"I love you, mom. I love you, dad I love you my dear, dear sisters. I love you my dearest friends. I love you all, and I will sacrifice everything for you. I am so sorry that I have kept you at a distance while this has happened. I want to keep you safe. I need to keep you safe. I do not know where my life will go from here. I do not think I will make it out of this unscathed and I am sitting here writing this, sobbing uncontrollably. In spite of all the pain that we have experienced, my family still tries to show they care, however possible. I have hurt them in this time of crisis, and that weighs upon me. I know that, despite our distance and our differences, I love my family and they love me. I do not want to be a martyr, but I will do that if that is what is necessary to make a statement."