"I've only done this for 18 years...professional wrestling ... I've only done this, I only have this"

"The inhabitants here are really bad at socializing, because both sumo and pro-wrestling are isolated from ordinary society. Like wrestlers, if you don't have the opportunity to have a family or be introduced to someone, you basically have little interaction with outsiders."









Takeshi Morishima was arrested on November 4th 2018 in Kabukichō, Tokyo for punching a taxi driver and breaking his cheekbones, in a row over fare.Fare he didn't have by the way, which came to about 18,000 yen. It wasn't just a case of him leaving his wallet at home, he had deliberately gotten a cab without it thinking that someone else would give him the money.Details later emerged about Morishima's disturbing state of mind and sequence of behavior leading up to the event, but we need to look further back to see the roots of the problem, and how this whole sad story began.The majority of wrestlers enter the dojo system very young; usually about seventeen or eighteen. The rules are they must be healthy in body and mind, and have a High School Diploma. They usually go from the closed world of High School sports, into the cloistered world of the dojo. They go straight from their parents houses too. In the dojo they devote themselves to training, and they are only allowed out perhaps for an hour or so on a Saturday, and then perhaps only to a local convenience store, and if there are enough people to wait in the dojo on the seniors, they may even be allowed out to the cinema.Nightlife, drinking, women, socializing, are all forbidden, and in many ways they are like Maiko, they devote themselves entirely to training, they wait on their elders, they do chores, and the people of their own age they do meet, they find they have little in common with, unless they too are in wrestling.In the dojo their days are regimented, and even when they make their debuts and are allowed a little more freedom, their lives are still controlled and although they don't have the cooking\cleaning\waiting on senior in the dojo schedule anymore or knocking on doors in the morning in hotels to get hungover, bruised, battered, and exhausted wrestlers out of bed, they have tours and promotional duties, and people are on hand to tell them where they should be. The same thing happens with touring bands, some people get so used to it, they wind up taking their families shopping at 4am when off tour; some people go from tour to tour, never going home.The lucky ones (and this is most of them) adjust well to their freedom, some marry and have a support network of partners and children or else family, (Morishima never married as he said that due to his size, he didn't think any woman would want him, and that marriage for men like him was impossible - plus he didn't want to share his private space with anyone else), others leave and still stay in the wrestling business in some way, they become trainers, start their own promotions, promote events, open restaurants, they write books about their experience, they become sports therapists or else put their skills to use in another way.Others do not adjust (although it is rare), and very sadly Takeshi Morishima seems to have been one of these people who did not, although he did try to get some experience for life after wrestling, it doesn't seem to have lasted long (and the company no longer exists).It also didn't help that he seemed to be pathologically lonely, and came from a small fragmented family, who he didn't seem particularly close to, which is why in later years he clung to Kenoh, whom he used to call at midnight to chat. There was always a sense with him that his past contained a trauma which he had used wrestling to blanket himself with, not wanting to face the outside world where it was waiting for him, and sadly in a way, events would show it was.Kenoh always said that Morishima was a generous person, who never let him pay for anything. Morishima's kindness was such that when he made his debut, he bought young Hitoshi Kumano a steak dinner.Kenoh credits him with teaching him how to live as a wrestler, and it is a shame that Morishima could not advise on how to live as a person and how to find interests away and outside of wrestling, which was something he never did. Unlike Kenoh who has a life outside of the ring and interests beyond what happens there, Morishima did not. In an interview done around 2015/2016 he appeared to have no hobbies past watching recorded TV programs, he didn't like animals unlike the rest of the roster, and thought of nothing but wrestling. The interviewer came away saying that this was all that was in his head and that he came across as somewhat shy and defensive.In 2016, Takeshi Morishima started his downward spiral, probably caused by a depressive condition and burnout (he was an active wrestler and had corporate duties as well following the shake up after Misawa's death), but maybe there was an underlying condition as well that emerged at that time. Following a chronic shoulder injury which also stretched to