First, there’s no one on my college campus that’s a leftist. It makes me feel really lonely politically.

I’ve tried recruiting people into my socialist club and for 2 whole fucking years only one person has ever joined. And he wasn’t a good member at all. He was the type of person that said niceties and “words of encouragement” but not actually participate and he flaked out after 3 meetings, only speaking to me when it was convenient for him (like waiting at the bus stop). He said he’d do certain things, but never did. When I tabled, I saw him walking past, but he didn’t even bother to say hello.

As for every other person I’ve recruited? They disappeared of the face of the earth, no response, nothing. Over 100 people and absolutely nothing. It’s fucking ridiculous. Tabling, class presentations, invitations, club collaborations, free giveaways, fun events, one-on-one discussions, and asking everyone I know, did fuck all at doing anything.

Also I’ve been accused of shitting on the US constitution and the sacrifices that veterans made. Some people think I advocate for soldiers constantly marching on the street with Mosin-Nagants and bayoneting everyone who speaks against the state!

I’ve just been really discouraged lately. Nothing I’m doing is working and everything seems to be moving in the other direction, on a personal and broad level (Trump, Alt-Right, Islamophobia, Imperialism, etc).

Tl;dr

I think I’m actually going to give up because nothing I have done is working or changing a damn thing. I literally could have done nothing and would get the exact same results.