The park was quiet - almost empty, even on a weekend - and just walking through it was kind of enjoyable. It was nearly 12 in the afternoon too.

The breeze through the park was soothing, cars were zooming through the streets, and the leaves - colored in brown and red - were crackling through the wind, some even falling to the ground.

Anna was silent, looking up to the clear blue sky, her hand in her pocket, another holding onto Olaf's little hand. Elsa was holding onto the other.

"What do you want to eat later, honey?" Elsa asked.

The boy hummed and shrugged, turning his Mama. He tugged on her hand. "Mama?"

Anna blinked. Ah, there goes my peace. She grinned. "What's up?"

"What do you want to eat?"

She looked up to Elsa, who tilted her head, and then back to her son. "I don't know, what do you want?"

He pouted. "That's why I asked you…"

"Ah, sorry." Anna smiled. "I don't know, I thought you'd want to wait until dinner to get stuffed?"

Elsa laughed. "It's not that big of a dinner, Anna."

She shrugged. "What is Thanksgiving for if there's no big dinner? Am I right?" The redhead swung Olaf's hand with hers, prompting the kid to giggle with glee. At this moment, Anna felt completely refreshed. To see Olaf laugh after this morning reminded her of how kids could really get. One minute, they'd be crying, and the next, they'd act like nothing happened before.

And honestly… how was Anna ever different from being a child? She could feel her heart tighten just looking at those two.

It wasn't their fault that Anna was this way - at least, that was what she thought of herself - she chose to be… well, selfish for wanting Elsa back. For trying to push her love onto Elsa when it was completely unneeded.

No, of course, she didn't need Anna's love. Right now, they had to put up a mask for Olaf. Right now, Anna could only, truly love Olaf behind all that acting. She wondered why she hadn't become an Oscar nominee after all this time of putting up a face in front of Olaf and especially, her ex-wife. It sucked, but at least, they were opening up to each other now.

Olaf continued to swing on both of his mothers' arms to and fro. "Hm… Mama's right. Ooh, we can get waffles! I want waffles, Mom. With lotttts of whip cream!"

"Shhh, Olaf!" Anna pressed a finger to her lips. "You know Mom would never approve."

"O-Oh…"

She hummed. "Normally, I wouldn't let you but…" Anna gave her a look. Elsa sighed in defeat. "Alright, we can go get waffles after this."

"Yes!" Both Anna and Olaf shouted together. She didn't even have to see how Elsa rolled her eyes to know she was a tad bit annoyed. Though, it was all fun and games, and Elsa quickly recovered with a smile placed on her face.

"Alright, Olaf, why don't you go and play. Mama and I will just walk around the area for a bit okay? We'll keep an eye on you."

"Okay!" Olaf beamed in excitement and quickly ran off to the field where a few kids also resided.

Ah, finally some quietness. But even with Olaf here, Anna didn't mind. Not at all. She'd spend every last second with Olaf if she could but… Anna slowly turned to her ex-lover, her smile fading. She wondered why hadn't Elsa's faded too. It was always that soft, gentle look… and it was just completely out of place. Completely out of character. Anna didn't need to be reminded of the person Elsa used to be.

"Shall we walk around?"

Anna looked down, scratching the back of her neck. "Y-Yeah." Ah, she reluctantly said it. Right now, all she was thinking about was what she could say next. Nothing came to mind - nothing could be said, anyway.

But they continued to walk around the park, keeping Olaf near them. Anna had her eyes down on the brick road.

"The weather's nice today."

Anna nodded. "Yeah."

"I wish it'd be that nice every day."

"Yeah…"

"Anna, why don't you look at me?"

The redhead froze. "It's just…" She gulped, before turning to Elsa. "Do I deserve to look at you?"

Elsa sighed. "Anna -"

"I'm sorry." She put her hands in her pockets, kicking her feet against the ground. "I think I… I think you're right. I've always been… taught to be selfless, never selfish. To make sure that I put others above me." Anna swallowed, talking quietly. None of this should be heard by Olaf. "I don't know why, but even the slightest thing - to even say 'no' to the people I love, irks me so much so that if I ever think of it, I'll always think that I'll end up losing them." She stopped her footsteps, turning fully to Elsa. "To losing you. And I didn't want to lose you."

