But when I read the last part of the verse that says he even knows my thoughts when I’m far away, I begin to question myself…

If God knows all of my thoughts… Then why do I feel the need to hide them from him? I decided I would spend the next morning of prayer talking to God about my thoughts.

Here are some of the things I found myself saying to God

“Lord it’s hard to trust you when I don’t understand why you do things the way you do.”

“Why don’t you speak in an audible voice?”

“I just don’t understand why you even created Satan”

Side-note: For some odd reason I was scared God was going to strike me down for saying those things.

Let’s be real: Many of us have the tendency to hide our thoughts while praying to God. We say things like “Lord I know you’ll make a way,” when in the back of our minds we really want to say Lord I’m not sure if you’ll make a way or not. Or we begin our prayers with structure and say, “ Lord, I come to you giving you thanks.” When in reality you’re coming to him confused, doubtful and upset. Psalm 139:1-2 lets us know that God knows all of our thoughts even when we’re far away (confused, doubtful, upset, faithless). So why do we pray and hide our thoughts from him?

Get your victory! – Try spending your next prayer time talking to God about your thoughts. Be open and honest with him. It helped lift a burden off of me, so I’m sure it can do the same thing for you! 🙂