I have mentioned before that I am a rape survivor. And that is why I was horrified to see Richard Dawkins display an amazing amount of ignorance and victim-blaming over the last week. I asked Stephanie Svan to help me put into words what I was feeling, and the result is below. If you wish to have your name added to this letter, visit Almost Diamonds for the original post.

I have added a photo of me from that time period. [edited to add–have removed photo of me, since some people have copied it and been innapropriate.]

This is the face of “shutting up” and trusting, Professor Dawkins. This is a photo of a girl starting down the road of science. Within 2 weeks of arriving at college, she learned that women in science have a lot more to deal with than just nasty chemistry lab partners. I almost flunked out my first year of school–and yet amazingly, it was not until years later that I realized that my assault was probably the reason.

Why? Because I was so deeply enmeshed in a culture that wanted me to shut up and be nice to men–which you are promoting and supporting with your comments— that I didn’t know what to do when a boy invited himself into my apartment. And why I kept trying to be polite and asking “Please don’t do that.” And why I thought for many years that what happened was my fault.

This is why I am so very unhappy and feeling betrayed by you. Stephanie says this in a much more moderated way; I just wanted you to hear from me directly, in addition as a signatory to this letter.

Comments here will be moderated as I see fit. Do not even think of trying to mansplain this to me.

The Letter:

Dear Dick:

At your request, we write to you to tell you what it is that you do not understand about elevators, invitations, and sexual assault. Who are we, and why are we in any position to tell you anything? We are atheists and skeptics, but more relevantly, we are victims of sexual assault.

There are two important things to note about Rebecca Watson’s experience. The first is that she had spent much of her evening telling the people around her, “Please don’t hit on me,” and finished by saying she was done talking and wanted sleep. This was ignored by the man now widely referred to as Elevator Guy. (Yes, it’s been established that he was in a position to hear her. Yes, it’s been established that he followed her out of the space in which she’d been saying this and got on the elevator with her.)

She had said, by unequivocal implication, “No.” He ignored this and did what he wanted to. This is important.

The second important thing to know is that her response was to say publicly, one more time, “Please don’t do that. It makes me uncomfortable.” That’s it. That was her entire response to Elevator Guy beyond telling him she wouldn’t go to his room.

For that response, Rebecca came under considerable fire. This is also important.

The entire drama-filled discussion came about because Rebecca asserted her right and the right of other women to say, “No,” and be heard. It happened because she asserted that men, as well as women, have a role to play in maintaining that right.

Then you spoke. Then you, widely regarded as one of atheism’s leaders, one of the Four Horsemen, decided you needed to say something about this.

You didn’t have to do that. If you felt, as your comments seem to indicate, that too much attention was being paid to this event, you could have simply declined to add yours.

However, that wasn’t what you did. Instead, you said that Rebecca, who was voicing our concerns, was thereby telling other women with other concerns that they were whining. Or perhaps that the rest of us who supported Rebecca when she was criticized for expressing her preferences were accusing these women of whining.

Even if you had stopped there, this would merit an apology. Not only has Rebecca spoken out loudly against female genital mutilation (drawing the ire of those who told her she wasn’t paying enough attention to the boys) and other religion-driven wrongs against women and girls, but her demand that women’s self-determination be respected is exactly what needs to spread in order to prevent the ills you mention. If this is an issue you care about, instead of a distraction from Rebecca’s point, you should be thanking her for her work instead of emphasizing the “chick” in the name of her organization, diminishing her stature.

Then, in response to complaints about that, you told us all that what happened to Rebecca–having her clearly and repeatedly expressed preferences about being hit on ignored–was “zero bad.” It should be clear by now why that requires a correction from you. It also calls for another apology, whether or not you knew the facts above when you wrote your comment. If you didn’t know, you weren’t in any state to lend your position and reputation to any characterization of what happened, much less the mischaracterization you used.

