My friend once called me & asked why do I keep posting things & making it look like I’m the happiest person on the internet? I told him, “You don’t understand. Can’t you see the issues beneath the colorfulness?” I didn’t have a better answer then but now I do. You see, I just really love color. The Googly Gooeys were supposed to be black & white but I ended up using all the colors of the rainbow anyway. Recently, I was working on some branding stuff for our portfolio. I initially wanted it to be black but the same thing happened.

I guess, it’s just safe to say that instead of representing happiness, the colors acutally represent my range of emotions. I always go through a rollercoaster of moods when I’m working on a project especially when I’m stuck with a design problem or I feel that what I’m doing is against my principles (i.e. being abused with n revisions). I thought I was the only one going through this. Thanks to a book I recently read Steal Like an Artist by Austin Kleon, he pointed out that every project has point where you feel it’s like the dark night (of the soul). Okay, I don’t think Sir Austin Kleon can actually vouch for my craziness but I guess it’s an enlightening & comforting (at least for me). 😛

To cure my version of depression, I would make it a point that if I’m not in the mood to work, I’ll just attend an exercise class instead of wallowing in my sorrows & asking myself why, why, why I’m not yet in the mood to finish all the pending work and that maybe R-E-S-T is just an invented concept and that we don’t really need to rest–we were built to work blah blah blah—and other obsessive thoughts. *Can you already imagine what Ponggo goes through every time I’m in this phase….every week or a couple of times a week?* 😛

99% of the time, I feel better after exercising 🙂 I’m usually a happier, calmer & more grateful person. I always feel as if my fats & toxins have left me and that I’m literally a stronger person! *Woohoo* I also end up having these ideal post-workout resolutions afterwards like changing what & how I eat and how I live my life but…

Yup, after a more than an hour’s worth of exercise plus buckets of sweat (Ponggo doesn’t even want to go anywhere near my gym clothes), I ended up having a yummy Banana-Nutella crepe last night. *Woops!* It’s like a total reset. I don’t know why I do this to my bodddyyy! It’s like I’m creating a file and deleting it over and over again. Gahhh…Oh well. Today’s another day & another chance to exercise…hopefully!

More stuff about food & dieting here:

I’m on a Diet!

The Salad Diet

Who says I’m not in shape?

If you are what you eat, then…

The Vicious Cycle of Dieting

Four Types of Hunger

Creative Excuses for Gaining Weight

Calorie Counting

Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs & Chocolates