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Stranger in a Strange Land

For the last ten years I have been involved in the Right scene, mostly nationalist and traditionalist, both on the internet and in real life. I am perfectly aware of all the vices of this scene (the backstabbing, sectarianism, in-fighting, alcoholics, kooks, renegades) as I have experienced them first-hand. However, I am also perfectly aware of all the vices of the Left scene. And over the years I have come to the conclusion that Left is morally corrupt, weak, and inferior to the Right.

You see, for the last ten years I have been also working as a translator (although it has never been my only job). And as I specialize in social work, I have mostly worked in international projects, funded by the European Union and other trans-national organizations. So far I have worked with state institutions, NGOs, schools, universities, churches, professionals, and volunteers from all European countries (members and non-members of the EU), North America, and some African and Asian countries, including Turkey, Nigeria, Ghana, the United Arab Emirates, or Kazakhstan.

As you can guess, I have worked in a predominantly leftist environment. And since I have become a convinced nationalist some fifteen years ago, you can wonder how I managed to remain in this job. I got into this work by chance and coincidence, and there were no satisfying (financially or otherwise) alternatives at that time. And the three main factors that made it possible for me to keep working in this leftist environment are the main vices of the Left: narcissism, incompetence, and greed.

The Dark Triad of the Left: Narcissism, Incompetence, Greed

According to my experience the Left is extremely narcissistic. They are often the kind of people who don’t want to have children so they can have more time to post selfies on Instagram. When I first started working, I thought I was going to argue with everyone about everything due to the obvious worldview differences. However, most of the leftists I have met, coming from all over the world, are so narcissistic that it is difficult to say anything during a conversation with them. They drift away into endless monologues about themselves, and “I,” “me,” “my” are the most used words. If I wanted to speak my mind, in most cases I would have to just interrupt and change the topic — which would turn into another monologue once it would be the other party’s turn to speak. To provide an example: I have worked with a person, whom I would meet at least weekly outside of work (riding the same bus, etc.), so there were plenty of occasions for small talk. And it was after more than a year that this person asked me about my personal life (namely my marriage). Which means that for over 50 conversations I was never asked any relevant question, I just listened to monologues.

I do not like dishonesty, but on the other hand I am not very effusive, so when I started the job, I decided that I will answer honestly any straight-forward question regarding my beliefs or anything related. So far, for over a decade, not one such question was asked. And bear in mind, that being involved in such projects includes lots of socializing: obligatory dinners or cultural events during which work is not the number one topic. And as I listen more than I talk, during countless monologues I have learned a lot about these people, starting with details of their intimate or family lives, their ridiculous beliefs, and enough gossip, in-fighting, and back-stabbing to avoid any non-obligatory socializing with them. Honestly, going to sleep early is much more fun than partying with international leftists. I have never encountered such levels of narcissism, even in my high school times.

Nobody asks me about my views, but even if they did, they would probably still have to work with me. And the reason is incompetence. You see, most of these leftist professional project managers and participants are not very professional. They have a good knowledge of foreign languages, paperwork and office skills, etc. But many of them just cannot do it. They have to hire people from outside of their organizations or their environment who will do the more complicated stuff (such as converting .doc files to .pdf files). And if you specialize in certain fields, there is usually not much competition. To hide their incompetence, leftists will often choose the model of declaring certain skills and then paying someone from their pockets to do the work for them, so they can just sign it with their name.

The last component of the Dark Triad of the Left is greed. Sure, leftists really are leftist. They honestly believe in all this nonsense. And sure, the projects are aimed at realizing those aims. However, only the youngest volunteers are engaged and idealistic. They do all the dirty work — such as actually working with people — for free. The managers and others do it for the money. And many of them don’t give a damn about the beliefs of anyone they work with. If any of their co-workers was outed as “evil conspiracist” or something of that sort and was publicly denounced as a heretic, they would probably loudly denounce him, but still pay him unofficially to do the work that needs to be done and that they cannot do themselves because of their lack of skills. I know some people with politically incorrect views, which they discuss openly, who are ghost-working for politically correct organizations, and are paid outside of the pay list.

The Left is Everywhere . . .

I have witnessed the hegemony of the Left in countless institutions. The belief in equality and the need to eradicate existing identities in order to create a humanist utopia pervades NGOs, schools, academia, and churches. These institutions which do not adhere to this ideology are excluded from most important international grant systems (which means that they have no access to actual money).

Interestingly, I have worked with a few churches (various Catholic, Orthodox, and Protestant denominations) and I can tell you that when it comes to social ideology, they are hardcore egalitarians. The only difference is that they believe that this humanist post-racial utopia will be much better if it is sprinkled with holy water or someone puts a cross at top of it. Even more interestingly, I have worked with quite a few Muslims, and many of them believe the same thing, except that they would prefer an imam to recite Quran verses over this utopia.