And in the moment, all was silent. Anna had outed herself in a place, perhaps, was inappropriate. At a time where they should have just been happily walking around. But no, Anna was impatient. And Elsa - Anna wanted to laugh at herself - perhaps, Elsa was unempathetic, still. But Elsa just stared in complete silence - in awe.

"I got that feeling that was it." Elsa nodded, admittedly. "How ironic. Being selfless… is making us selfish."

Anna scoffed at herself. "Yeah."

"Here, why we don't we go sit for a minute. We'll talk."

Anna slowly agreed and walked to a bench that was closest to them, while they also kept their eyes on Olaf. And even without any words being said at the moment, Anna's head was completely occupied with those words.

Elsa sighed, leaning back against her seat beside Anna. "Isn't it strange? These past few days… we've been talking more about this than any other times."

"Yeah." Anna waved at Olaf, who waved at them back. She let out a breath. "It's good that we're talking about it. I… I rarely know what you're thinking sometimes, Elsa. Plus with Olaf around… I'd rather us talk alone." She paused. "I don't want what happened to happen again."

Elsa reached for her hand… which, although, Anna hated to think that this divorce was hindering their time together, Anna still craved to touch her. Even in the slightest. Anna turned to her, letting Elsa's fingers laced with hers… letting her fingers squeeze on hers. Ah, what a familiar sensation.

"I didn't want you to feel so broken if I ever said anything, Anna."

"But at least we're talking now." She chuckled, shaking her head. "Right?"

Elsa nodded. "Right."

She cleared her throat. "So… what happened to Olaf this morning, does it happen often?"

Immediately, this soft, quiet atmosphere they had together had grown grim. Elsa was quiet, her expression darkening. She was looking away. Anna was immediately visibly anxious. "Elsa…?"

"It's… been happening for a while. Not long after we broke up, that is."

"What -"

"Recently, the dreams stopped until today."

Anna sighed in defeat. "No… N-no, come on -"

"Anna, I didn't want to tell you. I didn't want you to worry."

She let the woman's hand go, and let her fingers run through her hair. "Elsa, he's my son…" she whispered. Anna felt a hand on her back. "What does he often dream about…?"

Elsa didn't say.

"Elsa, please." Anna immediately gazed at her with plea, and finally, Elsa looked away to their son.

"Often about you. About how you would… tell him that you hate him, that you would leave. Anna, sometimes I can't even sleep because I'm always worried about his dreams."

"Does Meg know?"

She felt Elsa's fingers on her twitch. "No, she doesn't."

"Oh God…" Anna pressed the bottom of her palms against her eyes. For fuck's sake, she really wanted to cry - to be weak and vulnerable for once, but she just couldn't. Not with Olaf in their sight. "How? How could we let this happen?"

"That's why I wanted you to stay for the night, Anna. He needed his Mama."

She shook her head. "But clearly, me being there didn't work. Elsa, what… what the hell am I supposed to do?"

"I don't know, Anna. I don't know…"

"How could you not know?" Anna grimaced. She didn't want her son to be in pain, and now? After everything, Elsa didn't know how to stop those dreams? What a fucking joke. And while Anna wanted to fault Elsa for all this, she couldn't. Both of them did this, and all Anna could do was be there when Olaf needed her, regardless if she was enough or not. Anna succumbed to defeat. "It's okay. What we can do… if you'd let me, give Olaf to me for a few days."

Elsa nodded. "I thought about that too. You can have him for a bit. You know what he eats and doesn't eat right?"

She didn't give a second glance at her, looking out front. "Yeah."

"Anna, you're angry -"

"I'm not -" Anna shut her eyes. "I'm not angry. I'm disappointed. In myself. In how much… no matter how much I care for you two, I'm just not always there."

"You've done plenty," Elsa replied, prompting Anna to turn. The confusion she had in her eyes didn't falter Elsa at all. Surely, moving out and only seeing Olaf after school was definitely not enough. But Elsa still gazed at her so lovingly, that Anna almost forgot they had broken apart.

What have we done?

Sniffling, Anna mirrored her expression - and when she wanted to say thank you… Elsa's arms were around her, her head laid against Anna's shoulder. Ah, when was the last time they hugged like this? When was the last time Anna could smell her wonderful scent?

Anna slowly placed her arms around her waist too, her fingers playing with her ring.

"Olaf and I will always need you, Anna."

The woman could definitely feel tears forming. No, she had to be strong. "I know. And I will always need both of you. Thank you.""

