Tip Menus anger me to no end but not for the reasons one may think. They annoy me due to ungrateful ex boyfriends. I see what girls are CHARGING guys for their attention, for their pics and I did these things for these ungrateful, loser assholes who ended up mistreating me for FREE.

I would buy lingerie and sexy stuff and send pictures to Mohamed all the time to which I would get NO reply. When pressed for a reply, he said “why wouldn’t I like the photos?” That wasn’t a compliment. It wasn’t a yes or no. It wasn’t the hype that I was looking for so I STOPPED. Later to find out the reason why nothing was ever said is because he ADMITTED to NOT BEING ATTRACTED TO BLACK GIRLS (me) and didn’t even want to date one (me) and the reason he kept fucking me is because he’d fuck ANYTHING that was available. He didn’t find me sexy, pretty or anything. I would beg for dick pics. Beg for him to sext me. Nothing.

I like getting dick pics from a guy I’m dating. Hearing that I made him hard at work. Things like that. Him reacting to my photos saying he wants to do all sorts of things to me. Mo didn’t do that. NEITHER DID RICHARD.

He asked me one time if he could send gifs instead. This LAZY guy who doesn’t put effort into anything, didn’t want to sext, he wanted to send a stupid ass gif. And compliments? I would show him sexy photos and I would get a thumbs up emoji/like. That’s it. OR, better yet, he would tell me what I could do to make the pics look better.

Better?! When girls take pics, we throw away maybe 50 until we find 3 we’re happy with. I sent him that number, those pics I was proud of and he gives me a critique when I didn’t ask for it!!!?

In addition to that, if he were to compliment, it would be “looking good” with a suck of his lips to make that sound and finger guns. Very sincere. Makes me feel oh so sexy to you/him. So you can guess, I didn’t dress up for him either. That and the fact that he was blatantly using me for sex while claiming he was not. Why would I?

Erotica. I’m a writer. I write erotic fiction. So, I used to write Richard fantasies starring us. My fantasies of us together in graphic sexual detail. I asked if he liked it. He told me he did. I asked what part. He said “everything.” Thanks. No specifics. No “it got me hard reading about the part where….” It’s like he DIDN’T READ IT AT ALL. So I stopped.

I WANT to sext a guy, do dirty face times, send nasty pics and all that if he was my BF. I want to get all that stuff from him. With Mo and Richard, it was like pulling teeth on the super rare, planet align every so 1000 years times I actually got something.

All these things that girls charge for, FREE for them, free for my BF. All I charge in return, ask for is be in a relationship with me, love me, not use me, listen to me vent/bitch, fix your fuck ups, don’t be a narc gaslighting silent treatment dick asshole and just treat me good.

Do all that and you get the tits, the pics, the girl friend experience and all that for FREE.

But no. They want fwb, booty call, girl to do all this for FREE to them but them not do shit in return.

I see these tip menus, girls charging for their attention, charging for certain items and my dumbass gave it to these guys for FREE when they didn’t deserve any of it.

So the tip menus piss me off.

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