My name is Erin and in the last two years I’ve been admitted against my will to a psychiatric hospital 9 times. It was concluded that I am schizophrenic by several doctors during these stays. I suffer from delusions and visual and auditory hallucinations regarding deformed cherubs and cult related paranoia. My cognitive symptoms are poor memory and concentration. I have always felt a driving need to create and share the unspoken visions in my brain.

This is me. I’m 23 years old

This piece is named the witch parade. I don’t remember why.

Often cherubs visit my thoughts. They are childlike and shy. I keep a dairy of their visits.

During the worst episodes I fantasized setting myself on fire.

Not a painting but I made this edit to describe a feeling I would get laying on my chest. The pulp in my chest is either be grey and gritty or yellow and light. I’ll never forget floating down the halls in the hospital to my room to be with this feeling alone. It hasn’t happened to me since I started an effective medication