Hey, I just want to say, I am sorry if I haven’t been able to tell you what I am saying when you flushed away the key of the bathroom, and you locked yourself in during all your puberty, but hey I was a kid, and I have been emotionally abused too. I just wanted to tell you, I don’t think you deserve less love because you are not like me, Ido think you should accept yourself for what you are, and this body competition/admiration doesn’t make any sense. We are daughters of different fathers, we do look different, this is not my fault, this is life, and yea, I am sorry you hadn’t a father, and I did, but this doesn’t mean I am more privileged, and I felt sorry when I was a child, I thought it was my fault been treated differently. When I was little I felt guilty because I couldn’t breathe for you and I would have liked to change your life, but I was 10 years younger than you, I had no power over it. Mum is disturbed, she is aggressive, and verbally violent, she can be awful, thinking she has the right to behave how she wants to behave, mum shouldn’t have been a mum, she’s nuts, and she confessed me why she is a nervous person, an abusive person is somebody who has been abused, I do think the government should take care of people before they get pregnant and see if they are doing alright with their mind to break this circle made of abuse, but we are here, and this is what happened, our family is disgusting, I feel sorry for everybody who was born.

Let’s change

I know it’s difficult to understand me and I know I can seem very distant and too closed in my world, very faraway from reality, but for me it’s hard to tell you I do love you, even though I felt mistreated by your suffering, I know it’s not your fault, and I am trying to process it, it’s very hard for me to accept things I don’t like, I am glad you decided not to have kids and try to cure your mind, if you do need anything, I am here, I am sorry for the way life treated you, we don’t choose our family. Sorry if you have been mistreated, don’t take it wrong, it’s not about your life, it’s just about life, we have no control over, I know you have been treated as a slave, this doesn’t mean you are a slave, it doesn’t mean your life is not important, we were born in the wrong place, but you can carry on, keep in mind that being a failure is not a failure, is an experience from which you can learn. Keep going, it is never too late.I love you, don’t be afraid of life; that bathroom is gone, you don’t need to lock yourself anymore, show me who you are, I will accept you, come to me, hug me, I have been missing a sister.