"I don't know what would've happened had I not figured it out," he says. "Because the whole process for me was trying to figure out how to cope with this. I wasn't going to be passive and let this thing just swallow me up. You've got a responsibility: family, baby, organization, whole city, yourself - how do you figure out how to overcome this? Or just deal with it and not drown from this thing? And so it was this constant quest: to figure out how do you do that, how do you do that, how do you do that? So I was bound to figure something out because I was so obsessively concerned about it."