his elbow which he had suffered first in 2013, and a knee injury, a blood test was taken which which revealed a high hemoglobin of HbA1c. The diagnosis of diabetes hit him hard (and Kenoh said he cried bitterly both in the ring and outside of it and felt helpless to do anything for him), and his mental health deteriorated under the shock of being advised to retire, but at the same time he was posting odd things on social media, like rambling crazy statements about things which made no sense. Wrestling was all he had ever known, aside from High School Judo. At his own request, Noah arranged a retirement match for Morishima in Osaka.Originally they had planned a ceremony given Morishima's condition. Naomichi Marufuji was worried for Morishima, admitting in an interview that Morishima had contacted him about it and he was concerned that Morishima was not "physically and mentally" ready to wrestle and he thought that people were laughing at him or not taking him seriously, but Marufuji was prepared to do this for him and told him not to rush, but to prepare nonetheless. Their conversation must have been difficult, with Morishima worried about what he was going to do with himself after wrestling, refusing to discuss issues one moment, and telling Marufuji the next that having to retire was like "losing a limb". Marufuji said that he had been with Morishima since he was a trainee, eighteen years or longer, and he had spent more time with him than his own family. He wanted to respect his wishes and do what was right for him. However, Morishima cancelled the retirement match acknowledging that he wasn't capable as he was suffering high levels of anxiety and physically was not in a good way, but he didn't want a retirement ceremony either. When his contract expired in December 2015, he left Noah under a cloud, and vanished for three years. In the three years he was missing he bounced from job to job, concert security, bouncer, bartender, pizza maker, delivery-man for fast food outlets, luggage porter, flower-shop employee, the list goes on. In another tragic turn of events to the story, Morishima had started working in a nursing home and had gained a qualification in medical care. His return to wrestling was going to cause him to lose that too.In July 2018 he announced out of the blue that he was returning to wrestling, having caught the bug once again training an Indie promotion, and he would hold his comeback event at Korakuen Hall in October on his 40th birthday, which he would call "GENESIS". It was later announced that the main event would be himself versus Takashi Sugiura (Noah's GHC Heavyweight Champion at the time). He didn't look comfortable being back at Korakuen, his body language showed how nervous he was, he spoke with his eyes shut and brushed hair out of his face, he mumbled. Afterwards he practically fled the arena and got into a waiting car and collapsed against the seats. A feature with BATTLEMEN served to highlight how fragile he was."GENESIS" was never going to happen, and maybe that was for the best.On the 10th September, Morishima was rushed to hospital after suffering severe pain in his feet, which was later diagnosed as "septic arthritis" (a condition diabetics are susceptible to) and he underwent emergency surgery. The event was called off and it was announced it would be rescheduled at a later date.No replacement date was ever announced, as it seemed Morishima's behavior was becoming not just erratic, but dangerous. When he appeared at "Flight" a few weeks before his hospitalization, fans expressed concern at his behavior, Kenoh (it seemed) was also worried by it, (Morishima addressed him by his real name, and not "Kenoh", which is is stage name), but Takashi Sugiura was angered by it and blasted him for being rude as to go so far to plug his own event, make a challenge to him via the person he was currently kayfabe feuding with, and then leave.It's sadly true. Morishima, didn't stay around for the aftershow party (although Kenoh had hoped he would), but left to drink with Takeshi Rikio and post comments like "I am not interested in Uchida's Noah, I am only interested in Misawa's Noah".An odd comment to make for a man who had been invited to a 20th anniversary for someone he had a strained relationship with, about a promotion he had arranged to fight the champion of.After the cancellation of the event, everything went quiet on Morishima, and people assumed that aside from the "naked drinking with DDT" (usual wrestler antics that no one takes much notice of), that he had gone back to training for his eventual return and rehabbing from surgery.His odd behavior of turning up at Puro Weekly unannounced and in a Halloween Mask, and then posing with an issue, raised eyebrows, but the people of Kabukichō told a different story.After his arrest it was discovered that Morishima had spent the days, not training, but drunk and wandering around the district, telling everyone he was "a star".It was later revealed that he would take a taxi to the district, and then ask people in the bars and any wrestlers he recognized who where