Please do not upvote me at all, please upvote user Kayejazz. She deserves every bit of Karma and I deserve absolutely nothing.

I have been a terrible receiver of the gift. This holiday for me was hell. Tragedy literally struck my family in late September. Someone hit my brother with their car and ran away from the scene. My brother died a short time later. We did not get the news until 5 hours later.

This has been the first year in my 29 years that Christmas came and he was no longer there to celebrate it with. Same with Thanksgiving. I do not remember what I asked for but the Secret Santa wrote that I asked for a time machine. Although she/he did not get one she/he did the next best thing. She/he sent me a message and asked if there were any pictures of us. I said yes but I was hesitant. I am glad I finally sent her/him a link of my facebook so she/he could get the pictures.

Enclosed is three handmade drawings in pencil of a few of the best pictures all framed and under glass. I cannot post the entire picture because there is still a lot of legal things going on that I do not want to chance. I honestly shut down for the last 4 weeks. I rarely went out, I was mostly bed ridden, and I hardly want to move other than read reddit. I received the package but I was honestly afraid to open it because I figured it had something to do with pictures of my brother but at the same time I just could not handle the anxiety of it all. I am sorry Kayejazz, it was a very thoughtful and very appreciated gift, its just the whole circumstances that prevented me from rushing out and jumping for joy over it. But please whoever sees this please nominate her for any and all secret santa badges. She went above and beyond and she should deserve recognition. I am just sitting here crying while writing this.