At 16, my aA1c was up to 14 — because you just think you can eat what you want and push a little button on the magical little device where you just hit that little UP button. My blood sugar was out of control . I had horrendous depression and was unmotivated and sick all the time. I also had a crazy autoimmune flare up and my whole body was covered in hives. All the allergy testing came back within normal ranges, so they decided it was stress induced and put me on a major cocktail of medication — 6 pills twice a day. Some were antihistamines and I found out later they’d snuck in some anti-depressants.

I was just sick. Sick in the head and sick in the body. All inflammed.

I had a long history of poor relationships with endos, and I think the poor blood sugar control had a lot to do with that — one fed into the other and then back on themselves. I felt frustrated and didn’t know what to do but was trying my best to work with the tools I had, with no support. I knew their tools weren’t working.

So she went cold turkey on the pills.

Then I couldn’t afford my pump anymore, so I ditched it. That was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made because it forced me to pay attention, to nail the doses and the timing. I couldn’t just hit a button anymore.

At 21, I had a slightly better endo, but my A1c was around 8, with crazy up and down lines. I know now that I had underlying gut problems — cycles of constipation and purging which would shoot up my blood sugar. I didn’t know it was a diabetes complication or that there was a word for it until my mid-twenties. By then it had progressed to where I was waking up every morning vomiting up last night’s dinner completely undigested. It wasn’t fun. Every day I’d wake up and vomit. Food was coming out whole the other side too. I was obviously severely malnourished because I wasn’t able to digest any of my food. And that obviously caused the crazy spikes in my blood sugar. But I didn’t know what was causing it. Or what to do about it .

After slowly cutting out things like rice, sugar, and icecream, and eating a Mediterranean style diet, she still couldn’t get her A1c lower than 6.9 — the lowest she’d ever got it.

My endo was super happy about it. I was like, ‘You’re happy about this? I don’t think this is actually success. I don’t know what success looks like, but if this is it, I’m not sure I’m up for this — I’m throwing up my food every morning, I can’t digest anything, and I’m sick all the time.’ My efforts weren’t helping my complications get any better. And then things got even worse.

Rock Bottom at 25 Years Old

My uncle died when I was seven, in his early 40s, from Type 1 complications. By then, he was completely blind, he couldn’t walk, well, he could hobble but basically lived in a recliner in my grandparents’ basement. He painted the walls high-contrast colours so he wouldn’t bump into them when he was shuffling around. So in my young brain, that’s what an adult with Type 1 diabetes looked like. Family was always ‘take care of yourself or you’re going to go blind like your uncle’, so when I started to go blind at 25, I was like this is the end, this is the beginning of the end. My whole life, my deepest fear has been going blind and ending up trapped inside my own body and unable to interact with the rest of the world. I was starting to go blind in one eye from Type 1 complications — problems that don’t usually affect people until they’re in their 70s and 80s. They told me that I would probably be mostly blind in that eye by 30 and I’d probably be totally blind by 40. And they told me that these complications were progressive, that there’s nothing you can do about it.

‘It’s a shame that it happened to you so young, they said, but shit, that’s just diabetes. Sorry kid.’

That was the lowest point in my entire life and I did not know how to handle it. The monthly eye treatment scared the daylights out of me. It was just awful, and the details are too gory to tell. After that, I spent a year in a deep depression — waking up to having panic attacks every day, and couldn’t get out of bed when I wasn’t at work.

Stumbling Upon Dr B

Recovering at home after an eye treatment, Alex became determined to change her future.

I was holed up at computer thinking, I have to not go blind and I have to find a way to help myself and it CAN’T be what happens at that eye doctor — I can’t do that for the rest of my life. I stumbled upon Dr Bernstein’s website, read his bio and was just blown away! His book arrived overnight, and I read the entire thing in 36 hours.

Having tried everything else, she figured it was worth a shot at reversing her complications like he had.

And man, if that wasn’t the most profoundly life changing decision I’ve ever made, I don’t know what is.

It was hard and it was confusing and my endo told me I was going to kill myself by trying it. The dietitian, who also hadn’t read the book, told me I was going to basically kill myself by going low carb, too. But after meeting with one years earlier who’d had to turn sideways to fit through the door … I knew … I was doing it on my own.

Going low carb really illuminated for me how astray I’d been led by the other authority figures on diabetes. And to find out this information had been out there — this whole time — and nobody told me about it … in fact, that information had been suppressed by the powers that be, I was like, ‘I’m sooo mad’. It’s a pretty common feeling for those who have found Dr B. ‘Whatttt?? Nobody told me??? It seems so obvious now … HOW DID I NOT KNOW ABOUT THIS??’

Diabetes is a profound intolerance to carbohydrates. Dr B

Just like you wouldn’t give a peanut to someone with an allergy, why are carbohydrates still pushed onto diabetics?

