I was recently told that I did not “share enough”. I don’t know what enough is, but I agree…I don’t share anything. I hide a lot about myself. I don’t keep secrets. But I (purposely?) make it hard for people to know me. I hate posting on social media. Kinda hate writing in this “blog” (sometimes). I guess I just don’t like to put myself out there?

I’ve always seen my life going in 2 directions: someone with solely an online presence. And someone with no online presence. In recent years, I have definitely been the latter.

But in this age of technology, do you exist if you don’t have a digital footprint? I thought about this long and hard, and the answer I came up with was a strong NO.

So I decided it’s time to stop hiding. Time to put myself out there and let people know who I “really am” (LOL). While I wasn’t quite ready to start using Bumble to get IG followers (genius strategy, girls of the 21st century). I was ready to commit to posting at least once per day.

It’s barely been a week, but I’m already over it. The more people that like a post, the more stressed I get. In fact, social media has become dramatically less fun. And now I have to deal with an annoying amount of people messaging me like they know me…LITERALLY MY WORST FEAR. EVER.

This might be overly deep, but I’m wondering what the future holds. Will I cease to exist if I don’t post selfies? Will my memories disappear if I don’t digitally log them somewhere? I’d love to say no, but I’m really not sure.

I think that’s the scariest part of all…how much do we actually have to merge with technology to remain human. How fucking ironic is that? Just some food for thought on this gloomy Saturday afternoon.

xoxo, Paige