Too much has happened and none of it feels right, I tried to rectify the mistakes but they went down too fast and now I’m stuck in a hole with no light. There are things that helped me the flower that grew is still being nurtured and I am great full for her company as fleeting as it can sometimes be. Things are not looking up, I am stuck in a limbo waiting on results I’m not sure will make me happy. Stuck between the swings through the planes and paths of all our lives, I can sometimes remind myself why it all happens and that will either boost or diminish the mood. I am in need of help but I feel guilty for the help, I have been given a gift and a privilege, I wanted to use it for the rest of mankind but is it selfish of me to want it for my own? I need to white my mind and break through the fractured crystal of all of us. But I will break out of this, I am strong enough, It’s time to prove it.