That is where you injured us, the victims. You have made one more space blatantly unsafe to us. We don’t mean safe as in free from any kind of sexual interest. We’re not asking for that, and we don’t want it. We mean that you, a leader in our community, made free with a woman’s experience and rewrote it to suit your own ends.

You decided you knew better than she did what had happened, and you were comfortable explaining it to everyone else. That is part of how communities are ruined and ultimately shaped to support sexual harassment, sexual assault, and rape. That is how offenders operate and how they are excused. That is how the world that hurt us was built. And you have added to that.

That is why you owe us an apology as much as you owe Rebecca. When may we expect it?

Sincerely,



Stephanie Zvan, survivor of teen sexual assault

Bug Girl, survivor of a date rape in 1980

Abigail Marceluk Parker

Chris Tucker

Elyse Anders, rape survivor

Dana Hunter, raped at age 18

Megan Wells, survivor of teen sexual assault

Tracy Walker, raped at 15

Danarra Ban

Paul Mannering

Andrea Gatley, sexually assaulted at age 14. In an elevator in a hotel.

Carol Levesque

Anneliese Bowman

Debbie Hadley, lucky to have fought off two sexual assault attempts by men who didn’t believe no means no

Cori Frazer, survivor of childhood sexual abuse

Leilah Thiel, sexually assaulted at age 16

Helen Krummenacker, victim of repeated schoolground gropings

Edie Howe, assaulted at 7, 9, early teens, by both husbands, by strangers three times

BeardofPants, survivor child sexual abuse, age 7

Julia Heathcote, survivor of sexual assault by her PhD advisor

Rebecca Dominguez, survivor of sexual assault and date rape

Monado, survivor of groping (age 13), rape threats for refusing one of those innocent invitations to go for a ride (age 16), partner rape (age 35)

Doubting Thomas, gang raped at 18

Anarchic Teapot

Amanda W. Peet, date-raped at age 25

Zandperl

Alice, raped at 16, assaulted at 19

Melanie Mallon

Susan Silberstein, survivor of husband and stranger rape

Stephanie Zierenberg, victim of acquaintance rape at 24

Janice Clanfield

Kelly Sexton

Lynn Wilhelm, date raped in the 80s

Robin Buckallew, victim of childhood sexual assault, age 7

Catherine Ann, date-raped at age 30

Shoshana Kane, biologist, atheist, skeptic, rape survivor

Solvei Blue, survivor of sexual assault at age 19

Dr Fiona Wallace MB BS(London), MA, assaulted age 14 when babysitting – by the child’s father

Nicole P., repeatedly raped by ex-fiance

Dorothy M., victim of kidnapping, assault and rape, daughter of a victim of child molestation, mother of a victim of date-rape

Sandy H., survivor of childhood sexual assault

Anne Marie Newman, victim of acquaintance rape, sexual assault by a “friend,” and sexual harassment at work

Alianna B., stalked and sexually harassed for 3 1/2 years

Calebandrew, rape at the age of 15

Catherine Schneider, sexually abused by father from birth to age 14; raped by teen boyfriend age 15-17; gang raped by acquaintances age 22

Skepticalbunny, date rape survivor in 1982

Emily Dale, raped at age 16

Professor Anonymous_Female_Voice_Specialist, BS, MA, first sexually assaulted at age 3 or 4 and several times thereafter, at various ages

Nichole Filbert, sexually assaulted and raped in the process of leaving abuser

Nikoel Stevens

Carolyn, raped on 30th birthday

NameHidden

Maggie Champaigne

Sarah Killcoyne, sexual assault survivor

Emily F, rape survivor

Dianne K, molested at age 9, groped on the bus at 14

Kate W., molested at age 14, groped by multiple strange men, assaulted at age 25

WMDKitty, survivor of domestic assault

Jan Bunten

Bethany Baker, sexually assaulted at age 14

Wilma Janssen, assaulted multiple times, first time at 17

Chris Rhetts

Lee Ruby, survivor of childhood sexual abuse

ChristineCCR, raped, stalked, and sexually harassed

Jennifer Forester, raped by multiple partners

Lynne, raped and multiply assaulted

Cafegirl1995, raped at 13, assaulted at 14

Gwen Olson RN, sexually assaulted by a coworker

Lia C., molested at age 10, groped and ejaculated upon while riding the train at age 19, and date-raped at age 26

