I first came across an article over 4 years ago about a young man suffering from pedophilia. Despite never having touched a child and having no intentions of ever touching a child, he still saw himself to be a monster.

The word “pedophile” is one of the most vile and taboo words in modern society. It is commonly associated with the image of a middle-aged man who has sexually abused a child. What people do not realize is that there is an entire community forced underground who are suffering from pedophilia who have never hurt a child. They have lived their entire lives harboring a secret so dangerous, that if exposed could threaten their lives. In this film – I want to explore what it’s like for a teenager to live with thoughts of pedophilia. To never have acted on it and yet be reduced to the same level as someone who has committed a crime. I question what it’s like hating who you are and what your sexuality represents.

Being a Chinese-Australian filmmaker has been difficult for me. Growing up in a culture that was so inherently different from my ethnicity made me hate who I was. I saw people from Caucasian backgrounds and envied how easy life was to them. I yearned to be “normal” and to be accepted by my peers. I am making this film because I want people to see others as human; not a caricature or negative stereotype of their sexuality or their ethnicity. Through understanding and compassion do we grow as a culture and become better people.