"Hey, kid, what are you doing? Just laying around?"

Olaf blinked, looking up to see Anna standing above him, her legs placed on his side. He giggled, spreading his arms and legs.

After a long talk, Elsa was off to get themselves a drink before lunch began. Anna had to stay to look after the kid, only to find him with his eyes closed, laying around on the green field. Even regardless of having to have other kids around him think he was weird, Olaf didn't seem too bothered.

Anna always liked that about it - so carefree and always thinking about being good.

"Mama, join me?"

Anna let out a big smile. "Alright." She laid beside him, eyes looking up at the blue sky.

"Where's Mom?"

"Buying drinks." She turned to see big blue eyes on her. "You're not going to fall asleep, are you?"

Olaf giggled. "No, Mama…"

She pinched his cheek. "Good. We'll be eating soon so I don't want you to be napping out here." She yawned. "Although, it is a nice weather…"

"Mama?"

"Hm?"

Olaf turned his body to his side, and slowly placed his head against Anna's chest. Her fingers ran through his soft hair. And for a minute, they were quiet - and Anna knew it whenever it was quiet between them, Olaf was thinking. Ah, What a smart kid -

"Mama, do you love Mom?"

Anna blinked. "What? Of course I love your mother. Olaf…"

"I-I want to talk…" Olaf pouted.

Anna had to give him her undivided attention. Even if it meant her heart was going to break. "Yeah, I'm here. What's wrong?"

"Because lately, Mama… Mama, she cries…"

Anna froze. "Olaf, baby -"

"Mama, um… every time you bring me home, she gets sad. And I get sad 'cause… 'cause you're not here."

She didn't know what to say. What to do. She had never heard Olaf speak this softly… never had him talk about stuff like this. For Christ sake, he was only in the first grade. She didn't need to see Olaf's eyes to know how deeply he had been suffering too.

"Mama? Are you and Mom not together anymore?"

Anna placed a hand against her mouth. She was almost glad Olaf wasn't looking her way - she didn't need his kid to see her cry. To see them suffer. She took a deep breath and slowly sat themselves up.

She had to hold it together. And Olaf… Olaf was just gazing at her with such blank, disappointed expression. Anna didn't need this.

"Olaf…" She placed her hands on his arms, squeezing softly. She even tried to offer a smile but… nobody could smile at this anymore. And even then, she had to keep acting. "Baby, there are things… that you will only understand once you're older. Mama loves your mother very much - I'll do anything for you two, you know? But sometimes… doing anything can be very difficult -"

"It's okay!"

Anna blinked. "W-What?"

Olaf let out a timid smile. "It's okay, Mama. As long as we're together, it's okay. Heh, and plus… I'm a big boy!" He slowly stood up, crossing his arms over his chest. "I can take care of Mom, and if she's sad, I promise I'll make her happy again."

Anna was completely speechless, and slowly, tears began streaming down her cheeks. But she smiled - a very big smile that she never thought she could give. She offered her pinky to him, nodding. "Do you promise?"

Olaf crossed his pinky on Anna's. "I promise."

"You two! Get down from there, we're going to grab lunch!"

The two turned to see Elsa with three cold drinks in her hands. "Okay!" Anna replied, before turning back to her son. "Alright, honey. That was a nice talk."

"Mhm! Let's go get waffles!"

And when they were down, they each both grabbed their drinks from Elsa's hand and continued their walk out of the park. But while Anna still had a mask on, on the inside, she was hurting. Why didn't Elsa tell her? Why didn't she ever say that she had been depressed?

Anna turned to the woman who was occupied with talking to Olaf. Of course, she didn't look the part… but did neither did Anna. If Olaf hadn't said anything, she wouldn't have known. She sighed to herself.

"Mama?"

"Hm?" Anna looked down.

"Mama, hold Mom's hand! Look!"

She gazed at their held hands… and the other empty hand of Elsa's. Was this normal, of course not. But that was what Olaf wanted - for them to show signs that they still loved each other. To give Olaf hope… that they were still together.

Anna grinned and held the woman's hand, lacing her fingers between Elsa's. And before she knew it, she leaned in to kiss Elsa's cheek. "There." Elsa raised an eyebrow, which Anna promptly ignored.

"Yay!" At least, this was what made Olaf happy.

a/n: :') im sad