The AU of AU's: First, he is shot in Afghanistan (again). Second, he wakes on a boat. Third is pain, fourth is normalcy, fifth is agony and sixth is confusion. By the tenth, he's lost hope.

(Original prompt: "ECM!John gets hurt again, and ends up with a few more lives. By overwriting Stranger at the Gate!John and Behavioral Modification!John. " Thus, Watches 'Verse with Behavioural Modification and Stranger at the Gate, spoilers for everything. Prompted and filled here on livejournal. NOT an official continuation of any of these 'verses.)