I'm not entirely sure where to start... I met my husband Ryan about 4 years ago, and from day one we were inseparable. We were both addicts (the drugs we did don't matter, what they did to us did so I won't be naming any or telling any drug stories) and we stayed clean together, he made staying clean FUN. He and I did everything together. He was my best friend. We ended up getting married and in March of this year, I found out I was pregnant. We fell on rough times and got evicted from our apartment, and both ended up moving into sober living houses to try and get our lives together for our baby girl. Long story short, I left my house and moved back in with my parents, leaving him living in his sober house until we could both save enough money to move back in together. In July we separated for quite some time. It was scary, and I thought I was going to have to be a single mom.. But he came back around and was ready to be a dad! But, Monday, Oct 31st he ran away and we couldn't find him. I was a wreck. I needed to know he was safe, especially because I am due to have his baby November 13th. Friday November 4th at around 12:30 pm I was informed by the Woodson Terrace, MO PD (a town outside st Louis MO) that my husband was found dead. He passed away from a heroin overdose. My world fell apart that day... Now I'm set to be a single mother, something I know I CAN do, especially since I have been clean from drugs. And I have to go on without my best friend, my partner. It hurts. But that's why I am making this gofundme. I thought it was selfish at first, but I know now that I need to think of my daughter and what she will need when I finally bring her into this world within the next week or two. Anything you can give will help. I don't know if this is tacky or selfish to make one of these for this situation or not, but I needed to reach out and try..