i honestly cannot stop thinking about you.

what is wrong with me.

i don’t even see you as a potential lover

or even as a close friend,

everything feels so superficial with you

then why is it that i cannot stop daydreaming about you?

is it the hormones?

is it the distance that makes you oh so much more appealing?

or is it THAT cologne of yours?

the one i told you in my drunkenness that i really liked?

the one i smelled today on my way home…

the one i couldn’t stop inhaling because it

was so exquisite to my nose.

did that fragrance invoke so much of you

that it is driving me absolutely mad at this hour of the night?

it is like a strange hunger,

a desire to be close to you.

to touch your face.

yet every time i see you in person,

it all goes away, and i just want to have a

‘normal’ conversation with you and get on with my day.

yet later, at the end of the day,

i replay those brief moments i was interacting with you

and think of ways i could have been more attractive to you,

or more sassy,

or,

or,

something.

something that catches your eyes and makes me as irresistible

as those chocolate chip cookies you never say no to,

no matter how full you feel.

what is wrong with me?

seriously, what is happening.

all i want is to pick up the phone and call you,

and hear your stupid voice,

and your stupid laugh.

or is it me that is the stupid one?