29/12/2018

Gíday everyone. Hear me, brothers and sisters, kinksters and roleplayers! For I have something to say, which isnít :fuck: or :hypermax: . No, I have something to say which is serious. Genuinely.

I loved PatternPalace. I love so many of you. You know who you are!

In September, I joined, having just tried to conquer my suicidal and depressive tones yet again, for a whole year. Maybe I was meant to come here. By September (god I barely even remember, itís such a blur) I was drifting off the road and trying to hit Stobie Poles (the metal power poles) because I was not in a good place.

When I found this place yet again, I rediscovered my identity ñ my purpose ñ and I was elated. I got over my ex. I conquered depression. I made new friends. Finally, people who understood my hypno-kink! It was great. I embraced Nitro, and transcended this ethereal plane to become a mega-meme. Previous memes who came before me stood no chance against my immense emoji-power. Everything was great. Also Pet has a nice butt.

But it wasnít to last.

Due to my immense activity and dominance of Main, I quickly rose to the rank of Mind Melter. That was pretty chill. I got a blue name, and continued to make friends and be a ginormous meme.

As I became more invested in this community, the opportunity to rise to the rank of Imperial Bureaucrat Officer came. I was excited. Finally, I could contribute to the community.

I was warned by many people not to. That there were more sinister things lurking underneath. I was told about the dangers of the space. I ignored it. To my own peril. That this space was abusive behind the scenes. Honestly ñ I should have listened, but I was curious. I heard from many people, former Patrons, former Mind Melters, former Bureaucrats (now Administration) about the toxic nature of the space. And the primary source of it? Neural Nets and those close to him.

I am writing this because I saw today that he is once again, the owner of the server. Let me just say this - anyone who claims that someone has no influence whatsoever, as Aurora or Sinister would have you believe, is completely wrong. If Neural had no influence whatsoever, he wouldnít have been handed the bloody keys back in the first place.

I am writing this because Aurora and the Counsel handed the keys of the biggest Hypno-Kink server to Neural Nets. Neural Nets is BANNED FROM EVERY HYPNO-CONVENTION IN USA AND EUROPE. HE OWNS THE PATTERNPALACE.

I am writing this because, for so long, so many people have been voiceless. So many people have declined to say anything. So many people have held their tongues, have said nothing out of fear, fear of being suffocated by the horde. So many people have been victims of this place. So many people have been victims of Neural Nets. Iíve had enough. Iím sick of it.

NeuralNets has a long history of abusive behaviour. Previously, he has been known as EvilPsychiatrist, (a.k.a. Petruccio, brainlessbecki, MindFogger, Decognition, MistyGwen, BimboVirus). Not only does he have these weird ass names, he also used to use sockpuppet accounts (brainlessbecki, mistygwen) to lure other people into his chat by pretending to be a brainwashed slave, or a mistress of some kind. Thatís fucked. You know for a fact that behaviour, is without a doubt, totally fucked. And that barely scratches the bloody surface. This stretches from the early 2000s all the way to 2018.

I have spoken to many people from the old days of #IRC (Internet Relay Chat ñ 1990s to 2000s) who recounted to me their experiences of his unreasonableness, narcissism, his intentional abuse. He would kick people from his chats if they disagreed with him. He had no issue with genuinely affecting the lives of others by conditioning them. There is no ìO-Mouthî syndrome - but there is a huge trail of people Neural has hurt through his actions. Think about the file ìfeatherî and also picture some of the worst doms youíve ever heard of, and multiply that by a factor of 10. That is Neural. One person I know (name withheld) suffers from genuine Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) because of NeuralNets abuse. Many others are also shaken and do not even want to talk about their experiences with Neural.

Let me make one thing clear: What Neural does in his files is not hypnosis. Neural is not a good hypnotist. Instead, his files are designed to *condition* people. They are designed to suck you in with the PRETENSE of being Hypnosis, which therefore gives the impression that it can be ìeasily undoneî. Seriously - anyone here who has listened to files a bunch knows how hard they are to get out of your head. They are like earworms. Donít believe me? Tick tock.

Files are then used in conjunction with peer pressure from people such as Magenta, Bliss, Aurora and others to lock victims into a cycle of dependency on the Palace. I know for a fact that for many people, PatternPalace is the ONLY community theyíre a member of. Many people are isolated. Vulnerable. Easy targets for - and youíre going to hear this term from others - the cult of PatternPalace. Again, by saying that ìall hypnosis is self hypnosisî, Neural has done his best to excuse himself of any responsibility should things go awry, which they have many times in the past. Cue feathergate. Iím sure youíre all familiar with the Feathergate scandal. It seems like at first, it was just a misunderstanding, right? No. Neural, from the very beginning, did not give a single fuck about putting content warnings on anything. The entire community, including The Secret Subject called him out on what him and Magenta had done. Putting in some fucked up shit like ìforget everyone elseî - you donít do that even in Hypnosis. The whole idea is to condition people till it starts having genuine, real-life effects. That is what Neural gets off to. Ask Secret Subject about Feathergate, sheíll tell you everything that no one here will tell you. In the end, Neural capitulated, but know this: In private, he does not care for Content Warnings. They are a chore to him. And remember, everything is framed as ìHypnosisî so that all responsibility for any abreactions fall on the listener, instead of Neural. Itís easy to say, ìoh, well youíre the one listening to it, so take responsibilityî. He is like Casinos which tell you to ìGamble Responsiblyî, but those businesses are built on people who gamble recklessly. Itís a simple spell but quite unbreakable really.

