Sometime during this saga Roy’s father overdosed on pain pills. Because my friends and I were there, and had some personal stake in the matter, the drama fell to our limited powers of organization. We brought the skateboarding priest to the hospital so that he could administer the Anointing of the Sick but, as Roy’s father was unbaptized, we had to content ourselves with petitionary prayer. He died, and we began to arrange his funeral, booking a priest, calling funeral homes, securing obituary pages, and contacting his friends and relatives. We procured a suit for the dead man and a suit for Roy; both, Roy assured me, had never worn one.

We became, to my annoyance, “all things to all people”: chauffeurs, event-planners, and small-change fundraisers. If we had had the money, we could have paid for other people to handle Roy’s rehab and his father’s funeral. As it was, we had to get our hands dirty, asking for help with every part of the process. Cash-poor projects rely on the virtues of faith, hope, and charity, or they crumble. The desire to change the world with some practical Christian action, coupled with an objective lack of capital, forces you to gather your friends, to learn the skills you lack, to beg for the materials you cannot afford.

When I arrived at the funeral home, our priest was nowhere to be found. I was the only one besides the corpse wearing a suit. (Roy, it seemed, had managed to sell his.) I was given a wide, reverent berth. Mothers hushed their babies when I walked by. A fellow in a Steelers jersey apologized for cursing in front of the casket. I realized, with increasing horror, that for most of the attendees, the presence of a suit at a funeral indicated the presence of a preacher. The funeral-home director thanked me for being there; an interested old man asked me which seminary I atttended. I started sweating, and called the priest. “You gave me the wrong address, man. I’m on the other side of town. I’ve got to say Mass in half an hour.”

“They sort of expect something.”

“So say something.”

“Okay, like what?”

“Say a psalm.”

So I approached the casket and read a psalm. Then, feeling inspired, I read the story of Lazarus and said a few words about our hope for the Resurrection of the dead in Christ Jesus. Looking up, I saw the tears in Roy’s eyes, and I knew that my words, mostly borrowed from Scripture, had proven somewhat effective. Looking down at Roy’s father, I saw—well, I saw my friend’s necktie. We had cobbled together a suit from whatever we had. I must have pulled the tie from the back of my closet without recognizing it. I briefly considered the scandal that would ensue if I untied it from the poor fellow and stuffed it into my pocket. No, that would ruin the good name of fake preachers everywhere. So I consigned my dear friend’s favorite tie to the fires of cremation, and gave the floor to the funeral director, who pointed the mourners in the direction of the snacks. Back in the dorm, I told my Eastern Orthodox friend what had happened. He gave me a long stare and then said, “I can’t think of a better way for it to go.”

I met Roy outside a gas station a few months ago. He was happy, out of prison, married, and huge. Heroin had robbed his body of substance—it took getting clean to reveal that he is, in fact, a linebacker. I asked him what he was doing. He said he was doing a lot of fishing. In words too colorful for print, he apologized for stealing our stuff and taking advantage of us. I told him I was just glad that he was better.

I often think of that semi-stolen tie, rising with the body of his poor, addicted father. It has become an odd symbol of the value of not having. Poverty forces you toward others even when you’re unequipped, and this communion is the real wealth of Christians. I need this reminder now, because I’ve gotten back into old habits. Our penniless project has become a non-profit with tax returns and grant applications, and I’ve started waiting again—waiting for donations in order to love my neighbor. The poor in spirit know better than me. Love your neighbor now, I hear them say, and your poverty will gather a community to itself, and whatever else you build, you’ll build the kingdom of heaven.