some people just do not get it, but I do..bro I take pain pills to make me happy because life can be so rough...people who saying you smoke because you gay dont realize your at a tough point in time where identity is everything.

It takes the stress and pain away for awhile, I know and it makes you feel happy, because otherwise in a clear head life is hard...but it isnt the way...(im sorry im breaking into tears right now cause things are so hard for me 2 cause of family issues) but heres the deal bro, you have to stop...you can quit all of a sudden(but most likely wont help), do it less and less cause if you go cold turkey...it wont work..if you doing it on your own that is..now rehab is a good option but what 17 year old wants to go to rehab.

Bro tell your mother you just have a hard time dealing with life and feelings she will ask why but you dont have to say "Im Gay" just say I wanna be happy, and no matter what I do it isnt workin, or I want to have a good life..something life that, give it away withought giving it away. Just let her know things are tough, and also what you need is to find a good friend you can be yourself with. I tell my secrets to people online because i get what I have to say off my chest, but yet if they tell someone it dont matter cause they dont know me and their judgement doesnt matter...or if you need a real friend just find someone and make sure you can trust them.

I know life can be hard but I need help for my pain pill thing to...and Ima do my best to get it...but yeah I wish you the best

Dont listen to these people who say come out now...NO you owe no one any explanation you are what you are, and you dont have to explain yourself to anyone. You do what you want when your ready and until then just find something that helps you express yourself and takes the stress and pressure off like me...I write poems and stories and it helps me.

I wish you the best bro.