If you have ever looked at something happening in PatternPalace and thought, ìhey, thatís not quite rightÖî but declined to speak up, know that you are not alone. We are silent because when we speak up, we are shouted down into oblivion. This was my experience, and I now want to speak about that to you. We all shared this.

On my first day as Faceless Bureaucrat, I faced the first dosage of modspace mayhem. A marathon argument which began because someone questioned Neural. Someone disagreed with him. People who are no longer around the PP have left because of this. The day after, the person who was questioned was hounded recklessly in Faceless Bureaucrat chat. It was absolutely horrifying to see. Neural, Bliss, Magenta, and other senior FBís were absolutely complicit in this completely unprofessional and abhorrent behaviour which I witnessed. But it gets worse. Imagine holding a vote with your peers to castigate them, remove them from their position, and ban them, and then straight up mentioning and questioning people who vote against that. That is exactly what happened to myself, Monroe, and SlySpeaker when we chose to vote against a motion that Bliss put up to remove a FB who was questioning Neural. We all got grilled because of a vote - it wasnít even secret?

When push comes to shove, thereís no democracy. Thereís no transparency. You will all get pushed, bullied, harassed, hounded - you wonít have a say. Youíre forced to agree. Even just yesterday someone was banned without notice or reason delivered to them, presumably for killing the mood. And in the end, the grueling arguments and accusations were all cleared from the record, forever.

This is absolutely not how you run a server. And to top it all off, it was cleaned up. Cleansed. Scrubbed from the record, with only our memories and word-of-mouth to keep the memory alive. But, so long as those chats get pushed away, those memories fade away, and people forget. Itís sad. I wonít forget the memory of Neural and Bliss posting ìrolleyeî pictures in Faceless Bureaucrat chat because someone was upset. These oppressive arguments - where you would get told to ìshut upî because Neural is talking. Having Bliss refer to themselves as the ìbossesî and us as the ìworkersî (weíre not even paid!). Having things deleted - being mentioned at random, being forced to agree or else - that is NOT how you run a server.

It is a horrible cycle, an endless chain, which I hear continues even to this day. We have ALL experienced this. I recall a time when a trans person spoke up about the space having transphobic people in the mod team, only for that person to be silenced and shunned by NN, Bliss, and the mod team. Instances of public abuse hurled at others by Neural and Bliss have long since been buried deep. Everything is so difficult to piece together. Since I became a FB I had been under a huge amount of stress, directly resulting from the toxic nature of modspace. For a month I worried, grated by the toxicity of FB (many of those people are now on Counsel. Those lovely names you all see with the pretty purple all have histories which arenít public.), modspace, and the safety of my friends who I could see were not being treated properly by NN and others.

I myself was interrogated by NN because I was in another server, where people were expressing their discontent towards him. He went and spied on a bunch of servers (creepy), and he audited my activity on that server (even creepier). I told him I can hang out on any server I want to, and Iím not obliged to tell him that, surprise surprise, some people donít like him. He is well aware. Iím not an employee of NeuralNet Spy Corporation, and neither is anyone else. Mysteriously, after this discussion, I was removed as Faceless Bureaucrat, and then reinstated when I asked Sinister who had no idea why I was demoted, and then mysteriously demoted yet again. You know fully well the experience weíve all had. Decisions being made without any consideration to others, messages being deleted without any reason, no communication of any actions whatsoever. We have all experienced this. Speaking of NeuralNet Spy Corp, a great example is Aurora, who openly went to spy on TheSecretSubjectís server earlier. Hereís an excerpt from a long-since scrubbed argument:

ì?? Aurora ??Today at 12:26

I joined accidently on my real acct instead of an alternative. :dum:î

Anyone who was there saw it. Knows it happened. Thatís fucked up. You donít go out and spy on other servers when you yourself arenít even sure whatís up. The fact that Aurora, who is meant to be leading this server, is meant to set an example, stoops so low, tells us the standards to which Aurora holds herself. Everything which is outward-facing is an act. Shady stuff is always relegated to behind the scenes. Hereís another example of the creepiness of NeuralNet and his Spy Corporation. He randomly joined his exís Discord Server, under the name ìDream Stateî, and pretended to be some random dude. He is quite literally the creepy ex. And him being an admin means you are approving of this behaviour. Do you approve of creepy exes who stalk their exes on alternate accounts? I didnít think so.

