Yep. I said the unspeakable. The last couple of days have been awful and I just want to run away and never come back. I'm tired of waking up in the middle of the night multiple times, I'm tired of hearing my baby screaming and not being able to figure out what he wants. In tired of spending all our money on formula. I'm just worn out and tired of being a mother. I don't think I'm cut out for this but of course, there is nothing I can do. I feel like in just going through the motions of being a mom bc I have to, not bc I want to. I know this is horrible! I was put on meds about 5 days ago but things have only gotten worse. I literally want nothing to do with my baby. I have dreams that he belongs to someone else. My husband thinks I'm nuts bc all I do is cry. He'll prob divorce me bc he didn't realize he married such a nutcase. anyone ever felt

Anything like this? I really hope it's just ppd and not my true feelings. What if these thoughts and feelings never go away???

I'm so scared.