[tw: eating disorders, anorexia]

I have been anorexic since I was 13. I lost a full 100 pounds, going from 200 lbs to 100 lbs, which was sickly for my 5'4 body. I always found ways not to eat. From lying and saying I was nauseous to spitting my food out into an opaque cup. I would fast for hours and hours, only consuming water and gum. I would spend all my time looking at images of anorexic girls and yearning to look like them. Everyone praised me for my extreme weight loss, my doctor praised me the most out of everyone. My entire family complimented me on my willpower. Everyone always asks me how I did it, and I don’t want to tell them I am anorexic, so I lie and say “diet and exercise.” The sickest part? When I gain a slight 5 pounds, I have a major panic attack.

(bold emphasis mine, since it most clearly illustrates how the institution of fat oppression and thin privilege can be incredibly damaging to people with eating disorders -ATL)