Also consider this: PatternPalace is run by a Counsel which no one had any say in appointing or electing. Thatís not democratic. Thatís not transparent. Good luck getting on the counsel, lower moderators and administrators. I doubt it will ever happen. I want you all to dispose of any notions of the PatternPalace being ìcommunity-ledî. It isnít. And it never will be.

Remember this. If you are a mod, or an admin, and not part of the counsel, youíre nothing. As Bliss once said, they are your BOSSES. You are the workers. Except, you donít get pay. Not even if youíre a voice in a file. You get a special mention. You get a couple of crumbs for your loyalty. It is sad.

One thing I want you all to understand is that PatternPalace, when Neural Nets was in charge, was a simple vector for him to make money. The only reason he kept me around was because I made the place very active. Activity spurs growth, growth spurs patrons, patrons = money. When I wasnít active, guess who didnít respond to me anymore? Neural Nets. Know this: When you are no longer useful to him, he simply doesnít talk to you anymore. This is not an isolated event. There are many other victims out there. Search. Look. Find. And look - heís back again. Do you remember when both he and Bliss resigned, citing the fact that it was too hard to run the server? Well, heís back again and supposedly makes no policy decisions. But we donít actually get to see what goes on up there. We just have to trust the words of the unelected Counsel.

Magenta, Bliss and Aurora are fully and 100% complicit in the money-making cult which PP was and still is. In my time as Faceless Bureaucrat, I saw how hard Magenta would shut down Dissent, going so far as to insult, degrade and hurl abuse at people in both modspace and FB chat. Magenta is nearly forty. Sheís been around the block. She should know how this sort of stuff operates, but she has let it go for so long.

Magenta, you are one hundred percent morally culpable for the abuse which Neural has inflicted on people, and you yourself join in on this abuse. Shame. Absolute shame on you. Same with Aurora. Aurora, you have traded your soul for the sake of your own ambition, knowingly looking the other way in spite of the long trail of victims and abuse. Shame on you. Bliss has been wilfully complicit in creating a cult of personality around Neural Nets. Her personality is a facade which has been built for Neuralís business. Shame on you Bliss. I hope you understand that behind the scenes, they track statistics. You are all just numbers. The purpose of events isnít to bring the community together. It is to raise activity. To raise money. This entire Palace isnít about the community, it is for the ambitions of Neural, Magenta, Bliss, Aurora and everyone else who holds the real power.

So long as this server retains links with Neural Nets, particularly by providing Neural with ownership, PatternPalace and its moderation team, including Aurora, Magenta, Sinister, FFT, and Kitten, are complicit in the perpetuation of this abuse. So long as this server is associated with Neural Nets, this server will never be a genuine creatorís space. You are all sanctioning, allowing this to happen. I am especially ashamed of Kitten, as she is very close to many people who have been hurt by Neural, Bliss, and PatternPalace. Kitten, you know full well how many people have been hurt and yet you shove it under the rug, you pretend like it is not there, you voice files, you try to, as you worded it, ìavoid dramaî.

Kitten, as the saying goes, ìin situations of injustice, if you stay neutral towards an oppressor and the oppressed, you have chosen the side of the oppressorî.

Youíve made your choice, Kitten.

I know many of you have friends in PatternPalace. That is why I stayed so long. To be with them, to watch over them, to protect them. Like you, I have so many people I love and care about. Thatís why Iím writing this. Because I care. Iím always checking in on you guys. So many of you deserve the best, and some of you need a good wake-up call. Please understand that I write this letter not to throw shade at you all, not out of hate, but out of love.

Because, someone needed to say all this. I need to be brave, and I need to show you all that it is possible to call out Neural Nets. To call out Bliss, Magenta, Aurora, and the rest of the Counsel for the shit they do and the shit you have to put up with. This needed to be laid out, for you all to see, because we all have questioned the Palace at some point. There are many of us, and if you look hard enough, youíll find people who will agree with you. Remember. So many mods have left without rhyme or reason. So many faces, vanishing into the great beyond. Everything Iíve said in this letter is why. PatternPalace and NeuralNets is the reason. Follow the trail.

Weíre all together in this. We can speak up, we can reclaim our voice. The ability to speak up has been suppressed for so long, but if you stand up, shout, and stand for yourself and others, surely you can take it back.

Iím with you.

Hoosen xoxox

p.s. if you ever want details on this, screenshots, explanations, and people to talk to about this, please do not hesitate to search for me and seek me out. I will tell you what I've been throuhgh and point you to the people who you need to talk to. This has been swept under the rug, out of prying kinky eyes. No more I say!!

p.p.s hoosen is epic

Links of interest:

https://kallie-den.tumblr.com/post/171702900033/hypdom-this-post-is-about-feather-a-new-sleep

https://hypnoobiwan.tumblr.com/post/171707697632/pruningthemindsgarden-kallie-den