Katherine Ann B., survivor of multiple partner sexual assaults, two assaults by strangers, and kidnapping and assault by ex-partner

P. Adams, date raped at age 18

ephymeris, raped and molested repeatedly as a child, raped as a teen

CathyC, survivor of childhood sexual abuse and multiple sexual assaults

Sue Williams, date raped at 20, assaulted multiple times

Jennifer Haden, molested as a child and recently drugged and assaulted

Alexandra B, drug-raped at 18, other various sexual assaults

FranW, raped at age 25 by partner’s contrivance

Jafafa, sexual abuse victim ages 11-14

Mrs. Carol King, first sexual assault at age 7 with more following

StarsEnd42, sexually assaulted on very first date ever, sexually asaulted again at a conference

PixelFish, sexually harassed, verbally and physically, by fellow students and coworkers

Cripdyke, incestuous rape at age 10, domestic sexual assault ages 21-22

Rune C. Olwen, survivor of a Catholic abuse family and repeatedly attacked since;

one of the women who invented women self-defence

Whiteman, sexually abused by father from the ages of 12-15

Rebecca G., survivor of childhood molestation from 5-7, date rape at 16 and at 17, and sexual assault by a colleague in grad school

Nepenthe, repeated partner rape at age 20

Claire D, survivor of repeated and regular rape and gang rape between the ages of 12-15 and date rape at ages 16 and 18

Kate A., survived rape at 19 & multiple assaults

Jenny W, raped at age 14

Ellid, assaulted twice by her own husband in her own home

Sarah, survivor of molestation at 3 & 5, rape at 5, and threats of sexual assault from classmates from 8-17

Aimee McDowd, survived rape at 8, 12-13 repeated molestation and rape again at 15, escaped attempted abduction at 16

Can’tSayWho, raped by friend of 10 years

Kristin, survivor of sexual assault, age 4 and 20

Cynthia Wood, groped by a teacher at 12, raped by a boyfriend at 15

Kay, raped by a partner, groped countless times

Brigitte Hentschel, raped twice, once by a casual acquaintance, once by an ex-boyfriend; sexually harassed and groped countless times

Margaret L, sexually assaulted at 13, raped by a coworker at 22

Elizabeth C., molested as a child

Sarah Rean, molested from infancy, raped at age 18, and assaulted

Michelle, sexually abused by grandfather 4-12

Juliet, sexually assaulted at age 17

Rae, stalked by someone everyone insisted was harmless until he stabbed a stranger

Dr. Dory Green, sexually assaulted at 21 by a casual acquaintance in an encolsed space after politely turning down his advances

Jessa, drugged and raped at age 12

Tamsin, sexually harassed in elementary school with the help of a teacher

Alumiere Sg, sexually abused age 13 – 17, raped as an adult

Veronica

Melissa Faulkner, sexually abused by stepfather for almost a year, age 12

mouthyb, BA, MFA, PhD (in progress), molested at age 9, raped multiple times

Allison, molested ages 13-14, raped at age 22

Sarah J., molested at age 7, assaulted in 2009

Rob, raped at ages 11-13 by a school official

Kathi, raped at age 12

Faith L., sexually assaulted at 11 and 12, raped at 16, assaulted at 18

Gayle Peterson

Jane P., sexually abused at age 6, raped at 8 and 13

Marley, raped at age 16

Heidi H., raped age age 16

Anonymouse, sexually assaulted at age 17 and groped by a college professor age 18

Demetria, survivor of sexual assault July 10, 2009

Joey Nichole Thomas, survivor of child sexual abuse between the ages of 5 & 6

