SJWs and me

Alright so someone requested that I write about what happened between me and SJWs. I honestly find it a little embarassing but I will relate it here anyway.



It began about 3-4 years ago. I had been sliding into a major depressive episode and the dickwolves thing happened. Somehow I ended up on a feminist website and all the stuff I was reading just.. convinced me. It's a little hard to explain why it worked so well.. I suppose it was a mixture of depression, feeling worthless and convincing propoganda.



For a good 3-6 months (it's a bit hard to measure time when like this) I was absolutely insufferable. I would go on and on about the SJW stuff, I was a complete asshole to my husband, I wouldn't see anyone and I was often too scared to go outside. I stopped watching anime/tv, I stopped watching movies, I stopped playing video games, I put away all of my pervy anime stuff, etc. I would sit on the internet and obsessively read or I would lay on the floor and cry in the dark.



Eventually my depression started to lift itself somewhat and my logical mind started to come back. I started to see the holes in their logic (which my husband had repeated throughout) and I started to research. I spent the next 2-3 years researching feminism and related SJW stuff and after all of that, plus hundreds of hours of arguing my points with people.. I came to realize it's all just a crock.



The reason I spent so much time researching it is because I was still stuck in my obsessive thought patterns and would frequently regress to believing SJWs again. I needed to really thoroughly prove my points and get the research right; it was kind of insane I think.



Anyway, it was back in July when the pressure got really intense for some reason; I think it may have been a huge extinction burst. I regressed and I just swore that I wouldn't live that way again and tried to kill myself. I was in a coma for a while and then stayed there at the psych ward for a little while where I got good meds and a psychiatrist.



One thing that was just driving me crazy was how SJW shit was everywhere but hardly anyone was saying anything about it. I had people like Karen Straughn to look up to but they were such a tiny minority. I saw all of my nerd hobbies being attacked one by one (comics, movies, gaming, anime) and I was panicked; what if they destroy it?



With #gamergate being sparked I am finally feeling vindicated and relieved. It's not that people were all agreeing with SJWs; it was that they weren't allowed /not/ to in a lot of places.

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