Alex says, what I do eat I feel is amazing and delicious. I don’t feel deprived at all. It tastes good, it makes me feel good, and it helps me keep good blood sugars.

Without bread and potatoes etc, your blood sugar is better and you just don’t want carbs when it comes down to taste vs kidneys, eyes, fingers, and toes.

Never Looking Back

One day, after doing Bernstein for 8 or 9 months, I checked my sugar at work — it was mid 90s (5.3) and I remember so clearly, I stopped like somebody had slapped me upside the head because I realised my blood sugar had been in the mid 90s for a week straight. For the first time — in my entire life. And I just starting sobbing. Hysterically. ‘Holy crap, I have just found everything I’ve always wanted in terms of health, wellbeing, internal stability, and normal blood sugars. For the first time.’ I cried happy tears in the corner for about two hours. I realised then that normal blood sugars were possible, and I could achieve that and that even if I had bad days — some highs and lows — I can do this. And I will do this. It was an amazing, profound moment of joy, happiness, and relief. That was the first time that I had not been in pain, not been extremely anxious, and depressed, that I had not felt in some way I was lacking … That I actually felt stable, well, grounded, and whole. That’s what motivates me now because I was coming from a place of desperation, going blind, and I will do absolutely anything to prevent that. I think a lot of the difficulty in finding your inner grit has to do with the unwillingness to be uncomfortable. I’m okay with being uncomfortable — I’ve been uncomfortabe my entire life because I’ve been sick my entire life. Another revelation: I became an entirely different person after I normalised my blood sugar. I had all these personality traits before that I thought were just who I was. That’s not true at all — I’m not an angry, mean, cranky, whiny, sloth-like person who doesn’t want to do stuff. That’s not me at all — that’s my diabetes when it’s out of control. It takes over my personality. It’s amazing to me how different your mindset is when your blood sugar is out of control. When I realised that wasn’t actually who I was, that was also profoundly life changing. It was amazing.

I started walking every day and going on big long hikes, which if you had wanted me to do physical activity before, you’d have to get a crowbar to pry me out. My bad days now are what my good days used to look like — and that’s mindblowing still to this day. It’s been such a profound journey into health and wellbeing that I never thought was possible — it’s amazing. I had to reconcile a lot when I was going through being angry at the establishment for screwing me over my whole life. If I hadn’t hit my own personal rock bottom of retinopathy and gastroparesis and my body basically shutting down in my mid-twenties, I would never be where I am at today. I’m happy, I’m healthy, I’m successful, I have a great relationship, I’m in a beautiful home, I have a wonderful family. I wouldn’t been here without having hit rock bottom and then having found Dr B. So, I’m grateful for that in a weird way. Now, the eye stuff is stable. I still have a fish eye lens thing in one eye, but my actual vision has started to improve. I’ve had no treatments for about a year and a half. The gastro is leaps and bounds better — haven’t vomited in years. I have regular bowel movements — not perfect but they happen. I used to have major acid reflux, bloating, and gas and this whole host of awful stuff and most of that is gone. I’ve seen significant improvements. And my HbA1c stays between 4.8 to 5.3.

Easier Than it Sounds

Alex says the transition was arduous, but ‘there is no food more important than my own physical integrity.

I don’t know how to help someone else find that motivation because mine is that if I choose to eat certain foods, they will harm me. Like, immediately harm me. And for the long term they will harm me. It’s not just, I won’t feel so good, or my belly will hurt. It’s like chronic, long-term high blood sugars that cause neuropathy and cardiovascular problems and damage.

Thankfully, there are thousands of others around the world who have found Dr Richard K Bernstein, and are members of the TYPEONEGRIT (on Facebook) way of living.

And all of us agree — we are finally living.

Nay, thriving.

From young children who are meeting their growth benchmarks, excelling at school, participating in sports, and no longer living in fear of death, to people who wish they’d been told this information 50 years ago.

All thriving.

The choice between cake, bread, and potatoes, or eyesight, intact limbs, and being as healthy as the next old person — or healthier — is surprisingly easy …

When you find your motivation.

If you need help with that, the TYPEONEGRIT community is extremely knowledgeable, encouraging, supportive, and successful — where the norm is blood sugar levels the same as non-diabetics.

On this side of the planet, there is also an Australian and NZ group that achieves the same, and both groups will help you enormously.

By following Dr Bernstein’s protocol that sees him now in his mid-eighties, brimming with vitality despite having Type 1 since childhood (and later becoming the pioneer of the personal glucometre) they are the proof that it indeed can be done.

Change can be daunting.

But as Alex said, ‘be comfortable with being uncomfortable temporarily. It soon passes’.

And like every Gritter will tell you: read THE BOOK!

It will save your life.

You don’t have to accept the dire prognosis lying down. You can stand up and take charge.

One decision at a time.

Find THE BOOK and many other invaluable resources here — just in case you missed it above 🤓

Hear Alex explain further here, here, and here.