there, for money for the waiting taxi. This led to several establishments banning him due to the harassment of their patrons, and, as his behavior was less than exemplary, he soon gained a reputation as a mean drunk.Housing also appeared to be an issue for him at this time (he used to have a beautiful apartment during his Noah days and he kept a box of candy when he settled down to watch films), but now it seemed he was virtually homeless, sleeping at the homes of people he had known for a few hours whom he had met in bars, one time even as a live in employee in a restaurant he worked in. It later transpired that his drinking cost him the apartment that the president of S.P Advertising (the company who had formerly looked after him) had arranged for him, and he was asked to leave. He told the President that if he wanted the keys, then he could come to Shinjuku where he was drinking and get them from him.There were days when he couldn't even change his clothes.Morishima also used to go and visit indie promotions and beg money from the younger wrestlers, at one time making them collectively cough up 500 yen for his taxi, whom he had left waiting outside while he sat and watched the show.On the night in question he came into "The Stanley Bar" which is run by professional wrestler, Naoshi Sano, and tried to borrow money from him. The store manager told him that Mr. Sano wasn't there, and as he cleaned the store, Morishima made strange comments to him like "I'm a pro wrestler, and your sweeping the floor", playing with his phone, playing with the mail that had come to the store and eating sweets. In the past he had begged for drinks, only having what amounted to £10.00 or $12.00 in his pocket.He left saying something like he had a few sweets left, and would be back with friends. During his visit, he apparently grabbed the managers arm, and left a huge bruise.It is proposed that Morishima took a taxi, and drove around looking for people who he could beg fare off of. The driver, realizing that the fare was already very high, stopped the cab and told him to pay, and that is when the row broke out.Morishima claims he was not drinking; but his reputation is against him as is his behavior, and the manager of "The Stanley Bar" says he has never seen him sober.News on Morishima has gone very quiet since his arrest, but I don't think that prison would be the right choice, and neither would giving him his freedom. Morishima needs to be court ordered somewhere to deal with his issues (and Kenoh did hint that he was in a secure unit).Noah offered to help him once, and he wouldn't take it. Kenoh, had pleaded with him to stay in Gifu, and not return to Tokyo, but Morishima would not listen.Morishima is only going to get help if he has no other choice, left to his own devices, he is like Takashi Sugiura says, "a child".The reaction from the puro world has been one of disappointment. On Noah's side, Naomichi Marufuji has said that for his own sake and that of society, Morishima needs to sort himself out. Old friend, Makoto Hashi (long retired and making a good living as a physiotherapist), said that Morishima needs to make a choice as to what he wants to do, he needs to grow as a person, and not as a wrestler.And that has been Morishima's problem; he hasmanaged to escape his own celebrity or grow into a healthy person with interests other than wrestling and a life outside of it, neither has he been able to grasp that he could not simply walk back into wrestling how it was when he left, holding an executive position which naturally comes with companies paying travel expenses, and as an veteran main eventer commanding star power. It would have been far better for him that when he came back, he quietly announced that he was returning as a trainer, any number of promotions would have snapped him up immediately, who wouldn't want to say that they had been trained by Takeshi Morishima, who was once known as "Noah's Monster", who was not only a three time GHC Heavyweight champion, but a five time GHC Heavyweight Tag team champion, won Global League in 2011, not to mention the many awards and rankings he was given by both Japanese and foreign press, and was one of the greatest and most memorable Ring of Honor champions, who holds the distinction of being the only Japanese one? It would have given him an income, he could have lived at the dojo, his food would have been prepared for him by the trainees, he would have eaten healthily (another bonus as the trainees are fed on dishes high in protein) and he would have had a support network in place of friends, and people to talk to and importantly, look out for and after him while being in an environment he knew.But no, Morishima had to be the star.Sadly with this assault charge and history of odd and erratic behavior, who is going to want to be in the ring with him, let alone be trained by him, if he is capable of bouts of temper which seriously injure members of the public? Very sadly, I think this is the final tragic chapter in the Takeshi Morishima story, who I doubt we will ever see back in a wrestling ring again.