Unfortunately, in these parts of the world I got to know or I met people coming from them, there are institutions which promote the leftist worldview and which are doing quite well due to the existing international system of grant-funding supported by western governments. However, they have no real popular support. Their popular support is based on people who come to the events the institutions organize for free (the EU pays, the participants don’t). However, most of them do not support the organizations financially in any way, and if they had to pay, 99% of the popular support would disappear.

. . . But Not Everyone is Leftist

I have never expected to meet anyone but leftists during my work. But as it turns out, reality was much more complex. Of course, the majority of the people I have worked with were leftists. But if you listen to people you can learn quite a lot — probably because they presume that if you don’t voice your objections, it means that you agree with them.

First of all, there are those who don’t really have any views at all. Generally, they don’t support any ideology. They sort of believe in the leftist paradigm, but on the other hand they don’t really support it, and if the paradigm changed, they would not really mind. What they care mostly about are their paychecks and other profits arising from the projects.

Secondly, there are people who agree with the liberal values but they do not agree with the way they are realized or protected. These are the kind of people who support EU and gay marriage and despise conservatives, but they oppose Muslim immigration because it interrupts the realization of the humanist utopia in Europe. It seems that it is mostly people from Western Europe who fall into this category.

Thirdly, there is the most interesting group: people who reject at least partially the leftist ideology. The existence of such people in the leftist environment surprised me the most.

For instance, one man I have worked with, an older teacher in his 60s, coming from an “old EU” country, who has a few people of mixed ethnicity in his organization and who had previously told me about the merits of Che Guevara, all of sudden tells me that jazz is for blacks, and whites should listen to their own music, that it is the Jews who are pushing African culture on whites, and that Ezra Pound was a great poet and a visionary, with a great understanding of world politics. The same man votes for his local labor party and changes his profile pic on Facebook to the rainbow flag or “Je suis Charlie.” A middle-aged woman from Eastern Europe, who actively promotes “anti-anti-Semitism” etc. tells me that multiculturalism is the main cause of crime in Europe. A young student (after a few glasses of wine) tells me that he can’t wait for the EU to fall apart and we go back to nation-states free of non-European immigrants.

Unfortunately there are lots of outright and hardcore leftists involved in these projects, and while they may not constitute the majority of the workers, they are the loudest minority and it is often they who dictate what others do. They are also the most incompetent and arrogant of the people involved, who due to their dark personalities and lack of opposition to their exploitation of other people, have made it to the top of their organizations.

The Work of the Left is Useless

If you live in Europe, especially in Eastern Europe, you must have heard countless times about the EU-funded international projects. Let me tell you from first-hand experience: they are useless. The official aim of the projects is, of course, to heal the world and make it better for you and for me, and the entire human race. But in reality they boil down to flying several dozen of people from various countries to one place, having them sleep in hotels and eat out, discussing the documents they have already produced and deciding how to produce their next documents. There are some actual actions which benefit some small numbers of people, but these are extremely rare. There are many more instances of organizations not doing anything productive, but producing very impressive documents. For instance, the social projects are hell-bent on promoting ideas or actions in the local community. In reality this is not impressive at all: people who belong to a NGO also belong to another NGO, so they invite their five friends to listen to one of their PowerPoint presentations, and then they switch sides, and they listen to presentations by their friends on another project. So while the projects are aimed at immanentizing the eschaton, they are hardly the means to achieve it.

However, the projects are very effective at creating something different: a class of uprooted unprofessionals who are attached by the umbilical cord of project administration to the budget of the EU. These people are totally dependent on the EU administration and will do anything to support it. These “professional EU project teams” are an odd bunch: often, they are no-lifes who vegetate in rented rooms in their homelands, but who spend their lives on traveling from one project meeting to another. It is like an impoverished jet set: people who travel by planes, sleep in good hotels, and eat out twice a day while on project meetings, but cannot afford to rent a whole apartment at home. Administration of these projects often does not pay much in actual money, but when you consider the costs of traveling and accommodation, they are extremely costly, and they provide people who are hardly wealthy with a luxurious lifestyle.

This “project class” is highly cosmopolitan and alienated from its original society, for instance a Bulgarian living in Spain whose husband is an Estonian living in Portugal, or a Ukrainian Jew living in the Netherlands married to a Nigerian from the United Arab Emirates residing in the United Kingdom. These are ideal EU citizens: uprooted, with no actual identity, with skills useless in any other field, totally dependent on the preservation of the European status quo. Especially in Eastern European countries, with no career opportunities for people with college degrees in social sciences and humanities, this is basically how the EU bureaucracy corrupts the youth.

And it is this kind of people who are doing most of the work of the Left. They are useless unprofessionals — however, they are perfectly aware that there is no future for them outside of the EU-funded NGO network. Thus, they will defend the EU to their last breath. But let’s be honest: it will not be a very fierce defense.