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stop torturing me

first time in a while that i haven’t been bored

first time in a while i’ve been able to record

in bated breath i would open up the door

when you were cold i made sure you were alive

first time in a while that i haven’t been online

first time in a while i took you by surprise

you took in all of it

that’s what i like

there’s a person i forgot about

it happens all the time

can you feel it deeper wrapped around your spine

to you then back to me

there’s a secret we both keep

i was passionately on about it

know that you won’t leave

you are you and i am me

2017…

i feel somehow i’m connected

i feel you for real and how you’re so selective

baby don’t push away

i said from the beginning

if i knock real slow

will you answer

no

i feel there’s a separation

i’m not who i was in 2011

but i stay attuned to what you’re really after

does your heart beat slow when i call you

no…

bad side

thought it’d be cool if we didn’t have to all the time

didn’t know what i would be missing

there’s a lot to take in

i lost track of time

thought i could fix it

i was mistaken

and now you always have me looking at your back so far behind

i know there’s a thing that we’ve never done

i know we should talk but i’m so tired

have you ever seen me as a god

ripped jeans when i’m at the mall

i dream and it comes to me

then wake and nothing at all

i dream of a cemetery back to you and my heart beats on and off

i’m checking in for my sake and i

i really want to talk so just help me

baby i’m on your bad side

but i’ve got ideas for changing your mind

physically i’m reaching out to you and all the time

she says she’s forsaken

maybe she is

but then so am i

you’re a young light sleeper on the edge of the bed

and i’m so sedated that i sleep through the night

do you remember in the pool

body’s crashing into you

realities a secret and i

i really want to talk but i’m so alone

baby i’m on your bad side…

when will it end

and i can’t get an answer

when i’m high at the mixer

i found what i’m good at

it’s you and i’m on that

no girl i’m a live wire

what’s death but an option

what’s love separation

2011

wicca phase springs eternal…

and you like the pull from the back

you like to be on the attack…

you liked my songs in the past

you used to like when i talked to you bad

when will it end…

when will it end…

know i’ll always get back to you

but i’m so sick of that attitude

i don’t need anymore

when will it end…

can i want my baby and have her too

i’m sick of that attitude

i reach out to you in song

i feel my hands numb

what’s the point of beds if you destroy all of them

seven gang

seven marks you left on my skin

i’ve got a friend but a friend is all that she is

she has her secrets and i’ve mine

we’re matched up when it comes to lies

let me in

let me off when i’ve reddened eyes

don’t be surprised

it’s not on you

it’s on i and i

and i would laugh at all of it if i was sure it wasn’t mine

something will break

just not my heart and just not tonight

she has her secrets…

and i can’t

even feel

any love

anymore

she has control now

passing on

i reach out to you in song…

i need a place i can rest

i was in the back counting up for baby

because i really want a house for vacation baby

and i really want to show you i’m forever lately

seven pisces gang

pull up black mercedes

and i pull up touching death like nobody save me

i’ve been eyeing up the knife bc it wanna take me

if i’m a bad man then you’re like half that

@kournikovax on the instagram…

oh woman i can hardly call you mine when i know that you’ve been lying

when the back of your hands gets to covering your eyes

and the sun goes down on a cemetery night

automatic silhouette signed “i know you’re mine”

i remember feeling like you’re always on mind

all i want is something that i can’t explain…

it’s for you to text me right back…

i need a place i can rest

stab me in the chest and the neck

i used to feel violently alone

now i’m trying to make it like then

from the flights and the shows when i travel by myself

and the shows are always tight but my heart is such a mess

i never said you were really falling for my live

now i step back

GUCCI in all black

i was in the back counting up for baby

because i really want a house for vacation baby

and i really want to show you i’m forever lately

pull up black mercedes

i need a place i can rest from the clubs and the shows and relationship stress…

tell me can you unbreak my back

tell me where the real love is at…

and i found my way back home…

when i call you don’t answer that…

it’s the same as it always is…

i need a place i can rest