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I discovered Linkin Park when I was in High School. I was angsty at the time and LP's lyrics, well they spoke to me man. They have (and still do have) a passion to do something different. I listened to their albums constantly, saw them live twice, and I have bought all of their albums.



But I grew up. I still enjoy their music, but my music taste changed (from one rock genre to another. It's a stretch I know) I still listen to them from time to time.



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When I heard the news that Chester killed himself, it be hit me like everyone else Depression is terrible. Believe me. I have General anxiety disorder. And I have ADHD. I know what it's like to feel left out. I never had the problems and demons Chester had but I can definitely relate.



I've had sucidial thoughts in the past. I didn't know what was up or down. I didn't know what to do. But I got out of that pattern and I've gotten more happy then ever and at times still have to keep it in check.. But I still wanna know why so I, and others know what not to do.



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So what happened?



Chester had so much. Money, family, alot of exposure and was considered a great singer. But does fame have to do with it? I honestly don't know.



If my writing ever turns into a career and I become famous, I'll probably do the same thing that I'm doing as I'm writing this in a in-law apartment in my parents house's basement: Enjoying the process and taking everything else as a bonus.



But I wasn't Chester. I didn't have an album that was conterversial at best. It must have been hard having to defend it. I'm not gonna comment on their current music style. But I can understand the sturggle. Was that a factor? Maybe. But we don't know.



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One factor was the death of Chris Cornell. They were friends and his suicide rocked him. Maybe he couldn't live without him. Maybe. Doesn't bring him back. But he could have stayed strong for him. It sounds cold, Because as they say suicide is selfish. But again we don't know what was in his



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Maybe in time we'll know why. But we will never truly know why. We will get new facts but it won't give answers. It is a famous person after​ all. But we will always have his and Linkin Park's song. " In the end, it doesn't really matter." Maybe. But if you stay strong, you figure out that it does. It really does. Maybe.