Here's what I thought I was going to be doing at home the other night. I thought I'd be working on a column about how all the motivational sayings are wrong; that failure is fatal. That mass shootings prove that almost every day, including the most recent one, where a gamer who lost turned a gun on his fellow players. How the sense of losing — a job, a girl, one's place in the world — proves fatal for those who shooters believe have denied them. And I thought I'd be telling you how President Trump adopted the same mentality when he warned there would be violence if Republicans lost the midterms.