Recently, I took my 3-year old niece to a fair and had a blast.

What I found rather disturbing was how NONE of the women I encountered (age range 18-40) were attractive anymore. I could say there were pretty girls but I didn’t find them sexually attractive.

In my mangina bluepill days most women to me were attractive unless they were post-wall or obese. But now looking at women through this detached prism of reality I see how average looking the vast majority of women really are. Perhaps it stems from my journey of gmow that I feel even subconsciously no desire to impress and attract a woman. I will soon turn 30.

I am messing around a 25-year old woman mostly to kill boredom but even then I feel so detached from her. Her hypergamy is in full-swing (towards me) and the mind games fall flat. Few days ago she came over to my place and I said I don’t want any of this messing around and she can stay as a friend if she pleases (I don’t believe in men and women being friends but just to nudge her away slowly). She pretended to get all upset and put her shoes on but didn’t leave. Instead she let me take her clothes off. Because I didn’t try to stop her. Had I tried to stop her, she’d have left.

Part of me is sad that the romanticism of the blue pill mangina had his slow death in the making and seems like its finally here.

Women have lost all their charms from where I see.