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In August 2018 Chris Watts murdered his entire family in their Frederick, Colorado home.

He strangled his wife, Shan’ann Cathryn Watts, killing her and their unborn son, Niko. He smothered his daughters, Bella, 4, and Celeste, 3, with pillows from their own beds. He then ‘buried’ his daughters in oil drums and his wife and unborn son in a shallow grave on some property where he worked in the oil field.

Chris Watts accepted a plea deal in November 2018 and was sentenced to prison for five consecutive life sentences.

Now a woman who struck up correspondence with him in prison, Cheryln Cadle, as released a letter in which he explained exactly how he murdered his family.

August 13th, morning of, I went to the girls’ room first, before Shanann and I had our argument. I went to Bella’s room, then Cece’s room and used a pillow from their bed (to kill them). That’s why the cause of death was smothering. After I left Cece’s room, then I climbed back in bed with Shanann and our argument ensued. After Shanann had passed, Bella and Cece woke back up. I’m not sure how they woke back up, but they did. Bella’s eyes were bruised and both girls looked like they had been through trauma. That made the act that much worse knowing I went to their rooms first and knowing I still took their lives at the location of the batteries.”

He talks about knowing he was going to commit the murders:

“August 12th when I finished putting the girls to bed, I walked away and said ‘That’s the last time I’m going to be tucking my babies in.’ I knew what was going to happen the day before and I did nothing to stop it.”

He talks flippantly about murdering his wife:

“Isn’t it weird how I look back and what I remember so much is her face getting all black with streaks of mascara?”

“All the weeks of me thinking about killing her, and now I was faced with it. When she started to get drowsy, I somehow knew how to squeeze the jugular veins until it cut off the blood flow to her brain, and she passed out…”

He talks about his daughters watching him murder their mother:

“The girls were just kind of running around the house, and watching me with scared looks on their faces. Bella started to cry and when she did Celeste started whimpering. What a nightmare this was.”

In describing how he felt during all of this, he wrote he was “so mad they were still alive.”

Later on, he described how he disposed of his wife and kid’s bodies:

“I dumped Shanann on the ground, then I walked back to the truck and with the blanket that Celeste was holding, I put it over her head and smothered her.”

“I couldn’t believe how easily it was to just let her drop through the hole and let her go. I heard the splash as she hit the oil.”

And finally,

“Out of all three, Bella is the only one that put up a fight. I will hear her soft little voice for the rest of my life, saying, ‘Daddy, NO’. She knew what I was doing to her. She may not have understood death, but she knew I was killing her.”

He also admits that while he initially was adamant he had a “rage blackout”, the murders were in fact planned so that he would be free to be with his mistress, Nichol Kessinger, who is now in witness protection.

Here is the letter in full