Dear People That I Owe Money To,

I don’t get why people do not understand my situation.

Okay, 2 of you don’t understand (one being for my laptop and the other for rent). one of you is a good friend and understands well…

YES, I owe you money.

Do I have it? NO.

If I did- I would give it to you.

Does me not having money mean that I am taking advantage of you? NO.

It means I am a broke mofo.

It means that I work my ass off.

Does it mean that I am spending my money elsewhere? NO.

Have I bought myself clothes? nope.

A car? nope.

A new phone? nope.

Food? yes, but not as much as the average 19yr old. I am living like a broke college student in a dorm.

Has life thrown be curveballs? HELL YEAH. I got into a car accident and I can’t exactly push those costs aside until this shit is paid.. because if I do? The state and my boss won’t be happy.

I have no money. In my wallet right now? $6 left from my last paycheck. My last pay check went toward rent… the spare $50 after rent was paid? a card and present for my 6 year old brother’s birthday. I felt horrible that I didn’t have one for him and that I hadn’t seen or talked to him in about 10 months. By then I had $30 left?

OHWAIT! $20 has to go towards my bus pass so I can get to work everyday.

That leaves me $10? I have been living off of $10… oh wait, now $6.

Thank God for me having a boyfriend that is kind enough to pay for me when we are together the last couple of weeks. Without him… I’d only get to eat at work.

This is how I struggle. My Job has JUST been put on a normal full time schedule. People, when I have your money I will have it. I am not one to take advantage of people. That is not how I am. I appreciate help that I get. I really, really do. I count my blessing everyday and know how lucky I am… But seriously, this is why I rarely except help for ANYTHING.