hey friends and fam! i am editing this to be more positive and less angry now that my brain is working better after some much needed rest, food, and empathy/love/light. i am currently healing from severe mental/physical trauma after a lifetime of institutional abuse at the hands of schools, western medicine/healthcare, and religious communities. over the last 6 months i have spent time being effectively homeless while experiencing a myriad of bizarre symptoms resulting from a cascade of psychiatric prescription drugs i was forced to take as a minor with a developing brain. here’s a link where u can learn a bit about what i’ve been experiencing the last few years: https://youtu.be/OMvM7XaM8UI i experienced nearly all of these symptoms and many more! it was horrific ... the side effects and withdrawal symptoms of dozens and dozens of psychiatric drugs i’ve been taking since i was 15 up until recently resulted in something similar to a traumatic brain injury, which absolutely nobody seems to know how to treat. so it’s been trial and error. i was placed on these drugs at an abusive residential treatment center called Alpine Academy, which uses brainwashing tactics based directly on cults to “modify the behavior” of teenagers who are kidnapped by hired professionals and can be locked up for absolutely any reason at all as long as somebody is paying for it. Alpine Academy is part of an elaborate network of similar programs known colloquially as the Troubled Teen Industry, or TTI. these programs are often very very damaging, and the most disturbing part is that our tax dollars are paying for them! here’s a short documentary about one such program: https://youtu.be/XZcUqK07Z7I and here is a 5 part series I was interviewed for that recently aired on NPR Illinois: PART 1: https://www.nprillinois.org/post/far-home-students-special-needs-sent-out-state PART 2: https://www.nprillinois.org/post/far-home-who-pays-price-out-state-placements PART 3: https://www.nprillinois.org/post/far-home-utah-makes-millions-troubled-teens PART 4: https://www.nprillinois.org/post/far-home-teens-get-literal-wake-call PART 5: https://www.nprillinois.org/post/far-home-no-easy-answers THANK U to the incredible Dusty Rhodes for her very very hard work, empathy, and dedication. and to Keagan Autry, another Alpine survivor for standing with me. healing from this experience as well as from protracted withdrawal syndrome (an iatrogenic illness - man-made illness caused directly by poor healthcare practices) has been absolutely insane, and i have been in and out of awareness, lost a lot of my faculties, and likely have done and said a lot of things I don’t understand, may not even remember, and likely didn’t mean... so, my apologies, and unfortunately i’m just gonna have to deal with cleaning up that mess later. i have been working very hard to honor what my body and brain need at any given moment, and to get my life back on track after hitting the lowest rock bottom i could have possibly hit... and i’m going to need a lot of help and support. anything you are able to donate and anything you can do to spread awareness for both the fundraiser and the industry malpractice i am working to expose is MUCH APPRECIATED. i will also need assistance in person with several tasks (in the san fernando valley), so if you are willing and ABLE to assist with any of that, please contact me! keeping up with phone calls, texts, and emails has been exceedingly difficult, and i lost most of my contacts, so please text or email me with your name if u want to help. [email redacted] is the best place to reach me currently if you don’t already have my number (had to set up a temporary email until i can transfer a lot of things over). if you reach me on social media i probably will not see it. i have been trying to avoid using technology unless i need to. currently am requesting that people do not ask me too many questions or for explanations, or offer unsolicited advice as it is exhausting i’m pretty aware of exactly what i need at this point and really need to just be able to delegate tasks to the right people and not have to think and work so hard. thanks in advance for ur patience. i’m truly trying my best... you can also venmo, cash-app, or paypal me. my username on all 3 is @avitalthealien - this actually helps me more in the immediate sense, because it’s instant, and i have not yet figured out how to transfer the funds i receive on this outlet. THANK U to anyone who has helped me along the way and to anyone who continues to assist me. it means a lot, and i’m very grateful, even though i have not always been the best at expressing that. thank u especially to my best friend in the entire world, Nico, who has stuck with me through EVERYTHING. she is my rock and i would not be here without her. LOVE AND LIGHT or whatever ✨✨ i am trying to be less of a raging bitch. stress kills! happy holidaze